#and i’m feeling really drained

[theblondehexgirl]

nobody cares but like. idk i’m not having fun in the tag at ALL the past week or whenever the leaks came out. everybody has a right to be angry and i absolutely am not giving those two writers any grace for how they wrapped up marwa’s storyline. but i guess i’m just frustrated that the things i love/seek out for escapism get tainted by real world things like racism & misogyny bcs of certain storyline implications (and obviously racism and misogyny exist in universe, but it was never something one has to actively think about in the context of the show.) and idk, it makes me feel fatigued and defeated bcs as a person of color i can’t just put the thinkpieces down and go back to living a life of white privilege, you know? this rant is going nowhere basically i’m just bummed that i have to think abt shitty things that affect me in the context of a show i rly love

#stupid dumb terribly articulated rant #and no one cares whatever like genuinely just need this off my chest #but lord am i tired #and i wish they’d never made that writing decision with marwa #i literally don’t even care about what nandor did like it’s genuinely just those two white men wriyets #like damn. i love coming on here to be happy abt this show #and now everything is so negative #and i’m feeling really drained #bcs 99% of my day i’m thinking about how i’m being perceived in any given situation as a POC #despite being very light skinned which is obviously a privilege #but regardless #it’s exhausting when these things inevitably make it into fandom discourse bcs of poor writing choices #and then i don’t have a place to be safe from it #and if ur comments abt the marwa thing are just gonna be performative then y’all can keep that #it’s truly just the implications of the way marwa went away #but again i still love the show deeply #and this one mistake doesn’t make it irredeemable #but i also cannot sit in the negativity bcs that’s something i already have to worry about on a daily basis #anyways #i’m rambling #talking to myself #wwdits #frustration

[oakiyo]

I can’t wait to get back into custom content and have creativity and ideas for new releases! Hopefully summer brings lots of cool themed collections some collaborations 🫶🏻☀️🍉

#feeling a bit drained of ideas at the moment #just not had time to think about sims really #I have literally 3 ish weeks left of uni then I’m DONE!

[0zzysaurus]

I miss my cat you guys

#do u guys miss Tonto too #I miss him #been thinking about him nonstop this week it’s been keeping me up and idk what I’m supposed to do about it #like he was a cat at the end of the day and I feel pathetic still like missing him this intensely #all I wanna do is talk about him n think about him and look at pictures and videos #and it’s getting really draining #but then I have to remind myself that it’s been like what #not even three months #and I’m allowed to feel this way #but I think if I talked about him and how much I love and miss him anymore than I already do people would get annoyed so fast #I just miss my baby #and it’s even more frustrating because last month I was mostly fine #and for most of this month I’ve been fine #it’s all a bit too much for me atm I think

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

I don’t usually like making posts like this, but I’d appreciate prayers! There’s nothing Bad going on in my life, but the past day has been very emotionally heavy and I have a pretty important thing I’ll be doing tonight/tomorrow, and I’m a bit worried that it’s gonna be too much for me to handle. So prayers would be very much appreciated, just that God can lead me through all this and give me strength <3

#aaaaaah #my post #the thing I’ll be doing tonight/tomorrow involves a LOT of socializing #which is a little AAAAAAA because I feel like I just recovered from the socializing/busyness of two weeks ago #I wasn’t expecting to be that drained and I wasn’t expecting it to take so long to mentally recover #but I did recover annnnnd now I’m just gonna be doing more socializing XD #(for those who aren’t aware I am a Major introvert and social situations take so hekkin much out of me) #so… yeah #I’d really really appreciate prayers that I can Make It lol #like I said there’s nothing bad going on! #just a few things I’m nervous about #thanks for reading this <3

[raventroll80]

Dinovember Day 9

Mournarch ghost/grass

The Jungle Monarch Pokémon

Legend says that a young boy ran off into the jungle so he would not become a burden to his aging grandparents. Years later he’d return to the village and gift his feathers to the girl he once loved in hopes she’d become a Pokémon like him.

#dinovember #dinovember2023 #pokemon #pokémon #fakemon #my art #I’m really happy with the shapes on this one #I might skip a few ways because I’m starting to feel a little drained atm

[whentherewerebicycles]

everything is good 😭 heartbeat picked up to 143 bpm which is solidly in the healthy range and I got to see it again 😭😭 baby is measuring its exact gestational age to the day which is perfect. she said that while of course nothing is guaranteed, I seem to be having a very healthy pregnancy and she thinks I should go ahead and schedule with an OB to start normal prenatal care.

^^ baby is the little seahorse on the left attached to the ring (the yolk sac)

#I feel like I could collapse #like physically I feel so drained goddd #I think in my heart I was really convinced it was going to be bad/worrying news #the post-u/s adrenaline crash is really something #IUI tag #edit: ok scheduled with a midwife for 9 weeks #so two weeks #my clinic said I could come in and get scanned again as often as I want lol so I may go in at 8 weeks too if I’m anxious #but I think I feel ok

[peculiar--princess]

Idk if anyone can relate but just need to vent..

Im so used to being alone & only having my bf to hangout with but sometimes I get lonely and wish I had girl friends to hangout with. I have friends I text but no one in real life to spend time with, do each others hair/makeup, go shopping, etc.

I know the simple answer is to make friends or go meet with the girl I met off of bumble Bff but I feel like my autism makes it so hard to make friends and have genuine connections and just sucks in general :(

#I’m really struggling to accept my autism the last few days because I realize how different it makes me feel #it makes me feel different than everyone and it makes it so hard for me to talk to people irk #and I’m so good at masking sometimes but it’s so draining .. I just want to be myself and have friends #:( #autism #coquette

[a-luran]

Lads, we made it 🎉

#I didn’t go fully flat to preserve some tissue functionality and in account of keeping some balance in my frame #I’m really happy with my decision and I feel a lot better #before the drains came out damn that fecking hurt #I had to spend two nights in hospital because once again anaesthetics are not my friends

[apollos-boyfriend]

urgh. i think they might steal my blood tomorrow

#icarus speaks #<- has an hrt-related appointment #i don’t mind it really. i never really had a fear of needles but especially after 4+ years on T. i’m used to them #it just Feels Weird. and takes way too long. just drain me faster

[chrollohearttags]

just woke up and already going back to sleep because I feel sick again. Was going to write and do a bunch of other business stuff but napping until work sounds better.

#cherry chats 🍒 #it really all does feel pointless rn #I’m kinda drained and haven’t done shit tbh #I think I have some type of flu or virus so that’s fun too #what stage of burnout and depression is this? #tw mental health #i guess idk #good morning though #we did write some sad ass self indulgent reiner angst bc we love pain

[chuluoyi]

i’m a bit low on the energy these days so sorry if i’m slow in answering asks :’) i promise you i read all of them, and i’m so happy to get the sweet messages and the brainrots🫶🏻 i’ll queue some answers every day i promise✨

#a lot is going on in my life now🥲 #and writing actually helps me to cope so i’ll still be here #but i’m feeling kinda drained each day between my job and personal life… #thank you so much for dropping by everyday🩵 #being here really makes me believe i’m not all alone🥺✨ #—chu’s ramblings 🗯️

[aceofstars16]

I’m not even sure how to phrase stuff, but mentally, spirituality, and emotionally (and physically if you count cold sores and being tired) I’m just…not doing great. I don’t really want to get out of bed in the morning, things I know I should be excited for, it’s hard to feel happy about. I’m just tired of being pushed down again and again, and I don’t have the care or energy to fight.

It started with church stuff, and that is the main reason I’m not really doing great again, but it was getting hard to motivate myself even before then, and now it just feels all pointless and I’m tired.

I don’t even know what to ask for prayer for because I feel so empty, but yeah, prayers appreciated I guess 🫠

#prayer request #I’m so tired of this #like two years of trying to work through stuff then what? four months (if even that) of doing slightly better #and then it all just breaks again #and I don’t feel like I have the faith to care or trust or believe anymore and I’m so tired of feeling like this #but I don’t have the strength to fight #I’m gonna sleep now but I’m just…really broken and empty and I don’t know what to do anymore #and it’s frustrating cause it’s little but the chosen sometimes did remind me of things and encourage me #but now it’s just like ‘oh more of the same kind of storytelling that I’m tired of’ #like the things that made it comforting and a breath of fresh air were flushed down the drain in s4 ep 3 #and sometimes I do okay if I’m drawing to just…distract myself but honestly that didn’t even help today

[dykeredhood]

Love how my choosing to see a therapist coincides with the 10 year anniversary commemorative Stucky mass hysteria event, that’s fun

#every time I bring up this unofficial tumblr celebration I’m gonna add more words to the name #ASIDE from my wanting to fuck the arm (which I’m not gonna bring up to my counselor lmao it’s irrelevant) #she was telling me: oh wow yeah that’s actually brave to strike out on your own and end up with your very own apartment & stable job etc. #I don’t see it that way??????? I don’t consider it particularly brave or tenacious it’s an obligation and I did what I needed to 💁🏻‍♀️ #and I brought up how I don’t consider myself a person more just a useful tool/someone else’s means to an end #it feels weird to do anything solely for me that’s more significant than getting something tasty to eat #also after our session I felt physically drained and emotionally wrecked for the rest of the day (a good 6 ish hours) #not even weirdly calm and empty just kind of lost and wrecked #I’ll have to tell her next time I don’t enjoy others pointing out when I’m crying #that didn’t really help my overall state #so in case there were any doubts about why I cleave to the Winter Soldier character like a limpet #oh I also said the word ‘nascent’ a bunch because I speak very precisely #no designated tag for all this just yet; we might get there so I have a chronicle #of my assorted feelings to look back on #rant in tags #personal

[ghoulfr13nd]

immmm really. not great rn

#im so tired #i dont know who to talk to #i tried distracting myself but it’s not really working #everything feels so dull #i hate my job. i’m tired. i want to go home #i’m at home. but. idk #it doesn’t feel like enough #idk what to do #i really seriously thought about just straight up quitting today #i just. feel so empty. and drained #i’m either stressed or i’m angry #but rn i just feel. like. white noise ig? #and i have been trying very hard to grasp onto anything #but nothing is really. doing it for me #haha anyway how is everyone else

[robotic-maid]

How things are going again… update I guess? Still can’t figure out how to read more on mobile. I’m just typing this out so it can leave my head.

#nights are really hard for me #mornings are also really hard for me #I think my jobs burning me out #and I haven’t been able to sleep very well much at all #I’ve only been getting 3-5 hours if I’m lucky because my nightmares are really bad so I usually just stay awake #I mean I have to get up at 4am anyway so what’s the point #do you know how it feels to be in pain but you can’t cry because your body’s grown so used to it? #so it feels like crying because it’s Wednesday again #which I can’t justify because tommorrow is Thursday and that is your new normal #your new normal is working so hard you don’t have the time to see your dog and your cars ac is out and you spend all your money on the room #you sleep in 15 minutes away from the office you are stuck at more than 11hoirs a day #you ask your job to adjust your schedule and they say they can’t without cutting your hours and you need the money to survive #it’s too much #but feeling this way or not feeling this way won’t make a difference because the only other options will make your living situation harder #I’m so tired but I don’t have any better options right now so I have to keep waking up and working #I feel horrible spending time with me friends because I get tired after an hour and I worry that I’ve become #too flaky or something #I can’t stay up late and I’m already stressed out so I just can’t keep up with everyone and I don’t want to be a drain #I wish my heart would just stop some times #my meds stop me from hurting myself or crying or sleeping too long but these feelings always come to me when I wake up #I’m disappointed I woke up again #I don’t want to keep doing this I don’t know how long I can keep going #my body is breaking down like my car is breaking down #I don’t want to keep doing this I need more than a day off work a week I want to see my dog I don’t want to be poor but I don’t want to #wake up just to spend all day in an office getting yelled at while my coworkers come in and leave before me #I know I can do this I know I need to keep doing this I know there’s nothing better for me than this #I shouldn’t say these horrible things out loud because they’ll just wear me down faster #there’s nothing that will help me I need to help myself #this is en endurance test and I need to keep it up because if I fail I will lose so much more than I have #I wish I could cry I wish I could break down and scream but what would be the point? it won’t help it won’t fix anything m

[bruise-doctor-md]

#this one i thought healed really cool #How the center drained and the outside remained #leaving a visually hollow space in the middle #evoking a contrast to the full feeling of the bruise as it happened #this was from a really solid messer strike to my thigh #i don’t wear thigh protection because I mostly spar for fun/improvement #and I thai boxed for years so getting my legs smashed is not that bad pain wise #and it’s a lot easier to regulate my body temperature without pants on. #although I think I had sweats on for this one #ps forgive my freshly plucked chicken looking legs #I’m not actually embarrassed but it is distinctly not aesthetic #i love how clearly you can see the profile of the muscle belly of my quadriceps #esp in the first photo #bruises are normal mapping but irl