#and i never know where to go from here

[poisonouspastels]

I feel like I vent too much on here, so I'm sorry for that. Life has just been a massive mental struggle for me lately and with a more major recent event happening (I don't want to go that much into detail) its been extremely hard and draining. Between that, my memory issues, seemingly something bad happening every other day, feeling more socially isolated from my friends, there's just a lot all at once and I'm never really sure how to cope with it. Art feels too hard most of the time now and when I work I just get angry at myself. I have a hard time reaching out to people and its worse when I'm up late and none of my friends are awake. I don't even know if they would consider me friends too sometimes. I feel like I talk a lot and fall on deaf ears. I feel like I love too much for people who would never care. I feel tired.

#the world isnt falling apart but it feels both slower and faster by the day #time passes too quickly because i cant remember it passing #but the days go by slow because i so often feel alone #its complicated #and i never know where to go from here

[tsuchinokoroyale]

Happy new years… let’s stay hydrated together ✨

#I didn’t end up going to the rave just stayed in with my buddies and had KFC (( Korean fried chicken )) and laughed til we cried so #it was still a wonderful start to the new year 💞🥰💞 #but the fwb wanted pics of my potential rave look so I figured eh I brought the stuff anyways #and now I’m imagining locking eyes with a stranger on the warm and writhing dance floor #the beat thumps and shakes and rattles the air in our breath as the spotlights dance in the reflections of our held gaze #he pushes his way through the crowd with a singular stare and a wicked smile on his face #I smile and turn my back on him arching myself so he knows I am giving what he’s looking for #I take careful steps through the revelry toward the edge where the crowd thins out #I prop myself up on an available stool in a lonely corner of the club as he closes the distance between us #“now I wonder why you dragged me all the way here” he utters in a playful growl “trying to get far away from the crowd?” #I smile and I nod. “obviously. can’t really do what I want with you out there” #his eyes perk up and his smile gives away the desire building inside him. “yeah? why don’t you show me then.” #“I thought you’d never ask” I smirk. I reach down into my pants and pull out my phone #“so this one is blue. he’s the oldest but he’s sooooo sweet. and that’s Eva. my only girl she’s sassy but she loves swea-” he leaves #whaddahell I say demurely whimpering even… whaddahell… #gpoy

[amaraudermind]

Anyone else ever thinking about the constant nightmares Dick was having at the beginning of his solo in the nineties(in which he was Robin again and trying to catch a little boy who’s face he could never make out and was always too late) that culminated in the fear gas induced hallucination issue wherein there’s another faceless young boy who eventually introduces himself as Jason

And the dreams were subsequently never brought up again

The closest we got was the hallucination he had in his secret files where he spent the whole time talking to Robin

Because I am. I am thinking about it a lot

#dc #dick grayson #jason todd #the amount that dick blames himself for jason's death while refusing to blame himself for it is astounding. #i think about it so often #because like. he is NOT like 'woe is me if i had only been there this never would've happened' he's not sitting here like #i killed jason. this is my fault. #in fact it's far from it. outwardly everything i've read from the nineties he refuses to think about or talk about jason at ALL #we get these weird isolated moments where the ghost of jason's presence is obviously HERE but even then dick isn't acknowledging it #'there's a boy falling. i never see his face. he's calling out. i never hear what he says.' #'this kid who brings the newspaper is just a kid. i don't know him.' #'i am talking to robin. just robin.' #everywhere you turn dick is surrounded by the idea of jason. he's haunted by him. #but he refuses to see it. he won't let it in #jason is gone and dick can't bring himself to think about it. won't let himself grieve. #lets the guilt he feels about not being around for jason and not knowing about what was going on and not being on the planet #and not letting himself think about the situation or jason at all. lets all of that guilt eat him slowly. lets it fester in his mind #because he can't acknowledge it. but everything he does is because of it

[quirkle2]

WITSU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#qkdraws #id in alt #listen man i tried with the effect but.i prolly failed VEAYVGA #the lines themselves r ok tho even if the effect doesn't fool ya #mob psycho 100 #mob psycho #mp100 #ritsu kageyama #mp100 ritsu #godilove him. i miss him. ritsu where did u go (nowhere he's right here) #honest to god forgot how i did the bg i stole it from one of my older wars pieces i never finished #meant to do smth similar there but i never got around to drawing the rest of him. sad! #the idea lives on through the beloved only-slightly-insane ritsu kageyama #this is a screencap redraw i guess. from ep uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #s1e8 <3 you'd think i'd know by now without checking with how many times i've watched it #his hair is fun to draw :) swoopy

[oceanwithouthermoon]

ive come to realise that i dont actually hate kubokai, i just hate the way people write them

#sorry i read like two cute in character kubokai fics and im enjoying it now #theyre cute and im a closeted shun kinnie so. obviously i will ship him with my crush from the show. #i just really really REALLY hate the super cliche seme uke dynamic people usually give them #those people have NEVER watched the show.. my boy shun is NOT like that #its sooo stereotypical and they obviously give shun the role of 'the girl' in the relationship which is. um. ew #'shun is so fragile and innocent and uwu and he needs big strong aren around at all times to coddle him' #'and aren has a soft spot for shun and shun only and only shun can stop him from being totally murderous and dumb' #do yall know that one scene from the kissing booth #where elle is like 'NOAH! LOOK AT ME! THIS ISNT YOU! LOOK AT ME' when hes about to beat the shit outta his brother #thats how kubokai gets written usually #'aren pwease nevew fight again🥺pwease? fow me?' #me reading anything kaido says in most fics: HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT #sorry #people can write whatever they want its just. so ooc. #canon them is soooo bromance core #im sorry idk why im posting negative shit again when i like JUST said i wasnt going to do this anymore LMAO #not a callout post about anyone on here obvi- actually reading more recent fics from people on here is whats gotten me more into them #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #kuboyasu aren #kaido shun #kubokai #meows post

[demynom]

The thing about the ffvii remakes is that you will enjoy them more if you’ve played the original. You will also hate them more if you’ve played the original. It is impressive.

#I’m never going to be over shinra manor. everything about it sucks ass in rebirth. #where’s the ambience. where’s the suspense. where’s the literally anything. #oh wow cool you’ve put a clusterfuck of furniture everywhere to show the disrepair….cool…? oh you’ve blocked off the stairs. #oh you’ve added. a pristine elevator. #directly next to the entrance. #to ferry you to the plot. #me foolishly: ah maybe in the return visit there will be more #no. #go to the elevator. #endure the worst mini game goofy ass dungeon you’ve ever had the displeasure of experiencing #they quite literally sucked every bit of atmosphere from nibelheim on a level I did not know was possible. holy shit. #like I’m just. in awe. #they don’t even pretend to make it unsettling. they’re just like ‘yup and here’s beloved nibelheim where things are generally chill’ #like. they didn’t even do a bad job of portraying the Incident. so why then did they decide to remove all nuance. #WHY IS THERE A HOJO HOLOGRAM THERE TO TAUNT YOU. #Ffvii rebirth spoilers #ffvii #ffviir #final fantasy vii

[accursedvoid]

#wishful thinking that it might but if it does OH BOI THE ONE FEARING #Danny phantom #Danny phantom agit #a glitch in time #Danny phantom a glitch in time #not spoilers but idk? should I tag? #my faith in studios running franchises is in negatives i realky worry that if DP ever came back to the screen #that this is what would happen which would endlessly frustrate me bc the comic is GOOD and I wanna see where it’d go from here gdi #part of me is like ‘man I miss Dp on screen’ but the other wolf in me post-agit release is like ‘ONE FEAR’ #accursed posts #I am very sceptical it would revive it but you never know #I’d be happy with a revival via more comics that follow this storyline though! #the ultimate good timeline is a new cartoon that follows the comics set up but yknow that’s very wishful thinking but I can dream

[hella1975]

born to write fanfiction forced to go to pilates

#WHAT IS HAPPENING. HOW DID I GET HERE #THIS IS NOT MY SCENE I SHOULD NOT BE HERE OR WHATEVER THE WOMBATS SAID #no hate to pilates itself im acc very pumped for it but the entire setting of a gym TERRIFIES me #but the uni is running a bunch of shit for women’s month and one of the events is this where they’ve booked the gym #and for 3 hours for free you can just go to different sessions #and me and my mate saw ‘free’ and didn’t look back like one thing I love about us is We Will Just Try Shit #and now im here in athleisure kit. no cargos in sight #I actually can’t remember the last time my outfit was so streamlined I feel naked rn #only plus is I’ve somehow got a decent fit like I had a real moment of secondary school PE class thinking I was gonna #be looking around feeling shitty and out of place for not having The Branded Shit but somehow I’ve acquired stuff #leggings from my old flatmate who IS a gym girlie meaning im twatting about in GYMSHARK LEGGINGS LIKE SOME SORT OF POSER #I feel like im going to dance classes again this is so. this entire thing feels on the edge of nostalgic and generally just WEIRD #I feel like the Cool Girls will be there I feel like they will know there is something Fundamentally Off about me and I’ll never know what #BUT OH WELL. DO IT SCARED #hella goes to uni

[coconut530]

BITTERSWEET REUNIONS

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #WOW WHAT A RETURN!! I KNOW THE HIATUS WASN’T THAT LONG BUT DAMNNNNN!!! ALSO RIP TO OUR 5 COIN STATUS #ANYWAY MORELLA SNAPPING ADA BACK.. IT’S SO CRAZY HOW HER PARTICLES WERE ALL OVER THE ROOM #CAN SPECTRES LIKE UPGRADE THEIR POWERS BC IT LOOKS LIKE ADA DID THAT #WILL BBY SORRY FOR CHOKING YOU AND DAMNNNNNN LENORE FOR FORCING HIM OFF AND TELLING 👏🏼 HIM 👏🏼 OFF 👏🏼 GODDAMN LOVED THAT #AND THEN ADA AND MORELLA FIGHTING!! MORELLA SHOUTING IS AMAZING! AND IT NEVER OCCURED TO ME THAT ADA DEFLECTS HER BLAME IT’S CRAZY #SICK OF PLAYING WITH PHONIES!! EPISODE 7!!! CALLBACKS!! AND NOW MORELLA COME TO THE MISFITS FULL TIME PLZZZZZ #OOP DUKE YOU GOOD? OK OH UH YEAH IT’S BEEN A BIT WITH YOUR SPECTRE ALSO UR POWERS MADE ADA GO OUT OF CONTROL SO 😬 #GIVING HIM HIS JACKET AAAAAAA! THE COIN AAAA! EULALIE AAAAAAAA! DUKE CATCHING HER AAAAAAAAAA! PLUTO BLUSHING AAAAAAAAAA! #WELCOME TO ANOTHER EP OF EULA’S AMAZING FACTS #BERENICE! GROUP HUG!!! THEY’RE ALL SO WHOLESOME I CAN’T I’M SO GLAD THEY’RE ALL TOGETHER AGAIN! BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER! #wait just realizing something did duke’s spectre heal his bruises? interesting #PUT ME BACK IN THE WALL HAHAHAHAHA #And the two of them scoping out the mess #YESSSSS YOU GOTTA BEG SIR! BEG FOR YOUR PLACE AND YOUR LIFE! REAL TEST OF -FAITH- LIKE THE LAST EP ALMOST #DAMN WE BACK EVERYONE SO EXCITED TO MAYYYYBE FINISH OFF THE SEASON??? IDK WHERE WE GO FROM HERE I ASSUME EP. 100 #BUT YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[jout--jout]

every now and again i think of that ghost!laudna au where she haunts imogen’s home and interacts with her as if she were alive and waits for imogen to come home every day and then i cry a little

#imodna #where have you gone beloved #pls return from war #was it a one shot? was it a multi chapter? i’ll never know #i dont even remember who wrote it but if you go here pls know that fic has me by the throat #if someone has the link pls drop em in the comments cuz i also didnt bookmark it #im very smart #oh well

[artofapeach]

Actually laughing so hard, Pav truly is a poor little meow meow, doomed by the narrative, 100% asshole, fuck your redemption you bitch

#anyway *continued making my lil comic where he does get redeemed* #I do appreciate that Miro seems to avoid more complex fanwork if only to keep it from his own vision #really that’s SUCH a good thing to do (especially for legal reasons) and not a lot of indie creators know to do that #but it also just makes me more comfortable delving into a fan world w/o the fear of accidentally insulting or affecting the original writer #I love miro’s world and want to see more of his vision even if it doesn’t match with my theories and headcanons #but I also love my theories and headcanons and wanna play with them as much as possible #best way to do that is for creators to NEVER SEE ME PLEASE #IM SORRY WHEN YOU GIVE ME A LOSER LIKE PAV IM GONNA HIT HIM WITH THE GOOD GUY BEAM ITS NOT YOU ITS ME #anyway here’s hoping we see more asshole pav in the future because umm yes please 🤲🏽 #fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #fh pav #art #I guess #barely #more like me going on an adhd ramble and the art’s just kinda there

[blueskittlesart]

profs will set the due date for the final as april 24 and then STILL NOT HAVE THE FUCKING ASSIGNMENT UP TO SUBMIT THE PAPER BY 11PM ON APRIL TWENTY FUCKING THIRD

#ALEC. BESTIE. PLEASE. I AM BARELY PASSING YOUR CLASS AS IT IS I NEED YOU TO WORK WITH ME HERE #i feel the need to explain the level of bullshit that has been going on with this particular final actually because holy shit. #he first told us about it about 3 weeks ago which. fine. but all he said was 'you will have to pick a topic and write a paper' #like nothing about what the topic should relate to how the paper should be organized word count etc. literally nothing #radio silence for 2 weeks. we all forgot about it. then out of the blue 'btw your papers are due in a week lol!' #so we all scramble to figure out what the hell the assignment actually is #come to find out he never actually posted the assignment brief on canvas as an assignment. the only way we can access it is via a pdf #linked in ANOTHER UNRELATED ASSIGNMENT. #the project brief in question describes several in-class activities we straight up have not done. #no one actually knows if it's really due tomorrow or next week because he keeps pushing shit back and DOESNT ANSWER EMAILS #but the date on the syllabus is the 24th. and there is still nowhere online where we can submit our papers at all. #jesus fucking christ in heaven #personal #he is going to be getting a. shall we say INTERESTING professor review from me. lmao

[cattons]

emerald fennell will get on her zoom and say [posh voice] Nooo no darling the rich people are the worrssstt. You’re supposed to side with the povvo. referring to the 130 minute film she helmed in which a family of prejudiced but loveable aristocrats are murdered and usurped by an upper middle class lunatic

#saltburn #i truly cannot figure her out #insight into her relationship with her own class perhaps #read an interview where she said she’d ‘never get a look in at a place like saltburn’ #(which is hilarious considering she called in a favour from a friend at Tatler to let her borrow this exclusive country manor for her movie) #and she’s repeatedly acknowledged her own privilege #but never without further rambling about how embarrassed she is to be posh #so now i’m like okayyy. are you oliver #i have at least 5 different theories about her message here i could go on all day #but probably just an underdeveloped mix of her own ignorance & love for plot twists & lack of clarity about oliver’s motivations #i’m likely putting more thought into the class themes in this than she did #ok sorry for the drivel i don’t know anyone eager to talk about this like i am and i had to get it out #u wouldn’t know by the way i speak of it but i gave this movie 4.5 stars on letterboxd #and a heart

[sysig]

Shapes never felt so good (Patreon)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Wander #Sylvia #Lord Hater #Ahhh ♥ Finally the results of my scribbly warmups coming to fruition #I wanted to make a comparison of how on-model I could get everyone first - thus the doubles from the last set as well #Yeah some of those were meant to be a bit wilder....like I said those were my warmups lol here's where things started getting good #It was still an uphill battle but Wander was where I broke - after his big ol' pile'a sketches anyhow. They weren't quite what I was after #But after a point I just got double mad and started making up weird shapes! #And ended up happy with them :D #He looks quite different but I rather like all those aspects of him haha #Squinty eyes and claws and sharp teeth and a bit of a mullet haha #He's a hippy he deserves a mullet as a treat #And a pipe for good measure #And then if Wander was fun Sylvia was on another level <3 #She has something of a Thraddash thing going for her which was not what I intended especially since I've never drawn a Thraddash #But I mean I'm not mad about it lol the Thraddash are pretty cool :) #I think her bottom lip is the real deciding factor there - it's a cool overlap shape! Very shape! #And I know she's got a comb but fluff was too fun not to try fjdsklafd #I do really love how Wander hugging her turned out there haha <3 They're so cute #And finally a differently stylized Hater! Heck! The sharp cheekbones sticking out from his hood is so fun to me haha #And I'm quite pleased with the how the little divot under his chin's shading turned out hehe #I haven't shown off much of my Skeleton Dance stuff which is a shame! They're so fun! So feel free to interpret that one how you like #I had that image of Wander leaning on a running Sylvia very strong so I'm glad I was able to do it ♪ Buddies

[xysidhequeen]

Did Jason open up his trauma to Jazz? Since she is the group team mom

Oh my Ancients, yes. She cracked that boy open like a walnut. It took a bit, but Jazz reminds him somewhat of Barbara and Harley, so he warmed up to her fairly quickly overall. She really taught him what it's like to have a big sibling(sorry, I love Dick but he was a shit older brother before Jason died).

Jason will talk to Jazz about things he'd never say to anyone else. He actually opens up to Ember and Kitty too, but they're more for when he wants someone to cry with and to have get all enraged on his behalf. Jazz is who he talks to when he wants to fix it.

It wasn't always like that. He had to learn how to differentiate. Had to learn when he needed help, when he had things that needed to be fixed. He had to unlearn the emotional constipation and phobia of talking about his feelings he learned from Bruce too. But Jazz is used to dealing with teenage boys who won't admit they're hurting even on pain of death. She's good at subtly working their pain out and helping them confront it. (She learned a lot from helping Danny and from her Psych classes so she's more crafty about it too)

Jazz is one of the biggest reasons Jason is as stable and emotionally healthy as he is. He's not healed completely. He won't be until he gets closure with Bruce and the Joker. And there's some things that will always stick around. Trauma leaves scars. But without Jazz, we wouldn't have the Jason we do in TKAHRK we'd have someone far closer to the Jason from UTRH.

#zee answers #dp x dc #danny phantom #dc x dp #dpxdc #dp x dc crossover #the king and his red knight #the king and his red knight au #tkahrk #tkahrk au #jason todd #Jazz is a QUEEN and a GODDESS #shes a fucking miracle worker #I also mention in the story she helped him settle on his vigilante name. they went through weeks of discussing it #arguing over reclaiming a name and if it would trigger him and if the message was worth it if he was only picking it for revenge #or to hurt Bruce. Jazz was hughly critical and really made Jason THINK about it. they settled on the name and i explained why #But Jazz knows everything. more than even Danny knows about Jason. Jazz is the person Jason cant keep secrets from and never does #Jason is a mama's boy but Jazz is his mom here. #honestly tho if Jazz ever meets Bruce or the Joker in a dark alleyway its going to be on SIGHT she will throw all the hands #like she honestly HATES the Joker for what he did and Bruce is skating on thin fucking ice where shes concerned #hahahaha bruce run when she finds out that Tim is being negelected and you didnt notice

[mooblybloom]

"You smell of death…" that was the first thing he said to Robbie when he met the boy from gravity falls and God's what chaos that would unfold for him…

Because through Robbie Danny met the pines twins and wasn't that a Pandora's box to open, because if Robbie smelled of death these two reeked of it

Which was concerning considering from the looks of it they couldn't be much older than he was (at least in human years) no older than 21 maybe 22.

It was one thing to smell of death, like Robbie. that was normal, he grew up in a funeral home, he was exposed to a lot of death in his short little life. But reeking of death? That created a whole new picture cause reeking of death was different and then smelling of it reeking of death means you came to him with very close calls.

That the strings that the three fates held in their aching ancient old fingers frayed a bit at the edges but never fully broke.

Coming to a realization Danny surveyed the three children (because they were children his hypocrisy be damned these kids were just fledgling birds in his mind legal drinking age? screw that!) in front of him. He came to a decision as the official god of death King of all gods of death he would no longer take orders from the fates he would no longer take souls from bodies just cause he was told to.

If frayed edges led to the deaths of children then he wouldn't follow their rule and that was when the war between fate and death began

#danny phantom #danny fenton #dp #ghost king danny #Danny is the god of death #like the king of all gods of death #why? #cuz I'm a 16-year-old with no originality #I'm sure we're all aware of that really popular comic #The one that inspired this #y'know #The one where Robbie meets Danny as a creepy mute ghost…? child…? cryptid…? thing… #anyway I've never ever thought of GFXDP fandom crossover but here it is coming to me at 1:00 a.m. #gravity falls #DpxGf #…? #gravity falls & Danny phantom crossover #I'm going to be honest I don't know which repressed emotion this is coming from? #i'm going to bed now #I'll edit this later #I promise #…Maybe…