#and i don't want a penis

[mr-mustache-penis]

i hope my inner child knows i'm trying to heal him :/

#personal #i was trying to heal the eldest daughter trauma first but those two are interwined #because i should have been born a boy #it took way too long to reach that conclusion but i think there was always a part of me that was trying really hard to be a cis woman #identifying as nonbinary helped a little but i kept pushing myself into the feminine box #i'm not sure how i'm going to go about transitioning outside of taking testosterone because i haven't even gotten myself a binder yet #and i don't want a penis #it's so much. so so much #thankfully my therapist is back from being injured and i have an appointment with her next week so we can dissect all my feelings #if you read all of this ily ❤️ i just needed to vent #delete later

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Welcome to the Dungeons of Fear and Hunger.

#Fear and Hunger #D'arce Cataliss #Cahara #Ragnvaldr #Enki Ankarian #Unlike Dungeon Meshi - I cannot in good faith recommend this game to a broad audience. #My background with F&H goes as follows: I am hanging out with a friend. He says “hey try this game I've been playing.” I say “Okay!” #I have never heard of this game. I pick the mercenary. I go through 5 min of character history and background. I am mauled to death by dogs #It took me 4 resets to even get in the dungeon. But I finally get there. I am caught by a guard. He cuts off all but one of my limbs #I am forced to crawl around in a blood and corpse pit until the game tells me 'give up idiot'. #I reset. I am mauled by dogs again. I realize this is not for me but I am intrigued enough to go home and watch some playthroughs #And WOW what an interesting game it is! I really do appreciate games that blend their design philosophy with the theme it wants to set #This is a game about fear and hunger. And persevering. And penis (my god is there a lot of penis) #I recommend this to people who like extremely challenging games and can handle the many *content warnings* within this series #If the idea of Bloodborne/eldenring and undertale having a little RPG maker baby sounds appealing to you - give it a shot #It's made by ONE GUY and it's a great horror game. I am just really bad at it. #My friends just enjoy putting me in situations where I scream and yell. We don't talk about the corn mazes. Or the other horror game nights #Apparently I'm funny when I'm Scared! #As people who follow me on twitter might know; I am deep in the pits of this series right now. I will be back with more art.

[unboyfriendable]

being a trans man who does not want a penis is great actually and very good and if you are one such man I will have you know we are no less men than men born with penises or men who want penises and dont have/get surgery to obtain them ❤️❤️ less dysphoria for me thanks

#unfortunate side effect is that i forget the penis is a real thing #like wtf do you mean cis men don't have a vulva... #get penised if you want to obviously. i love all of you okay #trans #trans man #transgender #transmasc #penis mention #tw penis #i love tagging tw penis like lol what

[gay-otlc]

If you use afab/amab as a noun I am biting you. Same goes for if you use it as shorthand for anyone with a certain type of body. Being assigned a gender is something that happened to a person when they were born, not something they inherently are, or something that gives meaningful information about what their body is like now.

#like if you say 'amab genitals' or something. get over yourself and say penis ffs #there are people who were amab who don't have penises and people who were afab who do have penises #so 'amab genitals' gives no information other than what someone's genitals looked like when they were a baby #which is not relevant and also kinda weird #and then if you say something like 'afabs' i want you to shut up forever #gender

[tetrabytez]

when you dont have access to polls yet

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│ bing bong │

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│ kung pow penis │

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#ay fuck ya life #bing bong #kung pow penis #polls #poll #im trying my best #i really want to make a poll but I don't fucking have access #cri #meme

[erigold13261]

GENDERFAE PENI PARKER!!!!!!!!!

*nods* Genderfae Peni Parker!

#spiderverse #nsr #no straight roads #peni parker #eriverse #eriarts #crossover #it's been a bit since I did a pride drawing like this #it's also the main reason i might not have answered #other pride hcs #because i want to do something like this #i just KNOW doing these burns me out #because of past experiences #let's hope they don't burn me out too quickly this time!

[swaglet]

if you use an account to post anything on the internet that isn't pictures of you in your underwear, you should be legally barred from using that account to post pictures of you in your underwear

#i was looking at marine creatures and then i saw a penis bulge in lacy underwear. the person didn't even look bad i just #don't want to fucking see that at the same time i'm looking at literally anything else #if i asked to see it it'd be a pic i fw heavily but for making me see it against my will while looking at critters... EXECUTION!! #>

[tinfairies]

Damn ya'll ever have the most unsatisfying orgasm ever

Like damn, I jizzed but for what? I don't feel better.

#tin talks #It makes me mad too because I want a penis and I don't have one and that's all I was thinking about

[gallifreyan-ginger-sociopath]

I have written two fics in two days.

TWO DAYS.

This movie broke me.

Send help.

(and prompts)

#lisa frankenstein #also does anyone want to beta #because i definitely just traumatized my best friend with the phrase 'to stitch on the penis he stole from her crush' #and I don't think she's going to beta for me anytime soon after that #for the record that sentence was not in the fic it was just the quickest way I could describe the scene to someone who hasn't seen the movi #she doesn't like horror but I love her anyway #but forreal though anyone who won't be traumatized by that shit and is just as crazed for Creature as I am hmu #I need a beta reader to shriek incoherently at about ideas

[karmaphone]

anyway I think people are missing the point of the movie where Barbie becomes human and gets a vagina. she never had a choice about becoming human - that much was clear from the Weird Barbie heel/Birkenstock gag (and echoed in her 'choice' to become human - she was feeling and experiencing personhood anyway before she was offered a 'choice') what was also clear is that this is a growing up movie about Becoming Aware Of Things, like becoming aware of the patriarchy and how you're behaving affects other people, especially under that framework. growing up you absolutely wish you could go back to not thinking and floating in this dreamland of childhood safety, but you try to return to that only to find it in ruins, infected by a disease you weren't even aware of before. 'haha being a human woman means getting a pussy and that's a bad message to send' is a baby-ass analysis of it and you know it. growing up also means becoming aware of your genitals - and what it means to take care of them properly, especially in a society that doesn't want to talk about your genitals or put in proper efforts into caring for them

#Barbie spoilers #I've NEVER seen a movie say 'gynecologist' like that without it being the butt of a joke - ie I have to go see my gynecologist bc since I #started sleepin with my new boyfriend I've been Super Itchy Down There *cue canned laughter* #obviously it was meant to be humorous 'haha Barbie's first trip to the gynecologist how funny' but like. it's a little different from the #portrayals of gynecologists in popular media that further stigmatize the real jobs they do in keeping ppl w vaginas healthy #also personally I liked the trans reading of the movie. there's even trans jokes in it (I don't have a vagina and he doesn't have a penis) #what's not trans abt a (fake but still real) choice in deciding who you want to be and acquiring genitals to match that?

[subsequentibis]

my power is unlimited. mouthful of coffee started going down the wrong pipe and i coughed it all back in the cup

#ignore me #between this and penis phone image i'm really testing the limits of how much people want to follow me today #in other news i'm thinking about enforcing a soft 18+ ruling #i'm not gonna comb thru my whole follower list blocking minors but i may block any new followers under 18 #especially because. sigh. people from a space i used to be in keep following my main bc i don't post in that space anymore #a lot of them are kids too and i just don't know how comfortable i am with that given the stuff i'm getting into lately #sorry junior i wanna post cannibalism on here so just. come back later ok

[watermelinoe]

people on here will say that bi people experience homophobia but then get mad when bi people say they experience homophobia

#and my solution to that is still the word biphobia btw #i just don't like saying that my experience is homophobia #bc even if i'm assumed to be a lesbian (which happens) my experience is that of a gnc penis-repulsed bisexual woman #and i know the girls who were uncomfortable w me growing up would've felt the same whether i was gay or bi #but it's not really how you're perceived that matters. it's what you are #so like if you want to call my experiences homophobia then you have to be ok with bi women calling our experiences homophobia #but it's obvious that people don't actually want bi people to do this

[sagittariangirl27]

This reminds me of one of my first tumblrs. I started with erotic art, and ended up finding myself. I will be back here soon.

#ok a couple things #not scrolling yet #because I don't wanna get sad #BUT #well for one everything looks like a penis to me right now omggg #I have used my vibe a couple times but mostly I just sit in the feeling #also #I fucking forget how much I LOVE this industry until I get back into it #why do I DO this!? #I just got my boudoir photos back #they are so good #we slapped that shit together and I was a hot mess and they still look fantastic #it's really cool that we used the vintage camera and that they were developed by hand #I've almost gotten to the excited anticipation stage #I've never felt this disconnected #I wonder if my telepathy worked #lol #I am doing all of the things #because I know that's what he would want me to do #and for me too #but fuck I miss that man more than anything #I have really learned to be truly alone #good news is I like myself #so that's cool #bad news is that I need to feel like a hot girl again #that's only bad news because do you know how much work it takes to be a hot girl!? #but it's my favorite thing to do in the world #I have come full circle back to self 🧘🏼‍♀️💋

[automatonknight]

made a creeper like. charm a while ago and i want to make it into aaaaaa necklace. and i was thinking of maybe adding some like. fun phrases to it and strong contendents are: we like explosions. which is the best song ever made. buuut if it said penis explosion it'd be really funny because i'm a high schooler

#the more i think about it the more i want it to say penis explosion (sorry DEVO....). if someone asks what's written on it i'll run #straight into traffic #wearing that and the jarate pin for maximum umm idk. please don't ask me what that means energy #ORR. OR! creeper and awww man on the other side of the charm

[officialpenisenvy]

you guys know i have what i can charitably call. Very Complex feelings about my own gender and presentation. but one thing i know and love about this bitch of an earth is that there's cis women with absolute washboards for titties. just nothing going on in the chest department not even a hint of a swell. which sincerely gives me so much hope for my ideal future presentation of "masculine woman with a flat chest who can easily be mistaken/pass for a guy"

#im neither a man nor a woman inside but i don't see the point in doing the wishy washy gender metaphysics ~feelings~ talk for myself #i don't FEEL any which way. i know what i WANT which is 1) to exhibit some degree of maleness and 2) to belong in the lesbian dating pool #well ideally i also want a penis but it doesn't rain phalloplasties around here. but yeah back to my point #so yeah an option i have found that preserves some degree of social “acceptance” as well as fulfills both of my wants is to get top surgery #and just live life as a quite masculine flat-chested woman. and if i change my mind and decide to transition i will cut them off anyways so #i also want to microdose black market T simply because it feels like a fun story to tell. haha that time i bought testo from roidbazaar. yk #but that's not AS important as getting the girlies out of the way.

[tinfairies]

Puter show me the fastest way to get a penis.

Without taking testosterone or getting a surgery

...

PUTER DO YOU HEAR ME??

#tin talks #It's been one of those weeks and my period is not helping #I also have imposter syndrome because I don't want to be a man so why do I want a penis? #Some bullshit #Fuck gender