#and i am very much not a writer cuz words are hard!!!!

[meamiiikiii]

a star being appeared in your apartment, wdyd?

(aka loop getting reverse isekaied into the modern office au)

also there are some scattered mumblings on loop in this AU under the cut if anyone's interested (spoilers for all of ISAT, including 2hats!)

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TLDR - The Universe keeps fucking with Loop and they are not really happy about it, regardless of timing.

While I haven't decided anything 100% concrete for Loop, the idea of a reverse isekaied Loop in general is interesting to me, so I'll be exploring that a bit here. Especially in terms of timing on when Loop gets taken out of their timeline. At least in terms of immediate outlook within this AU. So, for now, have a couple of those thoughts! 

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The two main points in time I am currently considering are the following:

1. From when they gave up their original wish and made a new one.

In this instance, I feel like their arc would play a bit similar to in game

Seeing this new world as different & peaceful

Since they don’t have to deal with the loops anymore, just watch whatever happens.

Be a lil silly for funsies! The chaos that can ensue with a star being existing within a modern world! 

Even though it hurts to see Siffrin’s team hanging around, they really don’t have anywhere to go at the moment (hard to hide a star being in this type of world)

To a slow realization of how unfair this whole situation is. In comparison to all of the horrors they went through, this Siffrin has it so easy.

This Siffrin gets to live an idyllic life, free from the world calamity of being frozen & the literal time loop.

This Siffrin gets to freely hang around their family team, with no foreseeable "end" to being with them in sight.

This Siffrin had their original wish, the wish Loop wanted granted, handed to them on a silver platter. 

This Siffrin, nor anyone in this world, would ever be able to come close to understanding what Loop went through; Loop would never truly be seen in this world, not fully anyway.

What does The Universe have against them, to put them into this world and make them witness all of this?

It should have been them, with this carefree type of life, given all they went through.

2. AFTER the fight with Siffrin.

This leans a bit more lighthearted than the last, since Loop would have gone through all the development from the game via convos + the talk at the very end with Siffrin, and has a bit more peace about their whole deal.

Perhaps they would still see the same conclusions as above, since healing from the horrors would not happen all at once, if ever, with additional flavor

Underlying bitterness in why the script is still going. 

Why is The Universe asking for them to continue into a new world and role?

Haven’t they had enough, once making them witness another Siffrin’s loops and perfect ending, and now a completely idyllic Siffrin’s life from the get go?

However, there is also a bit of hope in the entire situation. Since if The Universe keeps deciding to fuck with them (as in, sending them to different world lines) there is still, technically, the chance of going backward as well.

To their original timeline and to their family.

Once could have been a one-off, but twice?

Perhaps three world jumps might be the minimum to go back, following standard wishing rituals?

More hope in this one from the get-go, with that thought in mind.

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Though there are probably other points in time that would be interesting too! 

Another one I was considering was RIGHT BEFORE the fight with Siffrin, perhaps even mid-fight. However, I don't think that makes much sense for this particular AU ASAFASFASDAS. Can you imagine if Loop just spawned into this world, doesn't realize this is a completely different Siffrin, and attacks on sight?????

Honestly the idea of a reverse-isekaied Loop into different AU's in general is neat, would love to see other people's takes on it!!  Especially cuz of the various reactions/conclusions Loop could have/make based on the scenario/circumstances would be interesting, if that makes sense. At least I think there is something in that thought? I dunno!

I feel like I am missing some characterization bits in here, but that was the main gist of it for now since I cannot remember LMAO.

Mumblings over, thanks for reading my silly thoughts if you got this far!!!

#in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #isat siffrin #isat loop #yea loop is cursing but it is censored with stars #since i thought it would be a little bit funny #if i keep drawing for this AU i should prob come up with a better name than “modern office AU” LOL #which will prob be the case since i have a couple more silly ideas in my back pocket #and other characterizations for others i want to explore a lil #but i also have other ISAT drawings i want to get to so it might be a bit before i get through all that ASDFASDAS #also i will gladly take additional suggestions for doodles #since those are always fun!!! #i could prob mumble on about various thoughts for the others in this AU but like #right now everything is still a bunch of mildly incoherent headcanons in a trenchcoat with a very vague plot #and i am very much not a writer cuz words are hard!!!! #but at the end of the day this AU will mainly be silly office shenanigans #with a bit of character spice for flavor every once in a while LMAO #okay tag talk over oops #reverse entry au #reverse isekai loop au

[allastoredeer]

~Lucifer blanches. He looks around, as if trying to find a sense of Alastor’s words somewhere in the trash-heap he calls a room, before rounding back to him, lips pulling up in disgust. “Are you asking me out?”

“Ahaha!” Alastor laughs, slapping him so hard on the back it nearly takes Lucifer off his feet. “Oh, Heavens no. I’m just proposing we let Hell continue thinking that you and I are,” he waves his hand, searching for the word, “in cahoots. In that way.”~

This is golden comedy right here. Honestly every time I read ur fic I always start wheezing so hard I can’t breathe, u are an amazing writer, hope u know that. When I saw ur last update on the ‘damage control’ chapter i was so excited i devoured it so fast help

Alastor saying he wants to be in ‘cahoots’ with Lucifer it’s so funny to me cause no one use that term anymore, and Lucifer is just downright dumbfounded that they are even having the conversation. I can imagine the shadow rolling his eyes at them, we need more sassy shadow moments, he is so underrated. 😭😭

I love that Lucifer is trying to respect Al boundaries, especially after the ‘incident’ , and doesn’t pry to much on his scars, but now I am curious about what did Al meant. Does he not remember who did that to him? 🥺

Also I am curious about what they gonna tell to the others about their new found relationship. I don’t think Lucifer would want to lie to Charlie, but I also think that it would be too risky to make the whole crew knew they are acting, someone might slip. And it’s not like Al is gonna make it easy for Lucy anyway. If they want to be credible, less ppl knowing it’s best course of action for me.

Last thing~ I really wanted to thank you, cause ur fic really brings me a lot of joy since I recently only been able to find happiness in small things like these , and I I can’t wait to read more🌈

Hehehe, Alastor purposefully refusing to go into depth about their "sexual relationship," and even side-stepping outright calling it a relationship, is what's going to make it all more entertaining when he actually has to commit to the bit. Cuz you see, they're not fucking. They're "in cahoots."

It's different.

(I love Alastor's Shadow being sassy. If it's attached to Alastor, it has to be. I take no critiques.)

😈 Alastor and his scars is something I'm very excited to get into it. I've been thinking about them for a while, and while it may take a bit to actually get the answer, I'm very eager to get there when we do.

The way I see it, Alastor doesn't want to tell the others (as they already know their not actually dating--as he made VERY clear last time), but Lucifer isn't going to be okay with lying to Charlie. Out of the group, Alastor knows he can trust Husk and Niffty to keep it a secret. Maybe Angel Dust too. But he's most worried about Charlie and Vaggie.

Vaggie isn't a good liar, and Charlie's such an open, bright, heart-on-her-sleeves person, he doesn't trust her to keep up the ruse without letting something slip--most likely by accident.

But Lucifer is stubborn. He doesn't want to lie to Charlie, and if he tells Charlie, Charlie is going to tell Vaggie. If Vaggie knows, well, we already know she has a hard time lying on the spot, so if the others see Alastor and Lucifer suddenly "in cahoots," and ask about it, she's not going to be able to come up with a plausible excuse on the fly.

This is all to say, the next installment is going to be full of silly Hazbin Crew hijinks, where Alastor is forcefully enrolled into Chaggies Dating 101 Crash Course, and he is definitely not setting the grading curve. (And maybe we'll even get a bit of HuskerDust thrown in there, who knows. Certainly not me).

And it warms me so much to know that my fic can bring you joy in a time that such things are scarce 🥺 I can't wait to share more of the story with you!

#seriously #getting asks like these brighten my day to know end #I like keeping actual story elements and plot hooks a secret until we get there in the fic #but GOD #when you guys ask questions about it I just want to blab everything #ive got so many thoughts on the brain and I wanna SHAARRREEEE #Im so happy my fic is helping through a hard time #that's such an amazing thing to hear and i sincerely hope that whatever situation your in gets better #in the meantime #pls accept these absolute goofuses stumble their way into an actual queer relationship #hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #lucifer morningstar #the radio demon #appleradio #lucifer magne #asks #charlie hazbin hotel #hazbin charlie #charlie morningstar #vaggie #chaggie #niffty #charlotte morningstar #vaggie hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel husk #husk #hazbin husk

[loganlermanstanaccount]

Omg I recently found your Miguel and Joel fics and your writing is so good!! I have to ask, as an aspiring fic writer, do you have any tips on how to write/improve fanfic or find your writing own style? I have so many docs files worth of half-finished fics (since I suffer from not-good-enough syndrome), and I try to learn as much as can from those I admire. If this ends up being answered, thank you so much!!

hey! thank you for the ask and it's taken me a while to answer cuz I had to think long and hard to give you something useful lmfao... and it means a lot that people enjoy my writing enough to even ask me for advice!! thank you anon, and I hope this helps :D

a/n: I'm not an expert, not even a little bit, but I like writing on here and I'm writing a book! so those are my (lack of) credentials - just a heads up

gonna split my advice into parts: before writing, during, and after; and also give some tips on writer's block / "not-good-enough-syndrome" (very very valid, btw)



Before writing

- Planning is not always necessary but I find it helps! it doesn't even have to be a really detailed one, like mapping out every story beat - but writing rough notes can help you guide it along better. And if you're not actively planning, thinking about the fic in more detail can act as a plan.

- Unironically, all my fics start off as vivid daydreams, which I then jot down notes, and start writing. If you think of your plan as guidelines rather than something rigid, it can help with flow. I.e. if when you start writing you're finding it hard to hit a certain beat, there's no need to force it in that direction.

- It can help to emulate the writing styles of writer's you like - like an artist study but with fics/literature you like. Take a couple of fics you really really like and jot down what you enjoy about it, and specificity is key. What about their language do you enjoy? Is it their use of metaphors, is it the way they describe actions, or the little character details they include? It can help to have this list on hand when you actually start writing.

- Similarly, you can try little writing exercises to get you thinking about that kind of thing. It think I saw this in a youtube vid, but a thing I've done in the past is take a scene from a movie or book and try to emulate in one of two ways, or both: first, as best you can remember, as close to the style of the original work as possible. And second, in your own words, trying to hit certain plot beats as best you can, leaving the rest up to you. For example, I always did it with the opening of the hunger game's first chapter, because it was something really distinctive to me and a property I enjoy. The important thing here is to not have the reference in front of you. The aim isn't to copy exactly, but to imitate / get your brain thinking about the way in which the author / filmmaker / etc portrays the story.



Whilst writing

There is a lot of very valid general writing advice in terms of language and actually writing, so I'll list some general ones below, (idk if this was quite your question tho):

- vary sentence length and structure. it adds rhythm and texture to your writing. but also be wary and try to align it to the context: i.e. a more fast-paced action scene would benefit from short, staccato sentences, but a scene describing characters falling in love (hazy, romantic, etc) might be better with longer, multi-claused sentences to drag out pace.

- focus less on stuffing in adjectives (i am very guilty of this, icl) but rely on the specificity of your nouns to portray information I.e. instead of 'spindly, thin and wire-framed glasses' using 'spectacles' is both more efficient and sounds a bit nicer.

- depends on the writer, but try to work backwards from images and motifs for characters, places, etc rather than the other way round. I.e. if your character is as fierce as a lion, instead of stating that as a simple simile, imply the metaphor with description: "her flowing mane (note specificity of noun, mane, not hair) cascades around her maw - spit-slick and eyes wild. Carnal, she was a killer; and God help those caught between her claws." (<< this is corny asf, lmfao, my bad. but u get the gist), and then you can pepper your text with callbacks to the motif - like little easter eggs for your reader.

- similar to above, adverbs often break up the flow of text, so choose the verbs carefully. Instead of "Hurriedly, he ran" even more info can be given with "tumbled" or "stuttered" etc etc

- break up dialogue with action rather than the usual alternatives for "said" .

- also also, "said" and other simple words are not bad to use at all!! sometimes they work better in the text than every dialogue word being "whispered" or "crooned" or whatever. you can repeat words without reaching for a thesaurus every time, cuz often its alternatives are more jarring and noticeable to read.

- honestly, above all the 'feel' of the text trumps everything else, or at least it does for me. There is no point using a super complex metaphor if it comes out of nowhere, or breaks up the tension of a scene. These aren't hard rules, and if it serves your story more to 'break' them, then you absolutely should! Definitely read aloud where you can (ik it's a little embarassing with fics, sometimes). In terms of my specific style, I'm a big fan of poetry so i like to pay careful attention to the way words and sentences sound! I love using fricatives or plosives or words that sound the way they feel (if that makes any sense), sentences that have rhythm due to placement of commas and semicolons - I think it makes for a more enjoyable read.

- don't be afraid to jump around when writing. Often, the issue is with starting out, so chop and change where necessary and jump around the fic. If there's a specific scene you're really excited about writing, write that first! and then once you're in more of a flow, the rest should be a bit easier.

- I can't really help with grammar cuz I know my grammar fucking sucks; there's probably an editor out there that has a heart attack everytime I overuse a semi-colon lmfao.



After writing

- For me, editing is the most important part of writing. Due to the way I write it's where a fic can really be elevated or fucked. A lot of the stuff I write initially is gibberish, and then is improved massively in the first edit.

- so with that, don't be afraid to shift things around: sentences, words, whole passages if need be. If you're writing in a word processor, take advantage of it's features. if it helps, make a copy of your fic and really 'fuck' it up: move shit around, get rid of wonky words, etc. be ruthless lmfao - cuz it's only the copy. if you tend to over describe (like me), I promise you that backspace button is your best friend.

- depends on how long it is, but take it in chunks (this is with both editing and writing) focus on the chunks and then expand out into the whole.

- it's important to be reflective. if you get through the process, or hit a slump and you're unsatisfied; be specific about why. where exactly did it stop working for you? is it the way you've described a scene? does it feel slow? too fast? do your characters feel flat? no stakes? be specific, and if you can, highlight where it went wrong. the comment feature on docs is my favourite to use because of this reason

- also, please remember to give yourself your flowers! where it works, no matter how small, make sure to highlight it and say, "I really like this bit, because of xyz". the 'because' is important, as it helps you do this again in later fics.



writer's block / not-good-enough-syndrome

- first off, remember that 9 times out of ten, you are your own worst critic. I guarantee that the things you don't like about your writing, someone will read and very much enjoy it! humans aren't great at being objective, so give yourself some grace and leeway to learn and improve.

- second, best way to overcome this is exposure therapy, imo. Tumblr is a great place for this: you can make a side blog and dump all the fics you think are a bit shit on there. It may gain some traction, it may not; but the most important part is that you've put yourself out there, and nothing exploded. and because there are no stakes, you can get rid of the blog as you see fit, with little to no consequences, and never have to think about it again.

- if you do end up posting, please don't get bogged down by the metrics! it can suck when something you've worked really hard on doesn't do very well. the great thing about fanfic, is that it's a really easy way to improve quickly. if you like something enough to want to write fanfic - you're more likely to write. More writing = more improvement, and you get to enjoy fucking around with the canon or a self insert or writing smut or whatever.



in terms of overcoming writer's block / having lots of half finished fics you can approach it a couple of ways:

- you can brute force finish a fic, no matter how shitty you think it is, and try to salvage what you can in the edit.

- lower the stakes! if you can't write a thousand words, leave it at 500! often when you move the goalposts closer, there's less of a mental block, and you end up bringing it to it's natural conclusion anyway.

- if you've got multiple unfinished fics, frankenstein that bitch lmfao. cut and paste and stick the best bits together. You like that one interaction? cool, stick it onto a bit from another fic. You've come up with a great piece of dialogue? great, stick it in the middle of that fic. Because you're not necessarily coming up with new content, just repurposing old bits and bobs, often you find you're writing the inbetween-y bits anyways and you've got a full fic.

- take a break! leave stuff unfinished, sleep on it; come back in a day, a week, a month. fresh eyes can make all the difference when you've been staring at it too long.



finding your writing style:

- read, read, read, read. other fics, books, even consuming media generally to find a voice. You can be reflective and specific, like I mentioned in the other points to help yourself along, but expanding your horizons will do wonders for your writing.

- e.g. my favourite book is Lolita and I'm in loooove with the writing style: it's a beautiful balance of poetic with a strong narrative voice. I love poetry (Ocean Vuong you will always be famous!), and gorgeous, existential films filled to the brim with subtext (Blade Runner 2049, Howl's moving castle, Moonlight, etc). You probably can't notice that explicitly in my writing but it does show up: I love wistful rambling, heavy imagery, strong thematic motifs... all things I've connected with in other media, and emulated in my writing.

Your "voice" comes later, I think - something that happens without you actively looking for it. Who you are, your experiences, your connections with other people: it's pretty hard to keep that out of your writing. So don't stress! The page is like a block of wood; it scratches, it dents, it erodes - chips away into something new, entirely. Your writing remembers, and it doesn't stop being yours when you walk away from it.

Hope this wasn't pretentious or annoying or anything! best of luck anon and feel free to dm me cuz I'd love to read whatever you come up with (no pressure, ofc).

If anyone has any other writing tips I will do my best to reblog them, thanks <33

#x reader #writing #writing advice #fic writing #miguel o'hara x reader #joel miller x reader #fandom things #x reader fics #fanfic

[wisecrackingeric-2]

((Redoing this cuz TUMBLR FLAGGED IT DAMNIT))

20 Questions for Fic Authors !!

Thank you S O SOSOSOSOOSSOSO MUCH @sunhatllama & @courtofparrots for tagging me!!!!! :DDD

1. How many works do you have??

36!!

2. What is your AO3 word count??

202,659!!!!!!!!! God fucking damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3. What fandoms do you write for??

Just Resident Evil!! :D

4. What are your top 5 fics by Kudos??

1. All You Have To Do Is Ask

2. Your Drunk Words Are Sober Thoughts

3. Leon (Finally) Gets Top Surgery

4. Anemoia

And Love Me Like There’s No Tomorrow in that order!!

5. Do you respond to comments??

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES EVEN IF IT TAKES ME FOREVER I ADORE COMMENTS THEY KEEP ME GOING

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending??

OOOOOUGHH this is hard because I am ALLERGIC to writing angst BXBDHENSJ I don’t know why I just struggle to do it!!!! I always feel too bad for the characters!!!!! But if I HAD to pick I’d proooobably say It Was Only Yesterday for @aquarelacosmica because old age is sad I guess BXNENNEDJ

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending??

Literally all of them HDBEHENDJJ happy endings are guaranteed with all my fics but if I had to chose my favourites, they’d be, in no particular order;

1. Marido

2. Matteo

3. Beautiful Boy

4. New Years

5. I’ll Help You Pray

And 6. Save A Horse, Ride A Cowboy!!

8. Do you get hate on fics??

Not so far thank god!! I’ve definitely received WEIRD or overbearing comments but no hate!

9. Do you write smut??

My only NS f W fic is Feeling Loved, and it’s more a piece on Luis’ chronic pain and self esteem after RE4 than it is smut I’d say!! It’s very near and dear to my heart <3

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest crossover you’ve written??

I’ve never WRITTEN a crossover HOWEVER I have PLENTY of AU’s in my art tag!!! I’d love to write my Warriors Serennedy AU out someday though!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen??

Nope!!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated??

I’ve actually been asked by somebody before if they could translate my fic one time!!! I don’t remember which it was, but I had to politely decline since I didn’t know the language and wouldn’t be able to crowd control the response, but they were super duper polite and kind about it!!!!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before??

I’ve never co-written a fic per se but I’ve definitely had my friends bounce ideas between me and help me with proofreading!!!!! Ily guys <<<<333

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

leans on the suspiciously serennedy-shaped box standing in my room Why do you wanna know?

15. What’s a WIP you’d wanna finish but doubt you ever will??

I have quite a handful that I’ve started but unfortunately lost the momentum for and can’t find it again.

Writing is a lot like art for me- if inspiration strikes I have to do it THEN AND THERE or else I’ll lose the groove for the kind of style/inspo I wanted to do it in, and unfortunately I had to give up quite a few fanfic projects this year to focus on art and also mainly cuz the beginning of this year has been VEEEEEERY tough and I always prioritise my art over writing unfortunately!!

I’m proud of myself for finishing (I’m Just A) Sweet Transvestite though- that one was made through blood sweat and tears :,)

16. What are your writing strengths?

UHHHH NO CLUE!!! I’ve been TOLD it’s how I characterise my characters and how I write dialog, but I think the easiest thing for ME is describing scenes so I dunno!!

17. What are your writing weaknesses??

Can saying ‘everything’ count HFNEHENDJ I’m more of an artist than a writer!! But I think the thing I struggle with the most is stretching out important emotional beats. And also commas.

18. Thoughts on writing dialog in another language??

I do it all the time for Luis so Hell Yeah!!! Thank you Wilfreeeeeeeddd for helpiiiinnngg <<<33

19. First fandom you wrote for??

Also Resident Evil!! Serennedy has a violent chokehold on me

20. Favourite fic you’ve written??

(I’m Just A) Sweet Transvestite !! I am S O proud of myself for finishing it man!!!!! I went through HELL and back writing it and I made something that means a lot to me!!!!!!

Tagging @blveherb , @geddy-leesbian , @leonsbunny , @hamartia-grander , @ugetelynx , @theprestigegirly @mooseonahunt and anyone else who wants to join!! :DD

#ericswriting #serennedy

[nerves-nebula]

"the actors don't like the ship it makes them uncomfortable!" yeah that does not and never has mattered. they're actors. they act as characters. they are not the characters themselves, they do not have a say in how you think of or portray the characters they act as. this is not real person fanfiction. Alex is just a homophobic creep.

anyway after talking to my friend i've decided to just tell you guys. the series i hate is The Mandela Catalogue. it's so shit. absolute garbage. Plays into every ableist trope in the book.

If you try to analyze the way characters are coded to be scary or creepy or "inhuman" it's 99% of the time just them being disabled or neurodivergent or some other marginalized identity.

the fascist undertones of the series are incredibly evident, from the stranger-danger propaganda being given at face value with no commentary on how fucked up it is to just say it's reasonable for you to shoot someone you think is an alternate/looks weird (are white people not aware of all the poc and disabled people who get shot and attacked cuz their existence is seen as threatening?)

the public announcement shit is literally fear mongering except it's in universe proven to be correct because the universe alex has created is an inherently fascist one where innocent white Christians and their innocent white children are under attack from Real Demons (where have i heard that one before)

the THINK principles are akin to a cults guideline. how is the scary thing here that there are weird looking people out there that will Say Scary Shit to you (the idea of an Unknowable Truth as it's alluded to in tmc is bullshit and one of the dumbest Monster powers I've ever heard of) instead of the fact that society is gonna collapse because this shit will make people paranoid as hell, and start shooting their neighbors. But no, that would make it a GOOD series with something INTERESTING to say.

OH and the fact that the enemies in the series are somehow supposed to Look Just Like You (they could be anyone!!) but also look biologically impossible (so many of the alternates + The intruder just look like disabled or disfigured people put through a scary filter)

and hey, while we're here, can we think of any other examples of tropes in media in which all of these apply to The Enemy?

looks very similar to REAL humans, so much so that they could fool you into thinking they ARE one! and yet are also somehow inherently biologically different in a way you are capable of figuring out just by looking at them.

has dark beady eyes and a hooked/big/prominent nose (thinking of the intruder specifically here)

Kidnaps your children for their own nefarious means (blood libel)

Kidnaps/corrupts your children by controlling the media/technology/TV screens.

Desire world domination/is part of some big conspiracy stretching far into the past

Guilty for the death (or in this instance possibly the replacement of) Jesus Christ

depicted as literal demons

Hint! it's antisemitism! it's always fucking antisemitism!!! Coming from a man who's main source of inspiration is his Christianity & mental health issues (though he doesn't seem to mind demonizing the symptoms of mental illnesses he hasn't had personal experience with) i'm not surprised! Though I am disappointed, because he supposedly wants to be a writer, and he doesn't seem very aware of any of the tropes he's propagating. like c'mon man, i thought you liked literature.

I could make another list exactly like that one but for ableism, but if i committed that hard then we'd be here all day.

Alex has even started using words like Degenerate/Degeneration in promotional material too (which if you know anything about fascist rhetoric is a bad sign) not to mention his weird behavior around queer headcanons/shipping and his tendency to mock people who read queer subtext into his work.

The only good things that come from the mandela catalogue are from the fandom but even the fandom can't stop talking about how SUBVERSIVE and UNIQUE it is when it's literally just regurgitated reactionary talking points. The fandom also loves reinforcing Alex's weird ass "no gay shipping" mandate.

like, he clearly doesn't mind the inclusion of romances. Adam had a girlfriend. what he says he minds is "sexualization" which just so happens to include every instance of two male characters looking at each other or holding hands (because being gay is inherently sexual to him, which is homophobic btw. not a "boundary")

i could write essays about how every little single aspect of this series is, thematically speaking, dogshit garbage which appeals to the majority and barely admits the rest of us exist (which i wouldnt even care about so much if people didn't act like this series was at all unique or subversive)

I've talked for fucking hours about how every time i think it can't get any worse it somehow does. i've barely touched on the ableism here, haven't even mentioned the racism OR how all the female characters are defined by their relations to the male characters.

ALL THIS. ALL THIS!!! And all you see about it is praise praise PRAISE. but guys. it's just BAD.

side note: if this post makes you feel the need to tell me why it's actually good: don't! i really dont care if you like it, good for you i guess. as far as i'm concerned the fans of it are the best part of the whole damn series (to be clear the fandom has its own problem but even then. it's generally fine) but it is NOT good source material.

#nnstuff #hateful webseries

[dinoburger]

hey.

people are dying, but you're giving your cause everything you can. i've seen you work hard to try to help people. you're donating. you're spreading the word. keep going.

keep questioning how you interact with the world and you'll keep gaining richer experiences for it. this is a turning point for many artists, writers, crafters, etc. wherein they realize that fan culture is not giving them what they could be getting by engaging directly with themes and topics and a medium that they personally care about most.

you have to engage with art to get better at art, and fan work can be a great vessel for your thoughts on art. fan work can be fulfilling, but it is also ultimately a sort of self-imposed constraint.

now. you clearly have stories you want to tell about trans men and war and pointless enterprise and they're outgrowing the tf2 framework. they have been for a while. i don't really like tf2, but i *do* like your art and think of you first as an artist who engages with the trans body before someone who partakes in fandom of any kind.

if you decide to take those stories in your own direction, i want to read them and watch them grow. take care.

I have mixed feelings because it's not that I see fan work vs. original work as the dichotomy here, but rather like. A lot of the stuff I do outside of it isn't particularly deep in and of itself but it's still meaningful.

It's funny cuz like, I started getting back into traditional art because I've been painting picket signs. You're not doing that because it's narratively engaging or even to make them beautiful, but to be eye-catching and make a point.

I guess that's mostly what I think about, it's more laterally like, something that can exist without needing to be to that ends.

I don't really think it's a matter of taking the stories I have and restructuring them to add "originality" because that wasn't the point of writing them in the first place, and I'm not going to forcibly take my experiences and try to twist them into a compelling story if they won't fit or shouldn't center me - rather, the work I do doesn't need to be that deep if the context I'm using it for is meaningful already, I don't need to cut myself up for parts.

I want to engage art and culture more in that sense, you know? I think that was part of the joy of making pottery to me when I used to do it, there was always this kind of practicality and physicality that makes it feel significant in ways that aren't simply expressed, regardless of "depth" or branding or anything else.

There is just a kind of funneling that inevitably happens with engagement and social media. I think acting like I'm totally above it isn't honest, it's now 2 AM as I'm writing this response. I don't think of myself as profoundly removed, more the opposite. I think even if you're aware, you sometimes don't realise how bad it is for you until you start peeling away.

There's a kind of sterile singularity to it, every aspect of how art and identity are engaged here. There tends to be a kind of singular authority people take to each other that shapes the landscape here. And there's very much an "I'm not like that" kind of dogma.

Paradoxically it is like, the thing where the more you argue the point, the more it seems like you're trying to establish yourself as the authority of it, and again it's not like none of these things can be meaningful at all, but there's a kind of undeniable tunnel vision you get sucked into.

I don't think anything I've done for the causes I'm interested in are praise worthy, I try to do what I can. But it's still the most valuable thing I could be doing.

#asklies

[fkinavocado]

i just reread chap 25 of DI and i just wanna say dreea this is my comfort story.attention to every detail,dysfunctional family,not a saviour lover,but a supportive lover,how support and love can save people ,such a lovely love, such a monumetal but a the same time simple but beautiful love story ,it healed me,it made me believe that someday i can have this too no matter how damaged i am and how damaged the other person is ,there is someone out there that will love me through everything , you reminded me of it and i can't thank you enough for that, but i just saw people's reaction to it recently in your blog and it truly breaks my heart cause i see so much of a person's emotions poured into it so whoever wrote al those criticism,remember that dreea wrote a very realistic story with trauma and sensitive issues ,she never said it was a fairytale,the way she's writng it ,thats how life is and when ur critisizing it you are ignoring that a lot of the emotions ,incidents,things that are happening in the story ,how the story is going could be reimaginations of the author's real life emotions,(maybe),but when your reading a realistic fiction/fanfiction you should know that nothing ends like a fairytale and when ur asking the writer to stop at somewhere when they put so much of themselves into the story ,its no longer feedback or criticism its just something very wrong.you're not only taking away a writers will to write but also invalidating the writer's heart that she poured into it thus ignoring her feeling AND also the feeling of the readers that relate to it.this might be a new perspective but a perspective nonetheless so please think hard before coming here and criticising cuz at the end of day an app like tumblr,and things like fanfiction ,writing /reading is for escapism people come here as an escape ,away from all the criticism not to drown more in it we have enough critics out there as it is let's not bring em here too how about that!

but alas could go on forever about this but im just gonna say dreea pls whater you do with DI i want you to do what you would've done initially ,what your heart wanted initially, not what others want because remember we,the ogs, loved the DI that you created from your heart not the one you will make just to satiate other's expecations of you.DI is your most lovely baby.i love you and i'll wait for you however long it takes for your heart to beat like it used to for DI again.love you soo much!!XD

i'm literally crying reading this. i finally feel like someone GETS IT. i feel whole again after reading this. i swear to god. i've had other ppl reassure me and send me love for DI and encouragement, but you worded it perfectly and i just-- i don't know how to thank you. like, i swear it healed me.

everything you wrote is 1000% correct, that's exactly how i feel about everything. y'all don't understand how much this fic means to me... and how much it's been killing me to feel like i was being told their story was wrong, invalid, irrelevant etc. even if those exact words were not used, that's what it felt like.

it was my story to tell, and people were slapping their palms over my mouth telling me to quit it with that nonsense. they didn't want that. they wanted the fairytale and i wasn't delivering!

it made me upset. but mostly, it made me so sad. this was always a story about two broken people finding eachother and healing themselves by being together. and now it felt like people were mad at me for not having them be perfect all of a sudden. "there's always something wrong, something bad is always happening to them, problems from the past haven't been solved yet and others are already being created etcetc". like-- yeah. because just because you're healing and found your soulmate (because this is what i think they are) doesn't mean life is just gonna be hunky-dory from there on out. life is still gonna throw shit at them. the real challenge now is to face obstacles together and not let them ever set them apart ever again. to prove their growth through the lessons they've learned the hard way.

i just felt like nobody was getting what i wanted to do with the story.

again, i'm generalizing because i know so many others have been there for me too, and i thank them also and have been amazing supporting me all throughout and ever since that happened. i'm not taking away from the importance of their presence here at all- please don't misunderstand me! but i'm just saying- this particular person that wrote this ask put it into words perfectly and it all just clicked within me. like it finally feels right again...?

i'm still crying. i'm so happy.

thank you from the bottom of my heart for this. i don't know who you are... but i'm forever indebted to you for reaching out and telling me this. i really needed to heart it. i can now finally finish telling their story the way i always intended to!

i truly don't know how to better express what i'm feeling. i'm so grateful to you. and to all of you who have stuck around ❤️❤️❤️❤️ it means the world to me.

i'm going to pin this post to my blog cause this is what i'm most proud of- i've got lovely, big-hearted, like-minded people here that get me, that appreciate my work and this is the reason why i'm doing this in the first place!

all my love to you ❤️

#ask

[edith-hyde]

Norman Osborn X Female Reader

I Forgot My Umbrella - Part 26

Word Count: 4156

Summary: You and Norman head back to his place for a movie night. However, a topic you wanted to avoid gets brought up. How will Norman respond to this boundary?

Warnings: Age gap. PG-13.

A/N: This chapter was hard to write. Cuz one side of me says "It's just a fanfic, you don't have to be so serious about it". But then the writer half of me goes all in. So I went all in.

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Dinner was over and it was time to leave. Collecting your things, you went to follow Norman outside. 

But, you were utterly lost in your thoughts not watching where you were going.

As you went to pass a table, you walked into the aisle without looking. And it was just your luck that you collided with the waitress who was trying to get to a far table. She was carrying a tray of drinks and as it slipped from her hands, you tried to catch it. This, of course, resulted in no broken glass, but you were splashed with a concoction of sticky sodas. They soaked into your blouse and skirt causing you to gasp in surprise. 

Norman turned back at the sound of the noise. As he assessed the situation, you saw the anger in his eyes as he looked at the waitress. She was a young girl, barely out of highschool. You knew that this was mostly your fault and you sure didn’t want to see this girl get scared half to death by an overprotective Norman Osborn. 

So, as he charged forward ready to say something, you scowled at him and shook your head. He seemed to get the message and remained silent, frozen where he stood.

“I am so sorry!” You said as you addressed the waitress, “That was entirely my fault.”

The poor girl was standing in stunned silence, her hands pressed to her mouth.

“No it was mine, I didn’t see you-”

You handed the tray back to her as you shook your head. 

“No, I walked right out in front of you.”

“I’m so sorry about your clothes!” She cried, “Let me get you a towel or something!”

The girl rushed off and Norman stepped up to you, concern and irritation on his face. 

“Are you alright?”

“I'm not hurt,” you said, “It was my fault. I ran into her.”

“She should’ve been paying attention,” Norman growled. 

“Me too,” you said sternly, “Don’t get all ticked off with this girl. It was just an accident.”

Norman let out a huff but relented as he crossed his arms. The waitress returned with a towel and more apologies. 

“I am so sorry. I hope this is enough. I'm really sorry-” 

She gave a glance to Norman and bowed her head. He didn’t look as angry as before, but his expression was still enough to make the girl feel worse. 

“Please forgive me!”

You took the towel and held it against your clothes. You knew it wasn’t going to do much but you weren’t about to tell her that. 

“Don’t worry about it,” you reassured her, “It’s just clothes and pop. It’ll wash out. No worries. I’m just glad we both didn’t fall!”

You soaked as much of the soda as you could out of your outfit but you knew it was going to be sticky for the rest of the night. 

“I’m really sorry,” you said for the last time as you gave back the towel. 

“Me too,” she lamented, “If you come back here again I’ll give you a free dessert.” 

“Oh that’s not-”

“That’s very kind of you,” Norman cut in, “Thank you. Goodnight.”

Norman pressed a hand to the small of your back and started walking you out the door. You scowled up at him and he gave you a quick glance. 

“You two would be there all night apologizing to each other. It’s sweet but annoying.”

His honesty made you laugh as you nodded. 

“Yeah you’re right.”

Stepping outside, Norman made a quick call to Charles who wasn’t too far away in a nearby parking garage. You looked down at yourself and frowned. You were just thinking about asking Norman to take you by your apartment so you could change, but he offered you a different solution. 

“You can borrow some of my clothes when we get to the house- if… if you want.”

The thought of that made you give a dopey grin. 

“Aw thanks! My hero.”

You pressed a kiss to his cheek just as Charles pulled up. Norman helped you into the car before getting in himself. You wondered if he would ever stop opening and closing doors for you. You hoped he never would. 

“Where to, Sir?” Charles questioned. 

“Home.”

The way Norman said the word ‘Home’ made your stomach fill with butterflies. It was like the two of you were married and returning to your shared living space like it was any other day. 

Married.

The thought of a domestic life with Norman made heat rise to your face. What would that be like? Living with him… Seeing him every day. Waking up with him beside you every morning…

“What are you thinking about, hmm?”

Norman’s questioning words reached you, pulling you out of your daydreams. Your blush grew larger as you refused to meet his gaze. 

“Oh nothing!”

It was way too soon to be thinking about any of that! 

“Nothing, hmm?” Norman cocked an eyebrow, “Whatever it is, it has your face all red. What were you thinking about?”

“It’s nothing you need to know.”

He smirked at you and you rolled your eyes. 

“Come on, out with it.”

His eyes were pleading but you shook your head. He leaned closer to you, head tilted slightly. He was trying to look as sweet and innocent as possible and it almost worked. 

“Tell me?”

Now it was like a game. 

“Nope. Nuh uh.”

Norman leaned all the way over, his left hand now resting on your leg as he lightly pressed his lips to your jaw. You stiffened as your heart threatened to explode out of your chest. Now he was trying to cheat. 

“Tell me,” he breathed, “Please?”

You couldn’t help the nervous laugh that bubbled up as you pushed against his shoulders, forcing him out of your space. 

“Stop it!” You chastised, “I’m not telling you.”

Norman’s features twisted into a pout as he settled back into his seat. 

“You’re always wanting to know what I’m thinking. Why can’t I know what you were thinking about? It’s not fair.”

“What are you, a little kid?” You said with a chuckle. 

“If you don’t tell me, it will drive me insane. I won’t be able to enjoy the rest of the night. Please tell me.”

You sighed and rolled your eyes. Norman gave you a pleased smile, clearly thinking he had won. You would tell him- just not the details. You didn’t want to scare him off by telling him you were daydreaming about marrying him this soon in the relationship. That was something guys didn’t like, right?

“I wasn’t really thinking about anything important. Just…. Just a possible future.”

“A possible future?” Norman questioned. 

“Hmhm… one where everything is perfect and we’re happy.”

“That sounds nice,” Norman mused, “That’s what made your face turn red?”

You bit down on your lip as you nodded. 

“Just… thinking about you…. Makes me happy.”

You saw Norman’s ears start to turn pink. He quickly grabbed your hand and kissed it- something you noticed he did when he was unsure of what to say or when he was wanting to reassure you. You loved the gesture and it made you smile. 

“That sounded really sappy didn’t it?” You laughed. 

“Yes it did, but I don’t mind.”

The two of you spent the rest of the car ride talking about random stuff. From how fun the dance was, to how many plays Norman was in as a boy. He seemed really embarrassed but also proud of his short lived acting career. He had apparently even taken part in a play or two in college which had included Otto. 

That was something you wished you could have seen. 

Charles parked the car out front of Norman’s house and you waited for Norman to come and open the door for you like he always did. When you stepped out, you gapped at the building before you. 

This wasn’t a house. 

This was a mansion. 

“You live here?” You asked in awe. 

“Yes,” Norman chuckled as he led you inside, “Were you expecting smaller or bigger?”

“Smaller. Definitely smaller.”

Norman led you through a grand foyer. You twirled around in awe as you tried to take it all in. There was just so much to look at. Beautiful architecture that Kevin would probably fawn over, elaborate pottery pieces, ornate persian rugs, and amazing light fixtures overhead- and that was just a small piece of a larger picture that was the Osborn Mansion.

“I could probably get lost in this house,” you laughed. 

“Best stick with me then.”

Norman took your hand and led you up the stairs. You only went down one hallway before Norman brought you into one of the rooms. 

It took you a second to realize that this was Norman’s bedroom. 

The setup was simple but just as beautiful as the foyer. He had a large four poster bed, several artworks on the wall, and a large balcony window with flowing white curtains. At first glance one would assume that the room was spotless- maybe even unused.

But at further inspection, you saw the signs of Norman everywhere. There was a half glass of water on the nightstand beside a science magazine and a book. The bed was made but you could see the indent on the pillow where Norman laid on it the night before. A coat and tie were slung over the armchair in the corner. There were framed photos of Harry on the dresser along with what looked like a jewelry box. You could smell Norman’s cologne just standing here in the doorway. 

“The closet is right here, if you’d like to pick something out to wear. Everything on the left hand side is casual. Sleeping clothes are in the drawer.”

Norman opened the doors to a walk-in closet and you gaped.

“Does this lead to Narnia?” you questioned.

Norman chuckled as he flipped on the light. 

“Unfortunately, no. It’s just a normal closet.”

“Normal is like 3 feet across and maybe 2 foot deep, Norman. This is like its own department store.”

Norman laughed once more as he headed for the door. 

“I’ll let you change. When you're done we can give your clothes to Bernard so he can wash them.”

“Thanks,” you said absently as you stepped into the closet.

Norman left the room and you felt unbelievably giddy as you walked amongst the clothes. You were supposed to be looking for an outfit for yourself but you got distracted looking at Norman’s custom suits. You recognized a few of them as his favorites to wear to work. 

As you ran your fingers along the clothes feeling the different fabrics, you came back around to the side that Norman claimed as casual. It was hard to imagine him in anything but a suit. However, the evidence was there in a variety of colors- Norman Osborn owned several t-shirts, jeans, and even a few sweatpants and sweaters. All of them designer of course. 

You giggled to yourself as you imagined him in one of the cardigans. 

You hoped to see that one day. 

Knowing that you shouldn’t take too much longer, you grabbed a pair of green pajama bottoms from a drawer and one of the black long sleeve shirts. You put them on, amused that his clothes were only a little baggy on you. Snuggling into them, you happily breathed in his scent. 

You also took the time to let your hair down so you were truly comfortable. 

Fighting the temptation to snoop through his stuff, you headed out into the hall, carrying your soiled clothes. You found Norman leaning against the wall. The minute he saw you, he gave you a huge grin. Without hesitation, he pulled you to him and kissed you. 

—

The door opened and Norman felt his heart almost stop. 

You stood there, wearing his clothes, hair down and a smile on your face. This was a daydream he had had several times and seeing it now nearly overwhelmed him. Unable to stop himself, he took you in his arms and gave you a sweet kiss. He felt you smile just before you pulled back.

“What was that for?”

“Do I need a reason?” he asked as he played with some of your hair.

“No,” you giggled.

“Good.”

Norman kissed you again before taking your hand and leading you back down stairs. The two of you passed Bernard on the way and Norman made sure to give him your clothes so they could be washed. He planned on the interaction being brief but you insisted on introducing yourself. Something Norman found amusing, as most people probably wouldn’t have bothered. 

“Hi, I’m Y/N.” you said as you offered your hand to Bernard. “It’s very nice to meet you.”

“Likewise, Miss.”

“Thank you for washing these. I really appreciate it.”

“It’s no trouble, Miss.”

Bernard glanced between you and Norman but said nothing else as he shuffled off with the clothes. Norman wasn’t sure how the old man felt about his relationship with you- not that it really mattered what he thought. After the first week of dating, he had to tell Bernard he was in a relationship to explain why he was out so late. He had conveniently left out the fact that you were so much younger. But the old man didn’t seem to have an opinion and if he did, he kept it to himself- Bernard was good at that. In fact, Norman was pretty sure Bernard knew he was the Green Goblin and told no one. 

Loyalty such as that was hard to come by, even though it was entirely undeserved. 

You and Norman resumed your walk down the hall until you came to a pair of double doors. Norman pushed them open and they groaned with age and lack of use. Inside was an entertainment room- most of it was covered in dust and cobwebs. 

“Sorry ‘bout the dust,” Norman said flippantly, “After Harry moved out, no one really used this room. So I told Bernard it didn’t really need to be cleaned too often.”

“Gracious… Do you buy stuff just to buy it?”

Norman laughed as he looked around. To him, the room was completely normal. A large state of the art TV was mounted on the wall between two shelves full of movies and video games. A glass case below the television displayed an array of game systems, a VHS player, and a DVD player.

“Truthfully, Harry bought most of this. I hardly ever come in here.”

“This is nuts,” you exclaimed as you inspected the shelves, “It’d take me a lifetime, and then some, to get all this stuff. And this TV is three times the size of mine.”

“If you’d like a new television I can get one for you.” Norman offered. 

You immediately shook your head.

“No, no! I’m good. Please don’t go buying me expensive stuff.”

Norman shrugged out of his coat with a chuckle. 

“I’ve been trying not to. It’s very hard for me to resist.”

Norman stepped up behind you and gently wrapped you in his arms. He nuzzled down into your hair as he spoke.

“I want to give you everything you deserve. I’d buy you the world if you wanted it.”

“There’s one of those cheesy lines,” you laughed. 

“I told you. You had to wait for their moment.”

He gave you a quick kiss on the cheek before letting you go. As he walked towards the couch, he pulled off his tie, unbuttoned his cuffs, and kicked out of his shoes. You watched him for a moment and he saw the bit of pink that spread across your nose. He tried not to smirk or laugh as he ducked his head.

It didn’t take much, did it? 

Though he wasn’t much better off. Your smile alone sent him. 

“I hope you know how to use all this.” He said as he gestured towards the TV, “Because I am at a loss.”

You giggled as you pulled your movie out of your purse and opened the glass cabinet. 

“You’re such a dad.”

Norman sat on the leather couch, scowling slightly. He wasn’t sure if that was a compliment or an insult. When you turned to look at him, you noticed his expression and smiled.

“It’s a good thing, Norman. Means you’re cute.”

Feeling his ears burn, Norman busied himself with getting comfortable. You found the weirdest things about him to be ‘cute’, but he wasn’t about to argue with you.

After popping the movie in, Norman stiffened as you sat right next to him. You lifted his left arm so that it was draped over you. You snuggled into his side after grabbing a nearby throw blanket to drape across your legs. The sides of your legs were in his lap. He could smell your shampoo and feel the rise and fall of your breathing against him.

Instantly, Norman felt like a schoolboy- heart pounding, palms sweating, and his brain frozen. 

The two of you had been close before, but not quite this close. When the two of you sat together on your small green sofa, you mainly held hands or Norman would put his arm around your shoulder. You had clearly gotten braver in how you displayed your affection and Norman was all for it. 

Feeling your warmth next to him made him feel like his heart was beating for the first time in years. 

The movie started but Norman found it hard to focus. Instead he watched you. You laughed or rolled your eyes, making the occasional comment. He really did try to follow the movie as best he could, but it was nearly impossible since you were so close. He found himself curling locks of your hair around his fingers and pressing small kisses to the top of your head. 

“Norman… are you paying attention?”

“Hmmm? Not really, no.” Norman answered honestly. 

At first your expression was one of annoyance but it quickly melted into an amused smirk. You readjusted yourself, pulling away so that there was space between the two of you. He instantly felt a chill. 

“Would that make it easier for you?”

Norman fixed you with a glare and you started to laugh. 

“What?” You asked, trying to sound innocent. 

“Don’t play games with me, young lady.”

Norman wrapped his arm around your waist and slid you back across the leather sofa. You gave a surprised gasp which turned into a fit of giggles. You eagerly settled back into Norman’s side, resting your head on him. He kept his arm around you, holding you in place just in case you tried to scooch away again. 

“This is where you belong,” Norman declared.

“Okay,” you snickered, “But the movie is almost done and I’ll have to go home. We both have work in the morning.”

You were right. You had to leave eventually. However, the Osborn Mansion was huge. There were plenty of guest bedrooms you could stay in if you wanted. That way you wouldn’t have to worry about getting enough sleep for work. It seemed like a good, hospitable idea. 

“If you wanted, you could spend the ni-”

Norman felt you go rigid and immediately stopped talking. You pulled away to sit up and he let you. Your face was a deep red and your breathing let Norman know you were panicking. 

He had messed up. 

“Y/N…?”

“You remember when you said I could set boundaries?”

You refused to look at him, eyes glued to the TV screen. 

“Yes?”

“Well… there’s a boundary there. And while we’re on the subject… there’s another boundary you should know. And… and if it’s a deal breaker for you, then we can just call all this off right now.”

Norman lurched forward, fear crawling up his spine. 

“What?!”

You flinched and Norman tried to get a handle on his emotions. He could almost hear the Goblin laughing. 

This was it.

Everything was coming crashing down. 

When he spoke, his voice was strained. 

“What’s the other boundary?”

——

You didn’t want to be having this conversation. Not now, not ever. Everything had been going so well! You knew this subject was bound to get brought up eventually, but you never fully planned on how to deal with it. You were terrified that Norman was like all the others. 

Would he break up with you just because of this?

“The other boundary… you can call me a prude or old fashioned or whatever, but I don’t believe in doing…. That before marriage. This is not a rule that is gonna change so if you…” you struggled not to cry but ultimately lost, “If that’s something you were hoping to have, then we are done right here-”

Norman took your hand and your eyes snapped to his face. He readjusted himself on the couch as both of you completely ignored the movie. His expression was full of compassion as he spoke. 

“Y/N, I was not suggesting… that. And it’s not a deal breaker.”

“It���s… It’s not?”

You struggled to contain a sob and Norman reached up to brush the tears from your eyes with his thumb.

“Why in the world would this be a deal breaker?” He asked, “If anything it means you can make solid commitments. I greatly admire that.”

Norman chuckled to himself. 

“It actually proves that you’re not trying to seduce me for my money.”

You gave a tearful laugh as you sent your eyes skyward. 

“All the others,” you sighed, “When they found out… They broke up with me. I got called a prude more than once…”

Anger flashed in Norman’s blue eyes. 

“Children,” he spat, “Unable to respect your choice. Though, truth be told, at that age- that's what many boys think a relationship is about.”

“And some girls too.”

Norman nodded. He wiped away the rest of your tears as you fully began to calm down. This had gone far better than you expected. 

“Thank you,” you said, “I was so scared that you would be like them. I’m sorry. I should’ve known you wouldn’t be.”

“You give me too much credit.”

You stared at Norman with wide eyes as he gently tucked some of your hair behind your ear. His gaze wandered over you as he spoke. 

“I am dating you with the full intent to marry you someday. If that’s a deal breaker…”

Your heart felt like it was going to explode. You remembered your daydream from the car and nothing else mattered. You didn’t care if this was too fast or sudden- learning that Norman felt this way changed everything.  

Filled with glee, you dove into Norman to kiss him. He immediately held the side of your face, kissing you back with just as much joy. He smiled as you pulled away, though you remained close enough to touch his nose with yours. 

“Well I guess that answers that,” he chuckled, “And here I was afraid I was moving too fast… the last woman I said that to broke up with me.”

You pressed your forehead against his, hands still tangled in his hair. 

“I was daydreaming about marrying you in the car,” you admitted, “I thought I was moving too fast too…”

“Maybe we both are,” Norman suggested with a grin. 

“Maybe… but too fast would be getting married tomorrow. We’re not doing that… are we?”

“If you wanted to, we could.” Norman answered without hesitation. 

You laughed, shaking your head. You pulled away to readjust yourself on the couch so you were sitting cross-legged, facing him. 

“You still have to meet my parents and I have to be formally introduced to Harry.”

Norman’s features fell as he flopped back onto the couch. His eyes went skyward as he puffed out a sigh. 

“Oh… right.”

You giggled as you leaned on the back of the couch, still facing him. Unable to resist, you brushed a hand through his hair. The tension in his shoulders instantly relaxed and his eyes fluttered closed. Amused by the reaction, you did it again as you spoke. 

“We’ll save the wedding talk for later, okay? It is a bit too soon. But I’m glad to know we’re on the same page moving forward. Because I hope to marry you someday too.”

“Hmmhmm.”

Norman gave a contented sigh as you continued to comb through his hair. You glanced at the TV and snickered. 

“The movie is over, Norman. We missed the whole last half.”

“You could restart it so we can see what we missed,” Norman answered with his eyes still closed. 

“Nice try, mister. But I’ve gotta go home. It’s past midnight and I’ve gotta get up at 6. So do you.”

“Let’s call in.”

“Norman…”

You stopped petting his hair and he scowled. “Fine,” he relented as his eyes opened, “I’ll drive you home.”

#norman osborn #i forgot my umbrella #norman osborn x reader #spider man: no way home #green goblin #sam raimi spider man #fanfiction

[hyewka]

Hey I just wanted to say that I love your works! I saw that you were asking to read some of our recent works or works we’ve enjoyed writing and I wanted to ask if you could read this fic of mine on my smut blog

I made it some months ago and it’s still one of my faves! (Even though it’s the only thing I’ve put on my account so far💀) it would be an honor to have you read and give me so constructive criticism and feedback about it (cuz you’re such a good smut writer 😭)

I think one of the sole reasons why I haven’t posted another work of mine is that I feel like I’m not so well versed in making the smut more immersive or something idk but your feedback would mean the world to me and maybe help me get better 💗

Oh my god!!! I just read it and I understand why its a fave 😂 I don’t read for Enhypen but I feel like it didn’t matter to me here that much. The words you use arent repetitive and its actually the opposite of not immersive, lord was I engaged here. You really should write more, you have skills 😩 The characters felt realistic, the denying what happened that Thursday, then suddenly the heated kiss and him pulling mc up on the counter..pheww. Honestly the visual in my head of him being just in sweatpants really did it for me 😭 In terms of criticism, I tried hard to try to find something you could improve on, which is dumb because everything has some room for improvement but I think this piece is very strong, and its really good for what it is that criticism would really only be one or two pet peeves. I’m sitting here wondering why you think you’re lacking in writing smut, genuinely when I say you should get something out soon and I’d be the biggest fan..I am not joking!!

Sunghoon was the one who admitted to liking you, and thinking about you. Sunghoon was the one who slid his hands around your waist, pressing you against the surface of the wall as he kissed you.

This part alone had me feeling some type of way, really enjoyed this babe ❤️

#thank you for the treat lol im very pleasantly surprised that this has me wanting more #just plain good writing really #✶ ━━ rana ; answered

[pieroulette]

i know i’m not in the position to make decisions for your blog but if you suddenly lose interest in writing or in K-pop in general, please don’t delete your blog🥹 you’re the only writer i have rn because almost all of my favorite writers here deactivated which means that i will never ever get to read their wonderful works anymore… i love yandere and fairytale genres and you are one of the perfect writers for it! i really adore your works like, they became my bedtime stories lol i’m a silent reader of your works because i’m too shy to reveal my acc obviously why i’m in anonymous😭 you became one of my comfort writers the reason why i don’t want to lose another writer that’s special to me. I may not know you irl but i am your biggest fan. I’m sorry if this is long but i just want to tell you this because you deserve to support for being a wonderful writer. If anyone tells you otherwise, they’re missing out or just blind. Continue to inspire and make people happy! I wish you all the best and happiness in your life inside and outside tumblr. Are you already getting tired of reading? You better not because i don’t really write long letters for anyone. But don’t get ahead of yourself this is just a one time thing🙄🙄

#ily💛

HELPPP I LOVE YOUR SASSINESS IN THE END HAHAHA IT MADE ME LAUGH ILYYY 😭😭 i will treasure this rare and long letters of URS <33 and don't worry anonnie! i understand how u feel cuz I also have a very favourite fic that had disappeared bc the author had disabled her blog, so when i came back to check it a few months later, it's whoosh whoosh disappeared into atoms ?!?!? SOOO GUESS WHAT? I SPENT DAYS TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO GET THAT FIC AGAIN. And I found it after searching for hours by reblogging it in a different way AND I WAS ABLE TO READ IT AGAIN YAYYY !! so haha gotta stop telling bout me but my point is i truly understand how u feel so even if one day if I somehow lose my love for writing, I would never delete my blog cuz i've worked hard with all these fics to just delete. it's nah uh for me ✖️✖️

so don't worry, I won't delete my blog :D it has been my decision ever since I started this blog and SRSLY ANON I LOVE IT WHEN MY STORIES BECAME YOUR BEDTIME STORIES like that rlly aligned w my dream to be a children's book author so thank you, that rlly touched my heart 💜💜 this answer is getting too long haha, but in conclusion. i am so grateful for every word that you spent prob minutes to write, but it's still your precious time so I'm so so thankful for u! thank u very very much anonnie 💛💛💛

#yuanzfavourite💕

[partyinthemysterymachine]

hi! been reading goomt and got to the end of ch62 - i was kind of sad about james being so mean to harry and his weight in it tho :[ is that something that needs to be in there? i wasn't sure if you might revise things at all! i want them to kiss but poor harry!!!! anyway, can't wait to read more! hope ur well! :D

hello!!! :3c and thank you SOOOO MUCH for reading GOOMT!! i REALLY appreciate your time reading it and also coming to ask me a question!! 👀 thank you so so much that means a lot :3!! but oooh you've gotten to the library arc i see >:3c!! you're in for a pretty dense smattering of chapters (in case you haven't maybe noticed LOL) and i hope you enjoy them (as well as pack a snack and remember to hydrate, LOL)

to answer your question and concern: yes - i'm sorry to say - it does need to be in there.

(quick note: i'm gonna sound all formal pretty soon here, and as such, my tone may come across as kind of stiff, defensive, or upset to some, and i just want to quickly say that i am NOT upset, stiff, defensive, or intending to be at all LOL. really honestly deeply we are soooo super chill here, it means a LOT to me that people feel comfortable to come forward with questions and concerns like these and i just want to try to answer as best as i can!! this is me taking u seriously as well as this topic and just trying to get my words out good and comprehensible LOL.)

now believe u me!! i DID have some hesitation. i've thought very hard on how and why i depict the characters the way i do. they are each their own mess of roses and thistles and thorns and black widows. but i don't want to do myself any injustice as a writer by holding back on character traits and my developmental intents with the character just because the character is doing something i personally do not condone, and know might make some readers uncomfortable. it's unfair to the story i'm telling, unfair to myself, unfair to readers, and unfair to the entire process of growth and my choice to tell the story as a glacial slowburn in general to withhold the ugly side of a person.

because GOOMT is an enormous glacial slowburn. it's a transformative piece in the effect that the characters are going to need so much time to learn, to practice, to confront, progress and regress, stifle and bash barriers, and all in order to transform themselves - and it is a constant battle.

James is not the same person as he was all those years ago. to say the town changed him is a gross understatement. his ongoing trend of fatphobia towards Harry is 100% intentional from me as a writer, and from him as a character. this is an ugly piece of James that i thought hard on before including, and wouldn't remove.

cuz see, i've done my deep dive masters thesis on the psychology of James Sunderland GOOMT, but this stupid blond sad wet idiot doesn't know a gat dang thing!!! LOL

James sucks. he's kind of a shitty person. and there are reasons for this. MANY reasons, MANY factors, and many that are interconnected intricate!! but one thing to remember is this one piece of complicated, albeit common human nature:

people are mean. they will think mean things about other people, or even say it to their faces with the intention to hurt. there can be any sort of reason WHY they are mean, too.

James is thinking hurtful fatphobic thoughts about Harry because that's how he feels about Harry on the surface level. he's fat: it's disgusting. it's a reason not to like him. has he always felt like this about fat people? who knows :) is this something that has subconsciously altered him with origins that can be connected back to Eddie..?

oh.. who knows? :) ;) but the fact of the matter is that James himself is only taking this on surface level. he's thinking mean things to be mean. it's distancing behavior; and it's absolutely crucial to his character development that i show his ugliness.

all in all, these threads go deeper and farther than simple fatphobia for James. it's superficial and it's stupid and it's so mean and so ugly and it's crucial character and human development to have, and then work through.

i understand and totally sympathize, as well as respect, any opinions that this would seem out of character for James, or would turn anyone off from him or the story somehow, or any other characterization choices i've made in GOOMT thus far. total respect!! this fic is a whole 'nother partyinthemysterymachine in itself and there are totally likely to be plot points and pieces of character development and/or portrayal that could have some people going :\.

and that's totally normal and natural, even if it sucks all around.

but just want to make a quick note here too that should anything in GOOMT ever not jive anymore, that i 100% encourage, and 100% prefer people who are not enjoying GOOMT, or find something that turns them off at any point, to stop reading.

hit the brix!! unbookmark!! never click it again! that's all perfectly okay with me, because your enjoyment factor of what you read or consume should be more important than trying to stick with something just because of whatever. i'm not bothered. i'd be sad to see anyone go, but MUCH happier knowing that they bowed out for themselves. there is no reason to read GOOMT if it doesn't jive or hits the wrong notes on a topic or if the story takes a turn that feels too much to bear.

anywhoo. so maybe we got A Lil Serious at the end there LOL, BUUUUT i really like to make sure i just. Clarify Things sometimes LOL and like. just let you and other readers know that we're all just here to have fun, maaaaann...... we're all just here to boogie :3c!

ALL IN ALL THO DON'T WORRY LOL, and thank you SOOOOOO SO SO SO much again anon for this ask!! 🥺🥺💖💖🙏🙏🙏 it means so fuckin much to me that you sent it. i hope that i have explained myself and my intents coherently and well, and if there's anything else u might have questions or concerns about PLLSSS don't hesitate to let me know!!

stay healthy and happy and safe and hydrated out there, and mayhaps i'll see you later in the fog!!! :3c!!!!

#ches writes #goomt #WHEW. ANYWHOO YEAH #hope that this answers that question LOL DGLDGLKGFDKLd #ksdflksdgflkfdg #oh my god. hands on hips. i can really get started and going now can't i LOL #anywhoo :3c CHEERS MATE MWAH MWAH THANK U 349734786th AGAAAIINN 🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖💖💖🙏🙏 #it's so so important to me that ppl feel like they can ask me these things so. sobs blessings

[randommusingsstuff]

A long ask since I love your theories so much!

I agree abt the “boink” not happening because either they will make out but get interrupted before it happens or Ben backs down from it. S4 needs to actualize Ben’s story line cuz the events of S2 were really hard on him and while he is friends w Devi he is still reserved cuz he is too afraid of getting hurt again. I don’t think they’ll have sex and later ghost each other, it doesn’t seem like them. And having their first time together and then dating Margot doesn’t seem like Ben either. I also want Devi to have sex cuz she wants to and not because she doesn’t want to be the last of her friends still not having sex. So I 100% agree that they won’t have sex but Devi will be under the impression they’ll be together for senior year so it’s surprised to see him dating Margot.

I think S4 would benefit from exploring Ben’s vulnerability and reservations about falling deeper for Devi and I’m a firm believer Devi is the one that needs to confess to him at the end. Jaren said he got everything he wanted from Ben on S4 plus 406 seems to be another Ben episode and according to some it seems to be the episode before the trip to NYC which is 407, interesting.. I wonder if we get something similar to the UN trip. A lot of parallels.

I believe in a Devi and Ben explicitly romantic ending but the show needs to work on Ben’s perspective for the ship to end in a full circle.

And I believe Devi needs to be faced with the possibility of getting back with Paxton but this time she’s the one to reject him because she realized for herself that she wants Ben and the dream idea she had with Paxton is long gone. Paxton was the one to break up w her the first time. I want Devi to make the choice for herself because Ben is anything but a second choice.

Another thing I’m interested in is that there’s a confirmed wedding this season and since I know Mindy is a sucker for romcom moments I know we will get some Benvi foreshadowing with the wedding speeches by the couple in a very classic romcom fashion. I am optimistic that this season will tie Benvi in the endgame I’ve always known they were destined to have.

Yes.

Yes to all of this. Perfect post, no notes.

It's like you plucked my own thoughts out of my brain and worded them better than I ever could.

I've never spoken about this, but one of my biggest aggravations with season 2 is that we did not get Ben's perspective. I understand that they wanted to "even the scales" by giving us a Paxton episode, but they deprived us of some much-needed character building. Ben is about to have a POV episode in every season except the one where he needed it the most.

And fwiw, I still think that it's possible that Devi and Ben had sex, but the writers are going to have to put in a considerable amount of legwork to make the general audience understand his actions after the fact.

Okay, back to gushing about this post. Yes to Devi having to reject Paxton. I made an entire post about Devi's agency, stating that Devi has to have both options available to her so she can choose what she wants. I've seen people say that "obviously, since Paxton's gone, she's going to go with Ben." Season 4 should dispel that notion. She’s choosing Ben because she loves him, not because she can’t have someone else.

And finally, yes to the classic rom com ending. We're getting a very traditional, (hopefully?) semi-Bollywood-inspired love story.

So in conclusion: yes.

#benvi #nhie #asks #anon and I are like 🤞

[terapsina]

ao3 wrapped / #3. 8. 9. 12. 15. 17. 19. 26. 28. 30

Duuuude 👀. Well. Okay.

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

She's Come Undone and Set Free. I mean it's doing incredibly well kudos-wise but I really am just so proud of that fic? I have so many issues with the way TVD did the girls dirty, not letting them deal with their trauma, putting them in abusive relationships and then either pretending they were romantic or that they should just get over it, and then the further the story went the worse it got with pitting these life-long friends against each other instead of letting them have each other's backs and... I wanted to fix it. Also I think sometimes rage is healthy and justified and the a sane reaction to have and I'm proud of letting Elena, Caroline and Bonnie actually express it.

8. Pairing you wrote the most for this year?

The most words were probably written for Elejah, but it's hard to say for sure because so much of that - above mentioned - fic focuses on other relationships too that I'd have to comb through the whole thing to know for sure (I mean there's Elena's friendship with Caroline, a lot of making Damon face some painful justice, some frenemies to friends for Rebekah and Elena, Bonnie and Elena making up after the attempted murder incident, a bit of Klaroline; and surprise Bonbekah that I accidentally made myself start shipping (which... thanks brain, now I'm facing withdrawal)).

9. Favorite pairing you wrote for this year?

That's a hard question to answer. Honestly... maybe Hizzie? I know I didn't write for them AS MUCH as for some other things (which I plan to change for next year because goddamn do they deserve some proper attention) but what I did write I just really enjoyed writing.

12. How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year?

It would be so nice if I was capable of finishing a whole fic before starting to post it, alas...

Really though, there's the She's Come Undone and Set Free which I will finish if it's the last thing I do. And Morai's Call to Hope, which I haven't written for for a year but am planning to go back to after I finish that first one.

The rest of my WIPs... RIP.

15. What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

See above.

17. Your favorite character to write this year?

Oooooh. You know. I think it might be Rebekah. Her air of sharp sarcasm that's covering some quite deep loneliness. Her being kind of an evil evil younger sister (and aunt in one other fic). Her realizing she's attracted to Bonnie, shrugging and immediately playing her shot cuz she's not as dumb as her brothers. FUN.

19. What’s one pairing you want to explore next year?

Hizzie. I want to get inside Lizzie's head about her sire bond, about her feelings for Hope, her turning. And Hope without her humanity was SO INTERESTING, especially because she was actually very emotional about the whole thing, and very different in many ways from all the other characters we've seen without humanity. I really want to play in that sandbox.

26. What’s your most common category?

Most fics for a particular ship this year: Hizzie with 4.

28. Favorite work you wrote this year?

Well my favorite FINISHED fic this year is 6 Times Bellamy Tried to Forget That He Was in Love With Clarke (+1 Time He Couldn’t Anymore) where I go through six seasons of Bellamy pining and then give him and Clarke a happy ending. I wrote those 13.6k words in like 3 days (if you're wondering if I ate or slept, the answer is no) and I love that fic.

30. Biggest surprise while writing this year?

Not sure if it counts as a surprise. But I wrote somewhere around 45k words this year. And though that's a drop in the ocean for a lot of fic writers, for me that's a pretty huge deal.

#writing #answers #anonymous #ask game #ao3 wrapped #elejah #bonbekah #bellarke #hizzie #terapsina rambles #terapsina's writing rambles

[autumnslance]

Hi Aeryn! I have a question. I’ve been told I make very defined characters but I don’t have a real goal or growth in mind. What do I need to do to develop a goal or have my character have growth? I hope you are having a good evening!

I have no idea what Aeryn's up to on her private island (I think Thancred's visiting), but I, Lyn, had a nice evening watching a pal play the opening of Lost in Random which is so far quite a charming game with a Studio Laika films vibe and look, and a unique combat system involving dice and cards. 😉

Honestly my own RP characters' goals always, to me, seem pretty vague and character growth/change kind of happens as story does. Especially in an open ended long term setting like a RPG-MMO. I find it much easier in smaller, more structured games, like tabletop RP, to determine a RP character's goals in line with the rest of the party and/or the GM's themes and story.

Or at least, I have a hard time describing goals in concrete terms a lot of the time; I maybe have a nebulous idea or feeling, but it's not something I can articulate easily--which probably sounds funny coming from me, but it's true.

Trying to plan character growth in detail is a fool's game to my mind; you can have an idea of how/where you want a character to move towards, but a good story may very well upend those plans, either in RP or in standalone writing.

I have had some GMs tell me that some of my characters are too reactionary, and need more assertion and drive and goals of their own, but that's an aspect of me and how I play. I also like to be support, even to just letting others drive the story and bouncing off them, discovering my own character's goals along the way. When I do have characters with existing driving goals and plans, it tends to be for a specific type, or reason, and even then are often simple and/or short term. Sometimes cuz I am running a game so my antagonists have goals for the party to fight against, or allies have goals for them to join. Sometimes cuz I am being a plot device for a GM, such as various characters I played when staffing our old Vampire LARP; I had control of my chargen and goals, but within very loose parameters set by the GM, which I built off of.

Aeryn's goals and growth are determined a great deal by MSQ, since I don't really RP her and have her as a fanfic WoL, so many things are predicated on that. Like, she wants to help the research into finding stable ways to travel to other shards so the Scions can see the people they love on the First again (particularly reuniting Ryne and Thancred). That's a goal that formed due to her particular connection to the Scions and the course of plot...which has been sidetracked by helping Vrtra's quest, which as both his friend and a Thavnairian is also important to her.

A lot of her growth has come unexpectedly as I puzzle out her reactions to MSQ and side story events, and sometimes they tend to surprise me. It was during a previous years' FFXIV Write as I was doing tank role quests in ShB and pondering the day's word that I realized she'd utterly lost any faith in divinity she once had. It's shaped a few other things since then. Also the relationship...wasn't supposed to happen, a goal I had was no shipping in just telling a WoL's story, but I also didn't fight it (too much) when it fell into place. Sometimes a character chooses a goal the writer didn't consciously intend, and it's better that way.

Dark Autumn tries to keep her FC running and support her comrades while always improving upon herself in some way. That's honestly it; she has what she wants. But she's also a bit of a wish fulfillment character and more put together than most.

C'oretta doesn't know what her long term goals are yet; she's very young, very freewheeling, and not thinking too hard about the future. So her focus tends to be quite immediate; learn a new discipline and make sure everyone else stays cheered up are about the extent of her plans for now. Maybe she'll 'grow up' someday. Haven't decided.

Iyna, for all her backstory details, really has no goals or plans at this time. She's kind of stewing in the background still, sorting who she is and how, and will likely need to be drug toward growth and new goals for herself.

It really just depends on the kind of player/writer you are, and how you mesh (or don't) with the folks around you. For standalone stories the characters should want/need something, goals to drive the plot. Even if that goal is simply to escape whatever fate has thrown their way; neither Bilbo or Frodo Baggins wanted to go on adventures after all, but they did, with a goal of eventually getting home again, though their goals shifted and they changed and grew through those adventures with their companions.

Character growth/development isn't always positive, either. Sometimes people get worse or regress through their trials (Laurentius learned nothing and fell in with a worse crowd for it, contrasted against Wilred who strove to become heroic). Some folks don't really need to change drastically; they know who they are, and/or have had their major growths before they go on their adventures, and it's about how they deal with current situations, perhaps caused by the fallout of their previous lives/actions, or perhaps just who they are now and how they handle things differently compared to how they would have in their youth (A lot of author Roger Zelazny's characters fall into this, and I tend to see Y'shtola and Gaius as this way too).

In the end though, while others may have critiques of your characters, the more important thing is, are you, their player/writer, happy with the characters? Do you know they have goals/plans/growth opportunities, even if you have a hard time articulating them? More short term wants than long term? Are you just letting the chips fall where they may and see how the character comes out of it? Are you writing more plot-driven stories where the characters are pulled along by the whims of fate and have to struggle for any in-world agency? That's valid, and while it may not work for everyone, if it works for you, I wouldn't sweat too much what others think about that aspect of your character development.

#About Me #Blogging #Writing #Character Development #Character Goals #Character Growth

[kakairu-rocks]

We are excited to introduce our next shining star for the Creator Spotlight... @could-be-anybody!

This is an activity where we reach out to one of the talented people in our community each month to find out all about them and their kakairu creations, and then show them off to the world!

We hope you enjoy learning about AkoAko & her creations as much as we did. Please give her some love ❤️  

Pronouns: She/Her

Type of Creator: Writer

Where to find her:

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Read the exciting interview below the cut, or on the forum!

If you would like a chance to be in the spotlight too, the only thing you have to do is be a member of the kakairu rocks forum, and be a creator; and we will contact you, ourselves!

1. How long have you been creating KakaIru fanworks?

Hmm. I started writing KakaIru around, 2021. So that makes it 2 years now

2. What are you working on right now?

Lol, I have so many on my WIP docs. Maybe a handful? Though, Currently I am trying to finish ‘IRUKA’ that I started writing last year.

3. What is your favourite trope to create for?

I am not quite sure, but recently I’ve been reading lots of Omegaverse mangas and reincarnations. So currently I kinda want to write a fic around those. But I can’t promise. Oh, but when I started writing KakaIru, I was very much into genderbend stories. That’s why I have lots of Kakashi-Iruka fics with Iruka as the opposite gender, or the other way around. But mostly with Iruka as a woman.

4. Which of your creations is your favourite, and why?

That’s a very hard question. Hahah. I get embarrassed by most of my fics. But I do have one. I wrote a fic called ‘Rumor’. Where a female Kakashi is trying to court a dense Iruka. I just thought it would be fun to write Kakashi as a girl, but with Iruka being too soft, kind and a gentleman. Kakashi had to take matters into her own hands. And I like how it ended. It’s also funny how Iruka was trying to stop the rumors circulating about him and Kakashi, and ended up with…welp. No spoilers. hehehe

5. Do you have any WIPs you’re excited about?

Oh, definitely. I do have. IRUKA. I know I already mentioned how there’s no Good ending. But I am still excited to finish writing the last chapter, to which I can’t promise when I will post. Had a busy month, and recently I’ve been into this online game that I used to play back in 2007.

6. Do you have any original characters? If so, tell us about them!

Honestly, I am not much for OCs. unless, they are very likable. But I prefer creating one just for the flow of the story? Like the one I created….not sure which one either. I created a few random OC’s. hahahah

7. What was your hardest piece to create, and why?

The hardest piece would be this one, ‘Wrong decisions begets…’ I wrote this fic for a gift during the ‘Springtime of Romance: Youthful Passion’. I honestly had a hard time on how I should end the story, thus why there are two endings. Hahaha. Also it might have been the first for me to write a fic with a different plot. I usually go with soft, romance, genderbend. You know the good kind, cuz they are easier to write.

8. Do you have any favorite scenes from something you’ve created?

Favorite scene. hmmmm. I do have some but the top on the list was on the fic ‘Pure’ where toddler Kakashi observes Baby Iruka, and is still a papa’s boy. Also Sakumo is there.

9. Where does your inspiration come from?

I am not sure… But maybe when I’m bored or when I am in the middle of something. mmm…But every time I watch Naruto, I always get inspired by some episodes, and decide to write one with a twist. Or when I read something amusing about KakaIru, and would plot something involving what I learned about the characters. Sometimes fan art gives me ideas too. In other words, it just sprung out at random times and I do enjoy writing. Writing, in a way, is a stress reliever for me too, and it’s enjoyable to play out my thoughts in writing.

10. Which of your creations is the most meaningful to you, and why?

I think it’s the very first fic that I wrote with KakaIru. ‘Iruka’s Hair tie’. It has a bit of memory from the past. A bittersweet one. Lol. But when an artist that I am subscribed to liked that fic. It made it more meaningful for me, and kinda boosted my happiness with writing. She also did another art based on another one of my fic, so I was even more happy.

#Creator Spotlight #kakairu.rocks #creator interview #talented creator #kakairu fanfic #kakairu #kkir #kakashi x iruka #hatake kakashi #umino iruka

[embyrinitalics]

I'd love to know more about your writing process if you're willing to talk about it! From the initial idea to brainstorming and planning to how you structure your stories to actually putting words down -- I'm always curious to know what the process is like for writers whose work I enjoy ^^

Meep! 😱 What an incredibly cool ask! I am willing to talk about it, but spoilers it will probably be embarrassing and uninspiring and a total mess and with THAT disclaimer out of the way let's goooo!

So right out front I will say I don't feel like I have much of a "process." I am very unstructured, never use outlines, and rarely know where a story is going when I start out other than a vague direction. I definitely discover as I write, which works super great for me in short form stories (like the ones I spit out for Whumptober), but very very poorly with long fiction. Which explains the 4 1/2 year long Calamitous debacle.

My ideas often spawn out of something shallow (omg wouldn't it be hot if Link was a Dragon? OMG what if he was blind!!! OMGGG WHAT IF HE WAS A HOT MANIPULATIVE POE??!), but ultimately those scenarios are just playgrounds for exploring character stories. Getting to know my characters in those environments is priority #1. Cuz if I don't know who they are and what kind of baggage they're toting around, I won't know how best to torment them, amirite?

Sometimes as I'm discovering who they are, the characters will end up driving the plot hard to unexpected places. The Defiance set from Prius Dementat comes to mind immediately. When I started that piece, I did not know that Zelda was actually the Daughter of Hylia, whose birth prompted the rampage of an imperial war machine that devastated Link's childhood and country. But as I got to know him—who he was, where he came from, how he viewed the world—it seemed like the obvious way to make his life infinitely more difficult.

Character always comes before plot for me (chronologically, but also just insofar as what I'm personally interested in), and as a result my plots tend to be predictable and lack depth. But I think (hope?) that because I'm so laser-focused on the characters and how they interact with the world, that even if it is uncomplicated, it is at least believable. I want them to feel like real people having real reactions. I want them to be intelligent enough to keep up with the reader (or have good reason not to), but also imperfect and emotionally flawed enough to make mistakes. I want their conversations to fit their voice and reflect motivation, and not just be an excuse for exposition or to move the plot along.

My actual "method" involves a lot of rolling around in bed early in the morning (I get my best ideas when I'm groggy LOL), going for walks in the woods, listening to just the right song on repeat, jotting down lines and ideas in notebooks and then misplacing them, and staring at my laptop screen in the dark waiting for inspiration. Interruptions are the absolute worst; I definitely work off the unconscious association of words and mental images and ideas that happens when I'm "in the zone," so having a comfortable room where I can close the door and pop my headphones in is great for the creative juices.

One thing I do A LOT of that I kind of assumed other writers do too but maybe not? Is I'll have a scene in my head, but if I try to actually write it out I'll get caught up in word choice and pacing and it'll all start to escape me before I can get it down, so I end up smashing an inelegant paragraph together as a note to myself. Here's one such paragraph in my The Wolf King doc:

(And when he finally tears away, eyes dark and wild and chest heaving, he says, “Pack your things,” and he pushes off the wall to leave her. “You’re going home.” OOHHHHHHHHHHHH lol And she goes back into the shed because she does NOT have the energy to chase after him and then just faceplants in the blankets and cries a little bit. When she goes back inside they’re already packing up her stuff, and Paya is like WHAT DID YOU DO and Zelda’s like when am I supposed to leave and she’s like “Tomorrow morning.” Link is predictably missing all day, and she ends up sneaking into his room and Paya sees her and she’s like “I have to talk to him,” and then Paya’s all “If I get in trouble, I’m blaming you,” and helps her get in.)

lol yup so that's how it starts in my brain... I'm not entirely sure how it ends up legible. But I have literally pages and pages of story written in that mishmash, so. That's a thing.

I don't know if... ANY of this is what you were looking for 😂 But hopefully you found this ramble amusing, if nothing else. As you can see I'm disorganized and really struggle to complete things, but while I'm sure there's a way for me to write that would end up being more productive, I have a feeling it would be a lot less fun, so I've stopped looking for it.

Thanks so much for the ask! 🥰✨

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