#and honestly even earlier than that

[ahhale-werewolves]

my own personal little headcanon that just makes me giggle and kick my feet is that in S3b when Will asks if Hannibal is in love with him to Bedelia, he 100% always knew this man’s been in love with him. he just wanted to be a shit and make bedelia say it.

#hannigram #hannibal #hannibal lecter #will graham #headcanon #like will is a genius and you're telling me that when hannibal was crying over him in the kitchen after saying he let will SEE him... #WILL DIDN'T KNOW RIGHT THEN THAT HANNIBAL WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM?? #and honestly even earlier than that #maybe it wasnt like an oh he's in love with me but more of like a feeling #and we know Will is good at FEELING #i personally believe it was sometime during one of their late nights in hannibal's office when they're drinking wine or something #they're just sitting there in comfortable silence for a moment and will happened to finally catch hannibal looking at him and it hits him #will is like 'oh shit he loves me' #which is what prompts will's complicated feelings during the remainder of season 2 and why he ultimately wanted hannibal to escape #he was fighting with what he knows is 'right' and what FEELS right #which is why the ending of S2 is such a betrayal because will's not only betrayed by hannibal but he did betray him because he couldn't #not partially follow through with the plan to catch the man but he tried to warn him to get him out of there because he regrets it finally #idk this show is literally so beautifully written.

[muninnhuginn]

Thinking about "your weakness is how you always want to be the hero" and how the series returns to this at the end

Li Lianhua hated how he acted as Li Xiangyi and spent years trying to distance himself from it, but ultimately he still fell back into the similar patterns, for all his added experience

His main priority was always to "do the right thing" regardless of how that would impact on those around him. And it *did* impact those around him. From Qiao Wanmian and Shan Gudao as Li Xiangyi to Fang Duobing and Di Feisheng as Li Lianhua

Giving the Styx flower to the emperor so he could use it as leverage to guarantee Fang Duobing and his family's safety. Using the last of his power to save Yun Biqiu. Constantly putting others above himself whilst actively refusing to recognise that his self-sacrificial nature would hurt those he cared about most

And sure, he thinks he's going to die anyway. They're going to be hurt regardless and he can't do anything about that. His odds are low of the Styx flower even working. But ultimately, he refuses to even consider trying. Li Xiangyi has been dead a long time and Li Lianhua is just there to tide things over. What value is the life of a ghost

To the end, he lives and dies a hero. To the end, he refuses to live for himself.

#sth about how he almost managed to live for himself but his past and need to do right doomed him. #those missing years before canon starts were probably the closest he got but even then the knowledge he couldn't use martial arts #must have killed him (no pun intended). because he'd put so much stock in his identity as sigu sect leader + hero + prodigy #so to have such a massive part of his identity stripped from him... honestly it doesn't seem that he ever fully comes to terms with it #but he makes progress and he tries to do better. + that leads to him becoming a different type of 'hero' than the symbol he was originally #deep down he wants to help people with all he has but his capacity isn't infinite + at some point can only be taken from himself #mysterious lotus casebook #mlc spoilers #also to be clear I mention shan gudao not to say lxy should have realised earlier bc for a lot of the time he was too young to notice #and later on sgd did better at hiding his intentions. but more for how lxy tunnel visioned towards his idea of righteousness #and steamrolled over everyone else. both sgd and qwm were placed far below the importance of the sigu sect #and lxy's arrogance made it such that sigu became reliant on him alone as he shut others out (hence domino fall once he went). #idk if he could ever have 'fixed' what was btwn him and sgd bc it was so deep rooted but I do think that his actions #helped convince sgd that sgd was entirely in the right to choose his path #mlc #edit: just went and checked the exact wording of the TL and it's actually 'you like being a hero' rather than 'you want to be the hero' #which is different but still close enough in implications for my point to stand (I think)

[acewizardinspace]

I think the 'the jedi use child soldiers' thing is stupid for a lot of reasons, but among those is that this is a complete misunderstanding of how children's media works. Kids want to see themselves doing amazing things and giving that an in depth analysis that boils down to 'all these adults are evil' is poor, bad faith, media criticism.

That being said, if you compare Star Wars to just about any other YA work, the jedi are miles better as far as child care goes. Canonly every single one of these 'kids in danger' has a dedicated adult who is ideally supposed to be with them to teach and protect them. Very uncommon for the genre.

So if people are mad at the jedi for this, I can't fathom what their reaction to other YA literature is. And if they hate YA literature, idk, maybe they shouldn't be reading YA. Just a thought.

#in defense of the jedi #pro jedi #the other reasons the child solider thing is dumb is that most padawans are not children #like ahsoka was considered young. Dooku was what 16 when he became one? Obi-Wan was 25 and knighted earlier than planned #even if they were knighted early because of the war (which i think is stupid and there is no evidence for that) #that doesn't make them all kids... #and the character we see as child padawans are clearly there for children to watch and enjoy #I mean unpredictable things happen but child padawans are not supposed to be facing danger alone #but eased into it by a trusted adult which is not what happens in ever other YA book #Honestly if you hate the jedi for this but don't equally hate every other adult in every other YA book #maybe you are just LOOKING for reasons to hate the jedi. In which case idk maybe examine why that is #and if you do hate all adults in YA maybe it is time to move onto adult literature because you grew up #which is awesome! I love adult books but judging kids media by these standards and hating people for wanting simple stuff #in their book created to be simple is kind of rude you know? #i realize this post is probably hitting a wasp's nest but I mean if you want to take what I say out of context #(because in context I didn't do or say anything wrong) #well that says more about you than me doesn't it #my thoughts

[westywallowing]

the thing that really gets me about ocd is that you can have obsessive thoughts about ANYTHING. and that shit will keep you up at night no matter how tired you are bcuz it's all your brain will think about. close ur eyes and u can see it like it taped to the back of your eyelids

#like i gotta be up in less than 5 hours can i please. catch a break #and the best part!! is that sometimes the things your brain is looped on dont bother you in the moment #like earlier when you initially saw or heard about or thought about the thing #but guess what- its later now and youre sleepy now and sleepy brains dont care about things the way awake ones do #or sometimes care way too much #i honestly can hardly watch shows anymore for lengths at a time becauee then my brain will start to latch onto it #so even when im tired and want to sleep i will not stop thinkint about it #like ughhjjfjfkgkgk #thank u for coming to my ted talk #westy's shit #ocd

[simcardiac-arrested]

#i wouldnt usually care about stuff like this. but every month or so i get two or three asks like this and i just got one earlier today #and look. i’m not saying u can’t hate ns or dislike them. feel free to send me asks that are like ‘ns you are stupid and you suck and i hate #you’ he IS stupid and he DOES suck and he is quite hateable. that’s fine #it’s just when you start sending me wholeass paragraphs explaining every single detail you hate about ns and how they deserve a slow and #painful death that i think two things: 1. you are finite waves reincarnated 2. you are weird! and strange even! #what are you on about! ns absolutely does NOT deserve a slow and painful death! and you absolutely do Not have to be so hostile and #aggressive towards them as a character! like Please relax. we serve bullshit here sir #most anti-ns asks i get are funny and are light hearted because it’s just people messing with ns on purpose or mocking him and making him #mad because he easily gets mad and it’s funny. Like those asks are fine. it’s another deal entirely when you send me this detailed and— #honestly—really mean message. I guess i am not surprised considering how similar ns and pebbles are in terms of personality #(and circumstances somewhat) and we all know how the fandom treats pebbles. even worse than ns. but yeah anyway #they are not an irredeemable unforgivable monster and they do not deserve to die. Hope this helps #to me even calling them a Bad Person is kind of a stretch. let alone the shit some of you are saying about them #we have to get normal about mentally ill and traumatized and autistic characters gang! #crammerposting #i also do not appreciate when people insuniate that ns is stupid for overworking himself and damaging his structure and so on and so forth #yes it is his fault but that didn’t mean he deserved what he had coming to him or anything like that. be nice to him

[thegreatyin]

What is the Scoundrel thinking about as they go through in this ship? Did they get down to the lowest level yet.

...did they find the thing that is in the deck. Admist the wax?

it isn't thinking anything, really. it's just- moving. quickly. no it's not breathing frantically that's just how its chest works. no its hands aren't trembling they just happen to feel a bit chilly today. if they pick on the (now thoroughly blood-soaked) bandages on their arms, well, that's their business!! it doesn't mean they're scared. they're perfectly calm. look at them!!! they're smiling!!!!! they're having a Delightful time!!!!!!!!

now where was that pesky-

oh.

oh, they need to get the hell out of here.

#tldr; panicked screaming #ask #fallen london #fallen london spoilers #honored to just halfway liveblog this specific chapter of evolution to yall lol #the most relief they've had on this entire ship was finding their bird. they actually quite like their bird. #mostly because it enables piracy which enables money which is the sole reason they tolerate zailing period #but yknow. small steps. #ive been walking around without the mask mostly just to see the cool horror text but on the rp side of things #the delighted status probably just falls onto the exact end of 'fucking around with their mind' that the scoundrel Doesn't Enjoy #so they avoid it. as much as possible. even when the horrors #honestly going by character stuff alone putting it on would probably increase their nightmares tenfold rather than remove em #but gameplay mechanics are gameplay mechanics and i don't mind lol #they arent even particularly bothered by body horror. they wanna train shapeling arts. #they did the entire Body Horror Shebang in godfall earlier in this very same questline #it's. somehow very specifically that + fucking with their head. also being on a boat in the middle of the zee with no way out #honestly their weird inexplicable boat phobia may be like 70% of this

[sovonight]

;

#still thinking abt that scene in the underdark where xan is (force) propositioned by that drow lady #and while his first response is shock/apprehension ('*me*??') #radri loses regulation over the volume of her voice going 'what?! no!!' louder than anyone's ever really heard her before #when challenged though she can't come up with a drow-valid reason why hunrae *can't* just take xan #(yes i just now remembered her name lmao) #the thoughts 'bc consent??' 'he'd hate that' '*he's mine he promised*' keep getting translated into an ineffective verbal 'you just cant' #so xan saves himself and falls into a worse mood after it and radri falls into an equally poor mood at how she couldnt do anything/she can #never really do anything can she #oh but there's a kind of equivalent/reversal moment when radri's offered a 'night with one of with phaere's males' as a reward #and xan is just silently panicking/trying to reassure himself with 'she wouldn't' 'she'd hate that' 'she loves me... right?' #radri honestly has an easier time with the excuse this time bc she's not feeling as much panic/pressure as earlier #but the excuse that comes out is along the lines of 'uh monogamy is custom in my city and i already have a male--' #'NO no not one of these guys in my party!! (don't look too closely at them!)' #'i prefer not to travel with him! to make the reunions sweeter...??' #xan's mind catches on 'i prefer not to travel with him' and he gets in a bitter mood bc that might as well be true-- #bc really what use is he when he can't even do anything to help/save/protect her despite being right by her side #the underdark has them both on an internal monologue of 'i hate this' but while xan's is mainly towards their surroundings #radri's is almost entirely inward & so isnt eased the moment they reach the surface like xan's is

[goldensunset]

hi this is re: early registration for students in the military (sorry i know you didn't really ask, and you don't have to answer publicly or at all)

the basic answer is those students get specific training schedules and duties while they are also taking classes. since it's technically an order from the federal government, the military enrollment takes precedence over their class schedule. but the university wants these students to graduate on time too, so it has to ensure military students don't keep getting shut out of classes they need. hence early registration. it was the same at my uni.

imo it makes sense, but isn't really something worth gloating over either yknow (like you got into the class easily at the expense of having this extra responsibility all semester)

however if that brat kid you mentioned is only in a military family, i don't know what to say, except that that sounds like some nepo bullshit and you're right to be mad about it aha

yeah i think my roommate said as much… i mean i get it but the whole thing is still really bizarre to me. or maybe it’s just bc i hate the military lol

#that guy’s annoying but alas. another victim of the system #is it worth it to you child. #stay safe #asks #tea-of-destiny #the other thing is just that like. #he’s a junior he doesn’t *need* to take this class right away #(as in he will be one) #i mean props to him for getting it out of the way earlier but like #there’s a reason people usually take it as seniors. it’s 1. mandatory 2. only in the fall 3. has only one section 4. has only 20 seats #think about that. an entire major/concentration needs it but only *twenty people per year* can take it #therefore seats fill up really fast and therefore usually only seniors (who have first priority for registration) get in #honestly it’s more the university’s fault than anything of course but like #the audacity to fill up a spot in that class when it isn’t even critical for you at that moment like it is for so many others #and then to brag about it

[katyspersonal]

🅱️loodborne height headcanons

But first, the canon ones - the official video introducing Maria's figma ( x ) reveals that Maria (and the Doll, as follows) is 6'7'' (201 cm), whereas default Paleblood Hunter is 5'11'' (180 cm).

Then by stretching the image of ripped models ( x ) across the chart with the heights and comparing them to Maria, I concluded Micolash is 5'11'' (180 cm), Gascoigne is 7'2'' (218 cm) and Gehrman is ~7'7''-7'8'' (approximately 233 cm)! Now to the actual hcs! Centimeters scaling is approximate since inches do not convert into very round numbers.

Two lists - in alphabetical order and from tallest to shortest, as self-reference. Might be a subject to change if I ever manage to compare models between themselves better!

In alphabetical order:

Adeline (initial) - 5'6'' (168 cm)

Adeline (transformed) - 6'9'' (206 cm)

Adella - 5'7'' (170 cm)

Alfred - 6'2'' (188 cm)

Amelia - 6'10'' (208 cm)

Annalise - 6'7'' (201 cm)

Antal - 5'10'' (178 cm)

Archibald - 5'8'' (173 cm)

Arianna - 5'5'' (165 cm)

Bestial hunter - 6'1'' (185 cm)

Black Church female hunter - 6'0'' (183 cm)

Black Church male hunter - 5'8'' (173 cm)

Blood Minister - 6'6'' (198 cm)

Brador - 6'1'' (185 cm)

Cainhurst librarian (cut content) - 5'1'' (155 cm)

Carla - 6'5'' (196 cm)

Caryll - 6'2'' (188 cm)

Chapel Dweller - 6'11'' (211 cm)

Chester - 6'0'' (183 cm)

Cleric Beast of the bridge (as human) - 6'0'' (183 cm)

Crow of Cainhurst - 5'11'' (180 cm)

Damian - 6'2'' (188 cm)

Desperate Hunter (Yharnam) - 5'11'' (180 cm)

Desperate hunter (Church) - 6'1'' (185 cm)

Djura - 5'7'' (170 cm)

Djura's Ally - 6'2'' (188 cm)

Djura's apprentice - 5'7'' (170 cm)

Dores - 6'4'' (193 cm)

Edgar - 6'2.5'' (190 cm)

Eileen - 5'7'' (170 cm)

Fishing Hamlet priest - 6'11.5 (210 cm)

Forgotten Madman - 5'4'' (163 cm)

Gascoigne - 7'2'' (218 cm)

Gatekeeper - 6'0'' (183 cm)

Gehrman - 7'7.5'' (233 cm)

Gilbert - 5'10'' (178 cm)

Gratia - 7'9'' (236 cm)

Gremia - 6'6.5 (200 cm)

Henriett - 5'8'' (173 cm)

Henryk - 6'0'' (183 cm)

Iosefka + imposter - 5'10'' (178 cm)

Izzy - 6'2'' (188 cm)

Josef - 6'1'' (185 cm)

King (initial) - 5'8.5'' (174 cm)

King (transformed) - 6'8'' (203 cm)

Laurence - 5'2'' (157 cm)

Leo - 6'5'' (196 cm)

Logarius - 8'1'' (246 cm)

Lonely old dear - 5'4'' (163 cm)

Ludwig (as human) - 7'00'' (213 cm)

Madaras Twins - 5'10'' (178 cm)

Madman's Escort - 6'1'' (185 cm)

Maria + Doll - 6'7'' (201 cm)

Micolash - 5'11'' (180 cm)

Older daughter - 4'3'' (130 cm)

Olek - 5'7'' (170 cm)

Paleblood Hunter - 5'11'' (180 cm)

Patches - 6'2.5'' (190 cm)

Queen Killer - 6'1'' (185 cm)

Rom - 5'0'' (152 cm)

Sceptical man - 5'9'' (175 cm)

Simon - 5'7'' (170 cm)

Suspicious Beggar - 5'9'' (175 cm)

Valtr - 6'3'' (191 cm)

Viola - 5'10'' (178 cm)

Vitus - 6'6'' (198 cm)

Wallar - 6'0'' (183 cm)

White Church female hunter - 5'9'' (175 cm)

Willem - 6'10'' (208 cm)

Yahar'gul hunter (Tonitrus) - 6'0'' (183 cm)

Yahar'gul hunter (cane) - 5'11'' (180 cm)

Yahar'gul hunter (cannon) - 6'6'' (198 cm)

Yahar'gul hunter (in the cell) - 5'9'' (175 cm)

Yahar'gul hunters (the twins) - 5'7'' (170 cm)

Yamamura - 5'5'' (165 cm)

Yharnam - 7'3'' (221 cm)

Younger daughter - 3'8'' (112 cm)

Yurie - 5'8'' (173 cm)

From tallest to shortest:

8'1'' (246 cm) - Logarius

7'9'' (236 cm) - Gratia

7'7.5'' (233 cm) - Gehrman

7'3'' (221 cm) - Yharnam

7'2'' (218 cm) - Gascoigne

7'00'' (213 cm) - Ludwig (as human)

6'11.5 (210 cm) - Fishing Hamlet priest

6'11'' (211 cm) - Chapel Dweller

6'10'' (208 cm) - Willem, Amelia

6'9'' (206 cm) - Adeline (transformed)

6'8'' (203 cm) - King (transformed)

6'7'' (201 cm) - Maria + Doll, Annalise

6'6.5 (200 cm) - Gremia

6'6'' (198 cm) - Yahar'gul hunter (cannon), Vitus, Blood Minister

6'5'' (196 cm) - Leo, Carla

6'4'' (193 cm) - Dores

6'3'' (191 cm) - Valtr

6'2.5'' (190 cm) - Edgar, Patches

6'2'' (188 cm) - Caryll, Damian, Alfred, Izzy, Djura's ally

6'1'' (185 cm) - Bestial hunter, Brador, Josef, Madman's Escort, Queen Killer, Desperate hunter (Church)

6'0'' (183 cm) - Gatekeeper, Henryk, Chester, Black Church female hunter, Wallar, Cleric Beast of the bridge (as human), Yahar'gul hunter (Tonitrus)

5'11'' (180 cm) - Micolash, Paleblood hunter, Crow of Cainhurst, Desperate Hunter (Yharnam), Yahar'gul hunter (cane)

5'10'' (178 cm) - Iosefka + imposter, Antal, Gilbert, Madaras twins, Viola

5'9'' (175 cm) - White Church female hunter, Yahar'gul hunter (in the cell), Suspicious Beggar, Sceptical man

5'8.5'' (174 cm) - King (initial)

5'8'' (173 cm) - Yurie, Black Church male hunter, Henriett, Archibald

5'7'' (170 cm) - Eileen, Adella, Simon + Djura's apprentice, Djura, Yahar'gul hunters (the twins), Olek

5'6'' (168 cm) - Adeline (initial)

5'5'' (165 cm) - Yamamura, Arianna

5'4'' (163 cm) - Forgotten Madman, Lonely old dear

5'2'' (157 cm) - Laurence

5'1'' (155 cm) - Cainhurst librarian (cut content)

5'0'' (152 cm) - Rom

4'3'' (130 cm) - Older daughter

3'8'' (112 cm) - Younger daughter

#bloodborne #bloodborne headcanons #use later #multi character post #heights #self-reference #see? laurence is not THAT tiny! he is the TALLEST in top 5 tiniest! #sdjfjfhsddd #honestly thooooo let him be SMOL #when you see a short man you do not bully him you kiss him and hold him in your arms like a cat AAAAAAAA #fun fact: earlier Rom was 155 cm and Laurence was 150 cm #but i was convinced that even for a comic effect that's TOO little especially for a male #so i sorta swapped them #honestly rom being the shortest (not counting the children) is somewhat accidental #because most of the known cast appears to be either abnormally tall or men that seem to have average male heights #and whatever women we do see just don't hit me as shorter than average 5'4 or 5'6 #it's okay rom you will grow big some day...... #TOO big actually ahahahah #adeline had quite a height leap tho #because she drank her milk- i mean brain fluid xD

[aeolianblues]

Blur - Girls & Boys, Coachella 2024, weekend 2 (20 April 2024)

‘Wow... sorry, but for me, that's like... that's the spirit.’

Damon was in a playful mood during this song, wasn't he? Taking full advantage of a slightly more responsive crowd than weekend 1 of Coachella, he got up into the crowd, headbutted a beach ball, was a bit purposely out of time and key to change things up; "spin it if you want: girls sing 'boys', boys sing 'girls'" during the second chorus, and I think he was pleased to be playing with and playing to a crowd that was receptive. Slightly shambolic performance, but isn't that the Blur we know and love.

I noticed only now that Damon's done something I often do (that maybe bums out people 20 years older than me), which is that since I didn't really live through the 90s, out of habit, I've always sung, 'Love in the 90s was paranoid' (instead of 'is paranoid'), and Damon did the same here. Huh.

Anyway, this performance was a bit mad, I hope this wasn't really the last time we see it!

@damonalbarn

#blur #music #Blur band #Girls & Boys #Coachella #Coachella 2024 #live performances #Damon Albarn #Graham Coxon #Alex James #Dave Rowntree #Blur Coachella #or as someone on Tumblr said: Blurchella that made me laugh #I grabbed these from the live stream and unf there's no good way of simply downloading the livestream that I know of #so other methods were employed 👀 #I was at the radio station yesterday though and we have some pretty good tools for semi-professionally cutting together audio so I got that #video is more of a DIY affair— screen recordings n stuff. But the Mac does pretty high resolution recordings so I hope this is okay. #What I'm trying to say is if the audio is out of sync tell me and I'll fix it #I posted a few more audio performances earlier— honestly it's a little easier to work with just audio #it's kinda the difference between a 30 MB (down to 10 for Tumblr) recording and 500 MB #also audacity is way quicker to use than iMovie or davinci so don't even start...

[oetter]

god bless my professor i love that woman so much

#im fucking. shaken up by what happened earlier. it scared me more than i realized at the time #hockey is a dangerous fucking sport. i didnt even see the kid get hurt but watching them get him on a gurney and wheel him out #with a neck brace and an iv just. god. he’s 19 years old. he’s a teenager. he’s still in critical condition right now. #going back through the footage i got isnt really helping and i know i can’t do proper voiceover work right now or i’ll sound like a child #emailed my prof abt the sitch and she is. the kindest woman in the world and offered an extension despite the policy being 24 hours advance #and it’s due in two hours. yet she gave me another full day. im gonna cry #i need to go to bed. i just. i feel sick to my stomach about the poor kid and about this assignment. #it just didn’t hit me that it can happen to people i know and love and seeing the ambulance pull up to the rink i just about ran inside #trying to make sure it wasnt one of mine. but that didnt even matter. #god. why do people still play hockey. i dont think i could ever manage. #i might honestly need to take a break from even watching hockey for a little bit. ill see how i feel in the morning #right now i feel like crying though. gonna go do that. #oetteryaps

[psychangels]

thinking abt how it's so obvious that peppermint cares abt chai as early as the first r&d section

#peppermint hi fi rush #chai hi fi rush #she is SOOO bad at pretending to not give a shit #honestly i would say even earlier than that but mmm. #i love them the siblings ever #angeltalks.txt #maybe i will expound upon this more when i'm not rlly tired and ill but no guarantees bc i'll probably forget #hi fi rush

[magentagalaxies]

vent incoming:

got my grades back for my courses last semester and most of it was to be expected, mostly A's, maybe an A-, etc. but i honestly can't get over the fact that my independent study (the buddy cole documentary) was for some reason given a B. like sure getting a B isn't bad per se, I usually get at least one B every semester and i honestly don't really care about what my exact gpa is as long as i can graduate, but come on. this school put me through months of psychological torment over this project and didn't even have the nerve to give me a B+??? i'm still coping with the self-doubt they forced on me and this bullshit is not helping!!

#honestly it's kind of hilarious ngl. especially bc i also got my documentary work counted as an independent study the previous semester #and the previous semester even tho i barely worked on the doc itself #(mostly just planning and putting together the crowdfunding which was still a lot of work but like compare it to the past few months) #they were willing to give me an A (my school doesn't do A+ so this is the highest mark possible) #vs this semester. like i'll admit my final assignment was late and could have been more polished #but i was literally on tour in documentary-mode 24/7 for several weeks. i filmed an entire comedy special! i put together a live interview! #not to mention having to fucking negotiate with my own college censoring the footage they'd promised me of an event i put together #and play nice with a professor who literally outed me on twitter in an attempt to cancel one of my best friends #at this point the ''B'' feels more like a petty grudge than anything else #like ok we can't get away with *actually* fucking over jessamine's grades bc clearly ze did do the work. but let's just give zir a B #like i will admit the audio quality in my final isn't great. and i could have used more polished footage in some sections #but counterpoint: 100+ students were arrested at a protest while i was editing and i was having a mental breakdown #the fact that i finished *anything* is goddamn impressive especially after they essentially conditioned me to hate myself any time i was #working on a project i loved!!! #due to the aforementioned student arrests my college did put out an option where we could change any letter grade this semester to pass/fai #so anything passing wouldn't impact our gpa if we didn't want it to. so i could just change the B to a ''pass'' #but really what's the point. ''B'' is still a good grade and my GPA is fine (3.65 on a 4.0 grading scale. 2.0 is required to graduate) #it just sucks that after what i went through last semester i feel like nobody takes it seriously #i was reminiscing earlier about how it's honestly kind of funny how after that professor outed me on twitter #i was at the hotel with scott like an hour later sobbing and having an existential crisis about my relationship to gender #and scott was so supportive but also awkwardly being like #''i know i should offer the crying child a tissue but where the fuck are the tissues in this room what do i do'' #and he just handed me a full-on towel instead like oh my god he was trying his best but also so clearly out of his depth #but of course i then had to remember how when i told that story to a different professor to be like ''this is how much scott cares about me #this guy called me fucking UNPROFESSIONAL for crying in front of the subject of my documentary????????? #like yeah maybe so but how DARE you call me unprofessional when a different professor tweeted my full name and gender without my consent #in an attempt to fucking cancel one of my friends for ''misgendering'' me for using pronouns i'm fine with him using!!! #i don't think i'm ever going to be able to forgive my college and i don't know how i'll be able to get through one more semester #that experience genuinely changed things about my psychology that i'm not proud of and i need to work through #so if i have to miss a goddamn kids in the hall event because i have class this november i am going to set something on fire

[bahrmp3]

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#the bad news re mothers health from two weeks ago. might be a reality I'm not sure yet I'm hmm honestly scared wish it was me not her #can't do anything can't even talk about it for real bc I want to respect her wishes but im honestly scared we got to wait till next week for #the doctor to see the results of. blood works and come with a treatment plan so I hope since there is a treatment plan then it's treatable? #but what I'm reading online is scary I read the results and got more scared than w/e joe told. me earlier #personal

[robbyykeene]

If a was the ck writers I swear I would make LawRusso canon and apologize to Robby for 15 minutes straight and the whole season would be just some family bonding time between them (and Sam and Anthony) that’s all, thank u (I love your blog btw!)

haha i get that, and thanks! ☺️ tbh my gripe with. everything involving robby and johnny is not that johnny hasn't apologised, it's that they write johnny overall as someone who just. does not like his son at all. like watching the show you do NOT get the impression that johnny likes robby on any human level, especially in seasons 4 and 5, and it's just such a. Choice lol

#have said this before and not even sure its worth analyzing the choices made in the earlier seasons considering the clear shift in the story #but. man robby as a character is so confusing at this point. like what purpose does he actually serve anymore #he’s just become this. prize that johnnys won basically #like carmen. and its just BORING honestly. #and dont get me STARTED on daniel and robby. my kingdom for them to have more than one scene together in season 6 #its crazy that what started out as a show about mentorship and father figures and ‘found family’ etc has turned into a story about #bio essentialism and the nuclear family. the fact that johnny marrying carmen wasnt enough. that to he a ‘real family’ they had to have #a baby together. man it just shits all over everything they built all these seasons between miguel and johnny #and the daniel robby relationship just feels wholly abandoned at this point lol #but ANYWAY. sorry to anyone who read this longwinded rant #asks #anonymous #ck negativity

[way2gosuperrstarr]

todays shift is crazy all the dogs in daycare left by like 3:40, like not even 2 hours after my shift started (today's shift was a 2:00) and then like FIVE HOURS before the end of my shift (roughly 8:30ish, tho we can get out a bit earlier around sometime in the 7:00 hour if there arent a lot of boarding dogs to walk) and we CANT START WALKING THE DOGS UNTIL LIKE 7:00PM 😭😭😭 we started cleaning early and we're gonna have like nothing to do in the vaccuum of time between finishing and then walking the dogs. its like 5:40pm rn and we basically have nothing to do 😭😭😭😭 we normally START cleaning at 5:30 because usually until then theres still dogs (last dogs usually tend to leave around a little before six ????) i guess this is just a sunday thing but BROOOO AJDHA

#salmon jibberish #I DONT EVEN HAVE ANY CLEVER TAGS RN #I JUST #AHDHAJHFHEQKT #ok so #hi #me from 5:50 here #(not a long time since i finished typing this but here we are) #manager (the coworker im working w today) said we can just chill til about 6:30 #im assuming we're gonna start walkin dogs around then #which is abt 30 min earlier than normal #but im not complaining #honestly im not pissed abt this i just find this whole shift rlly funny 😭😭 #so i guess this counts as my break #thank god i was worried i wouldnt get one today