#and I learned that they're not as bad as I thought but still bad

[run2rae]

TEENAGE GOJO x GN!READER

CONTEXT: It's your first time coming to Jujutsu High after the tragic incident that had happened with your family being completely murdered by a curse. You had nothing left to live for until you were found, and brought into Jujutsu High. Your mind is going crazy, too scared to who you might meet. Will they like you? Will they hate you? But oh? Who is that over there? BEFORE YOU READ: There may be small grammar mistakes or typos, so please bare with me!

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"You will be fine. This will be a great opportunity for you to grow. Trust me.". You look at Masamichi, still conflicted. You were strong, but you were pretty sensitive. A broken arm? That's nothing. Bleeding out? Pfft, please. Being put down by others? God. You felt so weak. "I'm not..sure. Do you really think i'll be okay? What if they don't like me and what if-". You start to say every word going through your head without being able to control what's even coming from your mouth, until Masamichi cuts you off. "Y/n. Listen. Everyone here is great. They're all strong and will accept you no matter what. You're a kind person, if anyone thinks otherwise they need to get their eyes checked. You haven't even met them yet, how could you assume anything about them?". Masamichi was right. You always assumed that everyone thought the worse out of you without even actually knowing them. "Y-you're right. I apologize.". You look down in embarrassment as Masamichi starts to walk towards the classroom where the students were waiting to meet you as you followed behind him. 'Y/n you got this' you said to yourself in your mind. As Masamichi opened the door and you walked along side him, you felt eyes fall on you. You didn't even look up to see them yet, but you felt the tension of being watched by multiple eyes. "Everyone, this is F/n L/n. They are a grade 1 sorcerer. Please welcome them with open arms.”. You look up to see a girl your age. She had short brown hair with a mole under her right eye. She seemed so cool.

“H-Hello! My name is F/n L/n. It’s great to meet you all. I’m hoping we all get along and I’m hoping to learn lots from you!”. You bow down and get back up, waiting for Masamichi to say anything else, but he doesn’t.

“Hey, I’m Shoko Leiri.”. She said as she smiled to you, you smiled back her.

“Suguru Geto.”. Geto was very handsome. He seemed like a very reliable person.

You look over next to Geto and see a beautiful white haired boy. He had gorgeous blue eyes, very long legs. He was staring at you, almost looking as if he was mesmerized by you.

“The names Satoru Gojo!”. He sounded like a cheerful guy. Not only was he extremely handsome, he seemed outgoing too.

“I don’t recommend going near Satoru, he’s a lot to handle.”. Shoko said and you giggled at her words. Gojo looked annoyed crossing his arms and looking the other way.

“You always say that, Shoko! I’m not THAT bad.”

After your encounter with everyone in your grade, you were led to your room. Masamichi said his farewell and walked away. You get settled into your room. As soon as you finish, you hear a knock at your door. You assumed it was Masamichi coming back to remind you about anything he forgot to tell you, so you open the door quickly seeing a very tall figure at your door.

“O-Oh! Hello! Gojo was it?”. You say nervously not expecting him to be at your door. He was so tall. You were at shock that someone can even be his height.

“Hey, yeah. I-I was just wondering how you were doing settling in, you know… You need help with anything?”. A faint smile appearing on his face looking into your eyes. You were distracted from how blue his eyes were looking at you. You didn’t know what to say, but you quickly snapped back into reality.

“Oh! How kind of you. I’m doing alright. Erm.. no I don’t need any help. Thank you, though! I’ll be sure to come to you if needed!”. You say to him, giving him a huge smile. He felt his heart stop for a second. You were so beautiful just standing there looking at him. You looked like a happy puppy, he was in awe.

“O-Oh i see! Well, see you around! I’ll be outside with Suguru & Shoko training a bit. Feel free to drop by anytime if you..need help training or..anything like that..”. Gojo said as he was walking backwards away from your room, almost tripping. You wave as he walked away smiling to him. Maybe it won’t be so bad after all.. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- This will be a new series of TeenageGojo x Reader ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა I hope you enjoyed! Please send any requests you may have for my next TeenageGojo x Reader !!

#anime #gojo satoru #gojo saturo #gojo x reader #jjk #jjk x reader #jujutsu gojo #gojo x you #gojo x y/n #geto suguru #jujutsu geto #jjk geto #jjk shoko #shoko ieiri #jujutsu kaisen shoko #jujustu kaisen

[nozunhinged]

Wandee goodday novel spoilers ahead!

I haven't finished the novel yet but they're already dating there so I'm still ahead of the show and I have sooooo many (positive) thoughts what's happening with the show it makes me so happy aaaaah!

First and foremost, in the book they're also essentially dating the second they enter their fwb agreement and it's so damn adorable. I loved how they deeply cared for each other since day one (and I do not just mean feelings-wise but literally caring in the sense of being there for each other) and I would've never thought that the show could manage to make their development even MORE adorable!!!

In the novel it's a tad bit one-sided from Yak as that he falls very hard for Dee and also admits his feelings first (to himself) and I looooove love that in the show it's a lot more equal. You watch them both fall for each other HARD and it's so satisfying to watch.

Also the kiss-thing doesn't exist in the novel, Dee is literally obsessed with making out with Yak (they're even more horny in the book anyway) which is ofc a very easy way to show them how they cross the FWB line but I love the shows approach SO MUCH MORE. Again they're equally pulled towards each other, they both want to kiss each other so badly every time it happens I scream into my pillow because inn and great show their equally down bad yearning SO DELICIOUSLY WELL!

Also in the novels the rivals (Ter and Taem) are handled very differently and they felt like simple plot devices to stir drama. But in the show, they are used soooooo well to show the emotional development of yak and dee while making them proper characters CHEFS KISS!

Especially Ter, in the novel he starts his harassment after they officially start dating (they don't have a proper fake boyfriends era it's more like "we might as well start shit while were at it") Which makes him even more pathetic but also a bit boring, I feel like in the show his behaviour will be explored way better so we can learn why he acts this way. Taem is (as I've read so far) basically just a ghost that's mentioned in like two sentences and I love love looooooooove her in the show so much. Not just because she represents yaks fine bi ass but because she also feels like a fully fledged character. (AND SHE PRETTY)

AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON KAO! He's great in the novel but NOTHING compared to sweet sweet angel show-kao. I want to build him a shrine and name my non-existent child after him. Please continue being the most perfect human being on the planet THANK YOU!

did I mention I fucking love Wandee goodday? I FUCKING LOVE THIS SHOW!

#wandee goodday the series #wandee goodday spoilers #wandee goodday

[arcadekitten]

[MY WISHMAKER Spoilers!]

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I just played MY WISHMAKER last night and I loved it, so I wanted to give you my thoughts!

Arcade, you are SO SNEAKY AND CLEVER!!! I saw those promo images and was like "oh dear, he has a gunshot wound, what happened?" only to boot up the game and find out HIS WHOLE ARM WAS MISSING! You really can't tell when he's facing right, so I applaud you for hiding it so well.

I LOVE how sassy The Wishmaker is! I was expecting it/them(? I'll just go with them for now) to be kind of highfalutin and regal 'cause they're a deity and all but I really love how you went in this completely other direction! I think it does make sense since The Wishmaker obviously has to, like, grant people's wishes (in some way at least), so having a more casual manner of speech would probably make them less intimidated.

Also! I loved how you implemented the QTEs! I feel like it spices up the gameplay and is a nice little nod to your fans who played My Neighbor Enide. Even though I messed up all of them, though I SWEAR the Vas one was not my fault! I was mashing that Z button for dear life, but my laptop decided to type it into Edge for some reason!? I didn't even have it open!

Oh, and I see you were able to figure out the mouse movement? You said you'd have to move around using the arrow keys, which I was fine with, but I was pleasantly surprised when I booted up the game and I could move with the mouse too! It really completed the experience.

I don't really have much to say about the story, not because it's bad, but because it's so shrouded in mystery that my cogs are still turning as to what it could mean. I did really like the puzzles, though! And I did notice those key items you hid away...

I have plenty of theories I've been ruminating on even before MW, but I don't wanna put them here because 1) since this is an ask it might make you feel obligated to comment on them somehow which you are not and I don't want you to do, and 2) I think I would start rambling and make this ask a mile long LOL.

That's about everything I could think of off the top of my head! Overall, I really enjoyed it, and I hope you the best in all the other chapters and games you plan to make. I'm sure I'll enjoy them just as much, if not even more. Take care!

Haha yes! ♡ I know some people have been asking why Reginald has two arms in the promo images and it's like...it's meant to be a surprise, silly!

Also for our little Wishmaker character, yes! I adore them very much and I'm very excited for people to see more of them and learn their real name!! Another one of my favorites to be sure ♡ Not sure how I'll tag them in posts yet until their name reveal... clock, maybe? Just to avoid confusion? This character can be referred to with any pronouns, but for clarification that in games and in my posts they will only be referred to with "they" and the occasional "it"

I'm happy the QTEs are received well! (Granted they were a bit harder at first haha!) I'm happy to include them in future chapters as I feel future chapters will definitely be more linear and dialogue heavy and so I hope they can spice up the gameplay and keep things interesting and maybe just a tad more immersive! ♡

As for mouse movement controls it's kinda like a "Well yes, but actually no". You CAN move using the mouse if you really want to but you also have to be aware that you could accidentally hit an object's hitbox and activate its event. And you can't back out of an event once it has been activated like in typical point-and-clicks. (There's only so far I can push the engine with my experience level!) It's for this reason (and the surprise of QTE's!) that WASD/Arrow Key movement is recommended!

Thank you so much! ♡ I am so very happy to hear you enjoyed the experience and I love to hear what people have been brewing up regarding the story and the mysteries still unfolding (even though I can't say anything about it yet!) and I can't wait until I can have more to show you all! I'm really excited for it and I hope everyone will be too! ♡♡♡

#MY WISHMAKER #MY WISHMAKER Prologue #MY WISHMAKER spoilers #reply

[angel-in-shibari]

older stronger abusive sadistic cellmate gf:

"if you scream, they're just gonna send you to Ad Seg for your 'protection'. so don't even bother, dumbass"

"hey dumbass, you still didn't pay me back for the coffee I gave you yesterday. you better pay up now. I don't care if your commissary account is empty. I guess you'll just hafta pay me back... another way~"

"oh yeah? what're the guards gonna do? I ain't scared of them. I can pin you against the wall and they won't give a shit"

"showering by yourself? how do you know someone won't try to shank you in the bathroom? no, you need my protection. of course I'm getting naked. we're taking a shower together, baby girl."

"nope. you don't get the top bunk. or the bottom bunk either. you sleep on the floor. I don't care if it's freezing cold concrete. bitches like you don't deserve to sleep on a bed"

"shhhhh don't yell, dumbass. I stole a guard's handcuffs. don't worry, you're fine. I just cuffed you to my bunk. awww, poor baby. don't cry. just go back to sleep. lemme play with you a bit longer"

"so you get out in a few weeks? damn. I still have 40 months left. that sucks. I bet you're gonna miss me. or... here's a thought. what if you stayed here longer? you'd want that, wouldn't you baby girl? of course you would. you'd do anything I say. right? yeah, that's what I thought. so go ahead and punch that guard over there right in her dumb face. because I told you to, that's why! don't you wanna stay with me? then do what I fucking told you to! I don't care if you think you're throwing away your life by staying here. I've seen the way you worship me. I know how obsessed you are with me. trust me, I'm way better than any one else on the outside. who would even want you anyway? an ex-con, a criminal, a dyke, a complete fucking pushover. are you seriously gonna let everyone walk all over you for the rest of your life? or are you going to do what I tell you to?"

"wow, I can't believe you actually did that! and you got 5 years added to your sentence? that's hilarious! yeah, so funny thing... I actually lied about my own sentence. I didn't have 40 months left. I actually only have four. hey, but it's okay. after I'm gone, I'm sure you'll get another cool cellmate. hopefully someone who won't try and kill you the first chance they get. what.... you love me? jeez, when did you get all sentimental all of a sudden? hey, it's not my fault! I didn't think you'd actually do it. I was just playing around. it's your own fault for believing me. haven't you learned by now, baby girl? you can't let people push you around and tell you what to do. it doesn't matter if it's cops, your boss, or even people you think you love. you're such a dumbass. and to think you were originally in here for just 14 months because of a stupid drug possession charge. you really threw away your life because you wanted to be with me? that's so fucking pathetic."

"oh stop fucking crying, dumbass. it's not the end of the world. hey, maybe when you get out in five years, we can meet up and get coffee or something? okay, that's enough. now you're just making me feel bad. I told you already, it's your own fault. okay, you know what? I know Officer Smith. I can probably bribe her to drop the charge and get your original release date back. but only if you do something for me. strip. I said 'strip', dumbass. yes, get naked, right here right now. I don't care if anyone sees us. now on your knees. aww that's just adorable. look at you. no, shut up. puppies don't talk. they bark. so bark for me puppy. I said bark! awww that's perfect. you're nothing but a dog. you're just my prison bitch, are you? awww, so pathetic. you'd do anything I tell you to. take my pants off. that's right. good girl. underwear too. nope, stop. don't use your hands. use your teeth. awww, good puppy. so good at obeying me. eat me out. you heard me. what, did you seriously think you were just gonna stare at me? you're such a fucking dumbass. if you're asking me for a favor, you need to give me something first. you've been in prison for almost 14 months. how do you not know this already? fucking dumbass. eat me out, now. oh, god.... that's so good. you've got a killer tongue, puppy. you feel so fucking good. isn't this embarrassing? just the thought that anyone could look into our cell, and see you naked and on your knees, eating me out like the pathetic little bitch you are? isn't that just so fucking hot? oh, fuck! don't stop! keep going, bitch! stop fucking struggling! I don't care if you can't breathe! you'll breathe once I cum! keep going! don't stop! don't stop! don't... fuck! holy fuck! wow... okay.... just....... wow......... good girl. good puppy. you did such a good job. get up on the bunk. come snuggle with me, puppy. you did so good. you're such a good little puppy for me. thank you. you were amazing. okay, fine... I'll talk to Officer Smith, and get her to reduce your sentence. on one condition. once you get out, you better wait for me. you hear me? I got four months left, and I don't want any other dykes tryna take you from me, ya hear? you're mine. no one else's.

wow okay this started out as a dumb meme thing but ended up becoming a whole fucking story. okay then... lmao. I might fix this up and post it as a script to GWA or something. anyway, hope you liked this lmao!

#dosnsft #//prison #//abuse #long post

[thatoneguy031]

I guess it's time to give some context for my characters. I've had them up here for a while, and seemingly no one really saw them???

So.

These are some OCs I've baked up while I was bored.

The one on the left is Jacque, although he currently goes as Smudge(due to a dark patch of scales on his torso that looks like someone rubbed dark-green paint all over him).

As stated in my post about Trevor, it's normal for my MCs to be really nice, and the same thing applies here. Smudge had a pretty rough childhood, frequently being bullied for being a dragon and having... Venomous saliva, I guess? It's a little complicated, so buckle up.

Smudge's spit functions as a very, very potent acid, being able to melt and degrade even the most resistant materials with relative ease. But, it's when it's given a chance to dilute that it shows how potent it really is.

When diluted, this turns the liquid from an acid to a deadly neurotoxin. If it gets a chance to enter the body, it attacks the brain directly first, and more or less commands it to shut down other body systems as well. It's a slow and painful process, too, taking about a week for it to finally grace you with death. After the brain, it goes after the immune system, and then the endocrine system, which is what's normally meant to get rid of these poisons(As far as I'm aware, with my limited knowledge on science). That's when it finally goes for the muscular and cardio systems, resulting in cardiac arrest.

It's really hard to take care of someone once it enters the body but, like mercury, it's safe to play with if you take the right precautions(Although I don't know why you'd wanna play with a dragon's saliva, but go off).

That aside, Smudge is also a professional volleyball player, actually winning his regionals about two years before college started for him. But, some things happened in that game. He had severely injured his foot trying to dive for the ball. Of course, in fear that he had to prove himself, he kept playing anyway, making it so, so much worse. What started as just a sprained ankle had turned into several torn muscle fibers and a dislocation. The injury itself was pretty unique, but it could best be described as an especially complicated-to-repair Grade 3.

You can't see it in this photo, but he's wearing a foot brace, along with a matching sock. his doctor said he'd have to wear it for two years, but he "should try three, just to be safe." So... yeah, he has to wear the stupid thing for a majority of his college life. it never stopped him, though. He still plays volleyball, happily at that, and often forgets about the brace. It's sorta become a part of him, but he yearns for the day he can just get rid of it.

The lovely dragoness on the right is Katherine, but you can just call her Katie. She's a little chubby, but give her a jersey, and she'll join the same team as Smudge and probably be just as active. She's pretty aggressive, wanting to fight Smudge the moment she saw him(For reasons that are kinda dumb, from both of them), but she's really caring deep down.

If you know Beastars, you know where I'm going with this next bit.

Smudge, after some supernatural hijinks Scooby-Doo style with Katie and his not-boyfriend(It was complicated, they weren't really a thing yet), decided to start talking to Katie for real. Maybe they could be friends. Katie, being Katie, rejected his acceptance immediately, but warmed up to him soon enough, claiming that she "has to protect him."

Smudge thought this was kinda cute, and began calling her "little sis." They looked enough like each other to be siblings, and they already had something going on. Why not, right? Besides, Katie was admittedly really small, especially compared to Smudge, who was around 6'7" compared to her own 5'9"(These two are 18 and 17, respectfully). She was prone to bullying, and Smudge faking as Katie's older, more popular brother, anyone that was even remotely a bully would stop in their tracks.

But, Katie could defend herself. She's gotten into her fair share of fights in school, so she knows what to do. But, she hung out with Smudge and Charles(Smudge's "boyfriend" I was talking about earlier), mostly because they were pretty fun to be around. You know The Amazing World of Gumball?

...Yeah, Smudge, Katie, and Charles are the Gumball, Anise, and Darwin of the group, respectively(...Sort of).

Here are some quotes that I think are cute from the both of them:

Smudge: "Why am I so nice? ...I dunno, really. I ask myself the same thing sometimes. ...I guess it's 'cause I feel good doing it. It's good, knowing that I'm not adding to anyone's problems." (Talking to Charles, partially half to himself as well)

"What is your deal, dude?! I... I just wanted to see if you were alright.

...I don't know you, and that's why I care!" (Shouting at Katie after an argument started by him hearing her yell in pain)

Katie: "Who goes there?! I'm not afraid to go all Bruce Lee on you! ...Oh. It's you. I've heard of you before... You're that guy that ruined his ankle in that one tourney, right?" (Meeting Smudge for the first time in an abandoned library)

"...I'm surprised that you haven't promoted yourself more. Either way, what the hell are you doing in my hangout spot?!" (Confronting Smudge about being in his hangout spot moments later)

I'll give a Part 2 at some point, but I think this post is getting wayy too long. Next time, I'll talk about some trivia and stuff about these two, but it'll mostly be dedicated to Charles, the wolf-lion-eagle... thing??? Not quite a griffon, but you won't get called out for calling him one.

#furry #anthro #oc #furry oc #furry anthro #furry art #artists on tumblr #dragon #Smudge #Katie #Charles #this post sent me down a rabbithole learning about muscle tears #and I learned that they're not as bad as I thought but still bad #but Smudge's is still very very awful #so... yeah #muscle tears also cause some interesting bruises #can yall tell me about your experiences with injuries like that? #its genuinely intersting #lgbtq

[collophora]

Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness

(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)

#star wars #star wars the bad batch #the bad batch fanart #tbb fanart #tbb fanfiction #dumping my “fanfic_doodles.clip” file here literally #sorry the style is messy #now I see them all Im like “ok it's all over the place zero/100 aesthetically pleasuring post” #hhhh its the thought that counts? #And tbh the point is just to convince you to read theses #because I'm like OBSSEEESSED with theses since you appeared in my notes #Every fic is gold #Me baiting my followers with pretty enough pictures to read fanfics #this being said I should really take the time to color properly my stuff #but I don't liiiiiiiiike it #there is tons of more talented artists if people want colored beautiful amazing art #me I can't really make my “”“spontaneous”“” “”“doodles”“” pretty without trying hard and at the end it's meh #They're so flat too #yesterday I was like “oh my scenes are becoming less flat I improved maybe” #Then I scrolled on my storyboard insta and was like #yeah sure no #I'm still faaaaaar away from the industry standards #I studied like at three arts school and I'm still bad at drawing TAT #why is my brain not working v_v #look brain I'm showing you nice pictures learn from them #brain: no Im gonna overfixate on this left hand here and only this #anyway

[smolmakerel]

"Do you sit down in the shower, Tara?"

Tara blinked in surprised before narrowing her eyes. "What?"

Her new therapist, Abby Turner, was staring at her with a relaxed expression of genuine curiosity. She didn't really look the part of a therapist, sitting there in a yellow cardigan that matched the socks with SpongeBob on them. If anything, she looked a lot like a teacher Tara had in second grade minus the thick rimmed glasses.

"Do you sit down whenever you take a shower?" Abby asked again, shifting to cross her legs. She drew her fingernail over the metal clip of her clipboard.

Still, Tara was taken aback by such a question. She felt oddly seen through.

"Why?" Tara shot back instead.

Abby laughed softly. "There's no need to be defensive. I was going over our notes from last time and thought about what you said."

What she said? What did Tara say, exactly?

"I don't remember saying anything bad," mumbled Tara.

"No, nothing bad. I'm sorry if I made you panic."

At that, Tara hardened her gaze and looked away. Leave it to the therapist to know when her thoughts were spiraling out of control. God, Tara only had 7 sessions with her, and Abby thought she knew everything about Tara.

"It's ok if you do," Abby went on to say. Tara's face soured, and Abby unfortunately caught that. "Can I ask you a question?"

"Another one?" Tara tried to joke, but Abby saw through her facade. "If I didn't know any better, I'd think you were trying to play 20 questions."

She chuckled awkwardly. "Why do you sit down in the shower?"

"Because... I uh..."

"Take your time."

Tara was at a loss for words. Why did she sit down in the shower? She never really noticed she did it until Abby sent her back with homework to figure out things she noticed about her dailey routine. Which included an hour long shower; Tara would be sitting in the tub allowing the hot water to hit her back. While she sat, tremors would rack her body and her irritation would rise.

"I get in the shower in the morning," Tara explained slowly, still processing her thoughts. "Before class so no one has to see me all... icky."

"And do you think there might be another reason for sitting down?" Abby inquired. "I only ask because of your water bottle comment."

Tara looked unsure at that. She brought her hands to her lap to fidget with her nails. The comfortable gray armchair she sat on never felt more uncomfortable under the watchful eye of her therapist.

"S-Sorry, but I don't remember talking about that."

"That's ok," her therapist assured her. "Last time, you talked about how you needed to clean your room. You have a lot of water bottles on your table and floor, clothes in your bed."

Recognition flashed in Tara's eyes. "Right. Sorry."

"Depression and anxiety after a traumatic event is completely normal, Tara. In fact, I would be surprised if you didn't have one of those with what you've been through."

Tara shrugged. "It's nothing. Other people have been through more than me; I'm just being selfish."

Selfish. She had always been selfish; even her own mother thought so, and she made sure to remind Tara anytime she was in town.

Abby wrote something down, nodding to herself as if all of Tara's issues were understandable now.

"I sit on the floor," Tara suddenly said in the uncomfortable silence. She didn't look at her therapist at all, ashamed. "I get so... tired sometimes. And it isn't because of the metal in my leg! It's me! I wake up tired, go through the day angry because of how tired I am, and go to sleep tired. But then I can't sleep and I just..." She huffed in frustration, nails dug into her palms. "I don't know what to do."

Abby leaned back in her chair and flipped her clipboard over on her lap. Her eyes watched Tara's face closely.

"Is there anything you have that could help you sleep?" Abby asked. "A stuffed animal, a nightlight...?"

Tara's mind immediately drifted to her older sister. Sam was strong enough to keep Tara's night terrors away, yet she's soft enough to wrap Tara in her arms and calm her down. No matter how much Tara yells and sobs in her sleep, no matter the bloody scratch marks on her arms, no matter how Tara dissociates to protect herself. Sam was always there.

"No," Tara claimed instead.

Abby cocked her head. "And your sister isn't willing to help you?"

Tara shook her head. "No, she is but... I don't want to bother her with my problems."

Abby flipped her clipboard back over and wrote something down. Tara wanted to chuck the damn thing out the window. She lowered the clipboard again.

"Based on what you've told me about your sister, she sounds like just the person you need at night," Abby pointed out with a soft smile. "I'm sure she'd be willing to help if you asked."

'But I can't!' The words burn acid on Tara's tongue.

"Ok."

Fuck.

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Tara raised her hand at Sam's door and drew it into a fist. It hovered in the air for a long few seconds.

Then she knocked.

The door opened not even a second later, and Sam was standing there rubbing her eyes.

"Tara?" Sam mumbled. She instantly woke up, eyes darting over Tara looking for some sort of injury. "Are you ok? What are you doing up right now?"

"Can... Can I sleep in here with you?" Tara asked and before Sam could respond, she was babbling. "I'm sorry if I woke you up with this. Fuck, I'm so stupid. This was a mistake, I didn't mean to wake you up with my stupid problems. I-I'll go back to my room. Sorry -"

"Tara."

Tara's breathing hitched when Sam gently cupped her face, and - Oh. That was actually kind of nice. She sank into the warmth of Sam's palms.

"Let's go to bed, ok?" Sam whispered.

Tara nodded, throat thick with emotion. "Ok."

It was about 20 minutes later when they were settled in Sam's bed. Tara was dozing off finally, face buried into Sam's chest as her arms wrapped around her.

She stirred slightly when Sam kissed the top of her head. Her fingers tucked a few strands of hair out of Tara's face.

"I love you, Tara," Sam muttered.

Tara, too exhausted to say anything, simply turned her head and kissed Sam on the palm. She settled back down and relaxed into a peaceful sleep.

#scream #scream 2022 #scream vi #sam carpenter #tara carpenter #I was tempted to make the therapist bad but then I thought of my therapist and how nice she is and thought “better not” #They're so soft for each other #I'm still figuring out how to write them tbh #So enjoy while I'm working on breaking your hearts in my next post #Tara learning how to ask for help after everything #She trusts Sam but doesn't trust herself #And it's all because of Christina fucking Carpenter #Fuck Christina Carpenter #My writing

[uncanny-tranny]

It's always weird when people are like, "Oh, you being [x minority] made me stop hating/reconsider my bigotry toward [minority]!"

Not only is it weird from the standpoint of "wow, you hated me?" but it's weird to know that you displayed some type of behaviour that proved your humanity to them, and that if you stop displaying that behaviour for any reason, it's possible they'll just slide back into their hatred because they haven't fundamentally challenged why they hated you and your people.

It's fine to grow out of your bigotry, yes, but I'm completely understanding of people being weary of those who are so brazen about how much they hated people like you.

#politics #ask to tag (genuine) #like i've expressed this before and it was like people were assuming i was ungrateful for their growth??? #but it's like... /have/ they outgrown their bigotry if they're almost jovial about just how hateful they were toward minority groups? #i feel like true growth from bigotry is understanding how harmful bigotry is and how you played into that... #...no that doesn't mean groveling about your past and performatively 'apologizing'... #...it means challenging the beliefs you held and learning how to spot them if they try festering back in your mind... #...because groveling isn't the same as growth and neither is pretending like past bigotry is amusing or funny or quirky... #...in my mind both those thought processes still center the 'reformed' bigot and not the people they hurt and held bigoted beliefs about... #...i think both those things are selfish and show (to me) that they may well do still hold those same bigotries but they're hiding them... #...and it will only be a matter of time before that bigotry festers and takes its mask off... #...like that is PRECISELY why bigotry against ~bad people~ is JUST AS BAD as bigotry toward ~good minorities~... #...like transphobia against a trans person who is a terrible excuse for a human is still transphobia. it doesn't matter how bad they are #(just as an example of what i mean)

[vulturevanity]

Thinking about ScarVi's overarching theme being The Truth Shall Set You Free. I am so normal about this

#spoilers in tags #pokémon #pokemon sv #Arven initially being closed off and not trusting you because he was neglected by his parent and learned to only rely on himself #realizing very early on that being honest is the best chance he has at healing his Mabostiff #but still not opening up about his bigger issues until it was absolutely necessary which pushes the story forward into endgame #Penny hiding herself behind Cassiopeia to protect herself from bullying #getting an entire group of outcast kids into a team to scare their bullies off #only for the plan to backfire splendously when they're mistaken for the bullies #and Clavell in a rare display of clarity ffrom an adult in a position of authority #rather than simply punishing them for it opted to team up with us to understand what was really going on #and that made him much more lenient in punishing them (because they did still cause trouble!) #the truth of Turo/Sada spiraling into their work and refusing to see the damage it was doing to EVERYTHING including themselves #to the point that they DIED #and the AI they built explicitly for the purpose of continuing their work ran the calculations and realized said work was Bad #and that truth made it go against its own programming which is what kickstarts the main story to begin with #and may I contrast all that with NEMONA whose sheer energy and eagerness is 1000% GENUINE #I've seen so many people say they thought she was going to eventually be angry for losing to us all the time #but the whole point of her character is that she's free to do whatever the fuck she wants and she's pretty happy with her life #she has no reason to fake happiness. she's just like that. she is free from the beginning and she's always be free and that's the point #in a story where no one else is!!! everyone else is bound by some complication or another that holds them back from being honest #i changed my mind i'm insane about this. no longer normal #pokemon sv spoilers #babbles

[primatechnosynthpop]

Comic panel redraw because I looove sillygoofy guys dying horribly (but then they get better)

[ID: a redraw of a panel from the ghostbusters comic "The Other Side". A possessed Peter and several ghosts with guns stand over the bullet-riddled bodies of Ray, Egon, and Winston. The redraw is done in a simpler style with slight tweaks to some designs and poses (most notably Egon's hair being fluffier and the dead men's eyes still being open) and is extended to fit Ray's boots in frame. The ghosts are a lot less defined and more wispy in the redraw, Peter has a scarier grin and a yellowish glow around him, and there's a large pool of blood added under the bodies.

There are two versions of the image, one with the original panel in the upper right for reference, and the other with the lyric "they'd find us in a week" written in red at the bottom. End ID]

#in many ways it's like this comic was made specifically for me except that if i'd written it i would have had peter's consciousness still be #in or around his body when the ghost possessing him kills his friends. let him see their blood spattered on his boots y'know? >:3 #also i would've given janine something to do because iirc she just shows up briefly and gets knocked out without even learning what happene #i feel like it was a pretty big missed opportunity for her not to find out that 3/4 of her employers and friends just fucking died #i guess it doesn't matter since they come back but i feel like it SHOULD have mattered. psychologically if nothing else #because like ok at the end it's implied that when they come back to life they're still in the car at the bottom of the river/lake/whatever? #that seems.... bad. like it would be really easy in that scenario for them to not be able to get out and so just immediately die again #so maybe instead janine could have found their bodies or something. and that way they'd respawn somewhere safer like a morgue #idk just a thought. anyway i do still quite enjoy that comic hence this redraw #my art #ghostbusters

[spaciebabie]

The only question I have is kissing Daycare Attendant's teeth.... Or Peepaw's Teeth?

ohhh thats a good question. tbh it depends. if springtrap washes his stupid mug i would b all over those chompers. im tellin ya i would sprint and smash my face inta his at the smallest inkling that hes clean. but if he doesnt he gets no kiss kiss. that will hafta go 2 the dca

#if he cleans himself he wins every time no cap #spacie splains #nahhhh cuzzz I WANNA KISS HIM SO BAD #but hes GROSS #babygirl.....ever heard of a BATH? TAKE ONE. #HURRY UP SO I CAN KISS YOU SILLY #ugh i wanna smash my face inta his #honestly if im desperate enuff he doesnt hafta wash his face but im not that desperate yet #the standards are still on the floor. they're not in hell yet #.....well #praise glitchy for making a springy x reader fic honestly #ive thought abt drawing some springer x self insert stuff but it makes me too flustered 2 even think abt it #LET ALONE DRAW IT #he makes me even more flustered than the dca asfjsdkfsjdf #making self insert of the dca was EASY #already making sexy spoinger arto feels....very indulgent sfkdjkfsja #i dont think that i can go beyond that ill turn bright red and blow up #GOD I WANT HIM SO BAD FDSIFJKAFJSK FUCK #....MAYBE I SHOULD LEARN TA LOVE HIS GRIME.... #wow it only took a few minutes ta become That Desperate

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

my new thing is obsessing over a funny little guy for a few months before moving onto another funny little guy

#random thoughts #first it was sans undertale then it was robert dream daddy #and now it's fnaf sunandmoon #my ideal fnaf sunandmoon fic which i will never write because that's where i draw the line #is one in which yn doesn't think sun and moon are. sentient. at first. #and by at first i mean for a large chunk of the story #like yeah he's a robot! he's a very sophisticated piece of ai of course he's gonna be lifelike #sun and moon are designed to learn and adapt and they can SEEM very human but it's important to remember they are not alive #but they still treat sun and moon decently because? why wouldn't they? #like sun and moon are constantly learning ai. it's important to model proper behavior so they know how they and others should act #specifically among freddy's staff! if sunandmoon don't know how staff SHOULD behave then they have no frame of reference #for what behavior should be reported or how sunandmoon are SUPPOSED to act around staff for maximum efficiency #if you get mad at the robot for being damaged and they're designed to entertain #they're not gonna want to tell you next time they get damaged and you can't just rely on scans and weekly examinations #because scans miss things and some damage is too severe to wait for their next examination #in an ideal setting you WANT the animatronics to be able to communicate openly with you because THEY are a tool for their OWN repair #THEY can recognize what is damaged VERY WELL #and if it's a software issue then you need to be able to read their BEHAVIOR. body language and shit #and if sunandmoon are CONSTANTLY ON EDGE AROUND STAFF you're not gonna be able to see a base body language to go off of #also constant stress is bad for machines. like running the same commands over and over again until overheating. bad for babey #and of COURSE they're gonna help around the daycare!!! THE DAYCARE ATTENDANT IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE A REPLACEMENT FOR HUMAN WORKERS #the daycare attendant is a GIMMICK. a NOVELTY. a TOOL meant for the use of the human daycare attendants #a forever playmate who remembers every detail about every child under their care? who never tires and isn't affected by cleaning chemicals? #they're so USEFUL! a supplement to the human daycare attendant! #like a swiss army knife of rainy day games and orange slices #it's a horrible shame the owners of the pizzaplex got cheap and stopped hiring human daycare attendants to save on labor #because the daycare attendant works best when they have someone else's behavior to model. otherwise it gets caught in a loop #which constantly degrades and simplifies. like recording a recording over and over again until all you can hear is white noise #of COURSE something bad was gonna happen! #and sunandmoon don't really have any opinion on this besides agreeing because they ARE an animatronic.

[trinkettes]

needed to name my swees to keep them apart, I'll never get tired of the pacman ghost names, clyde is just always funny

#palworld #i just found the attack implode and taught it to sweepa- wow that sure does a lot of damage but i cant see that it says it hurts the user #I thought it probably would but i still felt bad when it knocked out my dear sweepa #did tons of damage though #i could teach it to two pals so clyde is now my nuclear option #a nice little thing about palworld is you can swap the moves around as you like once they're learned #also i recently found the alpha boss sweepa and my goal is to catch one (they're bigger) but i want one with a good skill

[daydreamerdrew]

Captain America (2005) #31

#this is part of a series of visions that Bucky is shown to try to break him mentally #and unlike all of the following visions the mentality that Bucky has here #about how Captain America is his best friend #but that Bucky thinks Steve would have thought Bucky was a bully if he’d known him when he was younger #and that there’s this whole other darker side of him that Bucky is committed to never showing Steve #isn���t completely implausible #he explicitly rejects that he was jealous of all of the other Invaders for having powers #but he doesn’t address these negative feelings about himself in comparison to Steve #there was also this idea that Bucky was ‘barely human. a killer of men’ during WWII #which seems like it's retroactively projecting how Bucky feels now about his time as the Winter Soldier to what he did during WWII #so I think it's possible that the negative feelings about himself here could be legitimate #and it's possible that they're just retroactive projecting of his guilt over what he did as the Winter Soldier #throughout this book Bucky has been really negative about himself #in the preceding issue he had the thought that he should have seen a trap coming and so didn’t deserve to win a fight #there’s a recurring experience of him criticizing himself for the actions he takes while he’s taking those actions #and/or of afterwards questioning why he did something when he knew it was a bad idea #to the point where it almost comes across as foreshadowing that he's being subtly mind-controlled #and it gives the impression that Bucky is still learning how to be in control of his life at this point #I think it would be interesting if that self-deprecation was present during WWII #and was then really exacerbated by his time as the Winter Soldier #and I had previously thought that that was possible #in issue 25 Bucky talks about looking up to Steve during WWII and knowing that he could never be that good #and while the implications of that were not nearly as intense as this #I think that lends some support to this really being how Bucky felt during WWII #marvel #bucky barnes #steve rogers #my posts #comic panels

[omarfor-orchestra]

I do think people who work in the field should roast the show because it was supposed to bring attention to some kind of realities that get ignored more often than everything else and it became a soap opera instead but consider. I like it.

#no ok listen i have thoughtstm #as someone who admittedly ignored the aforementioned realities and is trying to learn more about them after watching the show bc it opened #my eyes #you have no idea how difficult it is to find information about juvenile prisons #it is difficult enough for normal prisons but juvanile ones? it's like they don't exist #and they have so many fucking problems #so many #every time i try to explain what i found out i get mad #jesus christ they're kids and no one cares about them #and i hoped the show would do the same thing to other people as it did to me ie open their eyes about those problems #(I'm not saying it's realistic. it's just a rai fiction after all they didn't even have money to make s1 come on but it made me say 'let's #see how things really are' and then i got mad about it bc i thought they were better and they're not) #it didn't #the kids keep being ignored. the problems are still there. people literally cross the street in front of jails as if the 'unworthyness' #could be passed to them through osmosis or something #they could do so much with this fame and success and money they're making #but they do nothing and this scary because the original aim was to raise awareness not romanticize #s1 was very clear on this aspect it was horrible and crude it wanted to say hey kids. these dynamics are bad and will get you killed #now it's very different #and i get why organizations are mad #but i still think that if what happened to me happened to a few other people than the show worked and I'm grateful for it #i do have names of organisations if anyone is interested #and I'll write an article on the actual situation one day

[sol1loqu1st]

i'm going to be seeing a new therapist later this month & i want to bring up possibly/probably having osdd, but i know that since more people have been kinda learning about what DID and osdd actually *are* there's been an influx of ppl claiming to have it (ftr it is NOT my place to tell people they're faking lmao, i don't care if someone claims to have a disorder and then later it turns out they don't & i don't think most ppl are "faking." it's between them & their therapist if they have it or not and it harms no one to self dx, people taking it less seriously isn't the fault of self dxed people either)

but anyway i'm worried that if i go into a therapist's office and immediately tell them i think i have Today's Trendy Disorder i won't be taken seriously. but at the same time there is really obviously *something* going on with me that isn't just normal depression & anxiety and treatment methods for bpd (like dbt, mood stabilizers, etc) haven't helped even a little bit over the several years i've been seeking treatment for it so i'm starting to suspect there's something else going on i haven't been seeing & honestly after talking with my last therapist abt stuff (who i was seeing for bpd/trauma stuff but looking back they were pretty obviously trying to get me to figure out i had a dissociative disorder, whether or not i do they certainly thought so) i'm realizing that some of the things i experience are a lot less normal than i thought and may be consistent w/ an osdd diagnosis (probably not DID because i don't really experience significant memory stuff though lol. i do a little but it's less "can't remember at all" and a little more like waking up from a dream where i can recall the gist of stuff but it feels far away)

i don't even know what id do with a diagnosis though. honestly i just want answers and a place to start in regards to treatment more than anything else

(advice welcome but not expected)

#idk though maybe it is just anxiety #lot of folks im seeing have like. this detailed internal world and talk to their alters and #have like very distinct separate identities and act really different and all that #my stuff is just like..... idk man #i thought i had osdd when i was a teenager but i eventually decided it was bpd mood swings and identity issues #and any memory stuff i did deal with was adrenaline from anxiety #and i'm still not convinced it's like #NOT that? #but the way people talk to me about myself when they're upset w/ me #like there's always this implication that i should be able to control what i do and say even when my emotions are boiling over #but i... Can't #if it's a situation where i could seriously fuck my or someone elses life up i can wrench back control of myself enough #to not get in serious trouble but when i get like how i do there have been times i literally know i shouldnt be doing something and #i want to stop so fucking badly and i just am basically watching myself fuck me over and make awful choices and i can't. stop myself #& i just. i always thought i was just making excuses for myself and that i was just. one of those horrible assholes #who acts like they cant control themself when they hurt others #(& i do take responsibility for the times i've hurt other people or lashed out unfairly. regardless of if it was me or an alter #it's still my responsibility to make things right) #but. idk. maybe it's not just that i'm a bad person #maybe there really is something actually going on with me and i can learn to cope w/ it in healthier ways #also shut up yeah the mp100 finale got me thinking abt this again ok. seeing mob helplessly watching from inside himself #as a Different Him went on a horrible unstoppable rampage. & the solution was that he had to accept the other him as part of himself #was. very much an 'oh' moment for me. so uh #yeah