#and I keep waiting to grow out of it

[muffin-n-waffle]

Just once I would like for my vasovagal syncope to not make me look like a Victorian woman in need of smelling salts while I’m at the doctor

#medical talk tw #yes they used the ammonia stick on me 🙄 #it was the tetanus shot/blood work combo that got me today tehe 😩 #I’ve been doing this since I was a kid #and I keep waiting to grow out of it #but your girl is 30 years old now #I don’t think that’s gonna happen #but at least the nurses were all very nice about it #and I even got a sucker #vasovagal syncope

[blakbonnet]

s3 Ed could've had space buns or curly bangs and we'll never know 😞

#we could've had a whole episode where they decide to cut bangs #and obv they're too short #so the rest of the season Ed is in clips to keep them out of his face #and waiting for them to grow out #an unfortunate experience everyone I know has had #but now.... #they have done me so dirty hbo max when I see you 🔫 #ofmd #meow speaks

[volivolition]

suggestion do you have... any wants? like obviously you do but like? suggestion my guy my ourple boy. both the easiest and hardest to write. you need a skill to say something to move conversation along but it doesn't fit any skill in particular? about 80% of the time you can have suggestion say it and it will make sense. but like actually characterizing him... how do i define you dude... what makes your character tick... urgh. i dont get you yet. im trying to understand but you are difficult.

#chemi chats #there are some skills that i just dont understand yet and that just means i have to work on their character study chapter #im reading his bio and i think suggestion is a good manipulator and it's instinctive and he tries not to feel bad about it? #he's clever!! charming!! friends with savvy and drama. planting seeds in the mind and coaxing them to grow towards him like he's the sun. #a crude oil reservoir lying beneath a carefully laid flower bed. taps into the roots. the plants don't know any better than to drink. #he's great at sensing what makes people tick and uses that to his advantage. he needs goals to look forward to so he knows how to best #pull the strings to get them there. otherwise he's a bit aimless. he likes being useful. and since influencing others is helpful #he just keeps doing it? because it's what he's good at. and he tries to convince himself its fun and cool and just cuz hes charming and #it's his role as a skill and manipulation isnt thaaaat bad because it's helpful to them after all... but he does feel bad sometimes. #oh im listening to his voice lines and i just got to ''brother you should have put me in front of a firing squad'' and im sad about him now #but what do you want for short term little guy?? probably for people to like him. he likes chatting with people. i bet he'd like genuine #conversations with no strings attached but there's always some part of him filing information and tidbits away that he can't turn off #subconsciously figuring out things he can hold over them or how he can nudge them into thinking someth-/wait.../ no. no he's just talking. #he's /supposed/ to just be talking stop analyzing them stop falling back into that just have a normal conversation!! but he can't help it.. #hm. this is all really helpful for his chapter. he and empathy are very alike but also different. very interesting... #task: swept up #okay good talk everyone i think i understand him a little better now lmao?? still gotta figure him out some more hes not fully there but ye #also i think he goes by whatever pronoun you think he'd use. just ''oh what do /you/ think i am hm?? what /would/ i use; do you think?? :)' #funny fella. i love you.

[unexpectedbrickattack]

idk why but you reblogging that ask u did about Peppino performing for Brick reminded me, and I just NEEDED to share this silly idea but... Peppino gardening... just, like, garlic and tomato plants n stuff, it's cheaper than buying all the time, even if he's not exactly growing enough to make that much of a dent in his bills, it's about the PROCESS PEOPLE and just aekssf Peppino in his little garden tending to his little plants and some flowers, it started out as something to help with personal costs but now it's such a soothing activity it's his little zone and he tells no one about it and making a pizza with his own home grown tomatoes just hits different when he's in a real rough mood. just yeah peppino gardening...

WAUGH this is so cute omg…I cant see him growing TOO MUCH bc some veggies are so fucking delicate but garlic seems doable! Same with stuff like basil and thyme and oregano. Its not necessarily low maintenance but you dont need to constantly get expensive resources to maintain them. Maybe he uses SOME of it for his shop but i can definitely see him using most of it for his own cooking bc hes been doing it since he was young, way back when he was still living w his parents (and he just got the habit from them)

I hc him with a small house (that hes forced to use as collateral to keep the shop open) so like, he would definitely have the space to grow some other small veggies like spinach n tomatoes. With his shop failing miserably hes got Plenty of time to at least go out and make sure theyre not dying 😭 But i can see him making it look more lively postgame when hes got the proper funds to keep the shop open. Old man tending to his tiny little garden :) its mindless work really and it keeps his hands busy. When hes more used to Gus and Brick (and any company in general lbr) coming over to visit; Brick helps with gardening too; his hugeass Rat Hands can tear up at the soil way better than Peppino and his little trowel can. And w the shop doing well he can afford to take days off and even open later in the day so he has more time to himself to do other things (like tend to his tiny garden) (or maybe fucking sleep in for once)

#answered #chattin #peppino #HONESTLY it is just WAY cheaper to buy things in bulk when ur a shop owner #so the money hed save for buying a bucket of seasonings is way more worth it than waiting for some little basil leaves to grow #but also #its about the process. i get u anon i get u 💖 #he has a bunch of little pots on his kitchen shelf and he just plucks leaves whenever he needs them #but stuff like garlic and spinach needs to be out in the back #and also…gardening kind of sucks ass if u have to plant a whole bunch of things 😭 its way more manageable when u keep less varied #so he has no more than like. 2 plant types out back. god forbid u grow some specific veg in the same soil as something else; itd explode 💥 #but this aint about technicalities its about the VISUAL and the PROCESS #and peppino in his tiny garden postgame and looking ACTUALLY happy is so cute #and also brick is there in a sun hat💙 #also peppino and noise bonding (kind of) by him making the noise do Manual Labor and watching him crack under bags of fertilizer heehee

[front-facing-pokemon]

#blissey #as was the case with chansey‚ i will once again be including a super close-up under the cut #because you would not be able to tell which pokémon it is if it was above the cut. although i kinda did that with shuckle #ahh well. keeping the tradition i started with chansey going #i always thought this one was a gen 4 retrofit evo but it turns out it was gen 2‚ just like so many others i thought this same thing for #but i think my reasoning for that one is justified considering the reputation this thing has for being unkillable in gen 4 #something-something using close combat against a blissey in pokémon dp and waiting until you grow a beard for its health to deplete

[spectral-honey]

Au where Damian is closer in age to Tim and joins the batfam after Jason dies

bruce has to make himself functional with a new kid dropped in his lap and then has to cut back on the violent outbursts because Damian WILL take it as permission to kill and they're trying to teach him not to do that

tim keeps his stalker tendencies and grows to like Damian's robin just as much as Dick and Jason's, even if this new robin is a bit stabby around the edges

damian is the first robin to notice Tim tho and confronts him on his own without telling Bruce

timmy is like heyyy don't stab me I swear I wouldn't endanger the bats ever & also I can maybe give you info I find sneaking around & also hey wouldn't it be cool to have a secret from bats? You could have your own personal informant wouldn't that be so cool you could impress Batman and everything

dami: fine but you don't have any more secrets right

tim, knows their secret identities: and I said no, y'know, like a liar

so they make a truce that turns into a friendship that turns into Damian hiding the fact that he has adopted a brother, shut up Batman you picked up random children from the street so can damian

bruce and dick: wow it's so nice that Damian has started listening to us about not killing or using excessive violence on people. We're glad he understands now

Damian, who got a 72 slide PowerPoint lecture from Tim about the practicality of not killing as a vigilante in Gotham: yes, that is what happened. I have accepted your perspectives on morality. No other reason

tim’s powerpoint has a lot of graphs and venn diagrams measuring different kinds of criminal activity vs public cooperation vs batman's violence levels vs police cooperation vs rogue activity. The gotham ecosystem is delicate

when jason comes back tim throws a fit because he has to REMAKE his powerpoint and all the graphs to add red hood’s vigilante-slash-rogue effect

Tim at some point: batman is fragile if you kill people it will make his traumatized brain explode

Dami: trauma?

Tim: y'know from martha and thomas being murdered in front of him

Damian, eyes narrowed:

Tim: I mean… that's just a game theory?

but just like generally Tim and Damian being each other's support systems

they bond over having parents who are absent?? Like, damian missing his mom and tim immediately empathizing on how its hard when you love someone who is away a lot or for a long time

they talk about missing them and damian is able to open up about feeling out of place and how difficult it is to adjust or know how he's supposed to act

#damian wayne #tim drake #batfam #batman #talia: lets play musical children. I will take jason and you can take damian #If talia knew about jason’s plans for revenge she probably would make damn sure that jason wasnt about to touch her boy #BUT assuming he somehow got that past her #tim would be SO salty about it. #jason: wait I’M your hero? Tim: well not after you tried to FUCKING KILL damian #jason: #tim: but yes you WERE my hero. damian said you guys were cool tho so i GUESS youre okay. For now. #damian mentions hes from an assassin cult and tim just like freeze frame hold up rewind a bit there /huh?????/ #tim trying to like. Support damian in detoxing from the cult stuff #and says really unsubtle stuff about how SOME PEOPLE grow up in environments that teach things that aren't always good for the person. #And this RANDOM PERSON WITH NO SPECIFIC EXAMPLE have difficulty adjusting to normalcy and reaching out is both the most effective- #-and best for the emotional wellbeing of this person #and damian is like ah i see (completely misunderstands) I will keep this in mind while interacting with grayson. #tim was completely ready to take on trying to stabilize a violent adult man who just lost a son of COURSE hed be like #‘yeah i can probably un-indoctrinate an assassin child. What could go wrong’ #when Damian figures out Tim knows their identities they get to hang out at boring social events #damian is like tim has my complete confidence. And tim is like uh yeah i just dont rat him out on feeling emotion #damian is describing Tim to dick and he's like oh wow my informant is very trustworthy #he has great use in entertaining me at fathers horrible social events #and dick is like Damian buddy that sounds like a friend. A friend is the thing you're describing #also important to this au is Tim's adrenaline junkie tenancies. He just is. #maybe also as a side thing it's a Tim as Barbara's apprentice au? Eventually becoming a vigilante but more in the informational vein #babs is like hey Dami why did I see u on this camera hanging out with a random child and Damian is like shit. Do not tell father pls #so he recruits her to teach tim self defense so he wont fuckin die running around gotham #dc #is this just blatantly me liking tim and damian being friends? maybe. you cant prove anything

[falling-hand-in-unlovable-hand]

i like my hair rn but also. the urge to chop it off

#forgive the awkward face censor lol #but i wanna cut like 3 or 4 inches off #get it to the base of my neck #i'm bored of it lol #kiwifae says shit #i'm tired of being able to tie it back /j #for some reason growing my hair out lately has felt very gnc even though it doesn't look like it #but i do want a new haircut for spring #before i shave it in the summer #i'm so excited lol #i adore the grown out buzz look :33 #i'm gonna wait until i have like an inch and a half then bleach it (for the first time :00) and dye it bright red #then i'll keep growing it out so i have red tips heheh #vanities

[astyrra]

persona 3 fans:

if i read the manga/watch the movies now and then play reload when it comes out, is that a decent way to experience persona 3?

#persona #persona 3 #persona 3 reload #basically. ive played p5 and p4 and theyre great #and i keep seeing really cool looking fanfiction with p3 characters that i want to read #but i cant justify buying/playing the same game twice in six months #so i gotta wait til reload comes out to play it #but i really really dont want to learn the plot via getting spoiled from fic #(i know the big ending spoiler but not a lot else) #i know the games are the superior experience. and theres a lot of stuff i love about the persona games #that doesnt translate well to other mediums #like how the background npcs dialogue shows them growing thru the year as well. i love that and im sure its not in the adaptions #but idk if i have the self control to not spoil myself until february #also manga vs movies which is better. they seem to be about equal based on what ive been googling

[chaoswillcalmusdown]

ngl i'm obviously grateful for the fact that medication exists that can make me function as a human without the extreme period cramps once a month and without the vomiting due to pain.

but the fact that the medication instantly and very obviously also made me. like. fully numb to life. is really not fun and i really don't think it's fair that those are the two like........... options... that exist

#i stopped birth control after i had a panic attack in a shop in london bc i'd felt increasingly anxious for years #and it just completely ruined my holiday #and after the first 3 ish years without any hormones my body reverted to my teenaged troubles #rn we're taking this birth control to keep the cyst from growing even more until it's my time for surgery #so i'm like. it's acceptable and i'm okay like this #bc it's not nearly as bad as it used to be #and i'm allowed to stop taking it if i want but if i have to choose rn between the two evils #i'd rather be a lil numb #also means i'm less actively upset at my job that i hate. bc i'm just kinda numb. win win ?? #it's gonna be an interesting follow up appointment though bc i cannot live longterm on birth control #if it comes to that i'm just gonna be like 'bro we'll just call it quits on the uterus situation' #bc i'm not trialing the spiral or the other invasive and scary option #when hormones alrEADy fuck me up #it's either migraine city or anxiety city or apparently now depression city #and i would just like none of those thx #i'm not having kids with this body so like. i don't need ovulation #i've had 16-17 years of it. i think i can be done now #my endometriosis journey is slow rn but we're just holding out until november #me and my 10 cm cyst............ that's like. a tennis ball. inside my body. waiting to cause me more pain. can you even comprehend ?? #this is so tmi but i'm just like. so tired of this numbness ? #i'm not usually an emotional person but considering that i was kind of like this back when i was 18-22 #no wonder my mum used to comment on me never crying at films #insane to think i actually socialized at uni #anyways #time to go to sleep to wake up early and go teach at a place i really don't wanna be at ✌🏽🤪

[fleetsonourgecentral]

Good that I give Royal Au so light XD

Talking about the Au Scourge's gang (Fiona and the destrutix plus Rosy) exist?

If yes imagine they made everyone VS everyone/gang vs gang XD

Rubs hands together OKAY SO. I have actually done a little bit of thinking about this, and I think both the destructix and the suppression squad are in this au. I haven't fully settled on what exactly the suppression squad's role will be - parental approved company for Scourge, perhaps? - but the destructix are the gang Scourge initially sneaks out of the castle to hang out with before he bumps into Sonic. Scourge's parents don't approve of them - they consider them ruffians, and they aren't as poor as Sonic/they're not quite commoners but they're still considerably lower on the class ladder than Scourge - hence why he has to meet up with them in secret. They're rebellious and troublemakers and Scourge is always getting into fights with other people with them, which he finds really fun

Unlike Sonic and co, however, they don't have any interest in taking down the monarchy. They're well aware Scourge is the prince, and probably hoping (most likely subconsciously) Scourge will give them powerful, high-up roles in the kingdom once he takes the throne. If they heard about Scourge's plan to overthrow his parents, they'd be down for it until they realised the next step of the plan would not be Scourge taking the crown for himself, but getting rid of the monarchy entirely and giving the power to the people. They don't want it gone, they're just waiting for the day Scourge takes the throne

Tldr they're Scourge's friends that his parents really, really wish he wasn't friends with, and they've forbidden him from speaking with them, but that just means he sneaks out to meet up with them. Trying to meet up with them without getting caught is probably why he takes to dyeing his fur whenever he sneaks out, and thus, they are indirectly the reason he eventually bumps into Sonic while disguised as a commoner - or, at least, definitely someone lower than a prince

#sonic the hedgehog #scourge the hedgehog #fleetway sonic #stc sonic #fleet!sonourge #asks #royalty au #the destructix: yeah rebel against your parents!!! fuck em!!!!! #scourge: rebels against them by overthrowing them and dismantling the monarchy for the cute commoner boy he likes #the destructix: wait no not like that- #i suppose this could also result in a gang vs gang thing!!! #depends how long it takes them to find out about the freedom fighters though #i imagine scourge probably isn't too forward with information about his new besties #probably by accident at first or something. idk. maybe he's like 'i just want to keep this one thing for myself' #and then it grows and he realises oh. they'd probably hate it if they knew sonic's plans. maybe try to stop him #either way i imagine it would take them a while to discover the freedom fighters #although they start to catch on that SOMETHING is up when scourge starts ditching them and hanging out less #because he's with sonic and his friends instead #i'll (hopefully) get to your request soon btw! #can't say how long it'll take bc i'm also trying to focus on my other multichapters rn #and i have. a known habit of being like 'ooo fun prompt!' and then not writing it for like a month #my bad lmao..... sometimes the muse just doesn't wanna play y'know #but i will get to it!!! eventually. #so if i haven't done it in a few days. or. weeks. i'm not ignoring it i promise #feel free to keep sending me asks though!!!! #i'll always be thrilled to answer even if it takes a while #(it shouldn't bc asks like this are faster to answer than requests but. y'know. just in case)

[mainfaggot]

my mom is so annoying god

#“well im also sick and tired!” -> her excuse for when she starts being mean to me for no reason #like when im mean i just dont talk to anyone. or i snap and then immediately apologise #when my mom is mean she insults the crap out of me and then follows up with “well im stressed just like you! and you dont even care about me #i just exist to make money and be the breadwinner!“ like ok? and no apology? lol like.. #and its so damn annoying because yeah she does keep the household running but she chose to have me and she chose to make my environment #suffocating while i was growing up she is half the reason i have the mental disorders that i do! #and if she cant stand me then she shouldve kicked me out or earlier! #and if im still too much then honestly? she can kick me out now. ill just go drown myself like 😐 yayyyy finally i can use the Out card in #my back pocket. the plan I've had for a year. #sometimes im like omg wait but i could live... i could live for some beautiful moments... as IF. #like if my mom makes it to be this way then ill die! ill die and ill die peacefully at last #z.post

[malikselfindulgence]

Morshid and Marek have a symbiotic relationship except instead of either of them gaining anything useful they r actively pouring toxic chemicals through the other's bloodstream

#they wouldn't survive without each other morshid's entire existence is a paradox #im here to take care of him but I have nothing but claws I can do nothing but hurt him #morshid has to convince himself this is for the best and he's fulfilling his purpose #marek loves morshid too much to call out his hypocrisy so they r just stuck in this loop #at least until morshid thinks critically about swk in terms of his own preception of himself and is like ohhhh my god #what the fuck am i doing #rudely awoken #they work on it ♡ wholesome family shenanigans [they almost tear each other apart] #thing about marek is he keeps saying he doesnt trust morshid and he hates him #he keeps saying morshid is being cruel and this isnt helping any of them #but she doesnt move from her spot . she doesn't try to stop any of it. she hopes and hopes and hopes against all odds #that this time will be different. she hopes that this wretched creature stuck in the past will change for her will grow soft for her #IM SO normal u guys ♡ morshid and marek my horrible terrible children #malik's rambles #ohidk why im not tagging these ocs i should actually wait #oc: Marek lmk #oc: Morshid lmk #shepherd duo

[huntingrays]

so, i love and vibe w bi leo, it’s so good

however

something just hits different with gay leo who’s been performing heterosexuality for years

#heroes of olympus #leo valdez #like i could write a whole essay on this (not rlly but also yes rlly) #like lil him somehow getting in his head that you have to find someone who likes you and then you’ll grow to love them #and that all guys just think girls are pretty but don’t like them beyond that until they get to know them #and he doesn’t get to explore feelings for girls bc nobody shows interest in him and he keeps like running away from home #and then he meets fake memory jason and something just clicks #but he assumes it’s just bc they mesh rlly well #but then he has the classic italicized oh moment #but he just thinks he’s seeing why girls like jason so much #and so he ignores it and tries to get a gf. bc surely if he flirts w pretty girls he’ll find one who likes him right? #and once he finds a girl who actually likes him then he’ll fall for her and know what all those guys w gfs are on abt #but also mans probably has some catholic guilt n internalized homophobia n shit #bc yknow his aunt calling him a demon/devil (i forgot which it was) #i can imagine him and nico bonding over this and falling for heroes #and he’s SHOCKED when pipes is talking abt what she loves abt women after she comes out #and he’s like ‘wait what???? I’ve never thought that way abt girls ever. you don’t just like them bc they’re objectively pretty????’ #and then they have a long convo abt sexuality #and he has a realization that the way piper feels abt women is the way he feels about men (but mainly jason) #maybe he’s also aspec? I could see him being demi and only liking someone after getting a connection w them #valgrace #man now i wanna write a leo sexuality crisis fic #but i got so many fics i wanna write… the main one being a revival fic bc the boys deserve to be happy #but also i need more valgrace fics… and you should be the change you wanna see in the world #as someone who’s arospec i’m just projecting onto him but with a different flavor

[ezralva]

Need to start with these asap:

1. Mr. Villain's Day Off anime (i so crave my usual dose of good short SoL)

2. My Roommate is a Cat (i so crave my usual dose of good short SoL)

3. Kagurabachi : cz my man is reading it and needs someone to fanboy together, I've seen the hype, is it any good tho?

4. Cheri Maho anime: least in priority cz I've watched the drama and read the manga since 2020 so nothing is gonna surprise me anymore. I just miss listening to Chiaki's voice in another awky shy nerdy chara

But when.... I got a day off today and all I do is spouting nonsense abt Choso Yuuji 😅

#myb next year after I finish my training and research #by then I wud prolly forget abt all these lmao #i just wanna live peacefully as an otaku who travels the world but money doesn't grow on trees so instead I gotta keep being a busy man #wait there's another bl anime coming out this year but I can't remember the title ffs...

[forestslut]

guess who impulsively chopped off a bunch of their hair last night despite their best efforts to grow it out?

(it was me)

#almost colored it red again but #i held back #the top is a lil too short for me but. eh. hair grows back! #it’ll be fine again in a couple weeks lol #cant wait till the chops grow out a bit #i want them to be long but my hair is curly and the length literally has not changed despite them growing #the curls just. keep them the same length #JAIL. #anyway #my face #mine #queer #gay #nonbinary #trans #transgender #hair slightly inspired by nimona #havent seen it yet but i love her hair

[simgerale]

hi all, here's a late night thought-ramble

[it's about wedding stuff so please scroll away if you're not interested lol it's 100% okay]

as you are all technically strangers, i thought this would be a good place to get unbiased opinions (^:

i'm a people pleaser by nature, so i'm struggling with the whole "it's your wedding! do what makes you and your groom happy, and that's all that matters! if they love you enough, they'll understand."

why? because i want a small wedding. but i also think it'd be nice to have everyone who ever supported me there lol. to keep it relatively small, i think only inviting family would work (this would be under 60 if everyone came from both sides of our family). i don't have many close friends, so this wouldn't be impossible. but my groom definitely has people that he'd like to have at the wedding that aren't related to us. it's just a "if he invites these people, will the category of those people in my life get offended? does it matter, NO, but won't they?" and again, he has told me time and again, that i should do what i want and nothing more.

but oh my GOSH do i worry about having regrets and hurting feelings. like!!!!!!!!!! what's wrong with me!@1!!!!!!! i know if i was giving the advice to someone in my position, i'd say "JUST INVITE WHO YOU WANT TO INVITE! in the grand scheme of things, it doesn't matteR!!!!"

i need to follow my advice. but let me tell you................... it's hard. i'm so stubborn when it comes to knowing what's right for me vs. other people.

ANYWAY. i want this type of wedding what do we all think

#nonsims #nnngghhhhh i don't want to be stressed about planning a wedding #but like............................................................everyone is all 'when is the date? you have to figure that you first' #out* #and knowing that i want a fall wedding #and that's something i won't give up on because that's the ONLY thing i ever dreamed about growing up. #i didn't know any details of my wedding except the season so i'm KEEPING IT #anyway. if it's fall. then it has to be in like......less than 8 months #it seems so SOON #and waiting an entire YEAR AND A HALF TO MARRY HIM DOESN'T SEEM RIGHT EITHER #i've been dating him for 5.5 years so i am rEADY to be his wife #so ready. #it doesn't help that he's trying to get into graduate school and we will have to move soon and if he doesn't get in then he has to find #another job because we do not like this job he has rn #so we don't know what area we will be in #or what type of money #it's...it's very..... #it's very LIFE. i should say. #anyway. goodnight everyone i love you all thank you for all your support and kindness #i love scrolling through my dash bc you guys inspire me #MWAH #kisses