#always form too long

[sualne]

small oneshot turning into something longer than planned

#my art #my comic #undescribed #op vamp au #its an idea thats been in my head for a long while. actually writing it is so hard tho ○|￣|_ #dialogue changed going from comic to fic form. actually dialogue are so hard in fic form im used to small short sentences (irl too lol) #but it doesnt feel as natural in fic. mines at least. why..... #i love horror im always worried i cant do it. but that first comic turned out nice so i'll have to believe i can do it in words too smh

[livetogether--diealone]

"If I'm gonna to bet on anything, I'm gonna bet on us Buck"

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#people forming bonds with eachothers in the face of tragedies will always get to me okay? i'm basic like that #also don't look at these gifs too long it looks like i can't gif properly #but this scene running head first through the wall and the ep after bucky still teasing about if you knew sports #AAAAAAAAAAAA #anyway this series man #🤌 #masters of the air #john egan #gale cleven #mota #motaedit #hbowaredit #tvedit #jo.gif

[aquanutart]

I absolutely LOVE the Squirtle/Wartortle illustrations by kantaro in Pokemon 151!

The Squirtle jumping so joyfully from the rock into the ocean, the colors are STUNNING! I love the contrast of the Squirtle's aqua blue framed in the vivid orange sky, the soft bit of blue reflecting in its shell and its tail just catching the sun, how little and squishy its body looks as it launches itself towards the water with such tremendous excitement!

The lineless style of the background gives me the feel of a travel poster and I sense the tropical environment around it from the rocks and trees framing the corners, the waterfall splashing with as much energy as the Squirtle!

The layered blues on the surface of the water and the bubbles rising at the corner make me FEEL the liquid rising to meet the Squirtle--I can just feel how the next moment it's going to break through and be immersed in a cool island swim!

And the Wartortle running along the sunset beach, this is somehow everything I always imagined for Wartortle! I adore the way the rich purple melts into the warm red/orange sky, the matching purple clouds and shadows in the foreground, and how the dimming sunlight glows red on Wartortle's deep blues!

I love how the yellow and orange of the sky illuminate the lapping waves, I can just feel the gentle motion of the sea at dusk. The aqua color of the ocean matches Wartortle's ears and tail and sets off the red-orange sand, I just love how the colors are here!

Wartortle looks so round and squishy, I love its happiness as it goes frolicking through the shallows, chasing the bubbles caught in the setting sun! The shine and deep shadow on its shell give it an almost jewel texture like real tortoise shell; I love the silhouetted splash Wartortle leaves as it goes running across the shore. It's so full of energy and delight at the end of a gorgeous day! The colors in these are SO vivid and harmonized and the style is so cute and bursting with energy and joy. I just LOVE it (also Squirtle is my starter)

#pokemon #pokemon tcg #long post #i have deep affection for bulbasaur as well though and i also love the bulbasaur/ivysaur cards in this set #i SO wish we'd gotten art of the final evolutions in the same style as the pre-evos' standard cards!! #(yes i do love the full art ones but i also love the illustrations on the standard cards!) #from the way the settings in these two were going; i would have imagined blastoise to be set at night (??) #i LOVE pokemon cards. i can't keep up with every set but i started collecting again now and then a few years ago #and 151 has really got me wanting the full set the way i haven't since childhood. SO many beautiful illustrations (but there always are) #it's like having little pieces of art of my favorite characters and it's only.. slightly... less expensive than actually commissioning .... #i KNOW it's less expensive to buy the individuals online but it's so much less fun #part of the fun is having YOUR own pokemon journey ((going to the store)) and seeing what YOU encounter ((when you open the pack)) #i do buy them online sometimes but i usually dont form as strong associations with them as when i open a pack in a certain setting or place #i tend to try to save them to open right before a significant event like starting something new or a holiday. so that i form associations #and it's like 'oh that's the galarian obstagoon from when my mom came home for christmas' #and 'that's the snorlax who reassured me when i was hurt' #i don't buy them too often so i've got to make it count #anyway i know i should wait for the prices on this one to come down because it's absolutely ridiculous #i didn't buy anything at release because i was like $6 for one booster pack??? but i couldn't take just sitting and watching them sell out #i really like the poster because i can look at so many beautiful pictures all together #i could say stuff like this about literally every pokemon illustration (if i had time to write it out) and sometimes i've wanted to #i just chose these two because these are a couple of my original favorite pokemon and i just couldn't keep it to myself. i LOVE these

[sweatermuppet]

they love me for my nonverbal charm

#thinking abt a mutual im flirting with & how she sends me long texts but im just like 🥴🥰🥰🥰‼️ #we've discussed this too & it feels good to be talking to someone who understands that my forms of communication aren't always traditional

[tariah23]

Marie is so cute 🥰!!!

Bonus Mandricardo!!!

#fgo #ginka just posted her full school girl art to twitter not too long ago… #one of the girls of all time #I love her alter form….. #rambling #their art is always so pretty ahhhhhhh

[padfootastic]

if you were to summarise sirius' personality and character traits, how would you do it?

hi hi hi! so sorry for long this took but okay, so, let’s do this.

so, his CORE trait for me will always be loyalty, hands down. i once waxed poetic about sirius’ devotion to the potters to my friends for like, half an hour straight (one of them actually teared up). the way he talks about james even after so many years, how his first instinct is always to look out for harry, how everyone talked about him & j even when they believed he was the traitor—all of it just really drives home how he gives all of himself to someone when he decides to. if someone’s his person then he’ll do whatever it takes for them (if you’re not, tho? ur lucky if u even get a look in ur direction)

he’s also very competent. he was probably brought up as a pampered heir, with access to all the resources his little heart desired, so coupled w his innate ability/potential/aptitude, it becomes a deadly combination. he uses logic to work through things, prides himself on his intelligence, and probably wouldn’t like hanging out with people who can’t atleast match him in some sense (so laziness/incompetence grates badly).

as a corollary, he’s also pretty arrogant, in that casual sense that old money people are ykwim? he’s had the world on a silver platter his entire life, and even when he’s cut off from it, it’s still a part of him. there’s also the fact that he’s got a lot going for him—looks, power, smarts wise—and that just adds to it. so it can be off putting or it can be hot or both, but he has a superiority complex and he doesn’t exactly hide it. less interaction with the plebs, the better for him.

irreverence and dark humor!!! sirius copes using morbid jokes and making people uncomfortable; he has slight control issues and this way, he makes sure everyone’s always on their toes. it’s also like,,,a way to kind of gauge how others will react to him based on how they deal w his humor. bc he’s not sunshine and roses, right? and he doesn’t want anyone treating him like it or expecting him to be so. and in a way, their reactions to his jokes correlated to their degree of acceptance for him.

intense. when it comes to things he likes, he’s very passionate about it, almost with a single minded focus. and it can get A Lot. he operates in a lot of extremes, right? so either 0 or 100 and this comes across in the way he interacts with people, the level of interest he shows to things, and how much effort he puts in, if it’s His Thing, then he won’t leave a stone unturned but if he doesn’t care? then he will not give a single shit

soooo, these are some of the things i very strongly believe in for sirius 🙈 tell me what u think? (and as always, @artemisia-black has some great metas on sirius’ character so i’d recommend checking those out for sure!)

#sirius black #tumblr has been difficult lately 😓 #bc i’ve been travelling for stuff and there’s so much work piling up and i have a lot to do #esp this week #i haven’t been able to write anything in so long #but i love asks like this!!! #they’re fun and low pressure and let me talk at length about my boys #without punctuation at that lol #also controversial opinion: but i think a part of sirius always knew that if he caved he would get the silver platter back #like his family was probably v desperate to get their perfect heir & son back yeah? #and if sirius really REALLY needs to he can go back to it #except he’ll have to give up parts of himself for it and he won’t do that #but the knowledge that it’s not fully irreversible probably added to his arrogance a bit too #the knowledge that he’s not fully alone #if that makes sense? feel like i didn’t explain that well #i feel like a lot of this is just. hcs and conjecture but let it go yeah? #i don’t have a strong enough grip of canon togo that route #and in any case—i cherry-pick canon and only take what i like form it #from* #sirius is anyway a character of my heart first #pen’s asks

[hedgehog-moss]

I don't think I can reply to your post with a photo, but as I was reading your aquaponics post I noticed something about our respective sweater sleeves..

P.S. I've followed your blog for a few years now and it never fails to make me smile and you seem like such a lovely person. Thank you for sharing these snippets of your life with us!

Ohh!! I don't know why it's delightful to learn that a stranger on the internet is wearing the same thing as me but it is...

It's very soft isn't it! I'm always on the hunt for non-itchy jumpers. This one is Mascarille-approved, she tries to knead it all the time, only to get thwarted and redirected to more appropriate dough (the communal cat blanket).

Thank you for the kind words! <3

#ask #in french we say a pull for a sweater / jumper because pullover is too long and we always strive to nounify english wherever possible #i find it funny that english is so into verbs it takes french nouns with a clear noun ending to use as verbs #(to camouflage; to massage; purée > pureeing; buffet > buffeting etc) #while french likes nouns so much it takes english verb forms with an unmistakable present participle ending and #plops an article in front of them to make them nouns e.g. le pressing le smoking le shampooing...

[reksink]

Taking a Nice Stretch

#my art #my ocs #character design #furry oc #Or perhaps arvian OC... #I always forget what 'bird furries' are called hehe #Anyway this lovely lady is just another miscellanous design form me! #With her I just wanted to draw bird+long arms and thus we are blessed today #I'm not too sure what to name her quite yet #A challenge indeed #Also for anyone curious the symbol translate to '*hum*' 'Lovely' 'Lovely' #And this context it's just a content hum followed by 'Lovely stretch sound! Good sounds!'

[glorious-blackout]

Keep seeing posts about people having bad experiences with the crowd at the Käärijä gig tonight and all I can think about is this 😅:

#sounds like Käärijä and his crew were on amazing form as always but certain people in the crowd were trying to ruin it for everyone #which is such a shame for the people who were just trying to enjoy themselves #honestly the crowd in Glasgow was the nicest I've encountered in a long time and Dublin's crowd looked chill too #so I hope the people at the gig tonight still had an amazing experience even if there were a few arseholes #Käärijä

[autisticlee]

it kind of sucks when all your friends and family, everyone you know, are all pairing off and getting married and havinf families, except you. you're the only one that doesn't have a partner and probably can/will never get one. especially if one around you has time for you anymore, they never reach out, never get back to you, because they're only focused on their partners and families. you're stuck alone and drift away from everyone through no fault of your own. you have no hope of finding your own partner or no motivation to look for one for whatever reason. the lack of connections while seeing everyone around you having their own can get overwhelmingly lonely at times....

#autism #autistic #asexual #aromantic #these are probably the two factors that put me in this position #im undateable because im too autistic to form any connections with people and cant even make or keep friends around for long #so how would i ever try to date anyone???? #and also asexual which makes it harder. and aromantic (not sure what kind if its like demi and i just need to meet “the one” #and form a connection first to actually have any feelimgs for anyone or not sure if I simply cannot experience romantic attraction #either way its a lonely existence in a world where 99% of people pair off or obsessed with trying to partner up #and theres less value/time/effort put on friendships #ON TOP OF being autistic and forming any connections at ALL is an extremely difficult task that seems to always fail on me! #lee rants #lee rambles #im actually visiting a friend and her gf (who is also friend but we are less close) so i know not everyone partners and shuns friends #but they live in another country and i cant visit all the time so it doesnt help this lonely shit feeling all the time D: to have ~1 friend #would be nice to have all the close benefits and of a dating partnership without the physical stuff and pressure of “dating” #if thar makes sense. best friends but life patners. the person is obligated to help me and bw there for me at all times #someone who chooses me first instead of others. someone that doesnt make me their last choice all the time #their very comfortable to be around and we relate and get along perfectly and make up for each others weaknesses #my favorite person and im their favorite person #they usually always say yes to me and include me and im their first choice for eveything #they respect my needs and boundaries and work with me if we have a misunderstanding or disagreement. #its so hard to find people like this. someone who matches me well enough to fit all these picky things i want #someone who would like me enough to be like this. someone im comfortable with and like who fits the energy i want #even if someone liked ME enough and was these thjngs if they arent comfortable or match my energy then i dont want them #im not desperate enough to take Anyone ans im extremely picky about it #being aroace makes any kind of datimg very hard because theres ~less fish in the sea~ #but being autistic makes it EVEN HARDER becuase i cant even make and keep FRIENDS so how would i have a /partner/ ????? #sighs. i think im meant to live a lonely life and need to learn to accept it

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Every bookbinding tutorial i found online: "DO NOT TRY THE COPTIC STITCH AS A BEGINNER ITS TOO ADVANCED"

Me who has only bound one book before and used a completely different method: "ehh it can't be that hard"

2 hours later

.....I was right. Its not that hard.

#its technically slightly wrong cuz i dont have signatures #im just doing one folded piece of paper at a time #which does take longer #but i was expecting that #doing actual signatures would have a. been way too thick cuz im using watercolor paper and getting them to lay flat wouldve been annoying #and also i wouldve had to pay a lot more attention to how the pages were actually laid out #and this project was already kinda overwhelming without that added in #im also combining methods a bit cuz im also gonna glue the spine with wood glue for extra support #and i also dont want the stitching to be visible #every tutorial was also like ''coptic stitch is great for exposed stitching!!!'' like cool story. not why im using it. gonna cover that shit #also finding one that wasnt in video form AND actually showed everything i needed to know was completely impossible apparently #i needed to know how to attach a fresh string when i run out cuz i always struggle with that in any sewing project #and generally need a refresher each time #and all the written ones were just like ''just make sure your string is long enough before hand!!! but not so much that it becomes #tangled!!!'' bitch im making a much thicker book than you. i cannot just use ONE string. it b #absolutely WILL become tangled if i make it long enough to finish the binding in one go. #yall are WEAK #my book is 3 times thicker than yours #i need to know how to attach a fresh string #the video tutorials cover that but i had to fast forward through most of it #im running out of steam for tonight (hence why im here and not working on it) so ill be finishing this tomorrow #was hoping to get this part done over the weekend but i ended up not getting a lot of the writing done on friday as i intended #cuz i ended up having to play tech support for my friend so she could update her sims mods

[novadorks]

finally finished orv after two years . . . what do i do with my life now

#started in junior year hs dropped it for a while then started reading again at the start of this semester and now im finally done ! #dont know whether to cheer or just crumple up and start crying bc wow that was a ride #i thought the ending was tragic but then i moved on to the epilogue and oh my godd #the way kdj was crying and miserable bc he missed his companions and he wanted to be with them so Badly #but when kimcom finally Finally chase him down and come back to him theyre too late and hes already disspitated into other world lines #and after that like. whenever kdj pulls some shit and dies the next chapter always starts with an ‘i’ #and hes back and alive and kicking and Thinking but after that epilogue chapter there isnt a chapter in his pov theres no more ‘i’s and. #it just made me incredibly sad bc we dont get to see his pov ever again bc hes truly gone unless we as a reader can imagine him alive again #anyways sad things aside it is Incredibly funny that lee hyunsung just became a wanted man in the 1865th round lmaoo #+ uriel sun wukong and black flame dragon forming a band together ??? truly the most randomest thing in the epilogue #++ yoohankim need to stop beating the shit out of e/o and learn to talk their feelings out Please #+++ sooyoung’s love for dokja has me miserable o-|-< she would wait for him an eternity write for him an eternity im so sad #three times she endlessly wrote a novel for him to read three times she waited to see him for so long <//3 #you bet im imagining the happiest conclusion i can for them #they WILL live happily ever after in that big house together as long as i have something to say about it! #orv

[margle]

In the show and the wider fandom, Cricket is quite a big character. He is the 2nd most recurring character and often demonstrates the negative effect the gang has on those around them. Despite that, I don't often see a lot of cricket-centric posting on tumblr. So I was wondering what people generally think about him.

I doubt this would cause any controversy but nevertheless be nice

#putting my opinion in the tags #I like him but he isnt my fav #I find some scenes funny and I like how he shows how horrible the gang is #sometimes I want him to go in new directions tho #tho I guess stagnancy is kinda the point of his character #iasip #rickety cricket #is it bad form to make a poll like this with negative options?? #I dont think so but lmk if it is #iasip poll #sunnyblr #always sunny #I never know how long to run these #but a week feels too long #I feel like if someone did this of one of the gang it would be carnage #but I think people are calm enough about cricket to handle this

[lanternlightss]

looking back at posts and its so fun seeing exactly which two characters in genshin i was hyperfixated on and that even after like three years it has not changed Once 😭

venti and nameless bard have me wrapped around their fingers istg

#SINCE 2021 !!!!!!!!!! #i think about how much they love each other how much venti seems to idolize the bard to the point that he might seem to be on the same #divinity level as ven is #i think about that ven has carefully guided the citizens of mond to the same values that bard and the rest of old mond wanted it to be #i think about ven never changing his form to keep his friends memory alive even after /two millennia/ of seeing the face you can never get #back in the mirror every day #i think about ven holding his own hands together and pretending for a moment that its someone else holding his #i think !!!!!! about what would happen if the bard had ever perished. if ven would be severely protective and i dare you. try to lay a hand #on a single hair. he has gone through so much and i refuse to let anything take away what he deserves to see #i think about the bard catching the wind as easily as breathing simply bc its not truly “caught” #the wind is simply ever so fond of them that they will not go anywhere else for too long #i think about. the bard cradling a wisp so gently every night that even now warmth seeps in through ventis hand if he pretends enough #i think about a ghost bard who never leaves vens side. who had promised always whenever they departed thatd he leave something for venti to #know hes still there #i think about a bard who breaks down ventis walls with a single tap #bc they know each other as well as they do themselves #i think abt a bard who gently relearns a ven he hasn’t met #i think abt a bard who is angry and spiteful and spitting at the world softening around the wisp who shows nothing but kindness #i think about a bard recognizing ven by a small breeze alone #and i #i simply go bonkers over them you see #lantern says stuff

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'