#back in the mirror every day

[lanternlightss]

looking back at posts and its so fun seeing exactly which two characters in genshin i was hyperfixated on and that even after like three years it has not changed Once 😭

venti and nameless bard have me wrapped around their fingers istg

#SINCE 2021 !!!!!!!!!! #i think about how much they love each other how much venti seems to idolize the bard to the point that he might seem to be on the same #divinity level as ven is #i think about that ven has carefully guided the citizens of mond to the same values that bard and the rest of old mond wanted it to be #i think about ven never changing his form to keep his friends memory alive even after /two millennia/ of seeing the face you can never get #back in the mirror every day #i think about ven holding his own hands together and pretending for a moment that its someone else holding his #i think !!!!!! about what would happen if the bard had ever perished. if ven would be severely protective and i dare you. try to lay a hand #on a single hair. he has gone through so much and i refuse to let anything take away what he deserves to see #i think about the bard catching the wind as easily as breathing simply bc its not truly “caught” #the wind is simply ever so fond of them that they will not go anywhere else for too long #i think about. the bard cradling a wisp so gently every night that even now warmth seeps in through ventis hand if he pretends enough #i think about a ghost bard who never leaves vens side. who had promised always whenever they departed thatd he leave something for venti to #know hes still there #i think about a bard who breaks down ventis walls with a single tap #bc they know each other as well as they do themselves #i think abt a bard who gently relearns a ven he hasn’t met #i think abt a bard who is angry and spiteful and spitting at the world softening around the wisp who shows nothing but kindness #i think about a bard recognizing ven by a small breeze alone #and i #i simply go bonkers over them you see #lantern says stuff

[stealingpotatoes]

Random question but what do you think would happen if S1 Ezra meets present Ezra?

adult ezra: what the hell how are you-- 14yo ezra: dad???! adult ezra: adult ezra, literally about to start crying: WHAT DO YOU MEAN DAD

#HE LOOKS LIKE HIS DAD AND EVERY TIME I THINK ABT I WANT TO THROW A BRICK THROUGH A WINDOW #LIKE DOES HE LOOK IN THE MIRROR ONE DAY AND REALISE??? #DOES HE GET BACK AND NOT HAVING SEEN A PICTURE OF HIS PARENTS IN YEARS HE SEES IT AGAIN AND GETS SMACKED OVER THE HEAD W THE REALISATION #THAT THE MAN IN THE PICTURE LOOKS LIKE THE MAN IN THE MIRROR #HE FIGHTS & ACTS LIKE ONE FATHER AND LOOKS LIKE THE OTHER. BOTH ARE GONE. BOTH ARE GHOSTS RESIDING IN EZRA'S CHEST #AND HE FEELS LIKE HIS OWN GHOST SOMETIMES GIVEN HOW MANY PPL THOUGHT HE DIED. MAN OF THREE GHOSTS #IM THROWING THE BRICK #thanks for the ask!

[the-mighty-het-speaks]

august 3rd, 1963, downey, california, usa

#hi old man. (i can call you that now.....) #just wanted to say that i love you. dearly. and am so fortunate to have you in my life. #on this day last year i said that i couldn't wait to live the dream. i knew that it was fast approaching #16 shows lay before me. 99 days until the first. #and now... a new quiver.... 72..... your heart and soul bare on your sleeve. #what an honor to share that with you. what an honor to feel the love and power that the record has. #it has put into words my greatest hopes and my deepest fears. i hope to be set free from this room of mirrors. acknowledge my inamorata. #to go home...... #thank you for sharing your gift. i promise to give my heart and soul when i ride that rail. sing back every word with every ounce i have. #may you be moved by the souls you have moved yourself. long live the faith. long live the craft. long live what it feels to be alive. #i love you. #james hetfield

[hwsforeignrelations]

The duality of Alfred...

#hetalia #hws america #my art #tw ed #hes hasn't actually got an ed but just in case #this man has SERIOUS self image issues #like he VAIN AF but also incredibly unsure of himself #if alfred isn't kept constantly busy he falls into self destructive habits #like yknow picking himself apart in the mirror #welllll maybe the t i n i e s t bit if binging #i wouldn't call it an ed tho #just that he binges when upset #he bleaches his teeth AT LEAST once a week #manscapes #GAWD hes so fluckin obsessed w his teefs #its hard work singlehandedly keeping up hollywoods smile reputation #his weight fluctuates A TON cuz he doesn't really move during winter but them is beaching every day during summer #ALSO hc that if a nation doesn't like a tooth (cuz maybe it chipped or got cavities or sm) they just... yank it out #kinda like humans cutting their nails so they grow back better #.txt

[snowtimeisbesttime]

all classpect interpretations are equally canon- and this is why:

sburb/sgrub/sname is many things, but the first of those things we see is a computer game. said game's source code can be found in carvings in the frog temple, which comes from a Reckoning meteor; so each sthing version's code comes specifically from itself!

and considering every session we've seen has had an unique frog temple (beta kids: 4 land spires; beta trolls: two separate temples with 6 land spires each; alpha kids: 8 land spires, alpha trolls: at least one temple (with 12 land spires??), possibly located on beforus' moon), there's no reason to assume each and every temple's carvings are exactly the same…

therefore, two swhatever instances can have drastically different classpect definitions because they're running different versions of the game! for example, my own mirrorbent's sgame was compiled in a way where i won't have to go into too many specifics from their own, separate, 12 land spires temple (as opposed to being widely distributed like the beta kids' sburb), and classwise features active knights and passive pages, to pick an example that was recentlyish polled about.

of course, this mini theory thingy would be most applicable to fanventures, while most classpecting theory revolves about homestuck proper for obvious reasons. luckily, i've got some Key Insights about the canon classpects, just beyond this readmore:

get mutie'd lmao!!!!

413 zillion kitys attack!!!!

#no jumpscares or anything below the readmore- just two gifs #homestuck #homestuck413 #classpect #classpecting #fanventures #homestuck fanventure #fwiw my own classpect interpretations would be something like. retro plus #as in i developed most of them All The Way Back When but ofc ive absorbed New and Cool things that have been popping up #and of course same goes for Mirrored Bench my most of blorbos. like especially so. #so like (active/passive) witch/heir (manipulate) maid/sylph (create) knight/page (exploit) mage/seer (understand) #but no 'mages get screwed over forever by their aspect' as Actual Class Definition And Requisite #and ofc no gendered classes #But Also yes inversion theory (arc flavor) because im already going to have to rewrite Enough Shit without jettisoning an entire act orz #and also a few custom aspect palettes (earlier tealer fanon mind; richer less gray life; void with. more than like 3 shades) #also also Every godtier has super deep and convenient pockets. All of them. Pockets for Days. #And more things i'm probably forgetting.

[feralsteddie]

mid-apocalypse Steve with a shaved head is living rent free in my mind rn

#steve harrington #he struggles for a long time before he can actually manage to do it #but the occasional supply shipment the government actually lets through only has so much #and in the long run it was just… easier. felt better than letting it get all lank and dirty #robin did it too. In solidarity at first but then because she likes the buzzed feeling #and yeah when Steve occasionally looks into a grimey mirror it’s hard to see who he was before everything. #underneath the scars that trace all the way back to ‘83 and lack of puffed up mullet #but there wasn’t a lot of time for a hair routine in between swinging a bat at monsters anyways #the only attention he can spare for hair those days is when it’s his turn to wash and braids Max’s- still out after all that time #and when one of the other little kids with too long hair ask #because not all the lifers got out before it was sealed. too many kids stayed behind in the wasteland #but Steve was always good at three things anyways. Hair. Babysitting. and sticking himself into danger so no one else had to. #so it’s kind of fine that his hair was gone. better in some ways. less time to have to avoid looking at himself in the mirror #more time to take care of the others #Robin always affectionately runs her hand over his head anyways. pressed a quick kiss to every scar on his scalp #(if he survives he grows his hair nearly to his shoulders. treats caring for it like a ritual.) #(but that’s only if he lives) #pyreposting #something something his go to self-soothe being touching his hair and no longer being able to

[elizabethrobertajones]

Good choice for an upstanding roegadyn husband for Frog to bring home to her parents to impress them: Rammbroes

Hilarious choice for bringing home an upstanding roegadyn husband to alarm and frighten her parents: Rasho the captain of the confederacy in the Ruby Sea.

#the trouble with having a WoL with a well adjusted home life and living parents #is sometimes you think 'hmm they would probably still have something to say about her marrying an elezen #even if he were the leader of Ishgard' #'I must now evaluate every roegadyn man of a certain standing for potential parent pleasing husband quality' #idk maybe this is just an elezen/hyur/roegadyn problem and the world building for other races feels less analagous #to recent historical societies where this would be important #although woe betide if you have a Sharlayan OC #they definitely have roegadyn culture first and foremost #in terms of like... day to day social structures #I'd say the hyur/elezen/roe non-specific 1800s to modern societal expectations #but roegadyn founded Sharlayan's society and you can see how it mirrors Limsa first especially with boats and arcanists #point is your sharlayan moon catgirl might still have to bring back a respectable husband to impress the parents #in which case you could do worse than Rammbroes :P #ffxiv #I am just rambling #I haven't not skipped the ruby sea cutscenes on alts literally ever so this is the first time watching them since Frog was first here #they're REALLY long and back to back in my defence #also Gosetsu would be perfect parent pleasing husband material but like however old Rammbroes is Gosetsu has at least 2 decades on him #going from 'hmm' to 'Frog MUST see her own grandpas in him and that's that'

[imwritesometimes]

when Jonathan takes the shot and saves Ardeth's life and they exchange a glance across a darkened jungle oasis

#it's like the perfect mirror scene to evy saving rick and alex it literally will consume my brain for days #this literally happens every time I watch 'returns' #jardeth #the mummy returns #it is 2am and I'm fckn delirious back on my bullshit ✌️🥴

[that-one-ao3-writer]

On this late occasion of november 5th lets reminiscence on the craziest parallel from 4x01/15x18

#destiel #nov 5th #supernatural #LIKE I SAW IT THE FIRST TIME I WATCHED IT AND IT MADE ME SAD ×2 #they did not have to do that to us #do you think dean used to look at that scar in the mirror and shed a few tears every time he thought back to that day?

[brabe]

Probably niche, but Parse = Hangman (+ Pimms = Hangster) suddenly clicked inside my brain, and now I can't unthink it.

Dramatic entrance for The Ex that scorned them ✅

They're both the top aces of their craft ✅

They both burn with frustration because the only one they consider their equal, the only one they want as their equal, won't stop sabotaging himself and rise to his full-fledged potential ✅

When it calls for desperate measures, they both pinpoint-know where to hit to make the other snap out of it in a more or less misguided attempt to help them (uncannily, for both Jack and Rooster, it revolves around self-worth!! And here I could open a tangent about the parallels between them too... like the stonewalling, the anger issues!!) ✅

When they both believed they had lost The One That Got Away for good, at last. (They have the same expression??? I feel insane actually) ✅

Also they look similar✨✨

#kent parson #jake hangman seresin #pimms #jackparse #hangster #sereshaw #no but the fact that kent and jack were basically tied at the top of the draft #and first and second place was always a matter between hangman and rooster since top gun or even before that #how jack up and ghosted and everything points in the direction of bradley doing the same #how jake and kent are blinding paragons alone at the top the world at their feet and anything they want at their fingertips #how they are bleeding hearts for the only one they can't have #MY BOYS #this train of thought truly hit me upside the head with a frying pan out of the blue #it's been haunting me for days #i'm back to reading pimms fics and literally the whole time i was thinking that literally every scene fit hangster #also the fact that hangster perfectly mirrors actually canon ex boyfriends and childhood best friends/sweethearts at that. insane

[messybouquetoflilies]

my coworker is getting me & my manager in trouble bc i......... do a bunch of extra work that no one else wants to do without getting paid more for it?? and my manager appreciates me for it???? and i guess being friends is just... unacceptable. UGH she's so fucking annoying. im so pissed

#i literally cant let my energy be off with her for a second or she runs to upper management and spins a story #i have to laugh at all her shitty jokes when im fucking numb and wanna die #i have to let her help me with every little thing and praise her for it #i have to let her fucking mirror my every move even tho its exhausting and annoying for me #i h8 when ppl try to be like me so so so so much #i trained her yea but like???? its different then her trying to make worse versions of my jokes #or drinking whatever energy drink i had the day before #weird shit #and she gets suuuuch an ego when i do give her what she wants #i hate ppl like her with my whole chest my fucking godddddddddddd im so pissed #now me and my manager have to go back to pretending we're not best friends lol #so exhausting.

[hyperfixated-maybe]

Hello! List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox of the last ten people that reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers :D /nf

not dying

not fainting

not being completely incapacitated while conscious

not not even being able to recognize the person walking me to the nurse

not having the nurse think that you faked ACTUALLY PASSING OUT and nearly puking despite apparently being completely pale and shaking just because if you didn’t get better by the end of school she’d have to stay after with you and god forbid she actually care about the kids she is supposed to protect

#I fainted today #It was the most terrifying thing I’ve ever experienced #I’ve been hurt and sick in just about every way possible #But this was DIFFERENT. #I could barely find my way to the nurse in the building I’ve been going to every day for most of my life without somebody else’s hand on my #Back leading me there #And my vision went all sparkling #I saw myself in a bathroom mirror and it looked like I was a photograph being burned from behind #their voices were like I was hearing through cotton balls shoved in my ears #The reason I refused to go home on the bus is because my walk home from my stop is almost a mile long #And I broke down crying in the nurse because I didn’t wanna die I didn’t wanna go home on the bus and pass out on the walk home and not hav #Anyone there to help #And honestly it was fucking traumatic #Because I’ve GOTTEN hurt before. #I fell off a fucking icy waterfall and scraped off half the skin on the right side of my leg just last week! #I’ve fallen from several stories high before #But the thing that was different about this is that the person supposed to be helping me didn’t fucking care #And was actively trying to harm me. #I got home and passed out #I just woke up from sleeping for four hours #And I’m still nauseous and trying to hold down the three chips I ate for lunch #This shit was SO scary. #Sorry I used this as a vent #But I needed to talk about this because I know my dad won’t believe me even though he’s gonna ask #Oh yeah my mum came and picked me up btw I didn’t have to walk home in the end and Mrs asshole had to stay after for fifteen minutes

[junkyardromeo]

this is somethin awful to look at

#duality of man. i need to write a post abt southern imagery in glam metal but not tn #but there is smth there. the thing w the stars n bars n the way that u see it for no fuckin good reason on cali bands #anyways. duality. im mad that country is that close to glam metal tho how tf did that happen . nothin in that folder existed til october #n i been buildin the glam folder for YEARS #i got some kinda awful dixiana dirt thing happenin to me #there is. so much to unpack here #the thing abt dixie is that it will have a hold on u forever no matter how bad u run away from it #n the thing abt cali is that it calls in the night n u know damn well u wouldn’t make it a fuckin day there #n the thing abt sad blonde southern prettyboys with guitars is that they ain’t got no damn sense #n they ain’t gonna be happy nowhere because there ain’t nowhere cut out for em n there never rly was #so they’re chasin skirts in some old relic of the classy south n dreamin of broadway lights #n gettin their hands n hearts dirty with sins they ain’t got the means to pay off now or in the next life #n makin 3am cigarette runs when they know damn well they swore off that shit #but it don’t rly matter none cuz they ain’t gonna live long enough to see them broadway lights or then sunset lights anyways #i can tell y’all somethin about all that cuz im livin it four on the floor every damn day #the grass is greener bout everywhere but ain’t none of it real except wherever you’re runnin from #n the thing about runnin is once you do it you can’t never really look back #sure. look in the rearview. ain’t the same as you remember is it? #one thing i done learned is that life’s a lot like drivin #n it ain’t no coincidence that i tore the side mirror off my shitbox a couple years ago n cracked the rearview on new years eve #like some kinda fucked up angels sayin son don’t look behind you #some kinda fucked up angels sayin boy quit lookin back or you’re gonna crash #so what’s it gonna be? slow down or don’t look back? y’all fuckers ain’t got no consensus or else im hearin things #ain’t gettin no straight answers #could be that i got the devil down here in dixie tellin me shit that ain’t true n i got them angels of god cornerin me in music stores #sayin shit i weren’t ready to hear #so what’s it gonna be? hoss whisperin in my ear or curtis lowe on devine street? #or durango on my left shoulder? #n i know damn well ain’t none of em wrong #but i ain’t gettin no answers tonight neither way so i’ll take another smoke n think it over

[milo-is-rambling]

Me vs outlining a perfect plan for my day in my head which I can be the only one allowed to change the schedule vs my mom asking me to do 2 simple tasks

#she was like hey can you take the trash out I was like ughhhh okay yeah give me a min (I was still ordering weed) #my mom less than a minute later : hey if you want to break down all the cardboard out there I’d appreciate it Me: actually I’d rather not I #was about to shower right after I put this weed order in #then she gets all pissed at me bc I never do what she asks and blah blah blah blah blah #like. girl. I know she can’t see in my brain but I was not awake last night watching cleaning videos and psyching myself up for a day full #of cleaning my room and showering and doing laundry and cleaning funks cage and doobs cage and making my bed and dusting my ceiling fan and #taking apart my box fan to clean it and cleaning the water pitcher in the fridge and deep cleaning #like GAH I HAVE SO MANY PLANS TODAY WHAT DO YOU MEAN I DO NOTHING AND JUST SIT ON MY ASS SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP #ripping my hair out and screaming banging my fists on the floor #I literally was like yeah I’ll take the trash out no I will not break down boxes right now and she went off on a whole fucking thing like #just shut up. #I hate it. why do I make plans in my head of the exact order I have to do things and if one person suggest doing anything differently or #pushing my schedule back further than I wanted to myself I get so annoyed I explode into a ball of flames #I wanted to shower dry off pick up weed let out funk refill the humidifier clean the bathroom mirrors throw sort and clean the bathroom #shelves sweep start a load of laundry clean off my desk which means cleaning and organizing my closet or my desk dresser thing to fit the #crap on my desk and I have to clean and reorganize the space next to my desk so I can fit my boombox there bc the humidifier took its place #next to funk and like I want to just cry why does everything have to be so fucking difficult for me why is everything simple for everyone #else and for me every simple task is composed of one million baby tasks that I have to do in the correct order forever or everyone around m #will think I’m stupid and dumb forever like WHAT THE HELL WHY IS IT SO EASY FOR EVERYONE ELSE IN MY LIFE WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU JUST DO THING #IN WHATEVER ORDER AND IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT DO YOU MEAN A 20 MINUTE SETBACK DOESNT COMPLETELY RUIN YOUR DAY #AHHHHHHHHHH I WANT TO RIP MY HAIR OUT #BUT INSTEAD. I WILL GO TAKE THE TRASH OUT. AND NOT BREAK DOWN THE CARDBOARD BC THAT MEANS GETTING MY KNIFE AND MY HEADPHONES AND PUTTING MO #CLOTHES ON WHICH IS COUNTERINTUITIVE #TO THE WHOLE ABOUT TO TAKE A SHOWER THING #UGHHHHHHH #I am the worst human on the planet and I deserve infinite suffering #fuck this whole thing I’m pissed I’m gonna listen to music and rage clean after I pick up weed and shower

[widevibratobitch]

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#vent post vent post lalalala #i wanted to post some pictures from my weekend trip with my friends before its too late but then i saw my fucking face and now i wanna kms #like oh my god. oh my god this is really truly the face im stuck with forever and ever and ever till the day im fuckin rotting in the groun #incredible how unfair life can be lmao (<- girl who is having such incredibly superficial stupid fucking problems but is otherwise #quite privileged but of course that will never be fucking enough for her because she's soooooo fckn stupid and selfish and annoyinggg lol) #i dont know why im so obsessed with it now #like i genuinely remember KNOWING that im kinda ugly (and fat) in high school and being like 'so what lol idc' #so WHY is it such an issue now????? #idk. i just kinda wish i was dead every time i look at my face and realise there's nothing i can do to change it #i can dress in ways that will cover my ugly ass shapeless body. maybe i can even go back to my ed properly this time #and lose some weight. for a time. before i gain back twice as much and the circle begins anew lol #but my face is not gonna change no matter what i do lmao unless i fucking scrape it off with a grater or smash my head into pieces #and like. even if i do get that rhinoplasty (its not gonna change my faceshape anyway. nothing i can do to fix THAT fuckin atrocity) #every time ill look in the mirror i will only be reminded that its fake. and that my natural face was disgusting enough it had to be cut up #to be fixed somewhat. #i just wish i had ONE. just ONE nice thing about my body. literally just one its not even funny lol #and its so fucked up when you look at my mom who was so insanely fucking beautiful when she was my age. like. i cant blame her #cause how could she have known that the genes she'll pass on will not result in anything good lol but also i feel like such a failure #like its not really my fault i got the genes i got. but yknow. #anyway im tired of always being the ugliest person in any group im hanging out with. my cousins? check. my hometown friends? check. #my uni friends? my GOD check (how ARE they all so pretty and skinny??? insane). #god i wish i were dead. like fr fr. im not actively suicidal since i cant bring myself to *do* shit anyway. but i just wish i never existed

[godsbox-a]

Q. 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦   ?    A.   𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬. who are you without the company of others ? you aren’t sure, but you know that you aren’t fond of whoever it is. you are an actor, a pretty face and a pleasant song. many idolize you, or love you, but you can never be sure of how sincere it is. your heart is buried under the letters they leave you, sealed with a kiss. it can’t be untangled from the red strings they’ve attached to you. you deserve to find something, 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎, true &. faithful to hold your heart in place. you don’t have to be everything to everyone.

𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚢 : @chiheru ! 𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚐 : @lunarette @vtriol @alldarkling @webdes1gn @fableofaesop @ruinedtendencies @memuria + u !

#every day when i pick up my little gojou plusho and i ask if he's gojou satoru because he's the strongest or if h- #and then i hold him up to the mirror and he realizes there's no face reflecting back at him and then he suddenly can't mov- #and then the people who've been benefitting from his existence from the moment he was born oust him from the very society #that he's torn himself and his one and only apart to preserve #anyway this was nice thank yuuu ~ #. ☁️☁️ : 𝚊 𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏. ⁀ .