#also: about expressing needs. lmao.

[1101200905]

trying to learn to trust people more and reach out and stuff instead of not bothering cause i assume ppl will let me down.

but ppl DO STAY LETTING ME DOWN THO!

still trying but this is not helping!

#literally have been trying to be actually a little vulnerable and express my needs #and maybe even stop settling for literally any attention i can get when it's not fulfilling #and ppl be cool about it! and then fuck it up! #like. great now I'm Regressing #i know it wasn't malicious but fuck you homie #also: about expressing needs. lmao. #bpd #bpd attachment

[tennant-davids]

DOCTOR WHO Series 2 / Series 4 / 60th Anniversary

#doctor who #dwedit #doctorwhoedit #tenrose #timepetals #tenth doctor #rose tyler #fourteenth doctor #usereena #arthurpendragonns #timelordgifs #userbbelcher #chewieblog #*laurengifs #ten x rose #dw spoilers #tennant doctors are never going to get there so i'll just be over here crying about that forever 😭 #this isn't about tentoo he's good he can express himself lmao this is about this silly little guy who still chokes on the words #also my god do not look at this colouring i need those upscaled versions asap

[chitinleg]

got him off-balance!

#my art #ds9 #star trek deep space nine #julian bashir #elim garak #garashir #watercolor #image desc in alt text #i normally post on mondays but. today im breaking my pattern! getting a little silly. getting a little wild. garashir jumpscare #“tumblr user chitinleg garak would neot easily let himself be swooped off his feet into a hug like that” yes i know BUT! #look at his expression. look at how his arms r pinned. he didnt let this happen LMAO julian just surprised him. grabby huggy human behavior #if you look really closely you can see the tiniest frown in the world on Garak's face. because he's like “EEP !” #cant see bashirs face at all in this only his body but i think we can all imagine that whatevers going thru his head. he needs this hug bad #ALSO. for anyone wondering what the fucked up shadow is that starts at the juncture of the teal sleeve-cap where its set into the armhole #the jumpsuits have a bit of a fold of extra fabric (called an Action Pleat) there which allows for a little more maneuverability of the bod #AND creates a really sleek and flat back panel #because you can see the fabric twists along the side arent grabbing the flat back fabric theyre grabbing the fabric folded beneath it #often times i think about drawing out a dissection of kiras first uniform and this voy era one for other artists to use. bc god knows #i struggled at first to find full body references #they like to shoot ds9 very close to peoples heads. and the camera is so blurry. they smeared butter on that thing. god bless

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

dnkinktober day 7: humiliation/degradation

manga redraw of this panel:

btw i love how i drew ryuk. i love him so so much. we should all love him so so much

#death note #death note fanart #light yagami #ryuk #manga redraw #my art #dnkinktober #lawlight #going w this style again bc i’m vibin w it #i think i’ve lost some expression in my work lately so i’m bringing it back by going all expression no purposeful order or carefulness #and i feel it in my bones that this is they way ryuk needs to be drawn #i drew him in literally 10 seconds and it is the best ryuk i have ever drawn in my life #he just looks so “wtf lmao” which is why i added that #he has no idea what the fuck light is going on about #i should draw ryuk more often #he and i are literally the same: driven by boredom and basically a clown #i love him #also excuse my dogshit handwriting #i tried like 5 times to get it legible and i think(?) i have succeeded

[andoutofharm]

the thing about the fob healing tour is that it has filled me with so much vindication that now whenever i see Bad Fall Out Boy Opinions (of which so many people are so unnecessarily loud about) it’s literally just like lol okay so you missed the point so bad it makes you look stupid and we are all laughing at you. get laughed at loser we do not have time to entertain your silliness we are busy healing and partying together forever.

#this isnt about anyone specific it’s about a lot of people on various platforms just so blatantly missing the point #1) if you arent a fob fan why does fob and their fans having a good time piss you off. #why does it make you feel the need to make some snarky comment about how Your Band Is Better like. bro you missed the point of BOTH bands #this is so sad for you #2) mania/post hiatus haters who claim to be fans lmao do you realize how idiotic you sound. get a clueeeeeeeee #3) i have chosen not to emotionally engage in polls here because all they do is bring out the worst in people #but also. be for real lmao. you can vote for what you personally prefer and just say that #there is absolutely no need to start cutting one of them down or mocking the lyrics #4) people commenting on joe and pete’s expressions and movements are either so uninformed it’s laughable #or are ​ableist or racist or both #ANYWAY. we have two shows left and i’m so excited for them and that is where i am investing my time and energy #and not engaging with people looking to stir shit up #or just generally bring down the mood #we are better than that.

[anothermonikan]

Ponee (It is half 3 in the morning)

#hey she didn't actually come out too bad! #I didn't show the last time I tried to draw Sunny but it didn't look great ehe ^^; #I think Ponies are gonna have to be a digital art only thing for now cause I had the select and drag so many elements of this #to make this look right sahsdhdshsdh #Yeah despite liking ponies since I've became a conscious thing I never drew them a bunch #and well. that's because I didn't start drawing properly until I was like. 11 years old. and I was super into something else then ehe ^^; #Sorry to get personal in the tags of an mlp art thing but I do think about how I always wanted to draw but like. #I was such a chronic perfectionist as a little little kid??? I HATED everything I tried to make XD #It makes me a little sad yknow? cause like. most kids don't give a shit they just draw whatever and it's beautiful and amazing #it makes me sad that I didn't allow myself to have that! I worked backwards IG lmao #little 6 year old hating everything she tried to make for not being perfect to me now where I love when my art is full of imperfections #that's the point of art!!! Have fun!!! It doesn't need to be perfect or even “good”! #because art is about expression yknow? and drawing stuff you like! #sorry this only took like an hour this should be on a more high-effort drawing sdhdhdshsd #Also um hi to the person who followed me for MLP G5 art?? I mostly post about puters and Ultrakill and Rain World here #But I do really love ponies I need to draw them more often XD #this is my whatever blog. I post whatever interests me here hehe #MLP #MLP G5 #Android Arts #Android.txt

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔 #the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’ #and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃 #i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc. #it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person… #caseyposting

[akai-anna]

me, at hattori heiji, with endless amount of affection: i love you

#detective conan #anime #hattori heiji #the best bro in history #detco posting #detco watching #yeah i needed a comfort movie today what about it? #yes it's movie 7 AGAIN whaT ABOUT IT? #movie 7 my fckin beloved it'S SO GOOD #also heiji's change of expression when shinichi says he doesn't agree with him lmao #anyways so much good stuff in this movie #also the best movie when it comes to size consistency #tho i find the 3D elements a bit weird #but otherwise: this movie is absolutely CHARMING #THE VIBES. THE DETAILS. tHE SUbtlE bitS thE sloW bits thE FAST bitS #the pacing is so GOOD IN THIS #also the one and true heiji movie for me like. this movie really is about him and i LOVE THAT #one day i will write an essay about my fav detco movies just fckin 'cause

[cluster-b-culture-is]

npd culture is getting mad/distressed when you get an Almost Best thing but not the Best Best thing. (context: when i was younger i got a distinction in my dance exam but it wasn't a distinction with *platinum.* which is better. haunts me to this day)

.

#cluster b culture is #npd culture is #cluster b #npd #Mod Reef #anonymous #OH MOOD #my moment was pretty recently actually #the choir i'm part of went to a festival #and the ratings you could get were 1 - 5 with 1 being best and 5 being worst (with extra modifiers of + and -) #the choir we were part of got a 2+ #but the other choir (which we often go to places with and sometimes do stuff with) got a 1+ #and yknow i was already kind of pissed about our choir not getting at least a 1 #but the other choir (which is an amateur choir with people mostly just starting out) getting a 1+??? Such a blow to self esteem lmao #also one of the judges said our choir needs to be more expressive. my autistic ass not knowing how to emote with my face lmao #especially while already trying to focus on singing

[alchemiclee]

jing yuan seems so sad and distant and lonely, especially watching his closest friends fall apart again and again....he's in so much anguish. it makes me wonder how he's still holding it together. how is he not completely broken yet like all his old friends...he must be really strong.

#sometimes I feel like the mara is knocking on his door and i'm so scared for him 😭 #i wish to see him be able to move on and open up to others. form new bonds and not bury himself in work and keep a distance #that could save him at least for a while. but i mean its hoyo. they cant be trusted with any of these characters LMAO #i just have big soft jing yuan feelings. hes a sad wet can of an old man and i had a dream i held him gently #very awkwardly though since hes LARGE and im kinda smol lmao #i also wosh for blade to be held gently 😭 #and dan heng needs a big tight hug by his express friends. i will send march and stelle to his room to snuggle him #its been so long since i had BIG FEELINGS for fictional characters idk what to do about it lmao #between these star rail boys and in genshin the fontaine siblings......S I G H S #oops im procrastinating my art again....

[hooved]

i need to stop thinking "i could be your bf" every time a friend wants a bf. not everyone wants me to be their bf but i wanna be everyone's bf

#i just feel dog-like love and affection for everyone around me #(even if i've gotten less confident about expressing it over the years unless i know For Absolute Sure that ppl want that) #i will love and comfort and cuddle you and take walks with you and accompany you on drives and go shopping with you #i will cook with you and sit around doing nothing with you and be silly with you and [redacted] with you and never get tired of you #i just wanna be with ppl all the time. i want a million ppl to share my abundance of love and affection with #i miss going to cons and parties and meetups all the time with irl friends who are comfortable with cuddling and kissing (and more lmao) #i need that. i'm so glad that my relationship is open now but i still need to find like. a regular thing like that again #and not just ******* ***** ** ****** *** **** *** ******* ** **** *** ***** like it's been lately. i mean that's fine. but also not enough

[shima-draws]

I finished season 2 of Sonic X and OOF I have many feelings. Especially regarding Chris. You can literally see his anxiety rise and rise and rise over the course of the last 3 episodes. My poor boy reached his breaking point 😔

#Shima speaks #It’s late and I’m sleepy otherwise I’d go on a long ass rant about this #But I’ll just mention one thing. #The ONE time we see Sonic cry in the series. The ONLY time might I add #Is when he’s giving Chris one last ride and saying goodbye. Chris literally feels Sonic’s tears his his face #*on his #They’re both sitting there like: 🥺😭 #We don’t even see Sonic cry like directly either we don’t see his actual facial expression #BUT YOU CAN SEE THE TEARS #ALSO THE FACT THAT SHADOW HAS ONLY CRIED ONCE AND IT WAS BC OF CHRIS. SHUT UP #Love that Shadow showed up in Chris’ most important memories flashback. #He really made that much of an impact on you huh. #Okay I need to stop talking now lmao #Sonic #Sonic X #Sonic the Hedgehog #Chris Thorndyke

[lettucedloophole]

hi apologies if youve alr made a post abt this (if u have, then maybe u can add a link to that specific post?) but i just wanted to ask for ur perspective bc this is smth i keep getting hung up on and i rlly only trust u to answer:

why would abolishing gender be harmful to trans ppl if transphobia stems from emphasis on traditional gender roles, and the abolishment would further their focus on relieving dysphoria thru physical sex change instead of relieving it by having to conform to sociological femininity and masculinity as a means to adapt in this patriarchal society?

thank you for taking the time to read and answer this <3

no worries! i haven't made a post about this before since no one's asked, but i'll answer it right here for you.

the answer is, it wouldn't be harmful. abolishing gender would ultimately be the best for everyone, but especially lgbt people & women. however... the contextualization of this point is what makes or breaks it. let me explain--

trans people have a negative reaction when people discuss abolishing gender not only for the same reason cis people might (a kneejerk reaction to protect the status quo), but also for the very valid reason of wanting to defend transness in a transphobic society. it's the same reason why some gay people will react negatively to the fact that homosexuality is a social construct, and therefore cannot be innate; most people use this argument to justify homophobia & patriarchy.

the thing is, to abolish gender, sex must also be abolished as it's the primary method of naturalizing gender. sex is a social construct-- it's not natural. however, terfs and any garden variety conservative will reify gender through the naturalization of sex. they'll say, "cis women and men are natural, but trans people aren't. therefore, they must be eliminated." similarly, "heterosexual people are natural, but gay and bi people aren't. therefore, they must be eliminated." eliminated can mean killed or, forcibly dissolved into the "natural" categories via bullshit self-loathing propaganda.

a really easy way to understand why this is so upsetting to trans people is just comparing their situation to gay people or women's, really, as they are so similar. if you walked up being like "wow i cant wait for gays to be abolished<3" ofc people will assume you mean it in a homophobic sense rather than a complicated, radical feminist sense, and if you're focusing on the abolition of minority groups in particular, it does likely stem from bigotry. not saying that you've said anything like that lol, but those examples are the best way i can illustrate the point.

also, everyone on the internet hates radical feminism, so regardless of how eloquently you explain your point & how sensible it is, if you associate it with radical feminism people will ignore what you say, misinterpret you so severely that it seems deliberate but could very well be internet stupidity, and also throw tomatos at you. 😭 radfems, matfems & a handful of marxist, anarchist, intersectional fems + womanists are the only ones i trust to not be covert antifeminists.

last p.s.: we don't know what a society outside of patriarchy looks like. assuming people will continue getting sex changes assumes the existence of a natural sex binary, though it's possible people may change "sex" characteristics as they please. trans people's issue is not only being forced into gender roles, but a hatred of transness which puts them into a catch-22 regarding survival under patriarchy-- they're "reifying patriarchy" if they transition, but plagued with dysphoria, martyrs to a post-patriarchal world centuries away from us if they don't. perhaps, a similar scenario would be if you told a gay or straight person to simply see people as gender/sexless and to experience attraction, to give affection as though we lived in a post-patriarchal society-- it just wouldn't be possible, and for the gay person who is particularly vulnerable under patriarchy, it would more likely be traumatizing. dworkin put it so succintly in woman hating...

i hope that wasn't too repetitive or long, i just wanted to be thorough. admittedly, this is kind of a loaded answer if you aren't familiar with sex as a social construct, so if you have anymore questions, feel free to ask!

#trans inclusive radical feminism #radical feminism #asks #ex-terf #ex terf #tirf #trans inclusive radfem #sex abolition #gender abolition #transphobia #i love to quote Dworkin Quote which expresses everything i wanted to say but shorter and better lmao #i am obsessed with this quote istg. but i also am with many other dworkin quotes and her in general... #her succinctness is truly something to be envied. i simply keep on rambling and talking in circles forever #i was gonna make a joke about how dworkin wouldnt mind because mackinnon was also quite long winded loll #but mackinnon is succint she just also uses a lot of big words that makes it seem . longer 😭😭😭 #reading mackinnon is kind of like when you put your tickets into the chuck e cheese ticket eater guy machine #because thats how my brain sounds like when i read mackinnon its a lot to process #very good but i am going to need some time and a dictionary to digest this #perhaps this is why i prefer dworkin and hooks-- the accessibility of them managed without blunting their incisiveness & insight

[steakout-05]

i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

[snobgoblin]

i have no idea if i tend to be expressive or not. because some people say I'm extremely hard to read because I'm not that expressive but others say my body language is extremely easy to read so I'm like huh. which is it then

#someone should let me go in third person mode and observe. i need to know what I'm like #it would be extremely funny if i push for my art to be expressive and then i am just Not like At All #its so weird living in a body you know so little about. because its like im IN HERE. but i never. see it. i dont know what I'm like #and then there are also variables like well. i have tourettes so it would be obvious when I'm nervous that would flare up #and of course when I'm around my mom i definitely police my expressions a lot more because she always made fun of them when i was a kid #hell she still does lmao but not as much because ive Learned

[monty-glasses-roxy]

animalism time: roxy in socks / shoes and hating every second of it

Yeeeeeeess

She always walks really funny when she has to wear them too and she doesn't realise she's doing it. She had to wear both for a full day and by lunchtime, she was so fucking done with them that she vanished for an hour and came back without them. They were later found, ripped to shreds in such a way they were completely unsalvageable so they couldn't be forced on her again.

Fazbear Ent have tried it a few times since but have never gotten her to wear them for very long and eventually gave up because replacing the socks and shoes every time costs too much money.

#fnaf security breach #roxanne wolf #'oh but roxy! you look so cool in those!' many have cried #but nothing will stop her #she fucking hates it #like oh yay she looks cool but she can't stand it #she needs to feel the ground beneath her feet!!! #hear the tip tap of her claws on tiles!!! #for those same claws to occasionally get caught on the carpet fibres!!! #she doesn't need shoes!!! or socks!!! #in an au where they're biological furry people chica just 'but your little beans get cold :( rox your beans :(' #roxy also complaining that her paws get cold but not doing a single thing about it because that would mean wearing socks #and it would also mean she can't run everywhere without sliding face first into the nearest wall #roxy has to run everywhere walking's not her jam #she is SPEED #lmao but yeah she wants to look good COMFORTABLY #and that means no socks and no shoes #they tried to convince her to wear sandles and she just #with the flattest expression took one claw and pulled them apart. #right in front of management. #just 'oh no. they broke. what a shame.' #and got on with her day #lmao love that for her #pop rox answers