#also fuck deviantart

[ganondoodle]

since seeing a post from a mutual yesterday i was thinking about how grateful i am that i can now, confidently say something like -im taking demise away from nintendo- or -hes MY character now- while knowing that the people following me will understand that thats not actually possible and also i dont mean that literally literally (duh)

bc (while i have mentioned it in the past and im not trying to fish for sympathy with this, the memories ... and trauma really does come back every now and then) there were people once that imagined i said that about a popular character in the fandom i was in when i was a teen and proceeded to try (and nearly succeeding bc i was already struggeling alot with depression, anxiety and undiagnosed autism) to bully me into killing myself; perhaps it wasnt their actual goal, but the shit they did (alot of them were adults too), was absolutely insane, but i've only been able to see that wayyyy after the fact

like even if im remembering wrong and i did word it wrong or weird or in a way that was easily misunderstood, i was a teen, with english not as my first language and it still was some fandom shit that ultimately did not matter and never in any scenario warrented that level of harrassment, i dont even think i ever told my parents bc i thought i had to deal with it alone since i 'caused' it too and since then just ... wanting to forget it ever happened

while i am much, much better now, and slowly learning to manage my mental health struggles too, i do wonder just .. how much of how i am today was shaped by that horrible experience, like the way i overly try to pre-apologize and put doubts on every thought i write out, or the panic i feel when something does go outside my usual range (mostly twitter really ..) was immensely worsened by that .. among stuff i probably dont even realize

funnily enough, i made my account on tumblr to try and flee from all that was happening to me (even if they did stalk me at first .. even here) and hey, im still here :D

i guess what im trying to say is, i am very happy to still be here, i am grateful to be able to be myself, even with its downsides, even with my problems, even if the things i do are passable at best, even if i will never "make it big", even if i am annoying at times, even if i do mistakes still, even if i am .... horribly bad at replying to the awesome people that message me-

there are, at least a few people, who enjoy, or even care, or heck, even think about what i draw and write, which is .. still mind boggling to me and i might never be able to truly believe its all real, there are people who are able to see beyond my flaws, forgive me if i do missstep or overreact, and just be aware that even with everything i share about me, there is lots you dont know that may inform why i feel a certain way about something, but thats okay, i am human, i am here, there are people who enjoy my brainworms, and perhaps even think i, as a person, am nice

i am so grateful for that

some things are good

#ganondoodles talks #random #tw suicide mention #again i realyl dont mean to try and bait for sympathy or sth #but some things do remind me of these awful things #and remind me also how far i got #even if it ultimately doesnt matter #it matters to me #and it might matter to you #and that it matters to you matters to me #thank you #i almost replied in a jokey way about this to the mutuals post in question #but then wondered if perhaps that would be a little much #but then i kept thinking about this #and well #its late again and it suddendly all came back #so i had to write a little #also fuck deviantart #no further context needed in these shitty times

[spearxwind]

YOU GUYS NEED TO GO WATCH MONKEY WRENCH NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW

#I FINALLY WATCHED THESE AND THEYRE SO FUCKING FUN IM OBSESSED!!!!!!!!!!! #thunderclap #video #monkey wrench #THE EPS ARE SO GOOD AND THEYRE AVAILABLE FOR FREE ON YT WE GOTTA SUPPORT ARTISTS FR #ive been a fan of zeurel for ages ever since the deviantart OCT days and god this project slaps so fucking hard #we gotta support em fr this is one of the best indie shows ive seen in a WHILE #PLEASE DO YOURSELF A FAVOR !!!! WATCH!!!! #ALSO the captions are fucking hilarious as well they def added to it when i was watching #GHOST EGG REAL !??!?!? #Youtube

[celticbotanart]

Been thinking about Bandori again lately, so I dug up some sketches I've done months ago; mostly because I didn't want to draw anything from scratch, but the sketches were good enough and I really liked them a lot already. The only one I drew from scratch is the one on the bottom right corner, to fill up that empty space and make the panel full~

I've noticed I really like to draw these two idiots interacting, which is kinda rare, lol. Interactions are hard for me to draw and I admit I kinda avoid it a lot. They're comfortable and fun for me to draw, especially in random wholesome shenanigans! I guess it's the platonic aspect, I'm not super fan of drawing/writing romantic stuff; I tend to enhance the sisterly relationship the characters already have canonically.

The main drawing here was inspired by an actual picture of Raychell and Risa (their VAs, to those unfamiliar) <3

Another thing I do is making Rei wear shirts of real bands, bands that I like. It's usually Within Temptation, because they are totally a band that would exist in the Bandori-verse; this time though, I made Rei wear a Yuki Kajiura / FictionJunction shirt, I LOVE that cover art so much!! It's another band/project I see existing in that universe!

commission info | patreon | kofi | twitter | bluesky

#Bandori #raise a suilen #wakana rei #chu2 #brazilian artists #my art #publicly posting ONE (01) fanart as a freebie treat #I'm not too keen on posting fanart publicly anymore as some of you might know but I sometimes open an exception for Bandori stuff #cause people are always so cute and excited in the tags when I post them!! It warms my heart fr thank you guys! <3 #also the post is a little on the longer side here cause I also miss talking about the pieces and the blorbos in the art description #the golden era of long ass descriptions on Deviantart circa 2009 #also Glaze is REALLY fucking up the drawings more than the usual sorry about the funky ass textures!

[kaythefloppa]

#there was no way I could put this into words because the idea in of itself is fucking hilarious #Like no there's no outright proof that the zebras that cast Kovu out are Thurston and his buddies #But you can't prove that I'm wrong #“Panic and run Thurston!” to “Panic and run it's Thurston!” #zebras in general are pretty fucking scary animals - The reason that their main predators are so aggressive is because THEY are so aggressi #I also saw a headcanon on deviantart saying that Thurston was one of the zebras singing “Deceptiooonn disgraaaace” and oh god #the lion guard #the lion king 2: simba's pride #the lion king #disney jr. #kovu #lion king kovu #thurston #kion

[sinfulhares]

I'm so tired of sites self-destructing, PLEASE I am begging there to be just ONE art site that isn't a flaming pile of shit that could go down at any moment

I'm not leaving until the ship goes down, but I would like to hear potential places where people are also posting art

Personally I'm most active on Kofi and Bluesky because these are the only sites that I'm sure won't come crashing down anytime soon but god it's so tiring to have to keep rebuilding because everything turns to shit over the dumbest, most lack-of-common-decency bullshit from people who should never be in power to begin with

#i cant say i understand what happened exactly so look up on your own #but TL;DR from what ive seen so you know what to look for #trans women (especially one specific one?) have been harassed and stalked for years and complaining for tumblr to do something about it #and ofc they were ignored #and now the pissbaby ceo of tumblr decided to ban a bunch of them including anyone who speaks out #and also harassed and possibly doxxed the main person in this on twitter #and now theres whispers of a potential deal with tumblr and midjourney or some ai shit #hasnt gone down yet but artists are not safe here so uhhh #wondering if im gonna end up nuking this account if it does come to pass #which fucking sucks because i love leaving old galleries of art up #but theres no safe place for fuckers who don't have half a braincell #i miss the history of my deviantart gallery but it had to go

[liquidstar]

i wanna preface this by saying im not big into furry stuff but im big into oc stuff, so sorry to all the furries if i sound like a poser. but i think if you have a human oc theres gotta be a difference between what their fursona would be (from the pov of you, their creator) and what it actually is (what they would chose). do you understand what i mean? theres a big difference between their fursona and your animal version of them.

#i just finished working on a set of animal themed ocs and im doing another bear one now so these are the thoughts in my head #like okay my oc felis has cat ears so #shed obviously be a cat. #however #shes also annoying and if she could pick for herself it would probably be like... #a fucking warthog or something just to confuse people #or like bella for example would see herself as being an edgy 2008 deviantart wolf #but in reality if she was an animal i know she would just be a cute pink bunny. with floopy ears. #some match up though. i think mira would correctly assign herself bird #idk what al would pick but of course logically the animal he has the most in common with is the sea turtle because of the way he #im not going to finish that joke because its offensive to sea turtles

[pepperpixel]

I’m sick of the feeling that I always have to have enough pictures for a photoset to post anything. So. I’m rebelling against that stupid fuckin feeling and just posting this chara stand alone! There’ll probably be a frisk to go w it eventually! But! U’ll just have to wait lol

#undertale #chara #chara dreemurr #ut #doodles #started this yesterday. finished it like an hour ago. and posting it fucking now. no waiting to draw more shit to go w it ghghg #also. I’ve put this in the tags of another chara picture before. but that was a long time ago. so. reiterating just to be safe: #yes. I have drawn chara in a skirt. their pronouns are still they/them #idk if that needs to be said! but. just in case.. #cuz I remember. specifically on deviantart. there were a few ppl who rlly liked misgendering the humans on my art of them ghgh #I don’t think that’s as much of a thing on tumblr. but still #but anyway yeah! chara! I drew this completely on my phone too! #and I took my time w the details and coloring and shit! I didn’t rush thru any of it! #im proud of myself ghghg #also. this was an attempt to solidify a chara design I like. cuz I felt like. the last one I drew. for the honey pie animation meme #was ok?? I liked it. but I was also like. shit. their hairs too messy and long they look too much like Kris #so. I wanted to try and fix that lol #we’ll see if this design finally sticks! #…for the once in a blue moon occasion I draw Undertale fanart ghgh

[emeraldspiral]

Jhonen Vasquez makes a show designed around his own unique artsyle, which was notoriously difficult for animators to learn, and everyone praises it for the effort and creative ambition Jhonen and his team put toward realizing his artistic vision.

A woman makes two shows designed around her own unique artsyle, heavily inspired by Jhonen, and people constantly screech about how horrible she is for “making” people draw her wretched, “animator unfriendly” designs. Or even better, unironically proclaim it “cringe” for her to be clearly influenced by Invader Zim, not because they think Invader Zim itself is bad or cringe, but because liking it apparently is.

#i see this so often #like make it make sense #why would you invoke the name of a good show #to say another show is bad for reminding you of it #i will take a thousand zimitators over another fucking show that looks artistically indistinguishable from family guy #Invader Zim #Hazbin hotel #helluva boss #so much vivzie criticism boils down to #it's bad because it is unapologetically nostalgic for early 2000s era deviantart trends #like #i'm not even a furry #but if she wants to draw sparkledogs or whatever #it's her fucking show #if that doesn't spark as much joy for you #as it does for other people who like that sort of thing #maybe the show just isn't for you #also #claiming the character designs are too detailed and complicated #have you watched any anime ever #have you seen how many lines and how many shadows and highlights they put on just the hair

[fivepebble]

i drew mosi again bc gen loss made me nostalgic

#fpart #oc #yall got no clue how fucking hyped i was to see vinny and criken in there #also if you have no idea who this is dw recognizing him requires having followed my deviantart/yt 8 years ago

[umihoshi]

7 Deadly Sins is so unappolagetically cringe and whimsy. It's like introducing your friends to your cat who you love so so much, cuz he's silly and funny and actually really smart. but objectively, it's the ugliest critter you will ever see.

#nanatsu no taizai #7 deadly sins #4kota #watching 4kota I finally understand the derailing of yugioh designs over the years #Percy's power is literally the power of friendship #my friend described their designs as DeviantArt OC's and I could not think of any better way to describe it #but then there's like... #Gawain being the lesbian we all deserve #and cinnamon roll tristan #and next gen characters coming from actual deep relationships and not last-minute match ups #like. Jericcho being in love with Lancelot is so messed up. but it makes so much sense! #and her bei g aware of it and ashamed of herself is so human #still don't get what's Arthur's deal but #the ep with the camelot knight who was so angry about living in peace with demons #because they fucking massacred his hometown and baby daughter! #that shit hits me man! #(surprised she's ACTUALLY dead tho. like.... death is heavily overrated in nnt) #how often did Helbramm and Malescula die honestly #also how cool is it that they all got king arthur inspired names??? #and the 4 calamities? the 10 commandments?? I'm eating that shit up #also please please please let next gen be actual gay and not just bait 🙏 #please give me percyxnasiens gawainxisolde and tristanxlancelot??

[itskeej]

Thank you for your co-operation.

*Immediately stabs them with a needle the second the door closes.*

You dare critique me? Considering in your original complaint you failed to put an apostrophe in the word 'it's' and refused to use a period or proper capitalization I believe you're highly unqualified to speak of my own misdeeds. That you would do so to my face is one thing but to do so in front of my darling is another. Unforgivable. Disgraceful.

I must, however, give credit where it's due, not everyone can stand up to me. Are you brave or just stupid? Perhaps both. Regardless, it is why I have allowed you not to die at my hand but to have the honour of being an early subject to Uroboros.

Do you feel that anon? Do you feel the pain that swells inside of you? It took only a moment but it too confirmed what I already knew. As blood seeps from your mouth onto the floor we know Uroboros has rejected you. You are not perfect, you are nothing. A stain on what is to be my perfect world and now you have been removed.

NOBODY BULLY ME I DONT KNOW WHAT PERSPECTIVE IS IM TRYING I PROMISE

damn they're fucken dead-

#keej answers #tumblr ask #anonymous #cw: blood #cw: death #doodle #weskerfromthehitgamere #doing this made me feel like i was 12 and drawing edgy art on deviantART /pos help #also i would lose it if the anon's last words is just like that fuCKING 'would' meme AHAHAHAHA #hi anon i promise absolutely nothing against you this is just funny /lh

[lavellyne]

can ai bros like. talk with artist without calling them derogatory names and insulting them for five seconds

#i've been sitting on deviantart since yesterday due to their “newest ai flagging policy” (which btw is once again them trying to help ai not #real artists) and me and artists around me have been called names like dog. idiot. and more. the list goes on #can these assholes fucking leave us alone and idk evaporate #just perish #nobody wants you here #also proudly admitting to profit from stealing from us... disgusting trash #lave talks #ai bros #artists support

[todayisafridaynight]

IW fr just felt like yokoyama's cope for killing Aoki off and then regretting it

im not saying yoko shouldve ryuji'd aoki but im just saying maybe the aoki-lives truthers were onto something if not copium but serving a warning for what was to come

#iw spoilers #spoilers #not really but shut up #snap chats #actually no shut up ill make those tags valid #LIIIIKKKEEEEEE EIJI WAS DONE WELL AS A MASATO-ADJACENT CHARACTER #why make ebina .......... i hate him so much ........... yoko it is not 2009 anymore who is this deviantART-oc-backstory ass mfer #why not even have ichi interact with him more or have him fight ebina ... #if yu really had to fuck it have kiryu and ichi fight ebina together idc just #with ichi's core being about family its so fucking bizarre ichi never gets to properly interact With His Family #IM NOT GETTING INTO THIS RANT FUCK OFF #there's just ... so much that could've been done differently that wouldve worked so much more interestingly .... im angry now ... #im gonna drink this tea ... #cyborg aoki wouldve been so funny but also so unnecessary #he just got shanked like. fuck if i know where brb #no i need to stop because im literally going to sit here and do an autopsy report if i dont force myself to put it to rest #anyways i dont think aoki should be brought back and with this game ending i at least hope they put him to rest now #i was happy with what the ending with eiji provided like FINE that was sweet #im still pissed that kume was just. brushed aside like that like can i at least watch his arrest ........ if i cant kill him myself ......

[lunaticalis]

i will always wish the most cruel, painful, humiliating death upon company ceos, their board of execs, and their investors. i will always have this burning hatred for all of those rotten pigs. don't forget filthy corrupt politicians too i wish total annihilation to all of them. i am sick and tired.

#luntxt #morals what is morals when these people treat their workers and users like a disposable trash #i hope all of them rot in hell #all these fuckers ever did was make life harder #just read that deviantart got their own ai #as well as meta got it's own ai #where does all the data came from u ask obv from the users #also the fucking sickening ai that trains from scraping tiktok videos. i hope whoever made it rot in the deepest pit of hell

[wolvertooth]

if i made a sabrevine yaoi link archive would anyone look at it

#i havent made it yet i just have a fuck ton of yaoi in my bookmarks lol #most of it is ancient stuff from pixiv #but i'd also include fanfics too #modern deviantart basically ruined the search engine so 90% of it is lost forever #and i dont use twitter so idk if theres fanart on there or not(i found some twitter links tho) #fuckkkk i still have to scan the yaoi anthology too #my scanner is shitty so ive been hesitant about it

[macadam]

was scrolling on twitter and witnessed Jro i forgot he existed for a sec

Reason #1 that I am not on Twitter

#I’m joking #the real reason is that I am a fucking coward #and if I’ve stayed off it this long I might as well keep going #I share this mentality with tiktok snapchat deviantart to name a few #Facebook would also fall into the mix if not for… sighs… work obligations #mac asks