#alsaurus-loves-dean

[sunglassesmish]

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING WTF!!!!! and everyone who's like "lol y'all are setting yourselves up for disappointment" I lived through the spn finale and I would do it all over again so I am READY FOR THIS I AM READY TO CLOWN SO HARD HOLY SHIT!!!!!!

I COULD ACTUALLY EXPLODE THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING?!?!?!??!!!!!!!!! LIKE I AM 99% SURE ITS REALLY HAPPENING BUT WE HAVE TO WAIT A WHOLE TWO DAYS TO FIND OUT 😭😭😭😭 it’s not even clowning at this point!!!!!!

#alsaurus-loves-dean #ask

[evanbi-ckley]

jobairdxx -> evanbi-ckley

idk how long I'll keep this but I've been thinking about the username for DAYS and finally decided to go for it

tagging some mutuals: @monsterrae1 @rogerzsteven @eddiebabygirldiaz @alsaurus-loves-dean @bi-buckrights @elvensorceress @emmelynart @formayhem @honestlydarkprincess @i-had-bucky @jacksadventuresinwriting @loveyourownsmiilee @mishacollinsthighsss @original-cypher @powersuitup @ronordmann @regardingjenmish @singlethread @shortsighted-owl @sherlocking-out-loud @spotsandsocks @serenhawk @the-likesofus @the-rollerchloster @ugh-againwiththenames @wheelsupin-five @sunglassesmish

#jules speaks #username change #blog name change

[hitmeupaep]

9 Peeps you'd like to get to know better

i was tagged by @blanketforcas

Three Ships: destiel (cockles if im being brave), westallen (very basic but loved them growing up), percabeth (idk either)

First Ever Ship: either percabeth or everlark

Last Song: Casual by Chappell Roan

Last Film: The Marvels

Currently Reading: started lightly re-reading FLWFI (four letter word for intercourse) and started On the Road by Jack Kerouac

Currently Watching: The Devils Plan (a korean game-show, very good)

Currently Consuming: peanut MnM's

Currently Craving: a passing grade on my exams

tagging @riverwithoutbanks @mothdean @alsaurus-loves-dean @sunglassesmish @assbuttboyfriends @saintedcastiel @4evamc @castielsprostate @mishacollins but no pressure!!

#idk if i do this right but i tried lol #more people should do this!!! #even if your not tagged #fun to build the tumbrl ecosystem lol

[incarnateirony]

@jenngeek @alsaurus-loves-dean

[thigholstercas]

i was tagged by @bloodydeanwinchester 💖

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better.

name: allie

star sign: ♍️ virgo

height: 5'1 👉🏻👈🏻

time: 11:03 am

birthday: sept 5

favourite bands/artists: the lumineers, novo amor, taylor swift, isak danielson, sleeping at last, hozier

last movie: honestly it's been a while since I watch a movie lmao but I think the last one I watched was "Way Down" (I adore Freddie Highmore)

last show: I'm watching Games of Thrones for the first time and well I finished s3 of The Boys and The Umbrella Academy

when did i create this blog: i think it was late 2019, but I never used it 😂 but I really started using it until july 2020 during my spn rewatch when I discover destiel

what I post: spn (destiel mostly) and spn adjacent which means actors and their stuff (mostly jensen and misha) except well you know who

last thing i googled: the name of the movie I put in the answer of last movie 😅 (I remembered the plot not the name)

other blogs: yes I have one that is my back up for this one (i haven't used it) and the other one is for multifandom but i only use it to reblog stuff that I liked.

do I get asks: no :( people should send me asks me thinks

following: 143

average hours of sleep: 6 (sometimes I sleep 4 and sometimes 8 so yeah)

instruments: when I was little I learned to play the piano but it's been a while since I played it

what im wearing: gray tank top and white pj pants...is working from home day

dream job: I should get paid just for being here, but for real I like what I do (i work as qa analyst) so I'm happy with it.

dream trip: I wanna go to Bora Bora or to a forest park or something

nationality: salvadoran

last book i’ve read: i haven't read anything that's not fanfics all year really (maybe since last year...) but I started Little Women. Last fic I read was "In the Shadow of your Wings" by enochian things

currently reading: nothing hahaha

top 3 fictional universes i’d like to live in: wizarding world (I love Harry Potter), Narnia and maybe the Vampire Academy World

I'm just gonna tag a bunch of people, if u already did this ignore it and also if u don't wanna do it ignore it

@marlborocas @marvolord @alsaurus-loves-dean @blorbofrommyshows @lovelybydecay @xofemeraldstars @faithcastiel @thetiredstuff @blanketforcas @sailorsally @deancrowleycas @wemakeitupaswego @pointyearedelvishprincling @mishacollinsthighsss

#this took me an hour lmao #anyway it was fun #allie.txt

[theyarebothgunshot]

I’d be very interested in your thoughts on the JIB8 cockles panel. just a suggestion for your rewatch 👀

i’ve seen the jib8 panel so many times, because it’s honestly one of the wildest things i have ever seen and i just never get tired of it. 

first of all i want to give you my take on the overall vibe, and then second of all i will get into the details and link to certain timestamps in the video. 

disclaimer: i am not gonna be linking to every single thing i talk about, but i will try my best to link to the moments that stand out to me the most. i have read long posts about this panel before, so not everything in this post is gonna be original or said for the first time ever, simply because there is a good chance that information has stuck in my mind and has subconsciously formed my view of this panel. this is also in no way, shape or form gonna be coherent, unfortunately. i’m just gonna hope that the cockles hivemind will be able to make sense of this regardless. love and light. and lastly, this is all in good fun, so don’t come at me if you think this is too out there please and thank you.

fun fact: i was today years old when i found out that the airbnb story took place one day before this panel. what a sexually charged weekend that was for them dude (gn).

the vibe that i get from this panel is that their moods were off before they got on stage, and where misha kind of looks tired and not 100% enthusiastic about things, jensen apparently decided to get drunk and is trying to make it look like he is thriving. yet, a little while into the panel we learn that it has been an emotional rollercoaster of a day for him, which might have something to do with the overall mood. then again, it could be that something else happened in between the autographs and that panel, who is to say?

i have talked about the d/s subtones in their interactions before and this panel makes my radar ping like nobody’s business. if my interpretation of their dynamics is right, then one could assume that jensen was being very bratty on purpose, trying to stir up a reaction in misha, and i think he probably got what he wanted (more or less. maybe he thought misha would find it more amusing than he did, or but honestly, at that point they have already known each other for nearly 10 years so odds are he knew what he was doing and how misha would react to it. it would surprise me greatly if these two didn’t work out their mutual frustrations with the day and each other after this panel ended- in the bedroom.)

i genuinely think i have never seen jensen flirt more openly and aggressively with misha, ever, and i have never seen misha in the state he was in during this panel either: tired, a little annoyed about the fact that jensen was going off the deep end and that he was not able to stop him, to the point where he just gives up and says things like ‘when in rome’ etc. let’s get into it. 

the mood is set from the very first second: misha is kinda subdued, and jensen is being a bit of a clown, coaxing misha to join him in the madness, which he does to a certain extent. 

we are off to a great start with not just one [0m15s], but two [0m20s] moments in which i just know in my bones they wanted to hold hands. how do i know? because i have been there my fucking self. wanting to hold hands with your crush when you are drunk and acting silly is a love language okay.

as soon as they sit down, misha tries to make conversation and jensen just starts pushing him and pushing him, [1m11s] saying ‘shut up’ and ‘yeah it’s really stupid and it embarrasses me’, but misha tries to ignore it at first and just marches on through. which is probably why i never see people talk about that little comment. it embarrasses jensen when misha sits like that? why would he need to feel embarrassed by his friend’s actions? kinda weird tbh, sounds like husband behavior to me. i have a feeling that when misha said ‘by which he means it’s an innie’, jensen REALLY had to bite on his tongue not to go all ‘you weren’t complaining this morning’ or something like that. look at his face bro [1m55s]. 

and then jensen opens up his legs like the little tramp (affectionate) that he is and when misha tries to stop him he just TURNS to misha with said open legs like a mad man and goes ‘here’s the thing. pick a leg.’ [2m05s] LIKE? who DOES THAT? that is insane people behavior!!! admittedly i am a cis woman and i don’t have conversations with male friends about their bodily anatomy all that often, but i legit cannot phatom that this is a normal thing to talk about with your platonic buddy. pick a leg for me to rest my dick on, old buddy old pal. NOBODY DOES THAT. it’s not even something that i would consider flirting because even though i am into men, i would not find that arousing? so it’s either an action to provoke annoyance in misha or it’s something they have discussed before or both. because misha immediately understands what he means, starts shaking his head in frustration, and actually turns to jensen as if to say ‘are you fucking kidding me right now? really? you are really doing this?’ followed by a ‘this is making me feel so uncomfortable’ aka one of the phrases they both like to use even though they never mean it. 

then when jensen actually goes up to do his ridiculous mating dance and sits back down again, he automatically sits down with his body turned towards misha. 

quick side note: if anybody understands what the joke was about when they talked about ‘cas has big dolls’ i would love to hear it, because that has never made any sense to me, but it’s probably a me problem lmao. 

when misha goes ‘could you watch your language please’ i think that’s a sign that he is genuinely getting a bit frustrated [4m53s] with jensen even though he is obviously playing it off as a joke. right after he says that, jensen puts his fingers against his mouth, as if to shut himself up. i know that a lot of people don’t wanna read too much into body language but hey, i am writing an analysis here so work with me for a sec: i think that could be a subconscious decision to listen to what misha is telling him to do, which ties into the d/s dynamics i’ve mentioned earlier. 

i know people always go crazy when misha goes ‘what did i tell him’ [5m19s] and jensen whispers in his ear. i personally think misha probably told him about the fact that they booked kansas the band, but it’s still pretty telling that that is how misha would react to the question if something he told him is public knowledge. evidently that goes to show that there is enough that misha tells jensen that cannot be shared with the public, which i thought is interesting. 

now that i am watching it again, the ‘j*red would have just said it’ comment kind of stumbles around in my brain asking me to dissect it. let’s just say that i wouldn’t be surprised if they were both thinking back on the many, many times that j*red put his foot in his mouth and made a suggestive comment about jensen and misha’s relationship. 

god i just cringed [6m14s] watching jensen interact with that first girl who asked a question and he just goes off on her about how twins are cool and misha is shaking his head lord oh lord and that is the minute daniella decides that hey maybe they need even more alcohol lmfaoooo it’s a lot. poor misha i genuinely feel bad for him.

and then he goes ‘real men have twins’ and looks at misha and misha is still not having it so he goes ‘it’s just a shirt’ like girl (gn) pleASE that’s husband behavior, yet again, why else would he feel the need to clarify it. ‘look babe don’t be mad or jealous i don’t mean anything by it, it’s just a shirt’ i hate him. 

i just know misha would have wanted to take the apple juice away from jensen lmao. 

one of the moments [9m35s] that always stands out to me is when they go ‘that’s why we don’t bring steven’ ‘that’s right, that’s why he’s not allowed’ idk how to explain it but the way that just flows out of them so naturally feels very coupley for some reason.

i think we can all agree that jensen’s reaction [12m22s] to misha’s ‘i always wear orange underwear’ story is completely fake, right? because there is no way he didn’t know that, and his reaction was very exaggerated. plus, the little gesture to make misha show his underwear? bitch, please. whipped. there was also exactly zero reason for him to come that close to misha in order to inspect the color of his underwear.

the one thing that i wonder about, though, is why misha didn’t know jensen was wearing the famous underbear briefs? but as i am writing this i realise that even if they slept in the same hotel room, there are obviously a few different possible reasons why misha didn’t know what underwear jensen was wearing that day: either jensen showered and changed in the bathroom, so by the time he faced misha again he was fully dressed, or misha had to leave their hotel room earlier than jensen, or jensen changed while misha showered, etc etc. 

in any case……. jensen dropping trou in the middle of this fucking panel? absolutely batshit insane, 10/10 thank you for your service nesnej. 

this [13m54s] is where shit really starts to hit the fan. jensen is OUT OF CONTROL. the long stares??? the ‘rawr’s??? ‘you didn’t even get the full picture’??? (sidenote i would love to know what misha whispered to him right after).

OKAY so. when the girl mentions j*red and jensen goes all Knowing What’s Up and says ‘oh he has had a rough time today. misha kept us up way too late last night. *glances at misha* rrrrrrr’ listen. the only reason i am not reading too much into this is because i do not believe they had a threesome with j*red but also the way he said it was very sus and my mind can’t help but wonder if they were disgustingly flirty and way too touchy feely in front of j*red whilst drunk and honestly that’s probably the case.

of course this is followed [15m15s] by the insane man saying ‘by the way they go down to here’??? and the potentially whispered ‘i’ll show you later’?????? sir i have a lot of questions. number one: how dare you? 

bless this next person for this question, because she starts her sentence with: ‘people who have been together for a long time…’ i actually already made a post about this once so i implore you all to read that because i still stand by what i said in there.

it is of course followed by them both not being able to think about ANYTHING appropriate to say to the question if there is anything they only do in front of each other that doesn’t involve pants. and then misha goes ‘why don’t i just share a private moment that we had’ and jensen’s first instinct is to say ‘shit’. i mean. i am merely perceiving. 

this is the moment we realise that it has been quite The Day for them, but especially for jensen, because he has been emotional earlier in the day. which, again, could explain his demeanor during the panel. trying to distract himself. notice that he gets up and shakes his legs again and goes for a drink the second misha starts to tell the story: coping mechanisms aka distraction, just like he did at the start of the panel. 

the moment where he goes ‘it’s hitting me now. shit.’ really solidifies this theory for me, that he has been acting like a goofy drunken guy all panel, in order to drown out the emotions he felt that afternoon, but alas. once he started to talk about it, it still all came back to him. 

i will say this though: it kind of warms my heart that he was so touched by the fact that the fandom spawned something good. makes me feel slightly less dumb for forming parasocial relationships with that man. only slightly, but still. 

misha going ‘god he’s so grouchy’ [25m32s]? say it with me, folks: husband behavior. once again misha tries to talk jensen down and jensen listens (sort of). say it with me, folks: d/s behavior. and RIGHT after that jensen walks towards misha with this intense fucking stare in his eyes that makes me feel like i am intruding, and then after he gets another drink (nesnej, why?) he just. gently massages misha’s neck and shoulder before draping his arm around him? and his hand lingers when he goes to grab the keychain? okay. 

insert the famous ‘when in rome’ debacle lmao misha was so done with jensen by then it’s so hilarious. the funny thing is that misha says ‘what i mean is show each other our underwear, nothing weird. you can’t look at me like that, because of what you did’, while the question was ‘what would dean and cas do in rome’ and not ‘what would jensen and misha do in rome’ but clearly, once again, the actors cannot make a distinction between the two. interesting :) it also wouldn’t surprise me if jensen has told him to tone down the dean/cas answers but now that jensen decided to fully flash him on stage misha is like ‘sorry but i am not playing by your rules after what you did’ lmao. of course, jensen’s reaction is to go back to parting his legs for misha, like he is challenging him. i mean. you can’t make this shit up. 

am i the only one who thinks that jensen might be thinking dirty thoughts when misha repeats ‘what would dean and cas do’ [27m50s]? because like. that’s quite a face he is making.

when he says ‘i don’t know how to answer that’ and misha agrees, idk, for some reason i get the feeling that that’s in the sense of ‘i don’t know how to answer that in a way that won’t get our fans’s hopes up because we know what they would want and we know what we would answer but we can’t go there’. 

i really feel like the final straw for daniella was the way that jensen reacted to that last question like he was gonna have another breakdown lmao and that’s why the rest of the cast and crew were pushed onto the stage prematurely. because when you think about it, it’s a pretty rude thing to do when somebody is still answering a question? but okay. 

listen - the last 6 minutes of this panel are so chaotic sdjfhsjh the only thing i can conclude from it is that jensen is hella drunk but we’ve been knew. his mood changes by the fucking second. i love him and his little dance and how he sits down on the stage. i feel like i might be jensen coded when i am drunk. i too get slutty and unpredictable. 

so anyways long story short: jensen was hella drunk and wanted to provoke misha, it worked, they had hot sweaty sex after this panel, and the fact that jensen got drunk enough to entrust misha with taking care of shit during the panel makes me very emotional for some reason, and i just love them a lot. thank you for coming to my ted talk. 

#cockles #i am sorry this is such a mess lmao but enjoy i guess? #jib 8 #alsaurus-loves-dean #i edited in the timestamps because apparently the links dont work on mobile and just jump to the beginning of the vid. sigh

[you-cant-spell-subtext-without]

oooh can we do a roll call? anyone else going to vegas??

THERES SO MANY OF US GOING BESTIE I WANNA SAY THERES A GROUP OF.....15ish mutuals of mine b/w Tumblr and the bird app

I won't tag yall on here just in case since I know some folk can be odd ab cons so sometimes ppl like keeping it on the DL but if you wanna sound off in notes feel free :)

#you-cant-spell-subtext-without-asks #alsaurus-loves-dean

[sunglassesmish]

you ever just think about how lucky we are. I'm literally just walking around on a cloud like nothing can touch me, I am SO BLESSED BY THIS SHOW

every damn day 😫😭😭🥰 we really have the best people to play the best characters 😌😌😌

#alsaurus-loves-dean #ask

[jensmisha]

i’m about to hit 700 followers. Send in your gif requests (with video links (preferably with time stamps) and I’ll do another follower celebration/party! I’ll do SPN and SPN cast this time! (Cast stuff will be posted here, SPN stuff will be posted on my main account @badrituals)

(Gonna tag some moots just to spread the word.)

(I still have one more 600 follower celebration gifset to finish but i ran out of space on my laptop 😬 lol)

#jensmisha talks #acklesology #darkshrimpemotions #sunbeambuck #you-cant-spell-subtext-without #casenergies #userjennmish #userjdw #castieldeluxe #mrsfitzgerald #rauko #sunfaith #emilysnora #notrenu #alsaurus-loves-dean #700 follower celebration #text #exQUEUEse me

[thetiredstuff]

no I think the J2 panel was "cancelled" in the sense that it's just gonna be Jared by himself at the panel on Sunday. I THINK

ooooh okay but then he's gonna do two solo panels??? it surprises me that they don't put another actor with him for at least 1 panel?

i mean misha is probably still filming his pbs show so he might be too busy to do the panel with jp (wait does misha appear on sunday as well????)

or if not misha maybe alex or someone at least? just really very interesting all of this

#alsaurus-loves-dean #j2 fallout

[wigglebox]

OH GOD HE SAID “YET”??????? The euphoria.... the euphoria I’m feeling right now

yes he is ridiculous

#i feel like i can go lift a car up or something #spn #spn cast #mc #alsaurus-loves-dean

[ersatzangel]

ahhhhhh I just realized you’re gothyringwald!! I LOVE knowing is the easy part 💙💚💙💚

I am indeed!! 😄 (tbh I hate that my AO3 and this tumblr don’t match but I kept losing followers posting SPN stuff on my other blog with the same name so I just made a new one 😂😅) and ahhhh omg thank you!!! That makes me so happy, I really appreciate it 💚💙

#asks #alsaurus-loves-dean

[sinnabonka]

Open road. Windows rolled down; night sky, tar-like, spilling down the windshield.

Sam’s soft snoring coming from the backseat, the sound of it the only indication the world hasn’t gone completely mute.

Mile markers whoosh by in a smear of color just to be caught by Dean’s tired eyes in the rear-view mirror a moment later, distorted and red-shifted.

Castiel is looking at him, and all Dean can think about is blood oxidising under his nails.

Cas is looking at him like he’s something worth looking at -- the first sunrise after a months-long polar night, and yet Dean hates how it makes him feel. Raw, and vulnerable, and hopeful.

Hope is the thing with teeth, and he can already feel its jaws on his neck.

“This is it?” He’s not even sure that’s supposed to be a question, let alone expecting an answer.

The angel keeps looking, silent, and the depth of his blue eyes promises to swallow Dean whole.

“I think so, yes,” Cas says, words barely a whisper, and glances down to his bloodied palms. It’s not his blood, it rarely is, but does it even matter anymore?

Dean shifts uncomfortably in his seat, trembling hands white-knuckled on the wheel. He thinks how he’d rather drive head-on into the nearest tree than let Cas’ gaze stray away even for a blink.

Because this is it, in all its finality. The last stretch. No more if, only an issue of how and when: when Lucifer is released again, when The War breaks out, and, eventually, when and how this sick joke of a world dies out.

“This is not your war,” Cas says as if divining Dean’s thoughts, his voice the warm, all-destroying breeze of the desert. “Nor is it your brother’s.”

Dean wants to say how it’s not Cas’ either. How sons don’t need to carry the burden their fathers picked up anymore. Is desperate to believe it himself, too.

Ask me to go with you, he swallows against the bitter aftertaste in his mouth. If this is how it ends, so be it. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of second-guessing if we find our way back to each other this time. I’m tired of being afraid.

The sky at the horizon goes up in flames of sunrise as Dean looks at the road in front of him, not able to hold Cas’ stare anymore.

I would, he thinks it like a prayer, aimed and heavy with intent. The thought is loud inside his skull, clear.

In the peripheral, Cas' face lights up momentarily by the passing headlights, and Dean’s heart jumpstarts inside his chest, stupidly optimistic.

“I’m tired, too.”

He feels Cas’ hand slowly snake toward his thigh, palm out, and tentatively covers it with his own. He dares to look then, and their eyes meet and hold.

No words are being said, so little value in them, and Cas just laces their fingers together.

In the backseat Sam discreetly lets his eyelids slip close again and drifts off to sleep.

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[deanwasalwaysbi]

Superdle

A Supernatual Fandom Themed Word(le) Game

Hey Desties, Want to work together to defeat the Monster of the Week? Well, how about the Supernatural Fandom word of the day.

Play now at https://superdle.netlify.app/

I want to say a special thank you to @alsaurus-loves-dean @icefire149 @thepixelagora @doctorprofessorsong @wigglebox @you-cant-spell-subtext-without @emzwolf @i-have-doubts and anyone else who helped beta test the game or submitted word suggestions!

We are still short on words, so if your 5-letter spn or heller tumblr themed guess is not accepted as a valid entry, and ONLY if your word is not accepted, please add it to our word suggestion list here. (x)

Happy Hunting!

#superdle #spn game #desticule #destihellers #spn #supernatural #castiel #wordle #dean winchester #this will be focused on spn tumblr and the cas and dean stans. no i am not accepting criticism on that. Cope. #look guys GUYS I made a thing #some fic names. just sayin' #original content #fav #posting this in the middle of the night like a chaos demon #reference #spurdle #i def keep saying spurdle lol #like that might work better XD #desticule wordle #i got the idea and put the thing out less than 24 hours later help #spn fanart #my manips

[alsaurus-loves-dean]

got a bonus at work so guess who just upgraded their gish fest registration

#premium clown content on alsaurus-loves-dean dot tumblr dot com

[theyarebothgunshot]

In that photo shoot gif set where it looks like Jensen is gonna hold Misha’s hand, it’s actually worse than that... I think it looks like Jensen is just telling Misha to put his arm around him. Like just a very quick gesture, that Misha INSTANTLY UNDERSTANDS

they don't need words to communicate haha im fine this is fine anyways in other news imma go eat some glass now!

#thanks for this asdjfhsfh they are so loud #alsaurus-loves-dean