#absolutely love this pain but my god

[aenslem]

Then employ one of your own superstitions. Wish me luck.

#star trek #trekedit #startrekedit #tos #tosedit #tvedit #sd* #mine* #spones #sponesedit #leonard mccoy #leonard nimoy #bones #spock #deforest kelley #star trek tos #treksource #startrekgifs #are you okay? because i am not #this hurts me so much #absolutely love this pain but my god #whyyyy #he did not tell him. spock just goes on a sui*cide mission and asks bones to wish him luck #and bones does it when spock is not there anymore #have you seen the way spock leaves??? look me in the eyes and tell me he has no feelings #it's not int he gifset cos it would be too long and i already giffed entire scene like 4 y ago #but it;s just so... they are just so - im going insane here #imagine what's happening in spock's mind... and heart . he asked him SPOCK ASKED HIM and bones does it when spock cannot hear him #dammit bones aaaaaaaaaaaaaa tattoo this scene on me i love it

[mrsoharaa]

you didn't think too much into the simple graze of the newest spider-mans fingers gently brisking over yours as he takes his leave. the sweet, noble male that personally tended to you from your former strenuous, chaotic mission that led you to having a wounded leg. thus putting you right into the spider society's med bay.

you wave him off with a friendly smile, your eyes quickly sweeping over ever so attentively to the left to note Miguel's intent stare. pretty globes of soft cardinal leering behind the new, overly tending spider-man leaving the medical room you resided in. bearing directly into the back of the generous mans skull with such fueling rage and hatred.

his hardened glare sweeps back over to meet yours through the crystalline glass of the mirror into your medical room. thick brows that once tightened ever so firmly and searing wrath pooling into those glorious irises of pure ruby, immediately softening to your delicate gaze. a tinge of hurt and remorse instantly building up in the conflicted mans chest, immensely.

your heart flutters against your own, capturing the shorten, soften gaze of swarming distraught and longing clinging into those beautiful, intense eyes of his. your lush lips slowly part from each other, attempting to gather words to accumulate towards the man — but only failed, inescapably, when everything within you blared at you not to engage with him. not to engage with the very man that put you through with so much unbinding hurt and betrayal. the very same man that slowly, treacherously broke and tore you from piece by piece.

your pupils dilate, closing your agape lips promptly as your fingers crumble amongst the thin sheets of the medical beds bedding. you turn your head, shielding back the hot, thick tears swelling at the brims of your lashes. trying to not crumble before the very man that you inevitably fell in love with, during your previous time together (during your little "stress distressing" lascivious sessions).

the very same man that slowly, treacherously broke and tore you from piece by piece. promises of unfulfilled, unattainable pledges of comforting enlightenment and console, crumbling with the shattered fragments of your broken heart.

#idk what this is but i couldn't stop thinking about it for the past two hours lol #needed some angst to woo my crippled soul </3 #GOD i can vividly imagine the absolute pain and anguish on that poor mans face! (and yours obviously!) 😭💔 #kinda hurt to write this one tbh lmao...but that was the point haha :''3 #sorryyyy!! i really love this idea/concept! I need to look more into it!! #YOU BOTH DON'T DESERVE THIS BUT I CAN'T HELP IT!! 😭❤️‍🩹 #miguel o'hara x reader #miguel o'hara #atsv

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

“hold on to your heart” // do me a favour live at forest hills stadium new york 08/09/23 ♡

#i miss the car era alex so badly 🥺 #god help me i’ve been comfort watching 2023 shows to comfort myself today bc i’m stuck in bed with the worst period pain #but all it’s done is made me nearly cry over that video of alex with the little toy car and miss them all so much my heart aches 😭😭 #i wish i had a time machine so i could go back and relive my show all over again #they’re just… absolute magic 💗💗💗 #also #can we please talk about alex’s fluffy little lion mane of hair during the car tour?? #i know it gets a lot of love but imo still not nearly as much as it deserves #i mean #just look at him?? 🥺 #okay i need to stop now before i reduce myself to tears again #i’m too emotionally fragile for this today 😩 #alex turner #arctic monkeys #the car era #alex gifs #my gifs #lulu posts

[mushroom-for-art]

@eeveelutiontwos Xiangliu: The Azuretwo stared quietly at Vismay for a good long moment, dark pink tail swishing behind her. When she finally spoke, it was to say:

"You are very beautiful."

Another moment of silence.

"...Are you like me? I have a purpose I was created for. Do you have one?" While the sentence could come off badly in text, Xiangliu's voice held only genuine curiosity.

The old mew startled slightly at her compliment ears up before lowering in a bashful manner mouth falling into a smile, "You are too kind dearest one," one of his top paws idly brushed through the fur of his chest, "although the sun and ages have weathered my form I accept your compliment with gratitude and warmth," he moved in his float to bow to her in show of gratitude and general display of his manners paws moving in a flourish before righting himself to observe her in great intrigue.

"Forgive me if this is rude but you are a mewtwo correct?" Moving around her carefully, "my and something else yes I sense it, Eevee dna I'm sure," a paw to his mouth in thoughts before remembering himself, "ah I apologise but I believe I have not had the honor of this form of evolution in my own world, dragon typing yes?"

"You are if I may say far more beautiful than I, I am honored to be in your company. Having the opportunity to become even only briefly aware of the vast variables of evolution across the multiverses meeting pokemon that I may never meet back home, it's a privilege to always be learning so thank you." His voice carried so much wonder and warmth for having met her.

Though it was somewhat obvious they were avoiding her question using the opportunity of meeting her and a new eeveelution to keep the conversation away.

The guilt however of not answering her question when it was likely she was trying to reach out and bond with an individual she believed to be like herself caught him first before she had to ask again or believed she may have crossed a boundary. He gave a sad smile to her as he exhaled from his nose slowly.

"I'm afraid I was created without a true purpose, just like how through random variable your world has a dragon evolution of Eevee, random variables led to my existence, it was purely chance I'm here now." One of their ears moves to the side then righted itself as he thought, "I was given tasks of course and purpose but," ears flattened again in sadness their voice faltered cracking until it quietened having miscalculated how ready for the discussion he was. He offered a sad shy smile of apology.

Clearing their throat coughing into a paw they regained their voice and spoke again, "I do what I can in the meantime, I help keep the dna of lost pokemon stored," he patted his chest above his heart, "so they're never truly gone even if extinct, reintroducing older dna into species for biodiversity, typical mew work even if I'm not technically," he moved his head in sort of a wobble not finishing the sentence since it was pretty evident he wasn't a traditional mew by any means.

"While, I know that was likely not the answer you expected may I ask about your purpose? I would love to hear to be enlightened about you and the world you reside in, I'm aware of mewtwo often having, complicated origins, perhaps yours are kinder than what I know?"

Ft Vismay sketch reaction to compliment I was too lazy to finish because giving me a hard time and too cowardly to add in main post but please behold the silly getting surprised

#my art #my oc #Not my oc #Vismay the old world mew #Vismay the beta mew #Xiangliu #@eeveelutiontwos oc Xiangliu #Xiangliu the eeveelutiontwo #mewtwo #pokemon #Mew #Vismay just :D new eeveelution oh my God hi hi #He's very fond of twos but ever so sorry for them too knows they're often made through pain and torment not good times #So hopes she has better origins without the sad bits attached #Also so intrigued and distracted by her (and sadness) forgor to introduce himself Vismay XD too excite no name giving or asking #Plus slight design update for the Vis love that for him #I hope your girl looks good! I did study her appearances beforehand and such but also sketched blind using only color ref #She was absolutely lovely to color in her colors are honestly truly gorgeous

[flowercrowngods]

"Stevie," Eddie says, wincing at the stale air in the room. It's almost pitch black, except for the lamp in the corner that colours everything dark blue, and the glow stars on the ceiling that they'd put up together, making pretend constellations in pretend galaxies.

"Go 'way," Steve mutters, head buried beneath two pillows and hands clasped tight around them, as though that will be the thing that fixes him, that keeps the bad away. Eddie sighs, not at Steve, but at the awfulness of it all. He fiddles with the blister pack in his fingers, and allows the condensation from the water bottle in his other hand to soak his palm.

"Please, baby," Eddie says. "You need to take your meds. The doctor said - "

"Fuck the doctor," Steve curses angrily, muffled.

"Maybe later, once you've taken your meds," Eddie says calmly, or aiming for calm. He hates seeing Steve hurting, and Steve hurts a lot. More than he'd like. More than he knows he realises.

Steve emerges from his pillow prison slowly, blinking like it hurts him to do so, and Eddie knows it does, so he just holds out the water bottle, cap off, and Steve drinks greedily, throat working hard, whilst Eddie pops out two pills. Steve makes a pitiful noise as Eddie hands them over, but reluctantly takes them, screwing up his eyes against the taste before swallowing down more water.

"You did so good," Eddie says. Steve shakes his head then moans. "It's okay," Eddie says. "Back under the pillows now. The pills will work soon."

"I hate this," Steve says. "I hate that you have to see this."

"I know you do. I hate seeing it. But only because it's my favourite person in the whole world suffering. Not for any other reason. Please don't think it's for any other reason," Eddie says softly. Steve makes a small noise, already piling the pillows back over his face. Eddie reaches out and strokes the back of his hand.

Steve's hands clench, then unclench, before relaxing.

"I'll be around, if you need me," Eddie says, before standing. He pauses at the door. He looks at Steve's prone form, the invisible war in his head. "It's not rotten work, you know? Never, actually."

He pulls the door to, but doesn't close it entirely, just to make sure he can hear Steve if he needs to. He never, ever wants Steve to think he's a burden. Not when he loves that boy more than breathing. Not if it's you, not if it's me.

not if it’s us

#steddie #steddie fic #people will see this but no one will know but i do and my arm is still aching burning breaking but it’s whatever #Steve hurts a lot. More than he'd like. More than he knows he realises. #this one killed me it took me out it absolutely annihilated me i am deceased i hurt more than i realise too #chronic pain #steve has migraines #hey hey eddie just let steve not eat all day and then knock himself out with 1400mg ibuprofen on an empty stomach it will fix him #not mine #god poe just. idk. i adore you. thanks for leaving the door open 🤍 #love language: writing fics in each other’s ask box

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

my stepdad's a real one fr...

#i mentioned that my mom called #and he left the room. came back. and put an edible in front of me #1) that was fucking Hilarious #2) thaaaaaaank GOD i need it #he was all like 'take that an hour before you go to bed #yes Sir 🫡 gladly sir 🫡 #i would've liked one with a bit more of a Kick to it but i am nooooot complaining!!! #*insert looping gif of the cat jumping up & down w/ added yippee sound effects* #absolutely unprompted #tonight i will finish the next comm. indulge in some laughingstock perhaps. and then get Stress Free via Tasty Nibble #oh i can't wait for it to kick in... #ive been so stressed for so long... whats it like to live without chest pain & nausea from Intense Anxiety.... i will soon know! #i think i will take the inner peace opportunity to actually eat something #bc when im this stressed i Cant. i simply cannot! #which is so unfortunate because food & eating is one of my favorite things! i love it so much! #and im being Deprived of it!!!!

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Malaysian Grand Prix - Jenson Button(ft. Nick Heidfeld & Timo Glock)

#gifing jenson podiums is just me frantically saying to myself over and over: #'WHY IS HE SO PRETTYYYYYYY' #his wet messed up hair in all of these....i am unwell... #i have a love hate relationship with wet races #i like them as a race bcs they add an extra element of unpredicatableness #BUT THEY MAKE THE LIGHTING OF THE PODIUMS ABSOLUTE SHIT(at least in this era) #this and the next race(china 2009) are plagued with the worst lighting known to man #and it pains me so much cause theyre both great podiums but the lighting makes everyone look so bad LMAO #like yes ty for letting me see my drivers sopping wet but my god why do you make them look like smeagol(sry thats so out of pocket) #but its impossible to completely ruin jenson's handsomeness so no worries #there were so many cute shots of him peeking out of the car I LOVE HIMMMMM SOB SOB #i really gotta stop making gifsets right before i need to sleep it makes me keep pushing my sleepy time later #hahaha me quickly posting these mere hours before the first event of miami #PLS! ITS NOT THE RACE WKND JUST YET I SWEAR I SWEAR #jenson button #jb22 #timo glock #nick heidfeld #brawn #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2009 malaysian grand prix #2009 malaysian gp #(2009: 2/17 races watched)

[isabelguerra]

i didn't appreciate these isabel expressions as much as I should have when they aired. Look at how dilated her pupils get compared to the first picture. That's her excitement at ending this game by mercilessly slamming RJ and johnny with dodgeballs. in their faces.

#paranatural #i love her. oh my god i love her. shes so fucking weird. #isabel guerra #her little line under her eye in pic 2 really pushes the expression from good to great. that and the slight eyebrow wobble #really gets across the twitchy eagerness. absolutely unmatched #violence cursive shirt you really did mean that. thats how she feels. #okay as much as i enjoy isabels depression arc and everything can we please get a glimpse of her freak ass habit #of jumping to whatever solution causes the most pain again. i miss that so much. it was so funny. isabel i know you dont want to hurt anyon #but can you a little. please

[hopeinthebox]

tagged by the tastemaker @cordiallyfuturedwight for the january receipts and would you believe it i'm actually on time

tagging a few favs: @aprylynn @jiminsproof @thvinyl @jimin-gaon @visionsofgideontheninth @btscontentenjoyer @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @eoieopda @monismochi <333 and you too if you fancy it

#full report in the tags once again: #ladies room - bop of the century. olivia dean i will do anything for you #freak me now - bop of the century. jessie ware i will do anything for you #charm you - bop of the c-- sorry. best album that 2023 managed to gatekeep from me #when did your heart go missing - what can i say? i've been going through a michael moscovitz resurgence... #mia thermopolis (disney's version) how could you let him GO #i can't go for that - every so often hall & oates take a hold of me and there's simply nothing i can do about it. this is one of those times #pomo remix ended up on the groovy chick playlist. call me when they make a movie about HER!! #homesick - two of my favourite boys doing some absolutely devastating work on my mental health #but you can't deny it's a banger for the sax alone. #love at first sight - no notes. magnificent. #shame shame shame - i am not immune to the Pride (2014) soundtrack and nor should you be!! also. it's going on the groovy chick playlist #can't fight the moonlight - leann rimes? uh yeah i sure hope she does #i feel you - still here. expect i will be for a while longer #as for the artist list - nothing particularly new except T-PAIN WITH THE STEEL CHAIR OF A COVER ALBUM #please god go listen to it if you haven't already!! genuinely biblical experience from the guy who brought us “i'm sprung” #thus concludes the month #tag #receiptify #MWAH #i need a lie down

[sophiethewitch1]

kinda wanna write a fic where the dog is literally the deus ex machina

#sophie speaks #dog backwards is god yknow it makes sense #me and my undertale bullshit back on it again #i have 3 fic ideas for it. one is a meta commentary one is just about a reader with a chronic illness and one is my love for desperate read #-rs returning in full blown massive fashion. and also identity issues but all 3 of these fics have that last one just has that. a lot lot #all include my weird DID metaphors and multiverse shenanigans #because honestly all sans/sans shippers do not understand the weirdness of loving an alternate version of urself #they dont lean into it #i mean im not gonna write sans/sans I'm an x reader till death because i love self love. also sans could not love himself look at that guy #but undertale itself has so many cool themes u can build off of that i just. i wanna grab and squeeze em out like juice #and i mean its not like i can do www at the moment I've written like... 9k this month it ain't going good #might as well just enjoy the depression spiral. i know that doesn't sound very possible but yknow. we rock w it #im just in pain all the time... ill go back to the docs soon and maybe just start taking straight up opiods #but until then i can only do things if i feel there is absolutely 0 pressure on me to do them #once again thanks school system i love these learned behaviors you traumatised into me they're really useful #what was i saying? did i mention im a little scatterbrained atm

[crossbackpoke-check]

Substance, Shadow, and Spirit [remixed, abridged] by Tao Yuanming

#liv in the replies #patrice bergeron #boston bruins #brad marchand #do you ever think about how brad marchand said that when bergy retired he would retire or are you capable of normal thought i'm not at all #please say a gratitude for both my sanity& y'all that this poem (which has been saved in my camera roll with the vague idea of using it for #??? ​long) & not one of the poems i had saved for carey for a really long time & remixed & everything with another poem until i found a poem #that absolutely murdered me in cold blood but there is an alternate universe where i did& then had to explain my unhinged thoughts to you. #anyway how are we feeling about bergy retirement. pspspspsp sara & luna are y'all doing okay like. the doc title for this one was #patrice the hockey player means a lot to me but patrice the person means so much more #which is why the end line of the other poem was so *%"@^)! (you love / what you are) because patrice does. like he is a whole ass good huma #& now since no one asked i need to tell you all the details about everything also y'all please clap i made an edit with NO baby pictures #although i did find one & save it & minimal genres of photo i always use in edits because they're my taste & aesthetic but anyway. #when i saved the first photo and marked it as one i wanted i accidentally wrote “how will he know they love him” which is not the line but #makes me feel feral about patrice & the rest of them all had hurtful names too but also. the third picture is literally a CELLY like brad #just scored a goal & he is clinging to bergy for dear life with that shit i saved that as “oh the agony on his face for unendurable” #& yes it is one of my cliches to have a draft day picture but in my defense the lifelong bond that patrice has/d with boston deserved to be #there even if i put in the love story & YES that picture is from the 2011 playoff right below it shared joy & pain & i couldn't tell you #when the brad marchy photo for together forever is except for the fact that i saw it & just the gut punch of oh my god the way he looks at #things men will praise you for is the stanley cup. duh. but i love the contrast of “some deed” being the stanley cup but then #bergy's choice to do noble deeds (ends up still earning praise &that's my note to his efforts outside of hockey we love a supportive captai #should also mention the first two i came up with & had the photos i knew i wanted for were the first and last one alskaldk but i KNEW i #wanted chara somewhere in the paragraph about leaving & then while i was looking found the one of bergy playing tuukka on accident & yes #i do have to make goalie jokes every time. no reprieve . no dice/no deal/no goal goalies have no rest/reprieve etc etc the one that killed #me though was looking for a patrice award pic & i wanted basically the one that i got for “how will you know any will praise you” & instead #also got the picture of patrice winning the some community hero award for charity work that he does & i love him mama & of COURSE that puck #is from bergy's 1000 game who do you think I am (if you guessed sleepy and emotional about patrice you'd be right) and ALSO please be ready #for all the patrice posts/bruins posts that have been sitting in my drafts to be released on this occasion of patrice retirement #I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT TUUKKA ALSO RETIRED THAT’S WHY HE WAS ON WISE OR SIMPLE NO REPRIEVE AND THAT LATE OR SOON WAS ALWAYS GOING TO BE #CHARA BECAUSE CHARA LEFT FIRST TO GO TO THE CAPS AND THEN LEFT IN RETIRMENT HE LEFT SOON BUT NOT FOR REAL THEN LATER LEFT FOR REAL (RETIRED)

[fennecswife]

Jesus fucking christ

Bella Ramsey is the greatest fucking choice they could have made for Ellie

That is all

If you disagree well then you’re wrong

#bella ramsey #the last of us #elle williams #pedro pascal #Bella Ramsey is a god #I would actually risk it all for Bella Ramsey #Bella Ramsey can I have your hand in marriage #I’m losing my will to live episode by episode #this 5’1 19 year old should not have the ability to rip out my head the way that they do #for the first time in my life I’m in love with an actor the same age as me so I call this a win #even if the price I am paying is absolute emotional heartbreak and pain caused every week

[freakadr0id]

Sorry I’ve been MIA this week. I know I promised more LMK Tang content (it is coming I swear) but I ended up taking a little me time and stepped away from social media for a bit.

And by “me time” I mean I spent two days staring at a blank page trying to get some writing done, three days finally watching and then rewatching ROTTMNT, and then spent two days creating a stupid compilation of my favorite character in the show. You’ll never guess who it is.

Anywho, I had this weird urge to put together this video that forced me to use the video editing "skills" I hadn't used in eight years, with my brain deciding that I couldn't get anything else done until it was finished. So here ya go. Enjoy this 4-minute video of Donatello moments nobody wanted or asked for:

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #donatello #tmnt donatello #rise donatello #rottmnt donatello #donnie #tmnt donnie #rise donnie #rottmnt donnie #I haven't watched anything TMNT related before this show #but I am absolutely in love with it #and look #what a surprise #I ended up favoring the smart-ass 'smart guy' character with an ego that masks potential insecurities and self-esteem issues #I think I'm starting to see a pattern here #this video was such a pain in the ass to make #I don't regret building my pc #but god I miss iMovie #I'm much more familiar with it and the software I used is a piece of shit #it crashed like 15 times while making this #but I remember how much I like editing videos (if I'm doing it for something I enjoy)

[twyz]

my brain is thinking HORRIBLE things

#twyz #magenta/columbia angst in the WORST fucking way guys #okay so it takes place during my au #later on anyways #columbia ends up surviving being shot by riff raff but she has absolutely no memory of the events of rh #all she remembers is her last name (anaslong) #but magenta remembers everything still #she has to deal with painful feelings of unrequited love while playing the role of nation and remaining friends with Columbia #which fucking SUCKS bc she still does all of her mannerisms that she did in rh so it just tears magenta apart #on top of that frank is back #again #and her (normal.) relationship with riff raff is really rocky bc of what he did and essentially caused #its a mess #god #i need to write smth #OUGH #roz screams into the void #shock treatment #rhps #rhps au #txt

[rosemary-bells]

character development is coming to terms w the fact that like 90% of your favorite pairings now are just weirdo4weirdo

#buzz #mxtx #sighs... #erha #(look i havent READ the books for erha yet but i will SOON) #suffering also. suffering and pain #theyre all absolutely insane. off their rockers. i love them anyway #tdtppf #pet palm fish?? idk what the tag is for it tbh #the disabled tyrant's pet palm fish #sipps. like YES all of my interests now are dramatic xianxia romances but also like!!! i havent had new interests in years!! #it was mostly just mihoyo's chokehold on my general everything!! #like yeah the listed titles arent That weirdo4weirdo per se but like it made me question my morality for a bit so it is and they are also #svsss #sv #mdzs #tgcf #ill get into more danmei series...... Eventually....... maybe idk god

[mazojo]

If someone doesn’t show up to my porch on the other side of the country at midnight asking to crash over while saying we are not strange “bedfellows” I don’t want it

#James be like I’ve been dropping hints I like Oliver #I am not reading too much into this right???? I have tried avoiding spoilers so I am flabbergasted #I think the book would have been two pages long if all along these two confessed they liked each other as more than bedfellows #strange bedfellows my god James the absolute NERD I love him #even though I am pretty sure he murdered Richard bc peace was never an option he just wants a hug from Oliver you guys I can fix him SKSKSKK #Anyways pain and suffering I fear #if we were villains spoilers #if we were villains #book #james #oliver