#about;;illusion

[lgbtlunaverse]

Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

#writing #fic writing #like this is stuff i'm doing for fun with my perfectionism meter turned down as far as i can get it #and i am still thinking about it A LOT #talk to me about how in red string fic jgy perceives the memory block both as syrup and as mud but nmj thinks it feels like blood #it's just a thing in their heads that mentally feels kind of thick and sticky but they both made something different of it #it's about issues with cleanliness / lies as a way to craft an illusion of a better lopking world vs the constant violence nmj lives in

[biblically-accurate-dca]

got your nose !!!!

#my art #daycare attendant #dca fandom #moondrop #this is a little old (same time as my ecl¡pse doodle where they're holding hands) #but i still think its funny #i see a lot of ppl who draw them with little to no nose #so it's fun to see that trait in a style where the nose is a huge part of it #now that i think about it though it'd be hard for moon to do the 'got your nose' thing because their thumbs are blue #so the illusion doesn't really work.. unless they say they squeezed it so hard that it turned blue? but idk

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thinkin' about Bardaby and his illusion smoke...

#went on yet another bardaby bender. these are only part of it lmao #i am often seized by the fatal need to Draw Barnaby In Some Shape Or Form #but yes. thinking very hard about the illusion smoke #i feel like sometimes he uses it recreationally... mixed with other stuff to dilute it ofc #but it keeps the color! #im imagining that it can act sort of like a Mood Ring! #the core color that he exhales yk yk! #but using it full strength for proper illusions and such #he's gotta be careful about it! it'll fuck him up! #he's built up Quite The Resistance to illusions and illusion magic over his life #but everyone has their limits... #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #IM NOT USED TO DRAWING SMOKE. IT LOOKS BAD LMAO #i'll have to work on that! look up tutorials! Practice! #anyhow i think the other scribbles need their own post #its mainly bardaby and our little warlock... #there are three ways i love drawing barnaby #i love scribbling him angry. i love scribbling him with howdy. and i love scribbling him being soft w/ wally #side note i realized earlier that part of the reason why i love characters who are just so much bigger than everyone else #ex: poppy & barnaby #is bc then its like. they're the smaller guys' personal jungle gym lmao #free bed! free climbing wall! free bean bag! free Getting Tossed Around!!!! #all wrapped up with the wonderful bow of Friend!!!! #...my touch starvedness is showing isnt it. away with ye demons!!!

[ingoodjesst]

have you put the pieces together yet, detective

#goro akechi #akechi goro #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #p5 akechi #p5 spoilers #persona 5 fanart #jesst some art #i may have worked on this for... just under two weeks? i had like. so many fckgin thoughts i might make a process/concept breakdown post #it's honestly just for my own peace (haha piece) of mind because i overthought about. SosoooOoOo many motifs and symbols and i just wanna #idk PUT EM ALL somewhere........ maybe it'll become its own jessay of mine. god. who can say. #also DUDE tumblr rly does crunch up quality wow ouch #unironically a core thematic inspiration for this piece is a quote from the folding ideas' video 'the nostalgia critic and the wall' #'it doesn't all make sense or resolve or coalesce because we don't all make sense' #'everyone is the illusion of order constructed brick by brick out of chaos' #i've watched that video essay through at least. a dozen times at this point. everything about it. yeah. it's good. #this piece initially went many different directions and i have realized ah yes to fully explore just THESE themes that i'm interested in as #they relate to goro akechi i will need to draw. at least two more pieces. sdlfhsdlkfjsd

[heritageposts]

#i'll try to make a post with some of the main points here tomorrow but this is an incredible succinct and informative rundown #of the dissonance between the biden admin's reported opposition to israel's genocide in gaza #(like liberal media talking about 'red lines' 'stern phone calls' how biden is 'growing frustrated with netanyahu' etc) #and the actual material support they're providing israel #they also break down the biden admin's media strategy; how they create the illusion of opposition by conducting a humanitarian theater #like creating a pier to deliver humanitarian aid to gaza when the US government is literally the ones upholding the blockade #or airdropping aid that's now killed dozens of people #for no other aim than to create good headlines for biden #SoundCloud

[ghostpajamas]

pretending

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #reigen arataka #ritsu kageyama #shigeo kageyama #first mp100 art in years : weird prose thing about reigen and ritsu and their projected selves and metaphorical light #reading guide: white iris = psychic powers. so the spotlight thing giving reigen an eye highlight (and the 1000% thing) is like. the brief- #illusion of being a real psychic. #being shaded in is like. okay i dont know how to put it. the projection of normalcy. yeah #poetry #ghostart #comic #hope theres no typos or alignment issues i missed orz

[buggachat]

this is so horrible

This isn't even new for him. Gabriel did basically this same exact thing in Collector three seasons ago, faked a breakdown in his office and made Adrien believe it was all his fault. This is so consistent with Gabriel's methods of abuse/manipulation, and I already knew Gabriel did this shit, but seeing it again like this and with the dialogue really drives home how absolutely despicable and purposeful this all is.

Gabriel isn't just talking about the friends pushing food on him. He could've chose to say "why don't children respect me!" or "this suit cost so much!" or "i was so embarrassed in front of all the other parents!", but he didn't. He chose instead to talk about Adrien's conversation with him in the kitchen that morning, the one where Adrien very reasonably mentioned that he was uncomfortable being a virtual personal assistant. Adrien didn't even push it. He just mentioned that he was uncomfortable and then kind of moved on from it.... and this is what Gabriel saw as a fitting punishment for Adrien asking a question. To fill Adrien with such intense guilt and shame while shouting things like "Maybe I wasn't meant to be a father!"

Like, this is traumatizing, right? Adrien is witnessing this, and Gabriel knows that Adrien is witnessing it, in fact, Gabriel is only doing it because Adrien is witnessing it. Literally no excuse. This is just pure 100% emotional abuse, flat out, with zero way to sugarcoat it.

#ml spoilers #ml s5 spoilers #illusion spoilers #also i keep thinking about adrien going ''sure dad i'll have bananas!'' in passion when he apparently doesnt even like them #and this scene almost recontextualizes that for me because wow. adrien is absolutely Trapped now into pretending like Gabriel is an A+ star #father with zero faults. adrien is afraid of rocking the boat at ALL. #because the moment he even so much as implies that something's wrong then Gabriel will take it as an excuse to fill adrien with #extreme guilt/shame #fuck you gabriel fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

[rozugold]

There are 2 Tommys in my head and they are both mentally ill

#dream smp #dream smp fanart #c!tommy #painted illusions #distorted illusions #rozoodles #but they’re getting better!!!! or atleast coping with it better #I know I haven’t posted bout them in a bit but I am thinking about them everyday

[liriostigre]

Jeff Buckley's poem, “New Year's Eve Prayer,” performed at Sin-é, Manhattan, NYC, 1994.

You, my love, are allowed to forget about the Christmas you just spent stressed out in your parents' house.

You, my love, are allowed to shed the weight of all the years before, like bad disco clothes. Save them for a night of dancing stoned with your lover.

You, my love, are allowed to let yourself drown, every night, in bottomless, wild and naked symbolic dreams.

You, my love, in sleep can unlock your youth and your most terrifying magic; and dreaming is for the courageous.

You, my love, are allowed to grab my guitar and sing me idiot love songs if you've lost your ability to speak. Keep it down to two minutes.

You, my love, are allowed to rot and to die and to live again, more alive and incandescent than before.

You, my love, are allowed to beat the shit out of your television, choke its thoughts and corrupt its mind. Kill! Kill! Kill! Kill the motherfucker! Before the song of zombified pain and panic and malaise and it's narrow right-winged vision and it's cheap commercial gang rape becomes the white noise of the world, turn about is fair play.

You, my love, are allowed to forgive and love your television.

You, my love, are allowed to speak in kisses to those around you and those up in heaven.

You, my love, are allowed to show your babies how to dance full bodied, starry eyed, audacious, supernatural and glorified.

You, my love, are allowed to suck in every single endeavor.

You, my love, are allowed to be soaked like a lovers' blanket, in the New York summertime, with the wonder of your own special gift.

You, my love, are allowed to receive praise.

You, my love, are allowed to have time.

You, my love, are allowed to understand.

You, my love, are allowed to love.

Woman, disobey, when little men believe.

You, my love, are Rebellion.

#posting this in May cause time is an illusion #and bc i'm allowed to rot and to die and to live again more alive and incandescent than before and to post whatever i want #👍 #if anyone has suggestions about the transcription let me know please #jeff buckley

[stuckinapril]

how are you so in love with yourself...this is not me accusing you of narcissism or smth i genuinely am in awe of how much you seem to like yourself and be in love with yourself and I try so hard to be like you and do that too but i fail every single time...i really really want to know how I could be like this too because i know it is one of the biggest things stopping me from achieving happiness

Not sure if this is a ubiquitous experience, but for me personally affirmations can only go so far. There’s always been a direct correlation between me doing action-based things and my self-esteem increasing, so I try to keep my promises to myself (study at x time, work out at y time, just doing whatever I need to do even if I don’t have the motivation for it). Someone told me that self-esteem comes w doing esteemable things, and I’ve never forgotten that since. What someone thinks about me (including the gargoyle voice in my head lol) won’t faze me if I have tangible accomplishments under my belt I can refer back to on bad days

#Also like #I definitely have bad days but most times I keep that to myself #This is my blog & I want to engage w it how I want #So sometimes I’ll post about it but most times I won’t #Social media is fr an illusion and no one is just winning 100% of the time #A lot of people struggle but don’t share it #And no one really owes us their sadness so we can’t demand for people to share it either tbh #I wouldn’t use someone’s blog presence as a compass for how you “should” be #You’d be so surprised what people go through behind closed doors #Even the ones who seem like they’re jovial all the time

[sophfandoms53]

They are everything to me, you don’t understand

#i was ESCTATIC for gus to finally see his dad #all i wanted was their reunion #and i got it #i so wish we got so much more of them #but seeing perry bawl at the feeling of his son in his arms #he saw those illusions and smiled immediately #the way gus’ face lit up and his illusions activated in excitement #i will bawl #i just adore them #all of my headcanons about them are canon now /hj #nothing can stop me now LMAO #canon has no jurisdiction here anymore #my perry backstory my beloved okay #the owl house #toh #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #gus porter #perry porter

[0vergrowngraveyard]

i will forever be on my “tails and infinte could’ve had such a good hero-villain dynamic in forces if the player character didn’t take over tails’ role” bullshit

#graveyardtxt #also that infinite could’ve focused his attacks on more mental/emotional damage instead of physical damage #because like illusions? hello? #think about it #tails’ logic vs infinite’s manipulation? #come on that would’ve been so cool #mind games on the battlefield? please? i beg of you? #i was talking to passionartx about this earlier but i had to put it in a post #i just wish tails and infinite were done better in forces i think about them often #miles tails prower #infinite the jackal #sonic forces #just my opinion

[cr1mson5returns]

Sort of obsessing over the concept of Tim, having been acknowledged canonically as a talented photographer, using these skills for morally gray reasons. This kid doesn't intend to use his fists to win every battle, or even most battles, actually. He's well-connected, fits into unconventional hiding spaces due to being lean and slender and 5'6", and he has a very nice camera. So really, Senator, it's a shame you thought you'd get away with so much. Think of what the Times could do with this evidence. High-definition doesn't lie. So you'll vote to expand funding for public education and Medicaid in the state, is that correct? Of course, you're an upstanding politician, after all. Couldn't have all this getting in the way of your career.

#tim strikes me as the type who doesn't see himself as being on the same moral high ground as batman or superman or anyone else #and probably never really had that illusion to begin with #he didn't have like a moral attachment to the batfamily crusade #he did it to save his childhood hero because batman the symbol and the person mattered more than standing by and trusting anyone else #no one else was gonna pick up this mess so tim had to do it #tim has no qualms about burning bridges either #if you aren't useful to him or vice versa it's over #this was business and he's devoted to his own cause #which is assuring that batman is functional enough to mean something to people #who cares what happens to tim drake?? he's inconsequential #tim drake #red robin #batfamily #cr1mson's thoughts #morally gray tim drake has my heart

[lukecastellanshandholder]

"Luke made the choice to join Kronos. Luke made the choice to betray everyone at camp. Luke made the choice to-." Blah, blah, blah.

Anyways, given that Kronos obviously manipulated Luke into believing that he wanted what Luke wanted (and that was to make life for demigods better and to hold the gods accountable for their actions), only to get Luke to say yes and join him… did Luke really have a choice? It’s states multiple times throughout the first series, by various characters, that Kronos could manipulate even the person with the strongest will power. Hell, Kronos even manipulated Ares! A literal god!

You think that Luke really had any chance of turning Kronos down, especially right after his quest when his emotions were all over the place?

Then let’s not forget that it’s stated right in the books that Kronos would straight up torture Luke with nightmares when he would "fail" or he felt Luke’s loyalty to him wavering. So, if he was punished/tortured whenever he may have wanted to disband the alliance with Kronos… did he really have a choice? Or was he stuck in that awful predicament because of one bad decision that wasn’t even truly his very own decision?

Luke may have thought that he had a choice in the beginning and it may seem that way to Percy and the others. However, it’s made perfectly clear in TTC that all of the "power" that Kronos had given Luke (as far as letting him see over the army in SoM and everything) was really just to pacify Luke and keep him compliant and unquestioning until he was ready to use him as his vessel if things didn’t work out with the fleece.

As far as I see it, Luke stopped having the true ability to make choices after he agreed to join Kronos and that happened before we even see him in TLT. In this essay I will-…

#another Luke rant? #yeah what’s new? #but seriously #Kronos have Luke the illusion of choice #but Luke never really had one #and let’s not even talk about his fate #I mean seriously #he really was screwed from the beginning #luke castellan #percy jackson #pjo #pjoverse #percy jackon and the olympians

[furiousgoldfish]

Living with abusive parents made me feel like I need to be productive every day, every moment, and that's the only way I can survive. If I stopped being productive, then I was not worthy of life anymore. It made me into this hyper-stressed individual who would feel bad just from not producing anything within few hours; I'd feel guilty, ashamed and not good enough if a whole day went by without me accomplishing anything.

This lead to me burning out from everything I was trying to achieve, it exhausted me, it brought me endless days of experiencing guilt and shame from being too tired and too stressed and anxious to make or do anything. It made me sick, and ashamed of being sick. It made me compare myself to everyone who accomplished more than me, feeling small and unable to compete. It made me dismiss everything I have done as 'not good enough' because it didn't bring me that feeling that I was now someone, that I had done something important, something I could be proud of. I was proud of nothing. Nothing was notable, nothing was exceptional.

I never stopped to ask myself, for what reasons was I doing this? It was assumed that of course, this constant 'doing something' would bring me somewhere, only I didn't know where, I didn't have a goal. I just knew I needed to keep working, keep producing, or else I would be bad. What was I working for? Who was benefiting from this? I didn't even know.

I was blindly following the path that eroded my mental health, my well-being, my sense of self-value and my time and energy. I was scrambling for seconds of feeling good about myself which should have been mine from the start. I should have been able to feel good while doing nothing, while resting, relaxing, enjoying, taking it slow, caring for my own health, my well being and my emotional stability. There was absolutely no reason in that high-stress environment for me to be producing anything! I just needed to survive, but the pressure put on me to be 'useful' and 'productive' was so huge, I couldn't even see anything else past it. I couldn't comprehend that I was allowed to feel good even if I did nothing, even if I was just focusing on what made me feel better.

It would take me a long time to realize that working only had a point if you were working towards a specific goal, and if you were able to set the conditions of the work so that it doesn't destroy your health and emotional well being on the way. If working isn't bringing you closer to your goal, it means you're being exploited. Other people are profiting from your constant productivity while you're not even aware of why you're doing it. If working is destroying your current life, it's not sustainable enough to bring you towards a goal. No goal is worth destroying yourself over. You have to live in order to be there for when your goal is achieved.

And you can feel okay about yourself every minute that you're not working towards your goal. Taking breaks and letting yourself recover from work has to be a part of the normal, otherwise it's a burnout waiting to happen. The goal will not run away while you're resting. Nothing bad can happen just because you're taking care of yourself and taking it slow. It will give you more stability and make sure you can keep doing what you're doing.

#perfectionism #illusion of productivity #anti hustle culture #being exploited #being forced to feel bad about not working or being productive #productivity #trauma #toxic guilt #toxic shame

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 anime #persona 4 #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #OK LISTEN THIS SCENE COMES AT THE HEEL OF MITSUO'S ILLUSION ON YU. #and urhajhsnd im not going to break down the souyo aspect of it because people smarter than me have already done so but #im gushing about it anyway because yosukes been going around calling yu his partner for quite some time now #but now hes reached a new level in intimacy. first name no honorifics intimacy. #its also yosuke forgetting about the others briefly because when theyre together theyre always just in their own world. #and when nanako picks up on the change they just laugh. but when teddie picks up on it yosuke suddenly gets embarrassed #and thats when it pans to everyone else whos also watching that yosuke remembers theyre not alone and hes so shy. HES SO SHY #he panics a little and its almost like doesnt want teddie to find out because hes afraid of what teddie might say? #also look at teddie's face like OH HE KNOWS. HE KNOWS SOMETHING. #hmm teddie tell us what secrets about yosuke you're hiding #he's good with his queue