#Tomorrow I Surely Will Love You Again

[eureka-its-zico]

HELP I AM UNWELL

#Tomorrow I Surely Will Love You Again #mackenyu #this fuckin series was sooooo good and so angsty and so sad #and I wasn’t ready for the sex scene and the kissing I am 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠 #deceased

[humanmorph]

"[high pitched and tinny] Let’s dive in. Let’s dive in. It’s time to dive in. Get ready to [audio distorts and slows] dive. Diiive. Diiiiie…" (The Road to PALISADE 20: City Planning Department)

so that's what i've been working on for the past 2 weeks! i wanted to draw something for this intro ever since i first listened to it (as a companion piece to my other gur drawing, though it of course ended up being way bigger in scale), but it only really gripped me about halfway through PALISADE ep 18. the next morning after that i listened to this narration on repeat for about 45 minutes and then made a big sketch on 4 sheets of paper at my desk at work.

anyways, i haven't listened to the new episode yet but i think i'm probably ready for whatever they're gonna throw at us with the next sortie. i'm gonna believe, against it all, in millennium break. for gur

(i recommend listening along while scrolling! + transcript btw. if anything is hard to read)

#road to palisade #road to palisade spoilers #palisade #fatt #friends at the table #gur sevraq #<- yuore everything btw. #long post #and good god. it sure as fuck is #rosa art #the full file for this? that i had to split up? its 30000 pixel tall. thats 218cm #im so proud of this & it was a ton of fun. ooohhh my free floating panels i love them #i posted about my progress (theres some earlier sketches n lineart too) on cohost to be like well. #maybe i wont talk so fucking much on the actual post but noooo i cant shut up #love that for me.shoutout if you read all this #if you find a typo please. dont even mention it #a fun thing about this is that i almost know the intro by heart now. theres like 3 lines i get stuck on but mostly. its all there #ill link the cohost if i reblog this again. personally i think its interesting stuff but i love to hear myself talk abt shit i make soooo #anyways i have art class tomorrow & should sleep soon : ) but im happy im finally able to show this off. it rules sooo much

[cupophrogs]

What would poppet be like if they were a playtime co toy?

The Silly!! Poppet would probably be something of a security protocol! Leading children to and from the orphanage, making sure no one sees something they shouldn’t, and generally keeping the other toys in check. Brainwashed to hell, this one!

I imagine they were made when Poppet’s Traveling Circus was first airing, and Playtime Co. partnered with Charles’ studio to make plushies of some of the characters! Some of the orphans probably saw one, or caught an episode on the tv, and they loved it enough for the company to add our favorite jester to the Bigger Bodies Initiative. Poppet knows every knook and cranny of the factory, and could often be found skipping through the halls, chatting away with higher up employees or other toys.

Close ups!

#bro has probably killed so many people #doomed even more #then really did care about the kids though #simply saw the whole ‘turning into toys’ thing as a new beginning of sorts #they have no memories of their human life #like at all #they are simply a silly guy #a funny fella #a jokeable joe #phrart #art #poppy playtime #poppy playtime oc #poppet spring #GRAAAAHH IT’S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I’VE DRAWN THEM #A it feels so nice to see my silly sue again #I love #I adore #jester #jester oc #bigger body poppet #ask phrog #ask the three d’s #(technically? I’m not sure) #and yes you DO have to crank the box to wake them up #that was a big control thing for the company; you can;t crank it from the inside #april fool's! #the real ppt Poppet will be out tomorrow :)

[bluewinnerangel]

Somethings going on with these dudes with the shirts in Harry's music videos.. first we had the blue polo with the 4 7s (which makes you guessed it 28) in the intimate dining setting in between public appearances in Late Night Talking

And now there's a dude in Music For A Sushi Restaurant in a Jersey that says LT SENIORS 74. Like. 7x4 again. And LT this time. Have a potato ill put in more pics

To make it worse this is Lyons Township High School apparel, or LTHS.

Gotta laugh its as youre looking for a harry&louis update acount and take wrong turn like

Next level egh-idk-about-that addition: the LT or LS are hidden in most of the shots as is the number.

#would love to hear your interpretations of this #like i just noticed so i shared but i habent thought about what it could mean in this case #like you can for sure interpret this in multiple ways like if the dude is supposedto be louis lol #and its definitely not the vibe i got just watching the mv #but yk we come with assumptions #lets look again tomorrow #its not straight forward thats for sure #its not straight either #now im imaginig louis go YOU HAD ME KILL YOU?? and harrys like well implied And louis is like well that doesnt make much difference now

[cerise-on-top]

Heyyyy :3 and could you do how Kate laswell would help you when your on your period?? :D

Hey! Sure I can!

Laswell Helping Her S/O on Their Period

Laswell doesn’t get periods anymore, which she couldn’t be happier about. Every time she did get her period she felt as though she was going to die. Her cramps were bad, everything else hurt as well, she was moody and probably almost decked someone several times throughout her life. She always thought getting her period was unnecessary. She's a lesbian, she was never going to do the devil’s tango with a man and get pregnant. Laswell always wished her body would understand that as well, but alas. However, she would feel a lot of pity and sympathy when you’re on your period as she knows how much it can suck. While she may not actively track it, she’ll always know when you’re about to get your period, being able to identify the signs. She’ll make the preparations as well, which can range from getting you some meds, should you need them, to buying chocolate or other snacks. Hell, she’ll buy you the best heating pad she can find as well. However, she still won’t be too big on cuddling with you, unless you insist on her doing so. She’s not the warmest person around, so she likely won’t be able to ease your pains like that either. However, she’ll bundle you up in a blanket and watch bloopers of your favorite shows with you until you’re laughing again and it gets a bit better. Although she’s usually okay with doing the chores on her own, when you’re not doing well because you’re menstruating she will actively encourage you to stay in bed and let her handle everything. Cleaning the dishes should be the least of your concerns for the time being. Makes you tea, coffee or maybe some hot chocolate. You won’t need to move a single finger. If she really needs to, then she’ll change the bed sheets as well if you bled on them. She won’t be mad, she gets it. It’s not something you can control, after all. So, all in all, she’ll do her best to take care of you as well as she can. Might take a day off too if you need her to.

#cod #cod x reader #kate laswell #kate laswell x reader #again I am so glad I don't get periods anymore #it's one of the main perks of taking medication #it's the reason why I don't wanna change my current medication anymore either #Laswell is an older lady so I think the worst is behind her by this point #which I am happy for her for. like yes queen! you suffered enough time to get some respite from all this biological nonsense #sorry this took so long to write. I'm only really able to write as I am right now since I studied for hours on end at work today #I think I'm gonna fail the test again this Friday but I'll be doing better than last time so that's good! #anyway I'm gonna write the fluff alphabet for Farah now. not sure if I'll be able to finish it today though #but if everything keeps up as it is right now then I'll likely be able to finish it tomorrow! #and then I finally won't have any requests again as of now #just kidding I love writing but it is exhausting at times

[flowery-laser-blasts]

This is all you need to know about me.

#Genuinely happy smiling Shego gives me the power to defeat my troubled mind #Drakken smirking like that gives me different feelings that are as well positive but somewhat questionable #BUT SEEING THESE TWO TOGETHER SMILING AT EACH OTHER DESTROYS ANY SAD FEELING I HAVE LIKE AKFIAKGKSS LOOK AT THEM #I love these two so much #they're the perfect combo of intellectual strength and the wordt combo of pride vanity and greed #gosh they're just perfect I #i want them to be happy so badly #just a little world take over? sure go ahead as long as you two are happy together I won't mind #i could stare hours at them #drakgo #I just want them to KISS #MUWAH MUWAH ON THE LIPS #eeeee <3 #💚💖💙💖💙💖💚 #shego x drakken #dr drakken x shego #Drakgo my beloved #day after tomorrow I'll go crazy on drawing these two again

[ghosts-cyphera]

we love you so much angel! & we are proud of you. please don’t be too hard on yourself. 🩷

love you the most-most 💗 )-:

#tw suicide #tw depression #I’m deleting my original tags again I’m sorry #I don’t want to make you all feel worse #in short: depression relapse. I have an appointment with my gp tomorrow morning (in six hours). I’ll be alright I’m sure #I just feel really hopeless right now and staying positive feels really hard #I also self-isolate a lot when I’m down so if you don’t see me around for a while please know that I’m okay. #just recovering and hopefully getting the help I know I need #I love you all so very much #cw depression #cw suicide #lo answers

[washymylifeaway]

hi rye how have you been spending your time LET ME TELL YOU.

kavetham? haikaveh? idk idc but them..

for starters i just want to put out there that if kavetham is my sakuatsu then cynonari is the sunaosa because i love them and if the bestie agenda isn't alive between at least one pair in the four i get so sad. anyways kavetham has taken over my ao3 and it's so bad LOL. this is mostly for me because i like having consolidated lists of fics i've read to go back to but i'll be kind and give the tumblrinas (?) a little taste too. anyways list under the cut also don't follow me for genshin i'm not a genshin girlie (famous last words)

pre warning, i think it goes without saying that there's like alcohol mentioned in like almost every single fic.. kaveh is (apparently but what would i know) not the healthiest when it comes to coping habits so .. forgive him..

check the warnings and the tags before you read!

truck, barter, and trade by Seungshi03 (T) 20.7k // when i tell you if you're going to read one fic on this list it should be this one. the humor. the plot. the kid. this needs to be framed and immortalized. they're so stupid they're so silly THEY'RE SO IN LOVE

rumors, fame, and reputation by rysarium (T) 27k // THIS. READ IT PLEASE. it's so so funny and very entertaining. you go from loving them to wanting to punch them so bad to loving them again. i will say i thought it was so unfair for kaveh to get the movie wrong because technically he heard it from source so what there was an interview 1034209384 years ago let al-haitham lie in peace (ALSO CYNO IM YOUR BIGGEST FAN YOURE SO FUNNY KING SPEAK YOUR TRUTH)

The Fall, the Rise, and Everything In-between by writingrosez (T) 22.9k // i really did dread the divorce arc in this one i knew it was coming but i really was hoping it wouldn't but it happened (when i say i verbally said NO so many times while reading this LMFAO embarrassing.. i'd do it again...) also poor lumine LMFAO

if i wake up and you're still here by alcyonenight (M) 8.4k // no because why did this fic literally have me punching my screen (completely real) while i was reading it. they both are so silly and dear to me (said in tears) but i love the hanahaki trope so bad and this was *chefs kiss*

burn up, burn out by alcyonenight (T) 8.6k AND pockets full of stones by alcyonenight (T) 11.6k // ELEAZAR AU!!! baby's first eleazar fic and it ruined her. miserably. i loved both of these so much, wonderful reads truly (they both made me so sad)

get on your nerves (to get your attention) by acynthe (M) 3.9k // what better way to get to know a character than by reading him pine over one person for way too long? right? anyways this fic really set me up into understanding that haikaveh = watching ice melt in the arctic during winter..

Work engagement by gwendee (G) 3.6k // silly little boys in their silly little parties with their silly little plans.. the line that stuck with me was bringing their love to new heights because cyno was right.. it was funny..

and yet by luminvies (G) 11.8k // this fic was so poetic and eloquent to me it was a wonderful read and kaveh is so silly girlie pop in it HAHA. but really, it was a wonderful read and i loved how fleshed out kaveh felt despite this being written before he was released LMFAO

In a Language He Understands by Maeyari (G) 13.2k // this was so funny and Kaveh becoming a homewrecker is so insane whaat (totally not fake and not clickbait) that aside, it was a very light hearted read and i enjoyed it very much

what are we by lionkeychain (T) 5.1k // if i had to re route you to Kaveh being the silliest dude alive it's this one right here. i would send you here. he is so . i am so . about him. AHHHHHHHHHH. anyways, he's just a dude with a lot of love ykwim?

inertia by smallghosts (T) 3.6k // i think it's funny how al-haitham plays fetch with Kaveh in like 85% of fics (this one included) anyways the summary was so funny i just had to read it and in context it's even funnier to me. Kaveh you're so funny ily king ('being in love with you is gross.' me: HELPDKLNLEEE?GLD>SD>? literal definition of boom roasted).

first love, worst love by caniculeo (M) 11.6k // babe wake up. the circus is back in town. babe go back to sleep. the girlies broke up.. again.. anyways. had to take a laugh break when al-haitham hit on nilou. literally put my device down and had to catch my breath. then when kaveh pointed behind al-haitham. oh god. ALSO highly recommend the second fic in the series with cynonari. cyno i love u my funny king.

Burgeon by gloomyparfait (T) 8.2k // another hanahaki fic rye? really? YES. please i love irrationality. they're so chewable in this fic i love them dearly. i need to blend them. mince them up like beef tartare.

okay this is not an extensive list (def missed some good ones i've read) and i have more i want to consume (!!!) but i haven't gotten around to some of the longer ones just cause my attention span is bad these days. i'm very excited for some of my future reads and so perhaps there will be a part two because i am down in the trenches right now. regardless, i hope you enjoyed this list and now it's time for me to disappear again. bye bye

also if you've written a fic on this list and you would prefer for it to not be on this list/on tumblr, just lmk and i'd be more than happy to remove you!

#genshin impact #kavetham #haikaveh #genshin fic recs #do i even know how to tag #i sure as hell don't know what to tag LMFAO #anyways don't expect me on here very much btw i'm just here to dump this and then i will skidaddle away #i will queue this for tomorrow sometime and then poof washy rye is inactive and no more once again #i always think about how my last post was such a lie LMFAO it makes me laugh i'm ngl #also i've been thinking about playing genshin again though as bad of an idea as that seems #like i really shouldn't because i'm busy with other things but alsooooooo #i SHOULD be doing grad school apps (the horrors) but instead here i am twiddling my thumbs with ao3 fanfics.. #also you can't tell me otherwise but kavetham is so sakuatsu coded it's crazy i love them #anyways this list is a crazy way to start the school year off LMFAO my goodbye to summer ig

[meownotgood]

Can I ask what your ✨Aki journey✨ was like? I’m a Aki girlie but you clearly love Aki more than any blog I’ve ever seen (purrr) When did you start becoming interested in him? Was it an aHA moment or did it develop over time? I’m really curious!!! What inspired you to start this blog? I live, laugh, love backstories 🫶🏾❤️‍🔥

YES I would be so happy to answer this!!!!!!!

so before I read chainsaw man, I knew next to nothing about it, I wasn't really a manga reader in general to be honest but I started getting into it because I wanted to get caught up with jujutsu kaisen after finishing the anime. when I did, I really enjoyed jjk, I wanted to read more manga and a friend suggested I read chainsaw man because it's similar. I was like okay... a lot of people are into it... it looks cool... why not.

and when I started reading and I got to that third chapter and I saw aki... I literally said to myself: yeah, he is going to be my favorite. because he's exactly my type — the suit, the hair tied up so it's long and pretty when he takes it down, the SMOKING??? THE PIERCINGS????? I thought his hair was silly but adorable, his personality was stern but quirky and likable, his kon power was so cool. he was just so cute and hot and definitely my type of character.

but really, even though aki was always my favorite character from the start, my obsession truly began when I finished the manga. aki's arc is just so good... I fell in love with him the whole way through but especially after the manga was over... I loved watching him grow as a character, he just feels so real and relatable personality wise and story wise. he's immensely flawed but kindhearted to his core. he's so human. I love how he's emotional and soft and the conclusion to his arc is genuinely my favorite thing in any piece of media ever, it's so bittersweet and compelling. (and I'm a mess for that bittersweet shit okay)

anyway after I read chainsaw man for the first time I was feeling a mix of emotions between "wow that was the greatest thing ever" and "what the fuck did I just read" but more than anything I yearned for more aki, and so I read it a second time almost immediately after, and then the aki brain infection just grew worse and worse.... was screenshotting every panel of him... I read it a third time... a fourth time in the colored version to collect more panels......... I started my blog over a year ago to post fanfic and rant about aki and the rest is history

#I love this question #I also think it's important to say #albeit it's a bit silly #when I read chainsaw man I was going through a pretty hard time in my life #I'd gone through a bad breakup and I felt very lost #I was reading a lot of manga because I needed something to do to get my mind off things #I think that's part of the reason why I got attached to aki so quickly... #but he means a lot to me because of that #aki helped me to become myself again #also I'm sure I've said this before #but I started writing fanfic because I'd read all the fanfic of aki and #I still needed more #I thought it would be fun bc I always enjoyed writing but it'd been years since I did #suddenly on a random night at 3 in the morning I was like #you know what... I can't sleep... I know how to write... I can make my own aki content... let's do it #and I wrote that first fic like there was no tomorrow #(don't read it btw it sucked BAHAHA) #I posted it on ao3 for fun expecting no one to care but when just a handful of people read it and said they liked it I was overjoyed #I'm grateful I started writing again... I'm glad I get to do what I love and write about what makes me happy #and people actually enjoy it?? THAT'S CRAZY #sorry for ranting too much #can't wait to see where this journey will continue to take me #ask mags

[risingsunresistance]

damn they werent kidding that reading comprehension CAN piss on the poor

#i dont even think it's a reading comprehension issue i think people just love to assume the most bad-faith intentions on tumblr #last reblog was clearly talking about a post made as if it was some unspoken rule of social media #all the replies are ''umm they stated a personal boundary and you're making fun of them for it? :/'' #i can see how you got there but no. if you looked at the post for two seconds it's obvious we aren't doing targeted harassment 😭 #they're just saying it's a weird thing to post as if it was obvious people should have been behaving like that all along... #it's not like that's some common social media etiquette..... it's a strange thing to Expect #state your boundaries sure that's always fine. that's not what the post was about guys kfjhkg #i love finding a popular opinionated post and grabbing the bag of popcorn lmao #anyways im gonna go get food wahoo #hiiiiiii i wanted to post a bit today but. forgot :V #kept getting distracted by various things including skyblock itself #*wants to post about skyblock* *too busy playing skyblock to post* #most of my day was actually spent outside yay :] work again tomorrow tho #and saturday.. #chat

[myfriendtheghost]

goodnight my sweet lil baby 🥰

#seeing my fav band again tomorrow !!!! and reuniting with my friends 🥹 #anyways let me walk y’all through my evening #got a message from Franni (the lead singer) on ig asking for my friend’s favorite cake flavor #because his 50th show is on Sunday so they’re gonna get him a cake #so I came up with a plan to get it out of him at the Q&A tomorrow LMAO hopefully it works #and then one of the backup singers messaged me and told me how good my pics looked and that the other backup singer (a new guy—I think just #for this run of shows?? but I’m not sure) #anyways she said he wanted any pics I had of him so I messaged him and he gave me his email #and he was like you’re awesome thank you so much #and I was like oh no problem at all I love when people like the pics I take of them #and he said “your talent is amazing“ 😭🩷😭🩷😭 #this week has me feeling like my photography is finally going somewhere after all these years and I am just so happy #I can’t wait for tomorrow

[thriftdyke]

.

#the sun went down at 4 pm and I am once again having an existential crisis #I went to a bookstore and saw stupid romance book covers and started thinking about how I’m probably gonna ‘die alone’ #whatever the fuck that means #I don’t KNOW okay I don’t know if I’m aromantic or just too traumatized and avoidant to be capable of intimacy. but I have no friends and #I’m lonely as fuck #and I don’t want to date but I want someone to be committed to me and I want someone to fuck but I don’t trust people and I #am pretty sure if I fucked someone I would burst into tears bc of how long its been since I’ve been touched #I want a family. like that is one thing I know for sure I don’t know exactly what that even means or looks like #but I want a FAMILY. and not the one I was born with #I don’t mean kids I mwan commitment and fucking. People #and the universe is not on my fucking side girl. she’s not I don’t care what you say #I thought I had a found family in college and look where that is now. dust #and I’m 25 years old #and I’m missing so many milestones #and maybe it doesn’t matter maybe dating and fucking do not give you worth yeah yeah okay #but this is not the life I thought I would have at this age. and I feel like I should be entitled to grieve that #not like I want to. I want to be normal and I want to be over it. #to be perfectly fucking honest. I wish I could wake up tomorrow #and fall in love with someone and have a boring normal happily ever after. #I wish I could be the person who’s capable of that and I know that’s a naive and childish and unwoke desire to have #but I’m just being so real with you chief. I do not know how to live in this world being who I am. #and I don’t want to fucking be alone. #not because it makes me less worthy but because I’m just fucking sick of being lonely. okay. #anyway. I’m probably deleting this #p

[jayisa]

just saw the haikyuu movie and it was SO GOOD

#didn't even know it was in theaters I thought I had to wait until July!!! #then out of nowhere my mom was like oh did you see its in theaters??? #im so happy right now im so so happy right now I had a fantastic time!! #i even got to see it in the dub which is so fun bc I actually love the hq dub #also god damn tsukiyamas were well fed I mean their scene was basically a complete amv #im so fucking happy right now #i think it actually worked really well as a movie #i'm sure it would have been great as a season like season 3 bc I'm sure there was stuff they had to cut but all things considered #the movie hit the emotional notes really well and was just fantastic to watch #ugh i love them so much #so its not like i ever really fell out of my haikyuu phase but like the hyperfixation is !!!!!!!!!! #of course its right when I start my first adult full time job #I'm totally gonna see it again tomorrow with my cousin #but i would see it as much as possible if i didn't have goddamn gainfull employmentt #so mad that i don't know any one is real life who shares my intensity about haikyuu i wish to scream #anyway it was great pleaseeeeee go see it if you can #haikyuu!! #haikyuu #haikyuu spoiler #haikyuu battle of the garbage dump #haikyuu battle of the garbage dump spoilers #not really but just in case #tsukkiyama

[hellolulu]

Shigeo Saves The Cat

A Dive Into What The Cat Symbolises

During the Mogami Arc, Mogami had created a world in which Shigeo had no powers, and was hated by all the people he loved. In this cruel world, Shigeo was presented with a cat, and this cat died because he was unable to protect it.

During the car crash, Shigeo used his powers in public, to save the cat. He has, at this point, come to accept that his powers can be used for good, and that they're not just to be used in dire situations. He used them to help the others call a ufo, after all! That's pretty chill! For... you know, having super cool powers that you can do just about anything with.

Although he hasn't begun to use them for his own sake, he saw the danger coming, and was able to save the cat. [And, to a different extent, using his physical powers, saved the kid. But this isn't about the kid or the fact he used both sides of himself to save 2 different entities, haha]

Then he gets hit, and ??? takes the stage. He still rejects his powers as part of his personhood; (a conscious being made from his own repressed self) he can accept them as if they're a certain muscle in the body, or an extra limb, but only now is he able to see that this is a mental thing, not physical.

During the final arc, in large part thanks to Reigen (of course, also thanks to Hanazawa, Ritsu, and Dimple, but the point is Reigen's words are the ones to calm him down) this repressed self is accepted not as part of his body, the way the body is a case for the mind, but as part of himself. A part of his mind. Which he very much had been sealing up and repressing.

Then, in the after-part, Shigeo sees a cat, and assumes it's stuck. He acts, moving forward to climb the pole. He doesn't think anything like "it might be easier with psychic powers, but I should use the body I've been working on" or "I would rather use my physical body than my powers to save this cat" he simply moves. Not a single complicated thought goes through his mind. He acts. His powers are part of him; his body, his person, his ESP - all of it is him, and he simply did the most natural thing that came to mind. He climbed the pole using muscles he'd worked on, but not as opposed to his powers - just because it was the first response he came up with. [And as a muscle obsessed boy, it's unsurprising haha!]

But he does not save the cat.

Because the cat, regardless of him and his story, is just that. It's a cat. It's got nothing to do with him; it's neutral. It's an entity with its own path, it doesn't need him in order to survive. It's not on him to save or to protect it, not on him to do anything at all about it. It's on him just to want to act, to want to care. He's changed from a boy who was afraid to act at all, to one who acts without reservation.

And saving the cat was never his goal in the first place.

Tldr:

Mogami presented a cat that he needed to save, but that he was unable to save.

The car-crash presented a cat that needed saving, and that he was able to save.

And the finale presented a cat that, at the end of the day, has nothing to do with what he must do to live life to the fullest. He's just a teenage boy who has a girl he likes, and who goes to school like everyone else. His powers are just a part of him, nothing he has to pay the universe back for. There's no big magical destiny, no cats to save.

He can finally simply exist.

...

For now!! Dun dun dun...

I'm kidding.

Or am I?!

#haha thanks for reading I hope you liked the twist ending! #anyway it's 2am again so it's definitely poorly written and I'll be editing it tomorrow for sure #why do I always disappear for days and then come back with Stuff To Say ugh why can't I just partayyy #anyway I'm signing up to Hanazawa's boyband's fanclub did you see his hair he's popping OFF #excellent I loved the finale #reigen I'd die for you any day bro any day ur a real one #mp100 #mp100 spoilers #mob psycho 100 #mp100 analysis #lulu on the mic #shigeo #mob #kageyama shigeo #shigeo kageyama #usually I at least save these posts to drafts if I'm writing them at 2am and then rework them before posting but uh #I'm glancing at the tsubomi post I've been writing and re-editing because it ended up being So Much lmao #my drafts are full of absolutely too many essays I'm writing and rewriting and short essays and jokes and stupid dumb stuff #anyway if you're reading these tags know that I'm very boring and love to overanalyze dumb crap #this? this is 100% me looking way too deeply at the secret hidden unlockable meanings #but am I still gonna post it? uh yeah #cuz otherwise it goes to draft purgatory with the others #draft... superhell...

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

"he loves him" ok true real

"he peels fruits and hand feeds him. he even twists his hand, causing himself discomfort to not cause his lazy ass any "

IM GOING CRAZY IM GOING CRAZY IM GOING CRAZY IM GOING CRAZY

feeding someone with his own hands??? no matter the inconvenience?? HE LOVES HIM

I GET IT NOW

I UNDERSTAND

HE LOVES HIM

#i rubbed my last 2 braincells to think #if i were nmj and i wanted to show nhs i loved him id want the following: #id want to find fruits i know nhs likes. fresh. not precut or prepeeled. *I* will do that because its MY love to show #then id want to sit and watch him relax. be lazy. do whatever. i want to see you smile and i want to be there so i can smile with you #take comfort in me. id want him to lean on me and sleep or something. you may be a lazy sack of shit but im here. #ill do my best to make sure you can afford to be useless. not that i approve. but you should be allowed to be by the world. not by me. #actually fuck that thats too complicated. i love you. i offer my body. lean on me. now. #and then. id peel that fruit that he likes that i brought fresh and then cut it to nice small pieces and feed him #without making him move or adjust. actually spoiling this lazy boy. #and if im very daring. run a hand through his hair. relax right now. and i want to cause that. #and then because i love you. tomorrow you will do training and i will watch the entire time. #i can sacrifice my time to make sure youll live a good life without me. its because i love you. #and may you carry that love in the person you grow into #its 4am and avo is on some bullshit again #i have work to do rn i shouldnt even be here

[yourcalamity]

im about to have such a potent opportunity to disappear into the woods forever it itches

#i wonder how long it would take anyone to figure it out lol #youre welcome future coldcase vloggers #but for the record if i do mysteriously vanish no its not because of my job #must be said because thats the easiest explanation people come up with yeah it would be convenient right #if i could just get a new job and suddenly everything in my life will be fixed and all of the other blatant issues clearly coming from other #sources will cease to exist #also therapy and meds will do the same thing. i might as well walk up to a stranger and ask them to snap their fingers and cure me #just as long as the hand i turn to for help points in another direction technically im being ‘helped’ right #life is just a fight and you have to keep fighting for yourself and others and hope one day someone is going to fight for you #and when people dont fight for you when you need them to it becomes clear that you dont even need to fight. it would be easier to lose #you already upset them by not fighting for yourself and instead of fighting for you now theyre fighting againt you. do you really want to #fight harder. do you really want to fight people you love. no one wants that #ive been so emotionally destroyed these past years and idk if i will ever recover or find worth in myself again #and if i got a new job tomorrow at the most comfortable high paying company in the world with a one day work week and unlimited pto #i would still feel worthless because of the experiences ive had and the way everyobe has brushed over them as if i cant feel emotion #i have been carrying so much hurt #now im going home to say goodbye to the remains of a stranger who wouldve disowned me had we ever spoken on even ground #but sure i will enjoy my trip