#The kids like to tag their vent posts as negative so

[voskhozhdeniye]

I hadn’t read that Bill Zeller suicide note since I posted it on here two years ago. Rereading it last night reminded me why I felt it belonged on here in the first place. While some of the things he mentions in it are somewhat different from my life, I could almost write that verbatim. I’m alright for the moment if you’re wondering, and I’m not what this post is about in the end.

When he talks about how friendships and relationships did nothing to bring him relief, he confirms something I’ve pretty much known for a while now, but have been trying to hide from myself. I wrote, but never posted a post the other day that said something along the lines of, “the more I attempt to interact with people, the more social energy I have to exert. I’m exerting all of this energy, and getting nothing in return.”

I could go on with this, but I have something specific to talk about, which is connected to that last thought. Because of the nature of the site the note is posted on, there’s a comment section underneath the note. I don’t know if I ventured into it last time, but I did last night.

Watching people try to argue with a dead man about what he should have done different was both amusing and deeply unsettling. He spends the entire note talking about being sexually abused for years as a child, and how that experience has infiltrated every aspect of his life. How his parent’s warped religion, and the betrayal of his trust by them and others destroyed his desire to continue living.

One person retorts with the if only he had the right religion in his life excuse. Another wonders why he refused to go to the police, or reveal who abused him. There are others that chimed in with their thoughts, but all of them do exactly what he talks about over and over throughout the note. Instead of listening to what he has to say and acknowledging the insurmountable damage that’s been done to him, they run to prove him wrong. Even after he’s dead and gone, they still refuse to even attempt to understand. “If only he had approached it from this angle, or another.” I was reading something else yesterday that made me think, a lot of people seem to think life is like modular patch cables. If something goes wrong just unpatch and restart. I don’t know what’s going on in their lives, but I wish it was that easy.

A year or two ago I saw a post on here that said you can’t therapy yourself out of a sexist, racist, homophobic, transphobic, ableist, classist and xenophobic society. I’m thinking about this post I made. I’m also thinking about that Palestinian therapist who said Palestinians do not suffer from PTSD, because in order to suffer from that you have to be removed for the situation that caused the trauma. She said Palestinians continue to be traumatized everyday, so they aren’t suffering from PTSD. They are still actively being traumatized, so they can’t even move onto the PTSD phase of whatever recovery is possible.

I read that note, and I saw someone articulating feelings that I never get to see talked about in an open and honest way. He said it took him a year to complete his suicide note. A year to write about how childhood abuse had dismantled any ability to pick the pieces of his life up and attempt to piece together something. And instead of sitting down, reading what he wrote, and actually reflecting on what he said and his decision. People are trying to talk a dead man off a ledge.

This reminds me of why the it gets better campaign pissed me off so much when that was happening. You had all of these people telling kids that life gets better. When there is no guarantee that’s a realistic outcome. People are more worried about preventing suicide by spreading good vibes, than actually sitting down trying to understand what leads a person to come to that conclusion. I think that’s a larger problem in our society. People on here love to tell people to go to therapy for their problems, but completely ignore that sometimes being a friend, financial stability, health insurance, a mobility aid, access to HRT and other things are suicide prevention tactics.

My father went to the funeral of the father of my abuser last year. He saw the abuser there, and asked if I remembered him. His father was a high ranking member of the church. Around that time I learned the son of another high ranking member molested my sister. My sister is seventeen years older than me, so this was years ago. Unlike me, she told my parents. They didn’t believe her, until years later when he got a girl pregnant. I never really had a chance.

That Hereditary post from last night sums it up. Pawns in this horrible, hopeless machine, which is probably bleeding to death.

This part of Bill’s note really struck me,

I used to think if I solved some problem or achieved some goal, maybe he would leave. It was comforting to identify tangible issues as the source of my problems instead of something that I’ll never be able to change. I thought that if I got into to a good college, or a good grad school, or lost weight, or went to the gym nearly every day for a year, or created programs that millions of people used, or spent a summer or California or New York or published papers that I was proud of, then maybe I would feel some peace and not be constantly haunted and unhappy. But nothing I did made a dent in how depressed I was on a daily basis and nothing was in any way fulfilling. I’m not sure why I ever thought that would change anything.

I didn’t realize how deep a hold he had on me and my life until my first relationship. I stupidly assumed that no matter how the darkness affected me personally, my romantic relationships would somehow be separated and protected. Growing up I viewed my future relationships as a possible escape from this thing that haunts me every day, but I began to realize how entangled it was with every aspect of my life and how it is never going to release me. Instead of being an escape, relationships and romantic contact with other people only intensified everything about him that I couldn’t stand. I will never be able to have a relationship in which he is not the focus, affecting every aspect of my romantic interactions.

Relationships always started out fine and I’d be able to ignore him for a few weeks. But as we got closer emotionally the darkness would return and every night it’d be me, her and the darkness in a black and gruesome threesome. He would surround me and penetrate me and the more we did the more intense it became. It made me hate being touched, because as long as we were separated I could view her like an outsider viewing something good and kind and untainted. Once we touched, the darkness would envelope her too and take her over and the evil inside me would surround her. I always felt like I was infecting anyone I was with.

I don’t think Bill was evil but when you’re abused, and the coping tactics you use to survive in this world make you seem corrosive to people. While your abuser is popular with folks. It’s kinda easy to see where that mode of thinking would come from.

#The kids like to tag their vent posts as negative so #Negative

[seventh-district]

not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc. #so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously) #but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate. #and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic! #if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it. #like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is- #writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl- #will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of- #'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

[crrow-z]

uh .. throws these into the void of tumblr

[vent warning in the tags; just me being upset. Sorry about that.]

#had a few bad days cause I just started going back to school and it stresses me out trying to get back into the schedule of school #so art will be slow #also haven't really thought my art recently is good enough to post #and I have too many wip I probably won't even finish #just very stressed in general #and anxious #I'll still like and reblog things #just yknow #sorry for the vent in the tags #I have a lot of negative feelings and I don't tell my friends cause I don't want to be complaining every day #I know they'd want me to tell them but I feel bad #i'll be okay #monkie kid

[tsukana]

this is a vent post, from the pov of someone who does not main BBH and views his actions as an outsider who mains others on the island. this is tagged for neg and crit. i am NOT inviting bbh mains for their opinions on my post. thanks.

in my personal opinion. i am so incredibly done with whatever bbh's current lore 'arc' is rn that has him somehow canonizing in his opinion being on both purgatory and the island. to my knowledge, he's somehow split himself into two separate entities that have knowledge of the going ons?? and this isnt just limited to him as bagi, tubbo, and etoiles are all also doing it as well, but in my view he is the most culpable for actually causing 'canon' impacts on those still on the island NOT in purg2 despite that they were kidnapped.

i /extremely/ disagree with whatever justification he had on telling richarlyson and pomme yesterday they were at purgatory, while seemingly lighthearted going back and forth between quesadilla island and purgatory like its no issue. the implications of it?? does he realise that by doing this he's making it seem like its not a big deal to get back to the island and that those left behind like cellbit and baghera are voluntarily doing so and abandoning their kid and making an active choice?? when just today he came back during an intermission for 1v1s during the purgatory event and IMMEDIATELY started talking about purgatory and said to sunny "i saw your dad today!" as if sunny and tubbo didnt have an entire sad goodbye scene (which they did justify as canon, no matter my own opinion on that matter which i wont get into). but like. i understand that the admins have said that the players can choose whether or not purgatory 2 is canon to their lore or not. and more eloquent people than i have explained reasonings that i agree with on why i don't think that's a good idea for keeping a cohesive main plot between everyone- but. i think if theyre going to be in purgatory and make purgatory /canon to their lore/ that should have consequences and effects and like if they were able to that easily go back and forth from purgatory which has been CONFIRMED THE SAME ISLAND AS THE FIRST ONE, why was the first purgatory even a big deal at all. it completely retcons the importance of it to everyones lore as a side effect.

i think if the purg2 players decide that purg2 isnt canon for them and come back to the island to hang out and chill, good for them and i hope their lore conforms with that! but if youve decided that purg2 is CANON to their lore that should have an appropriate impact, and by implying its so such a simple thing to go to and from purgatory, it's completely minimizing the actual effect it would have on his own lore and the lore of others that have chosen to canonize. i dont begrudge them for logging back onto the main server to hang with friends, but does that make sense that your character would have full knowledge of whats happened in whats supposed to be an emotionally draining isolated island???

that last paragraph was supposed to be a tldr but i kept going. real tldr; if players decide purg2 isnt canon to them power to them. if it IS canon, then anything from the island should NOT be brought up in an rp conversation on the main island later on until purg2 is over??

#tsu talks #tsu rants #bbh neg #qsmp crit #qsmp discourse #bbh crit #im just. so fucking tired and frustrated. #qsmp

[peachsayshi]

Hiya Peach! Hope you’re living your best life!!!

Not sure if you’re still taking drabble requests for dad!gojo, but if so I wanted to see what your take on “Gojo finding out his s/o is pregnant” would be? I go back and forth on my imagining of his reaction to the situation-positives and negatives-and I’d love your take! You always write him so well 🤩 and I love using your fics for my own character hcs 😆

Also thank you for posting the Gojo drabble tonight-I screamed when I opened my app and saw it!! Your writing is so fantastic and I’m so excited whenever I see updates to your series or a new drabble on your blog. Keep it up! Honestly live for your JJK scenarios!!!! ✨

Thank you!! 💕

Dad Gojo x Female Reader (prompt: finding out you’re pregnant) 

- minors & ageless blogs dni - 

A/N: First off, I’m swooning over your comments right now! 🥺 I always feel like my Gojo can be slightly ooc because I write him soft and sweet, but honestly to me he’s such a good guy that I can’t help it! 🥺 I’m so sorry it’s taken me so long to get through these requests, I have so many of them half done/almost complete (including this) but I’ve been behind on actually cleaning and editing them for post! I hope you still enjoy this drabble, and I’m so happy that you enjoyed the previous drabble posted! 💕💕  You guys really help keep me motivated, especially on days when I just don't want to write period. So, I’m going to take the time to say THANK YOU. *please accept this 🍑 as a token of my affection. 

TAGS: pregnancy, discussing kids, alludes to abortion, angsty, fluffy, slight mention of smut

Satoru sat with his back pressed against the bathroom door. He tapped his fingers along the floor, his heart racing as he nervously tucked his bottom lip between his teeth.

“...ok, it’s done…” he heard you speak from behind the frame.

“Can I come in?” your boyfriend asked a little too eagerly while still trying to maintain his calm demeanor despite feeling like he was about to combust.

“Five minutes,” you sternly replied. “We…I…have to wait.”

Satoru sighed, a tightness pulling across his chest from your particular choice of pronouns.

Did you really think that he would abandon you at such a crucial moment?

He rubbed his hands over his strained face, recalling the night you both had sex without any protection. Your boyfriend was sloppy too, completely losing himself to the intimacy of the moment being inside you that he didn’t pull out fast enough.

How could he when he was staring deep into your lust-blown eyes filled with nothing but love for him, when he could feel the tips of your swollen breasts brush over his chest as your bodies molded into one, and how you sang the most sensual notes as you clenched around him? 

Your apprehensive behavior is completely valid - he knew that. 

Despite being in a committed relationship together, you knew that you could never have a traditional future with the head of the Gojo family. You accepted him even after he told you that he can’t marry you, but the possibility of children…that was something neither of you ever took into consideration.

Not yet, at least.

“I’m right here,” he replied upon clearing his throat, “I’m not going anywhere.”

Seconds passed, the deafening silence only making the sorcerer grow even more nervous as he shifted uncomfortably in his place.

“I-I don’t know how to change a diaper.”

He perked up, “I…don’t either.”

“I forget to feed myself when I’m too busy…” you vented, “How…How am I expected to take care of anyone else?”

“You take care of me,” he kindly reassured, “Just like how I take care of you.”

“This…this is different. This…is permanent.”

Satoru drew in an unexpected breath, digging his nails into the flooring as his eyes widened in shock.

Why were you speaking like this?

“What makes you think that we are temporary?” he questioned defensively.

“I just…I don’t know if this is what you want. I would never ask for this kind of commitment from you, Satoru. You’ve told me many times that being tied down isn’t easy for you, and I know just how troublesome this will be if anyone were to find out…”

“Troublesome?” he blurted with a surprised laugh.

The quiet found its place between you both once more, and your boyfriend had a sudden urge to rip the door out of the frame to close the distance. Instead he closed his eyes and steadied his breathing, channeling all his rational thought as he used his words to soothe you instead.

“I don’t see anything troublesome about a little baby that looks like you, angel,” he exhaled before resting his head against the door. “Pretty eyes, round cheeks, bonus points if it's a girl too…”

You sniffled, “not a boy?”

“And release another menace to society?” he half joked. “Although, I’m sure that my daughter would be chaotic in her own right…”

That earned him a small laugh on your part which he found relieving.

“How would this even work? We aren’t married.”

“Doesn’t change the fact that this baby will be ours.”

“But there’s so much to figure out and this is so…we didn’t plan for this, we haven’t even talked about this…”

“We’ll figure it out together.”

“But…” you kept insisting, trying to find the wild card in your relationship that’ll prove your worst fears crossing your mind. “What if you’re saying this now but you change your mind later on?  I-I don’t want you to feel trapped. I don’t want to force this obligation on you. I’m not asking you to take care of me, or…or this child…we would only burden you with more responsibilities…”

“You seem so concerned about me, what about you?” he interrupted.  “Do you want to have this baby?”

You chose to be silent.

For whatever reason you weren’t sharing what was on your mind, and it was driving your boyfriend nuts.

“Look,” he said, “We both were careless. If you’re not ready for this, then we’ll do what needs to be done. I’ll be there for you, and I won’t stand in the way of your decision. You matter in this too, but if you’re truly only concerned about my feelings…well, I think it’s cute how you’re getting all worked up...

He tapped his index finger against his chin while thinking over his words. 

“Honestly, with everything I deal with, this is actually an easy problem for me to fix. I can leave you to raise the child on your own. God knows that might actually be the ideal option. I can just...support you financially, if necessary…”  he breathed out a chuckle as he stared into the middle distance. “…it’s a good thing I’m loaded, right?”

“I guess…” you nervously replied.

“My life has always been burdensome, you see. Everything requires me to think twice, and I can see why you’re so worried about how this would reflect on me but really you are the one dealing with the ramifications of my problems…”

Satoru smiled to himself, “I’m sorry you had to settle for a man who can’t devote himself to you wholeheartedly but my love for you…has and always will be, the best decision I’ve ever made.”

He stood up, unable to keep himself grounded as leaned against the frame of the door instead.

“Let’s…let’s think about another scenario instead, hmm?” he proposed, “Maybe you move in with me, and we turn one of the rooms into a nursery. I’m sure you’ll have a great time redecorating. I’ll offer to pay and get it done, but I know you’ll want to paint the walls yourself and assemble all the furniture while forcing me to partake in such unnecessary labor…but I think we can build a home together...”

“I’ll be here as much as I can, and you know that there are a few good people who I trust who can look out for you on the days when I can’t. We’ll go to every doctor’s appointment, and I’m not ashamed to ask questions even if they sound stupid…” he carried on, “and it’s not like I’m completely clueless, right? I practically raised Megumi myself…so, technically we have a free babysitter considering I kept him alive all these years…”

He could hear a muffled giggle coming from behind the door, and knew you were listening intently to his words.

“…so yeah, maybe this…this situation is an opportunity for trouble. You’re not just having a child, after all, but my heir. These are things I should be taking into account but…for the first time in my life, I don’t see the implications of my decision. I just…I just see myself coming home to the love of my life and our adorable little menace. Sounds like quite a lovely picture to me...”

The door swung open, and Satoru finally relaxed his shoulders. Your eyes were brimming with tears and you immediately cupped his face in your palms before pulling his lips down to meet yours. His hands met your waist, and he hauled you closer into his body as your fingers tangled through the soft peaks of his snowy hair.

“You’re going to be an amazing dad,” you murmured against his lips, and he smiled into yours.

His slender fingers moved to spread across your belly, “really?”  

You nodded your head in confirmation before stealing a second kiss, then a third and by the fourth one you felt a dampness on your lover’s cheeks as you gently caressed over them with your thumbs.

“Satoru?” you questioned in surprise, but your boyfriend merely brushed his nose over yours as a heart melting grin tugged the corners of his mouth.

“I’m so happy, angel,” he reassured. “I’m so fucking happy.”

#scheduled post.🍑 #gojo x reader #satoru gojo x reader #satoru gojo fluff #gojo fluff #gojo x you #satoru gojo x you #satoru gojo x female reader #gojo x female reader #jujutsu kaisen fan fiction #jjk fan fics #jujutsu kaisen x reader

[babbybones]

seeing a post like "you need to let some spaces exist untouched by real-world issues and venting etc" had me thinking "hmm, I can certainly think of examples where cultivating an atmosphere like that is ideal, like the 'kid-friendly but inclusive' direction taken by game communities like neopets/toontown or a short-term, fast-moving space like a stream chat where you want to stay on topic and respect the vibe"

but I look at OP's blog and they're singling out anyone making additions to their post along the lines of "yeah, while critical discussions relevant to the fandom can be valuable, fandom spaces don't always need to host off-topic heavy discussions" by basically calling them idiots missing the point and that they were specifically advocating for spaces with no criticism or negativity or politics whatsoever. and also a bunch of these posts were tagged with #proship #proshipping (???)

i think what's stopping more spaces like that from existing is that it would suck ass and quickly implode. if you try to grow a community where disagreements and being Real with people are discouraged, people will be excluded implicitly or otherwise feel unwelcome. maybe you're fine with that, and you just want to hang out with your inner circle, but it feels dishonest to try to sell it as a Mental Health Safe Haven Untouched By Real-World Issues. your own personal biases and stances on those real-world issues will affect your judgment calls re: what's considered Too Negative or Political for your community. this seems like it would be a nightmare to moderate and would end with a lot of people burned (and so I'm thankful that, as an example, neopets no longer considers LGBT identities too adult/political/divisive)

also the tags they repeatedly use imply that their ideal space could also welcome discussion of certain things that are inherently heavy, triggering real-world issues, yet any critical discussion or negativity would be unwelcome. this seems contradictory and maybe not healthy?

#babbybone to pick #text post #lost steam idk where i was going with this anymore

[hardestgrove]

@officialsteveharrington​‘s tags on that post about billy being el’s hero talking about how el heard all the things max said to lure vecna reminded me of something i thought as i was watching it.

one of El’s thematic questions is “am i a monster?” they barely ever touch it but it’s there from season 1. El pretty clearly sympathizes with Billy in season 3 and season 4. She saw the abuse he went through as a child, understood how horrifying it must have been for him to be controlled by the MF and reached out to him in a way only two abused kids who’d seen the insides of his head could understand. then in season 4 she tries to have that same moment of human connection and understanding with Henry because she mistakenly thinks that he is like her and billy, turned into a monster by abusers, not realizing he is an abuser and always has been.

El to some extent sees herself in Billy or has some emotional connection to him because of seeing his life, having that moment where she touches him and then his sacrifice to save her. Billy is as much her hero as Hopper is. She would very literally not be alive if Billy had not died to save her and El is a good person with a loving heart. Of course that’s not lost on her and of course it matters to her. Billy was controlled by a monster who she now knows is the same monster who haunted her own childhood. it’s another connection. it’s another thing that makes her see herself in Billy. they both have the narrative question “am i a monster?” attached to them. To her Billy is not a monster, he is a hero which adds into the pile of things she can use to help her assuage the fear that she is a monster. if she is like Billy and Billy is a Hero and Not A Monster then she must be Not A Monster too, because she is Like Billy.

But then Max is here venting the ugliest parts of herself. which doesn’t mean they’re her final verdict on the matter. They’re just the negative thoughts of a child in pain living in an abusive household. Her grave letter and her obvious guilt and depression after his death lend to her being guilty for those thoughts because they’re not what she actually wanted.

But Eleven isn’t that savvy about feelings n shit you know? She’s been basically raised in a box with minimal contact. She doesn’t understand the concepts of venting and intrusive thoughts and all that shit. So to her, this moment can easily be seen as Max, one of her best friends, saying that she wanted Billy to die because she saw Billy as a Monster. That he deserved his fate. So what does that mean she thinks of El? If El is Like Billy and Billy Is A Monster then doesn’t that mean that El is a Monster and not a Hero? Is that what Max things of her? We can SEE how affected El is by what Max is saying.

To me this expression reads as someone who’s world just shattered around them.

in a better show this would be compelling as SHIT and INCREDIBLE fodder for all kinds of narrative options but lol we’re not in a better show [laughs and pours a comically large amount of vodka into my drink]

#billy hargrove #max mayfield #jane hopper #meta #GOD AND THIS IS LONGER THAN I WANTED TOO #i need to learn how to shut the fuck up #i even when back in to get a cap i'm doing Too Much today lol

[redheadbigshoes]

i'm a bit distressed because i just went through the lesbian positivity tag and had to block a bunch of 'lesbian' men/lesboys and 'bi lesbians' and yesterday i was talking to my therapist, and i think maybe she misunderstood me or i wasn't explaining things properly over the phone, but she said because i said lesbianism has nothing to do with men that its a sign of my hate for men (i don't think i hate men now, i have some trauma and trust issues with them and in the past i probably did but i don't think i hate them now) and that me identifying as a nonbinary lesbian is a sign of identity disturbance even when i tried to explain that someone can be woman-aligned without being a woman.. she kind of accepted it after i explained how i came to that realisation but it was a very personal spiritual experience and i don't like telling people about it in detail.

and today seeing those posts saying that men/men-aligned ppl can be lesbians and lesbians can like men and because some lesbians are into some nb people that they can be into men as well and saying otherwise makes you a terf and an exclusionist over something that has nothing to do with you because it's someone else's identity..

i feel really conflicted and guilty and upset i can't even pinpoint why and i'm not sure what to believe anymore because it's upsetting to think i might be a really bad person

i'm sorry this was so long i just didn't know who to talk to - 🐸

Your therapist is a living proof of how people automatically understand saying something like “lesbianism has nothing to do with men” that we hate them. They don’t assume gays hate women when they say “I don’t like women”, but if it’s a lesbian saying “I don’t like men” they assume that, even though we mean we are not attracted to them.

People til this day still cannot understand the concept of someone who’s not a man not being attracted to men.

These people including men in lesbianism by either thinking someone attracted to men can be a lesbian or a man or male-aligned person can identify as a lesbian are indirectly siding with conservatives.They’re openly being extremely hypocritical and don’t even notice that because they just want to act like kids and ignore words meanings.

I try avoiding looking at lesbian tags because of that and fetishization, the stress you get is not worth it.

You don’t have to be sorry. I’m here for venting too, whether it’s about something positive or negative.

#stephanie answers #🐸 anon #long post

[gyaruogutz]

👀 i'd be curious... (about your last post)

You’re in luck , I love talking about myself when asked ~

Information is under the cut , mostly for my personal preference ! CW for , well , transharmful things !! I don’t really go into detail until the very end , but still . I’m trigger-tagging this as a vent just in case.

It will probably be a lot lmao !! Be careful what you wish for Anon !!

A lot of my harmful thoughts come from rage . And that sounds very stereotypical , right ? Like “ oh, of course the transharmful person has homocidal thoughts , that’s a given . “ You’re right of course ! But it’s not just homocidal thoughts I get .

I get paraphiliac thoughts and urges as well when I’m in a heightened state of emotion , whether it be a positive OR negative feeling that I’m experiencing . & I’ve gotten homocidal thoughts from excitement or joy before . With heightened emotions these days comes heightened impulse .

I’m very good in retrospect with controlling these impulses , for the saftey of me and those around me . I’ve done nothing that warrants suspicion from those who trust me IRL , and nothing to tip off any mental health professionals , much less anything authorities would be concerned about.

I experience these thoughts near-constantly . I’m either wishing to be violent , aggressive & homocidal , or I’m fantasizing , usually sexually , ( but not always , to be fair ) about one of my paraphilias . When I’m not in these states of mind I’m almost purposefully distracting myself with special interests or hyperfixations . And mind you this is while I’m ON my medications , haha !! Though I doubt I’d be at risk of offending for either side when I’m not , my medication moreso keeps anxious paranoia and depression away .

These thoughts at this consistently don’t just come out of nowhere . To start off with , I’m also cis-traumatized , and had a C-PTSD diagnosis at the chrono age of 14 ( though apparently it’s not a diagnosis anymore ? correct me if I’m wrong ). My specialized therapist and I have determined I have genuine plurality that is either mostly or completely traumagenic , most likely P-DID or DID . I also have reason to be weary of having suffered R4MC04 ( censoring in case of antis jumping my post ) abuse as a child , due to knowledge of some of my alters I have experience with , and how I react subconsciously to certain things .

However , I have also most likely gained these thoughts from doing harmful things in my adolescence , usually impulsively and on purpose.

Disclaimer , chrono-minors ; I cannot and will not recommend you do ANY of these things listed . I’m not your parent and I can’t stop you , I understand that , but I feel obligated to put this warning here . Additionally I’m not providing details on how I did these things myself , and I will not do so if asked .

For one , as a young teen I would purposefully seek out sexual contact with much older men for my own sexual and emotional amusement . This is where I developed a lot of my sexual tastes from , honestly . I never felt bad for doing these things , only shame for getting caught by then-friends who were appalled.

I would also frequently ( with their consent ) use friends in my group for that same gratification . I lost my virginity to a friend I met in my first year of public middle school , years later in our friendship , for example .

I was also ( and still am , honestly ), a stalker of those who gave me enough attention to be interested , whether online or in person . I was also obsessive , checking messages and getting intense emotions when I saw my various objects of affection over the years do something I didn’t approve of .

There were also some things in younger childhood ,

— I ( unintentionally ) scared the absolute shit out of most boys in the two grades below be because I was notorious for harassing them for my amusement as a kid . ( my autistic ass simply thought that’s how people played at the time , but I thought it was also REALLY funny )

— for some odd reason , in my small impoverished Catholic elementary school , my year consistently had the most traumatized kids out of all of them . I was faced with sexual assault stories , parental death stories , physical abuse stories and more by my close friends all before I was ten, and besides the parental death ( which was a singular case ), all of that was normalized and unfortunately almost romanticized by the girls in my grade .

I specifically remember a friend of mine getting assaulted by a college boy when we were in third grade , and recall three girls asking her excitedly about the experience . ( STATING THIS IS NOT TO ROMANTICIZE IT, this is a genuine example of how serious violence was romanticized in my childhood. )

— I can name at least one teacher I know in middle school that clearly had eyes for me sexually . Nothing ever happened with him in my active memory , but I knew , and I think he knew I knew , and I definitely used it to my advantage . There was also one in high school , who , again nothing in my active memory happened with him , but I definitely knew and again used it to play him like a fiddle .

Until I was TOLD that these things were wrong , I wasn’t aware . I saw it as normal , fun , and exciting .

So those are most of my thoughts on the subject . Not sure if I’m cis-harmful or trans-harmful really .

#tw vent #tw sa mention #paraphile safe #pro para #paraphiles please interact #pro transx #transid #transharmful #rq safe

[bear-momma]

Dunno why but feel really uncomfy and sad, and dunno what to do, have so much big kid stuff need t do but just don't feel like I can, don't have drive or motivation to do anything, kinda wanna be small but can't tell if I am or not, and my mama said they wanted space and stuff so dunno if they wanna be my mama anymore, and I don't wanna bother my bubba cuz feels like I only talk to them when I'm sad and that's bad, but I just feel alone and like i need to talk to someone, and I keep venting on my account and that's bad, and i keep feeling this weird heat burning thing in my arms whenever I do and I dunno what it is an Ms. Bear help

This all sounds very overwhelming, I'm so sorry :(

The good news is, we dont have to take care of all of this all at once, we can take baby steps to figure it out. Big kid stuff can be overwhelming when there's a lot of it, can you make a list of the things that need to be done? From there you can separate it into "needs done soon" and "long term" items. That way it easy to focus on one item at a time. Take a few deep breaths, and don't try to tackle it all at once 💛

Sometimes the people close to us need breaks, and even though we know it's okay, it can still hurt. You're not a bad person for wanting someone to talk to. If you're worried about your bubby, you could reach out during happy times, too. Or you could send them a message out of the blue and ask how they're doing, give them a chance to vent if they need to. That way the relationship doesn't feel so one-sided. As for venting on your blog, it's YOUR blog, and you are allowed to post whatever you want 💛 if you're worried that your followers are tired of seeing it, you could always use a tag like "vent" and they can filter it out in their settings. But overall, you're allowed to express your feelings somewhere safe, and your blog should be that safe place.

Journaling/venting on a blog is a very healthy way to deal with negative emotions, you shouldn't feel ashamed for doing so. You are doing a great job and I am so proud of you!

#bear answers #long post

[crossovereddie]

So three weeks until s6 and I just have to say something real quick because I’ve seen multiple posts and reblogs about it and I’m giving y’all a warning/plenty of time to unfollow

If something happens during season six that I don’t like I WILL be complaining about it and sharing my thoughts. I don’t forcefully make y’all read my thoughts. I don’t even use the main tags.

I’m not gonna pretend to like everything or stay silent when I don’t just to make your viewing experience better. Maybe I want to vent some where???? Maybe complaining is actually fun for me???

I have a very heavy full time job where I have to stay positive all day. I go home and stay positive for my kid. If I wanna be negative about something I don’t like then my blog is the perfect place for me because it IS for ME.

So yeah no hard feelings if you unfollow me. I don’t care tbh. What will piss me off is if you decide to stay then fill my inbox with your bitchy anon asks if I post something you don’t like.

#and I’m not vague posting anyone that’s why I’ve waited until it’s not a topic of conversation on the dash #but ever since the blimp there’s been so many posts shaming people for not being excited and I’m kinda sick of it tbh #so this is just an fyi for y’all

[galacticjester]

I posted 2,413 times in 2022

117 posts created (5%)

2,296 posts reblogged (95%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@edgeanescence

@s-nnoh

@wavedashdotppt

@than487

@dino--draws

I tagged 734 of my posts in 2022

#pla spoilers - 32 posts

#pokemon legends arceus spoilers - 31 posts

#legends arceus spoilers - 30 posts

#toh spoilers - 14 posts

#hardenshipping - 13 posts

#don’t rb - 11 posts

#yeah - 10 posts

#pokemon trailer spoilers - 8 posts

#vent - 8 posts

#ask game! - 8 posts

Longest Tag: 123 characters

#unless it’s like a legendary or something in which case i try using regular ones and if that doesn’t work i’ll switch it up

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I literally never make posts about this kinda stuff on here, I try to keep my blog free of the issues happening in the world. But even as someone not living in the US I want to make it very clear that if you support the overturning of Roe v Wade I want you to fuck off. Block me. I do not want you here. You disgust me if you think women (and anyone else with a uterus) should have their bodies controlled that way. Abortion is not murder. It’s a human right.

58 notes - Posted June 25, 2022

#4

The funny discord people in my phone seemed to like these so I’m gonna post them here too!

-Pokemon produce different 'auras' depending on their type, and these auras have an effect on the humans around them. If a Pokemon is a dual type then the two auras mix. I came up with ideas for each type but I'm not 100% sure about some of them:

Normal - Comforting and peaceful, puts you in a very neutral state

Fire - A general warmth

Water - Like you’re standing in the rain

Grass - Soft feeling from a pollen-like aura, but can affect hayfever

Electric - Static-like feeling, sometimes it makes your hair stand a little

Ice - Cold, sometimes comfortingly so and sometimes too much

Fighting - Helps to boost your confidence

Poison - Makes you feel more dangerous and vicious

Ground - Amplifies feelings of strength

Flying - The feeling of being somewhere windy, whether strong or light

Psychic - Boosts your brainpower, but also can cause headaches

Bug - Gives the feeling of being extremely light and fast

Rock - Provides a feeling of toughness, as if you can survive anything

Ghost - Has the vibe of being watched, either in a protective or unsettling way

Dark - It helps those around you to feel a sense of dread

Dragon - Makes you feel much more powerful, and sometimes more aggressive

Steel - The feeling of safety and protection, as if nothing negative can hurt you

Fairy - Has a calming tone and helps you to relax

63 notes - Posted April 8, 2022

#3

Okay so what if

91 notes - Posted April 19, 2022

#2

Sometimes I forget that N’s full name is Natural Harmonia Gropius

Don’t let Ghetsis name your kids

96 notes - Posted April 23, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I made like three versions of this the others are just in my photos

245 notes - Posted March 31, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#I have no fucking clue what the context of that longest tag is #that aside tho I love that my top post is a meme #by like 150 notes too #not surprised tbh

[moonlarked]

hey. ok. so. i have a feeling you're a bit new to this site, and i can see that taking in everything all at once is freaking you out. so i'm gonna introduce you to something people do here on tumblr all the time to make their lives better and everyone else's lives better. ok? ok. so. it's these two things:

blocking tags and people that make them uncomfortable

creating tags for when they go on mental health vents + tagging content warnings on said mental health posts, so that people who don't want to see that can block those tags

from what i can see, you don't look like you're doing either of those things right now. these are essential things to do on tumblr in order to curate your experience into something that's enjoyable, not stressful.

so, basically, here's how tagging fandom stuff works on tumblr.

don't tag a piece of media or anything from that media unless you are specifically talking about stuff in it. (ex: incorrect sophie foster quotes you've posted, that i've seen, are correctly tagged. good job!)

if you're talking about the fandom surrounding a source material, tag the fandom, not the source material. and if you're talking about negative stuff, such as fandom discourse (people being toxic, engaging in something that fans fight about in not the most... peaceful way, if you catch my drift, etc) or stuff that warrants trigger warnings (violence, child abuse, etc) tag the post with the appropriate warning tags.

i'll use kotlc as an example. if i were to make a post going in depth about how i think alden vacker is a bad parent, and made claims such as him being neglectful to his kids, here's the gist of how i would probably tag it: '#kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #alden vacker #kotlc discourse #tw mentions of child abuse #tw mentions of child neglect #ask to tag'.

clarifying notes - tw stands for trigger warning. you'll also see people use cw which stands for content warning. most people put tw or cw in front of the thing they're warning people about, but sometimes you'll see people put it after. ex: 'kidnapping tw'. ask to tag is just my way of saying 'hey guys if there's any triggers i missed please hit me up and i'll add them'. if it wasn't obvious already, tw/cw tags are essential because they save people who have those tags blocked from running into stuff that'll cause them mental breakdowns or worse.

the discourse tags are essential for people to curate their experience too. a lot of people don't want to see people being negative about kotlc, because it's their comfort series and seeing people fight stresses them out when tumblr is supposed to be their space to relax. which doesn't mean no one should ever be critical of kotlc (i personally have many critiques on kotlc), it just means that those people need to block discourse tags. blocking tags helps people make their experience here on tumblr more comfortable.

so. please. tag stuff appropriately. i doubt you intentionally left out important tags on a lot of kotlc posts, but it's still important. and when you're on the receiving end of being uncomfortable because you ran into stuff that makes you upset (ie. a kotlc fan or two posting about being anti mcu) just block the 'anti mcu' tag or any other tags that are used often to say 'hey this is mcu hate'. and/or block the person that's reblogging or posting about all of those things frequently. those are both excellent courses of action. what you don't do is make a clearly angry post talking about how you might leave the kotlc fandom just because a few people were hating on another source material you like, and not tag any of the necessary discourse tags on said angry post. it makes people uncomfortable in a way that we can't curate away without blocking you entirely.

(also, side note, feel free to make custom tags for personal stuff, such as mental health vents! ex: if you make a post talking about how you're having a thought spiral about wanting to interact with people in the kotlc fandom because we have mutual interests, and being terrified of kotlc fans because you like mcu, use a custom tag for that and all of your other mental health vents. a custom tag one of my friends uses is 'mental health shit', for example. but do whatever you'd like! and then establish through a post or your bio that that's your mental health tag and to block it if we don't want to see that.)

thank you very much for reading through all of this. i appreciate it. i hope this helps you curate your experience so you and i are both less stressed out :)

I really wish you’d go off anon before asking this, because I do have some question, like what sort of tags I should use on my post that you’re talking about. I used the mcu tag and the mental health tag. Is there a trigger warning tag I should use in this situation? Should I tag it as “kotlc discourse”?

I’m sorry if you interpreted my post as me being angry at someone. I was mostly being angry at myself, but I’ll edit it :P

Thanks for the advice. I do use the “personal” tag about stuff that’s just about me, so I guess there’s that. But I’ll try to do better.

If you’d be willing to talk to me off of anon, I’d really appreciate that.

#personal #asked

[tnyborkz]

✧ GET TO KNOW US ✧

We are the Puppyopolis System!

We use He/Him + They/Them + It/Itself pronouns Collectively!

The body identifies as transgender FtM & Nonbinary.

There’s are currently 2 sysmates that regress and they will be using this account!

We regress to the ages 5mths to 4yrs.

We also pet regress to many animals!

✧ WHY DO WE REGRESS? ✧

Anxiety

Depression

Trauma

Loss of childhood

Autism

This post is very important! So please read this carefully!

✧ ACCOUNT RULES ✧

Don’t comment any hateful things about any community or about anyone | Don’t promote yourself or your account (eg “Follow my account” or “Dm me to be friends) | Don’t mention our triggers unless there’s a warning and we are friends | Don’t keep sending in friend requests when we decline them | Don’t repost photos of us unless I allow you to | Don’t cover our watermark | Claim our work as your own | Post userboxes on your feeds | Use our templates without credit.

✧ DNI ✧

If MIK (Minor in Kink) Pedo ect | If you sexualise or against agere/petre | If you are going to DM us NSFW things or ask for a relationship | If you are homophobic,transphobic,racist or any hateful things like that | If you crosstag agere/petre and kink | If you think age regression and kink are the same | If you are 13 or younger | Going to roleplay with us, unless close friends | If you have a typing quirk and not add translations | Against using photos of kid/baby models

✧ DO + DONT ✧

DONT

Don’t mention our triggers without warnings or you’re not our friend | Don’t say “hi” or “can we be friends” it makes us really uncomfortable | Don’t Spam us | Don’t use all caps in negative way | Don’t ask for Shout out for Shout out. There will be opportunities for that on our story | Don’t baby talk with me unless we have done it to you first (this doesn’t include people who we are close friends with and baby talked to)

DO

Send us sfw memes, drawings, cute animals ect | React to our stories and have a conversation with us about them | Send us concept/post ideas | Ask questions | Vent to us but please mention it’s a vent | Use tone indicators

✧ TRIGGERS ✧

Fresh Self harm Cuts | Suicide | Weight Loss | Weight Gain | Eating Disorder | Murder | Death | Molesting | Rape | Any forms of abuse (Family, Mentally, Emotionally, Sexually, Physically ECT) | Car Accidents | Loud noises | Rapid text like spamming | Extreme Cursing | The name Chris/Christian | The name Lucifer | Yelling | Hate on Autistic people | Bread Dough Cutting

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#petre #agere #boyre #osdd #osdd system #pet regression #age regression #puppy regression #fox regression #kitten regression

[bandofchimeras]

Intro post

So hi! New mutuals and old. Don't know that I've ever done an introduction post. K, 30, he/fae. transexual, genderfluid. Turtle Island, settler. Discerning conversion to Judaism. Autistic/ADHD, PDA, host of diagnoses I do talk about sometimes. Long Covid & chronically ill. Use 'poor' grammar sometimes when easier on brain. Plural collective, not formally named yet bc none of us can agree. Chimera Collective is fine for now. Most of us are artists of different types who have a bitch of a time deciding what to work on. I am the main front who handles 'normal life' and holding down the jobs, and consider myself the big brother of the crew.

I don't tag alters v often bc most posts on here will be me, or stray kid/adolescent alters who get out and vent (usually go private those posts after we regain fronting ability). But others who might come out here:

The Mediator: 'well actually' guy - fronts whenever there's conflict or philosophical disagreement, tends to explain things at great length, lecture and so on. Sygyl: no pronouns, voidgender, omen, speaks in fiery prognostications and has a very dark outlook on the world. Protector, fighter, would actually kill if necessary. Star (usually at night): wild-eyed, kind, compassionate, artistic, beyond binary but fine with she/her pronouns, deeply romantic for all of life, will bite men tho. The Midnight Cleric (visiting writing spirit, host of @themidnightcleric writing space): quiet, wise, nonverbal. Sort of an invisible force carrying emotion & story from one place to another. His main thing is channeling other people's stories. He listens, suggests, and loves music. Anything he writes will be fiction Reggie Synonym (he's new, MC & poet, tends to only come out when we're vibing): a dude whose seen some shit. He's shy for now but we're excited to see what he becomes. The Fly (more a tulpa we created to create distance from certain negative thought loops): very dramatic, into sketch comedy, young cis guy, he's a bit 'invasive', edgelord, has cyncial unmarried uncle energy. Boy Blue (hosts NSFW blog @strawberrybluu): horny fairy prince sweetheart, too gay to function. obsessed with fruit like watermelon, strawberries, peaches, goal is to write erotica comics. Unnamed teen & child alters: they usually post under 'read more' vents or rage post, generally please don't read those posts I try to come back and private them bc everyone gets embarrassed about this coping mechanism.

Some interests we might post about: Liberation & leftist political theory Mental health & psychology, grief, decolonization & healing Gardening/land justice/ecology Monster High, BJD and doll repaints (@oliverandhisdolliesmonstrous is our BJD blog) One Piece, animation (Satoshi Kon esp) Kirby, Zelda, LotR, MLP, tarot, horary astrology, punk/music history, birds, lizards and SNAKES herbs & herbal medicine, sewing, fashion, architecture, design, graffiti/street art, Old interests we sometimes dip into: dance & theatre The Catholic Church, Sherlock (lmao), Steven Universe, ATLA, OFMD

DNI:

"plural people are faking" - fuck outta here "narcissistic abuse recovery" - this is an NPD & personality disorder neutrality zone. Transphobic/TERFs Zionists/genocide deniers Jerks & people who wanna pick fights

I love asks & DMs but can't support mutual aid asks as I already get a lot on other socials that are easier to verify. But I will reblog mutuals MA & international fundraisers (for Gazans, Sudanese refugees, etc). Any other questions just ask, and welcome to the chaos! I love new friends but DMing consistently is not easy for us. okay ttys!

gone fishin is my (K's) personal tag.

#introduction #longpost #hi! #gone fishin

[wilbursootirl]

taglist

my posts: #william laments

about our system: #look at the sky i'm still here / i'll be alive next year

about me: #who lives‚ who dies‚ who tells your story

vent: #i lost the passion that comes with living

music spam: #lyricposting

interactions: #adoring fans

asks: #donos

videos: #videoshare

audio: #audioshare

images: #photo gallery

music: #vinyls

movies: #dvds

art: #art gallery

poetry: #journal

fics/writing: #bookshelf

source fanart: #scrapbook

source: #defying the script

source neg: #but if i gave up on being pretty‚ i wouldn't know how to be alive / i should move to a brand new city / and teach myself how to die

source tags under the cut

sbi: #soldier‚ poet‚ king

tommy/crimeboys: #and it was not your fault but mine / and it was your heart on the line / i really fucked it up this time / didn't i‚ my dear?

techno/twinsduo: #though we don't share the same blood / you're my brother and i love you‚ that's the truth

phil/sandduo: #i'm the child you just didn't have time to conceive

phil crit/neg memories: #i hate you for what you did‚ and i miss you like a little kid

kristen/mumza: #i wanna help mother up an orchard / from a seed up through sapling / mother phoenix‚ rise

fundy/funboys?: #i used to hear a simple song / that was until you came along / now in it's place is something new / i hear it when i look at you

tubbo: #you got the same eyes as your father / and you carry the same kind of temper‚ too

ranboo: #you understand mechanical hands / are the ruler of everything

niki: #in the back of my mind / you died / and i didn't even cry / no‚ not a single tear

jack manifold: #why you? why did you get to come back?

eret: #what for d'you yearn? / watch that butcher burn

sally: #you're pouting in your sleep / i'm waking still yawning / we're proving to each other / that romance is boring

quackity: #how's it feel? how's it feel to be so loved? how's it feel to be so loved‚ yet so alone?

schlatt: #and we can argue semantics over who left who first / but one thing's for sure‚ i needed you most

dream: #thus always to tyrants

l'manbur: #icarus is flying too close to the sun / and icarus' life has only just begun

vilbur/pogbur: #'cause i went downhill at such steep incline / that my rear view mirror showed only the sky

ghostbur: #what's the softest way to say / you took away my friend‚ my buddy?

revived/utah arc: #she said‚ one day to leave her / sand up to her shoulders‚ waiting for the tide / to drag her to the ocean‚ to another sea's shore

other assorted tags:

l'manberg: #i heard there was a simple place

pogtopia/manberg: #to destroy oneself and everything you love

las nevadas: #city of smoke and mirrors

limbo: #spend some time away / getting ready for the day you're born again

exile: #god stood me up / and i don't know why

passerine: #you'll bury me beneath the tree i climbed when i was a child

#william laments #look at the sky i'm still here / i'll be alive next year #who lives‚ who dies‚ who tells your story #i lost the passion that comes with living #adoring fans #donos #videoshare #audioshare #photo gallery #vinyls #dvds #art gallery #journal #bookshelf #scrapbook #defying the script #but if i gave up on being pretty‚ i wouldn't know how to be alive / i should move to a brand new city / and teach myself how to die #soldier‚ poet‚ king #and it was not your fault but mine / and it was your heart on the line / i really fucked it up this time / didn't i‚ my dear? #though we don't share the same blood / you're my brother and i love you‚ that's the truth #i'm the child you just didn't have time to conceive #i hate you for what you did‚ and i miss you like a little kid #i wanna help mother up an orchard / from a seed up through sapling / mother phoenix‚ rise #i used to hear a simple song / that was until you came along / now in it's place is something new / i hear it when i look at you #you got the same eyes as your father / and you carry the same kind of temper‚ too #you understand mechanical hands / are the ruler of everything #in the back of my mind / you died / and i didn't even cry / no‚ not a single tear #why you? why did you get to come back? #what for d'you yearn? / watch that butcher burn #you're pouting in your sleep / i'm waking still yawning / we're proving to each other / that romance is boring