#OK ITS FIXED ugh

[snailfen]

I think you have my favorite gourmand design they look like they give the best hugs

they do............

#trying to practice my actual size differences cus my riv is supposed to be about monks size. sort of #and spear is SMALLER #thank you for giving me an excuse to draw gourmand 6 more times. i wouldve made it 8 with enot and nighty but im so TIREDDDDDD #rain world #rain world downpour #the gourmand #the monk #the survivor #the hunter #the artificer #the rivulet #the spearmaster #the saint #my art #I FORGOT THE FUCKING EYEDOTS OOPS HOLD ON #OK ITS FIXED ugh

[randomminty]

Opened paint tool sai for the first time in 5 years immediately drew yuri

#couldnt for the life of me draw shizukus face jeezus. turned out ok #I LOVE SAIS BRUSHES I MISSED THEM!!!!!! BRUSH TOOL MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!! #art tag #prsk #pjsk #read all main stories reading through the early events rn. fun #might skip to the recent niigo events tho bc that looks crazy #wont be as good without the build up of the other events but....... mafuyu........ #wannna do that thing thats like fav character from each group for prsk.... and maybe bandori/enstars/twst too. but prob not. #aneeway. these two. wehehhehehwhehehw #shizuku hinomori #airi momoi #project sekai #shizuai #almost didnt tag their ship my bad #okie this tagging this is so hard theres so many. can we decide on if its prsk or pjsk #uhm thays all. gootbye #going back to hiding in my literal closet to record audio for an assignment #OH DONT LOOK AT AIRIS HAND I FORGOT TO FIX IT EHHE. MY BAD. UGH

[svnflowermoon]

why can i literally not function at school like i swear i'm trying i just can't focus????

#luc posts #like i take notes but then i get bored and the doodle on the side of my page thst was meant to take 5 seconds took 10 minutes :( #and then im lost and bc im lost i get all fidgety and i keep doodling and then jts just a cycle #if i work for 20 minutes i feel like ive ran a marathon and i have to take a 40 minutes drawing/staring into the distance break #and im gonna fail maths but theres literally nothing i can do no matter what i do I can't focus for over 20 minutes at a time #and then its the end of class and i feel guilty bc oh i didnt do any work :( like i feel bad and i want to fix it but idk whats wrong so ho #can i fix it if i dont know whats wrong with meeeee #ugh #it literally makes me want to cry am i just lazy is that what it is am i literally useless why cant i work #like i was so ahead kf the average grades and i never learnt to study and now ugh i dont know how to function so i just dont #and it doesn't help that my friends are all geniuses #like they complain about their one mark away from full marks and im just like OH MY GOD if i could just focus then i coukd do so well #likr ok i guess i wont mention tjst i failed that test bc yall sre complaining about getting one mark off fukl makrs #likr fuckkkk okay i have so mucb potential why di i waste jt :((((( #i hate school so mucb #i genuinely consider dropping out sometimes like I CANT DO THIS hiw do these peiole di ut how hiw how someone tell me how to function #like these peiole getting top marks withiut eben truijgn and i tyr and i cant fishcis so i fail snd then ufh i want to die #bc its so embarassing i eas like top 10% of the class a few years ago and now i just cant function like how do these peiple do itso #someone explain ot me how oieolem focus and dony get distracted and ginish things kike ugh

[soranker]

Heya! Saw your cry for a distraction and honestly such a mood.

I've got a question!

What's your least favorite thing to draw/do when you make art?

I'm on my own art journey right now and kind of dread the transition from lineart to coloring.

Trying to study anatomy right now and ignore rendering but I'm curious what other artists feel is challenging or just like 'ugh, ok time for [x]'

OHHH in terms of what's challenging, for me it's definitely coloring, rendering, backgrounds, and composition HAHA (<- chronic flat colors user who only draws character art on a floating white background)

i love focusing on gesture and lines when i draw ^_^ i rely mostly on intuition for the other stuff but it really only takes u so far T_T i'll spend hours trying to fix something by trial and error when i probably couldve saved that time by putting in more conscious studying/practice lol

#the thing that keeps me from getting too down about it tho is that it just takes some dedicated time and practice!!! #one of my goals this year is to take a class on one of those things!! or read a book on it or smth lol #for me i like learning the theory behind those things. makes things click and saves me a lot of time and frustration down the road lol #just the other day i was working on smth and the colors took me FOREVERRRR to figure out T_T #it's like. i kinda knew why the colors didnt work together but i didn't know how to pick the right ones to fix it. #it's nice to have tools to fall back on when you get stuck/intuition fails you #BUT!! everyone is different #the important thing is to not get too hung up on the things you are weak in ^_^ it's only temporary as long as ur patient and practice!! #i think its hilarious how u put it tho 'ugh ok time for' BC IT RLY DO FEEL LIKE THAT SOMETIMES DKJFHASF #me when i finish my sketch/lines. ugh now time for everything else BAHAHA #ALSO SORRY I REPLIED SO LATE this has been sitting in drafts for a while and i forgot to finish writing my response omfg

[yelenapines]

watched tbosas today. needless to say i am obsessed with the red uniform skirt and they should have been wearing those the whole movie. thank you.

#tbosas #much more to say about this movie but thats it for now #actually no lets TALK #they literally changed how the games end which is fine but like how is no one noticing #also um clemensia dropped in got bit and thats it?? bye bye? have fun? #also this annoying bitch in my grade said she hates sejanus in the movie but loves him in the book um please get his name out of your mouth #if you're gonna be speaking filth about my son #ugh #anyways um rachel ate #love how the movie can tell the whole story tho i *am* conflicted about my feelings on how fast paced it was #and then again not seeing his inner monologue is a problem but like it's a movie so idk #also ofc the vibe is different between parts 1 and 2 and part 3 idk why people dont like it i think its cool and like thats the point to se #his evolution #sejanus' death was horrible like i'm sorry the mockingjays reproducing his last cries for help are just. #anyhoo #i will not shut up ok let's keep going #ik that like ppl are simping for tom blyth and as u should tbh same but you COULD NOT CHANGE HIM OR FIX HIM IK ITS A JOKE BUT IT BOTHERS ME #SO MUCH #like ik it's being silly and goofy but it just rubs me the wrong way cause like its not true #also Tigris and Snow's story is so fucking sad kms #also TF WAS THAT MOMENT IN THE ARENA WHERE SEJANUS ALMOST KISSED CORYO WE ALL SAW IT OK #sejanus is not straight at all lmao he spent the whole movie batting eyelashes at coryo but ALSO i love the angst of the marcus x sejanus i #idea i made up #also coriolanus is so fucking goofy like bitch pls “mY oLd SeLf. I kIlLeD hIm To Be WiTh YoU” bestie sit down #ok rant over #yelenaposts #sejanus plinth

[stinkrascal]

i said i wanted to fix my sleep schedule today, woke up at 8am, then took 3 naps which were all at least 4 hours long and fucked it up even worse than it was the day before. now it is 2am and ive just woken from my most recent 10pm nap. good morning

#UGH how do you even fix a sleep schedule when its this bad #im actually at a loss on what to do #like yea ok i know i just need to stay awake during the day BUT I CANT #i get so fucking tired and bored the only thing i can do is fall asleep. I HATE IT HERE!!!!!!! #i need a routine so badly

[sodrippy]

being normal as a baseline is so funny after a whole life of having an anxious base bc now im like. wow i get anxious over so much stuff huh

#this maybe sounds like im still anxious all the time but its not #well it kind of is in that i just become anxious over lots of random or little things #vs until like four years ago i was just anxious all the time literally constantly so i didnt even register anxiety spikes #it was very bad 👍 #ugh though real downside of wfh is ive eroded my tolerance to social anxiety again so its so much harder to just. go to a store or smth #anyway i cant sleep over a minor plumbing issue that i know is getting fixed tomorrow its just really funny to me #like huh. thats why im all nervy and jumpy...ok...weird thing to get hung up on but alright!

[tinylittlebab]

when i see people with the same ugw as me but theyre taller i feel so bad about myself

#idk i just. a bmi of under 15 is considered where its far more dangerous #and im already very unhealthy so im just not sure i wanna go below that. i guess 5 more pounds would be that big a deal #ugh. my ugw was less than that before when i was younger bc i was shorter. ive been doing this so long ack #i used to wanna be 70 but i was shorter then and alwo didnt understand the danger as much and also didnt care as much #but at this moment i dont wanna die and u less i suddenly lose all my free time to do what i 3njoy i dont think thats gonna change #ugh. 80 wouldnt be that bad would it. ill see how i look once im 85 and then ill put effort into gaining muscle wnd losing fat before i #go qnd lower my ugw. previously when i weighed 105 my ugw was 90 #part of me wants to lower it way more into the dangerous zone bc i know im never gonna look like a lot of the insanly thin ppl in thinspo #unless im very dangerously underweight but also.i will be so tired if i do that. and ill be too tired to do my favorite thing. and as much #as being skinny is important to its not the most important thing. simply being skinny usnt gonna make me happy and fix my problems #i wont be able to just look in the mirror and feel ok. but my fav thing does do that. and its always my top priority to keep that available

[rottingnausea]

dying just sounds so much easier than getting better.

#ventcore #traumacore #intrusive thoughts #suicide tw #suicidal ideation tw #s.txt #dont report me im not going to kms. i just hate that i HAVE to get better. #i hate that i didnt even do anything and now its my responsibility to fix this #i hate that i dont even have the energy to get better. #ok to rb #another disclaimer im pro-recovery i just am so tired #ugh

[feline-evil]

Blood drooling from my mouth I neeeeeeeeed to get back into making music i neeeed to i do i need to. I fucking. Foaming at the mouth frothing at the mouth i haven't played an instrument in so long.

#jay talkin #ok so see the situation is i am not good at any instrument but i play guitar and bass (and keyboard sometimes) and drums #i have issues with my arm that on top of affecting my ability to draw also severelly impact my ability to play #and i also live with people one of whom works in the room directly below me so im so paranoid about making noise #i cant be loud i cant be disruptive but jesus christ i need to play more often #im not going to get GOOD if i dont PLAY #yeah id have to fix my bass and ahit but. UGH I JUST WANT TO PLAY #WHATS THE POINT OF OWNING AN ELECTRIC GUITAR AN ACOUSTIC GUITAR AND AN ELECTROACOUSTIC BASS IF NOT TO PLAY THEM #i did have an electric drumkit and my dads old 80's synth but ppl all but stole them back away from me so lol. lmao #whatever. i still have my guitars. even if ppl do take them sometimes #ugh really what i need to do is figure out if i can route my guitars through my pc rather than an amp so i can record and mess w that in fl #god. fucking biting my own arms off i wish i lived elsewhere #for more reasons than just the freedom to make music and have ppl not take my shit. but yknow. itd also help that #everybody prayer circle for jay transitioning and moving out in under thirty more years ok. its a longshot but heres hoping #anyway. music. its good. i want to make dramatic weird goth metal.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#holy fuck. i dont think ive ever been so angry for so long #i got the email abt the change to the end of this experiment at like 7.30am and i was like crying while i was watering #and that dispair consolidated into anger over the course of the day. by like 2pm i was like possessed #by the spirit of a angsty teen boy and wanted to punch some holes in drywall. i was so fucking angry #and the 1st email i got back was like: well u can do sunday/monday for extra measurements if u want #and i was like fucking WHAT? why the fuck cant i just start thr fucking dry down tomorrow? #literally why??? fucking why????? the other half of the experiment is drying tomorrow so what the actual fuck??? #and apparently it just didnt occure to them that we could do both at once. and they wanted to give me the option of a break #which. i appreciate the sentiment but jesus fucking christ u have no idea the atrocity we just avoided #if i had to drag this out until Wednesday i genuinely dont know what i woulf have done. if i had to drag this out until Wednesday only to #find out i didnt have to. i dunno. i would probably have thrown a tantrum like a child. god. ive been here like 10.5hrs now and 1 more to #go. fucking editing and emailing and fixing stupid shit. and my boss is like: email the editor both proofs so he can show reviewers the #changes. as he stated in his email. and im like fucking: ok. ok. ok. ill fucking do it but he has the 1st fucking proof already and the #fucking production office just asked me to send the 2nd proof which i already fucking sent. so maybe its just i cant fucking read #ugh. im not mad at her. this isnt her fault. im just unwell. ugh. i dont wanna b around ppl this week. i dont wanna have to pretend to be #a person. just leave me alone to cry in my freezing apartment as i let all my problems boil over #unrelated

[envymourn]

Things are rlly bad atm, but I have a cute hat so it's ok...? 😬🩷

#face #tbqh everything's going 2 fucking hell #at least i have him...🥰😍🥹💗💋💌🩵🩷 #thankful for that #...so uh drunk landlord moved into the place im living #and umm its really uncomfy cause hes really irate when hes drunk #it makes everyone uneasy #n apparently he opened my door n looked into my room??? #now i dont feel ok leaving my room unattended.... #basically i had to force my way into my room a while ago #a roommate was supposed 2 help me fix it #but they never did and dont wanna now #soooo im SOL for now... #insecure #for sure #ugh #😟😔😒😠🤬🤬🤬 #but cUTE HAT...👒👈👀🩷🩷🩷

[crumble-cookii]

Cookie Pride Prompt: Day 5, Transgender Male

Happy Pride month, have a trans man! Event hosted by @cookie-run-pride-month-prompts , go check them out for more info and such.

For today's prompt I drew Sparkling Cookie! Can't say this is the best Spark I've ever drawn but I can live with it. Trans sparky is 100% canon because I said so

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Prompt List:

[what I've done so far]

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#cookie run #cookie run fanart #sparkling cookie #cookie run pride 2022 #ugh i dont really like how it turned out but i know i cant fix it #its ok hes still cute #again i respect using male instead of boy or man and making it feel a little exclusive even if it isnt really the right wording #somehow its the opposite here though where id prefer to be called a boy instead of a man #but obviously others prefer man #why i prefer woman over girl but boy over man i have no idea #so were moving past that

[viovio]

oh jesus i went and added an essay of tags bc of my parents and grandma's problems.

#shoutout to people who read my vent posts and like them i will like yours too and we will all ride into the sunset<3 #seriously though i hope yall r doing ok im just so lucky i have good siblings #i need a fucking therapist when this is all over. ik its not an ultimate fix but i need to do something about mh whole #emotional vulnerability thing. i dont want to see my parents again but ugh hell #fuck i dont wanna say what i feel id love but i wish it wasnt stupid to want to find a reason to love them #i want a mother who doesnt say shit to me and suddenly later tells me im her babygirl and pet my head #and make me feel loved i cant fucking do this #great now that made me cry #speak iza #whatever. fucking whatever why do my parents do this. no its not my dad or grandma specifically it's mom #self deprecation is like genuinely nothing to me but my problem is i know when i deserve better. and my mother calls that selfish #i know when my siblings deserve better and my parents say im a hypocrite because i yell at them when im stressed #i have no excuse they dont deserve that and behavioural change is important to me #vent tw #crap i did it again

[higgs-the-god]

Actually I never wanna animate again

#UGH another one I rushed LOL #also I know like. squash n stretch and also the timing between movements ((?) I just #sketched it really weird and didn’t wanna fix it LOL #ITS FINE IT LOOKS OK I’ve animated like 5 times in my life btw

[spaghettificationstation]

hey google how to not get pissed off at a senile person you have to take care of

#its after 11pm and ive been up since 8 am #and i got out of bed to go turn off her dialysis machine alarm #whiich i heard upstairs in my loft bed #and she didnt even notice in the room next to it bc her tv was up so damn loud #and as i sighed and fixed it and strted leaving she says 'you dont have to be s #o touchy' #girl you didnt get out of bed until noon and all you did was watch tv #grandmas are like dogs if you dont socialize them they become bitchy and unsociable and hostile #like ok it sucks that you cant do laundrh on your own. thats kinda on you for smoking all your life nd not getting exercise #but why you gotta be mean on the reg? #ugh im overblowing it and its fine but also maybe i won't help yoh as much if youre gonna be mean to me #typing this all out made mr feel better gngngn #aurora talks #family issues