#which. i appreciate the sentiment but jesus fucking christ u have no idea the atrocity we just avoided

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#holy fuck. i dont think ive ever been so angry for so long #i got the email abt the change to the end of this experiment at like 7.30am and i was like crying while i was watering #and that dispair consolidated into anger over the course of the day. by like 2pm i was like possessed #by the spirit of a angsty teen boy and wanted to punch some holes in drywall. i was so fucking angry #and the 1st email i got back was like: well u can do sunday/monday for extra measurements if u want #and i was like fucking WHAT? why the fuck cant i just start thr fucking dry down tomorrow? #literally why??? fucking why????? the other half of the experiment is drying tomorrow so what the actual fuck??? #and apparently it just didnt occure to them that we could do both at once. and they wanted to give me the option of a break #which. i appreciate the sentiment but jesus fucking christ u have no idea the atrocity we just avoided #if i had to drag this out until Wednesday i genuinely dont know what i woulf have done. if i had to drag this out until Wednesday only to #find out i didnt have to. i dunno. i would probably have thrown a tantrum like a child. god. ive been here like 10.5hrs now and 1 more to #go. fucking editing and emailing and fixing stupid shit. and my boss is like: email the editor both proofs so he can show reviewers the #changes. as he stated in his email. and im like fucking: ok. ok. ok. ill fucking do it but he has the 1st fucking proof already and the #fucking production office just asked me to send the 2nd proof which i already fucking sent. so maybe its just i cant fucking read #ugh. im not mad at her. this isnt her fault. im just unwell. ugh. i dont wanna b around ppl this week. i dont wanna have to pretend to be #a person. just leave me alone to cry in my freezing apartment as i let all my problems boil over #unrelated