#NOVACAINE MENTIONED

[joseopher]

I THINK WE DON'T TALK ENOUGH ABOUT HOW CALLUM KEPT HIS FAMILY TOGETHER AND HOW IT RELATES TO NOVACAINE.

This is best seen in sacred hospitality but we see it in the rest of the books too.

Callum kept his mom from leaving, from drinking, from suicide. By manipulating her.

Callum kept his sister away from boyfriends who were taking advantage of her. By manipulating her.

Callum helped placate his father (who was not a good man) by making sure all his business deals succeeded. By manipulating clients.

To Callum, his manipulation was what saved his family. Yes, he took away their autonomy but he kept them together. He had to keep them together in his child's mind. They were family. He loved them. He was trying to help them, to fix things because he didn't know how to cope with love because he was never taught how to love so he showed his love by trying to take all their burdens off their shoulders.

This reflects the most in his mother whom he forces to be happy even though he KNOWS people can't be fixed, stating this more than once. People don't stay changed. But he loves his mother so he tries to relieve her of all her flaws and struggles.

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT HE DOES WITH TRISTAN WHEN HE MANIPULATES HIM.

Tristan states this himself:

CALLUM LOVED TRISTAN SO HE ATTEMPTED TO DO THE ONLY THING HE KNEW HOW TO DO. TAKE AWAY HIS BURDENS. EXCHANGE AUTONOMY FOR PEACE. BECAUSE THAT IS ALL HE KNOWS.

HE WAS LOVING TRISTAN THE ONLY WAY HE KNEW HOW WHICH WAS FLAWED AND AWFUL AND HE KNEW. HE KNEW IT WAS POINTLESS AND IT WOULD END IN TRAGEDY. BUT HE DID IT ANYWAY BECAUSE HE WANTED TO LOVE TRISTAN. AND THAT DOESN'T EXCUSE IT AND HE KNOWS THAT BUT HE WAS LOVING THE ONLY WAY HE COULD.

#tw suicide mention #tristan x callum #callum nova #tristan caine #the atlas six #novacaine

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[ID: A flag with eleven vertical stripes, the middle is twice the width of the others. The colors are darker at the first, fourth, eighth, and last stripes and get lighter moving towards the middle. The colors are, from left to right, dark green, teal green, soft sky blue, soft blue, light dusty indigo, pastel pink, light dusty indigo, soft blue, soft sky blue, teal green, and dark green. END ID]

Numnodelic: A gender related to troubled childhoods, unhealthy coping mechanisms, trying to numb emotional pain, drinking coffee after an all-nighter to mask the tiredness, smoking cigarettes to relieve stress, drinking alcohol to dull pain, staying up all night to avoid having to stop distracting yourself and face your emotions, and overall pastellish, dreamlike psychedelic aesthetics, visuals, and imagery. This gender may also be related to the songs Comfortably Numb and/or Give Me Novacaine, though it doesn’t have to.

The name is a mix of num from numb, no from novacaine, and delic a suffix for genders that are or are related to psychedelic things

The colors are inspired by my associations with the vibe of this term

This was for the fourteenth day of my coining event! Prompt: Comfortably Numb (Pink Floyd) // Give Me Novacaine (Green Day)

Suggested Names and Pronouns 🔽🔽🔽

Pronouns:

Co/Coffee/Coffees/Coffees/Coffeeself

Cof/Coffee/Coffees/Coffees/Coffeeself

Coff/Coffee/Coffees/Coffees/Coffeeself

Coffe/Coffee/Coffees/Coffees/Coffeeself

Coffee/Coffee/Coffees/Coffees/Coffeeself

Dis/Distant/Distants/Distants/Distantself

Distant/Distant/Distants/Distants/Distantself

Dream/Dream/Dreams/Dreams/Dreamself

Dream/Dreamy/Dreamy/Dreamys/Dreamyself

Dream/Dreamy/Dreamys/Dreamys/Dreamyself

Dreamy/Dreamy/Dreamys/Dreamys/Dreamyself

Dull/Dull/Dulls/Dulls/Dullself

Fe/Fever/Fever/Fevers/Feverself

Feve/Fever/Fever/Fevers/Feverself

Fever/Fever/Fever/Fevers/Feverself

Fever/Fever/Fevers/Fevers/Feverself

Good/Goodnight/Goodnights/Goodnights/Goodnightself

Goodnight/Goodnight/Goodnights/Goodnights/Goodnightself

Hello/Hello/Hellos/Hellos/Helloself

No/Novacaine/Novacaines/Novacaines/Novacaineself

Nov/Novacaine/Novacaines/Novacaines/Novacaineself

Nova/Novacaine/Novacaines/Novacaines/Novacaineself

Novacaine/Novacaine/Novacaines/Novacaines/Novacaineself

Nove/Novacaine/Novacaines/Novacaines/Novacaineself

Num/Numb/Numbs/Numbs/Numbself

Numb/Numb/Numbs/Numbs/Numbself

Pai/Pain/Pain/Pains/Painself

Pain/Pain/Pain/Pains/Painself

Pas/Pastel/Pastels/Pastels/Pastelself

Past/Pastel/Pastels/Pastels/Pastelself

Paste/Pastel/Pastels/Pastels/Pastelself

Pastel/Pastel/Pastels/Pastels/Pastelself

Pay/Pain/Pain/Pains/Painself

Pres/Pressure/Pressure/Pressures/Pressureself

Press/Pressure/Pressure/Pressures/Pressureself

Pressure/Pressure/Pressure/Pressures/Pressureself

Pressure/Pressure/Pressures/Pressures/Pressureself

Psy/Psychedelic/Psychedelic/Psychedelics/Psychedelicself

Psy/Psychedelic/Psychedelics/Psychedelics/Psychedelicself

Psyche/Psychedelic/Psychedelic/Psychedelics/Psychedelicself

Psyche/Psychedelic/Psychedelics/Psychedelics/Psychedelicself

Psychedelic/Psychedelic/Psychedelics/Psychedelics/Psychedelicself

Ship/Ship/Ships/Ships/Shipself

Smoke/Smoke/Smokes/Smokes/Smokeself

Tir/Tired/Tire/Tires/Tiredself

Tire/Tired/Tire/Tires/Tiredself

Tired/Tired/Tire/Tires/Tiredself

Wav/Wave/Waves/Waves/Waveself

Wave/Wave/Waves/Waves/Waveself

Names:

Del

Della

Drea

Jimmy

Nova

Novo

Nox

Pastel

Rel

Rella

Rhett

Smokey

Stel

Stella

#Numnodelic #drogegender #cigarette mention #alcohol mention #greendaygender #musicagender #cre coining event #mogai #mogai term #mogai gender #mogai coining #liom gender #liom coining #liom term #liom #mogai community #liom community #xenogender community #xenogender #xenogender pride #xenogender coining #xeno coining #Comfortably Numb Collection #Give Me Novacaine Collection

[ironmanstan]

Man of war, polyethylene part 2, you and whose army - by radio head, the entire how to be a human being album by glass animals, rina sawayamas self titled album, and the be the cowboy album by mitski, are the best songs in the entire world to me btw

#'my favorites right now' no these are my favorites always #honourable mention to fallout boy centuries i never listen to it but its also very high. and novacaine and the kids arent alright #the gamer speaks uwu

[hurrakka]

You should make a playlist for Sasha(buddy) I believe there is only one on Spotify but some of the songs I just don't match to him or his attitude. Your like the Sasha expert so I would trust you xD

Funny you mention that bc Im listening to a playlist right now! (and this is probs the first time I ever dedicate a playlist to a single character) So here it is: 1. Prayer of the Refugee - Rise Against 2. Savior - Rise Against 3. Rise Above This - Seether 4. Peacemaker - Green Day 5. Last of the American Girls - Green Day 6. Holiday - Green Day 7. Give Me Novacaine -Green Day 8. Revolution Radio - Green Day 9. Know Your Enemy - Green Day 10. Underclass Hero - Sum 41 11. Red Flag - Billy Talent 12. Some Flowers Bloom Dead - The Wallflowers

Also like I said before, I'm no playlist expert in general (more like a rookie) -- I just stick w my gut and go w/ whatever song based on vibes first, then lyrics second.

#alexander kozachenko #also i dont have spotify maybe ill make a yt playlist for this lol

[sanguinarysanguinity]

Five drinks to get to know me, tagged by @clove-pinks and @cedarboots.

1. Black coffee. Usually half-caf, because I don't like having a caffeine habit that singlehandedly defines my morning cope. And anyway, if you usually drink half-caf, it makes full-caf during a breakfast out hella fun and sparkly.

2. Black tea with cardamom and milk. If it's a special treat -- f'rex, @grrlpup has just biked home in the rain and needs something hot -- we'll add ginger or black pepper and a little sugar.

3. Stout. On beer-drinking occasions, I'll order whatever stout or porter they have on hand. Oddly enough, it's not a very popular drink, which sometimes leaves me incompetently fumbling around in the rest of the beer menu. Stout also makes a great float over vanilla ice cream.

4. Agua de fresa. A tall glass of fresh crushed strawberries and ice, a summer Sunday treat from the tamale stand at the local farmer's market. Cucumber agua fresca is also excellent, and can be had at the Latino food trucks a half mile from the house.

5. International Space Station. Tang + vodka + hot water -- quick, efficient, warming, and keeps me from getting scurvy.

Honorable mention to marmalade tea, which I don't have as a regular thing anymore because medical fuckery. Woe!

And a random bonus: I won't drink hot drinks with cloves in them -- most commercial chais, most 'spice' teas, most mulled ciders or wines. It tastes like novacaine and makes my mouth go numb (and not in a fun way!)

Tagging: @educatedinyellow, @sanspatronymic, @thehappyreturn, @violsva, @jeaniefranklins

#about me

[yanderefictinallove]

OMG! I love your fic of yandere dentist Mouzan😍 could you make part 2 of this, like the reader becomes his beautiful assistant or wife

Thank you and sure baeee, i got uuuu

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HOME SWEET HOME

Part 2 of novacaine|| yandere dentist Muzan

WARNING ⚠️ this contines, mentions of drugs, drugging, mentions of rape, muzan being rich, Demon Michael Jackson, heehee, stalkhome syndrome

Tw, mentions of rape, anxiety, drugs

This story is recommended for disrespectful teens like me..so yeah keep that in mind, my adult readers are welcome too

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This isn't normal

This isn't normal

This is normal

He injected me with something,  it feels nice. I'm at home, his home, it feels warm and fuzzy, which was weird because I could have sworn something was wrong a minute ago…..

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"Oh god please no, I don't want anymore!!" "Shhh it's ok sweetness, I'm here to take care of you~" he cooed, trying to calm me down. It wasn't working. He was drugging me, testing to see which drug will make me the most obedient. 

He was holding me down with his body because he knew that he was stronger than me, after all I'm only human compared to him, so my strength is shit. But, this is evet day for me.

I was clawing at the table I was tied down to, my nails were bleeding some, were even missing, my wedding ring -that muzan so graciously forced on to me- was scratching up against the table. I kept wriggling till one of the straps popped, I took the opportunity to suckerpunch him and make a run for it.

As I ran I heard no footsteps behind me, that's not a good sign. That means he is furious. 

Run to the door

Run to the door

Make it to the door

I felt a pinch on my neck, oh no…i'm fading…its too late…i was too slow….

I cant breath

I cant breath

..Do I wanna breathe?...not really

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This is nice, the bed is warm and cozy, my husband will be home soon, and i need to smell his scent again, feel him again, outside and inside. I wanna cud- oh i should dress up for him.

I hop out of bed and skip to my side of the closet. I went through various outfits and costumes, 'hmm, what should I wear?'

Maid?

Schoolgirl?

Demon?

Nurse!!!

I found the perfect outfit, i dressed in it just in time, as soon is a finished, the door opened, and my beloved husband was standing there 'he's not your beloved~' …what…of course he is, what are you saying 'he hurt you' no 'he raped you~' NO ' its the drugs' it very much is.. and i knownthat but what does it matter, i have no hope of leaving.

"Hey sweetness, you look quite gorgeous today~"

I was taken out of my thoughts, I ran into muzans arms, breathing in his scent.

"Sweetness, Lets go a few rooms down and play~"

"Do u think one day i can assist you with your clients?"

"Yes, one day, but right now, you are assisting my heart 🖤"

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No, NOOOOO!!!, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO YOURSELF!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO WANTING TO BE FREE???!?!?!?.......What happened…

Well, it all started with novacaine 

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Muzan as a drag queen, is gold

Anyways..feel free to requst, I do fanfics and art.

You can take inspiration from my writing but dont copy, and make sure to credit me

Luv ya and im proud that you are alive

#anime #kny muzan #muzan kibutsuji #yanderefictionallovewrites #yandere muzan #demon slayer #yandere demon slayer #yandere #yandere kny

[major-majoranon]

hi! 2, 4, 5 and 6 for mash asks

and 11, which i ask of everyone: fave klinger outfit + fave margaret hairstyle

2- Honestly probably Henry Blake! The 'my wife' jokes aside I think he's a much more interesting and fun character than people realise! He had a lot of respect for everyone in the camp and I felt mclean did a really good job conveying a genuine person with realistic flaws and personality!

Also honourable mention to radar bc I have a post about him in the oven and reading this actually made me realise something else i want to talk about in it!

4- this is a hard one, I found that even though I think the show as a whole is very impactful I'm not sure if any episode ever really got to me so much i cried. Abyssinia Henry and Quo Vadis Captain Chandler are the first to come to mind. I think the choice to kill Henry was so bold and unexpected in a sitcom and I found myself missing Henry so much after that it really was like I was grieving his loss too. I wish they had been able to explore the effects of seeing someone they knew killed on the other character.

Quo Vadis is I think one of the best explorations of the effect war has on people. I found it so personal and raw to see this one man behave exactly how he believed his God would and how he broke down was so tragic.

5- The episodes I remember really getting me were The novacaine mutiny and Chief surgeon who? They're both some of my favourites and I think chief surgeon did such an amazing job showing just how anti military the whole outfit was, I wish it had kept more of that!

6- in no particular order Carry On Hawkeye, the sniper and O.R.

Honestly all of the unusual episodes like deluge and the interview episodes are top of my list. I also think season four was very good but I cant actually think of any off the top of my head so they dont get top billing.

11- that yellow gone with the wind dress he wears is always the first one i think of!! I also love the one he wears when he's reading poetry on the hillside, it's just such a specific scene he created that was so in character and yet at such odds with the situation he's in.

The first one i thought of was her little pigtails from the Olympics episode! I cant say I really noticed her hair very often but I liked how much she just let go and enjoyed herself in that episode and the pigtails were such a fun way to show that.

#ty for asking<3 #i was absolutely fishing and as always you indulged me #*feel free to add your thoughts on my thoughts!

[ijustcantfigureout]

Playlist: Feelings are disturbing

oh! that's a cool one! but hard. not sure if i like the final result - they lean more into "inconvenient" than "disturbing" and most are abt romantic feelings because you know how the world is. anyway, here:

crane wives - tongues and teeth

not human at all - sleep party people

tear you apart - she wants revenge

eu não preciso de ninguém - o terno

estrela decadente - thiago pethit

ai ai como eu me iludo - o terno

give me novacaine - green day

honorable mentions to those that don't really fit but come close to:

broken machine - nothing but thieves

this is the last time - the national

i don't belong - fontaines d.c.

excuses - shakey graves

sing - blur

sweetie little jean - cage the elephant

a escalada das montanhas de mim mesmo - vanguart

kettering - the antlers

[emobatman]

need to make a list in case my brain dies on me when asked: 

favourite bands / artists, overall: arctic monkeys, blondie, led zeppelin, the white stripes/jack white, the national, the killers 

top 3 favourite songs: 

- arctic monkeys: 505, love is a laserquest, R U Mine? - blondie: heart of glass, sunday girl, in the flesh - the national: conversation 16, pink rabbits, slow show - led zeppelin: the ocean, d’yer maker, dazed and confused  - the white stripes: death letter, a martyr for my love for you, dead leaves and the dirty ground  - jack white: lazaretto, love interruption, sixteen saltines - the killers: the entire hot fuss album is legendary i cant pick one song, bones, and spaceman

album specific favourites: oasis and no doubt

top 3 favourite songs: 

- oasis: hello, don’t look back in anger, wonderwall  - no doubt: just a girl, sunday morning, don’t speak

nostalgic favourites: green day, weezer, all american rejects

top 3 songs: 

- green day: give me novacaine, redundant, when i come around - weezer: beverly hills, say it ain’t so, island in the sun  - all american rejects: the last song, straitjacket feeling, move along 

honourable mentions: heart, van halen, nirvana, the cure, queen, the beatles, cage the elephant, beastie boys, the smiths, panic at the disco (mmm but like earlier albums though, the last 2 albums were not it, and arguably the one before that. but that’s a whole different post altogether),the ramones, joji, cuco

#music. #theres obviously a trend in genre for my top faves #will be adding to this or editing

[00just-a-pancake00]

Even if cooking in the kitchen takes an Eternity (EiMiko)

Summary: Raiden 'Not-so-reliable-in-the-kitchen' Shogun, aka Ei, would not keep her mouth shut after asking Yae to cook for her. The publishing chief would do something to keep her fill satisfied.

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"Is dinner ready yet?"

Ei stretched out as he stared lazily over the landscape of the shrine view. Even though the peace and quiet of the shrine scenery, it doesn't fail to have a beautiful view spot throughout Inazuma.

The mount she stood on overlooked a massive broadening ocean, also showing the city and village, not to mention seeing Tenshukaku from here as well.

The shogun shook her head solemnly, her violet braided hair being mussed up with the movement. They would all get out of here soon; that she felt deep in her spirit, just like a gut feeling bordering on a premonition.

And speaking of gut feeling, hers grumbled annoyingly, and she realized that her question hadn't been answered.

"Miko-?" Ei called again.

"I said five more minutes!" A voice with a splash of impatience said back.

Ei crossed his arms, leaning forward so that her muzzle touched the shrine house's railings. "You said that five minutes ago..."

She suddenly felt something soft whap her head, and sheturned just in time to see her partner chuck another oven mitt at him. "Hey, hey!" She tried to block the attack to no avail. "You weren't supposed to hear that!"

Miko huffed, "Then next time, talk quieter." She bent to get her mitts back, then returned to the kitchen.

But Ei wasn't done with her. "Hold on!" She hopped after her, stopping beside the stove where roasted vegetables were being chopped and dropped into a soup pot. "Isn't your cooking mastered yet?"

"It is," Miko confirmed, pausing to dispense some salt and pepper into her concoction. "Do you know anyone who cooks better Inazuma deli than me?"

Ei wisely chose not to answer that, both because she was the best cook in Inazuma among with Ayaka and Yoimiya, and because the oven mitts were a mercy compared to what she could do to her if he humored her question. "Erm... I'm just pointing out that your... ability should account for cooking speed as well as quality."

Even though she was looking down and away from her, Ei could tell she heard her patting her stomach. "You're not exactly being subtle about this, miss." Miko's vision lit, possibly summoning her Gohei, but then dimmed as she sighed. "Alright."

"Alright?"

She smiled, crossing over to her. "Will you be quiet if I give you a small bite?" She already had a spoon of her stew in her hands, which Ei took and guzzled at once. This only made her smile more.

She would have questioned that if the stew's flavor didn't distract him from doing so. It was delicious, but there was something... off about it. "This tastes bitter..." she murmured.

Miko made a face close to a snarl. "Oh, see if I ever give you-"

"No, I mean it tastes bitter. Like there's too much lemon or..." Ei stopped short and tipped over, smacking facedown. Her joints locked up and her arms and legs felt numb like she'd gotten the biggest shot of novacaine. Or like a freeze status effect.

"Oh dear," said Miko. Her voice dripped with a sarcastic tone. "What happened to you, Ei?"

"Rmmph! Cvayo Wegishvayun Ekchstract!" She's meant to say, "Cryo Regisvine Extract," but it was hard when her mouth was mushed against the floorboards. "Uhhhh help?" Light tip-taps sounded behind her, each step taken every two seconds, rather than the stomps of one desperate to cure her right away. "Miko?"

"Hmm," she heard her partner say, "I don't know if I want to do that quite yet..." The least Miko did was turn Ei on her back. At least she could see the sly grin crossing her face as her fingers descended to her ribcage - wait, what?

The impulse to crawl away at once shot into the archon's nerves - her numbed, disobedient nerves that kept his limbs still as she lightly scritched Ei's lowest ribs, those soft-tipped nails of hers potent even through her kimono shirt.

And the Shogun lost it sooner...

"BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! H-HEHEY, STAHAHAHAP!" It was now, with being faceup, that she could speak, and laugh, clearly. Though this may not have been a good thing after all. "MIHIHIKOHOOOO! HAHAHAHA!"

"I knew that archons could feel pain," said Miko, her fingers still threading in between Ei's rib bones, "But I had no idea that the body gave you tickle senses. How interesting..." She trailed off, far more interested in tickling Ei and watching her feet twitch under the internal freeze effect.

She caught her curious glance. Her laughs were half tickle-induced, half insanity. "DOHOHOHNT GIHIHVE ME THAT LOOK!!! AHAHAHAHAHA ORAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" She looked back at her, smirked, and scooted over to her legs. "HEHEHEY! ARE YOU LISTENING!?"

"Yes," Yae said. "But you should have thought better about rushing me to finish dinner."

Ei spoke, now calmed down since the assult was put to a halt. "Oh pleheheaseee, I was hungry! And still am..."

Her fingers were poised inches from her toes. And with a light flick, and a smile at the Raiden Shogun's squeaky reaction, she responded, "Perfection isn't rushed. So that's why I'm going to take time here..." She scribbled all over his toes, chuckling along with her partner's hysterical laughter. She had no idea how she found out so easily, but she definitely knew how hyper-ticklish his toes were now.

"BLEEHEHEHEHEHAHAHAH! MIHIKO- AT- AT LEHEHEHEHEAST TAHAKE THE PAHAHARALYSIS OHOHOFF!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!" She wouldn't have minded this so much if he could actually move! But being numb seemed to make the sensation twice as maddening! "OHOHOHOHKAY! I'LL BEHEHE SIHILEHENCED WHILE YOU COOHOOHOOK!!! PHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"

Yae titled her head, still scratching and tickling. "Are you suuure? I can keep pampering these sweet toes if you'd like."

"I'LL LEHEHEAVE YOU ALOHOHOHNE! I PROHOHOHMISE!"

"Good." She dropped her hands and stood up, returning to the stove. Without removing the status effect.

"Erm, Mihihikoho? Aren't you g-going to - hehe - help me?"

She looked over her, looked to the stash where the curables were kept, and back to her. "the effects of the stasis fruit lasts ten minutes, I'm sure you won't mind spend five more of those laying there. And I thought you said you were going to be quiet."

She clamped her mouth shut right then. And she silently vowed to herself that if ever she found traveler she would have a few words to say to them about the outside world beyond her Euthymia so fricking realistic.

#genshin impact #tickle fic #raiden shogun #ei #yae miko #Ficz #lee!ei #ler!yae

[artbyeloquent]

I've just mixed-n-matched from all the OC games you rbed, and also from some others I have hanging around

For Yael and Jake:

a song lyric to describe their personal style

do they snore?

what titles accompany their name? official or otherwise?

a song lyric that would comfort them when they’re sad

which parent (if either) chose their name and why?

do they have a sweet tooth?

a food they could eat for the rest of their lives

their favorite alcoholic drink or mocktail, if any

Your OC is surrounded by puppies/kittens/ducklings. What do they do?

Who knows how they like their tea/coffee/(insert drink) best?

What color do they look strikingly good in?

What do strangers notice about them first?

(sorry if that's too many)

Dru I need you to know you literally dominate my inbox with good vibes so don't you ever apologize <3

a song lyric to describe their personal style

YAEL : I've had enough, this is my prayer // That I'll die living just as free as my hair (Hair, Lady Gaga)

JAKE : So what I've got a short attention span // A coke in my hand // Because I'd rather have the afternoon, relax and understand // Mm hip hop and flip flops it don't stop with the light rock (Geek in the Pink, Jason Mraz)

do they snore?

YAEL : Xe's so terrified of the long term health detriments xe has one of those smartwear that tracks it.

JAKE : Oh hell yeah.

what titles accompany their name? official or otherwise?

YAEL : Second in command to Rimon on their team in the Department of Inter-Planar Relationships.

JAKE : Team lead on one of the biggest teams in Department of Emergency Management and Control. Or was.

a song lyric that would comfort them when they’re sad

YAEL : When all hope is gone, sad songs say so much (Sad Songs, Elton John)

JAKE : Give me a long kiss goodnight // And everything'll be alright (Give Me Novacaine, Green Day)

which parent (if either) chose their name and why?

YAEL : Parents procrastinated too long, so Mom 1 decided while a bit distracted by the epidural and Mom 2 just consented.

JAKE : Mother and father did it unanimously.

do they have a sweet tooth?

YAEL : Xe prefer spicy/salty food.

JAKE : Yes.

a food they could eat for the rest of their lives

YAEL : falafel.

JAKE : those chocolate lava cakes. yes, he is absolutely unhinged.

their favorite alcoholic drink or mocktail, if any

YAEL : lychee shirley temple

JAKE : sangria

Your OC is surrounded by puppies/kittens/ducklings. What do they do?

YAEL : freeze up as they crawl all over xir.

JAKE : squeeing. just a full 45 minutes of rolling around with them and squeeing.

Who knows how they like their tea/coffee/(insert drink) best?

YAEL : "Pretty much only Rimon, because it's a lot to remember. Rooibos chai with three sugars, a drizzle of honey, and a cinnamon stick."

JAKE : "The whole team, because I'm obnoxious. Passionfruit green tea with mango popping bubbles."

What color do they look strikingly good in?

YAEL : gold, and bright jewel tones.

JAKE : blue, especially a monochrome assortment.

What do strangers notice about them first?

YAEL : xir erratic and fidgety way of moving.

JAKE : He says it's his striking blue eyes (if you're tired of this trope, dw, so am I. he's dead and it's never mentioned in the novel) but it's actually his raucously curly hair.

#dru!! #cw alcohol #cw food #cw drugs mention #htdo oc dev #this took so long bc i take forever choosing lyrics

[rottingmanifesto]

Discussion/Ramble of post-9/11 AU

If you’ve read On Leave already, you’re aware of my American Idiot AU which is simply just Mafia 3, but post-9/11. Music plays a huge role in this as well, hence the title being one of the most politically scathing punk albums of the early 2000s. (What can I say? I’m a die hard pop punk and punk rock fan. I’m in the top 0.5% for Green Day and top 20% for Dead Kennedys, so that should say something.)

American Idiot takes place in a post-9/11 America and follows Lincoln Clay and John Donovan on their bumpy roads through (pseudo)-recovery, emotions, and pop culture. It’s essentially a semi-modern universe with punk music and it’s just one kid writing it instead of numerous people.

Here’s the ideas/WIPs I have at the moment:

American Idiot: The main “fic”, which is most likely going to be more of a timeline and general overview of the plot. I’m still undecided on how I want to execute this frankly.

City of the Damned: stories of Ellis, Danny, Giorgi, Lincoln, and Nicki (pre-Lincoln joining the Army). It’ll most likely include their reactions to 9/11 and domestic terrorism, so be warned.

Holiday: I honestly forgot, but probably just some small stories of Lincoln with his family/community.

Unnamed: A peek into John’s backstory, mainly his teenage years.

Novacaine: Lincoln smokes and talks with a war buddy while back in the states temporarily. He doesn’t go back home, for a myriad of reasons.

Coming Clean: Lincoln discovers that he’s not straight.

Know Your Enemy: John meets Connor Aldridge in the 90s (pre-9/11) and somewhat admires him. That gets destroyed after the events of 9/11, and the fic starts (or ends?) with John holding a gun to Aldridge’s head.

Letterbomb: Roxy is pissed at Lincoln for working with known racists (and a CIA agent, just look up the history of what the US government has done to the black community for details on that one), and loses her temper on him. That passion that Lincoln loved backfired on him.

I’m struggling with how Sal gets the money plates or if he should do something else, as the money-plates was heavily era-specific, but I’m open to ideas! Speaking of which, I probably will try to explore potential disorders that the characters have (I am not a professional, please don’t treat me as one lol) and how it manifests now that there are labels.

There’s more but that’s the basics for the actual verse!

History Ramble— Lowkey Important to ‘Verse

So I keep mentioning how a post-9/11 America directly mirrors the Cold War, and though it’s complicated to explain fully, I want to try to convey the basics of it. Warning for mentions of n@zis and general war/bad shit.

Note: this will be long, so click below to read!

Let’s start with WWII. USSR and US kinda hate each other, but meh, the [email protected] are way worse (well technically they took inspo from both other nations but that’s for later) so they shake hands and spill blood. Yay. The war’s won, which means we can now properly fistfight— well not really, because nuclear warfare is in its infancy, Europe is just fucked, and the US’s men are now boinking every broad they see, leading to the baby boom. No one really wants to have a WWIII, so the USSR and US stew. USSR develops (further) into an industrialist coalition of unwilling nations, and the US does its own imperialism and development. The next decades get… sticky, so bear with me.

1950s: The first hydrogen bomb is tested in 1950, the Korean War is a proxy-war for the USSR (North Korea) and the US (South Korea), and both the Space Race and Vietnam War begin, with SR being in ‘57 and VW in ‘59. The important thing here is the cultural change— modern ideals of ‘traditional’ are solidified here.

1960s: Ideally, Mafia 3 was a decent overview of general (and mildly romanticized) history, but during this era, the Vietnam War was in full swing (basically Korea part 2: the commies win), Civil Rights became a national debate, Cuban Missile Crisis and Bay of Pigs, and the USSR dropped the largest atomic bomb known to humanity. By the end of this era, the threat of MAD (mutually assured destruction) and increasing costs of outright feuding between both superpowers caused a lull in tensions for a while. Basically like WWII— “fuck you, but I’m broke and not crazy so I’m not gonna nuke you.” “Same.”— and now it’s time for…

1970s: Economic crash right off the bat for the US. Hell, there was very little economic prosperity on either side, and the 70s saw far less public tension than the past 20 years. But ‘Nam dragged on, people became far more restless, and the CIA (and FBI) was head-on against the KGB. Going to be honest, not a lot happens in regards to the Cold War in the 70s, but you know what does happen? The CIA peddles drugs to underfunded and over-policed neighborhoods, specifically the black community! Who would’ve guessed. (Yes, I’m being sarcastic, fuck the US government. Sorry Donovan, that includes you.) Also evangelism takes a hold on the former 60s hippies, and would take America in its clutches. It would actually lead to Ronald Reagan’s popularity in the 80s, but that’s its own can of worms.

Side note: Ronald Reagan funded the Taliban ( AKA the CIA did it and used Reagan as a front man) during the time periods 1979-1989. I will DEFINITELY discuss this in American Idiot! because John will have an… interesting response to discovering his president and coworkers funded one of the largest Afghani terrorist organizations. Anyone who says John would like Reagan is absolutely wrong and doesn’t understand John nor the history surrounding it. Anyway, back to the timeline.

1980s: Whoo boy, there’s a lot. But here’s the main things:

1981: Ronald Reagan is elected president of the United States. Find out how he radicalized American politics here!

1989: the Berlin Wall is destroyed in one of the most monumental moments in modern history

Also 1989: USSR withdraws from Afghanistan after Operation Cyclone

1990s: The USSR officially crumbles on December 8th, 1991, after 45 years. Boris Yeltsin becomes leader of the “Commonwealth of Independent States”, but I don’t know enough about that to say how that affects anything.

Now to 9/11! Again, warnings for terrorism (including wh!te supremac!st domestic terrorism) and general war discussions, as well as islamaphobia. School shootings will also be mentioned.

Late 1990s: With the USSR no longer a threat, the US seemed to prosper until a little something known as Jihadism reared its head. During the dispute between the USSR and the US, numerous extremist groups such as al-Qaeda rose to prevalence in a Taliban-controlled Afghanistan. During this time, both domestically and internationally-fueled terrorism occurred, the most notable being below.

Right-Wing Terrorism

Oklahoma City Truck Bombing (1995), one of the deadliest terrorist attacks on US soil at the time. Left 168 dead.

Eric Rudolph’s many acts (1996-1998), namely the Centennial Olympic Park Bombing, killing two and injuring 111.

Columbine School Shooting (1999), two teenagers, affiliated with neo- n@zi beliefs, shot up their school and then killed themselves. 13 people died, 12 students and 1 teacher (not including them).

Side note: General Ku Klux Klan actions were occurring alongside the other attacks, but as per usual, the federal government did barely anything to combat these hate crimes. To no one’s surprise.

“Lone Wolf”

The Unabomber Ted Kaczynski (1970s-1990s), mailed his targets more than a dozen bombs that killed three people and injured many others.

Jihadist

New York World Trade Center attack (1993), a failed attempt to bring down the trade center that left six people dead.

Attacks on Kenyan and Tanzanian US embassies (1998), more than 200 left dead after the simultaneous attacks.

2000s: This decade became the catalyst for the new McCarthyism— fear of “who’s a terrorist”. It’s a hectic, loaded decade with political turmoil, some of my favorite albums/songs ever, and a push for social equality much like the 1960s (albeit it would be far more prevalent in the 2010s-20s.) Here’s some of the key events.

2001: September 11th, 2001. The twin towers in New York City are destroyed by two planes, one plane crashes into the side of the Pentagon, and the last lands off-course when the passengers fought their captors (sadly, ending their own lives in the process). This becomes the biggest attack on American soil since Pearl Harbor, and leads to a boom in nationalistic fervor with many young adults joining the military. Bush’s response of immediate attack also caused much of the modern perception of this era, but that is too long to explain in a Tumblr post.

2002: France openly criticizes the United States’ response to terrorism, causing a spike in hatred against the French/Western Europe (that heavily would affect meme culture in the late 2000s-today). “French fries” becoming “Freedom fries” is frankly pretty stupid in hindsight, but it goes to show just how common it was to hate anyone who disagreed with the government— this can be seen strongly during Trump’s presidency.

2008: Obama becomes the first black president, and the Recession occurs. The Recession mimics what 1970s America faced, with rising gas prices and an outdated federal minimum wage.

2010s: It’s impossible to really summarize this era, but here is what I’ll say: the radicalization of the right due to the alt-right pipeline (online spheres), as well as Jihadist recruiting via social media, heavily resembles mid-60s tensions and late 70s/early 80s evangelism.

2020s (thus far): The United States after 11 years officially withdraws from Afghanistan on August 30th, 2021, directly mirroring the USSR’s withdraw post-Op Cyclone. Right-wing terrorism and “satanic panic” rises again through right-wing online platforms such as QAnon, and we’re right back to where we began. Turmoil, a divided nation of ideals, and the CIA being cunts. Truly, a second Cold War.

Personal anecdote: QAnon’s effect on baby boomers could very well lead to a resurgence of the KKK. Just saying that makes me unbelievably pissed, but unfortunately, those who denounce history for being too “woke” are doomed to become the villains to the next generation. I could go on about how the political right wing uses fear tactics and strawman arguments without ever truly acknowledging any beliefs outside their own, but meh, that’s its own topic.

All sources not already linked:

Cold War

Missile Museum

PBS.org

Modern Terrorism

CNN

New America

US Department of Justice

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I’m going to discuss how these events affect the characters/ their personal timelines in a later post, this one is getting way too long. If you stuck around this long, have some history memes for your patience.

#American idiot AU #history + fic #<- I’m going to be using that tag a lot in the future probably

[jojothembo]

MARIS AQUARIUS K!NKTOBER DAY 3: cioccolata (medical k!nk) Give me Novacaine  TW: (s*xually explicit, EXTREMELY NSFW, mention of dr*ging, rough s*x, slight voyeurism.)  *also reader has nipple piercings*

18 + UNDER THE CUT

Give me novacaine 

Cioccolata hovered over your body which was strapped down to the operating table.   You watched the doctor wrap a tourniquet around your arm, pushing your veins to the surface.

You wince as you feel a needle enter your veins.

“ just some anesthesia my little pet.”

You barely had half a mind to pay attention to Secco who was setting up a camera at the end of the table to get the best view of you and the doctor. You were already writhing against the cold slab holding you up.  Cioccolata spread your legs exposing the vibrator he had inside you. You squirmed at the feeling of his latex gloves. He squeezed your thigh while observing the toy buzzing inside of you. “Secco bring the camera closer~”

 your head snaps as you see secco come closer, the camera dangerously close to your sex before panning up and down your body.  A scarlet blush painted your face as you looked down in embarrassment. Ashamed of how good the doctor made you feel. You shouldn’t like this you thought before the vibrations sent your body into shock. He had turned up the settings to get your attention 

“ don’t turn away now I wanna see that pretty face of yours.” 

Ciccolatta is Unlocks the straps holding your arms to the table as steps back pulling you up by gripping your jaw forcing you to look down at your arousal as he begins to pump the toy in and out of you. Your legs still strapped down you let out a pathetic moan as he used your body

 “I want your legs shaking before I fuck you, I wouldn’t want you to run away from me my little lab rat!” 

He twists his hands to bring your twice the amount of stimulation causing you to wrestle against your restraints. You could feel your orgasm approach as the doctor squeezed your throat. 

“Get desperate for me! I want you to crave this fucking!”

 you cum harder than ever before arching your back into the deranged lunatic that held you captive. He lays your back of the table shooing secco back to his previous spot 

“ I can’t wait to destroy you”

Your legs were finally freed. You tried to move your body only to realize you were paralyzed from the waist down, you look up at the half-empty I.V bag as Cioccolata grabbed your ankles pulling them towards him you let out a shriek as the needle was ripped from your vein he forced you on your hands and knees. 

“Such a good little pet” he praised you for your your compliance as he ran his fingers up and down your body which was becoming more and more sensitive thanks to the aphrodisiac of DMT and morphine in your veins. Cioccolata ordered secco to come around the table to “get a better look at you” he circled around the table as the doctor began to pless his throbbing cock against your entrance, slamming into you causing you to yelp, he let out a dark spout of laughter as you clenched around him. he relished in your sedated screams , turning and twisting into hedonistic moans letting him continue to drive his cock deeper inside of you

  “You’re a tailor-made fuck” his words echoed through your entire body overwhelming your mind with sadistic overindulgence . The rattling of the operation table filled the empty room. elbows banged into the cold metal of the table as he relentlessly fucked up into you. Your forearms against the cold metal slab holding you up as Ciccolata pulled and tugged the bars on your nipples. You shrieked as his movements became rougher.

 “Oh, baby that’s it! Ah, fuck your gonna drive me insane!” 

His hand slapped your ass one more time watching the flesh jiggle as you took your lashings He pressed your face into the table as he slammed into you. Pounding you with his entire length. You felt so good. “Milk me! Milk my cock like a good little slut won’t you!” your body was folded up digging into your hips and hammered inside of you.your eyes meet the camera as your body is being defiled as he poured his cum inside you claiming you as his cock twitched inside your body. his hand came down to strike your ass one last time. 

“I might have to keep you around”

#kinktober #jjba #cioccolata #vento aureo #n/sfw #n/sfw text #not s for w #not sfw #k!nktober #cioccolata x reader #unita speciale #la sqaudra #golden wind #vento auero x reader

[random-ass-fanboy]

My Snape playlist:

Here are 40 songs that remind me of Snape, if anyone is interested :)

Feel free to leave song recommendations for this playlist in the comments!

TW/ depressing lyrics and mentions of suicidal ideation.

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Paralyzed- NF

"Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things, I know I should. I'm paralyzed. Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me inside, I'm paralyzed."

My Immortal- Evanescence

"You used to captivate me, by your resonating light. Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me."

Horrible Kids- Set It Off

"Picture this he was just a kid, not knowing where to begin. He wore all the wrong clothes, followed all the wrong trends, persecuted for the things he did."

Lifeboat- Heathers the Musical

"Everyone's pushing! Everyone's fighting Storms are approaching, there's nowhere to hide! If I say the wrong thing, or I wear the wrong outfit, they'll throw me right over the side!"

Panic Room- Au/Ra

"The silence is so loud. The lights spark and flicker, with monsters much bigger, than I can control now. Welcome to the panic room, where all your darkest fears are gonna come for you."

Michael in the Bathroom- Be More Chill

"I am hiding, but he's out there, just ignoring all our history. Memories get erased, and I'll get replaced, with a newer cooler version of me."

Worthless- eli.

"I'm always so alone, even when surrounded, by people that I know. I'm always so astounded, by my ability to ruin everything. Losing friends and starting fires, everyone thinks I'm a liar"

Let Me Down Slowly- Alec Benjamin

"Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste. I once was a man with dignity and grace. Now, I'm slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace. So please, please.."

Waving Through a Window- Dear Evan Hansen

"We start with stars in our eyes. We start believing that we belong. But every sun doesn't rise. And no one tells you where you went wrong"

Broken Again- eli.

"No one knows what it's like putting up a fight, for your life every time, now I'm losing sight. Wish that I had a way to make me feel alive. I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die."

Match in the Rain- Alec Benjamin

"Yeah, I can taste it, it's the end, this love's impossible to save. Though you embrace it, I can't face it, so I look the other way. There's trouble in your eyes, but I pretend that we're okay. I wish that we could compromise, but there's just nothin' left to say."

Snail- Cavetown

"I was just born like this. Wish that I could change it. Four peculiar limbs and a head that doesn't fit. Wish that I was still a kid."

Dissappear- eli.

"Carrying the burdens of the world up on my shoulders. Looking for the answers, maybe I'll know once I'm older. Need some time to recollect myself, please don't forget me. When I disappear next week, I hope you can forgive me."

Teenagers- My Chemial Romance

"The boys and girls in the clique, the awful names that they stick. You're never gonna fit in much, kid. But if you're troubled and hurt, what you got under your shirt, will make them pay for the things that they did."

Words Fail- Dear Evan Hansen

"No, I'd rather pretend I'm something better than these broken parts. Pretend I'm something other than this mess that I am! 'Cause then I don't have to look at it, and no one gets to look at it! No, no one can really see!"

Untitled- Mxmtoon

"I tend to forget, that I shouldn't fret. People come and then they go. At this point I should know."

I'll Sleep When I'm Dead- Set it Off

"I'm stuck self-torturing, my meds are failing me, internal clock in smithereens. Can't fix this. I'm hopeless. My eyes are stapled open wide, as I lay down on my side. I am bouncing off these walls."

Outrunning Karma- Alec Benjamin

"He's never gonna make it, all the poor people he's forsaken, karma, is always gonna chase him for his lies. It's just a game of waiting from the church steeple down to Satan karma. There's really no escape until he dies."

One Song Glory- RENT

"Find, one song, one last refrain. Glory. From the pretty boy front man, who wasted opportunity. One song, he had the world at his feet. Glory. In the eyes of a young girl, a young girl."

Good For You- Dear Evan Hansen

"All I need is some time to think! But the boat is about to sink. Can't erase what I wrote in ink. Tell me how could you change the story?

All the words that I can't take back, like a train coming off the track. 'Cause the rails and my bones all crack. I've got to find a way to stop it, stop it! Just let me off!"

Teen Idle- MARINA

"Adolescence didn't make sense. A little loss of innocence. The ugliness of being a fool. Ain't youth meant to be beautiful?"

Dark Paradise- Lana Del Rey

"And there's no remedy for memory. Your face is like a melody, it won't leave my head. Your soul is hunting me and telling me, that everything is fine. But I wish I was dead!"

Trying- Cavetown

"I'm trying to tear the wool from your eyes. But a part of me wants to let you be. 'Cause then you wouldn't see what I've become. I'm trying to shout, but no sound comes out. It's like we're in a dream state. But I should've woken up, woken up by now."

Wake Me Up When September Ends- Green Day

"Here comes the rain again, falling from the stars. Drenched in my pain again, becoming who we are."

21 Guns- Green Day

"When you're at the end of the road, and you lost all sense of control. And your thoughts have taken their toll. When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul."

Give Me Novacaine- Green Day

"Take away the sensation inside. Bitter sweet migraine in my head. It's like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind. I can't take this feeling anymore."

iRobot- Jon Bellion

"I am a robot, thoughtless and empty. Don't know who sent me, don't know who made me. Electric robot, everything's gray now. Numb to the pain now, I knew what love was."

Another One Of Those Days- Cavetown

"Passed that kid from chemistry, who made fun of my name. He didn't look very happy. I guess we all turn out the same."

Boulevard of Broken Dreams- Green Day

"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me. My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating. Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me. 'Til then I walk alone."

We Don't Have To Dance- Andy Black

"You're never gonna get it, I'm a hazard to myself. I'll break it to you easy, this is hell, this is hell! You're looking and whispering, you think I'm someone else! This is hell, yes, I am in hell!

Ribcage- Andy Black

"Nothing in the cage of my ribcage! Got no heart to break, like it that way. Nothing in the cage of my ribcage! Emptiness is safe, keep it that way."

The Run and Go- Twenty One Pilots

"I can't take them on my own, my own. Oh, I'm not the one you know, you know. I have killed a man and all I know, is I am on the run and go."

Fall Away- Twenty One Pilots

"I disguise, and I will lie, and I will take my precious time. As the days spent away, as I stand in line, and I die as I wait, as I wait on my crime. And I'll try to delay what you make of my life, but I don't want your way, I want mine. I'm dying and trying, but believe me I'm fine. But I'm lying, I'm so very far from fine!

Trapdoor- Twenty One Pilots

"He wakes up early today, throws on a mask that will alter his face. Nobody knows his real name, but now he just uses one he saw on a grave. And he pretends he's okay, but you should see, oh. Him in bed late at night, he's petrified."

Sad Song- Christina Perri

"I wish I wasn’t always wrong, I wish it wasn’t always my fault. The finger that you’re pointing has knocked me on my knees. And all you need to know is… I'm so sorry, It’s not like me. It’s maturity that I’m lacking."

Escapism- Steven Universe

"I guess I have to face, that in this awful place, I shouldn't show a trace of doubt. But pulled against the grain. I feel a little pain, that I would rather do without."

Semi-Automatic- Twenty One Pilots

"Night falls with gravity, the earth turns from sanity, taking my only friend I know, he leaves a lot, his name is "Hope". I'm never what I like, I'm double-sided, and I just can't hide, I kind of like it when I make you cry, 'cause I'm twisted up, I'm twisted up inside."

Screen- Twenty One Pilots

"I can't see past my own nose, I'm seeing everything in slo-mo. Look out below crashing down to the ground just like a vertical locomotive. That's a train, am I painting the picture that's in my brain? A train from the sky, locomotive, my motives are insane!"

March To The Sea- Twenty One Pilots

"Then the wages of war will start, inside my head with my counterpart. And the emotionless marchers will chant the phrase, 'This line's the only way.' Then I start down the sand, my eyes are focused on the end of land. But again the voice inside my head, says, 'follow me instead.'"

Migraine- Twenty One Pilots

"Freeze frame, please let me paint a mental picture portrait. Something you won't forget, it's all about my forehead, and how it is a door that hold's back contents, that makes Pandora's box contents look non-violent!"

#pro snape #snape fandom #severus snape #pro severus snape

[littlebabycrybtch]

honestly its still so heart dropping and disgusting to continue to see aspec ppl have to put on that like. trained, overly polite, overly passive, complete Lack Of Self Respect tone that forces a sense of ‘i know i dont matter’ just so they dont get completely automatically ground into dust when they go out on a limb and ask ppl they wanna interact with; ‘hey please dont start anything but can you just let me know if you’re an aphobe or not’ and its Still met with soo much mockery and disbelief almost every time like....... bro what even is there not to understand. you’re literally being the proof of why they have to ask abt it i cannot Fathom that kind of Blindness like lmfao bitch they just dont wanna be around some1 who hates them.... thats .. normal... thats human?? thats human behaviors. its having standards for yourself. its FEELINGS like unironically rn pls tell me you’re clowning and that you do understand how fucken LOUD you all are abt normalizing aspec hate and how often we obviously run into bitches like you and have to ask this question. you know how LONG we’ve begged for basic support so you have to know that reacting to being asked if you give a shit abt somebody with that kind of mockery is disgusting and bratty and ignorant af bc bro lmao its YOUR FAULT for being a Part of the people HATING THEM....?

holy shit lol, nobody should be good with being around people who disrespect a part of them,,,, thats like a genuine personal problem if someone willingly wants to do that, so why tf would you be expecting that. bc its us? bc its us. bc its us and you feel THAT right in thinking that we’re so worthless, they we are just so Stupid for not knowing that too. its funny to you that we dont realize how little we matter. lmao its so ugly and warped like!!! god how fuckin evil can you get just calm down idiot lmao theyre asking if you respect them and you’re basically responding ‘why would it matter to you if i didnt?’ bhsejbjehg uhhhhhhjjjjjjjjj bc thats. a regular thing 2 care about. its standards like mam do you hang out with ppl who hate you. is that some normal thing to you like. avoiding the ppl who wish you werent around is sort of just . health and safety and basic emotional response and also common sense. really is. literally How dehumanizing and detached coudl you POSSIBLY be abt this to be directly asked by a marginalized identity group if you respect them or not, and actually say No, but Also be like ‘LMAO YOU REALLY ASKED ME THAT? IT DOESNT MATTER’ like. yeah it matters bc they stay existing actually, you dont have to hate them for that, and they wouldnt have to ask yall this stuff if you behaved lmfao. not to mention your reaction is literally the evidence that it apparently matters enough to You to make sure they know you dont accept them. fully, you are whats making it ‘matter’ so much bc you are the one going apeshit over a benign existence. you’re the one losing it over nothing.

like lmfafuckingo what is WRONG with your MIND dude im.... speechless like ‘dont drag me into discourse’ YOU HATING SOME1 AND THEM HATING YOU BACK IS NOT ‘’’’’’TUMBLR DISCOURSE’’’’’..............? WHAT R U DISPLAYING RN DID U NOT SPEND ENOUGH TIME IN THE GUIDANCE COUNSELORS OFFICE GROWIN UP WITH THIS ATTITUDE......... ITS THE NATURAL ORDER OF SOCIAL CONSEQUENCE......... ITS SOME BASIC ‘YOU STARTED IT’ TEE MOTHERFUCKIGN EM LOGIC...? YOU HATE THEM! FOR AUTONOMY! FOR HAVING AN IDENTITY AND ENOUGH SELF RESPECT TO STICK BY IT! THEY HATE YOU BACK I THINK THEYRE ALLOWED TO ASODLKFL;SDF AAAA DUUUDE lmaoooo and like good lord, passively existing around ppl who hate you and not challenging them isnt ‘avoiding discourse’. thats. so unhealthy sdjkf what kind of underdeveloped politics.... its toxic and absolutely batshit to genuinely ask that of Anyone. like bro stop Actually expecting ppl to hate themselves for ur comfort thats.... so weird i.... are you okay hhh nah you just need to step up and try to be a regular ass person actually and have sympathetic reasoning skills. being ace is fiiiine its nbd i dont need to to change for you, im allowed to be this, and i get to ask if you’re ok with that so i dont end up in a gross ass environment.

ace =/= discourse. you dont get a say in everything my dude. we’re not here for you to analyze, we dont give you permission and we dont need Your permission to exist, we’re not asking that of you when we send those msgs we’re tryna figure out if ur gonna be a bitch or not basically lol just seeing if we’re gonna be accepted by you or if we’re wasting our time like alksd;al its so traumatizing and unnecessary and MINDBOGGLING that u think its not fucked up ?? to feel like we are supposed to accept your hate of us as our truth?? you believe we’re that awful that its Funny when we dont Realize it or smth thats just so....... what would even make you respect us. literally absolutely nothing besides not existing in front of you. so. thats hate. thats irrational unwavering hate. beyond the fact that any group always has the right to ask you if YOU hate THEM, you cant sit there and mock the mere idea of caring when you are literally giving reason for it by trying your BEST to upset them and make them feel like they deserve to feel like shit for what they are afterwards. dfgjdfkgjdlfkgfd man the hypocrisy and like complete lack of self awareness in reg culture is like novacaine for my brain its so jarring sometimes. im allowed to have a problem with you having a problem with me bc i cant fix Being smth, you can fix how you feel abt it. balls in your court ill stay waiting. im not gonna hate myself bc you’re not right xoxo get a vaccine for w/e makes you this evil and selfish pls

[yanderefictinallove]

Novacaine Yan! Dentist Muzan x Reader

Reader is female

WARNING ⚠️

The following includes, drugging, anxiety, anxiety attacks, mentions of dead bodies, angst, Demon Michael Jackson, heehee

Tw: anxiety, gore, panic attacks read at your own risk

This story is recommended for disrespectful teens like me..so yeah keep that in mind, my adult readers are welcome too

     It's not that painful, so why the hell are you crying?!

I was sitting in the waiting room dreading having to see him again, my anxiety is through the roof. I wanna cry…

I wanna cry

I must cry

I need to cry

I NEED to cry

It's not that I hate going to the dentist, I'm not even getting a tooth pulled, it's just the dentist himself, he makes me uncomfortable. I feel like he locks the door anytime I go in there with him. The looks he gives me are very scary and even sometimes perverted. Yes, I tried to switch dentists, but for some reason I always ended up with him.

I always get a bad feeling in my gut when I see him. 

"Y/N L/N!!"

My name just got called, i'm so scared, i don't wanna go, i can't go, but the nurse is waiting. And other people are waiting. Not to mention it's 7:30 in the morning and I woke up at 6:00 for this. 

I stood up, fear filling my whole body as I was guided to the room where he was waiting for me.

i can't breathe 

I cant breath 

I cant breath

I want to breathe 

I need to breathe

The assistant stopped in front of the door and had the words "Kibutsuji" on it, oh no…please someone help me…i don't want to…

She pulled the handle, and opened the door, the world was going slower by the second I could hear my heartbeat in my head, I wanted to vomit. 

As soon as she leaves I'll tell him I have to use the bathroom then make a run for it. My eyes widened.

He was not in there

I felt relieved at the sight in front of me. Thank god he was not there. " Please wait here until he arrives, it will only be a moment, please have a seat" the lady walked away. I glanced around the room and set my sight on the tools, they all looked mighty sharp and dangerous…like they hurt.

But

The main thing I noticed in the room was a syringe full of liquid and right next to it was the liquid inside, I walked toward it and tried to read the label…'Novacaine'. Weird.. why would he need that if he was just cleaning my teeth, right next to it was something that read 'Anastasia'...my anxiety came back…why does he have that, all i want is to get my teeth clean..so why are these in his possession at the moment.

"Welcome back Ms. L/n~"

I heard that dreadful voice, it was coming from behind me, I looked behind me , I saw no one, I turned around again and I saw him…multiple of him all holding rope and syringes, I ran out the door and saw all the walls peeling. The nurses and people in the waiting room looked like they were decaying and sickly. I started to puke, just as I reached the front door, I was pulled back by two sets of arms, they were holding me down, while one was removing my clothes, he said with i calm and warm and twisted smile…" Don't be afraid you're making things worse, I should know cause I'm the doctor here~" he grabbed onto my bottoms. Everything fades to black

I opened my eyes and saw everything was normal and Mr. Kibutsuji was just doing his job, no corpses, no rope, and I still have my clothes on. I'm hella confused…

"Oh you are awake, how are you feeling?"

I didn't respond 

"You must have forgotten where you are, must be side affects to the Anastasia…oh well~"

I sat up to look around, I saw the door and my eyes were not deceiving me…it was locked and the window was covered.

I turn to look at him and see him with a cloth in his hand, he puts it over my mouth without giving me time to collect my thoughts.

"It seems we need to have an extended appointment over at my house, immediately🖤" that's all I heard before I blacked out…

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This fanfic was inspired by: Creep P, GHOST song "Novacaine"

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