#Let them be what you intended them to be

[lowquailityphotos]

Look I vibed with some of SJM's stuff when I was younger and so that and specifically a few of her characters have a special place in my heart.

And I guess that's why it feels so sucky that Rhysand is such a key player in all three of her book series it seems.

Yeah he's the main love interest in ACOTAR and that's fine. He's meant to play a big role there. High lord and all that. Fine.

But he's the one who saves Aelin when she's falling through the world's? He's the one who gets name dropped when Bryce gets to prythian? No doubt he's gonna play a major part in the next book.

But bestie you wrote 3 books series with woman as your MC and Rhysand is the one that has weight in all of those books.

Feyre is reduced to a pregnant female when Aelin sees her, and Rhys is the one reaching his power out despite not being the MC of that world and again, feyre is just a pretty female when Bryce sees her for the first time. And feyre is happy for Rhys to introduce himself and not the both of them. Again he's not the main character of that series

It's honestly just gross that this sad man has so much importance to Sarah he is actually forms part of the plot in her other series

Urgh whatever

#acotar #tog #cresent city #aelin galythinius #feyre archeron #bryce quinlan #rhysand #anti rhysand #like my dude #You can feel the hard on she has for this man #it's embarrassing #And I say that as someone who has basically only loves fictional men #Urgh #Let your female characters shine #Let them save each other #Let them be what you intended them to be #I suppose you did #Side eye feyre's pregnancy #I'm just too salty for her anymore

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[crescentfool]

having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!

#persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #hc and au nonsense #lizzy speaks #happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳 #i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at- #him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know? #and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^ #something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls #you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations #and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4 #and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are... #that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!) #the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES #objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written #but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently #specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship #it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc #it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but #eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses! #regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself- #into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here. #the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go #“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons #anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍 #have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙

[rohirric-hunter]

Since I know you work at a warehouse, anytime we receive a pallet with something about it that displeases me I say to myself, "This would not happen if Snowy worked at our warehouse".

You're right, it absolutely would not. I release only the most high-quality of pallets

#i appreciate that my warehouse stories have made an impact #hopefully an amusing one which is what i mostly intend them to be #let me tell you tho i took a pallet to the stargate today with some boxes on it and after i dropped it off i was looking for another #to take back to the packing area #and they were ALL broken. im talking matchsticks held together with pins #im like what is that doing here. im not going to take that to the packing area #i had two boxes today that weighed 70lbs each #if i put them on these pallets they would expire. become ex pallets #become KINDLING #anyway. i stole a good pallet from inventory lmao

[gayofthefae]

The idea that El, at its core concept - no semantics, would prioritize her boyfriend over her family is a fundamental misunderstanding of her arc.

She won't be choosing in the first place but if she was going to Will is literally her BROTHER. Idc if she's known Mike longer that mf lives with her, you thinks she's gonna wreck her FAMILY? Her HOUSEHOLD??? Threaten her HOME LIFE????!!!

#el hopper #stranger things #willelmike #i'm not anti any ship i'm anti toxic fans #if it can be consistent with their arcs i'm for it and i'll let you be and i do #but when you're arguing directly against them #nuh uh #will isn't her new buddy #he is her BRO.THER. #What is she gonna do? give him the silent treatment until college? #whisper slurs at thanksgiving dinner what? #no because literally what would she even do #some of y'all forget even if she was horribly mad at him it would still be her being mad at her BROTHER #she can't just dump his ass (like she can and has done mike -oop #i honestly didn't even intend that reference anyways-) she has to go home to that mf every day and sit with him at the dinner table #if it got nasty they have parents and a brother who would be affected and get involved #like they are siblings that doesn't change even if she felt betrayed by him somehow #willel

[royalarchivist]

If there's one request I can make of you guys, it's that you please please please let me know if I upload something and it doesn't look right (ex: the audio is desynced, the visuals are glitchy, etc.)!!! It's embarrassing!!!!

#mod talk #Thank you #I was going through my tag and saw a 2 week old video tumblr absolutely munched up to hell and back #idk how I didn't notice that when it got posted #the audio is bugged the video is awful AND it's desynched which is a crime #but the biggest crime is NOBODY told me!!!!! #I feel betrayed. Abandoned. I'm leaving to live in a small cottage on the seaside and never coming back #Anyways Tumblr's been messing up a lot of my videos lately. I contacted them about it but they weren't much help #so relying on you guys. you know I'm a good editor. please don't let me post garbage like that and assume it's what I intended #genuinely scandalized. I'm deleting the post rn and will repost it in the morning

[serenescribe]

Spoilers ahead for the latest parts of Chapter 7! Speed-wrote this with only Twitter live-tweeting threads for context. Might not be accurate to canon but who cares about that when the tragedy is impeccable?

What happens if you die within a dream?

Silver thinks he should know the answer to that — or more precisely, the answer in normal circumstances. If things were not as dire as they are now, if he and everyone else were not locked away in the throes of a dream they cannot wake up from, he knows what would happen. He would wake up easily, jolting upright as panic grips his heart, panting as his mind struggles to calm itself from the weight of a nightmare he cannot remember.

But things are not normal, and Silver is scared.

He is scared and in pain, sprawled out against the forest floor. His weapon has been tossed carelessly to the side, disarmed by the person pressing his weapon against his throat, and for some reason, perhaps because he is incapacitated and hurting, energy sapped from a battle he had not wanted to fight, he is unable to jump dreams again.

(And, to be honest, he doesn’t want to leave, to find another person’s dream and take refuge there, if only for a little while. This is Lilia’s dream, his father’s dream, and Silver refuses to leave without him by his side.)

And, as Silver presses himself as closely against the bloodstained grass as he can, pushing away from the sharp weapon the best he can, all he can think is, Ah. I finally understand.

He has heard stories all throughout his life — about his father’s might as the revered General Vanrouge of Briar Valley. His name is admired for a reason, respected far and wide across the valley. And though Lilia did not take down Silver immediately in their battle, the reflexes honed from years of training from the very man now fighting him, eventually, he succeeded. 

Silver is young, only seventeen. What chance did he face, going up against his father in a fight like this, when the Lilia he sees is in the height of his prime? When he is holding absolutely nothing back?

He feels the sharp tip of his father’s weapon press closer against the thin skin of his neck, but the only thing that crosses his pain-muddled mind is that the blade in his father’s hands is the very same one he would give to Silver whenever he sent his son off to chop some firewood. Silver thinks that he’s speaking too, can see his mouth move, having pushed his mask aside at some point, but the only thing that he hears is a muddled warble of nothing that sounds real.

His head is spinning. Every limb in his body is aching.

Silver can feel the sticky slickness of his own blood matting the grass beneath him.

What will happen to him, now that he has failed? He will not die permanently; he knows that much. But the alternatives that swim through his muddled brain do not bring him comfort in any form. Perhaps Silver will simply wake up back within the confines of his own dream — but that, in itself, would be a problem, because Silver knows that Malleus is after them, ready to lull him into an impenetrable slumber with the flick of a wrist.

And if Silver loses himself to the throes of this neverending dream… then what? What will become of Sebek and Grim and Yuu? He can see them out of the corner of their eyes; no matter how hard Sebek yells, he is not getting through the other soldiers, least of all his grandfather, as much in his prime as Silver’s father. They have been apprehended, outnumbered and outpowered, and Silver gets the sinking feeling that very soon, they will meet the same fate that he is steadily barreling towards.

He is the hero of this twisted story they have found themselves in, no matter how odd it feels to think of himself this way. His unique magic, as useless as he has believed it to be, has its own purposes now. It is the only thing that may stand between Malleus, overblotted as he is, unable to cope with the weight of abandonment, and his desires of a thousand years of blissful dreams.

So if Silver dies, to the blade of his own father, who stares down at him like a stranger, with not a single trace of recognition in those red eyes—

Then what?

#twst #twisted wonderland #oh boy gotta tag this one for spoilers #twst spoilers #twisted wonderland spoilers #twst ch7 #<-- last one there is what i use for my friend #twst silver #my writing tag #context is basically just 'what if lilia just fought them actually' #because he doesn't know who they are!!! #tumblr drabbles tag #(bc i intend to post more shorter stuff in the future. am stockpiling for my eventual hiatus come august) #this one goes out 2 lettie ur a real one for letting me whack you with this fic #personal writing

[dent-de-leon]

remembering that Caleb originally designed the Vault of Amber to carry corpses--specifically, he envisioned killing Astrid and Wulf, using their remains as stand-ins for his parents' dead bodies, and that's...a lot. But--

It was supposed to be for carrying corpses. For making them conveniently disappear. When the Nein talk about bringing Molly back to the Blooming Grove to give him a proper burial, Caleb starts ritually casting Vault of Amber. "To take him with us," he says. Because that's exactly what this spell is built for, to carry bodies. And while Molly's lying there lifeless, Caleb is right beside him, still concentrating on his spell.

I don't know. Something about how he built this portable coffin to carry his former lovers who betrayed him. Something about how he was going to keep Molly in there. Caleb still wanting to hold onto his Circus Man in some way. His magic wasn't enough to save him, but. For just a moment, he still wants to keep him close.

And then, before the spell can take hold, when he's still looking down at Mollymauk and truly believes him to be gone--miraculously, his eyes open--

#it is truly so tragic and haunting to me what his original plan was for the vault #and just. how caleb seems to feel like he had no other options-- #caleb designing it specifically as his own means of changing fate and cheating death and. the notion that it was intended to hold bodies #how caleb always seems to be holding onto his loved ones when they are gone and cant bear to let them go #the fact that he as literally right beside molly still focused on his spell when this tiefling just bolts up and rUNS-- #also would tealeaf survive being in the vault of amber if caleb's spell finished before the divine intervention asklsfkdgh #i think it would be cute to carry him around in a little pocket sized gem. a travel sized tief-- #do you think at some point jester was like 'ya king its a good thing caduceus got the wildmother when he did because caleb almost #put you in his magic suitcase--'

[last-flight-of-fancy]

hey, hey, quick internet fandom ettiquete lesson; X has two hands jokes only vibe if you are talking to someone who is ALSO already talking about how X has two hands. Okay? Okay. It is in fact very rude to go onto other people’s posts where only one set of hands is involved to evangalise about two hands. When seeing ship art/fic of only half your ot3, it is proper ettiquete to simply enjoy the art/fic as it is, and if so inspired create/commission/seek out the ot3 content of your choice. This has been your quick internet fandom lesson, thank you for your time.

#this is one of those things that has been cropping up a lot lately and it's. not cool. don't do this okay? #bc no one likes being evangelised at; for any reason #i know its probably just because you love your ot3 and i 100% feel that. i have many an ot3 i adore #but to the person who reads your comment on the thing they put hard work and love into it just reads as- #-'the product of your hard work and love is WRONG you should fix it to MY PERSONAL STANDARDS' #you are not better than the singular otp sides of things and its *certainly* not a solution to ship wars #the ot3 is going to have a different dynamic than either side of the individual otps and thats simply not going to vibe with everyone #and thats okay! #long story short: enjoy your ot3. love it! and let others enjoy their otps in peace. tell them you like their art if you want! #just dont go on to say what you think is missing that the creator clearly never intended #stop talking to yourself flight #ngl this is like. at least half the reason i've kinda been shuffling away from srk #kh3 convinced me sr was endgame but i could have happily kept on shipping an ot3 without canon. i dont need canons permission to ship #but wow has the constant bombardment in almost exclusively sr fanworks of 'omg two hands' has really soured the whole thing to me tbh #stand au srk is kind of the only srk to me now

[sonego]

not the news calling PALESTINIANS the invasors. fuck you fuck you fuck you

#RAGING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #decades of violent unrelented repression ethnic cleansing settler colonialism war crimes human rights violations #but palestine fights back and now THEY're the invasors. lol okay! funny how that works! #i feel so much anger at the way the world treats palestinian people #the same fucking people who support u/kraine and denounce r/ussia turn around and #call ISRAELIS the rightful owners of a land THAT WAS NEVERRRRRRR THEIRS!!!!!!! #fucking go to hell #oh i WILL be wearing my palestinian necklace i bought from a palestinian shop a few months ago EVEN MORE OFTEN #i will loudly and proudly support palestine until it will be free and i hope after - i hope i get to see the day they're free #it's truly insane to see the news talk about hundreds of israeli deaths when they NEVER report ANY of the COUNTLESS deaths tortures #imprisonment forced fleeing etc etc that israel have caused in palestine over DECADES. DECADES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #of fucking course palestinians fight back. of fucking COURSE. they've TRIED peacefully getting the rest of the world's attention so they #could get HELP. what has the west done? given israel weapons and money to spend on killing palestinians #palestinians have TRIED peace. israel didn't listen. israel never intend to be peaceful. bc they're a settler colonial power. bc they do no #care about the lives of palestinians they do not care about peace #if they did. they wouldn't try to completely eradicate the palestinian people. you can't pretend you want peace and at the same time force #yourself on a peaceful people's land and use some of the most brutal cruel forces to do that too #i wish people would READ. LISTEN. GET INFORMED. bc palestine needs help. but people keep staying convinced THEY are the enemy #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #and until then LET'S HELP THEM FIGHT BACK!!!!! #so we can GET THERE

[punkascas]

aww, man, i'm hella bummed over the news of ofmd.

i wasn't even jonesing that hard for s3 — like i'd of course watch it when it came out, but s2 reiterated and reenforced for me why i'll always choose fandom and fanworks over canon — but i feel gutted for the writers and actors. i feel grieved and jaded. and i feel aggravated that it is a familiar, well-worn groove of jaded grief over how queer stories and stories centred on non-white cis characters with diverse casts don't get their chance to flourish and grow. they don't feed the capitalist beast, even though they absolutely fckin do you're just dumb media executives. those stories are not as easy to market; not the sure, quick buck. not the stories for 18 – 25 year old straight white boys you can peddle to advertisers and that look good in quarterly-projection presentations.

i'm sad because the cast really seemed to get on. really seemed to have one of those rare mixes of chemistry and off-screen friendship. and i want to see them hang out and be creative together and fall further in love with now they portray found family on screen with so much ease and sincerity and full of genuine joy.

i'll miss them. i'll miss watching them play their characters. they seem to love them as much as and for the same reasons that we love those characters.

and to a lesser extent i'm a little disappointed to never find out what the plan would've been for s3, where djenks originally had the characters end up, how and if the creative decisions in s2 would've been addressed. fandom will of course find answers to this, and i know i'll probably think those stories are better if i could compare because i always do, but there's still a part of me that wants to know what djenks and the writing team and the cast would've done.

that all said, a part of me finds it extremely awkwardly morbidly hilarious that the s2 ending is now the official end. the ending that i can only read as a fascinating-yet-distressing lovecraftian horror story waiting to happen. like, not great as a final note due to how much it upset and divided the fandom. i wish it had been an ending that sparked opportunities for community-building and excitement and creativity that comes from a place of wanting more rather than feelings of betrayal or discomfort or creativity that comes from the need to process or to fix or to ignore.

but also as someone who enjoys absurdist dark humour, it's kind of perfect to me. the ending is an amazing (accidental) representation of schrödinger's cat of a conclusion. and i love it.

like, you can read the ending as happy. the main couple is together; the crew has their freedom and found family and can continue a life of adventure without the drama ed or stede can cause. izzy… whatever, i guess. whatever people who are cool with izzy's fate wanted for him.

or you can read the ending as, like: stede, run! you just shacked up with a known mentally and emotionally unstable guy who just very traumatically (and violently) ended a longterm codependent relationship. with the fresh grave of your boyfriend's ex right out front. because both of them are dudes that literally hoard each other's corpses because the codependence and obsessive possession just runs that deep. and you made these life choices while on an isolated spit of land with no one else around but the sea and a rundown shack whose aesthetics are straight out of a horror film. and that's implied to smell like death in one of your last lines of dialogue ever. nothing good will come of this, my guy.

if you know me, you know which reading i'm taking and running with.

#the gay pirate show #ofmd #ofmd spoilers #sort of #otp: divorced in a married state #edizzy: love means never having to let go of your rotting corpse #i have a lot of other thoughts about how they accidentally set up character arcs and character backstories #in a way that positioned the narrative beats the characters needed to complete their arcs #in direct opposition to the story and plot beats they originally meant to tell #which is part of why s2 starts to feel wonky #what the characters need based on their flaws and emotional wounds to self-actualise and grow by the end of the story #is not the story they intended to set up or thought they were writing #so all you can do with your characters is stall their development #or regress them #or sweep things under the rug #or change them in ways that feel unsupported and ooc #maybe i'll write a mini meta on this one day for my own sake just to organise my thoughts #ofmd critical #just in case #but no seriously you're telling me i'm supposed to root for stede and ed #when ed and izzy are so obsessed they can't even let go of each others' dead bodies #up to and including burial in a shallow grave in your garden highly visible from the front windows of your love nest with your new paramour #this is a red flag stede #this is the textbook definition of a red flag #adorable insane fucked up little freaks (edizzy) (affectionate) #kat talks

[novelconcepts]

i don't make resolutions, but if i did

it would be to finish this fic

(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)

#i'm finishing it if it kills me #i know i've been writing this makeout scene for 3 weeks but baby that can't last forever #if we want to get deep and dark and serious for a second i do think a lot of my struggles to write lately have to do with engagement #and how incredibly low engagement has been on the last few things i've written #which like. is what it is. i'm not entitled to anybody's time or comments or kudos. #but when you write stuff you're proud of and it feels like it's barely getting read it's hard to keep momentum. #this isn't intended as a woe is me or whatever it's just kind of like. there. hovering. #happens enough times you start to wonder if it's you. am i just writing for the wrong fandom/ship? #(too bad if so. they're in my bones i'm writing for them and no one can stop me.) #but yeah. if you ever wonder if authors do care or notice about hits. comments. kudos. buddy i am here to tell you #not only do we care and FLOURISH we also notice when those things drop off and readers vanish #and it is a giant bummer. and sometimes makes us wildly paranoid about why that might have happened. #so if you liked a fic today--not even one of mine. just. anybody's. share it. comment on it. #kudos at the VERY least (cuz frankly kudos is there to be an 'i got to the end and this was nice' feature. #so when you get 500 hits and only like 30 kudos? it feels like 470 of those people hated your work) #anyway. that got out of hand. lil' too raw lil' too honest. happens when you let yourself ramble at 11:30 instead of sleeping #to sum: let your local fic writer know if they've made you happy #and as we go into 2024 i am swearing to myself that this fic (and probably several others) are getting finished #come hell. high water. or dishearteningly low engagement numbers. #(and then maybe we...actually work on something original. cuz why not. new year same old me but i'll do my best.)

[cienie-isengardu]

Laseema: "… Etain can’t take care of her baby, Darman doesn’t know he has a kid and I kinda lie now on a daily basis about the whole babysitting Kal’s grandson to Atin too? I feel like I’m betraying his trust but I can’t tell him I know who Kad'ika's parents are, can I? And what if Atin will hate me for this once the truth will come to light? Because Etain and Kal will tell Darman about the baby one day, right. They will tell him, RIGHT? And there is this jerk at work that won’t stop bothering me and can you believe that asshole was yesterday waiting for me outside when my shift has ended? I wish I learned how to use the knife like Atin proposed but I guess it wouldn’t help me much against that bastard; he looked like he wouldn't mind breaking my arm and, you know, do worse stuff. I KNOW, I should tell Kal but he is so busy with… whatever he is doing anyway and Jusik is on Mandalore with Fi, Ordo is already freaked out about Fi and Besany’s safety and I don’t wanna be a burden. I can’t even comm Atin because he is on a mission on the other galaxy’s side, ya know, commando stuff and even if he could comm me, I can’t tell him because I don’t wanna him be upset and distracted over something he can’t do anything about anyway. I couldn’t forgive myself if he got killed because of my problems. Pathetic, right Mird? 

Oh, did I upset you? Sorry Mird, I just needed to rant a bit but don’t worry, I will figure something out. I know what will cheer you up! What is the word Walon is always saying? Oh, right. OYA! Whatever that means Wish I know whatcha thinking right now. Something nice, I bet.

Mird: [HUNT HUNT HUNT HUNT HUNT...]

[part 2] [part 3]

#star wars #cienie's art #republic commando #laseema #mird #laseema & mird #laseema & atin #my repcom musing #as in laseema deserves more attention #so i let her rant a bit more than i intended lol #also mird the problem solver hehe #just in case i tag it as #Repcom Au!vau is done with skirata family drama #part of series even if it has little to vau right now XD #anyway comics set between true colors and order 66 and atin once show up after mission will teach laseema how to use a knife XD #the 2 & 3 part are already sketched but when i will finish them is a good question #the moral of the story don't OYA at mird if you don't know what the word means XDDD

[altairring]

it's officially hallmark christmas movie season in my country which means im getting ads for them everywhere. which made me remember my hilarious revelation from last year that silvio / emma / rio can be fit almost perfectly into the 'rich and kind of asshole big city boyfriend'/'career driven but kind and independent woman'/ 'small town sweetheart' christmas movie archetypes

to be completely honest, the only christmas movie i know by heart is the first two Home Alone movies HAHA

bUT YOU ARE CORRECT!! those archetypes fit them so well and you got me freaking daydreaming about it the moment i saw this in my inbox.

particularly...rioemma

oh, you made my brain rot fURTHERRRR. but i shan't. ill keep my mouth shut.

silvio / emma / rio is a good trio for me. i like thinking about them ...be it their relationship purely platonic/familial. or one of the riccis got together with emma. their dynamic is just too good...

hihi, if they're in a typical Christmas movie. i would watch it.

#emma was busy fulfilling her dreams. it was tiring but she kept herself optimistic #rio making the best out of everything making his life dull and repetitive #they met when the snow was falling. it was a meet-cute. she slipped on a patch of ice that she didnt notice. he caught her. #she apologized and he told her it was okay. they small talk. that small talk became huge. big and got longer than it was intended. #they exchanged contacts and became friends #they talked through their socials...they talked about how the holidays leave them with an empty feeling... #joked abt spending it together #(plot twist: it was NOT a joke) #[insert them becoming closer and closer. their friendship flourishing. trusting each other the most than anyone else in their lives] #rio. whose life became brighter and full of color because of her. #emma. who found comfort in him. where she could let herself be tired and real in front of him. #*clenches fist* #[insert slow-burn romance. with tons of pining yearning and dreaming.] #it took a lot of time but they kissed. after years. while the snow was falling. #their lips warm. emma clutching his coat. rio holding her tightly by the waist. snowflakes melting on their cheeks and eyelashes #i am blabbering #what have you done to me. #my demirose/demian heart is shaking #alt rambles #alts inbox

[starpros-sunshine]

I will never forgive the English translation of the full "stay awhile you are so fair" quote because that is not the same meaning as in the original English and maybe I am wrong and maybe my English is not good enough for that or I'm interpreting this wrong but there is a difference between "bearing something", accepting your fate in a defeated way, even if you do not want to (idk bearing has a pretty negative connotation to be because it's more.... suffering adjacent? I suppose? To me at least) and accepting it in a way that reads like "if it comes to this then I am already beyond saving and I will gladly accept my impending ruin because I brought this upon myself and with that I will live" in German he uses the word "gerne" that means you accept something in a positive way and that you're fine with something and you have no problems with it and that got lost in the English interpretation and I know poetry is different and difficult because of metrics and wordflow and the having it sound right while not losing the intended meaning but it's such a shame to me because the people who don't know the original German can't go insane over Sanctuary the same way I do and that is just such a pity.

#german Faust is fine with it he fully accepts it and embraces it and it's a declaration of sorts #it's more enthusiastic it's more passionate it's more...idk it just lets the english translation seem like a little bit of a let down #english Faust makes a statement. it is what it is and while i might not like it i will bear ir nonetheless because this is my fault #and don't even get me started on not understanding the Japanese translation like. i can't even interpret that as maybe intended #i mean in the end it ends in the dame way but you can see by the way the english is already different in meaning the jaoanese might be too #and i doubt akira knows german #so there are subtleties there i can not understand and i an so angry about it i just know my way to interpret the quote and d that #it is different from other people interpreting the quote because if linguistic differences and :( #it's the same quote it's the same cobtext BUT YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THE SUBTLE UNDERTONES AND I CAN'T #:( #:'( #shame shame shame #but such is the fate of someonr who doesn't speak all languages fluently #sobsob #wataei #<- this /is/ kinda about them technically so...maybe I'll put it in? #should i? #hm #I'll leave it in maybe I'll take it out again later we'll see

[anaalnathrakhs]

i keep looking at posts like "i stopped a binge" "i prevented a binge" and all of them are like. "i waited until the urge went away". buddy. the urge doesn't go away. there's no urge. there's just nothing else to do. i don't have anything else to do. every time i stop eating no matter how long i sit with the feeling or not, i always go for more food because there is genuinely nothing else in my life. nothing is enjoyable anymore. the world sucks. no matter what i force myself to do it's the only positive thing i can ever find.

#like okay cool i let the people around me guilt me into eating whatever they think i should be eating #i get it. i'm so fucking stupid for missing out opportunities to try new food. i should never buy the same food twice. #i should always buy all the variety i can and try everything. #i'm so stupid for having eaten the same stuff in a loop for years and years #i'm a massive fucking weirdo for not eating when other people are eating #i keep stealing food from my parents and the people around me i keep taking way too much of stuff intended for a group #nowhere i go will be free of obligations #i have to keep buying my own poison because everywhere i go there's other people's food waiting for me anyway #my parents keep looking at me like a freak no matter if i eat dinner with them or not #they see me binge and nothing happens #we just ignore it #i just eat until Designated Eating Time is finished #hunger doesnt ever have anything to do with it i just eat when food's in front of me #i need the ritual i need the structure it brings to my life #both meals with other people and my ritual binges #i dont know what to do with myself when i'm not binging #and it's like i'm not allowed to not want food #to other people #it's like i must necessarily want all food and anytime i refuse it's restriction #my friends are always like ooooh you can grab some of my fries if you want #or oooooh do you want the rest of my cookie #or ooooooh and how about you are you ordering something #and i'm like :) yeah sure :) like anybody else would :) #and to myself. to myself i don't know. i think i just want to give up. i want to suffer and i want to fuck up so badly. #so badly that no one can deny i need help #i want to be proven right. i'm just a little weakling and all i'm good for is to haunt the halls of a mental hospital. #no responsabilities no pressure nothing but a pitiable suffering victim #i want somebody or something to swoop in and save me #but nobody will come. it's my job to ask for reasonable help from the relevant authorities. and currently they can't offer that care. #so fuck me i guess