#Idk man. im just doing my best out here

[tadpolebobatea]

Day 6 - Favourite Quote - "i think what you need isn't ruthlessness, its love"

This entire section is incredibly good. But I figuring shortening the quote is alright, this part was the easiest part to draw.

i get the sense fuuko is referring to love on a more cosmic level but ough billytella.

but i just... he did in fact need love. look at him now, hes so much happier now

the entire quote about a build up of love reaching god is so good and reflective of undead unlucks themes as a whole . and uh

nope i got nothing. i leave the analysis to the rest of you.

My stupid ass : i wanna try screen tones. i don't have time to shade properly. day 7 is gonna be super time consuming.

Me, on day 5, super behind : oh no. oh no.

lesson learned. will not be doing that again.

Timelapse

#i really tried my best to avoid too much repetition in my prompts. #the alternative was doing a scene from the war arc. which ive also already done this week. #went with this. since i hadnt done any specific lines from spring #yes i did feel weird drawing billy with tatiana #and not like... his family #Idk man. im just doing my best out here #fuuko izumo #billy alfred #uu billy #uu tella #uu tatiana #(no one could stop me tagging her as tatiana alfred. thats his baby) #undead unluck #uu spoilers #uuweek2024 #my art <3

[skitskatdacat63]

2024 Chinese Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso

#hello here are your daily old man gifs!!! #every time im like no no i shant gif this no one will care #he always sucks me back in w his cute face #i just love his polite listening smile ITS SO CUTEEEE #this is MY race debrief #anyways about the race itself #im still a bit sad about the whole strat thing like agh idk if he could have done any better if not #but it was really so much fun to see him cut thru the pack like that at the end with fresh tires #it just felt so effortless and it was so hot. especially that part where he almost completely wiped out but saved it so easily??? #but ofc the best part was the unintentional war criminal lockup #apparently it wasnt fully his fault but nah im blaming it on him cause its so funny #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2024 chinese gp #also man aston takes so long to upload their fernando debrief vid #i wanna stay up for it cause i missed the other one and it was too far gone to gif #so i wish i could catch it but ah i gotta sleep its so late

[possamble]

realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

[cerealmonster15]

rereading my fics is like a constant cycle of being like "teehee that was funny. oh god that line was cringe. hehe that was funny. wait why did i say that 😑. hehe. wait i forgot about that part. hang on didnt i plan to write xyz into this why did i never get to that. teehee that was funny-"

#anyway im rereading the latest chapter i had for the kalim thing to refresh my mind kfsdjfklsd i gotta revisit my notes #which are. within this sketchbook sojfdlksjf idk why i wrote them in there instead of just in a doc lololol #but god yea i forgot a lot already that happened in the latest chapter bc theres was some stuff i think i hd to add/figure out #as i was writing it outside of the chapter planning lolol #not a lot but enough that i was like HMM. fjdsklfjdskl good thing it is right here for my own. memory. #there are alos a lot of spacing errors and a typo so im editing them rn =_= #ive had a general outline for how the whole thing would go / roughly a few things i might want for the last few chapters #but ough i really am in the no man's land rn this latter part is less planned than the first part LOL #so uh. we'll see how it goes. but it's ok if it sucks it's my first multi chapter fic im not counting on perfection!!! #either way i will do my best. to make it enjoyable i hope sdlkjfklsdjf #ppl in the comments: wow im interested to see how this turns out #me shaking kalim by the shoulders: me too. whats going on. sdjklfjsdkfljsklfjsdkl

[meateater-lamb]

#vent #ahhh my best friend has once again told me to move out and look at shelters hahahahahahaha #like fuck man there ISNT A SHELTER HERE. #the only one we have is only open a couple months in winter #and also a shelter is THE WORST OPTION #esp in utah #like if i move out i need 2 have like help i cant just do it on my own yknow #he did have a good idea abt a mental health professional being able 2 help me tho.. #but then im 2 scared my mom will find out im going to therapy!!! #but i am going to look into it #bc like. i just cant do this anymore yknow #this place is killing me #like literally #both my mental and physical health are. very poor rn. #idk what 2 do idk. i am fuckin scared abt everything yknow #dissociation has gotten worse #i keep seeing things #heart is acting up #cant eat #keep having nightmares #mom wants me 2 give her $1.5k #my dog is super arthritic n im the only one who will do anything with her #which is making MY joints and body pain way worse #i am always sick n i always have the smell of mold stuck in my nose now #i cant even function man #i just lay on the couch all day sick and out of my mind n then i get screamed at for it #bc im the only one who cleans so if im not cleaning the house is fucked and so the house is fucked #i cant see a way out idk #nothing makes me happy and i feel like im dying again #my entire life is fucked

[hecksupremechips]

Teehee I got hugged today 🥰

#the klock keeps ticking #it was literally like 2 seconds but idk im like WOOOOO #like it wasnt long enough for me to be all satisfied touch wise nah im so starved itd take all night and day man #and also this particular person is uh. very special ahem. and it was like #i wrapped my arms around them best I could and i could just feel their hips and like their body squish under my hands #cuz theyre so squishy and sturdy at the same time it felt safe and its like. thats really scary actually #ive never ever felt safe hugging anyone this kinda thing is brand new to me #touch in general is new to me. at least consensual touch that i wanted and initiated #and i just felt really nervous cuz like i really love this person but sometimes its hard cuz like ‘guys’ dont hug each other often #or at least not in a case like this where we’re friends but theres this sorta avoidance around anything romantic #cuz we’re both very awkward and also uh. trying not to cross certain boundaries just yet we need time #but unfortunately im so aaaaa rn and touch starved and i was like im just gonna bite the bullet and ask if we can hug LIKE A DAMN GAY ASS #its like fuck i may as well propose marriage and get on all fours while im at it aaghhhhh why am i like this #but it was fine they werent weirded out or anything. not visibly anyway. and they hugged me!!! #me! of all people! im like so happy we got to hug but im also really pissed cuz it was really brief and i didnt get to memorize how they #felt and now im just like grrrrr. fucking tease why must i be so tortured i get the smallest taste and then poof its gone #i just wanna cuddle and hug them for hours and pull their hair and feel their body all over and uhhhhhhhhh #ahem. i may be getting too gay here huh. damn itttt. fuck me. how do you ask your mate if you can explore bodies #in a way that definitely isnt platonic without making things weird

[dormont]

man. i wasn't expecting to relate to super as much anymore because of it being a coming of age story and i'm older now compared to when i first played it at age 15 (as opposed to gates' story, which only gets more relatable the older i get), but as someone who felt like i was never really allowed to make my own decisions and learn on my own and instead had to have everything be decided for me because the people around me didn't have faith that i could make my own choices (because of autistic reasons), and was only recently given that freedom at the age of 23 after having to really fight for it, this stuff with the adults in serene village thinking hero and partner are just being foolish children for wanting to leave the village but later supporting their dreams and the opportunity to grow is hitting especially hard on this playthrough

#bwark #i said this back on xmas day but my mom (who i was having the most trouble with) and i cleared it up and im more confident making my own #choices for my life now but for years the only way i managed was just by doing what i wanted. i was always terrified of the inevitable #backlash i would get for it but it was the only way i could actually feel in control of myself #and ik my mom's decision making was only out of worry for me and the same applies to the village adults but like. man. idk what im saying #anymore this shit just kinds runs deep for me lmao #also when i say that everything that happened was for autistic reasons that's not me slighting any autistic person that does need help with #making choices just to be clear. im just talking about my own personal needs here #also also i love that the village kids are either more sympathetic (in goomy and deerling's case) or if they're against it they specify it's #because of what the adults say (in pancham and shelmet's case) and it's teaching the lesson that adults aren't always right and know what's #best for kids #and ofc the adults aren't wrong in being worried they're fully justified in that. but with everything i just said it's much better to be #supportive even if you don't agree with it #and i know my situation and h+p's isn't 1 to 1. like there is a big difference between saying no to a kid and saying no to an adult #but kids deserve that right to learn from opportunity just as much as adults do

[snobgoblin]

the problem with being a social butterfly on the internet when you never were irl is that your social skills are super underdeveloped and front and center so you're just saying all the wrong things to like 40 people

#ITS EXHAUSTING. idk how to do this shit #if i make u mad im sorry but holy shit give me some grace #im fighting for my life here man im doing my best #im not out here trying to speedrun hurting your feelings u gotta understand that #it destroys me when i make someone upset. just know that #i feel like a little kid i feel so stupid i cant do anything right #vent #its like u get to learn stuff the hard way you shouldve learned as a kid #but you didnt get the chance to #and now you dont get the patience of 'theyre just a kid theyre learning #you get 'you should know this shit' BUT I DONT do you know how much i was ignored growing up #and treated like an animal #holy shit man

[constantvariations]

Just from a design standpoint, it's very disappointing that all the folks with bright, light color schemes (Yang, Weiss, Sun, etc) are also light skinned when it would be best to make them dark skinned - Sun and Yang especially given how little representation dark skinned Asians have

By doing this, Yang would finally be free of those awful brown slops of outfits while Sun and Weiss would stop disappearing into their white clothes because ☆~contrast~☆ would finally exist

#rwde #i watched the video of a darker black woman skate-dancing in a bright yellow outfit and she was so beautiful #its one of the best videos on the internet hands down #but it really would be nice for darker skinned asians to have their time to shine bc the colorism is p abhorrent #love how white supremacy taints literally every culture on the planet (: its so great (: love every second (: #either way it just makes sense yeah? if you want a hard bright color like yellow to be your main color then you gotta balance it w darkness #instead of attempting to desaturate it w the most vomit looking colors known to man #and im not saying we HAVE to do this #esp w weiss considering her story v much follows the White Mindset #and changing her race would have some v negative impacts on her arc and implications for the audience #it would feel too close to the derailing argument of 'well black people in africa had white slaves so it evens out!!1!' imo #for weiss specifically they need to bring back gradients and lining the outfits w her teammates colors so it doesnt blend w her skin #for Sun they need to bring back his FUCKING MELANIN #and also make him hairy instead of a twink but thats my personal beef. i like my men looking like a rug lmao #for yang they need to figure out her damn colors bc shes dom yellow but theres also orange brown and a spot of purple #what the hell are yall going for here?? #idk im thinking abt colors today bc im in an artsy mood lol

[thecherrygod]

... man i just remembered how last night i had a dream by the end of it there was a cat, and in it i said "oh she looks exactly like tigra!! are you also an attention seeking dumbass like her?" and it was so i may have actually dreamt about her

#my posts #my dreams #sorta i dont care about the rest of that one dream #..... i miss her she was the best creature ive ever met #like yeah i may be allergic to cats. yeah she did basically want to be constantly near or on top of me like a baby #which ended up with me struggling with allergy a lot. but she WAS my baby #... itd be her bday next month. and last month was the anniversary of her death. so im not really surprised #this happened once before and it was even sadder so its not the worst case scenario sdighds #but i miss her that little dumbass made it less than 3 months to be a 21 y-o cat #..... that. means shes been gone for 4 years now huh #man. #theres a cat nearby on a house that i pass when i take the bus for class and depending on the day when i come back home #her name is michy and shes a calico like she was but her face is more of the flat type and her eyes are dif color #but shes also an atention seeking dumbass and she is very sweet and always meows at me when i see her #she is making me both want a cat a lot again and also letting me live vicariously through someone elses pet siuhsug #...... idk what im doing im just rambling im trying to be a bit less sad i guess sghsiguhsg #im gonna watch some stupid videos and then im gonna return here to be bisexual over middle aged men maybe #i just had to get it out of me bc yeah i miss her a lot

[hasturmcfuckface]

you ever walk around the area where you live and think of your long distance friends and go “one day i’ll show you all of this”

#its like #i want to share this with my friends #there are so many things here we can do #but im still under 18 so i can’t yet #but one day #i can show you the best place to catch crabs #and when the tide goes out so you can get to the swan’s nest #idk i just care about my friends man-

[youaremysunshine-court]

You know your country's turning into a dictatorship when you want to write about the recent shit your prime ministers been up to but you're scared you'll disappear yhe way so many journalists have done in the past 5 years he's been in power

#whoops thats not free speech is it #hed love to get rid of people like me who see through his bullshit and have the ability to call him on it #only im fucking scared bc of the number of 'suicides' that have happened after someones brought attention to it #oh yeah this country doesnt care about religion but were going to make it so hard for christians and muslims #oh yeah this country has a lot of politics but most of your politicians will revere hitler #oh politicians serve the people but they have the most black money in the country #oh free speech is a human right but speak too freely and youll disappear #i need to leave before it becomes a fucking police state #although police are so useless here if it was a police state theyd just stand around drinking tea #a police state in this country would just be an eternal lunch break #no it would turn into a dictatorship which is honestly worse #bc itll be a very belarusian dictatorship where the working class is happy and its not unstable but therell still be complete control #over all the citizens #anyway #fuck this #im just angry ig #whatever this too shall pass whatever im gonna do my best to not get caught up in all this shit #its fine ill be fine but yk i cant say any of this out loud or ill disappear but its fine #bit depressing tbh #idk man im not a revolutionary im just gonna focus on making it thru college pfft

[queer-crusader]

Man I've run right out of spoons. Fucking despise shopping. Never again. Goodbye free time for the next 2 weeks now apart from MAYBE the coming weekend, wish me luck lads

#tuesday is gonna be my one comfort day bc i get to commit minor arson and put it out AND i'll be home on time #the arson is paid by work too!! it's part of the safety training i chose to do which has been a fucking BLAST #but yeah after that the best i get is the weekend bc i get to go home to scotland for 3 days #except it's for a wedding near Perth so a) not in Edinburgh and b) idk what my schedule will be or if i get chill downtime or what #man i do love referring to scotland as home tho 🥺 saying im going home just now was like giving myself a wee hug #like i need to do that regularly. reaffirm. how do i feel about Edinburgh? yup - still home ❤️ #genuinely (okay mini tangent here) the first time i returned after being forced to leave everything behind? i was so frightened #i feared i would resent the country for forcing me out. that i would only ever feel bitter again as i wandered its streets and landscapes #except the second i left haymarket station and saw the familiar streets i broke down sobbing #it was still familiar. it was still home. #i felt so fucking much in that moment #scotland has always been a choice. going there. staying there. wanting to build my future there #i had to consciously make that decision every year. even more so when brexit hit #i had to start figuring out what i wanted to do with passports. with residence status. with my future and identity #brexit and politics made me think and choose over and over again. i had to fight to validate my feelings to myself. i battled panic attacks #so yeah. going home to scotland #im still choosing. im still affirming. im still feeling #anne speaks #i really went off topic lmao but ah well fuck it #anyway no spoons left im gonna collapse a bit and maybe do some archaeology in elder scrolls. dig up wee artifacts. vibe

[indigodawns]

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#*youtuber voice* helllooOOOO my beautiful people it's me!!! im here today with another im bored and on a train and i don't want input #(But Also) #i don't really have anything to say i want to talk about indigo (namjoon's album) and i wanna hear someone talk about the production on it #bc idk much about that but i saw a twt mutual love it and yeah it FEELS good and deep and like you can sort of dig into it #and that's so so cool #also can i just. can we JUST. i love many songs on it but change pt2 is still a bit insane to me in the best way like it's HARSH it's blasé #it's sexy it's heartbreaking. you know??? #anyways. such a cool album #as for work today. let me just say: 💀💀💀 #it was SO busy bc holidays and the tension is just... my former boss/wife of the former boss is Done with the wife of the new boss and it's #A Lot let me tell you. honestly wife of new boss is just..... she's not cut out for it man and she keeps making off jokes that annoy people #(e.g. haha work harder lol just kidding) (when she often complains when we do have to work hard and she doesn't rly know what to do) #(also nr1 way to piss people off there like do NOT come for their work ethic) #anyways. it ended with the two arguing loudly #im usually just kinda comforting boss nr1 bc idk she likes me i like her and she works so so hard and the way the other one treats her... #also i say comforting i mean awkwardly patting her arm and empathising #also the other woman. you ever have people and their smell just. Upsets you? like her perfume idk. #anyways. im just hobbling on y'know it's all fine im just very tired all the time #what i also wanted to know if anyone's still reading is just how you all are doing what you're excited about how you find indigo #if you've listened etc etc #<3

[the-cooler-king]

Oh yeah..... midnight gospel be hitting.... sitting in my bed fuckin. Crying. Get a grip girl

#Its the trudy ep which is actually the episode that made me keep watching #I love love love this episode..... #Something about how.......... idk.... its a very profound ep that I can't explain and it's a nice cry #This ep kind of shaped my outlook on life especially after finding out about my friend dying #All the regrets and things left unsaid.... I make my peace daily by being really straight up #If I love and care about ppl I tell them... I say they are appreciated and cared for man #I am always thankful for people and I *love* people as a whole #And as long as the people around me intrinsically know that they are loved and cared for and cherished.... like that's it #That's the end game truly #I will never ever be sorry for that. This was THEEEE episode. #There's a lot of nuance behind my feelings best described by revolutionary girl utena #But still. I'm deep enough in my tags bc I'm crying over my s/o but not in a bad way #Fml I am so grateful to him as just an entity. As a person in my life even if our lives only intersect for this brief period of time #He hasn't been texting me much and we didn't talk much at work and I didn't even get a goodbye (rude lol) #But I know he was having a rough day. I know he needs a bit of tlc. #He could be on a downswing because I am certainly on an upswing #So I'm kind of like trying to focus on doing my own thing rn without worrying about it #Because I can't do anything about it so I might as well continue My Thang #But as I sometimes come to terms with us never talking again (gotta be prepared at all times to be ghosted) #I also come back to terms with needing him to really understand #how many people in his life depend on love cherish and admire him #And im not just talking about me... he has a lot of siblings and a not great mom. Two kids he loves. #He has always taken care of everyone else in his life #He deserves to really know and idk. It makes me think of this moment. #Realizing how much I dont ever want to question if he knows #I don't want to question if I could've done more or tried harder etc. I did my very best and didn't lie cheat steal or whatever #I am so grateful to him for letting me have that. Even if nothing can come from it in the end #Even if we should be torn apart!!!! Take my revolution!!! #Anyways. Here's wonderwall #Banger of an episode. Worth the rewatch

[vagueiish]

if anyone has any examples of 30-something+ near/full NEETs eventually doing something worthwhile with their lives, that'd be greatly appreciated

#well meaning people give examples of people who didnt become famous til they were older #'harrison ford was like 40 when he started acting :)' #yeah and he had had a p good career as a carpenter up til then #he didnt have to claw his way out of the swamp of worthlessness. he was already somebody just in a different direction #all those fucking quote unquote late bloomers werent actually late bloomers #theyd just either bloomed somewhere else and managed to transplant themselves #or theyd already bloomed - even if just a little - and it took a while for them to bloom to such an extent that people cared #here i am at *coughcpugh* years old still in the fuckin seed packet bro #college drop out with no job skills. working a mindless skillless directionless retail job #a job i didnt get til i was almost 30 mind you. my v first job #one id been turned down for before but thanks covid! for lowering the hiring standards at (retail job) i guess #the swcond best time to plant a tree is now i guess #but the potential of blooming twenty fucking years from now doesnt help me now. especially considering all the ways shit could hit the fan #im still marveling at the fact i didnt have a job til a few years ago. lmao what a fuckin loser #it wasnt without trying. and tbf 18 through my 20s was....a lot of caretaking of family #but thats no excuse? people find ways to do both #anyway. yeah. it'd be nice to see that other people managed to climb their way out of the same-ish hole i gind myself in #but i doubt it 🙃 #everyone on here is like.... artistically skilled. or do shit with computers. or like.... are valued members of their friend groups #people are like 'youre not alone!' but idk man. i think im the only person who has been *this* worthless #to the void with love