#INSANE I AM GOING INSANE GOODBYE!

[seasonsbloom]

may's 1.5k follower celebration

guys ! I actually cannot believe that anybody follows me let alone this many people? I am in shock, I am in awe, I am eternally grateful and I will now go and sob in a corner thank you, and goodnight! to celebrate, you guys can send in anything that piques your interest from down here! truly I love you all hugs and kisses and :(

R O M E O - send me an au/concept/trope and a character and I'll write you a drabble OR choose any prompt from the three lists linked below and send them in with a character (as always, I write for any of the top gun guys excluding Mav because Tom Cruise still terrifies me)

soft - smut - i love you

G E L A T O - send me any character/pairing from one of my previous fics and I'll give you a headcanon about them!

F O N T A N A D I T R E V I - send me your favorite book/song and I'll recommend you a book/song I think you'll like! (mutuals only!)

C A M P A R I - i'll match you with a cocktail! (mutuals only!)

A M A L F I - send me a fic title and I'll make up a plot to go along with it!

A P E R O L - send me a 🍑 and I'll answer with one of my favorite reaction pics/memes

V E R O N A - ask games! anything goes: fuck marry kill, top three, would you rather, tag your mutuals, etc, etc

thank you to anybody who has spoken to me on here, who has sent me a nice ask, who has followed, who has just silently read my fics or even just smiled at one of my dumb memes. i love you all.

special mention to @sunderlust without whom i wouldn't be here and who has become not just an online friend but a true, actual friend to me and a really important presence in my life. sol, I truly love you and I'm so happy we met, sorry I got so sappy, bye.

also lowkey a little shout-out to @oncasette whose celebrations always look so stunning, you inspired this 100%!!!

#1.5k celebration #INSANE I AM GOING INSANE GOODBYE! #i'd tag my moots but I'm too shy jesus just know I am giving you all a big hug and I smell like flowers lmfao #i am also baking you guys a cake goodbye

[willowser]

i think katsuki just answers his phone by barking out, "bakugou." no hello, probably doesn't even look at the caller id LOL when he hears it's you, though, i think he breathes out the tension he didn't realize was coiled in his shoulders, and says a lil, "hey," 🥺🥺

and i think when he calls you, and you answer with your sweet, "helloooo ??" he is so soft 😌 just mumbles out a quiet, "what'chu doin'?" and listens as you tell him, before saying what he needed to 😌

#okay one bkg thought and then i am going to bed hehe #i need him terribly i fear 😔 #pls just the idea of him huddling in a corner so no one can hear him 🥺 as he speaks softly to you 🥺 #and even if he calls to tell you something—he always asks what you're doing 🥺 #and listens 🥺 and engages 🥺 #i also dont think he says goodbye LOL #he just says 'alright' and hangs up LOL #or he says 'alright love you' hang up #why does this make me so insane for him idk idk #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: domestic bakugou

[musashi]

on this almost christmas i would like to share with you my absolute favourite thing that happens in the entire goodbyes anime

#turnabout goodbyes #pwaa #ace attorney #larry butz #manfred von karma #fave episodes #fave scenes #three nights at feddys #simmering sapphire #utilfam #(he kilt larey) #this makes me go fucking INSANE every time the way he just THANOSES HIM #i am constantly saying mvk kins thanos as a joke but i need you to know its not a joke actually. he does

[maxcuntstappen]

hi! i was wondering, why are some cars faster than others? what makes red bull different from other teams when they're all subject to the same reg changes? is it just due to their resources or a lack thereof?

hello! i will try to answer this the best that i can with my limited tech knowledge and vocabulary <3

tldr; basically, yes, there is a difference between the teams' performance cause by the variation in the amounts of money, sponsors and overall resources. but as certain teams have showed time n time again (eh-em scuderia ferrari), it's not just about having money but what you do with it; largely when it comes to aero development and the wiggle room the regs give

first things first, while the regs are same for all teams, the way the regs are interpreted by the teams differ largely. everything from the floor to the wings to the nuts and bolts can be customised by the teams. Some choices work in their favour, others not so much.

something to remember is that, while building a f1 car, you're always choosing to sacrifice one thing or another. for example, during the merc domination era, their cars were rarely ever following another due to always qualifying in the top 2. that's how they designed their car then; to lead, not to follow. which means that when they did have to follow another their car, their aerodynamics struggled and the car got much harder to drive. but that's a risk they chose to take because they knew that their car had good qualifying pace.

the teams try to build a car that suits to all tracks; ones with mostly slow speed corners or fast speed corners or mid. long straights or not. all that jazz. the ideal car is one that can do well or at least relatively well in all of these tracks. but as last year showed, even the best developed cars (rip rb19 u will always be famous) will struggle on some tracks (singapore; marina bay circuit; heartbreaker). it is extremely hard to be able to build a car that's always in the top 2, and often, it requires other teams massively fucking up their interpretation of the regs and the parts and features they believe makes for a fast f1 car.

a BIG part of setting up and building a car is having drivers that can give you feedback on how the cars act and react on the track. the simulators are great and helpful but they cannot be compared to the feeling of being in the actual car, going 300 miles an hour and feeling it in your bones. time and time again, it's been seen that teams who have ignored their drivers' suggestions on what to change about the car (lewis @ merc since the last two years) have suffered a decline in the quality of their machines.

all of this comes down to the development of the car and the people involved in developing said car. of course the resources matter but the development philosophy (especially when it comes to what they do with their aero package) often plays the biggest part.

but to come to the resources part,

sponsorships, the finishing position in the wcc; the price money that comes along with it, and whether the team is backed by an engine manufacturer/major brand does give that monetary boost that leads to massive differences in lap time on track. for one, it influences the people you can hire; right from the drivers to the strategists and aerodynamicists. talent comes with a massive price tag in f1.

with teams with lesser sponsors (for eg, haas), there also comes the limitation of not being able to afford extra, spare engines or front/rear wings which can then limit and lead to a drop in the car's performance. while rbr can afford to switch out their PU if it's not giving them peek performance, williams or haas cannot do that simply because of not having enough money to be able to buy another engine from the manufacturer.

f1 is trying to decrease the difference between the teams' performance based on access to resources with adding a cost cap and giving more aero development time to the teams that finish lower in the constructors championship. but so far, it doesn't seem to have made too much of a difference to the finishing order. although, the gaps between the teams in terms of lap times has come down significantly.

i have to mention (thank u @epylonia for reminding me of this) that merc has definitely struggled since the cost cap was put in place. do with that what u will <3

also, i cannot write an essay without bringing up adrian newey. there have been talks of him retiring since 2016 but rbr has kept a deathgrip on him and paid a good amount (10 milli dollars/year) to do so. that man is a genius and rbr is fucking lucky to be able to have him/afford him.

#on f1 regs #ask #i hope this made sense?? #thank u for trusting me to be able to answer this for u anon #im sorry it took so long #i was worried i would say something wrong and/or not explain it properly #and ppl would come for my throat #that being said #if i have missed out on anything #or misunderstood something #pls tell me #i am always open to learning #just be nice about it so we can make out after #jk #or am i #im going insane goodbye

[hyperfixation-symposium]

I’ve been really curious about q!Fit for a while now, and I’m glad people are starting to take notice of the strange things around him because I’ve been thinking about them a lot recently. 

Obviously the ominous leaving messages are the primary thing people have noticed. They’ve happened for a bit but most of the characters are just like, “oh Fit is just a silly guy! Just a little goober!” without looking father into them. They caught my interest from the moment they started because, well, q!Fit really doesn’t seem to mess around in that sort of way. Don’t get me wrong, he is definetly a silly guy, but he seems to lean into it mostly with the people he trusts. 

But then I noticed some really odd conisidences. Fit coming on at weird times for only a couple minutes or so, simmilar to what the streamers tend to do before they start streaming. But Fit doesn’t start streaming, and I never see him on anyone’s stream in these periods. It’s like he was preparing for something. 

The thing that stuck out to me the most recently was after Pomme’s nightmare. At a completely random time, without warning or context, immedietly after a code attack, Fit joins the server. He isn’t streaming, and he comes to ask what happened quite quickly. There is no way that his character would have any idea that things were happening, nor would he have any reason to be around. 

What brought Fit to the server at that moment? Or any of the other breif times he’s on for such a short period of time? He acts absolutley normal around everyone, but then leaves the strangest leaving messages. But everyone plays it off, that’s just Fit! He’s just a having fun!

There’s something about it that just doesn’t sit right with me. There’s something wrong with q!Fit and I don’t think his character is contiously aware of it. Instead of taking the warning signs seriously people have ignored them - and I think that’s going to blow up in their faces.

#qsmp #q!Fit #I think he's somehow related to the attacks with the binary entity #I don't think Fit would ever hurt an egg don't get me wrong #He loves the eggs as much as all the other members #But there's something going on with him and no one has investigated it and it's making me seethe!! #Cellbit please!! Please look into this guy you have to have seen you've sent question marks but you haven't talked to him!! #NO ONE HAS BEEN TALKING ABOUT THIS BUT FROM THE VERY FIRST ONE I JUST. SOMETHING WAS WRONG #NOTHING IS A CONICIDENCE. N O T H I N G IN THIS SERVER IS A CONICIDENCE #AND I NEED SOMEONE TO GO CHECK IT OUT. IM #Maybe it's a good thing I don't speak porteguese #I would have gone insane with Cellbit during the ARG if I could have understood what he was saying #I'm begging this man to go investigate though. #I don't care if there is some kind of federation control CELLBIT GO BE YOURSELF AND SOLVE SOMETHING I AM BEGGING #BEGGING #head in hands. okay this post is over goodbye. I apologize for nothing

[qbdream]

anyone else laying here thinking about how everyone else in squid craft died with their friends around them, holding them, crying for them,

except for dream. dream died alone.

#he never got to see george and sapnap be torn away from his body because they wouldnt leave him #he never got the comfort he tried to give tina #he didn't get to say goodbye. #sc2 #its 2:30 in the morning i am BRAINROTTING !!!!!!! ive been going insane on privtwt this is the first take maybe only take i'm posting here #bc its gonna make me CRY!!!!!!!!!

[morporkian-cryptid]

I'm getting overwhelmed again with wanting to rewrite the entirety of Lupin III - Goodbye Partner as a fic my own way, because I am still salty about how Jigen's betrayal was handled and I am pretty sure I could do a better job than TMS did (hell, they handled that same premise better in Seven Days Rhapsody, and it was a B plot!!)

Except I can't do that because 1) I have to finish writing Hanafuda and 2) I have like. zero plot for it right now (but I know if I put my mind to it I could)

In the meantime please have this song that makes me think about what that movie could have been, while I daydream about magic tricks and lighters and proceed to chew at my walls 👍

#i was already going insane about the use of the lighter in Goodbye Partner #but in retrospect with the added symbolism from ZERO i am losing my entire SHIT #and i'm sure there's something that could be done with the magic trick other than a cute throaway reference to cagliostro #because. cagliostro. the opening credits. the road trip. fire treasure. #cagliostro being canon as backstory for goodbye partner deepens the hurt of the betrayal SO MUCH because HOLY SHIT- #(yes I am still going insane about fire treasure/the opening credits of cagliostro. it's been three years. leave me alone.) #i did like the fact that the kid's relationship to jigen was never explicited though. i'd keep that i think. #mostly i just want to rewrite the way lupin and goemon took jigen's betrayal because it was just NOT handled realistically in that movie #give me some ANGST! give me some TURMOIL! #anyway. that's probably gonna be my next big project after hanafuda IF i can actually figure out a plot #but for now i'm gonna concentrate on my silly little au and its silly little romance 🥰 #lupin iii #daisuke jigen #lupin iii : goodbye partner #the hobbit writes

[moregraceful]

someone cold emailed me to ask if i was going to a writer's conference in los angeles and was putting together a panel or caucus for queer poets or if i knew anyone who was...buddy you are severely overestimating how much i network with other poets (i don't) and how often i attend writer's conferences (never) 😭

#''do you know of any other poets going'' no?? bc i hate networking with other poets???? #LIKE ARE THEY LESS ANNOYING THAN WHEN I WAS 23? IDK? MAYBE? #i feel like most things these days are less annoying than when i was 23 #or maybe i'm just better equipped to deal with annoying things than when i was 23 #yesterday i was talking to someone about my ethos wrt a class i ran last fall and he stopped me in the middle and was like #you're amazing. that class was a hot mess and you still had fun and found the good in it #like no i'm not amazing. i'm just in my thirties and it takes a lot more than other people's mental health crises to throw me off my game #he was pretty ticked off in the fall when i told him the like depth of crisis multiple students were in bc he thought i should have told hi #i was like idk it did not occur to me to ask for help. he was like you're doing daily check ins to make sure your students are eating?? #idk!! it didn't bother ME my job was just to make sure they were still alive! i mean my job was actually to teach liberation theology but #like i was not good at that. but i DO know how to be annoying until people feel less like killing themselves and more like killing me #anyway all that to say i can't wait to see how much less bothered i am in my 40s #i hope i have reached such a state of zen by age 50 that my spirit is unruffled by anything and anyone #i hope i float through life in a fine mist of okayness #someone says ''oh my god kasper my life is falling to pieces'' and i say ok 👍 we can get through this together👍 #what was this post about??? oh right networking #good networking: librarians bc you just go ''is your manager batshit insane'' and they go THIS PLACE MAKES ME SUICIDAL #and then you're friends for life #bad networking: poets (when i was 23) because all they do is name drop (when i was 23) and expect you to have opinions (i don't) #this post is wildly overconfident in my zen considering i'm so bored of being unemployed that i keep looking at teamworkonline #bhawks are hiring for a social media manager btw. imagine having that kind of access to mr 🥺. i'd literally only do paid advertising #to gay men #i'm not applying bc social media management would actually break my sobriety i am pretty sure #but imagine having connor bedard at your disposal and being like ok kid. we r gonna catfish some gays into caring about the bhawks #basically what i do with the cuda blog lol #ok ok ok i'm done. posting. goodbye. livejournal mode de-activate #fresno oilers.txt

[depressedsunshiine]

today is a very emotional day for me

PC: twitter user @niallernroses

#i am going to go insane solely bc of this tour #he deserves so much #i am dead #goodbye #niall horan #your name will be set on my gravestone

[hauntingblue]

Yabushige count your fucking days. I am so mad

#the fucking flash forward. insane #toranaga in the fucking forest... ALL YOU HAVE LEFT IS THAT FUCKING EAGLE!!!!! NO SON NO FRIENDS!!!! #ishido blaming toranaga...... you should seppuku yourself...... shameless.... #so all out war now??? no toranaga invasion???? mmm..... #yabushige has lost it.... all that for nothing... oof #oshiba and her kid finishing marikoa poem..... i think i huave covid #HIS SHIP?????? #toranaga did this to keep him here knowing he wont stay now that mariko is dead.... i know it #the christians???? mariko???? to keep him here too?? #omg fuji......... #toranagas baby is so big ajdhaksj 'i have more sons thanks to you' hello???? #OSHIBA TURNED!!! ISHIDO ITS SO OVER!!!! #NO!!! LEAVE FUJI ALONE LET HER BECOME A NUN!!! ANJIN YOU ARE ON THIN ICE #toranaga is sucha bad bitch #i feel like anjin really felt ashamed about his first intent to arrive to japan and that mixed with marikos death... he said fuck it #and then toranaga turns it around and says nah... I am using YOU!! get your pussy up!! get your ships up!!! #'que la muerte le sea leve' thats what me and my friends say when we say goodbye to go to class ajshajanaakak i love this guy #favourite secondary character #this shot is so pretty... with the tree and the sea... the framing.... #SEE how toranaga burned his ship!!!! bc he wants to keep him!!! thats his foreign pet!! #he makes him laugh and distracts his enemies ajdhajdjsj.... his jester... #beef squashed with my girlfriends husband 🤝🏻 now we hold respect for each other #that was so good #i said yabushige better count his days and here we are.... #i post about someone and they die. 3/3 sobfar #if i reach far enough shogun is about a daimyo and the psychosexual relationship between him and his foreign pet... #he makes me laugh... and the last scene is the anjin laughing while looking at him... okay..... #talking tag #watching shogun #also!!! toranaga wanting to be shogun!!! this man is so complex!!! i hate him!!!

[carcarrot]

well everyone now that sparkstember is over i can now devote my energy to being insane in other still sparks-related ways

#planning my next projects #on the one hand glad to not have to get a whole video done in the span of like 2 hours every day #on the other hand it was a fun creative challenge that gave me a sense of purpose. it was fun #but i need to keep myself busy as we descend into winter and ✨seasonal depression✨ #if i dont get it done today over the next couple days im going to make something silly for goofball's upcoming birthday #and then once that's done i dont know. i want to get back to work on my screenplay and try to FINISH IT!! but idk how long that'll take #i also have to finally finish watching that film course i bought oops. maybe ill start it over #and then????????? #i have a vague Idea of a possible short film i could make. that would also be like a kind of prequel to my Main Film Idea #and its something i could actually reasonably do as a short film and its not like insanely big budget like every other idea i have is #and I'm debating abt emailing my old film teacher and being like heyyyyy maybe you could help me make this short film???? #but id want to have this idea way more planned out and written before then. but OUGH WRITING ANOTHER SCREENPLAY??? #WHEN I HAVEN'T EVEN FINISHED MY FIRST ONE??? sigh. #the road to making my Big Great Movie is long and arduous. will we get there. who knows #oh also debating abt writing a letter to those silly guys. but i don't knowwwww #OH lmao i keep forgetting to mention i finally got my passport (it actually came earlier than expected) #so like. goodbye everyone im heading to the sydney opera house on halloween (JOKE i am not that insane. but i wish i could)

[shimelyasmin]

im kinda suprised ive never seen anybody ship halsin and jaheira. may not be the most interesting couple ever bc theyd be so normal compared to other companions but i like it, its cute. i also just want to see jaheira happy. and also i found her house in baldurs gate and was just thinking about how if halsin was here witnessing how much orphans shes taken in but been a deadbeat mom about he’d have an ‘i can fix her’ moment. he WAS ranting to my durge about how people are so uncaring in the city. maybe adopting half the orphans in baldurs gate and sparking a Thing with jaheira is his purpose post campaign

#i also wanna hear them bickering #i remember that in act 1 theres a book where halsin notes stuff about different organizations that r very biased opinions #and that his opinion of the harpers was something about them being too secretive or whatever idr #but it seemed as if it was negative #bg3 blogging #i have more thoughts on that. specifically abt halsin being autistic and jaheira not being so. and how they clash that way #but i shant speak i will make a mile long post #one more thing. i think nothing ever will revoke jaheiras deadbeat mom status #like no matter what shes not staying too long #but i think what would make her go Huh with halsin is if he sticks around her house post campaign to an extent that whats his is hers and #whats hers is his yknow. i am thinking too hard about them now goodbye #im going to play the first games and im going to be insane about her

[cosettegf]

JUNO SEASON 5 TOMORROW (EXPLODES)

#technically its later today now i suppose #but GOD i am going to go so completely insane #feeling every single emotion #i am so INTRIGUED by what direction this seasons gonna go in #it being the last season though...I DONT WANNA SAY GOODBYE TO THEM FOREVER #tpp #the penumbra podcast #livvy rambles

[partyshrimp]

one day into learning what hsr is and i already have a dream about strong sad being a korn fan. such is the enigmatic function of the brain’s intricate subconscious

#solarexspeak #homestar runner #yes i am going insane thanks goodbye i’ll send a postcard #strong sad

[soldier-poet-king]

in the saga of fran taking five billion years to finish cr2 because she’s afraid of endings. i watched another portion of the finale today. trent fight over. break reached. im just. too weak for this. i TRULY cannot bear saying goodbye to the m9. im disproportionately inconsolable

#i have been dragging out the finale for LITERALLY TWO YEARS #i have spread out the aeor arc literally that long #IT'S INSANE PERSON BEHAVIOUR #BUT ALSO IF I HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE TO THE M9 IM GOING TO FKIN. #i have grown so much in that time and it's like. saying goodbye to the piece of myself that grew there too #the not...not really hope. but the grim determination #the maybe we are both damned but maybe we can try #of caleb (and essek's) arc. even a traitor may mend. i have known one who did #of molly's leave it better than you found it #of cad. darling dearest cad. and the. one day someone will pray to the gods and you showing up will be the answer #how startling that a silly dnd campaign full of dick jokes somehow reflects this core little part of me #the ethos of what i am trying to do and be and live and exist as #walk gentle and do good and maybe we never forget the weight of my sins and the weight of my doubt and desperation #but in the meantime. roll up the sleeves. there are books to read and things to learn and good to do #franposting

[ihaventsleptinweekz]

I want to formally apologize for the person i will become once this new episode comes out

#and also for the emotions i will have. because god knows i am going to be crying and screaming and sobbing afterwards #like the theme of goodbyes?? summer coming to an end??? SUMMER CAMPS IN GENERAL? I WILL NOT SURVIVE THIS. #Not after going to the same exact summer camp for ten years. and feeling this emotion every single time. #camper or counselor it doesnt matter. nothing will change the desperation ive felt as the camp came to a close. #and nothing rivals the emotions i feel as it begins next summer. literally nothing. #camp camp #sorry im not normal about camp camp #going to a summer camp and then working on staff at a summer camp has made irreversible changes to my life #and seeing parts of it in a funny hilarious heartbreaking tv show? fucking INSANE. causes deranged behavior.