#I’m still trying to recover

[oblivionsdream]

The Sunshine Court WIP

#this is just a small part of it #the sunshine court #TSC #I’m still trying to recover from this book 😭

[m0liku-mori]

Lil silly splatmas drawing so you guys know I’m alive umm

(Artblock and burn-out had me hard btw)

Also a variant without text

And bonus <3

(The lil guys are going to take over the world >:))

#fanart #pokemon #pokemon black and white #submas #pokemon ingo #subway master ingo #pokemon emmet #subway master emmet #splatoon #btw the’re in team handshake (and so do I) #ALSO BURNOUT AGGGHHH it was so bad I was thinking that I should stop making art EVER #I’m still not recovered fully but I’m trying

[corffee]

So, we all heard about the rumor of the Sonic x Shadow Generations remaster- I’m not dreaming am I?

#guys I can’t do this anymore #I’m still trying to recover from prime becoming a fan fic/fever dream #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonic #sth #sonadow

[rozugold]

I think I lost three years of photos :(

#I’m trying to be brave about it bcus there’s so many other things to be rightfully upset over #but I’m a little devastated. jus a lil #I thought my phone was in limbo and still had a chance to recover it but ig not #rozu thoughts

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

can dnp’s april fools joke be silence?? like haha you guys thought we’d do something and we didn’t do anything gottem! unless it’s dan and phil crafts reboot or another 6 hour livestream of an animal then i don’t want to hear from them tomorrow. pls i’m so scared how will i sleep tonight

#dnp stfu challenge #the psychic damage done by the phude is something i’m still trying to recover from #and i can’t bc they keep flashing it in my face every other video #i was in the car with my friend when i saw the phude last year i let out a scream of horror #she was like DONT DO THAT WHILE IM DRIVING and that is so valid #dnp #dan and phil #but there was actually no other reaction i could have had #phan #dan howell #daniel howell #amazingphil #phil lester #yeet my deet #danisnotonfire #yeet my deenp

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

i can’t stop wondering what alex was feeling just before he introduced miles for 505. like - did he get a little surge of butterflies in his stomach?? did his breath catch the way it does when something you’ve been waiting forever for is suddenly on the cusp of happening?? or was it less of an inhalation and more of an exhalation, a sense of relief at the prospect of miles finally being up there at his side again??

#thoughts that plague my brain when i’m just trying to go about my daily existence #i still haven’t recovered from that performance btw #in case that wasn’t already clear to anyone #milex #lulu posts

[switchytransboy]

finally starting to slowly feel like i’m recovering 🖤 positive and tickly messages/asks welcome or just good vibes 😌

i’ve never had such an intense, emotional, physically exhausting, and scary few weeks before i’m so sorry for the messages i haven’t gotten back to yet <3

#it me #vent #i’m so scared to return to work tm #i think i’m a little traumatized from the seizure tbh #and so overwhelmed to walk into work where everyone knows what happened #even if everyone’s nice #i’m still processing and recovering #it’s all sm rn #but in waves i’m starting to get better #online says it can take days to weeks to feel back to normal after a grand mal #so i’m just trying to take it easy and self care it up

[akkivee]

once again thinking about my ideal 3rd drb match up and how it’d stack up with plot beats and so far all i got is

🔴💥⚪️: true hypnosis mic opponents, maybe jakurai ends up on a side for further development to save yotsutsuji and that’s against ichiro’s current goal

🔵💥🟠: haven’t quite figured out why, but rei vs samatoki is the angle i’m thinking about

🟡💥🟣: all plot stakes division vs no stakes division lol idk really but i’m leaning towards a bonds angle or if hypmic wants to be real freaky, the side effects angle 🤔

#this is vee speaking #i still think a new format could happen but idk lol there’s so many unknowns rn #like what’s next specifically lmao #i personally feel it would be a waste not to have jakurai working to finalise development for this potential other true hypnosis mic lol #like they teased him joining chuuoku but then didn’t commit?????? huh?????? #what about his struggle with causing more harm vs saving that one?????? like come on now?? #so here’s me trying to put him back on that track lol #why not sasara vs samatoki you might ask lol and my answer is that’s the poster fight but the real fight is between rei and samatoki lol #samatoki was weirdly interested in rei watching bb vs dh and there’s a panel in showdown battle where samatoki looks…… #he’s very hard to read actually while listening to ichiro #samatoki and rei are paralleling in the block party as individuals moved by ichiro’s ideals #so while i’m not sure if ichiro would be the reason to fight (🎋hahahaha🎋) i think there’s potential for strife #*sighs at bat* why doesn’t kr want to do anything with y’all lmao #if they went the side effects angle it’d be cool to have ramuda the guy whose clones die using the true hypnosis mic #vs kuukou who might be suffering from side effects (and against the guy that caused them tho he’s forgiven ramuda lol) #jyushi’s hypnosis ability to ‘recover’ is genuinely interesting because what is he recovering???? and why haven’t we seen it yet????? #maybe they’re lying in wait lol (delusional) #bonds angle is me grasping at straws lol but here’s how i can get my ideal match ups—

[shima-draws]

Mhmm. Got new OC ideas on the brain. It’s basically the trope of “I thought I lost you when we were kids but you’ve actually been by my side now that we’re adults yet I was too fucking STUPID to realize it was you all along” which is like. MWAH chef’s kiss 😩👌

#Shima speaks #I’ve been trying to solidify the last few members of Nahu’s squad and I think these two are ittttt #See bc when I initially came up with his teammates I was like. Well I want to put a himbo in there somewhere. #Except I could never come up with a concept for the himbo character UNTIL NOW #(He’s still a himbo but to a much lesser degree. He’s an idiot but also smart unfortunately. LMAO) #And I had an idea for my baker boy but I’m changing it up #Anyway yeah can’t get this idea out of my head. #Person A being like I lost the one person I really cared about when I was a kid and I never fully recovered from that #And Person B being like I’ve been looking for you for SO long and now I finally found you #But things are such a fucking MESS I can’t reveal who I am to you right now #(Which is crazy bc you’d THINK you’d recognize me even after so long?) #Well Person B. Person A thinks you’ve been dead this whole time of COURSE he wouldn’t put two and two together #ALSO HE’S AN IDIOT!!!! #Person B: How did you not realize it was m #Person B: Ah. Wait. That’s right. You’re a dumbass #Person A: AHA!! OUCH!!! #I have SO many thoughts! Tee hee!! #Shima’s OCs #Among the Stars #ATS

[homiines]

the question is should I come back?

#would anyone still want to write with me? 🫠 #I want to come back but I feel like people are gonna be like ‘nah not her again’ #I miss writing so much. #I’m recovering from having a really bad bout of covid but I think I might try and be around in the next few days??? if people will have me?

[thefandomeffect-noah]

Crying and throwing up at the announcement of Baylie, Dionne, Koko, and Roxanne leaving, they were some of my favorite queens (especially Rox). 😭

#NO MORE ENBY BOLEYN 😭 #QUEEN LEAVING SEASON CAME SO SOON???? #Roxanne was my favorite parr 😔 #Super excited to see some new (or maybe even returning?) queens though!! #six the musical #baylie carson #dionne ward-anderson #koko basigara #roxanne couch #I wonder if any SwAlts will be promoted #or if Claudia’s trying to be the next Natalie Paris and extended #I’m still recovering from the Aragon Tour this isn’t fair 😭 #six brainrot

[gregmarriage]

currently trying to find a balance between being close friends with people and putting my all into relationships, and keeping them at arms length and it being semi casual, so i don’t hurt myself

#i don’t wanna push people away or isolate myself #it’s just friendship is harddddd #especially right now as i’m still dealing with a lot #like i’m mostly recovered from the manic episode #i just wanna put things in place in my life so i can better deal #not just in the event i’m manic but just in general #tho honestly all i seem to do lately is fix my life and it doesn’t really happen #but i keep trying because what else can i do? #i guess i’m just trying to take things slow #but also my fatal flaw is my impatience #but honestly anybody in my situation probably would be #no one wants to sit around for things to get better #even if i’m doing it for myself i’m still waiting as i put things in place #bc nothing happens instantly #soooo 🤷🏻‍♀️ #idk i’m kinda torn between hating small talk and also kinda needing it? #like putting everything into relationships is exhausting #just talking casually is kinda easier for me rn #and i need to find better ways to deal bc i can’t just trauma dump on my friends #even if they’re fine with it #it’s not healthy #a certain level of talking about your problems is fine but there’s a stage where it gets to be you should probably be talking to a therapist #instead of a friend #bc your friend can only help you so much and distractions only go so far #you need like actual help at some point #even if you won’t admit it to yourself #bc honestly i’ve been through this a million times #and you always have to hit rock bottom before you admit you’re in too deep #i hit my rock bottom recently #and now i’m crawling out and paving over that hole i fell through

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

The tism is intersecting with my depression and ocd and the fresh realization of various trauma inflicted by my p*rents and it is uh. A combination!

#meows #part of me is still recovering from my f*ther #getting annoyed at lunch for the briefest of secodns #+ me trying to be kind and stop calling myself #a wuss or weenie or whatever for not standing up to him #when I was a /kid/ + nothing has felt right not my clothes not food #not my bed/blankets/pillows + dreading having to change schools #and apply and interview AGAIN unsure of how I word #’my boss gave me the corporate version of ‘it’s not you it’s me’’ #+ money is. bad rn. and I somehow owed taxes to both #and I’m sure all of this adds to the very impulsive nature I’ve had recently #and. yeah. bad time

[adonis-koo]

Time heals everything so just let it do it’s work. If u can’t stomach the thought of love, then don’t force it. It will come when it’s ready.

Ik it’s sucks to think that maybe he wasn’t as into you as he said, but at least you were honest and loved them to the fullest extent which is really admirable.

And plz give him a side glare upon my behalf whenever u see him at work

my intention has been settled the entire day as ‘it’s okay to grieve what wasn’t meant for me’

i ended up talking to him outside at work yesterday and we talked about how we both felt, how it went down, it was…a very bittersweet feeling, but I understood where he was coming from and why he made his decision, I gave him my few thoughts in relation and spared him all the feelings I’m reconciling now.

we left things on good terms, because even if it wasn’t love, we still cared for one another deeply, and that still meant something.

does it still hurt? it does, but will I be okay eventually? I will, I do firmly believe it. another mantra I’ve been repeating is ‘I will never miss out on what is meant for me’

also I unfortunately don’t have the heart to sideglare him and it’s also no longer possible because yesterday was my last day 🎉 I’m off to get another job working with kids and I’ll be getting my licensing for it.

I’m very excited because this something I’ve been wanting to do for a long while and just didn’t realize there was a niche to get in to start. will it work out? hell if I know, I thought this would work out and it turned into a total dumpster fire 💀

but regardless I’m embracing the journey for what it is. anyways I’m gonna stop using this blog as my journal now, because I’ve accidentally projected on here for two months straight and if you scroll far enough you can watch this train wreck go down in 4K and I’d that isn’t embarrassing then idk what is💀

#missy answers #anon #also thank you for your sweet words Anon 😭 #I’ve been trying to be patient with myself the last few days #i have a few days before my new job starts so I’m just gonna take this time #to allow myself to rest and recover #from both the physically and emotionally tax of this last job #will I eventually feel better about writing? #i will #it just still sucks because if there was one thing I was excited to get back into #it was writing #and then I opened up the docu for sweet nothing #and literally wanted to vomited because 😭 it’s just too painful to read right now #HOWEVER I did manage to finish chapter 17 of wicked #but only because it required a certain kind of guttural sensation #that I could only acquire after something like a breakup

[unnerving-presence]

I’ve read some things about Jake muller and his mother and I wanna share a small rant: I believe Wesker left his gf not because he was evil, but because he was working for a dangerous corporation. It’s Umbrella we’re talking about 💀 of course he’s gonna want to keep dear people away. Keep in mind, his humanity vanished after he came back to life, so he still cared and loved people despite his exterior. (Or maybe I’m just being delu lelu 🥹)

oh yeah i’m pretty sure that’s canon since he got all frisky w his girl right before/after getting into the military (around 1991 and jake was born in 1992. no exact date but wesker left right around that point. capcom continues to annoy me by only giving the year and not the specific date..)

i don’t think wesker left just because he wanted to be a bad guy. he kind of had to leave to because at that point the military wanted him because they were doing their own illegal bioweapon shit. he then served until 1996 when stars was founded and he then became the captain of alpha team. wesker was a busy fucker.

here’s how i see it. i think his gf understood. he was busy and he was hired by the military to do important shit (pretty sure he never told her cause why would he 😭). then at that point they likely fucked before he left considering when jake was born and him not knowing he actually got her pregnant. she also had to get back to her normal life too, as she was a serbian immigrant living in edonia. they both had shit to do.

i personally think it’s hard for wesker to actually ‘love’ anybody considering he was practically hardwired to simply serve spencer and commit bioterrorism. do i think he loved his girl? yeah sure. if she still loved him after she went back to edonia and taught jake to respect him i think there’s a possibility. i always see it as him taking one partner and not settling for another when he already has them. he’s not gonna fall in love w anybody else LMAO

#he was just an angry bitch after getting rezzed dw #was just on his period #keep in mind throughout the years wesker felt a feeling of anxiety to literally seek out spencer #that was practically wired into his brain #you see wesker and don’t see him as ever having anxiety over anything right? #also wesker feeling like all emotions at once when spencer tells him his origins #i feel bad for him since he seemingly just buries it deep down #he seems to recover fast but we can see he still thinks about it #spencer’s been dead for years and wesker is still trying to prove himself that he doesn’t need spencer to do shit #i’m sorry wesker is just such a sad man who hides his emotions #i just wanna hold him 😭 #anyways if he can feel all those emotions and bury them deep i def think it’s possible for him to love #y’all r just haters 🤬

[girlaskew]

The way my body will literally shut down if I push it slightly too far or slightly too long is insane I was never made to complete tasks every day

#I’m still trying to recover enough rn to send an email