#I’m probably making no sense oh god

[shokupankoart]

Our long journey continues! (*＾▽＾)／

Based on votes, her name will be Beatrix!

#art #painting #original character #oc art #the other name options were Fernanda Valeria Gitana but Beatrix won by 50 votes! quite surprising to me actually #I think it’s cute nonetheless though #also! I plan on continuing to draw her without much of a face to keep simplicity #I want to focus more on environmental stuff so she’s kinda a character that I added as something additional to see like a focal point #but not something you pay all your attention on??? unlike my other artworks these are my about location and stuff #I’m probably making no sense oh god #anyway I’ve been enjoying doing these and it’s been helping plenty with my art block! #I did pause for a sec and thought “wait what does a lily pad look like???’’ #I racked my brain about it for a while lol

[eternal-moss]

When people continually whitewash my favourite characters.

[ID: A black and white, rough digital drawing of someone sitting at a desk and clutching their head in their hands. End ID.]

^thank you @describe-things

#This is mainly about Noé Archiviste. But also I will not forget what some people did to Simon Petrikov either when I was watching f&c #I’m so desperate for drawings of them. But for the love of God，is it that difficult? Somehow every other hexadecimal of their #Character design is exactly on model other than their skin. Just. . #OH YEAH I FORGOT KAEYA. FFS. Somehow it’s always the K**luc-ers that always do it. Which makes sense because they disregard his entire char #And with the new influx of atla fans people have been whitewashing Katara too! And I mean drawings of the original show too #probably delete later #And no one seems to have any problems with it? Especially if it’s sexualised art *talking more about Kaeya & Noé here. #People who whitewash the few (and when I say few I literally mean 5/82 playable characters) darker genshin characters. Actually fuck off #If I see ‘it’s just my art style’ or ‘it’s just the lighting’ *every other colour than the skin hasn’t been lightened in the slightest* #One more time-i’m going to explode #Oh and while I’m on this topic! Fuck Bochum for whitewashing literally the entire starlight express cast! Electra being the first ever #non binary character in musical theatre while also being played by black actors. And then Bochum happened. #When was the last time Pearl or Rusty had actors who weren’t white? Literally the last character who hasn’t been replaced is Momma/Poppa. #And being black is so integral to their character and music. You quite physically couldn’t #I really really hope the casting for the London performance this year is like the 1984 cast again. Please.

[ravenxbones]

next up in my revamped kj designs: jet star!! 💫

she is so important to me… the space puppy tattoo is partially because of @eggbagelz’ headcanon which i saw and thought “oh definitely jet would LOVE laika” and the design is (with permission) one of my lovely friend @andpierres’ tattoo flash designs and tattoo tickets are available on his kofi if YOU would like to have a space puppy tattoo on your own skin! :)

as with the last two posts, untextured version under the cut for cleaner details and accurate colors!

#danger days #jet star #ttlotfk #killjoys california #jetty jetty jetty #jet has the most updated design technically because i went from headcanoning them as transmasc to transfem! #i have birthday and therefore astrology hcs for ALL the fab four btw if you’re interested #ghoul also has his sign’s constellation tattooed on him i think maybe jet and ghoul got those done to be loosely matching :) family #THANK YOU NICO FOR LETTING ME USE YOUR DESIGN!! #felt appropriate for jet not only because of the space theming but also because i know you like jet a lot :) and i like how you draw them #so. i kind of associate jet with you #and again: no jacket because i wanted y’all to see her tatts but unlike kobra’s jacket #i would probably make at least a FEW tweaks jet’s jacket makes the least sense to me. leather AND denim? i THINK? and there’s a weird symbol #on it? and an epaulette? idk man it’s interesting but i would probably do it differently #god fucking damn it the gun is a little too short probably. to make sense from a top angle. OH WELL. i’m not going back and changing that #too much work #also i spent literally five or six hours just on her hair please clap #if i’ve said anything about jet’s tattoos in the past ignore that i don’t remember any of what i said if that’s the case #NEW hcs now.

[theshadowrealmitself]

Current thoughts: A Human (rightfully) punching a Vulcan in the face for something and the Vulcan actually immediately realizing they fucked up and agreeing with the Human that punching them was the most logical course of action and becoming their number one defender of the Human not facing consequences

More specifically, I’m imagining them passionately (for a Vulcan) petitioning for this Human not to get in trouble, citing all the logical reasons they should be let go, and after a long while of this, barely dropping the bombshell that they were the person who got punched by the Human

#I’m imagining the inciting incident being something where they were veering into xenophobia territory and not realizing it #then they get punched (followed by a passionate speech) #and realize ‘oh shit that actually was a fucked up thing they were saying wasn’t it??’ #and oh my god they were saying that to humans and probably making all of them feel so unsafe and everything #sometimes you do just. gotta actually knock some sense into a person. #jot them back into reality #*shock not jot #mostly I just like this scenario for the reveal at the end #‘you make a great argument but we should really see how the victim wants this to be handled since they were the one who was hurt’ #‘it’s me. I was the one who was punched.’ #everyone else in shock thinking maybe this was the human’s friend who was being a bit biased #nope. #Star Trek #Vulcans #Humans

[reliablejoukido]

Someone just gave me a shit sandwich comment on a fic and it’s like… don’t do this. Don’t do this to me and don’t do it to other people.

#now I’m going to be thinking about this comment forever—thanks person! #no I didn’t get the character ‘wrong’… I just wrote them in the way I wanted oh my god #I’m just going to keep adding tags to this until I feel better about it #I’m looking online at the definition of shit sandwich and I wish there was a more accurate way to describe this kind of comment #it’s the— I love this but you are wrong but this other part was nice #like bro I’m not wrong????? but now I’m going to second guess myself??? #even though there’s no such thing as being wrong about a fictional character that you are writing a fanwork about #because you are allowed to interpret that character however you want #sorry friends I should probably delete this #it’s just one comment #except actually it’s not. the person has been reading my fic all day and commenting on chapters as they go #and some of the other comments have been like ‘you should change this thing actually because it makes more sense the way I say it does #like LORD how do I respond nicely to this person? #I’m dreading the couple chapters they have left

[shima-draws]

I just finished Skypeia AGHHHFJHHHH it was so GOOD

#One Piece #My favorite arc BY FAR #It was really long! But it wasn’t Alabasta long!! #Also Noland’s backstory deadass made me tear up that shit was so sad #Idk this arc just really kept me hooked. Like there wasn’t really a point I got super bored #Even with all the fights going on #Also just realizing they mentioned Noland in OPLA too. Nami read Zoro the book while he was totally conked out #Anyway ANYWAY I really enjoyed it. Lots of fun character interactions #And Usopp actually getting to do stuff too?? MY MANS #Oh and Zoro’s look this arc. God he was STYLIN. I’m so weak for a man in goggles shut up. #Logically that should apply to Usopp too and you know what. Yeah. #G8 is next and I know it’s filler but I’ve heard nothing but praise for it #So I’ll probably watch it instead of skipping :’D #Shima speaks #Also I find it stupidly ridiculous and funny that YET AGAIN Oda said ‘Lol you thought x character was dead?? SIKE’ #Wiper got electrocuted and died like eight times but he’s fine actually. Also Sanji and Usopp got electrocuted too and were out #for like a full day. And then Enel zapped them AGAIN and Usopp was back on his feet like two minutes later. #Silly anime logic. It doesn’t make sense and I love it

[nymphaforesta]

c.

#there has been this thought bugging me for a long time #how i get inspired by what surrounds me #may that be the little snail in the grass when i’m going back home after a long day #or seeing people holding hands on the bus #i sometimes wonder if i too am part of the little wonders that people get to experience in their daily life #i wouldn’t say i’m obsessed with the internet but i love seeing videos that people make with snippets of their #and how they get captured by their friends or loved ones in a very movie style look #but i never have this? #this coming out of my mouth might sound SO stupid and oh god it is but #but i would love for my loved ones to have secret pictures of me in their phones #photos they took because they thought i was pretty #videos of us dancing when no one’s watching #little documentations on life that bring us all together #but i never get that it’s like i’m the only one seeing life the way i see and it’s quite sad sometimes #it’s like i’m craving inspiration and romance but i’m the only one to feel it #this probably doesn’t make any sense and these tags are SO LONG but yeah

[chiara-klara-claire]

6.2.24 🎉🫥

#I brought cake to work because I gues you have to #colleague asked me what are you going to do tonight #I said not much I think #another done said jeez you’re 26 and not doing anything #and I answered oh yeah that’s for the weekend which is true but still #I’m just so down I don’t even have the energies to pretend it’s fine #I was about to cry #I think I’ll spend the day eating and crying #it’s really great how it only gets worse with time #they say at some point things get only get better but truth is it can always get worse #yesterday tho I almost lost my phone by leaving it at the zelfkassa at the Albert Heijn. thank god I realised it run back & it was t #nothing really make sense and I’m tired of sending cvs #there’s nothing I like and I have to pretend I like everything and everything is cool #i replied in a very dry way to my family wishes bc of how bad I’ve been feeling #I’ll probably eventually just throw something on ig and have 2 people say hbd #it’s all about suffering #this weekend I’ll go to Sweden if things go according to plan and will probably feel like crying most of the time there too #by myself in some hostel bc my friends are too busy for me #there’s always some god eating your heart out right #I think I’ll spend a good amount of time blinding myself with tears #I can’t wait to go to the psychologist

[cto10121]

Broke: Mercutio being the nephew of the Prince and thus wearing Escalus colors

Woke: Mercutio being the nephew of the Prince but purposefully wearing blue to show his identification with the Montagues and being taken as an honorary member by all parties involved

#romeo et juliette #retj #mercutio #although in the revival it makes no sense because the prince’s colors are gold #and then paris shows up in neither of those colors #i’m just saying that it probably would have been better if mercutio was just a full on montague #either that or this #also the prince being 200% done with mercutio is something i desperately need #and the montagues mourning him as if he were one of their own #more than the prince and his family #tybalt hating him because he doesn’t have to be a montague #and being at some level genuinely ???? #and his instant remorse when he learns mercutio has been stabbed #oh god that’s good shit #into my english retj it goes #cristina is silly

[snugglebeans3000]

uhhh gimme,, opinion on ryukyo,, pleaseee

OOoooooOOOo this is one I like talking about brACe youRseLF

Don’t ship it

Why do I not ship it?:

I’ve kinda went back and forth on this one a couple times, but I settled on the conclusion that Ryuga and Kyoya just make better friends (???) than a couple. Like I can understand where the ship comes from. They’ve both been through a lot, and on some level with how they express and hide their emotions from others IS something that they could connect with on a deeper level and maybe relate to each other about, but personally I’ve never seen that as going past being platonic. I do headcanon that when Ryuga is trying to process big complicated emotions and isolates himself without giving a lot of fight, one of the people who would seek him out and actually try and try to get him to talk about his problems is Kyoya. Just the idea of Kyoya recognizing and saying ‘You’re a jerk— I couldn’t like you even a little bit— but this isn’t you. This isn’t how you react. What’s going on?’ Is very— for lack of a better word— tender to me. It’s a concern for each other based on the mutual respect they have for each other’s strength that only shows it’s face on rare occasions, but other than that, they just annoy the shit out of each other and it would probably lead to a lot of fist fights that have no indefinite end. I also head canon that Kyoya might help him out with explaining romantic feelings and how to navigate those (or the lack of those emotions as for the most part I canon Ryuga as Demi/aromantic) as he is the KING of BOYFRIENDS and probably has a lot of experience with romantic attachments and emotions.

What would have made me like it more?:

Personally, I’m a sucker for headcanons, art and fanfiction. I think if the right fanfiction came along with the two of them growing up and healing and maturing I might consider standing by this ship, but so far I’m just comfy with the whole platonic relationship.

Despite not shipping it, is there anything positive I can say about the ship?:

Again, I DO really love the idea of them coming to each other for help for complicated and sometimes painful issues based on mutual respect. I think if both of them learned to control their anger and aggressive feelings then it might work out, but I feel both of them are too chaotic to be paired together and they need a more calm counterpart to help them be their best selves.

#oh god that took a long time to write #it doesn’t help that I am also sick so yAy #but I GOT IT DONE #AND IT THINK IT MAKES SENSE #but yeah #that’s my take on the matter #A quick HC: I think if Ryuga ever did fall into romantic feelings for someone the first person to recognize it would be Kyoya #He would try and ask him about it but I feel like Ryuga wouldn’t even understand what was being asked #Ryuga would probably say some sassy comment afterwards and kyoya being the spiteful bitch that he is would just say fuck you and walk away #which would confuse the FUCK out of Ryuga #overall I can see why people ship it but it’s not my preferred drink of choice #maybe like a good 3rd option #Also I’m really bias towards the whole KyoTsuHyo thing #Kyoya has too many boyfriends #he doesn’t need anymore #mfb #metal fight beyblade #beyblade #ah #ryuga kishatu #kyoya tategami #headcanons

[jackett-slut]

ok sorry if this sounds fucking insane. i need to write something out.

#vent. sort of. #okay. why do i have absolutely no clue what i want or like. like in life. career/job/college/life etc wise. no interests beyond casual. #and amateur level interests. which is fine but i don’t think i want them to go higher and therefore aren’t careers you know. i like them #for fun. but like all my friends have interests and things they’re studying or doing that i hear it and i’m like oh my god yeah that’s them #that’s perfect. that’s so them. of course. makes perfect sense. and they have the history of hobbies and interest in the topic to back that #choice up. but me? man i have fucking nothing. i feel like i have been in survival mode forever and i literally have not had the opportunit #or ability to develop myself and my interests or even my fucking STYLE or ANYTHING!!! it seems worthless FOR ME. WHY???????? #that’s the survival mode talking. but like what am i supposed to do now. i feel like a fucking shell of a person. like the only thing that #passes through this brain is whatever my current hyperfixation is and whatever new hell/trauma/issue i’m dealing with in my life. that’s it #man i remember being a kid and having vibrancy and passion and interests. and it just left. maybe it left when my brother was born when i #was 10. maybe it left during any one of the traumautic experiences or abuse during my teenage years. #but then i wonder what my friends see. like do i have interests and likes in their eyes? i mean space has been My Thing to my friends for #years now but even my interest and love for that was a coping mechanism (escapism) and i’m not interested in the science beyond what i can #use to cope and mentally escape or use in my head as hope for escape. #MAN i feel like i’m so fucked. like i don’t know what the fuck to do. i don’t want to do anything. maybe i’m depressed? #i mean i know i do and have dealt with depression but i mean maybe that’s what this is from. #maybe i’m autistic? maybe adhd and maybe that’s why i have whims and phases that never stick? i don’t know. #maybe it’s from the dysphoria? maybe it’s like bc i can’t picture a future for myself bc of that? probably not cuz i have trans friends who #do indeed have solid interests and senses of self. #so. i don’t fucking know. #i don’t fucking know. i don’t know what to do. i feel like i’m falling behind and like i’ll never get out and i’ll never get my head into #my own real life and the present in order to figure out who i am and what i like and want. i’ve got NOTHING. HEAD. EMPTY. WHAT THE FUCK. #what the fuck. what do people do when they run up against this problem. i don’t know. #maybe this rn is just because i’m on my period. i don’t know. fuck. #maybe it’s dissociation. or like FROM my lifelong dissociation issues. hmm. #okay but THEN i’m like okay this is a really privileged problem to have like. i have a choice in what i want to do. which is nice. and i am #not even being rushed by my family. so like. then i feel even worse for feeling this way. fuck. maybe it’s fine maybe it’s all fine. #maybe this just happens sometimes and a person has no interests and it’s fine. i don’t fucking know. doesn’t seem to be that way for most #people but maybe. who knows #vent

[mrburnsnuclearpussy]

I wish so badly that I never started watching Downton abbey because here I am now having near anxiety attacks over a fictional character and it’s just miserable and I want out!!!! This obsession hurts more than it feels good but I can’t get rid of it and idk how 😭

#god damnit I want to be normal and I have normal problems that I can explain to others and they can relate to #instead I’m just ??¿¿? stuck alone in this ridiculous embarrassing state of mind #i know it makes no sense. i know it’s not real but I can’t control the emotions and how much I care and I’ve been trying to for years 🥲 #because it always gets to a point like this like #why is this my life and who I am 😵‍💫 I don��t want to be! #this shouldn’t be my joy and purpose in life and identity!! how do I stop the thing that’s been wrong with me for like 10 years now #this about dumb Downton abbey and stupid dumb shitty dumb things #it’s probably not even that bad (the stuff from the show) but it feels bad #at least if my blorbo had been Thomas then I’d have other ppl to share with #but no it was carson and everyone hates him and I’m the only one who cares abt him #and this is why I can’t tell ppl irl because it’s so embarrassing and cringe 😔 #like oh my god I know all of my ranting is so whiny and insufferable also I just want to express this at least somewhere coz like I say I li #literally can’t in any other aspect of my life #god this is so stupid and it has a chokehold on me

[kdramacrybaby]

I haven’t really ranted about Alchemy of Souls yet, and though I don’t have that much to say, I do have some thoughts I might as well air out ⬇️

#alchemy of souls #drama rant #alchemy rant #spoilers!!! #this is just gonna be whatever pops into mind and probably wont make that much sense but idc tbh i just wanna get it outta my head #first of all while i do actually really like the drama i feel like it is sometimes kinda… slow? idk i just feel like they could do so much #more with this - like the first episode was so intense and dark and i was so hooked and then the rest is more comedy and so much love drama #like i cannot keep track of who likes who and why and what it’s actually driving me insane and it brings nothing to the plot if you ask me #why does our main character need THREE GUYS to sort-of-kinda like her?? for what??? #she can have a child-hood friend without it being first love and why the Crown Prince??? makes literally no sense to me #and while on the Crown Prince I did not expect to actually like him that much but he’s actually become a top character for me - he’s a bitch #and annoying as fuck yes - but also one of the only people in the Palace who seem to have some common sense when it comes to suspiciousness #is that a word? oh whatever 😂 #also his voice is… really nice… yeah 👀 #i do want to punch him in the face 90% of the time but let’s not talk about that #also i am not sure i vibe with the relationship between Mu-deok and Jang Uk… there’s just something there that’s off to me idk what it is #and while we’re on the topic of love - dang-gu deserves better fight me #she’s kinda coming around now i guess but oh my god he deserves someone much better #and since I’ve now gone over three of the four seasons there is seo yul left and I’m sorry but he’s just… kinda boring #idk what about him annoys be but he just… i don’t really like him I’m sorry #okay i started out saying i didn’t have much to rant about and now I’ve done nothing but complain typical me #i guess I’m just kind of disappointed cause i thought this drama was so much more than it turned out to be #if i had gone into it knowing what it is i think i would have liked it more as well #so it’s a shame the first episode tricked me so much 😂 #my own expectations of something tend to ruin the experience for me… i guess i gotta work on that #but yeah… those are my thoughts so far #oh if i have to say one positive thing this drama is actually really funny #not like i laugh out loud but i do snort out a laugh here and there and that takes a lot so #the jokes are just 👌🏻 right up my alley 😂

[laurmaus]

my rant (analysis????thing about that one scene in Our Fears Mcd thats been hidden in my notes app for like 2 years sorry it’s a little long

ok so it’s been a few days and i completely forgot most of what i was gonna say about the whole dante aphmau illusion bht the whole thing was so ?????????? liek the way garroth and ESPECIALLY laurence’s reactions to their “worst fear” and their worst fear itself is SOOO FUCKING WEIRD and out of character becayse that’s NOT what their worst fear woulld be ????)))))) starting with garroth because his whole personality as a guard is that he wants nothing but happiness and safety for aphmau and like we don’t know a lot about his personal life and struggles besides like zane and the whole dispwnment thing ok maybe we do but what i’m trying to say is that aphmau holding hands and Kissing a guy is Not his worst fucking fear………. the whole scene could’be been so much better if the illusion was aphmau Dead or like extremely hurt or fake dante threatening the two to hurt aphmau right in front of them or something like the whole shipping bait was so unnecessary I KNOW ITS NOT THAT DEEP BUT 😑😑😑 ok now for layrence he was done SOOOOO DIRTY like Extremely dirty from the way he reacted to the fact that his worst fear was aphmau just kissing dante too…….. starting with how he reacted it was INSANELY out of character for the time that it was written there was no build up to his personality suddenly switching to anger ridden like he’s never been seen like this before ?????? skimming through the moments hes had since he’s still generally New to the series he has NEVER lashed out like that??????? even when zane was insulting aphmau and he had to lie to make it seem like they were together he is Cool Calm and Collected it’s so weird so see him get so mad so quick like he was YELLINNGGGG thad was some unnecessarily. Possessive reaaction personally it makes more sense when i add the fact that my theeory is rhag he believed aphmau was under hypnosis or a spell or something but this is COMPLETELY a theory like it’s the only explanation to him acting out like that PLUS THE FACT THAT HE TRIED TO ATTACK DANTE ????????? he CONSIOUSLY WENT TO ATTACK HIM JUSF BC HE WAS GONNA KISS APHMAU I GET THAT HE THIUGHT SHE WAS IN DANGER UNDER THE PREMISE OF A SUPPOSED SPELL BUT OTHERWISE THAT MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE…. i KNOW for a fact aphmau ddint think that far through and just wanted a ooooh my guards are Jelous☺️☺️moment and its aggrivating bevauuse i KNOW that he should have been asking if she was ok instead of just arguing at a ghost i get that hees protective but😞 you can HEAR HIM SLASH HIM REPEADLY TOO LIKE I KNOW HE STABBED THAT SWOORD STRAIGHT THROUGH HIS BACK OR WRM OR SMEHTING UOOU HEAR IT GO IN EEUEUUEGH the cheap sound effect is So😦(samsung version) THIS PLUS HIS GENERAL AREGIVATED DEMEANOR ENCOURAGES THE IDEA THAT LAURENCE CARES MORE ABOUT GOING AFTER WAHTEVER IS THREATENING HIM INSTEAD OF FOCUSING ON GETTING WPHMAU AWAY (which is the OPPOSITE of what happened in the nether when saving the chicken sha man+ MAKING SURE SHES OK ANF FURTHER SUPPORTS GARROTHS SUSPICIONS i could say that the remnants from him being a shadow night like made him be way more violently impulsive but from the videos canonicity itself i know aphmau wasn’t thinking of that when writing this scene… personally i gues i see how this could be in character i just cannt sincerely undedstand how laurence’s morals and beliefs coincide with attempting to harm a possibly innocent man it’s so ARURRGGGGGDDD (sound effect sounds better in my head trust me☹️

ok now to the fear itself layrence is not even officially apart of the guard he hasn’t known aphmau for too long INCLUDING the Months(?) that he was trapped in the nether for and i KNOW they’re really close now and he apparently has a crush on her (WHICH WAS SUPER SUDDEN TOO AND ALSO OVERWRITES PREVIOUS LORE ABOUT HIM NOT LIKING SASHA AND THAT SHE WAS THE ONLY ONR THAT HE COULD BE “normal with” ((SUPER COOL IDEA BTW I REALLY LIKED THAT!!!!!!! THEN HE SUDDENLY ANNOUNCED THAT HE SNOULDNT HAVE LET SASHA GO ???????? i guess it could just be chslked up to him lying but what need was there for that….. the switch up is so random and like she’s suppose to be dead when he said that why not just admit you loved her i guess it could’ve been laurence still not accepting the fact that he actually loved her but i don’t think aph meant for his words to be so deep seeing how she writes mcd😭😭😭😭 if they geniuenly wanted to develop the idea that laurence has a crush on aphmau then wouldn’t it make more sense for him to say he had a crush on her and after she died it was difficult blah blah blah BONDING!!!!! and then at the end he couldve been like oh…. speaking to you right now reminds me of how we use to t- nevermind. IDK ITS CONRY BUT IT MAKES SO MICH MORE SENSE STORY WISE/// THE WHOLE THING SO FUCKING WEIRD AND ALL TO BUILD UP TO HIM HETTING A SPONANOUS CRUSH ON APHMAU FOR NO FUCKUNG REASON. HIS ENTIRE PERSONALOTY IS BASED ON A MAN THATS A CASANOVA BUT DOESNT ACTUALLY FEEL ANY ROMANTIC ATTRACTION TOWARDS THE WOMEN HE CHASES!!!!!!!!! laurence canonically struggles with expressing himself sincerely and ended up coping by making hismelf out to be a douchebaggy man who feels the need to flirt with everyone in order to feel validated by people that (in his mind) wouldn’t like him otherwise!!!! this chatavyer concept opened a HUGE DOOR for development which we actually started ti see when he opened up about his persona and started to interact with aphmau as less of a fake love interest but a friend!!!!!!!!!! but knowing that he DID indeed love sasha AND loves aphmau makes their development into closer friends void because it was a supposedly a crush the whole time i really don’t think it’s that serious i juus feel like SO MUCH WAS THROWN AWAY FOR A FORCED CRUSH THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUILT UP MUCH BETTER THAN IT WAS!!!!!!!!!! i’m like skimming through old episodes right now and have rewatched that one section in Our Fears like Twenty times so far to analyze but watching laurence and aphmau banter is really silly and☹️☹️☹️it sucks how they cant just be funny friends with and loving eachother geniuennly with the /r jokes here annd there not because laurence has a not so secret crush on pahmau but because they’re wacky friends!!!!!!! bffs where one (Phmau helps the other (L heal and overcome his struggles !!!!!! their dynamic is so fun and lively annf laurence’s character development up to this point had been really satisfying minus the crush😞😞 everuhtingg is so susaauuauaaaaaaaihh jusf BE FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!! BE FRIENDS PLEASE but anyways he’s not even apart of liekt he pheonix drop guard i guess ????? at this time which makes his worst fear beign aphmau being kissed by another man so Pathetic he has cadenza and the nether people and him being a shadow guard and just so much more to worry about than aphmau same with garroth!!!!!!! i feel like there’s so much mroe that could’ve been explored if they had just considered making the illusion more Personal ?????? i was also thinking that making them both see a completely different illusion I DONG KNOW HIW TO EXPLAIN IT LIKE oooh smoke Sparkles Boom they’re in a different place and see the fear like it was done for aphmaus fear and dante’s fear!!!!!!!

going back to garroth too a few episodes ago he was talking about how he was afraid that something might happen with laurence now that’s he can see so maybe the illusion could have been laurence attacking aphmmau right in front of him and like his armor and weapons are gone when he goes to fight and hes like 😦😦 or replace laurence with zane or whatevver or he’s like married to his fiancé and aphmau is Gone what i’m saying is there was SO MUCH POTIENTIAL OOOH O AND LIKE LAURENNCES PERSONAL ILLUSIOKN COULD HAVE BEEN HIM HRUTING ALHMAU OR CADENZA AGAINNDT HIS WILL AS LIKR A SHADOW NIGHT!!!!!!!! OR IDK IMAGINNE “we should split up and look around for……” BOOM garroth looks to the left and lauurence is GONE….. it’s all like ?$)&!???!?? until he looks fowaard at the steeps and 💥💥😨😨😨 LAURENCE is STANDUNG there with APHMAU HURT ON THE SCENE!!!!!!!!!!! n he’s like laurenncz….??????? thannk irene you found hLAURNECE!!!!??!;???;??🤯🤯🤯 actually BETTER IDEA THIS IS THE BEBEST ONE ITS ONE ILLUSION NOT TWO SEPERATE ONES!!!!! RIGHT SO GARROTH IS JUST THHERE AND SEED LAURENCE AND HE LIKE SUDDENLY GAINS CONSIOUSNNES AND LIKE LOOKS DOWN BOOM SHADOW KNIGHT ARMMOR HES GOT A SWORD IN HIS HAND AND ITS COVVERE IN BLOOD!!!!!!!!!!! loook doen Aphmau There she’s Gone in that one pose you know the one i’m talking about and then he turnns around 2 c the garroth thags just in taht one standing emoji pose and he like seees the blood on his dacve and OOOH IT WOUKDVE BEEN SO COOL… i understand the limitations that come with making a roleplay series with npcs ghat have like limited movement obvsiosuly it wouldn’t be as elaborate as this but i see it in my Mind…… ONE LAST THING BEFORE I FORGET it not sure if this is a typo or intentional or just a little fact that wasnnt meant to be taken all that serious but when malachi was explaining his backstory he mentioned how he could show peoples “fears” not exclusively their “greatest fear” WHICH might excuse this entire scene (minus the inaccurate character portrayls ) and make most of what i said void but i still stand by all of it!!!!!!!!! i’m not taking this excuse from someone who mistyped one of their MOST IMPORTANT character’s name MULTIPLE TIMES to the point where a misspelling became their canon name😭😭😭😭 but overall i jsur feel ike this entire episode and concept of a “greatest fear” being watered down to throwing some wood into a Shipping Arguement Fire for the two most important characters right after aphmau could have been so much more!!!!!!! like i get that aphmau getting with someone else might just be one of garroth and laurence’s shared fear but that doesn’t excuse how laurence acted and ESPECIALLY how uncharacteristically their dialogue was after the whole debacle OH MY GOD I DIDNNNT EVEN MENTION JOW THEY ACTDD ATTERWORDS ok i’m getting tired of this Long ass essay but basically afterwords they kept questioning aphmau and dante on whether or not they kissed or whatevver and i feel so dumb right nowow this is unrelated but i’m just laying here on mymt bed Wirting this at 11:32 am instead of drawing or beingpeoduxtive or skemtjjngnevevrmind i joined a. Friend Call😊😊😊😊

ojay i left nothing interesting was happening but getting back on topic the fact that only laurence seemed to be concerned about aphmaus well beign when the whole illusion was over seems so weird especially since i would’ve expected garroth to say something about her aswell ?????? this is definitely nitpicky i just feel like i should mention the emphasis on dante and aphmau kissing instead of aphmaus wellbeing like they Shouldvve been douign…… like maybe ask about the next course of action or who dante is and what theyvve gone through or if theyre hurt wspecially laurenc before this episod he was more a less soft spoken i LOVVVE his Sassy Man persona just not before his actual character beliefs IDK HWO TO FEEL ABOUT THIS ANYMOORE yes i get theuure in shock i just feel like therees something off about this whole thing and i CANR EXPLAIN IT IN WOORDS I XANNT!!!!! i need teb notes all to be plugged into my mindndohmtmtgoodoss cddbdsdxxxcccccc cbc but yeah laurence is funny while he’s questioning them though so it’s ok and then afterwards when garroth is lik “especially the vision we saw now… that was, hard to take.” seems so out of place and weird wny doesn’t he question what happened or how they even found the child of wahetever the more the series goes on everythign seems to shift to focus more on the shipping aspects of things instead of going towards what the characters would realistically be worried about yeah yeah it’s her show i just wish that a little more was out into the dialogue during this bit to flesh them out more maybe i’m completely misinterpeting their characterrs because i’m Wacky but woudlnbg aph b like telling him everurjjng i DONNT JNWO!!!!!!!!!!!! overall i dont think the entire confrontation scene should have happened i thjnk they would have talked to aphmau eprsonally about what happenend instead of just Lamboding idk the word but that’s what i said in my head on dante and him kissing apjmau as guards that should not be their priority and i praay this is a one time thing otherwise scene was fine by itself i love❤️ Aph Mau team garmau forevver though (as of now(

no but srs i know this all sounds really corny and imm sure i look crazy right nowwhile you read this all out but this is liek directly from my brain to the paeer these are my Thoughts live not includdinng the ones i coudknnt add bc i was somehehrre else and then jsut Forgot about it!!!!!!!!!!! it’s crazy too becwysue this scene has always had such a special place in my heart (Gross) ever since i watched it when it first came out i ate this shit up!!!!!! annd now to look back and realize everything that was wrong with this part of the video and i know that there’s a BUNCH of more off moments like these but this one is just SO imporrynant to me i Sont know why and i can’t remmeber anymore because my okd notion of the video has been replacced eith me watchingn it from a few days ago but to seee myswlf continue to be interested by this straange but charming continuity annd story it’s just so important to me and was a HUGE part of my childhoood i would watch new videos from aphmau when they came out n eveerutnjng i remmeber hetting on the couch at like 9am to watch her new fnaf series videos i explicitly remember the one with the puppet jumpscare i was so fuckign scared😭😭😭😭 and i remmebr watching this one early in the morning too i thjnk idk jf this is me misremmebrjng and my brain being jumbled up bevauus that Happens sketimems and mixing up which videos i watched but i KNOW i would wake up early in the mirnirng to go to the livingn room and watch Aphmau i feel the need to critique it for what it is now and juust be Hinest with msuellf since i just saw so kuch wrong id dinnt know where i was going with this but i care for thier characters so much i just wnnat them to b real and Happy☹️☹️ love u guuys

#15 yo me was MAD AS HELL i was re reading this like DAMNNNNN #I don’t know if any of this makes sense sorry if it doesn’t talk it out with past me😭 #shout out to @xerith-42 for reminding me of my UNNECESSARILY LONG notes app bullet point doc where i would write every single thought i ha #during every episode that was kind of annoying but i have no regrets bc now i get to look back😊 #I geniuenly think i’m gonna rewatch mcd from tbe begining bc the version of me who wrote this sees everyone COMPLETELY differently than how #i currently do and that’s definelty because i don’t remember a lot from what i rewatched over a year ago so i should probably get on that #Thank you notes app #mcd #minecraft diaries #aphblr #No but i remember thinking about this shit as i was trying to sleep Shaking my fist to the sky in my brain like”Jessica bravura…..what have #you done….. i knew i was mad but i didn’t know i was THAT serious about this Oh my god

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No one understands what it’s like to be a Jane Crocker fan , they god damn annihilated her and used her corpse to make trump jokes

#rambles #Homestuck #jane Crocker #im still a laserhawk stannie but I’m having homestuck brain worms #Jane Crocker was actually a nice girl who was just socially awkward like any other teenager was and got brain washed by her grandmother #She definitely wasn’t flawless but making her a trump parody? The fuck? #Jade having a dog dick is also incredibly cursed on top of being disgusting #But like at least the original homestuck comic made weirder jokes about alien incest reproduction #So like at least that sorta makes sense in a “someone was probably wondering about that” way #The characters of homestuck were actually good if a product of their time #But holy shit looking back on it it’s like #READING PAST ACT ONE WAS NOT WORTH IT #The comic’s ending is just auugh #And homestuck 2 augh #“Well technically it’s meta commentary on fanfic 🤓☝️-“ oh my god just have sex with rick sanchez Hussie

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Am I uninteresting or intimating or pathetic or unsocial or a mix of multiple

#🦄 :: talk that talk. ୭ #🧍🏽‍♀️ #← me everytime I log in here #especially on my main like #i’m obviously no interaction god and am horrible at initiating shit but i try when i can #but holy shit stuff changed drastically #or is it me who changed drastically #or did i just make a mistake by moving blogs #i will never know probably #i might just be a horrible person and i don’t know because yk humans built like that #that is such a scary thought #😦 omg am i horrible person #rant tw #i mean it makes sense. people are less likely to interact if i have a horrible attitude or something #uh. am i overthinking. maybe. but who knows. someone may perceive me as a total weirdo. #🤔 do people just follow for content then? maybe? #oh wow i made myself hella uncomfortable. sorry if you’re reading this damn #at the end tho i really can’t control how others perceive me but. humans are social creatures #so i hope some people will perceive me in a better light and see who i really am and maybe be willing to be friendly #that is too many bes. probably not grammatically correct hdgjhdd