#it’s all about suffering

[chiara-klara-claire]

6.2.24 🎉🫥

#I brought cake to work because I gues you have to #colleague asked me what are you going to do tonight #I said not much I think #another done said jeez you’re 26 and not doing anything #and I answered oh yeah that’s for the weekend which is true but still #I’m just so down I don’t even have the energies to pretend it’s fine #I was about to cry #I think I’ll spend the day eating and crying #it’s really great how it only gets worse with time #they say at some point things get only get better but truth is it can always get worse #yesterday tho I almost lost my phone by leaving it at the zelfkassa at the Albert Heijn. thank god I realised it run back & it was t #nothing really make sense and I’m tired of sending cvs #there’s nothing I like and I have to pretend I like everything and everything is cool #i replied in a very dry way to my family wishes bc of how bad I’ve been feeling #I’ll probably eventually just throw something on ig and have 2 people say hbd #it’s all about suffering #this weekend I’ll go to Sweden if things go according to plan and will probably feel like crying most of the time there too #by myself in some hostel bc my friends are too busy for me #there’s always some god eating your heart out right #I think I’ll spend a good amount of time blinding myself with tears #I can’t wait to go to the psychologist

[myclericalromance]

i went to a tiny counterserve diner once and accidentally poured sugar instead of salt all over my hashbrowns and was eating them sadly anyways. the waitress took them away and started making me another one and I tried to protest, but she just snorted and said "we're not catholic here". now every time i'm doing something painful out of obligation i think about how that is not repenting, this body is not a catholic establishment, there is no nobility in suffering.

#edit: i know i did not invent the phrase no nobility in suffering #holy fuck this hit 50k are we all. doing okay. #please stop telling me about sweet latkes i knOW about them #this was a terrible horrible accident involving a sugar shaker with a very large opening that i mistook as being a salt shaker #there was a quarter cup of white granulated sugar on my hashbrown before i could even process my mistake

[apollos-olives]

before october 7th this blog was a meme page btw.

#don't you think it's so odd how so many palestinians on tumblr were just minding their own business and having fun #and all of a sudden the genocide started and we started dedicating all our time #to helping and start educating people #only for people to start questioning us and harassing us in the most parasocial ways #and now about half of us are deciding not to share about our personal lives or our interests anymore #because we can't be granted the opportunity to actually have personalities outside of our suffering. #a look into our personal lives is a privilege and all of you abused it #all of this is due to the fact that none of you consider us as actual human beings #even if you're “allies” to the palestinian cause. you still dehumanize us to hell and back #i wish you all could see me as someone who is just like you.

[evercelle]

but the show must go on

#genshin impact #furina #focalors #ever makes art #how about that archon quest huh!!! #i have a lot of thoughts about fontaine....... but the one i have the most thoughts about is #the theme of 'justice for all at the cost of suffering for a few' #focalors is so fascinating... the cruel calculus of what her gambit costs is very cool and sexy

[tendermiasma]

There was honeycomb in a tree in the park

#baldurs gate 3 #halsin #clover #bg3 #tav #myart #all I do is think about them and suffer #He/him for Clover <3

[lady-corrine]

Thinking again about how Suzanne esentially subverted the "beloved famous man that is actually a horrible person in real life" with Finnick, who is the complete opposite of that.

Finnick has this whole image costructed around him by the people that abused him for years: the Capitol's darling, their golden boy, the sex symbol of Panem, the man that has countless lovers but leaves them constantly and doesn't look back etc. And you would expect, initially, to meet a man that retains at least a part of that persona in his day to day life. But Finnick doesn't, not even one bit.

You see instead a man that is deeply in love and completely devoted to the one woman he quite literally adores, a man that protects Mags, his old mentor and his mother figure, as much as he can, a man that wouldn't leave Johanna behind, a man that gathers whatever strenght he has left to speak publicly about the abuse inflicted upon him at the government's hands; the opposite of what the Capitol's media and reputation made him out to be.

#don't even get me started on beetee's line about how it's a miracle finnick is still with them giving all the abuse he suffered #that line is haunting #i just love him he's such a great character :(( #finnick odair #annie cresta #odesta #mags flanagan #johanna mason #the hunger games #thg

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility #but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion #that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone #i am an environmental educator #so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering #that people are going through #without doing my research and providing real ways to help #this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning #to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering #unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this #and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this #and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity #(complaining) #and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself #for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion #i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out #rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually. #my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free #is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY. #anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i #which is more than their CEOs can say

[cemeterything]

i always find "you all need church/jesus" to be a really funny response to people being horny on main because in my experience i never thought about explicit kinky gay sex more than when i was in mass

#🐉 #it was like pavlovian conditioning #didnt help that i was raised catholic so there was all this half naked martyr iconography #and talk about the ecstasy of suffering for devotion lmao

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for? #open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer) #maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already. #really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings) #(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time) #(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.) #(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

[princess-of-morkva]

thinking about. how merlin brings out the best in arthur and on the other hand arthur brings out the darkest parts of merlin. how arthur always tries to be better and do the right thing because merlin believes in him and he wouldn't want to disappoint him. because he believes merlin is good and he wants to be good for him. how merlin always ends up making the worst decision in his desire to protect arthur, doing things he never thought he'd do. how from saving arthur's life because that's a right thing to do, he goes to putting his life above any of his own morals.

#wrote this down a few hours ago #i think about it A LOT #it's tragedy baby #it's why i love this show #and yes of course i love my babies #and that means i love all of them #including their suffering #merlin bbc #merlin #arthur pendragon #merthur #bbc merlin

[dontletyourguarddown]

Hi...

#critical role #laura bailey #marisha ray #imogen temult #laudna #laudna cr #imodna #imogen x laudna #soooo imodna nation what do we know about suffering so far? #this is just a bit too much don't you think? #i'm not even strong enough to handle all of this

[keferon]

..so. I guess I can do these in 3D now haha

#transformers #maccadam #blurr #tf blurr #idw blurr #I literally just learned how to do this hehe #i suffered #learning to work with 3D is uuuuuuuuuuuuuuh #but the final results are kinda cool #all i need to do now is ask for a payment raise on my studio if they would want some of this magic i guess #oh wait #agressive desk slap #my studio dont fucking care about quality content anymore #oh well #i guess all this goes to tumblr lmao

[ryuzumisama]

The Pale Elf

#astarion #bg3 #bg3 fanart #astarion fanart #ive never ascended him and i dont think i ever will because i cant see him suffer like that #but ive def seen the videos on yt and bro...my heart #but also...on your knees quote might make me risk it all lol #baldurs gate fanart #baldur's gate 3 #ascended astarion #gonna rant about how cool i think it is that you need to roll fairly high in order to convince him to not ascend #like the guy is ANGRY...of course it takes a lot of work to convince him to not choose the power #i love how larian wrote him--honestly constantly thinking about it every day

[morganbritton132]

Eddie, posting to Tiktok: Wow, guys. Listen to this.

Steve, sighing: Eddie

Eddie: I just asked Steve to send me a naked picture of himself. For personal reasons.

Robin, in the background: …ew

Eddie: And he said no!

Eddie: Which is fine. I’m not pressuring him, but this man used to mail me naked pictures of himself when I was on tour. Just sending them off out into the world, hoping they get to the right hotel on time.

Eddie: But texting your husband a picture of your dick when you’re five feet away from him? No way.

Steve: I will take my clothes off right now if it makes you marginally less annoying

Robin: I’d prefer if you didn’t.

#Eddie’s personal reasons AKA ‘Why’d you send Robin a picture of your junk and not me?’ #Steve heard about all those leaked pic scandals in the mid-2000s and thought ‘not gonna be me’ #and Eddie has been suffering ever since #Robin has also been suffering #eddie munson tiktok saga #steve harrington #eddie munson #robin buckley

[robinshandhurts]

ALNST MY BELOVED

#alien stage #cool art #if i have to suffer so do you #it’s not funny #i’ve been thinking about this all day #i’ve been crying all day #vivinos #im gonna cry #im gonna lose my mind #kill my feelings #fanart #alnst #alnst till #alnst ivan #alnst mizi #alnst sua #alnst round 6

[bernard-the-rabbit]

i like those ff where zuko gets paid minimum wage

#like hell yea miserable man #miserable pitiful blorbo #suffer like the rest of us #all my knowledge about barista comes from ff bc i dont work in that field #so gang gang fra #my trashy art #avatar the last airbender #avatar the last airbender fanart #atla #atla fanart #zuko #zuko fanart #toph #toph fanart