unconditionally | part two
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chapter fifteen
you and snape spent your summer together doing various activities together, like reading and going mushroom hunting. snape even taught you how to brew some new potions, making great use out of the mushrooms and other items you and him had collected.
you and him spent your time divided between your place and his; you had a small yet comfortable house in london, which your parents would be keeping an eye on while you lived with snape at hogwarts during the school year. they weren't fully aware of what you and snape had going on, but you knew that you'd tell them eventually.
at spinner's end, all you and snape did was read and then discuss what you read before spending the rest of the day cuddling. however, snape was a lot more comfortable at your place than he was at his which was understandable.
you and snape sat in your garden one afternoon, eating the strawberries that you two had just picked from the fruit patches that tou had. you only had about a week left of vacation before you had to report to the ministry; snape was on edge about you going.
"i'll be fine," you promised him as he picked the green leaves off of the top of the strawberry he was about to eat. "i'll be working alongside other aurors and we all know the best defensive spells out there."
"i'm just worried," he admitted, holding the strawberry up to his mouth before he ate it. he appreciatively savored the strawberry, considering he's never really been a fruit eater and also couldn't afford them growing up.
"i know and that's understandable, but i promise you that i will be fine. you already have enough to worry about. i don't want you to become overwhelmed," you honestly informed him.
snape pouted and reluctantly nodded, deciding to listen to you and trust you that everything would be okay.
you started your job as an auror during the first week of july; around the same time, snape kept having to go out more and more to do whatever he was doing, which raised your suspicions. you had no idea what he could be doing, but you just hoped that he was safe.
you and your fellow aurors quickly began the tedious and dangerous task of eavesdropping on a death eater meeting in order to gather information on voldemort's plans.
you all apparated to malfoy manor one particular frigid evening, hiding behind shrubs as you all carefully made your way towards the manor.
you always had the feeling that draco malfoy's family weren't good people, and being at malfoy manor to spy on the death eaters only confirmed your suspicions.
nymphadora tonks, one of the more advanced aurors and the only other female on your team, nodded at you to walk towards the window on your side.
you nodded and walked towards it, a loud buzzing filling your ears. you bit your lip, figuring that one of the death eaters had cast the muffliato charm. you silently performed the the counter spell and then stood on your tiptoes, delicately pressing your ear to the window. black curtains covered the window, preventing you from seeing inside.
the conversation inside was muffled due to the window, yet you caught traces of a familiar voice that made your stomach drop.
snape.
you slowly stepped back, staring at the window in disbelief. why would snape be at a death eater meeting? he told you that he had defected from the death eaters…unless he lied to you.
your grip around your wand angrily tightened, huffing as you stepped back from the window.
"what happened?" tonks asked you in a hushed voice as you brushed past her.
you ignored her, feelings of anger, betrayal, and sadness coming to life inside of you. why would snape lie to you? you knew that you were going to have to confront him about this no matter what.
you didn't get home until about two in the morning, having worked one of your later shifts. you locked your front door just as snape apparated into the living room.
"hello, y/n," snape warmly greeted you with a smile. "how was work?"
you turned to face him with a nasty glare, marching up to him and demanding, "why were you at malfoy manor tonight?"
snape's smile fell, his face going pale as he tried to explain why he was thwrw but you angrily continued your rant.
"you lied to me, didn't you!? you never defected from the death eaters!" you shouted at him as you balled your hands into fists. the lights in your house flickered due to your anger and snape's eyes widened. "you knew that i was becoming an auror and thought that you could be slick and continue to be loyal to voldemort behind my back!"
"no, y/n! let me explain!" snape pleaded as you stomped past him into your bedroom. you were about to slam the door behind you when snape stopped you, firmly holding the door open. "i'm a double agent for dumbledore and voldemort, y/n! i still have to report to death eater meetings so voldemort doesn't think i'm betraying him!" he exclaimed at you. "i never lied!"
you raised an eyebrow at him, closely analyzing his words before you softly asked him, "how can you live like this?"
snape walked past you, joining you in your bedroom as he miserably sat down on your bed. he was suddenly crying and you instantly went over to hug him.
"i don't know," he whispered in a broken voice. "i switched sides after he killed lily. i don't know how i'm even still alive."
"oh, sev. i'm so sorry," you soothed him as you gently caressed his face. "i..i didn't know. i'm so sorry for lashing out on you."
"it's okay, i promise. i was scared to tell you since i didn't want to lose you again," he solemnly confessed as he slowly ran a hand up and down your thigh.
"you wouldn't have lost me because of this. i would've stayed and supported you. you're so brave for being a double agent," you comforted snape, kissing him. "you will never lose me ever again, i promise."
snape feebly smiled at you, breathing shakily as he securely held onto you like he was afraid of letting you go.
you and snape stayed sitting like that until the two of you decided to go to sleep. you laid on top of snape as his arms unwaveringly stayed wrapped around your body.
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chapter sixteen | nsfw ahead. (soft dom snape, praise kink, oral (f receiving) handjob, fingering, physically unprotected sex that's magically protected by a spell, multiple orgasms)
you didn't want to get up the next morning, too comfortable in snape's embrace to even move.
snape eventually did get you to move though since he had to go to the bathroom, but he wrapped his arms around you again the moment he returned.
"now i have to go to the bathroom," you laughed as he hugged you.
"i'll carry you," he offered, carrying you to the bathroom so the two of you could get ready for the day together.
you had about an hour until you had to get to work, so you and snape returned to bed for the time being.
snape felt extra clingy this morning, seemingly unable to keep his hands and lips off of you.
"i missed you so much," he quietly said as his lips brushed against your ear, sending chills across your skin. "i was so scared that i was going to lose you last night."
"i'm here," you whispered in response, wiping a stray tear from his cheekbone. "and i'm here to stay."
snape smiled, pressing a small kiss to your neck. you threaded your fingers in his hair, finding the black color of it so beautiful and elegant. you knew that his hair could be greasy, mostly because he struggled with his hygiene at times, but you loved his hair nonetheless.
snape leaned up to kiss you then, the two of you sharing breathy giggles between every few kisses. snape brought himself closer to you, his legs resting in between yours.
heat began to pool at the pit of your stomach when snape grabbed your hips and held you in place below him, almost like he was claiming you as his with his kisses. you felt something growing and moving against your inner thigh and your breath hitched.
"hey," you breathlessly said to snape, licking your lips.
"hey," he replied, kissing your jawline a few times.
"my insides feel…hot," you wheezed, not sure if you were even making sense.
"huh?" snape raised his eyebrows. "what do you mean?"
you exhaled a long breath and nervously explained, "you know…in that kind of way."
snape thought for a few moments before he let out a long "ohhh," smirking before he slyly asked you, "and why do they feel hot, darling?"
you squeaked, lightly digging your nails into snape's arms and boldly replying, "because i can feel your hard on poking my inner thigh."
"you weren't supposed to feel that!" snape gasped.
"how could i not? did you get hard from just kissing me?"
snape groaned and shook his head, rubbing your hip bone and nodding shamefully.
"how cute," you teased as snape rolled his eyes. "you know…"
"what do i know, y/n?"
you shook your head. "nothing. i- i was just going to ask if you wanted to…possibly continue?"
snape gulped, staring at your flustered expression and thinking. he hasn't has sex in years and the last thing he wanted to do was not perform good enough for you and disappoint you.
"i haven't done it in years and-" you cut snape off by pressing your lips to his, telling him that you haven't done it in a while either.
this helped snape feel more at ease and he timidly replied, "i don't want to accidentally hurt you."
"i'll let you know if you do, but i doubt you will," you kindly promised him. "as long as you're comfortable, that's all that matters to me."
snape felt like crying out of joy; he still couldn't quite wrap his head around how someone could be so perfect.
snape nodded, his hands reacting before his mind could. he slowly undid your maroon auror robes, his breath quickening with each article of clothing that came off.
"i got it," you told snape as he struggled to undo your pants. his hands were shaking with both excitement and nervousness, so he sat back and fiddled with his hands while he watched you remove your pants.
snape nearly drooled as he gazed down at you, his eyes taking in every detail of your body. you still had your bra and underwear on, but snape wasted no time getting those off of you as well.
before snape pulled down your underwear, he slowly dragged a finger up your clothed slit, drawing a whimper from you.
"you're wet," snape plainly stated as he maintained intense eye contact with you. "very wet. all this from just kissing me?"
you let out a long, shaky breath, biting your lip as you began to massage your right breast to stimulate yourself. your left hand clenched the sheets, your back arching when snape finally took off your underwear and pressed his finger to your exposed wetness.
"sev," you whined, wiggling your hips around a bit. snape used his free hand to hold your hips still, giving you a stern look.
"no moving, doll. i want to pleasure you," he mumbled, in a daze of lust as watched his finger run up and down your slit before he began to rub slow circles into your sensitive clit.
"fuck," you sighed, rolling your head back onto your pillow as your eyes fluttered close. "that feels amazing."
"so pretty," snape dreamily said, relishing in the blissful sounds leaving you. "you're doing so well for me, sweetheart."
you moaned loudly at the praise, your eyes opening when you heard snape laugh.
"what?" you breathlessly asked him, your chest rising and falling with each heavy breath you exhaled.
"you like being praised, don't you?" snape questioned as he increased the speed on your clit, his other finger teasing your entrance.
you quickly nodded. "mhm, i like it a lot," you admitted as you clawed at the sheets, desperate for more. "when you called me- called me a good girl that one time, and a clever girl that other time- that really did something to me."
snape smiled down at you, saying nothing as he slowly inserted his finger inside of you.
you let out a small cry of surprise; it didn't hurt, but it was a strange yet euphoric pressure inside of you.
"is that okay?" snape asked as he leaned down to kiss your forehead. he was breathing hard, already riled up from just teasing you.
you wordlessly nodded, looking up at him with pleading eyes. snape quickly pecked your lips before gently thrusting his finger in and out of you, continuing his movements on your clit.
"sev, holy shit," you gasped, reaching for the hand that he wasn't using. he intertwined his fingers with yours, kissing your cheek as he continued to move his finger in and out of you.
you couldn't help but squirm, every nerve ending in your body feeling electrified by the pleasure snape was giving you.
"you're so good," you praised snape, your words making him groan. he was desperate to get inside of you already, but he wanted to take his time with you and get you as ready as possible for when he finally did get inside of you.
"need you," you mumbled into his ear, gripping the ends of his hair. "need you inside me, please."
snape's eyes widened; it was like you had just read his mind. "are you sure, y/n? are you ready?"
you nodded without hesitation, moaning out his name as you felt a blissful pleasure begin to build in your lower abdomen.
snape felt you clench around him, smirking; he wasn't quite finished with you yet and wanted to make you cum around his finger first.
"are you close, love? i can feel you squeezing my finger," snape commented, watching as your thighs began to shake around his hand.
"yes, gosh!" you cried. tightly squeezing snape's hand. your body was pulsating with pleasure, your orgasm coming closer with each swift thrust of snape's finger
you dissolved into lust as your orgasm rocked your body. your hold around snape's hand tightened, using it as an anchor as you came undone underneath him.
snape watched you cum, his lips parted and his eyes wide. he's never seen anyone so beautiful before, and his aching cock in his pants was practically screaming at him to get on with fucking you already.
once you had come down from your orgasm, you took a deep breath that was soon replaced by a moan when snape suddenly laid down on his stomach and placed his head between your thighs.
snape flicked his tongue at your clit in a misguided attempt to clean you up; all he was doing was conjuring up another orgasm. your thighs clamped around his head and you tugged on his hair, reaching your climax a few short moments later. this orgasm was much more gentle and came in waves, yet it still left you breathless and begging for more.
"sorry, i just wanted to make you cum again," snape chuckled, sitting up and leaning forward to kiss you; you could taste yourself on his lips which only deepened your arousal. snape sucked on your bottom lip before pulling away, leaning down to kiss all over your body. he kissed from your moles to your stretch marks, leaving extra kisses on the small scars you had from injuries inflicted throughout your lifetime. snape wanted to worship your body and make you feel as good as possible because he knew that it was what you deserved.
"i wanna see you," you whispered to snape as you watched him sit back on his knees to admire you. "please."
snape bit his lip, his fingers hesitating on the several buttons of his coat. he had a lot of scars on his body that represented everything he's been through and he was insecure about them.
however, snape didn't want to let his insecurities ruin this moment, so he undid his coat and presented himself to you.
you sat up on your elbows, observing every detail and scar on his skin. you smiled softly up at him and fully sat up, coming level with his chest. you kissed his skin as you cooed, "you're so beautiful, sev."
snape's cheeks flushed red, stroking your hair and then kissing the top of your head. "not as beautiful as you, though," he grinned. you pulled back to look at him, your smile only growing as you placed your hands on his waist.
"may i?" you politely asked him as your fingers ghosted over the buttons on his pants. snape quickly nodded, licking his lips as he watched you slowly undo his pants. as you did, you leaned forward to lovingly kiss his dark mark, causing snape to smile.
you tugged his pants down his slender thighs and snape kicked the rest of them off, now only being left in his black boxers. you placed a hand over his pulsing length, drawing a small whimper from him.
you ran your hand up and down his clothed length, just now realizing how long and thick it was. you pulled down his boxers, gasping when his hard cock smacked against your breasts.
"you're so big," you admired as you wrapped a hand around snape's shaft, pumping him slowly. his cock was hot and heavy in your hand, the tip glistening with pre cum.
snape keened under your praise, fisting your hair and shuddering at your movements. you began to pump his length, kissing across his skin and the short, dark trail of hair leading down to his pelvis. you looked up at him through your lashes as you stroked him, watching the way he bit his lip and hearing the way he moaned.
"gosh, princess," he sighed, stroking your face. "you're such a good girl. my good, sweet girl."
you rubbed your thighs together, feeling new wetness gather between them. you were desperate to suck him off, but decided to save it for another time since you were yearning for him to be inside of you.
"i want you now," you told him as you let go of his cock, giving the tip a long swipe with your thumb. snape whined at that, nodding quickly and laying you down, nearly knocking you off the bed from his excitement.
"woah there, sev," you giggled, holding his face in your hands as you admired his face. "don't send me flying off the bed now."
"sorry," he laughed, nudging your cheek with his nose. "i'm just really excited."
you kissed him, fumbling for yours and his wands that were laying on the nightstand. snape raised his eyebrows, confused as to why you were grabbing them.
"we have to cast the birth control spell," you explained as you handed snape his wand. "it's quite easy to cast, actually. we must kiss the tips of each other's wands as we say null pregnagia. gold sparks will shoot from our wands and we'll suddenly feel very warm, but the birth control lasts for 24 hours. i still want to develop it further in order to make it last longer, but for now this will do."
"you're so sexy when you're talking about what you've invented," snape said bashfully, grabbing your wand and raising the tip to his lips. you grinned and did the same with his, the two of you kissing each other's wands and saying, "null pregnagia."
gold sparks emitted from the wands, a sudden, strong warmth spreading all across your body. the sparks disappeared after a few moments along with the warmth and you hurriedly placed the wands back on the nightstand, grabbing snape by his hips.
"i'm ready now," you told him with a smile as you wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him closer to you.
snape nodded and smiled back at you, holding your hips as he began to slowly push himself inside of you, exhaling a moan with every breath.
you held him close to your body, gasping when he was finally inside. he was throbbing inside of you, his body shaking.
"you okay?" you gently asked him, your eyes traveling down to look at where his hips met yours.
"yeah," he answered in a strained voice, clenching his jaw. "you just feel really good."
you knotted your hand in his hair, kissing his jawline and saying, "you feel really good too, baby."
snape's heart soared at the nickname you had just called him, smiling to himself as he spread your legs, watching as his cock began to slide in and out of you.
"does that feel good, beautiful?" snape moaned to you, hungrily kissing your neck and collarbones.
"yes, it feels so good," you whined, rolling your head back. his mouth was hot on your neck and you roughly tugged on his hair when you felt him suck on your skin.
snape moaned softly at the feeling of you tugging on his hair and you smirked, doing it again.
snape moaned louder this time, gripping your waist and pulling you closer to him as he began to thrust faster.
"more," you begged, tightly holding onto his shoulders. "please please please," you pouted between kisses, hearing snape groan against your mouth.
he sat up on his knees, grabbing your legs and hooking them around his waist. he gently lifted them up before delivering one swift, hard thrust into you, hard enough that your breasts bounced from the force of it.
"you're so gorgeous," snape praised you, his eyes darting between your breasts and his cock sliding in and out of you. "look at you, all submissive and breathless underneath me."
you cried out in ecstasy, snape's words alone further fueling your arousal. you grabbed onto his hands and held them, looking up at him with lust blown eyes as you moaned lewdly for him.
"yes yes yes," you deliriously chanted as snape continued to fuck you. "right there!"
"right there?" snape breathed as he angled his hips to thrust into the spot that practically had you trembling with pleasure. you frantically nodded, throwing your head back and feeling snape lower your legs to lean down, his lips finding their place on your neck.
"your pussy is so perfect angel, and you're taking me so well," snape huskily said, bringing an arm around you to pull you chest up to his. your hard nipples brushed against his sweaty chest, your back arched against his arm. "you're going to be a good girl and cum for me, right?"
"yes!" you cried, clawing at his back. "please, sev. i'll cum for you."
snape pressed a firm kiss to your cheek, panting against it as his hand slid down between your bodies to rub at your clit. you tightly clenched around him and snape hissed, his thrusts beginning to falter slightly.
"i'm so close," you gasped, your lungs burning with every harsh exhale you took. your climax was rapidly approaching, your pussy continuing to tightly clench snape's cock.
"i know, baby. i know. I can feel it," snape mumbled as he repeatedly kissed your cheek. he pulled back then, staring intensely at you as he lustfully stated, "i want you to look at me while you cum, sweetheart."
you obediently nodded, your eyes widening as the first peaks of your climax hit you, sending small shockwaves through you before your real climax finally came.
you practically sobbed with pleasure, whimpers and moans of snape's name filling the room. it felt like your body and pussy were being split open in the most euphoric, blissful way, and you've never cum so hard before in your life.
tears sprung to your eyes, so overwhelmed by how amazing snape's cock felt that you barely noticed him cumming.
snape came with a loud, long groan, thrusting a few more times before his hips stilled. he fully pressed his hips to yours, whining softly as he came inside of you.
snape held himself up, preventing himself from collapsing on top of you as he kissed you all over your face.
"that was amazing," you breathed, giggling under his touch. "you were amazing."
"you did such a good job, angel," snape hummed as he slowly massaged your stomach. "you came so pretty for me as well."
you blushed, hiding your face in his shoulder. snape kissed the side of your head, slowly pulling out and settling himself between your legs, breathing slow and steady as he held you.
"it's a shame we can't go for round two," you frowned as snape reached for his wand. he cleaned the two of you up with a simple wave of his wand, grinning down at you and replying, "next time we can."
you slowly kissed him, sighing happily. you wanted to stay in bed with snape instead of going to work, but you knew that fudge wouldn't like that.
"does your body hurt at all?" snape worriedly wondered as you and him sat up in bed.
"not at all. you didn't hurt me in any sort of way," you promised him as you leaned forward to kiss his nose. "all you did was give me the most pleasure i've felt in a while."
"i'm so glad," snape mumbled as he nuzzled his nose into the crown of your head, kissing it afterwards. his arms found their way around your waist, keeping them there even when you tried to get out of bed to get dressed.
"i'll see you later, remember?' you reminded snape as he looked up from buttoning his pants, frowning; he didn't want you to go and just wanted to hold you and cuddle you for the rest of the day.
"but later is so far from now," he grumbled as you and him walked into the living room.
you smiled at him, kissing his lips and cheeks before telling him, "if you're going to a death eater meeting today, be careful, okay?"
"i will be careful. i promise," he reassured you, giving you a big, warm hug before the two of you apparated to where you each needed to be.
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chapter seventeen
you felt much more at ease now knowing that snape hadn't been lying to you. you knew that him being a double agent was extremely risky and hoped and prayed that he'd be okay and that no one would hurt him.
as the summer went on, you and snape saw each other less and less. you were very busy at work and snape kept having to report to voldemort. this put a strain on your relationship with him, but you and him didn't argue about it; you two would just treasure the moments you two did have together.
as part of your mission to become more involved in defeating dark wizards and preventing the tragedies caused by dark magic, you joined the order of the phoenix, a secret society devoted to opposing voldemort and his followers. snape joined immediately after you did, which excited you since it meant you two would be seeing each other more often.
you and your team heard about harry being expelled from hogwarts because he cast the patronus charm in the presence of his cousin, a muggle, after dementors had attacked them. this prompted you and your team to go collect harry from privet drive and take him to 12 grimmauld place, where he would be safer. order of the phoenix meetings were also held at 12 grimmauld place.
you ran straight into snape when you all arrived, smiling up at him before you kissed his cheek. harry did a double take when he saw that and snape gave him a cold glare, nodding at him to keep on walking.
"i missed you so much," you mumbled to snape as you and him walked into the dining room with the others.
"i missed you more, darling," snape replied, leaving a quick kiss on the top of your head before the two of you sat down next to each other at the table.
sirius black, one of snape's old bullies, sat down across from the two of you, nodding in your direction and completely ignoring snape.
"so, it's true then? you and snivellus are together?" he asked, sounding a little shocked as he looked between you and snape.
"don't call him snivellus," you firmly told sirius, feeling snape's hand tighten around yours. "you should let go of that nickname, you know. it's not very nice."
"well, in my defense, i never thought someone would want to date sniv-" sirius couldn't finish his sentence as snape had abruptly stood up with his wand drawn, pointing it at him.
mrs. weasley gasped and hastily began to motion for snape and sirius to sit back down. "now, now. you two mustn't fight!" she scolded them, watching in shock as sirius drew his wand as well.
"watch that mouth of yours, black, or you'll regret ever being born," snape spat, approaching him and pressing his wand to his chest.
"sev!" you exclaimed, roughly grabbing his arm and pulling him away. snape turned to look at you with furious eyes as sirius jeered in the background, "you're lucky your lady is saving you, snivelly!"
snape flipped sirius off just as you dragged him out of the room and up the stairs. "i'm going to teach him a lesson," snape fumed as you led him into a bedroom at the end of the hallway. "who does he think he is?"
you frowned and gently kissed snape, trying to calm him down. "just ignore him, okay? stay here until you've calmed down."
snape rolled his eyes and nodded, plopping down on the bed in the corner of the room and crossing his arms over his chest with a loud huff.
you returned to the dining room, quietly sitting down. tonks sat down next to you, giving your leg a reassuring pat.
"anyways, shall we get started now that the drama with "sev" is over?" sirius asked everyone. you grabbed your wand from the inner pocket of your robes, clutching it tightly. you didn't have a problem with stunning sirius if he kept up with his smartass remarks.
the meeting commenced, snape joining about ten minutes later. he sat down on the other side of you and definitely seemed calm now. his hand never left yours during the meeting except for when he'd get up to go to the bathroom or stretch. he was still a bit shaken up over what happened with sirius earlier, especially because he had been worried that you would've scolded him.
he tried not to overthink about you and your feelings for him too much, but it was a trauma response of his. he did, however, want to work on battling his overthinking and develop a healthier mindset. most of all, he wanted to become the best version of himself for you.
you offered to harry to take him to his hearing at the ministry since you wanted to provide him with extra protection in case anything went awry.
the day of his hearing, you and harry entered the ministry via telephone booth and headed down into the bustling crowd moving throughout the atrium.
"you're going to be okay, harry," you promised him as the two of you walked down the long, dark hallway leading to the courtroom. "just stay calm and remember that you had every right to cast the patronus charm, as it was literally a life or death situation."
harry silently nodded, giving you a fearful look before he walked inside the courtroom. you waited for harry, watching lucius malfoy walk by with cornelius fudge. they were speaking in hushed voices and abruptly stopped their conversation when they saw you.
"may i help you?" you indignantly asked them. mr. fudge raised his eyebrows at you. "no, not at all, miss y/l/n," he nervously replied. "have a good day now."
him and lucius quickly left after that and you breathed a sigh of relief; although mr. fudge was your boss and the minister, you felt a lack of respect for him solely because he refused to believe voldemort had returned and ridiculed anyone who tried to convince him otherwise.
dumbledore appeared a few minutes after harry had gone in, greeting you before he made his way into the courtroom to testify for harry. while you waited, you headed to your office to sort out a few things and review some of the files you had on known death eaters.
you smiled when you saw the little note that snape had left you; in the note, snape wrote about how beautiful you were and how much he adored you. you pocketed the note for safe keeping and decided to write a note for him as well, planning to drop it off in his office at hogwarts once the term started.
much to your joy, harry left his hearing innocent and free of all charges. he seemed a bit frustrated, though.
"dumbledore completely ignored me when i called his name after the hearing," he explained after you and him had departed from the ministry.
"i'm sure he'll talk to you soon, but he shouldn't have ignored you. being ignored hurts a lot," you replied as you gave harry a sympathetic look.
harry nodded and smiled a little at you, thanking you for joining him at the ministry.
"of course, harry. i wouldn't have wanted you to go alone," you grinned. "i'm glad you aren't being expelled."
"me too," harry said. he then smiled smugly, adding, "since when did you and professor snape start seeing each other?"
you blushed, swiping your metrocard as you and harry walked through the turnstile at the subway station. "for a while now. he's quite sweet, you know."
"sweet? professor snape?" harry asked, genuinely surprised. "i mean, whatever floats your boat, i guess."
you laughed quietly and shook your head, knowing very well that many people are still surprised by your relationship with snape. what mattered the most though is that you were happy.
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chapter eighteen
you quickly grew accustomed to living with snape at hogwarts; you couldn't join the others in the great hall for meals, so snape would always save food for you and bring it to you.
you deeply missed teaching defense against the dark arts, and your longing for the position only grew stronger when dolores umbridge started teaching the subject.
"y/n, please stop me before i poison her. she's absolutely dreadful. the two of you wear pink and her office is even pink like yours was. i heard that her patronus is apparently a cat just like yours, but she's nowhere near as sweet and loving as you are," snape complained to you one evening.
"harry told me that she was at his hearing. him and i are positive that she sent the dementors after him," you said as snape laid his head in your lap. you stroked his hair slowly and untangled the little knots in it as well. "did she do something to you?"
"yes, she did. she had to quite blatantly and rudely point out to me that i was unsuccessful in applying to the defense against the dark arts post," he pouted as he looked up at you. "i wish you were still teaching the class. i heard that she's not even teaching defensive spells."
"how could she not be teaching defensive spells? voldemort is back! how could she be so…so stupid?" you said in an exasperated voice.
snape raised a hand to touch your cheek, leaning up to kiss you afterwards. "i know she doesn't believe that he's back," he whispered against your lips.
"then i'm going to do something about this. she's practically risking the lives of her students by not teaching them what they need to know," you confidently said. "she won't get away with this."
you approached professor umbridge the next day, giving her a wide, fake smile and greeting her.
"hello, i am y/n y/l/n, an auror at the ministry of magic," you said as you reluctantly shook her hand.
"oh, you work at the ministry? y/l/n…your father is head seer, correct?" she replied, clearly faking the sweetness in her voice.
"he is. you know, as an auror, i firmly believe in the importance of properly educating young wizards and witches defensive spells and techniques," you calmly stated. "your impractical teaching style will only prove to be insufficient."
umbridge blinked at you several times, letting out a pompous giggle and shrilly replying, "you do not have the authority to speak on the educational guidelines that the ministry has instituted. by criticizing my teaching style, you are criticizing the ministry of magic and the minister himself. as a ministry worker, you should know better!"
"no, dolores. i don't need to know better. you're the only one who needs to know better," you stiffly said, holding your head up high. "i worked as the defense against the dark arts professor last year, and i will not tolerate seeing my old students struggle to defend themselves against voldemort!"
an awful, cold silence filled the corridor. a group of students had been walking by, stopping in their tracks to watch the drama unfold.
snape walked by just then, stopping behind you and placing a hand on your back.
"severus, please escort her from the premises!" umbridge shrieked, clenching her fists. "she has disrespected the ministry of magic and is babbling nonsense about the dark lord being back!"
snape gave her a sour look, nodding slowly before taking you out of the corridor.
you lightly pinched his upper arm once you two were out of sight, hissing at him, "you should've left me there! i was going to give her a taste of her own medicine!"
"you could've lost your job by arguing with her! she would've reported you to fudge," snape snapped. "i don't want you to risk losing the job that you love over her stupidity."
you clenched your jaw, thinking of what to say next. "thank you for your concern, sev, but i am going to fight for what is right."
and with that, you walked away, calculating a plan to stop umbridge.
much to your luck, harry and his friends began to organize a student-led group called dumbledore's army, where students would learn the necessary spells to defend themselves.
you risked everything, including your job, to help the students out. you would sneakily join them in the room of requirement and observe them, admiring how good of a teacher harry was.
"professor- i mean, miss y/l/n," neville longbottom said during one of the DA meetings. "how are you still allowed here in the castle if you're not teaching here anymore?"
"well, dumbledore pulled some strings and i have been allowed to reside with professor snape in his room," you explained. neville's eyebrows shot up into his hair, having been unaware that you and snape were together.
"blimey," ron mumbled from your left. "dumbledore must really like you to let you stay here."
you smiled at ron and said, "i guess he does."
snape learned of you helping dumbledore's army and he fully supported your decision. because of his current double agent status, he couldn't show too much loyalty to dumbledore or he'd come off as suspicious to voldemort and his followers. to suffice, snape supported the DA from afar.
"you know, what you're doing is so insanely risky," snape gently reminded you. "although, i do enjoy taking risks.'
"i can tell," you gulped, feeling snape press his body against yours. he had asked you to meet him in his potions storeroom to assist him in finding a specific ingredient he needed for a potion. five seconds later and your search turned into a heated makeout session.
snape smirked at you and dipped his head into your neck, kissing your skin and holding your waist. you tugged his hair just how he liked it, gasping when you felt him grip your thigh and hoist your leg up his side.
the door suddenly swung open and snape rapidly pulled away, accidentally backing into the shelf behind him and knocking over several bottles of ingredients, their contents spilling all across the floor.
there stood the weasley twins, their jaws practically on the floor as they stared at you and snape. you awkwardly fixed your skirt and blouse, looking away.
"fifty points from gryffindor for coming into my storeroom!' snape shouted at the twins as they ran away. "you should be glad i was in here to prevent you two fools from stealing anything!"
snape slammed the door shut, breathing heavily as he shakily told you, "if they tell anyone about what they saw, i will rid gryffindor of every last point."
of course, they did tell people, which led umbridge to put up a new educational decree that boldly stated, "all public displays of relationships between adults are hereby prohibited."
"we weren't even doing it in public! we were behind closed doors!" you huffed as you flopped onto yours and snape's shared bed. "honestly, is she going to leave anytime soon? like, before the term is over?"
snape stared blankly up at the ceiling before looking over at you. "unless someone kidnaps her or sacks her, she won't."
matters got even worse when umbridge attempted to sack professor trelawney. this resulted in a big shouting match between you and umbridge in the courtyard. professor mcgonagall stood proudly by your side and helped you stick up to umbridge before dumbledore came to save the day. you were shaking with fury, nearing losing it when fudge came down to hogwarts to take hagrid to azkaban.
"tonks and i are considering starting a strike," you angrily told snape as you paced around his office. "the ministry is becoming involved in things they shouldn't be, and fudge severely lacks common sense."
snape stopped your pacing, standing behind you to slowly rub your shoulders. "relax, y/n. you're going to give yourself a heart attack if you keep stressing out about these things."
you felt ypur shoulders relax when snape began to massage them, smiling. "i guess i do need to relax, then. i'm just…scared of a war happening."
the movement of snape's hands halted and they dropped from your shoulders. his hand graced your waist as he walked around you to face you, grabbing your face in his large, warm hands and whispering, "even if a war does happen, i will keep you safe and make sure that no one lays a finger on you."
you firmly hugged him, feeling the warmth of his body cover you like a blanket. "i'll protect you too, just like i always have."
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chapter nineteen
unfortunately, dumbledore's army was discovered by umbridge and you and the students involved were taken in for questioning.
snape burst into umbridge's office the moment he heard the news, his wand out and ready in case he needed to use it.
"do not hurt y/n," snape warned umbridge in a dangerously low voice, his wand pointed at her. "or the others either."
harry was sat in a chair by umbridge's desk, a harsh slap being delivered to his face as umbridge grilled him for answers.
"are you threatening me, severus?" umbridge offendedly asked snape. "most of all, are you defending y/n? her father is head seer at the ministry and has been contributing to these baseless rumors of the dark lord being back."
"because he is!" you and hermione cried simultaneously. crabbe gave your arm a particularly painful twist and you stomped harshly on his foot, causing him to curse and stumble backwards, letting go of you.
you took your wand out and joined snape at his side, aiming it at umbridge. "my father, along with many others, have been trying to warn everyone about voldemort being back, but you're simply too ignorant and incompetent to acknowledge that!" you shouted at umbridge.
"i sound like snape," you thought as you watched umbridge's face contort in utter shock and disgust at your words.
"he's got padfoot!" harry suddenly exclaimed. "he's got padfoot at the place where it's hidden!"
"padfoot? padfoot? what is padfoot? what is he talking about?" umbridge demanded as she glared at you and snape.
snape inhaled a short breath before dryly replying, "no idea."
"what's hidden is dumbledore's secret weapon!" hermione suddenly exclaimed. "i know where it is, we'll show you!"
umbridge hesitated before agreeing, practically shoving ron, barry, and hermione out of her office. you threatened the slytherin boys holding the other students hostage, promising them that you'd use a hex on them that would cause them to projectile vomit every thirty seconds for three days straight.
you didn't feel good threatening students, but in this case it has to be done.
you, snape, and the others quickly left umbridge's office, the slytherin boys being roughly grabbed by their hair by snape and scolded before snape gave them all a month's worth of detention.
"you're starting to turn into me," snape remarked as you and him hurried down the stairs to the dungeons. "you know, when it comes to threatening people."
"i've never done such a thing before. it felt oddly empowering, especially in this dire of a situation," you sheepishly said.
snape laughed quietly and then frowned, opening the door to his office. you walked in and turned to face him. "is everything alright?"
"not really. i just remembered something unpleasant," snape answered as he sat down at his desk. you instantly sat down on his lap, cradling his face as you waited for him to tell you.
"when i was giving harry his occlumency lessons," he began, referring to what he had been recently doing outside of his classes. "he looked inside of my mins and saw the day james bullied me down by the lake. that was the same day you and i had our falling out. i got very angry and told harry to leave. i keep getting reminded of james, y/n. i don't like it."
"i'm so sorry to hear that, baby," you sympathized, kissing his temple. "i know how it feels to relive your worst memory, so i completely understand how you feel and how hard it is to process those emotions."
"what is your worst memory, if you don't mind me asking?" you heard snape ask as you continued to kiss his face.
you pulled back and hesitated before truthfully replying, "the day we had our falling out. when the dementor attacked me, that memory was all i could see, all i could hear. it was fresh in my mind like it had just happened yesterday."
snape gently grabbed your chin, lowering your face to his so he could kiss you. his lips lingered on yours before he pulled away to mumble, "you won't ever have to relive that memory again, nor will you gain a similar memory. i promise you that i am here to stay."
time and time again snape has promised you to stay, and each time it made you feel even more special and important to him. you completely trusted snape's words and were assured that he would never lie about such a thing.
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chapter twenty | nsfw ahead. (oral, m receiving)
you and the order apparted to the department of mysteries in the midst of a battle between the death eaters and dumbledore's army. your dad and the other seers had luckily escaped in the nick of time.
"avada kedavra!" you heard a death eater shout from your left, causing you to duck and dodge the spell. you fired back at them with the stunning spell before running over to help luna lovegood.
"stay down!" you urgently told her as you deflected another killing curse. "i'll take care of them!" a second beam of bright green light shot past you and luna, striking sirius black.
you spun around to see bellatrix lestrange standing on the other side of the room, smiling menacingly at you before leaving.
you heard harry shout out sirius' name and then began to sob, watching as remus lupin held him back. you suddenly began to hear faint whispers coming from the veil in the center of the room, slowly realizing that you had just witnessed your very first death.
harry broke free of lupin's grasp and ran out of the room, his wand secure in his hand. you and the order continued to fight back, your eyes straying over to the veil every now and then.
voldemort actually ended up appearing in the atrium, battling dumbledore and fleeting when the minister appeared.
finally, fudge would believe that voldemort was back, yet that didn't guarantee the safety of everyone.
from that point forward, things quickly took a turn for the worst.
death eaters began to terrorize and attack the muggle world, which resulted in you and your dad sending your mom into hiding for the time being. it was hard saying goodbye to her not knowing when you'd see her again, but it was for the best as she was a muggle and at high risk of being killed.
to help get your mind off of your worries, snape took you to spinner's end one rainy afternoon to help him gather some books. he wanted to bring some more of them to hogwarts, especially his favorite ones.
"this book here is about-" snape started to explain to you, being sharply cut off by a loud knocking at the front door. snape's fingers tightened around the spine of the book and be quickly ushered you upstairs without a word.
you peered down the staircase and watched as bellatrix and narcissa malfoy walk in.
"i-i know i mustn't be here, as the dark lord himself forbade me to soeak of this," narcissa nervously told snape.
"if the dark lord has forbidden it, you are not to speak," snape calmly said, his eyes wandering over to bellatrix, who was touching his dark curio.
"put that down, bella. we mustn't touch what isn't ours," snape sternly told her.
bellatrix looked back at him and slowly placed it down, walking across the room with a roll of her eyes.
"i'm aware of your situation, narcissa," snape said as he looked back at narcissa.
"you? the dark lord told you?" she replied, raising her eyebrows at him.
"of course, narcissa. over the years i have played my part well and have been able to deceive the greatest wizard of all time."
you smiled to yourself knowing that snape was referring to voldemort and held back a laugh when bellatrix assumed he was talking about dumbledore.
"i need draco to be protected, severus, in case he does not follow through with the dark lord's orders," narcissa anxiously said to snape. "he's my only son."
you took a small step down the stairs to hear the conversation better, your heart jumping when the step creaked underneath your foot.
bellatrix quickly turned around and faced the stairs, her eyebrows raised. "is someone here, severus? i heard the stairs creak," she said as she took a few steps towards the staircase. you held your breath, gripping the railing. "is it that y/l/n girl? you know her father is a seer and-"
"i know, bellatrix," snape tightly said. "no one is here. now, narcissa, how could draco be protected?"
"with an unreadable vow, perhaps?" bellatrix answered for narcissa as she backed away from the stairs. you slowly exhaled a relieved breath and kept still, listening closely.
"that would be the best option," narcissa said. "can you do it with me, please? i want you to swear to me that you will protect my son, severus."
snape bit his lip and nodded, extending his hand towards narcissa. narcissa took his hand and bellatrix took out her wand, reciting a list of duties snape had to follow in order to protect draco.
"if draco fails to carry out the dark lord's orders, will you yourself carry out the deed the dark lord has ordered draco to perform?" bellatrix softly asked as she slowly, almost seductively, ran her wand across snape's shoulders. you glared at the back of her head from where you stood, jealousy stinging at your heart.
"i will," snape quietly said. a soft glow covered his and narcissa's hands after be spoke those final words, the unbreakable vow officially being made.
"i have faith in you," narcissa told snape as her and bellatrix went to leave. "don't let me down."
and with that, they left. snape silently stood there for a few moments before he waved his wand towards the door wormtail was behind, locking it. he then made his way upstairs, grabbing you and pulling you with him into the hallway.
"i am possibly going to have to do something that i won't be proud of," snape informed you as he held onto your shoulders.
you nervously bit the inside of your cheek and nodded. you didn't have a clue what snape might have to do, yet you had a strong feeling that it wasn't going to be good.
"alright…" you quietly said. "also, how does bellatrix know about us? you do know out relationship being out in the open potentially puts us at risk for being harmed, right?"
snape's hands fell from your shoulders, swallowing before he said, "everyone knows, y/n. our relationship hasn't been a secret for a while now. we must continue to protect each other and ourselves."
"but who has been telling people about us?" you impatiently asked him, hearing wormtail bang against the door downstairs as he yelled to be let out.
"students. professors. they tell each other and tell their families, and things just spread," snape calmly answered. "voldemort might even know, but if he does, he hasn't asked me about it. however, if he even thinks about hurting you, i will teach him a lesson of his own."
you sighed loudly and brushed past snape, heading back downstairs to continue looking through his books.
the new term started with a few changes around hogwarts; horace slughorn, your potions professor when you attended hogwarts, took over the position while snape was finally able to teach defense against the dark arts.
"unlike umbridge, i will actually be teaching my students magic," snape told you as he showed you his notebook full of carefully written out lesson plans.
"wow, these are very good," you said in complete awe. "they're even better than mine."
"my work could never match to yours, darling. you're the cleverest ravenclaw that i've ever met, remember?" snape said as he laid his wand on his desk, taking out a small wand polishing kit.
"your work is still very brilliant, though. you're incredibly smart. you've created your own spells before, you shouldn't be so modest," you replied as you watched snape carefully began to polish his wand.
"modesty is the highest elegance, y/n," he replied, running a cloth up and down his wand.
you grinned at him sna said, "you're right about that one."
as time went on, you rekindled your bond with professor slughorn; he had been your favorite teacher at hogwarts and you were once a member of the slug club, along with making it to his shelf.
"why don't you come to my christmas party? you can even bring severus along with you," slughorn told you with a wink.
"that sounds lovely, thank you. i'll let severus know," you kindly replied, making a mental reminder to tell snape about it later.
"a party? absolutely not, y/n."
"are you sure, sev? it'll be fun!"
snape frowned at you; you had just told him about the party and he was very opposed to it.
"i can't stand parties," he grumbled. "or big events. or socializing with anyone who's not you."
"i'm going to be there and you'll be able to socialize with only me," you giggled, holding his hands in yours.
snape absentmindedly ran his thumbs across the top of your hands and sighed, reluctantly agreeing to go to the party.
snape wore his usual black to the party while you opted for a simple long sleeved maroon dress and black pumps. you did your makeup to finish the look, leaving your hair down and pinning a few strands back.
"you look absolutely gorgeous," snape smiled as you and him entered the party. "i might faint."
you giggled to yourself and began to greet the other party goers, seeing in your peripheral vision that snape was shrinking away into a corner.
"i am going to ignore everyone else here and focus on you and you only," snape let you know as you grabbed two small, snowball shaped pastries from neville, who was going around with a silver platter offering food to the guests.
"sounds good to me," you said as you raised the pastry to snape's lips. he slowly opened his mouth and you placed it onto his tongue, watching him close his mouth and begin to chew.
"what's it taste like?" you asked him.
"like vanilla and sweet cream," he said, a smile playing at his lips. "i don't usually enjoy sweet stuff, but this has changed my mind."
you took a bite out of your pastry, your eyes fluttering at the creamy, delicious taste. "i could go for about ten more of these," you laughed. "but i want to save room for a midnight snack."
you wiggled your eyebrows at snape and he rolled his eyes as he said, "i'm not going to nail you in the middle of this party."
"i know you're not. that's why we have a bedroom," you smirked, licking at the powder that covered the exterior of the pastry. snape watched the way your tongue flicked against it, zoning out before he noticed harry and cormac mclaggen disappearing behind a curtain.
"i'll be right back," he quickly said before walking away. he returned five minutes later with vomit on his shoes, seething, "mclaggen decided to expel his dinner onto my shoes."
"oh goodness, I'll take care of it," you hastily said ad you grabbed your wand from the black crossbody bag you wore. you cast a spell that quickly cleaned up his shoes and snape thanked you, giving mclaggen the dirtiest look possible.
"there's a mistletoe over there," you pointed out to snape. the mistletoe hung on the other side of the room, its green leaves moving and growing every time a couple stepped underneath it to kiss.
"i don't want all of these people watching us kiss, but i certainly don't mind doing it over here," snape coyly said as he took you behind a curtain, pressing his lips to yours the second the two of you were out of right.
"you know, i really wouldn't mind dropping to my knees for you right this moment," you told snape, kissing him back.
"patience, doll. you may fulfill your desires once we leave," snape huskily reminded you.
"fine, but before we leave i'm getting more of those snowball looking pastries."
after draco was dragged into the party by filch and snape dragged draco into a corridor and scolded him and told him that he was protecting him, you and snape finally made it back to your room.
"draco is starting to annoy me," snape huffed as he undid the buttons of his sleeves. "he's a brat."
you walked behind snape, wrapping your arms around his waist and mumbling, "maybe i can help you relax? you know, take the edge off?"
snape felt his cock twitch in his pants and he quickly nodded, backing up to the bed and sitting down.
you grabbed a pillow from your side of the bed and placed it on the floor, sinking to your knees. the plushness of the pillow provided your knees with comfort as you undid snape's pants, smiling up at him.
"i've been dying to suck your cock, sev," you sighed as you completely rid him off his pants and underwear.
"then do it," he whined, digging his nails into his palms. he hissed when you grabbed his cock, not waiting a moment to press your lips to the tip.
"as you wish, handsome," you said before you took the head of his cock into your mouth, lewdly sucking.
snape let out a loud whimper, a noise you've never heard from him before. he watched you with pleading eyes, whining out your name as you took more of him into your mouth.
"do you like it when i suck your pretty cock?" you teased him, swirling your tongue around the head before licking a thick stripe along it.
"yes, y/n. fuck, your mouth is magic," he gasped as he rolled his head back, his eyes screwed shut.
you grabbed his shaft, licking all the way from his balls to his tip a few times, moaning softly to get him even more aroused.
"i love your cock so much," you giggled, choking slightly when you tried to fit more of him. "it's so thick and so, so pretty."
"please don't stop, baby. you're so good at that," snape begged, his cheeks pink and his mouth letting out the most erotic sounds you've ever heard from him.
you took as much as you could, bobbing your head eagerly. you maintained eye contact with snape the whole time, and it aroused him so much that he began to gently buck his hips up into your mouth as he gripped onto your hair.
you took in all of the sounds, especially the ones of snape whimpering your name and the sloppy sucking noises coming from you. drool and pre cum were dribbling down your chin, your eyes wide as you drew the most seductive sounds from snape.
"i'm nearly there, angel," snape warned you as he let go of your hair, watching it gracefully fall onto your shoulders. "where- fuck- where can i cum?"
"in my mouth?" you replied, kissing around his tip. "or anywhere you'd like."
snape nodded, fisting the comforter as his thighs began to spasm. he was so painfully close, and if you kept bobbing your head like that, he'd-
"y/n!" snape cried as he came, filling your mouth with his warm cum. the earthy yet salty taste of his cum filled your mouth, some of it spilling past your lips before you proudly swallowed.
snape flopped onto his back after coming down from his climax, breathing heavily. you stood up and crawled on top of him, kissing his nose and saying, "you're so pretty when you cum."
snape deeply flushed red, nibbling on your bottom lip and laughing. "i nearly imploded from that orgasm alone."
"it makes me happy knowing that i can give you such pleasure," you said as you ran your hands up and down his chest.
"yeah," was all snape could say as he tried to breathe normally, slowly kissing your cheek. he undid his cloak from his coat and wrapped it around the two of you, relishing in the pure happiness of that moment.
being with you made snape consider that maybe the world wasn't so bad after all.
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chapter twenty one
you eventually did find out what snape had to do that he wouldn't be proud of.
he killed dumbledore.
naturally, you were angry at snape at first, asking him how he could do such an inhumane thing.
"dumbledore had asked me to kill him! he was dying anyways and wanted me to do it, but i can assure you that i never wanted to!" snape yelled at you in the middle of your argument.
you were about to say something else when snape suddenly apparated away, leaving you to cry alone in your room. you didn't know how to feel; what snape had done was indeed immoral, but since dumbledore had asked him to do it, you were torn between deciding if snape's actions were right or wrong.
you were alerted of death eaters on the loose and instantly went straight to the ministry so you could get ready. you didn't see snape until a few days later, and to say it was awkward was an understatement.
"i believe you," you meekly told him. "that dumbledore told you to kill him. i-i was just in a state of shock at first."
"i would never lie about such a thing," snape replied, sounding offended. "but i thank you for acknowledging and understanding the truth and not hating me."
"i'd never hate you, sev."
"i often worry that you might because of the things that i've done."
"you have no reason to worry. i only hate people who have repeatedly done me wrong or others wrong and made no effort to change or better themselves," you softly told snape as you approached him. "and although you may think your efforts are not noticeable, they are. i have noticed you trying to better yourself little by little, and i am so proud of you."
you hugged snape before he could say anything or back away. he rested his chin on your head and said, "i'm doing it for you, y/n, to show you that i'm not a bad person."
"i know you're not a bad person. i want you to acknowledge that as well. if you were a bad person, i would've told you," you answered with a sigh. "just remember that your flaws don't determine who you are."
snape really, really wanted to remember that, but it was difficult. he, however, wasn't going to stop trying until he succeeded. he was, after all, a a very ambitious slytherin who wouldn't stop until he got what he wanted in one way or another.
he then suddenly realized that he had already gotten something that he's always wanted; someone who accepted him for who he was and stood by him through the ups and downs of life. snape greatly took that as a sign that one day he'd have the happy future he's always dreamed of; one with you by his side.
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chapter twenty two
after dumbledore's death, snape became headmaster, which a lot of people didn't like.
snape was far less lenient with he students than dumbledore was and made sure that no one was acting out of line. the last thing he wanted was for a student to die while he was headmaster.
snape attended countless death eater meetings while you worked hard at the ministry, the two of you risking your lives everyday.
the only moment of peace that you and him would get was at night when he'd hold you close as you two sat at the reading nook in the library, gazing out the window at the hogwarts grounds.
"the nights have been very quiet recently," you remarked as you leaned against snape's chest, playing with his fingers. usually, you'd hear students giggling and goofing around in the corridors after curfew. now, it was dead silent in the castle. there was now an unnerving silence that reached every corner of the castle, as if all the joy and laughter had been stripped from the corridors.
snape nodded, stroking your hair and sighing. he was extremely stressed from his duties as headmaster and continuing to pose as a death eater.
he cursed quietly when his dark mark began to burn, easing you off of his chest. "i have to go gather the students in the great hall," he told you as he stood up. "before voldemort comes and gets me himself."
"alright, just be safe," you said to him as he left the library in a hurry. you decided to go join your team outside of the castle, where they were all keeping an eye out for any signs of danger.
"i'm sorry to say it, but we're about to infiltrate your boyfriend's meeting in the great hall," tonks told you as the other members of the order joined the crowd outside the gates.
"why?" you asked her as harry, ron, and hermione passed by you, harry taking the lead.
"because he killed dumbledore, and we need to go call him out on what he's done," tonks replied as she looked at you. "does it not bother you that snape killed dumbledore?"
you bit your lip, the truth of that evening's events on your tongue, waiting to be spoken. before you could say anything, harry opened the doors to the great hall and you all walked inside.
snape immediately spotted you, a look of utter shock on his features.
"how dare you stand where he stood? tell them how it happened that night!" harry shouted at snape. "tell them how you looked him in the eye, a man who trusted you, and killed him!"
snape drew his wand at harry and the crowd gasped, moving out of the way. mcgonagall moved harry away and drew her wand out as well, angrily staring at snape before she cast an offensive spell at him.
you tried to run towards them but tonks held you back and you struggled against her grasp, watching in disbelief as mcgonagall called snape a coward before he fled.
"he is not a coward!" you yelled as you finally got out of tonks' grasp. mcgonagall turned to face you, raising her eyebrows.
"i understand that you're seeing severus, y/n, but don't try to stand up for him!" she furiously told you.
"last time i checked, no one was allowed to tell me who to stand up for," you snapped at her. "i am going to defend snape until my last breath!"
you then ran out of the great hall, heading to the courtyard and watching the sky darken as the dark mark appeared in the clouds. shadowy figures shot through the sky, landing on the other side of the courtyard. a few explosions sounded through the air, screams of panic from those still inside following.
professors mcgonagall and flitwick hurried outside, followed by mrs. weasley and several other adults and students. some of them gave you an angry look while others smiled at you. professor flitwick retrieved his wand from his jacket, looking around at the others before pointing it at the sky and proceeding to cast the shield charm to protect hogwarts.
you mimicked his actions and the others followed. you watched as a large, glowing dome came together from the charm and covered hogwarts. you turned around to look at the castle, your heart sinking as you experienced sudden nostalgia.
hogwarts was your home and you were going to lose it tonight if voldemort and his followers got through the protective shield.
behind you, you heard big, heavy steps, turning around to see the stone statues that usually stood outside the great hall marching towards the entrance of the courtyard.
once the protective dome had been successfully cast, you hurried inside the castle, getting students outside and hiding those who were too scared to fight. you hid them down in snape's office, barricading the door with his desk and bookshelf with the help of a few students. you knew that that would keep them safe for only so long, but it was all you could do.
you ran back outside just to see dark magic attempting to penetrate the dome. you waited with bated breath, gasping when the dome gradually began to break. in the distance, several fires burned and you watched in horror as the quidditch pitch was set aflame.
you felt someone push past you; it was draco and his friends, heading into the castle. followed shortly behind them were harry, ron, and hermione, anger evident on their faces.
you were panicking, on the verge of a nervous breakdown as you headed back inside once again. you didn't know where snape was and desperately wanted to find him so you could know that he was safe.
you situated yourself inside, fighting off the death eaters who came in. you acted as a human shield for the students who cowered behind you, wildly waving your wand around as you cast defensive spell after defensive spell.
you heard the familiar screech of an owl overhead, looking up to see gizmo. he quickly flew towards the courtyard, being hit by the killing curse seconds before he could get outside.
you angrily looked over at the death eater who had murdered your owl; it was a nasty looking man with the most menacing smirk on his face. you stunned him, watching him smack into the wall behind him and hit his head against it.
the castle rumbled from the force of the explosions outside and screams ripped through the air. all you could see were the bright beams of colored light coming from wands and people running and ducking behind the quickly forming rubble of the castle.
the courtyard was an apocalypse; charms and spells clashed and people died before your very eyes. everyone behind you was suddenly pushing to get outside as the castle continued to crumble around you. you were shoved outside by a student who you had been shielding, nearly tripping over the corpse of another student that laid by the foot of the stairs.
you screamed when the giant troll standing in the courtyard suddenly swung at you. you ducked and quickly got onto your hands and knees, hurriredly crawling along the perimeter of the courtyard as you tightly held your wand between your teeth.
"miss y/l/n!" you heard a female's voice scream from your left. you looked up to see harry, ron, and hermione standing there, their faces covered in ash and sweat. "you need to come with us!"
you stood up, stumbling towards them as hermione securely grabbed onto your arm and led you out of the courtyard.
"where are we going!?" you loudly asked the trio over the noise of the battle behind you.
"to the boathouse!" ron yelled in response. "snape is there!"
you followed them away from the courtyard and down a long exterior staircase that led down to the water.
the four of you quietly crouched down outside of the boathouse, wands at the ready. you were shaking with fear, struggling to see inside through the foggy glass.
"you have performed extraordinary magic with this wand, my lord, in the last few hours," you heard snape tell voldemort. you were so tempted to just burst inside and save snape, but you thought better of it and kept still.
"although i am extraordinary, the wand resists me," voldemort replied in his breathy, sinister voice.
"there is no wand more powerful," snape calmly replied, taking a small step back from voldemort. "tonight, when the boy comes, i'm sure that it will not fail you. it answers to you and you only."
hermione looked over at you, grabbing your hand and soothingly squeezing it. you were suddenly crying, feeling so hopeless as you listened to snape and voldemort discuss the wand.
"does it, severus?" voldemort impatiently asked snape. you heard the soft hiss of a snake, seeing the shadowy outline of a large snake curl around voldemort's feet. "where does the wand's true loyalty lie?"
snape didn't reply for a few moments before he timidly said, "with you, of course, my lord."
"the elder wand cannot properly serve me as i am not its true master. it belongs to the person who killed its last owner, which is you, severus. you killed dumbledore," voldemort quietly explained as he slowly approached snape. your breath hitched, squeezing hermione's hand so tight that she pulled away.
"while you live, the elder wand cannot truly be mine," voldemort continued and you sprung to your feet. hermione and ron pulled you back down, motioning at you to stay quiet. you could barely do it, though, soft sobs leaving you.
snape heard the sobs, recognizing them as yours. his eyes widened and voldemort took no notice to the sound, too focused on getting ready to kill snape.
"you've been a good and faithful servant, severus," voldemort quietly said. "but only i can live forever."
"my lord-" snape began, letting out a choked noise seconds later. he collapsed, his body hitting the wall you and the others hid behind.
"nagini. kill," voldemort softly ordered his snake. the snake hissed, lurching at snape several times, sending his body banging against the wall each time.
you barely waited until voldemort and nagini had left to run inside, harry, ron, and hermione following after you. there laid snape, blood spilling from his neck as he weakly looked up at you.
"sev!" you cried as you dropped to your knees next to him, quickly taking off your jacket and pressing it to the laceration in his neck.
"y/n…" he mumbled, his breaths becoming more ragged with each passing moment. you bawled, holding onto him tightly and soaking his robes with tears. snape began to cry as well, looking over at harry.
"take them, please," he begged harry, pointing at his tears.
"hurry, give me a flask!" harry exclaimed to his friends. hermione dug around in her bag and retrieved a small flask, handing it to harry. you tearfully watched as harry held the flask up to snape's eye, collecting his tears.
"you're gonna be okay sev, you're gonna be okay," you sobbed as you held your jacket against his neck, watching it become soaked with his blood. "you're not going to die. you're going to survive, and- and we'll run away together from all of this."
snape tried to smile at you but couldn't, in too much pain to even blink. his hand came up to your face, slowly wiping away your tears with his thumb.
"harry," he then whispered, the life from his voice quickly slipping away. "take my tears to the pensieve."
harry nodded, watching as snape took a long look at him before he uttered, "you have your mother's eyes." you heard his heartbeat gradually begin to fade and you only cried harder, begging him to stay alive.
"y/n," he softly said. "you'll be okay…" he trailed off, his eyes glazing over.
the sudden cry of a bird sounded overhead, fawkes the phoenix swooping in. you gasped and moved out of the way, watching in awe as the bird nudged your jacket to the side with his beak and began to cry, his tears dropping onto snape's wound.
snape had been a second away from taking his last breath, being jolted back to full life when fawkes' tears began to magically heal him.
"oh my god, oh my god," you bawled, your arms staying secured around snape. "he's going to live!"
"not for long," hermione bleakly said as fawkes continued to cry. "nagini bit him. i assume her venom is extremely lethal, but the wound closing will aide in him surviving since it'll stop the bleeding."
"then he needs to go to the hospital," you said as you wiped your eyes with the back of your hand. "i'm going to take him right now."
"but the hospital wing was destroyed," ron carefully told you.
"then i'm taking him to st. mungo's. he's not going to die to that stupid snake," you firmly said, grabbing snape's face and holding it in your hands.
"focus on me, my love," you whispered to snape as his wound completely healed. "we're going to apparate, okay?"
snape barely nodded, breathing in slowly. you gave fawkes a gracious pet before you and snape apparated from the boathouse.
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chapter twenty three
you and snape apparated onto the first floor of st. mungo's. snape's face was white and he was trembling; thanks to fawkes' tears, the venom wasn't moving as rapidly through his bloodstream as it would have if fawkes hadn't appeared. however, the venom could still easily kill snape.
a green haired healer turned your way when the two of you appeared, rushing over.
"professor snape!" the healer gasped, not wasting a moment before getting snape into the nearest room. "what bit him!?"
"a snake. voldemort's snake, to be exact," you replied, fresh tears forming in your eyes. "how do you know he was bitten?"
"i could tell by his appearance," the healer answered as they eased snape onto the bed in the room. they rummaged through a cabinet to the left of the bed, extracting three small bottles of brightly colored liquids. "professor snape was my potions teacher at hogwarts in my fifth year. my family and i moved here from america two years ago because my mom is a traveling nurse. i previously attended ilvermorny."
you watched the healer gently open snape's mouth, making him drink the liquids. snape choked a bit and then gasped, swallowing and stilling on the bed. he was breathing slowly, his eyes looking between you and the healer.
"i was top of my potions class," they continued. "snape showed me how to brew those anti-venom potions that i just gave him. i'm cecil, by the way. cecil mossmoth. head healer here at st. mungo's."
you smiled at cecil and said, "i'm y/n, y/n y/l/n. ex defense against the dark arts professor at hogwarts and current auror at the ministry of magic." you were holding snape's hand. snape looked over at you, his lips parted. he tried to speak but no noise came out.
"that laceration is going to scar, and he'll have trouble speaking for a while," cecil pointed out. "i can tell it was closed, but by the looks of it…was it deep?"
"very. voldemort cut his neck," you sadly recounted. "snape would've died if it hadn't been for dumbledore's phoenix, fawkes."
"ah, dumbledore. such a shame that he died," cecil said as they collected a bottle of water for snape from the fridge in the corner. they opened the cabinet again, pulling out a small yellow pill bottle.
"he'll need to take three of these every four hours. they'll help regulate his breathing and maintain his blood flow," cecil explained, handing you the bottle. you nodded, placing it on the bedside table.
"you know, you took a big risk by apparating here," cecil observed as they looked down at snape. "he could've been splinched. although the wound was closed, apparaition is a powerful force. that's how i got this scar on my face," they pointed to the large scar running from their forehead all the way to the left side of their mouth.
you silently nodded, sitting down on the edge of the bed. you didn't let go of snape's hand, watching him drift in and out of sleep.
cecil frequently came in to check on snape and struck up a conversation with you.
"what's your house?" they asked you as they helped you give snape his pills. snape shuddered after swallowing them, pouting at the bland flavor.
"ravenclaw, you?" you replied, gently tipping the water bottle against snape's lips so he could drink.
"hufflepuff," cecil smiled at you. "do you know luna lovegood?"
"yes, i do. she reminds me of myself when i attended hogwarts," you softly replied. "she's very kind."
"she sure is. she's my partner, actually. i'm a year older than her," cecil happily replied.
"that is so cute. snape is my partner," you said, which caused cecil to gasp.
"really? so the rumors were true then! i never really paid much attention to the rumors, but now i know the truth," they chuckled.
cecil kept you company and kept a close eye on snape, monitoring his condition. you were worried sick for those at hogwarts still and hoped that voldemort would be defeated.
snape slept for a majority of the day and you never left his side. you slept in the chair by his bed, being awakened when cecil came running in to tell you that voldemort had been defeated.
you grinned widely and fist pumped the air. "jokes on you, moldy voldy. severus is still very much alive," you spitefully thought.
harry, ron, hermione, and luna came by a few hours later to visit. luna quickly went up to cecil, kissing their cheek before saying hi to you.
harry solemnly stood by snape's bed, watching him sleep. "i saw his memories in the pensieve," he quietly told you. "you were in them. i had no idea that- that my dad did such bad things to the two of you. i need time to process everything, but one day i would like to have a talk with snape about it all."
you gave harry a small hug, sighing to yourself. you knew that you and snape had a long road ahead of the two of you, but you were ready to overcome any obstacles that you and him might face.
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epilogue
after the battle of hogwarts and snape's full recovery and discharge from the hospital, he was immediately charged with the murder of dumbledore.
you went to testify in court for him, telling the wizengamot all about how voldemort had originally ordered draco malfoy to do it and how snape made the unbreakable vow.
the jury thoroughly debated the issue and eventually dropped all charges; however, they banned snape from stepping foot inside of hogwarts ever again, therefore resulting in a permanent ban on him teaching there.
snape was completely okay with this; he didn't want to teach anymore anyways.
you and snape moved to dorset and bought a cottage there. the two of you became more in touch with your muggle roots and began to grow various plants, fruits, and vegetables, and even got a few chickens.
snape got a job in the st. mungo's pharmacy, continuing to utilize his brilliant potion making skills. when he wasn't working, he went to therapy, which took a lot of persistent coaxing from you.
your mom became his therapist and opened up her practice to wizards and witches, as she knew all about the horrors of the battle of hogwarts and wanted to help those who were traumatized.
snape was very opposed to therapy at first since he didn't want to be a burden, but once he actually started going, he felt less bitter about the world. he was gradually learning to love and accept himself and heal from his past trauma and regrets.
you became the minster of magic while your dad retired from his position as head seer, moving to dorset with your mom to be closer to you and snape. you officialy made muggle born discrimination illegal and made hate crimes against muggle borns punishable by up to five years in azkaban.
you weren't playing around and didn't want another war to occur, and vowed to do anything to protect the vulnerable.
for a while, it was just you and snape. the two of you were busy with your own endeavors and didn't put much thought into ever starting a family.
this all changed, though, when you and snape were at the muggle grocery store one day buying things for dinner.
in front of your cart was a mother and her baby in the checkout line. the baby faced you and snape, attentively watching snape and waving her little arms in the direction of the dangly potion shaped earrings that he was wearing.
recently, snape had gotten more in touch with his feminine side and began to paint his nails (black, of course) and wear earrings and do his hair in a man bun or a half up, half down ponytail. he was definitely a lot more comfortable with himself now and it made you very happy to see.
snape smiled at the baby, making a funny face at her. the baby giggled and bounced in her mother's arms, making little grabby hands at snape's earrings.
snape continued to play with the baby until she left with her mother, a giddy smile on his face.
"i think i want a baby," he abruptly told you that night in bed. "i gave my students hell at hogwarts but i would never do that to our child. actually, my therapy sessions have been teaching me how to forgive myself for giving my students hell."
you laughed softly and pressed your lips to his cheek. "i've been wanting a baby too," you admitted. "i know that it's something that you secretly desire, since you want to start your own family that will show you the love that you never got growing up."
"you sound just like your mother, y/n."
"and that's a good thing, sev."
snape smiled at you and peppered your forehead in kisses, brushing your hair out of your eyes and whispering, "i love you."
you froze, your eyes widening. snape loved you. he finally loved you. you had fallen back in love with him not too long ago, and hearing this made you feel euphoric.
"i love you too," you giggled as you nuzzled your face in his neck, being mindful of the long scar there.
snape hugged you to his chest, giving himself a mental high five. it had taken him many, many months of therapy to finally move on from his lily related trauma, and he felt extraordinarily proud of himself for finally allowing himself to love you.
snape's patronus even changed after he healed from his trauma; it changed to none other than a bat, and you were pleasantly surprised when you saw it for the first time.
another pleasant surprise was when you later found out you were pregnant - with twins.
"twins," snape said in disbelief as he looked at the ultrasound photo. the photo moved, showing your babies moving around. "and it's a boy and a girl too. how crazy is that?"
by the time the babies arrived, snape was nearly bursting at the seams from excitement. the babies were fraternal twins - the girl being named eleanor elise snape and the boy being named cecil elliot snape. they looked like a combination of you and snape; they had his hair and nose and had your eyes and face shape.
eleanor meant "shining light" it was a very beautiful name. she also took your middle name. cecil was named after the st. mungo's healer who had ultimately saved snape's life.
in fact, there ended up being two cecils at yours and snape's wedding; you and snape only invited your parents, cecil, luna, ron, hermione, ginny, and harry.
harry and snape had discussed his memories with each other and harry slowly forgave snape; it was a long and tiring process for the both of them, but they were able to move past their bad memories with each other.
by the time eleanor and cecil were old enough to attend hogwarts, they both expressed their concerns over possibly being sorted into slytherin.
"your dad and i know that slytherin has a bad reputation, but your dad was a slytherin and ended up becoming a great wizard," you reassured your kids. "no matter what house you two are sorted into, your dad and i won't judge you."
like you, eleanor was sorted into ravenclaw, and like snape, cecil was sorted into slytherin. cecil was freaked out at first but eventually grew to love his house and value slytherin's traits.
you felt like eleanor was a carbon copy of you; she excelled in all of her classes and became involved in leadership and quidditch. cecil became a potions genius and him and snape would often geek out over a specific potion together.
watching your kids grow up made you sad; you vividly remembered bringing them home from st. mungo's and how snape would hold them every chance he got. he would read to them every night and make sure that they had the nicest clothes so the other kids wouldn't bully them. he'd teach them defensive spells to use in case they were ever in trouble and remind them to not take anyone's crap. snape gave them everything that he never had as a child; the biggest thing was love.
snape loved his life. he loved you. he loved his kids. he seriously could not remember the last time he was this happy.
ultimately, it was the unconditional devotion, understanding, and compassion that kept you two together through all of the hardships.
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