#I’m an only child

[kierancaz]

Nothing like watching Pride and Prejudice and Little Women back to back to make me yearn for the bond that the oldest and second oldest sister have.

#I’m an only child #but god I want to be a second oldest #and I want to have two younger sisters #and a i want an older sister who I’m closest with #so when it’s late at night after a party or something we can hide under the covers and giggle about boys #and we can shoot each other looks across the table to silently make fun of people #and when we argue it’ll never be something we don’t recover from because our mom would’ve made us watch these movies #and read the books #and imparted these messages on us #and having a little sister seems like so much fun when they’re like 14 #I bonded with a kid at the tennis camp I’m helping coach and I’m so sad there’s only one more day #because in my mind I’ve already adopted this kid as my little sister #I just want familial bonds with girls I think #pride and prejudice #little women #jo march #meg march #jane bennet #elizabeth bennet

[mommyhorror]

I stan miley Cyrus because I like the sound of her voice and because she gives off such good vibes. She feels like an older sister who has gotten famous first and can shield me from the terrors of life

#Aka just older sister vibes imo #I’m an only child #Miley Cyrus

[untraceable-ace]

Making my sister listen to HNOC ill keep you updated

#my posts #the mechanisms #im hoping to drag her down to hell with me >:) #btw we’re not biologically related lol #I’m an only child

[noknowshame]

why is religious Christmas imagery all so joyful and pleasant? where is the inherent horror of the birth of Christ? A mother is handed her newborn child, wailing and innocent. Her hands come away sticky. Red. Simply by giving her son life she has already killed him. He is doomed from the beginning. Her love will not save him from suffering. Because the thing cradled in her arms is not a baby, it is a sacrifice: born amongst the other bleating animals whose blood will one day be spilled in the name of what demands it. the night is silent with anticipation. Mary, did you know? That your womb was also a grave?

#instant conversation enders for my multiple youth pastor cousins #don’t say it (I’m gonna say it) #The Child is The Price #but i mean come on #as someone who isn't actually even christian the real-life historical version of this is still cursed as fuck #i mean we know that jesus was a person who existed. whatever circumstances he was born in #its terrifyingly ominous to imagine being so unaware of the affect your child will have on the future of humanity #time itself will one day be counted around your birth of him #and all because he will suffer an excruciatingly painful death that you will not be able to prevent #not only that. but regardless of his or your intentions #regardless of whether there is a god #for millenea unfathomable millions will have blood spilled and will spill blood in his name #atrocities will be committed that you cannot even conceive of #and all on his and your behalf #you love your child. its beautiful. but there's horror in what you've done. because everyone else will love him too #and what's more dangerous than that?

[bestworstideaever]

Another Yom Kippur With Dear Old Dad

I, the pot, got caught calling the kettle black again tonight and got another tirade about what a burden I am (I’m not), that I don’t have a “real” job (I have three), do nothing to contribute (I do), and only consume his resources and drag him down (I don’t) and how he should kick me out (he won’t, he needs me more than I need him).

Predictably, this sent me into a spiral of anger and sadness, and now I have to sit and do the work of untangling what is abusive bullshit (most of it) and what I actually need to atone for (???), all while knowing I will never receive a real apology from him, nor will he ever really change his behavior or bother to learn healthier ways of managing his emotions.

But as I sit here struggling with our mutual resentment of each other, I realized something incredible: I’m angry, sad, and crying, but I’m not ashamed. I don’t feel despair. I’ve known on an intellectual level that this behavior is a reflection of his flaws, not mine, for a long time, but this is the first time I think it’s truly sunken in.

For years, these outbursts have triggered suicidal fantasies that horrified and tempted me in equal measure, but tonight the thought of punishing the both of us by killing myself holds no appeal at all.

Me “not living up to my potential” is not a sin against him that I need to atone for. I am a human being, not an investment he isn’t seeing enough of a return on. He is not owed an apology for me not having my life together, nor should I have to apologize for reacting negatively to being treated badly.

… Holy shit, is this what having self-esteem feels like?

So weirdly enough, I’m a kind of grateful for tonight’s little tantrum. He may not be capable of changing, but I just got some definitive proof that I am. He may never give me the opportunity to forgive him, but I can learn to forgive myself. And this year, that will have to be enough.

#yom kippur #personal #emotional abuse #verbal abuse #daddy issues #healing #I wrote this in my notes for me #but maybe posting it will help someone else struggling with parental abuse on Yom Kippur #and as for why I don’t just leave? #I’m in my 30’s for fuck’s sake #well first of all I’m a broke bitch #actors don’t make good money unless they’re famous #and teachers don’t make good money period #and the gig economy is fucking BULLSHIT #but also #I’m an only child #my dad is a mentally ill widower with chronic pain and deteriorating vision #when my mom was dying we both took care of her #and now she’s gone and we’re both messes but I have essentially taken over for her #he can rant and rave about kicking me out all he wants #but the facts remain #he can’t function on his own #after 40 years with my mother he doesn’t know how to be alone #and he also can’t take care of he house #or the dog #that sounds like laziness and that is definitely a factor #but also the last time he walked the dog on a leash in the winter he ended up with a broken tailbone #and his spine was already majorly fucked #I can’t leave until we sell this damn house and I get him into an apartment or condo with amenities

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 185

No one could get into contact with Constantine. 

Now usually that wasn’t that big of a deal, the man constantly disappeared for a few days at a time doing something or other, but he’d been completely silent and unseen for months. Usually he’ll at least answer a call to tell them to fuck off or something. 

And they really need his expertise and are getting incredibly worried for their grumpy team member. Yes he’s an asshole, but he’s their asshole, y’know? And he has a habit of getting into Situations (sure he also usually gets out of them, but what if he didn’t this time?!) 

So they’re desperate. Kind of really desperate. Desperate enough to use the summoning sigil they found on his fridge. They’d checked it, multiple times, and it should summon the hellblazer. 

“You’re not Constantine.” . 

The white-haired teen in the circle yawned, stretching and blinking at them blandly with familiar blue eyes before sighing. “Actually I am,” he stuffed his hands into his hoodie as he looked down at the summoning circle. “Well, technically just one of the many Laughing Magicians currently in the Realms.” 

He gave a grin, looking more amused than annoyed. “Pretty much every one of us is in the Realms right now for family reunion lol. (Did he just say lol out loud??) So like, you’re gonna have to specify which of us you’re tryin’ to summon. Honestly perfect timing for me thanks, the fruitloop keeps flirting with John and it’s horrific so.” 

… That was probably their John, wasn’t it…

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #The Constantine Family exists for fucking over entities & manipulating luck #They adore this scrappy halfa who is doing the same with twice the feral #Danny: Yeah I’m like the changeling child that ended up in the middle of them and they just kept me for the laughs lol #Danny: I’m not allowed to join in the drinking competitions #Danny: Oh no it’s not a responsibility thing; alcohol doesn’t affect me and they say it’s cheating #Why Yes Vlad IS flirting with their Constantine #He’s started his redemption but let’s be honest he’s also a con-man & John is all for fucking over the rich #Danny is disgusted at how well they’re getting along and wanted to get away from their flirting while everyone else ribbed at em #Hence why when they all felt the summoning he decided to go #Well that and also for the laughs because he’s learning magic Undead Constantine style #”Fuckin 'ell yeah the family 'as a necromancer in 'he line again look a' 'im go!” (Lots of ghost & living people drunken cheering) #Danny only half fucking with people: Yeah I’m like their collective undead fae child lmao #danny fenton #john constantine

[apollo18]

When Billy’s mad at Batman he fills out justice league reports in dead languages

#Batman to self looking down at a cuniform papyrus tablet with Google open: I’m not apologizing for benching a child from an active war zone #Batman when he figured out it’s not only in cuneiform but also a complex cipher: I am NOT apologizing! #Batman #Billy batson #shazam #Captain marvel #dc

[obiiow]

I know the whole thing with eren growing his hair out was because he just didn’t care anymore but I like to think it’s because his mom always told him his ears turn red when he lies and he was about to spend the rest of his life lying to everyone he loved 🥹

#aot #attack on titan #eren yeager #eren jaeger #I’m still both in love with this story and pissed as hell that this boy had to go through all of this alone #he spent his entire life being told his life was only worth all of the death around him if he freed paradis #he was a literal child soldier conditioned to do horrible things just like the warriors and he gave up everything he valued #just at the slight chance his friends could live #god doomed characters just rip at my heartstrings

[defsiarte]

I think it’s weird how hostile the art community, on Twitter especially, has become towards children as of late? Like artists that i follow one or two people in common with, I’ll go to their bio and there’ll be something saying “minors fuck off” (or something more violent like kys) and like… dude did the 🔞 emoji not suffice? I completely get not wanting to engage with children (I’m gradually reaching a point where someone follows me and I see they’re 15 or so and get Stressed™️), but that’s still a human person. Grown ass adults will have some weird hatred of kids online for the crime of being children. Something they can’t change.

#the accounts I’m talking about aren’t even always nsfw. these people are just like this #I think it’s weird. like maybe the proshitter crowd is so… obsessed with some mythisized Evil Minor that they fear monger about online #that they forget what it’s like to be a child online… or how to properly engage with them at all. #not saying that adults don’t have the right to exist in adult only spaces bc ngl!!! kids will be stupid sometimes #but like I’m not going to tell them to die about it. just block and move on #honking

[d1rthaus]

Road to Nowhere 12” / 7” Cover Art - Talking Heads 1985

#talking heads #david byrne #new wave #little creatures #1985 #little creatures the youngest child of th discography #true stories and naked are more like cousins #if I could explain what I mean in a more approachable way I would but unfortunately I’m only chatting shit this morning

[thatorangedrank]

Little is Alyx 👎🏻

Little is Penny 👎🏻

Little is a reflection of Ruby in Vol.1 and is a physical representation of “healing your inner child” 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

#like seriously Little reminds me more of Ruby than Ruby herself right now #I relate to Ruby so much in just needing to be ok for everyone all the time for things to be stable #when WBY is talking about how they bring her up by saying ‘we count on you’ and ‘you can do it’ and that’s basically what I heard growin up #my therapist once told me that you have to be the friend and caretaker for that little girl who always had to be ok #that she is still inside of my heart and that I’m the only one who can be there for her now #and something about… making sure my inner child feels safe reminds me so much of Ruby’s relationship with Little #also Little’s mannerisms are just … so v.1 Ruby it’s just uncanny #’I want to help even though I may not know how’ #that’s blind Ruby optimism if I’ve ever seen it #rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby9 #rwby volume 9 #rwby ruby rose #rwby v9 #rwby volume 9 spoilers #rwby theory #ruby rose

[drenched-in-sunlight]

spy exes, their divorce rifle and forget-me-not 🌊

#armored core #armored core 6 #middle flatwell #v.iii o'keeffe #rusty’s divorced spy dads #hello I’m here to flood the ac6 tag with incomprehensible old man yaoi again #the rifle is MA-J-200 RANSETSU-RF flatwell o’keeffe and Rusty r the only RLF and Vesper using it #just two dads their son and the child support oversized unoptimized AK #albi’s art

[shhtickerbook]

goin down the slide!!!!

#my image! #kidcore #I’m havin so much fun #felt so small! #age regression #sfw agere #age regressor #agere community #age dreaming #agere blog #safe agere #agere little #sfw littlespace #sfw interaction only #liminal space #toycore #inner child

[rozugold]

#cw violence #cw child abuse #cw broken bones #c!dream #c!tommy #c!tubbo #c!ranboo #jack and Niki are there too but only for like two panels 😔 #dream smp fanart #tpn au #rozoodles #comics #sorry if dialogue is clunky I mostly just copied off the anime #finallyy I’m freeee

[ohposhers]

On Google it says smidge is 4-

Bashes your head in with several rocks

Go watch the cartoons man she’s an adult

#not that I trust trolls wiki very much #they have so much misinformation on there I swear it’s ran by 12 year olds #stop talking to me about character ages I only ship adults #I’m a Victorian child dying of starvation and this is the last thing I see #ask Eddie

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 252

“Sir, we’ve… There’s been an encounter with a Reaper class entity.” 

There were several classifications for ecto-entities. Several ways the Ghost Investigation Ward classified each. Several common ones that they could easily destroy, easily study. Others however… others were dangerous. Incredibly dangerous. 

There’d only been two other Reaper-class entities confirmed before- both contained but barely. RP-1, a large knight-like entity seemingly made from shadows, and RP-2, a child-like creature that could near perfectly mimic a human. 

And now, there was a third. A third entity that could- and judging from the reports coming in had- killed. Which meant it needed to be contained yesterday. 

“Send out the teams- I want this thing in Site X Now!” 

#DCxDP #DPxDC #Prompts #Why yes the Reaper entity is Jason #The other two are Fright Knight & Danny #There’s only 1 higher level of threat/rarity for ghosts #King Class is what CW & Pariah are classed as & the GIW are very relieved they seemingly can’t leave the Zone #Y’know I’m just realizing this feels very SCP-esque #Look it’s called the Ghost Investigation Ward #They definitely don’t care about dissecting things like blob ghosts (or common ghosts they’re sure there’s thousands of) #But it’s similar to an endangered predatory species for the rarer ones #They just also don’t like release the ghosts after relocating them #Why Yes Jason DOES have the All-blades #And yes they’re all three in the same place because the site is the only one they know can hold them #Shadow Core Fright Knight #Space Core Danny #Star Core Jason #Jason is… displeased by the entire situation he’s found himself in #Also very pissed by the Tiny sickly child huddled under the growling shadow-fire being #FK deserves to be more eldritch I’ll be honest #Halfa Jason #Potentially #guys in white