#I was in the fandom but didn't read it bc I hate reading

[itsanit]

I can feel myself becoming a worse person everytime an x reader fic doesn't specify that the reader is female

#Happy pride everyone I'm getting misgendered by fictional characters bc some fanfic authors are lazy self-absorbed assholes #If you don't specify gender in your fics I literally hate you #Also like it makes me dislike the characters too #like wow I didn't know link of legend of zelda fame was transphobic #Is it sad that I'm genuinely angry about this? Yeah #But I've been dealing with this shit for 2 years now and I'm tired of it #Like am I just not allowed in the x reader part of fandom now that I'm a boy?? Is that how this works? #Also thank you to everyone who tags their works as fem reader or has a read more section after they specify reader is female #You've saved me from a downward spiral into depression many times #You and the authors who write gn or male readers are heroes #I guess I'll tag this fir the fandoms who need to hear this #twisted wonderland #legend of zelda #resident evil #If for some reason you reblog this you can tag the fandoms you want to see this too ig #Sorry I'm emotional about this and it's worded bad it's late and I have not been sleeping well #x reader

[rotisseries]

this fandom really need to remember that liking villains is perfectly valid as long as people don't go around excusing morally-wrong behaviors.

i mean I'm hesitant to say things like "make sure you're not excusing morally wrong behaviors!" because. it's just like. an annoying attitude to have, like people don't want to have to post about their favorite blorbo War Crimes Mcgee with a paragraph long "DISCLAIMER: AS A FAN OF WAR CRIMES MCGEE, I DO NOT CONDONE WAR CRIMES NOR EXCUSE HIS ACTIONS" and also that is an annoying fandom culture to have to live in. like sometimes it's fun to just be like "haha yeah it was hot and sexy and cool when that villain killed all those people"

but like. everyone has their line in the sand for what's "too far" for a fictional character right? and everyone's is different, but for me and most people absolute no goes are things that feel, too real? I guess? like. racism, homophobia, domestic abuse, etc. are things that are always too far for me to continue liking a character. it's gross and unsatisfying to watch, these are things you're pretty likely to deal with in real life based on your personal life experience, and there’s really overall no way for it to be an enjoyable thing in the story right? but just generic murder is NOT most people's line in the sand

which is why like. there's a difference to me between b1lly stans and henry creel stans. like I just find henry stans annoying because of their lack of commitment mostly. they're all like "actually I theorize that he DIDN'T murder those people" BORING. say he did and you find it hot and sexy idc. also I don't find henry that interesting so by extension I'm not interested in the fanclub. but there’s nothing that actually grosses me out about him having a fanclub, because the murder is fictional and telekinetic and inseparable from the supernatural plot like I'm never going to run into a man who's actually murdered people with his mind and I'm DEFINITELY never going to run into people who hear about real not fictional telekinetic child murder and decide he's cool and sexy and also didn't do it or whatever

but b1lly. well. b1lly is a very real type of violence. there's lots of racist abusers and there’s lots of people who defend them so I just. can't get behind it at all. you DO have a point though that it would maybe be marginally better if they'd at least ADMIT that he'd done this shit lol

so yeah this isn't to say that like. someone's favorite character and how they talk about them is NEVER a red flag, but "this is my favorite character Child Murderer Jones, he murders children and gleefully boasts about all the child murder on screen, and I love him very much and have edited him with cat ears" is fairly standard fandom behavior and not worth moralizing, imo. and sometimes this fandom gets a little puritan about fairly standard fandom behavior

#like. do you know how many fandoms I've been in where “the murder was hot” is the normal take? imagine if we all acted crazy about that lmao #another thing I think contributing to how weird I find a character fanclub is will be something like #what other parts of the story you have to ignore for it #like b1lly stans kind of have to entirely ignore lucas and max's storylines for that shit lmao #and having no sympathy or interest in the story of a black kid dealing with antagonistic white men #or the girl dealing with horrible abuse is pretty gross #but like. henry stans don't really have the same problem bc again. it's a bunch of fake supernatural child murder #also disclaimer fandom isn't activism and hating b1lly isn't the end all be all of activism #but there ARE certain characters in media where I do actively think worse of you for liking them #and I do think it's a sign you need to examine some internal bias #also I apologize for bringing up b1lly that may come across like I read your ask as also referring to him #I didn't really I just also mentioned him in the tags that this is about. so like #especially bc you say “villain” and I feel like that's too fun of a word for him #like “villain” makes me think of fun larger than life fantastical criminals #b1lly is just a very real asshole dickwad #ask #anon #this got a little rambly I didn't mean for that to happen

[wigglepiggle]

wow my former comfort streamer was actually an asshole- damn

#i haven't checked in the fnf fandom in a long time bc i fucking HATE that fandom #today i randomly got a 3 hour long video about drama with stickybm that was also apparently a terrible video so I didn't watch it #i dont even know what he did but everyone seems to hate him so im assuming it was something horrible #i stopped watching stickybm bc i lost interest in his content so its been awhile #kinda sad to say im not surprised #he's a fnf creator theres always a huge chance that fnf creators will be horrible bc that fandom is a CESSPIT #(ik theres at least 1 fnf fan that follows me i dont mind that i just. have some pent up anger about it sorry) #im trying to find info but i just dont know who to trust??? there's a 300 page doc about it??? im not reading all of that #i read something that said that he said he wanted someones unborn baby to die and if thats true holy shit thats absolutely horrendous

[damiemontclair]

This blog is a spoiler safe blog. All spoilers will be reblogged with appropriate warnings for at least 2 weeks after the show is done airing. Spoilertags to block will be listed on my pinned post

#I am soooo annoyed by people rn. #Can't we all just chill and take the 2 seconds it takes to add '[medianame] spoilers' to our posts? #Yes its 'just' an adaptation. But believe it or not; not everyone has read the novel. Not everyone has *access* to the novel. #Not everyone wants to have to block every tag associated with that fandom to avoid spoilers #Just bc some of yall don't have the fucking decency to tag it as spoilers. #I'm not saying don't post spoilers. I *am* saying tag it accordingly. #I love seeing gif sets. I hate seeing they're not tagged as spoilers. When they were posted hour before many of us could even watch. #heck some of yall already posted untagged gifs from the ep2 preview before the rest of us could see ep1. #Timezones are a thing. #Work and school and other obligations are a thing. #Opening tumblr to spoilers sucks. #And tumblr (unlike instagram) actually gives you the option to block spoiler tags but that only works if people *tag* it. #Istg I feel like I have this rant every time something new releases. #If you know what show this is about good for you. I watched it in french subs bc I knew I'd get spoiled if I didn't. I was right. #damie talks

[daydadahlias]

How do you feel about MiM's success? did you expect it?🤓

oh boy i sure am gonna say some words!

this is an interesting ask bc I don't really perceive MiM as being very successful personally.

I mean, I'm so immensely happy with the reaction it's getting and the interaction it's getting (bc any interaction on writing is literally the best thing in the world) and I absolutely love having the opportunity to share it more than anything!!!

but it's hard to think of it as being successful because I am, of course, comparing to every other fic I've ever posted on the same platform. and, in comparison to the reaction Scene 14 and Take Notes were actively getting as I was posting them live in the same manner I'm currently posting MiM, this is a considerably smaller reaction.

for context, a chapter of MiM usually gets somewhere between 2-5 comments (and maybe around 5 asks let's say). In contrast, Scene 14 was probably getting a consistent 5-7 comments every update (and, if I'm remembering correctly, probably around 10 asks, which is insane to think about in retrospect). Take Notes, in addition, would be getting around 7-10 comments a chapter (and probably ~10 asks as well but I don't really know that number; i'm just making shit up).

Also, I do think it's worth briefly noting that Bite Marks (another chaptered fic I tried to post on a schedule; rip my baby) has about double the amount of subscriptions that MiM has and (what I consider to be) considerably more kudos while also being significantly shorter.

So, when you're looking at the actual "statistics" of fics I've posted, I don't see MiM as being all that successful.

this is of course not to give the impression that I think MiM should have more comments/interaction or anything because I'm not a little greedy monster yknow and I really would be happy and content if only one person read it.

but I just don't think it would be accurate of me to say I think the fic is successful within the scope of how fics of mine have done in the past.

however, this statistical drop off is simply because our fandom is significantly smaller now than it was when I was posting Scene 14 and Take Notes. I could post either of those fics right now and I simply do not think they would do nearly as well as they did in 2021.

But, since those are the posting experiences I have to compare to for all my work in the future, I am well aware that no fics I post following them will ever get the same level of interaction and - therefore - I will never be able to perceive them as being successful. which,, sounds depressing dfghjk but i swear it's not!! it's not something i let myself dwell on (especially bc it's something ALL the writers in our fandom are experiencing). I write fics for me and whoever wants to read them can. it's a blessing to get to be able to share stuff at all!! and all i need is just one reader to keep posting <3

in terms of expecting it, I would say maybe that I never really have any expectations of how people will respond to fics. i'm never right when i make predictions anyway. I just never really know, so I think I'm always a little surprised by how people respond. even after 3 years of posting in the same fandom, i dont think i'll ever get over the "omg people read my stuff and like it" feeling.

so, TL;DR, i feel really good about MiM bc anyone is reading it at all :)

hope that kind of answers this, sorry for the tangent

#we're in a state of decline slash writing wise to be honest. so MiM realistically is kind of tanking. like for this era it's doing GREAT but #in general. compared to how it used to be. it's just not what it was. and like that's something all the writers in the fandom feel rn #it feels very. barren. im not just being melodramatic haha. we're in a ghost town. #and so that being said #i will consider myself extremely lucky for how people are interacting with MiM #bc there's just not a lot of people reading rn #i will say tho that... and this might get a little depressing dfghjk that there are certain people who i was friends w/ last year #when i started writing this fic who i expected to read this story when i posted it #and they've since moved to other fandoms so they will obviously not be reading this lol #which is fine ofc!! people r allowed to change interests #but it can be a little sad for me as a writer #to be so excited to share smthn w/ my friends and for them to outgrow me #like this posting experience is unique in the way that #most of the people reading MiM are people im meeting now for the first time! hi guys ily #whereas w/ scene 14 and take notes i literally *knew* everyone that was reading it. they were all people i was already friends with #so that's kind of another difference that i didn't necessarily expect w/ this one. and was really intimidating when posting. #MiM's the kind of fic i feel like katt would have loved #i hate talking abt fandom friends like they're dead lol but yknow. u fall out of touch w/ some people and that sucks but it's the way it is #so i will be honest that. that is a part of the MiM's writing experience that makes me a little sad #bc there's stuff in this fic for people who will never read it #uhm me when i make myself tear up at midnight hello???? loser behavior #anyway i hope that kind of answered that!! #thank u for the ask !! sorry for being weirdly clinical and emo abt it #love the emoji choice very fun #pigeon #anon

[gradelstuff]

I should not read mha comments lol lesson learned ig

#absolutely insane how comment sections for the new chapter is mostly dabi bashing advbnldfhj #i never saw comment sections like that even when i was watching OP and Doflamingo caused mass murder 💀 #or even when KHR xanxus began murdering his competition and tried killing off his (shitty) adoptive dad #the hate is so real here what the hell #idk i just didn't think it was that bad?? #maybe its bc I'm usually into old anime so the fandom hate is long gone by the time I'm there idk ; #anyways i wanted to read the comments for theories abt next chapter or somethn and witnesssed a fire instead

[rugessnome]

B/

I hate this canon (affectionate) but what I really loathe is the expectation to emotionally process new additions that I won't like (derogatory)

#tfw i am just. so. contemptuous of an ongoing canon grrrrrrrr #me reading summaries of Dooku Jedi Lost: you are copying the Darth Plagueis(novel) homework just altering it #me: *Tenth Doctor voice* hate Planet of the Hats. most of the time. #me: that is to say WHY must you backstrapolate that all ancestors are vaguely sinister #me (re Ramil): why the fuck is EVERY-freaking-BODY into racing? why couldn't he have a Different hobby like #model trains or amoebas or bagpipes or extreme ironing or cat photography or sprouting or bookbinding?! ... #me: I do not believe this is how the concept of count works this could be actually worse than Is There A College IN YOUR COUNTY? #(he's gotta be like... ahem. “Fifth in line for the throne” technically. it's just the rest of the succession is ~defunct. shhhh) #... you've lost touch with the original PT This Is How Anakin 🙂 Falls... #*bared teeth* jedi propaganda #(I think I could better like a crack fic where his “brother” is. hell. a cricketing Valeyard and he is technically from a different planet #*cough* Shparoi *cough* except his only contact with its famous export is they once both touched the same goose by incredible coincidence #*checks notes* technically and philosopically Yes connected but of Insignificant magnitude granddaughter Rey) #this started when Rakkety Tam was the most recent book I could procure. far more calmly with But It Won't Be As Special #after I um. ficced wildly for certain characters #'S absolutely full fledged very much how I have felt practically always about H/P after I read as far as I could then #loved the fic community but! I didn't have to care for very long if they Got My Blorbos All Wrong #bc you see they don't have the power to far-reaching wreck canon or go ardently transphobic and claim fandom of #books that scarcely address the topic is support for it :/ #I do not feel like I Can Fan Correctly! 🙃

[neganium]

Was wondering why the internet was bugging out when I remembered that preloading videos via this site's Mp4upload link makes everything else run like complete shit. Beginning to second guess my capricious idea of watching the original Pretty Cure at nearly two in the morning.

#alas I am curious; and also want something to distract me from my thoughts... again #basically worried that someone in my fandom ghosted me after I mentioned offhand that they don't SEEM like somebody on my DNI list #which makes me wonder if they ARE; and if I should still be reading the shit that they write #I can still see their blog (such as it is; since they post literally nothing on it); but that means little if they failed to block my main #which; it's mentioned in my blog's description so it'd be a bit silly for them not to. #kind of just hoping that they didn't see the notification or something... and that they're a lot less online than I am. either or. #bc I am starved for content and I'd hate to drop Yet Another writer for being some degree of awful and/or unpleasant

[starlingskulls]

also one of the cats i work with really fucked my shit up last shift and i feel very upset about it One because uhmm. rude. but also because ohhh that's deeper than i've ever gone and it didn't hurt that bad .. very interesting information

#🐦‍⬛posting #mostly just stung yk. didn't bleed too bad either #and like .. yk when the cvts look pretty or whatever LMAOO it looks Nice. like I'm so fucking pissed but good work little dude #downside is I keep looking at it like hmm...... could make more! #if anyone is reading this rn could u tell me if it's dangerous to cvt on the upper thigh. like High up the thigh #bc that's where I've been doing it but I think I remember someone being like hey. Don't Do That. like don't cvt at all but #Especially Not There #but also like goddd that's the only place I can hide it #I can't do arms I wear jackets a lot but also I wear this one shirt a lot and its like. those tiny tiny straps I forgor what they r called #and I'd simply rather die than tell anyone in my life abt this #even though their guilt Would be fun <- hate that I want it though #like I hate it BAD. makes me feel fucking evil. but god I want ppl to feel bad for making Me feel bad #but then also I'm terrified of ppl feeling responsible for my stupid actions like that yk ? #fun me lore I was on Tumblr at the ripe age of 11 #in a tiny fandom #and managed to befriend this woman who I Knew would cvt and was suicidal or wtv #and ofc she didn't Know how young I was till I finally confessed at like 15 but. well that is a Lot of pressure for an 11 year old #Especially bc she'd vent like. every fucking day. I felt bad of course but that much? for like 4 years? #draining!!!!!! and if I'd so much as hint to it she'd make me feel guilty. not on purpose. but it still happened ! #nowadays I feel so fucking guilty for every little thing I do lol. which is why I can't tell anyone abt this #if I ever made Anyone I love feel that same way? that's it I'm done I'm dead #so now silly and curious strangers get to read my yapping ! #hiiiiiiii !

[coolauntlilith]

"Izzy was the only one with a coming out arc."

We're really just ignoring Stede, the guy who originally did ask Mary to come to sea with him. Who probably didn't realize he was gay until Ed. Who probably thought he was just the biggest ally on the ocean. Who had an actual Gay Panic moment when he thought he was destroying Ed, ran home to Mary to try to be her husband again, and then came out to her? And spent all second season doing everything he could to get back to Ed and be with him.

Ok. You're dumb as hell. But ok.

#i like how you just didn't watch the show. like at all. #also i hate 'gay panic' as slang bc its still a law in like 38 states. ya know. for bigots to kill gay people and get lighter sentences #but for the sense of getting my point across im using it #also i feel like tagging this is demanding a fight. if you see it you see it. whatever #stupid fucking takes in fandom #i couldn't even read the rest of the post in good faith bc op had no good faith take themselves #fandom bullshit #aunt posting #edit later: also also - the person's post actually said 'only outsider.' stede wasn't even accepted like really accepted by his crew until #the Act If Grace moment where they were like 'hes the most piratey pirate ever!' Stede was an outsider for nearly or most of s1 #like my point still stands lol #they tolerate him a lot at first only bc hes paying them a wage #they come to like hime being alive lol. later they kinda actually really like him. by mid? s2 they actually respect him more or less #stede had a queer arc! like???? 'only izzy had a coming out arc' brotato. my brotato casserole. you literally didn't actually watch ofmd

[bluegiragi]

I hate to ask this cause it feels stupid but I dont wanna do a bunch of research on whatever the recent cod mw fandom discourse is,

but I saw the reblog of someone accusing you of supporting people who write sexualized pedophilia and that really is personally my only """"moral"""" with nsfw shit, (I'm a patreon subscriber and ig I just wanna know where my money's going) is THAT true?

this is such a never-ending nightmare.

i used to follow an artist who, 5-6 months ago made racist art featuring gaz in a slave context, which I didn't like, retweet or interact with in any way. they also made under-age art of ghost soap, which I also didn't interact with . people on twitter called me out yesterday, for retweeting art they'd made as evidence I stood by/encouraged/was an avid fan of all these tropes. Also, the art I retweeted wasn't either of these previous examples of art, but one where ghost and soap were sleeping in a bed together, as adults, peacefully. I can't emphasise enough that I have not interacted with this artist at all, for literally six months.

genuinely, my only crime is not unfollowing + blocking this artist earlier on, and then daring to retweet a fic tagged with "non-con" (ghost gets soap off in a context where he can't really properly consent, they're in front of a crowd of strangers and they have to fuck, but both parties are into each other) written by a friend as I wanted to support their writing.

and now i have pedophile claims because I accidentally retweeted a fandom bingo post that defended loli-con, and then immediately un-retweeted it when I properly read it.

And people are calling me a zoophile for supporting someone who wrote zoophilic fic and called people slurs (???) and I genuinely don't know who they're talking about there.

And the same people called me racist for making Horangi's eyes in the monster!AU sensitive because they thought I was making fun of Asian eyes. The real reason is because he's a cat hybrid and cats are sensitive to light (and I'm Chinese).

I tried addressing all this in a simpler way earlier on, and responded to an ask talking about my "support" for the artist who drew the slave Gaz art by saying the fanart in question was tone deaf and in poor taste. It wasn't enough for some people, so I'm happy to say it again - yes, it was racist, and the reason why I didn't want to be more aggressive is because I didn't want to extend all this mess by throwing this artist under the bus - I genuinely believed them when they said that wasn't that their intention, and think they should've deleted the post at the time.

And also I'm now called a rapist bc I like to entertain fics with dom/sub dynamics that dip into cnc, as an asexual woman who's personally repulsed by sex when it comes to myself.

That's everything so far. I really don't know what you people want from me anymore. I followed the wrong artist. I retweeted the wrong post. And I've undid those actions now. And for so many people to have taken literally everything spread by these people at face value, without even checking if their claims are true, is incredibly hurtful and isolating.

#there. the entire sequence of events #have fun i guess

[vex91]

Yu Jimin - Forced marriage

Pairing: Yu Jimin x Female Reader (CEO AU)

Fandom: Aespa

Requested by: Anonymous

Request: yn's father is in a debt so he gave his daughter to his boss's daughter for money like for marriage bc he is filthy rich so she hates her father. jimin and yn don't want each other, later jimin learns about this, she didn't know that her father did this and start to be kind to her. you can make yn play hard to get or not, whatever you want.

Summary: To pay off his debts, your father decides to make you marry one of the richest CEO's daughter and the fact that none of you wanted that marriage made you both hate each other.

A/N: KARINAAAAAAAA @1luvkarina something's for you😂 Thanks for requesting anon❤

3rd's POV

You hated Yu Jimin.

It wasn't anything personal with the woman, you hated her because of yours and hers parents who decided to control your life without any care about your own feelings.

You always loved your father, he never failed to make you feel loved and he supported you through everything you went through as a teenager but that was until you were 16. Your father borrowed some money from shady people and soon after he borrowed even more not realizing how badly it will end for him. The debt quickly became much too big for your family to pay off. Your parents were devastated, they tried to not talk about anything debt related around you and you thought it was because they didn't wanted to worry you but on your 18th birthday you found out the truth about why they whispered around the house whenever they talked about their debt.

The truth was your father found a solution to their problems. He contacted a very well-known CEO of a famous company in Seoul, Mr. Yu who was also your father's boss and after talking about different options they agreed on having you marry his daughter Jimin who was soon to inherit the company. When your father told you about it you were furious, you couldn't believe your own father could just sell you like this just to solve his own problems and your mother agreeing to that made you even more devastated. Their assurances of their love for you didn't do much for you, you could see that you didn't mean much to them since they were willing to just force you into something like that without any problems.

Your wedding was your nightmare. Jimin was nice and all but ever since you officially met you could feel how much she also hated the fact she had to marry someone she didn't wanted to marry. You both pretended to be happy and in love during your wedding but the moment you guys entered your shared house, you both completely ignored each other. There was no reason for you to argue when you could just pretend that nothing happened and live not getting into each other ways. That's how you spend the next few months as a married couple, you ignored each other most of the time and going on dates with other people, only acting as a couple in front of her parents whenever they visited.

One night Jimin came back from a tiring day at work to see you at your usual spot on the window. You made yourself a very comfortable space there with pillows and blankets so you often used it to rest or sleep if you didn't wanted to sleep with Jimin. Your wife observed you for a while as you read your book before moving to the kitchen to make herself something to eat "I made you dinner. It's in the fridge" Your voice cut through the silence but not for long as silence soon took over again. Jimin silently opened the fridge to see her favorite food prepared. As she warmed it up she continued staring at you "Do you need anything?" You asked looking at her having enough of her stares. Jimin hesitated, thinking if she should touch on the subject.

"Why did you marry me?" You looked up at her confused. You wondered what made her ask that since she never cared about it until now. You were silent trying to think of what to say until Jimin said something that made you furious "Did you pay my father to marry me? That's why he was so adamant in making me marry you?" You couldn't believe what you were hearing. Was she really accusing you of paying her father so you could marry her?

"Excuse me?" You stood up and went over to her "You heard me" You were shocked and angry, you hated how this whole situation made you feel so many things at once, especially the pain you felt when on your 18th birthday "You think I wanted that? Marrying you was the last thing I wanted actually but well I didn't had a choice since my father clearly already signed the agreement with your father before even telling me. Just for your knowledge not everybody is obsessed with you" Tears welled up in your eyes as you looked down, Jimin on the other hand was stunned. She wasn't sure what to say, guilt eat her up as she realized that you just like her were basically sold by your father.

She tried to reach for you but you quickly stormed off to your bedroom leaving Jimin standing alone in the kitchen with all her swirling thoughts.

2 hours passed since then and you were still laying in bed looking at the ceiling. Jimin's words hurt, they reminded you of how betrayed you felt and how much you hated your current life. Jimin still didn't came back to the bedroom and at some point you thought that she decided to sleep on the couch but that thought soon left your mind as you heard the door opening. You turned around to face somewhere else and listened to her quiet footsteps getting closer and soon a hand shook your arm. You stayed still not wanting to even look at her at that moment.

Jimin sighed before talking "Y/N... I know you don't want to talk and I understand that. Just know that I really regret saying everything I said back there, I didn't know about your father. I'm gonna sleep on the couch tonight" She finished and you heard her leaving some bags next to the bed and leaving. You moved around and took the bags to see what was inside and the sight shocked you. It was your favorite meal you ordered a lot during evenings. The fact that Jimin payed attention to that was completely surprising to you but the fact that she went and bought some for you despite the late hour was even more shocking.

Inside was a note.

I wasn't sure which sauce you preferred so I bought every kind they had. I hope you enjoy the food and maybe we can talk tomorrow?

From Jimin <3

Maybe she wasn't so bad after all.

#vex writes #🌙 anon #aespa x reader #aespa reactions #yu jimin x reader #karina x reader #yu jimin #karina

[relentlessly-tired]

I hate the person I am now.

I have like no personality. My only hobbies/passions/obsessions are just ALL ed related (cooking, baking, counting cals, making meal plans, nutrition books/videos) and fitness (gym, cardio, walking).

And it's not like I can even talk ab any of this to ppl irl bc I don't want ppl to get suspicious of me. So I'm afraid I just come off as... Bland. I am such a shell of a person.

Like. Who would I be if I didn't have food/weight on my mind 24/7???? What could I use that energy for?? I think about the person I used to be. I used to read loads and watch movies/shows and be in fandoms and do sports and now I am just like waiting for the day I get skinny to live again.

I hate who I've become. Moreso, I hate who I haven't become. I'm not me. And I don't even have anything to show for it. I'm not skinny yet.

Anyways, that's why I've been so inactive recently. I am so exhausted of living like this stuck in such a loop. But I don't know how to get out.

#ed dairy #ed rant #tw 3d vent #i wanna lose weight #ed relapse #an@rexi@ #light as a feather #pro for me not for thee #⭐️ve #i wanna be tiny

[pollsnatural]

*I'm not a deangirl, I just read their posts sometimes, so I can accidentally misrepresent views of Dean fans with these options. If you don't find the thing that you're bitter about, please vote for "something else" and write about the thing in the tags (but this thing you're bitter about should be about the show, not the fandom, bc that's a completely different story and deserves another poll).

No hate towards Dean/Dean fans in the notes to this poll.

Cas poll, Sam poll

#polls #spn #supernatural #dean winchester

[pretty--in--purple]

Rating the mommy issues of TLT characters in alphabetical order

contains spoilers technically

Abigail: can't have kids but clearly maternal as fuck. call her mother. 2/10

Aiglamene: she has inverse mommy issues - daughter issues. -10/10

Augustine: full offense but he has freudian vibes. fuck-hate relationship w mercymorn who is has the energy of a neglectful mother. 7/10

Camilla: clearly raised by incredibly competent parents - unclear if she had a mother. Even if she did her real issues are codependency with Palamedes. 0/10

Corona: unconfirmed but a girl like that did NOT experience maternal affection growing up. 5/10

Crux: yknow what. nobody whose mother held them enough is Like That. 10/10

Dulcinea: idk if she had a mother, but i get 'raised by gay dad(s)' vibes from her. possibly the best adjusted character of all 0/10

G1deon: man is obsessed with doing what God wants EXCEPT when it's not to fuck a terrorist. four parts people pleaser one part horny 5/10

Gideon: mum only birthed her to blow her up, died, then used her afterlife to terrorise Gideon’s not-quite-girlfriend; gave her a desperate desire for external validation and attention, especially from evil cougars. 11/10

Harrow: mum committed genocide to conceive her, never smiled at her, attempted to murder-suicide her. 12/10

Ianthe: unclear. daddy issues but no mention of mother afaik - might not even have one. no indication of mommy issues in her romantic life bc she didn’t attempt to fuck mercymorn. HOWEVER she’s such a freak she can’t possibly have had a positive female role model. 3/10

Isaac: born in a vat but had abigail as a maternal figure so 5/10

Jeannemary: same as isaac but she's definitely sapphic so bump that to 6/10

John: literally reformed the Earth in the image of his mum’s old Hollywood hair Barbie. Also, look at him. 100/10

Judith: 9/10 no questions

Magnus: so chill but also he has the vibes of someone into mommydom shit. he's sucked abigail's tits for SURE 3/10

Marta: idk i think she has 'estranged from family' vibes. 4/10

Mercymorn: her mother might have been good but she can't remember her, so 5/10

Naberius: he kissed his mother on the mouth DAILY and you know it. 10/10

Ortus: mostly daddy issues but you saw his mother. 8/10

Palamedes: I haven’t read Doctor Sex but I have his mommy issues on good authority. I hate to say it but camilla is his mommy. 6/10

Pyrrha: unknown. Loves a milf but then who doesn’t. 1/10

Wake: giver of mommy issues. she's the mommy that's the issue. unrateable

[ETA: @everyone making fun of me for saying he sucks tits like it's something special im SORRY i didn't say magnus sits on abigails lap and pretends to breastfeed but i thought it would be GROSS i guess i forgot what this fandom is. ily all be home for dinner]

#tlt #nona the ninth #the locked tomb #sky (the blogger) originals #gideon the ninth #alecto the ninth #harrow the ninth #gtn #atn #ntn #htn #augustine the first #pyrrha dve #palamedes sextus #awake remembrance of these valiant dead #ortus nigenad #harrowhark nonagesimus #gideon nav #aiglamene #camilla hect #jeannemary chatur #isaac tettares #magnus quinn #ianthe naberius #ianthe tridentarius #coronabeth tridentarius #naberius tern #abigail pent #mercymorn the first #gideon the first

[jortenthusiasst]

WOAH GUYS I thought we got passed the whole trying to tell authors how to write THEIR stories ???? The bad reviews on tsc are ridiculous !! Wdym u wanted it to be abt andreil ??? It never was. And obviously they didn't read the 1st books bc if they did. They wouldn't hate Jean. I personally don't mind the lack of dialouge in the book, I think it was nice to see Jean and Jeremys thoughts.

And stop with the Hate on the covers my God. The covers are too simple ? Buy dust jackets. Oh we get special editions and all of sudden u don't like art for the covers ??? U ppl are so annoying 💀

Get over yourselves !! I am very happy with the book and I know MOST of the fandom is aswell. Nora came back and made this amazing thing for us. Be thankful !!

#aftg #the sunshine court #jean moreau #jeremy knox #the foxhole court #all for the game #all for the game series #jortenthusiasst complains #u can not like the book obviously #but this blatant #going into the series with FALSE expectations ?? #u KNEW who it was abt #rude as hell 🙄