#I used to sing Literally All The Time.

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #I used to sing Literally All The Time. #if you were the right age in the right town I guarantee you heard me at least once. #and as I got sicker and spent more and more time stuck in apartments I sang less and less. #but I'm only getting sicker #and so much of myself feels completely out of reach. #the singing at least feels like I haven't lost sight of it even if it's hard to reach. #but also it is 1 am in an apartment and my wife and partner are both sleeping and have jobs in the morning. #and it's not like I can take a quick jog down to the freeway to get it out of my system.

[sergle]

what I was talking abt earlier. we have fully looped back around and away from feminism, societally, whereas before it was very Feminism 101 to acknowledge that many parts of existing as a woman in a misogynistic society are painful and upsetting. not that being a woman is Inherently Negative in a bubble. but that living on this earth, in the conditions we're living in, is hostile to women. and that gender is a performance. that many of the Staples Of Femininity as accepted by society are things that you have to create and perform and mold artificially and aren't inherent, that COMPLAINING about day to day difficulties of existing as a woman is something that you're allowed to do. acknowledging these basic, again, feminism 101 things, that something tied to womanhood is more time consuming or more expensive or more dangerous Because Of The Problems. does not CREATE the problems. that when women complain about having to perform femininity, they are not, in fact, oppressing themselves. the call does not come from inside the fucking house. saying that you HAVE suffered does not fucking equate that you believe you SHOULD have suffered.

like I could talk about this for hours. how braindead and one-dimensional the Takes are getting. "being a woman is looking in the mirror and going fuck yeah i'm a woman" damn. I guess any negative experiences you have by living in a misogynistic world... are your fault if you are anything but positive? "you don't actually want liberation" we've fully gone back to telling feminists "you WANT to be oppressed" when anything negative about our society is pointed out. it's not real until I say it out loud, I guess, and then I'm actually the one who caused it. if anybody expresses any unhappiness with how they're treated or the status quo or the language and culture surrounding womanhood and femininity. they've created it, right that second. they invented it just now. it wasn't a problem before somebody complained, right? also trans women aren't braindead zombies who just follow the flow of whatever cis women around them say. I am pretty fucking sure they are very much aware of pain, and are MORE than aware of the swirling torrent of misogyny and standards of femininity than anybody else. actually. and I am pretty sure someone complaining on tumblr that being a woman means always putting on a performance is going to make someone change their mind about transitioning. also "performing femininity" as a necessity to being treated well as a woman is not fucking NEWS to your Local Trans Woman. I AM PRETTY SURE SHE GETS THE CONCEPT. using trans women as a scapegoat for this braindead perspective on gender politics is spineless, meritless, and pathetic.

#how I feel about my gender is not the same as how I feel about the living conditions of my gender #when I saw that post I screenshotted here I literally sat w my mouth open for a minute #sent it to my friends and was like am I fucking crazy. is this what we're doing now #Forced Positivity and that there is no war in ba sing se and actually #you're ruining children's lives if you complain about misogyny on twitter #I don't HAVE to tell little girls about the downsides because they are already being mistreated #before they have even heard the word 'misogyny' let alone know what it means #you do not have to be fucking happy all the time about the cards you're dealt. #you don't live in a bubble where it's just you and your mirror and your pretty dress and nothing bad has ever happened to you #unfortunately bitch. we will have negative experiences that are in fact. part of the package of being a woman #and IGNORING them doesn't make them not exist. actually they will continue to remain status quo unless acknowledged #sergle.txt #I see so much rhetoric that is JUST old-fashioned gender ideals being presented with liberal language on tiktok #that is just telling women that womanhood is just being a girllll and loving pretty things and being kind and gentleeeee and nurturing #and not working and just like being wholesome and being happy and being a light in ppl's lives and just LOVING LOVING LOVING being a woman #so if for even one second. you don't love it. you are actually failing at being a woman #if you complain about the standards for shaving or putting on makeup. which used to be Baby's First Feminism online #that's actually just you creating problems. you're not supposed to acknowledge it. you're supposed to shut up and smile into the mirror.

[squishosaur]

hey man. i'm just saying. why would we put inexperienced teenagers with over-inflated egos and obvious emotional issues into combat classes and make them claw their way to the top of their dorms and expect things to just run smoothly. who actually thought this

#the reason rsa doesn't have overblots is because they understand the joy and whimsy of life and friendship btw #LIKE. why is there no school counselor?? do you know how much time & resources & effort & TRAUMA we could have saved the students & #school from if ANYONE had reached out to riddle and was like 'hey are you alright i heard xyz and i wanted to let you know...' ESPECIALLY #since TREY LITERALLY TELLS US 'oh well here's the lowdown on her trauma this is Probably what is causing this' #or if someone sat down to tell leona 'hey! i'm rooting for you in ur magift(?) game! you're my fav player!!' AND LET HIM FEEL NOTICED #or if someone approached azul as an Equal to try to stop his plans. as a friend even. BEYOND A BUSINESS TRANSACTION #or if ANYBODY BUT ESPECIALLY KALIM was like 'jamil i think you should follow your passions and do something you enjoy today!!' or AT LEAST #let him know he was appreciated as a person NOT JUST FOR HIS WORK #'i know you're doing a lot today but i just wanted to thank you for how much Effort you put into this and..' etc etc etc #ERM.. IF ANYONE TREATED VIL LIKE A HUMAN BEING AND NOT A CELEBRITY??? or even 'hey i loved you in this film i was wondering if we could #do a play together or something..!!' AND LET HER TRY A TYPE OF CHARACTER SHE NEVER GOT THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE. and sing her praises. #if anyone reached out to idia beyond a 'hey the teacher said to come to class'/'get out of your bed and come to our housewarden meeting' #or even. IF ORTHO HIMSELF was like. 'you know it's not your fault... you didn't cause all of this. not really' OR SOMETHING #or if malleus ever got to experience a small firsthand loss AND WAS COMFORTED THROUGH IT. not just quick fix via magic. not replacing. just #GRIEVING SOMETHING??????? and wasn't feared by literally everyone #um. maybe the real twisted part is that all of this tragedy was easily preventable if we had a support system in place. #but idk. twst is a highschool. there's no support in real high school either. i'd probably overblot too if i could ajdjrjfinfdndjd #twst #chatter #LONG RAMBLE SORRY #yes overblots are essential to the plot. but also. do you know how frustrating it is watching the blot build up and sitting in silence. #I'M SORRY IK IF SOMETHING LIKE THIS WAS HAPPENING TO A GUY I JUST MET I WOULD PROBABLY NOT NOTICE.. but of it was my Friend or Housewarden.. #I'D ASK BRO.... I'D ASK ... UGHHHHHUUUHHHH #not that anyone would notice if *I* was about to lose it tbh #speaks volumes about our society o think #OKAY NOW I'M DONE FOR REAL

[hooned]

i can’t believe i took these photos oh my god i luckily had a great view of the entire concert and wow, again, had thee absolute time of my life. ❤️‍🩹 enhypen, you will always be loved by me.

#i talk too much & that's okay ♡ #spent the entire day crying btw — pcd is real i need two to three business days to process everything and start functioning again #right now all i could think of is DAMN TAKE ME BACK PLS I BEG 😭 #enhypen are such phenomenal performers with so much love to give oh god if i could say in words how amazing they all are I WOULD #their eyes shining while looking at the crowd OH GOD they’re everything really !! #and sunoo’s cover ???? I CRIED. sunghoon dancing gento ???? OH MY GOD I DIED AGAIN. #jake singing love yourself for us ??? hee singing give me your forever ??? RIKI LIKE THIS DANCE ??? OH MY GOD. #the fireworkd too UGH it was a perfect night like the pre concert experience wasn’t the best bc of the heat and some lapses #BUT THE CONCERT ITSELF ??? OUR BOYS ??? #OH MY GOD I WOULD GO THROUGH ALL THAT AGAIN AND AGAIN IF IT MEANS SEEING ENHYPEN PERFORM AND BE LOVED AGAIN LIKE THAT. #I LOVE THEM SOSOSO MUCH I CRIED BEFORE DURING AND AFTER THE CONCERT #MY FANCAMS ARE A MESS BUT OH MY GOD IT WAS NOTHING SHORT OF MAGICAL #text post #this is my best picture everything else is unfocused coz i wanted to look at them with my eyes #they are soo beautiful ugh #the entire time i was screaming and crying and singing and dancing IT WAS LITERALLY THEE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE #i can’t wait to see you again #i can’t wait to see you again my sevEN 🌟🫀🧡

[sugarsnappeases]

thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo. #this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so. #not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :( #i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

[rosalesbeausderholle]

At the end of the day, it just really sucks when you can't even enjoy a new release by your favorite artist because the greater internet has decided she's their acceptable outlet of misogyny and they have to comment or hate on her every move every single time.

#liveblogging my life #and for anyone saying oh it's only bc she's hyper famous and a billionaire now #it has literally always been like this #I've been here since 2009 and it has been like this every single time #like jesus i have to see people lose their mind over soulless factory ready kpop groups #or anything ariana grande puts out #(which btw is 1000% more soulless than anything I've heard) #or any other artist who's lyrics are just as 'cringe' as taylor (which is not a bad thing sometimes lyrics are fun! sometimes lyrics #are tongue in cheek! sometimes some of you are illiterate and don't get basic ass metaphors) #and that's all fine and good #and the respective fandom gets to enjoy the release #but when it's us we have to be exposed with barrage of hate after barrage of hate #sometimes over something so innocent as even announcing an album #like it's really a demonstration about how you can be the best and most successful person in the whole world at something #if you're a woman they'll still hate you #and then you guys find it cringe when she sings about that but isn't she right? #and then how dare we compare her to some of the old greatest of all time #as if they sometimes didn't have fun or cringey lyrics as well! but in this case those are two whole verses in a 31 yo album #but yeah stop and listen to what some of those oldies were singing about #not that they aren't great iconic songs is that the songwriting and bop status is very much comparable #taylor swift

[p4nishers]

can we actually take a moment and remember swan upon leda? can we actually shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down and think about our lord and savior swan upon leda because i'm tired of doing it alone every single day guys

#the title itself!!! THE FUCKING TITLE #swan UPON leda #god he's an actual genius THANK U HOZIER SO FUCKING MUCH #i hate how that myth is portrayed and received and objectified bc they make it out to be such a funny little chuckle story like 'hahaha led #is SO easy that she fell for a swan isn't that actually the funniest thing you've ever heard omg like women are literally so easy to please #whatever whatever blahblahblah yes that's fucking hilarious matthew thank u SO much for that absolutely fascinating commentary on a women #getting raped by a god really truly an amazing insight into ur pea fucking brain #like fuck sorry but i just absolutely despises how this myth is made out to be and i remember learning abt it in class and being literally #nauseated bc guess fucking what it's literally not hard to understand wtf is happening and while u r laughing away about i repeat a WOMEN #getting RAPED some fucking of us have brain enough to be mortified #jesus ANYWAY #hozier dropped that song after roe v wade was over turned and i just i love him so fucking much he cares SO MUCH and before anything else #he's an activist and he actually gives a shit about women's rights and he dropped this song as a comfort as something to hold onto but also #as a social commentary and he linked charities and resources to help women and keep them safe and this song just means everything to me #bc greek mythology often gets reduced to children stories bc most ppl know myths from children books and obviously a book for kids not gonn #outloud say the word rape or even imply that that's what's happening and that's fine ig but bc so many ppl know it from there it gets #reduces to a joke and a raped women gets ridiculed but hozier actually took one of the few poems about leda being raped and it being a rape #at all and made it into a song during a time that was so traumatizing for ever afab person in the world basically and it just says 'i see #you i see what you're going through and i'm listening and i actually care and i want to help you' and he's helping by writing a song yes bc #he's spreading the word that way bc that's how movements are spread and people listen to him when he's singing and that's how he helps and #i did i mention that i love him? bc i'd actually do anything for him and to meet him and tell him how much he fucking means to me #the line that always gets me is 'a crying CHILD pushes a CHILD into the night' bc yes she was a fucking child who had to deliver 4 KIDS BC #AN ASSHOLE DECIDED SHE WAS PRETTY ENOUGH TO FUCK and nobody ever cares that she was just a child and her child helen was just a child when #she was abducted and raped and impregnated (JUST LIKE HER MOTHER) by theseus a supposed great hero and im genuinely sick she was just a #child like so many women or girls in greek mythology and ik it was a different time back then or wtv but they were just GIRLS and nobody #cared about that or cares now. but this song does. #bc of course it does it's hozier. #hozier #swan upon leda

[puthyflapps]

Swifties prove everyday that they’re the dumbest people on the internet and that’s really saying something cuz I’ve dealt directly with blarkes

#1) swifites always being racist toward Beyoncé #2) swifities doxxing a Palestinian girl and sending her info to the IDF cuz she said that there were better options for Time’s PotY #3) swifites beefing with North West – a literal child – cuz they thot she “shaded” Taylor #4) swifites commenting snake emojis on Kim K’s insta posts thinking they’re doing something other than driving up her engagement and lining #her pockets #t swift #also these are all just annoying things I’ve seen happen TODAY #I cannot wait until we are released from whatever govt psyop we’ve been under for the past few years cuz I’m over this endless string of #swift propaganda 🔫🔫🔫 it’s literally insane and no matter how many times I block people or hit not interested in posts I am still forced to #see shit about her like it is never ending and it’s so fucking exhausting like the way white women in particular make being a swifite their #whole personality is so embarrassing!!! THIS EOMAN CANNOT SING YALL!! AND IM TIRED OF BEING NICE AND SAYING SHE HAS DEVENT SONG WRITING #SKILLS CUZ SHE DOESNT!! EVERYTHING ABOUT HER IS MEDIOCRE AT BEST!!! SHE CANNOY SING AND HER LYRICS ARE THE MUSICAL EQUIVALENT OF WATTPAD FF! #I am so tired of this bullshit and I used to be able to find reprieve in football but no more!! cuz her and her annoying cult have #infiltrated that too like this shit is annoying and I feel like I’m going crazy cuz she’s everywhere and not in an organic way. In a very #strategic marketing capitalistic way and I love The Wilds but I hate how the fandom has like woven TS into everything there too like #I think I’m gonna commit a crime. I think imma toss someone through a brick wall cuz I’m losing it

[sa-bo]

Genuinely need a break from this arc real quick why does One Piece delve so deep into the ethics of war this arc, like holy shit I'm gonna fucking die

#so much emotional shit been happening during the marineford arc im gonna come out of this feeling like a jaded war soldier #seeing coby having a downright full-on panic attack while bodies fall to the ground around him?? isnt this kid like 15-17 #and literally any scene where some shit happens to luffy is absolutely mortifying in nature ever since drum island #one piece sets itself up like ''lol look at these pirate friends getting into hijinks and saving each other and conquering the world!'' #but then shit gets crazy every time #i can no longer in good conscience recommend this without warning people abt how scary it gets sometimes #i feel like the first taste comes during arlong park where we see nami repeatedly stabbing herself #then with us seeing zoro's wound stapled shut and bleeding like a motherfucker as he still tries to fight #because they couldn't get professional medical help even if they probably saw his fucking guts and ribcage #but shit just keeps getting more terrifying every arc #alabasta? civil war. we see the princess of her country screaming her lungs out in vain for her people to stop fighting #sky island? mass genocide. for funsies. by a man so hopped up on delusions and apathy he thinks it's funny #water 7? we see the downfall of ohara and robin trying to Fucking Commit Suicide because she finally found ppl who like her #thriller bark--THRILLER BARK SPEAKS FOR ITSELF. #seeing brook's crew sing together one last time as they all progressively drop dead one by one until only one is left #and the utter terror as we see zoro standing surrounded by his own blood in a 20 foot radius around him #impel down we see the horrors of the world government and how they treat their prisoners with layers of hell #and marineford we see a war even worse than that which we saw in alabasta #horrible horrible shit

[ronanlynchbf]

tagged by @lesbianjudasiscariot to post 3 albums i've been listening to recently THANK YOUUUU MWAHH

Praise a Lord Who Chews but Which Does Not Consume; (Or Simply, Hot Between Worlds) by Yves Tumor / Ibn El Leil by Mashrou' Leila / Unreal Unearth by Hozier

tagging @henessy @adamnsey @bonivers @parrishh & @mnwlk if u want to — as always, no pressure <3!!!!!

#unreal unearth is rlly soooooooo good the singing in gaelic!!!!! the CHOIR!!!!!!! he did it again thank u mr andrew 🙏🙏🙏 faves from it r: #de selby part 1 + i carrion (icarian) + damage gets done + who we are + all things end + anything but + abstract (psychopomp) btw <333 #i've been going back to yves tumor's album a LOT this summer it's genuinely just SO good. faves are definitely god is a circle & echolalia #& heaven surrounds us like a hood ❤ and then mashrou' leila's ibn el leil which i literally ALWAYS find myself returning to. djin + ashabi + #tayf (ghost) are like. must-listens. 2 me <33 but that entire album is spectacular and incredible quite literally one of THE albums of all #time for me it's so so special. #anyway. MUSIC U WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS ILY ❤🙏❤ #tag games <3

[waterlinkedgirl]

Musical Touken Ranbu: Tokyo Kokoro Oboe english sub

I know this isn’t the TsuruKara Souki you were expecting, but on the plus side, neither was I expecting this! Since I’m watching this with a friend soon, I figured, why not? It is very high up in my faves list, after all 🥺

Following my predecessors, the start of the subtitles has a little intro blurb on each of the historical figures, and I’m also planning on making a little research file in which I’ll try to explain a few things about Masakado and horses, Masakado and Kikyou, Ota Dokan and the yamabuki (Japanese kerria) girl, and some details about Tenkai as person and his planning of Edo as city.

I’m also planning to include some translation notes (specifically on ほころび・る hokorobi/ru because that deserves to be mentioned) in the file, some interpretations on the girl with the Noh mask, and a few fun facts about how each of the historical figures relates to Inari or foxes. Because in the context of the roles Suishinshi and the Gous get given throughout TKO, as well as the themes present in it, it may be interesting to keep a certain little fox in the back of your mind while watching!

Keep in mind that this is only the subtitle file, timed and tled to the DMM archive distribution.

You can download the subs for the DMM archive distribution here,

and with lots of thanks to a friend, the subs for the BD/DVD version can be found here!

The research file will be able to be found here too, at a later date.

#touken ranbu #Tokyo Kokoro Oboe #toumyu #Water's translations #'where's Kogi in all this' is one of my favourite questions to ask in TKO tbh ngl #and not in a haha 'kon kon kon.../knock knock knock...' kind of way #though I do really appreciate Mikazuki's name melts into Kogi's in the names section #I'd love to think that tsuwamono had meaning-- that kotobuki had meaning! #that Kogitsunemaru hasn't disappeared from Mikazuki's side after tsuwamono established that even if he can't do time crimes with him #he will still gladly eat chagashi with him. And that he won't allow Mikazuki to use that sweetness as bribe to get away from his duties-- #to get away from staying by Kogitsunemaru's side. #Also considering Kogitsunemaru in utaawase and by extension Inari light is super cool bc he's one of the most supernatural swords out there #through him being smithed by Inari he's half repairs and also Legit Foxy at the same time that Inari is a god the *people* made popular #on top of that!! Kogitsunemaru is!! *literally* a noh song-- he's given his shape because Kokaji exists- because the people sing of #the little fox that helped Sanjou Munechika out and the name 'Kogitsune' engraved on the back as gratitude towards that incarnation of Inari #so why is it Sui who gets to carry that weight? #why is it Sui who recognises Mika has gone too far and needs to be saved- who admits Mika's crimes to Master when Kogi's kept them secret- #when Kogi knows what Mika does and isn't gonna take bull from him? #why is it the Gous that Mikazuki entrusts to be the bridge between human and non-human when Kogi should be right by his side? #when utaawase happened? When Kogi said he wouldn't commit time crimes but never excluded helping him in ways that don't break their mission? #why is it that the existential message-- being existent so long someone calls your name- or whether flowers songs and feelings aren't a part #of history if they're not passed down like objects or writing or *swords* (they are)- what'll remain of a sword if you lose your name-- #falls on Sui when Kogi is literally given a shape by his song engraving his name? #also the girl is wearing a *Noh* mask TT-TT #anyway sorry for the rambling I just feel Kogi is Painfully absent in TKO when he Should be in there given past myu and it hurts ;-; #I hope past myus had meaning and he'll return.

[rosicheeks]

i do not know if i ever sent this to you. i have posted it. i hope you like it Princess.

#uhhhhhm no you HAVE NOT SENT THIS TO ME BEFORE?!?! #I literally am speechless #I’m not super talky right now #but even if I was I feel like I’d still be fucking speechless #like I already said I love your writing 🩷 #and it fucking BLOWS ME AWAY when people write about me or use me as an inspiration #like????????? what??????? me???????????! #I’m going to keep this close to my heart and look at it whenever I’m feeling down #I don’t remember if I said that already but it’s true #I need to get a journal or a cute box to put things like this in so I can just grab it and look through them when I’m feeling shitty #one thing I needed to say is the fact that you shared this with me now of all times??? is kinda crazy to me #idk if it’s a coincidence or if the universe/God/whoever/whatever is trying to tell me to go back into music and singing #not going to go into it too much but I’ve been looking at my life a lot lately #and I’m realizing I’m not getting any younger…. I know I’m still young but if I don’t do something soon - #my life is going to completely pass before my eyes and I really really don’t want that #I’m *finally* going to get mental help soon (long story but I have to wait a few weeks) #and once I’m actually mentally stable I can focus on what I want to do with my life #so I’ve been thinking a lot about my performing arts background and then randomly a get an email from a choir director I know #asking if I could please join the choir for their Easter performance cause they could really use my high notes #and she just kept complimenting me and it felt really nice ☺️ #then when I went to the first rehearsal I sat next to this girl and we were singing a part and the first sopranos go up to a high A #and I can hit it easily but most of them couldn’t so it felt like I was going this mini solo lol #but she asks me what my range is and I told her that back when I trained I could sing queen of the night which I think goes up to an F6 #and she was talking about how impressive that is #and it made me think about if I actually trained and got back into it how good I actually could get #I don’t mean this to be like ‘look at me look at me I’m so good’ #it just feels nice to have a little bit of a direction again #who knows if I’ll actually go down the music path again but it does sound damn exciting #I miss it with all my heart - I miss singing and performing and acting… I even miss music theory #anyway rant over and i ran out of space but thank you so much I seriously can’t thank you enough 😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[aeide-thea]

oh right i forgot the real reason i stopped listening to broadway clips was that i've got this whole enormous miserable knot in my chest abt having been too socially anxious to do anything with my once-upon-a-time-very-gorgeous voice once i got spat out of the safe little nest of my high school, and like, most of the time i forget that knot even exists, but when i listen to the sort of music i used to be part of making (proper opera but also showtunes) it's like. this whole fast-forward feelings journey thru 'oh right that didn't actually go away, it's still right there in my throat, just calcified' to 'oh okay we tugged the loose end and it's unraveling and actually it was keeping contained a whole rush of tears like aeolus' bag of winds in the odyssey…'

#like i decline 2 actually cry abt it but. sure am on the verge of it lmao. thick sore throat and all #i always forget that when i'm actually happy i sing to myself. it's been a long time since i did that #i mean also a big problem with voice was like. the gender thing #conveniently being a mezzo is ALSO a gender thing which did more work for me than i realized but #was listening to a jeremy jordan medley ft. on the street where you live from my fair lady and had a sudden flashback #to the year i was like 'what if i sang that for our musical theater showcase' and my voice teacher was like. noooo not a Boy Song 4 Girl U! #but i used to sing that to myself all the time. also‚ hilariously‚ the girl that i marry from annie get yr gun #which is just like. literally i still thought i was a straight girl tho. the sheer level of doublethink this required. #what was happening in my brain. #(i mean obviously what was happening in my brain was that like. i knew the limits of acceptability) #(and so i couldn't know anything else abt myself.) #(like i've said this before but i do strongly wonder what else my brain isn't allowing me to know bc i still live with my dad) #(which is like. SO dumb bc honestly i'm not sure there's anything i could do that he'd kick me out/disown me over) #(certainly not anything sexuality or even gender related idt) #(but it's like. i know where the discomfort line is and emotionally i just. can't bear to exile myself out beyond it!) #(even if my doing so might eventually shift the line out to where it embraced me again!) #(sometimes learning yr own deep unacceptability in childhood 4 adhd reasons) #(and also 'yr mother is so depressed nothing you do will ever please her. have fun trying tho!!' reasons) #(makes you just. totally incapable of deliberately rendering yrself less acceptable as an adult even when it would be good for you) #(anyway like. thinking back to the K in old home videos who was like. confident that they were an engaging delight) #(and like. what a charming jeremy jordan of a performer they could have made.) #(if only my whole upbringing hadn't then happened to me and crushed all the unacceptable self-expression out of me.) #anyway. shh don't look at me it's fine! it's all fine. 🫥🫥🫥 #formative #feelingsblogging

[akkivee]

at this point in my years as a casually insane about kuukou fan, i shouldn’t be surprised by the levels of fcked up kuukou got me on, but then i’ll be listening to sougyaran bam 💥 (a song turning five this year btw) and need to take a moment. just a minute pls. to process the overwhelming urge to scream and pull my shirt down like. who am i?? what have i become why does he make me so feral wtf LOL

#this is vee speaking #tbf music i’ve been listening to since i was like seven or some shit got me up and acting like i’m performing my own concert lmao #songs have literally brought me to my knees lol lemme tell you how loud i used to get singing moonlight shadow LOL #but kuukou goes ‘GOT THIS THIS WA!!! S O U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!’ #and i’m gripping the collar off my shirt so tight my knuckles all discoloured and yelling with him ‘GYA GYA GYARAN BAM 💥’ #truly reaching levels of diseased i never thought i’d reach bc of kuukou lmao #i’m mustering up the will to get on my laptop to draw him lol since i need more time to cook on a different kuukou post i wanted to make #hence me exposing myself LOL

[k1rishiki]

ok fr last one but there's actually a bootleg of my school's anastasia and i'm linking it bc you all NEED to understand that my infatuation with this one girl's voice which started when i was in the 6th grade and still hasn't really worn off isn't based on nothing

#brielle's the one in the n95 mask (the video is too grainy to actually make out any of the ensemble's faces but she stands out) #and i'm the in my 'teenage tboy's diy first short haircut' era in every scene she's in #apart from everything abt the girl who plays anya. the tea on everyone else is that our director liked the boy who played gleb's voice so #much that she actually lowered some if not all of his parts to be in his range. the guy who played vlad was a total diva and uhm. the phras #'peaked in high school' has been tossed around at him a lot. and the fact that he came back to sub the year after he graduated isn't helpin #his case. also he pressured the girl who played anya's grandmother into wearing old age makeup + spray her hair grey bc he decided he was #going to wear it and since she's supposed to be older than him she had to too and used to waltz into the girls' changing room whenever he #wanted. everyone was like super shocked during auditions though bc we all thought he was a shoe-in for dimitry esp since seniors get #priority casting bc it's their last chance. but at callbacks (we had singing auditions via video and dance auditions in person and callback #were tacked on to the dance auditions) he kinda flubbed his song and then this freshman. who was with us via google meet bc he literally ha #covid at the time absolutely blew him out of the water and i remember walking away w brielle like 'holy shit [first name] [last name] just #lost a part to a freshman' (he's the kind of person you just have to full name otherwise it sounds wrong). that said i do think he made a #much better vlad then he would've made a dimitry and while he is. a lot. he's always been nice to me and i did briefly idolize him and his #stage presence way i did anya's singing voice but that faded when i got into hs and started actually observing his prima donna ways #(the one production we were in together before in middle school we didn't have any scenes together). the girl who played the grandma #actually shouted me out in cast circle and that's the only time that's ever happened to me. also i'm p sure her dad is/was dating someone m #dad and by extension myself work with so that's. Oh My God. like she (the one who works for my dad) brought him w her to a comedy show as i #think her bf but i'm not 100% sure and when he found out what school i went to he mentioned his daughter went there and despite the fact #that i basically have a script for when people ask me that question bc i do NOT pay attention to most of my fellow students and don't know #anyone i was like 'holy shit' bc i actually did. hm what else. the guy who played the tsar and i used to shittalk bad period dramas #backstage during the first part of act 2. also during the press conference scene i need you to picture all the bolshevik soldiers and #romanov royals doing the macarena behind the curtain bc that was absolutely what we were doing back there. speaking of the press conference #the really high singing w/o a clear source was actually anya standing behind the curtain on the other side of the stage bc she's the only #one who physically could sing the part. also in regards to the bolshevik soldiers. we were originally supposed to have wooden rifles but fo #some reason our director took them out so we had to just walk menacingly towards the romanovs. you can't rlly see me that well in that scen #but that jacket would NOT stay closed and for 2/3 performances i had to awkwardly hold it closed the entire time. luckily the one that was #filmed was the one where i was smart enough to bring safety pins and also saved like all of the ballerinas bc their costumes all started #falling apart at once backstage. #romeo.txt #theatreposting

[xxcherrycherixx]

FORNICATION UNDER CONSENT OF THE KING

#ride the cyclone #was like what quote to use as the title? time eats all his children in the end? nah... is this the way i die lord? nah... wait i got it- #heres a confession i am very oddly into emily rohms jane doe in a very homosexual way #like a ghostly decapitated woman with the head of a blonde black eyed doll who sings like a angel and constantly says random dark shit? #im so fucking into that #at the end of this song is awesome she lifts her skirt to show her leg and i legit turned into a victorian man seeing a ankle like wtf #am i into emily rohm herself? no. but when she plays the role of jane? very much so #why the fuck are you reading this its literally just my batshit crazy down bad simping for a fictional character