#I truly mean this was my special interest

[albino-whumpee]

Finished watching the space kitties movie and I got thoughts.

I hate the story of avatar. It doesn’t make sense! Compels me tho.

I have said this since I watched it the first time. What I liked about the movie was the world. I guess that’s the only thing the narrative did for me. (Think that the world was that captivating)

Anyways, I watched this movie last time when I was like 15? 13? However, don’t be fooled. By then I had already watched it more than 50 times. 50 of those from a terribly recorded pirated movie my parents bought me. So I know the story inside and out, but I was a kid and holy fuck, I would throw that kid off a cliff anytime. I wanna think my critical thinking has improved since then.

The Pocahontas storyline is absolutely true, in the same amount that it is a fantasy for the main character. New world, new body, new people to make an impression on. Kinda isekai ahahah.

The way things fall in the best course of events to have a dramatic twist later is like patchwork for a story full of holes. I mean, the movie has the “i see you” and “open your eyes” motif all throughout it, but what do they mean inside the story itself?

Connection.

This is so blatant in everything from the way the protagonist gets into the program, the function of everything in the planet, to how the avatars work. To how the protagonist, an alien puppet, becomes a part of their people.

That is the dream of one Jake Sully. His dreams of flying were about fleeing? About being free to do as he pleased? About stopping being “himself” and be something else entirely and yet be seen as who he was?

It’s funny a story that is about connection relies heavily in the question of “who are you really?” And runs with the option “I wanna be the second version of myself that’s completely fake”

Escapism.

No wonder I loved this movie when I was young.

To me, the story is one big beautiful dream that has the potential to become a nightmare.

But if we kinda dig deeper into some things, there was so much wasted potential.

- The avatars are created using dna from humans and the kitties. But there’s really never information that talks about the avatars state when not in use. It’s taking a big ass leap to say “neural connections is what makes a consciousness a person. How that synapses happens is unique to each individual and can be recreated even in another brain”. But running with it…

- Avatars are an incredible project if thinking about permanently switching the brain where the connection happens. Imagine that. A new body to transfer your consciousness to. Forever. Blue kitties is just a form you could have.

- Avatars are incapable of forming their own consciousness? Can they wake up from their dream? The movie shows the death of an avatar controller but doesn’t show what happens to the avatar. Did it die of natural causes a few days later? Or did it die alongside its controller? It’s so creepy to think it’s a biological suit.

- That brings me to another thing. The native kitties knew about the puppets and were disgusted by them, butttt, they don’t really act logically when the protagonist says “I wanna learn” because they go “…we wanna learn from you too. Come! Be part of our tribe! :)” like..??? Where is the hostility??? It pops on and off as the story sees fit and that’s so annoying. (And the trying to upload all of someone into another body? I mean, I would have loved to see the thought process for that)

- It’s kinda awkward to see the “let’s learn from you” phase of the story be written like that after so much whump reading. As if the character was trusted from the beginning, he wasn’t observed. He was literally pulled to learn from them rather than them learn from him. It’s such a big loophole and I think if it had been exploited a bit more, giving time and more thought to the protagonist actions to get their trust, it would have been great. Maybe even showing more than a one second attempt to reach by some random kiddo being intercepted by her parents would have been amazing to show this. (I’m aware that this was supposed to be shown with the other guy, but the lack of solitary moments because the girl was always with him muddled it up)

- People don’t blend in into the culture like that and I hate there was no cultural shock shown in order to keep the escapism motif. Like damn, that’s the best nonverbal way to show someone has to wake up!!!

- Also, the protagonist is supposed to be no much brain only brawn and with a big need to escape his life. So his actions make sense, but in a way, gah, an smarter protagonist would have been cool to see. Our regular guy trope is not so fun when our regular guy is modeled after a mediocre white man.

- No, but the fact that the guy’s personality was a big part of the conflict pisses me off. If you wanna show there’s an amazing world you wanna and should protect that’s ~real~ then why cater to this specific dude’s fantasy? Because he is owed that much? Because he is the protagonist?? His problems got solved too easy to be satisfactory. (Even in the war?!)

Sorry for the word vomiting but if anything this movie has left me with yet another great idea for a puppet whumpee horror story. :D

#avatar james cameron #apologies for the sudden influx of posts about this #please blacklist the first tag if #you don’t wanna hear me ramble about it #avatar as a concept is really great #but the execution of the movie….. #I think it would be greater as a series #could make many things have better explanations #anyways #puppet whumpees my beloved #whump #movie essay #jejsjs #I truly mean this was my special interest

[qsmpbutwithsignlanguage]

QSMP artists who draw egg designs that aren't quite the fandom norm, I love you.

QSMP artists who draw the eggs as African, or Afro-Latina, or Arab/Middle Eastern, I love you. QSMP artists who draw Chayanne with 4c hair wound back in braids and dark skin, I love you. QSMP artists who draw Pomme with a dark complexion and a hijab, I love you. QSMP artists who draw Empanada as East/Southeast Asian, or wasian, or a mix between Asian and Latina, I love you. QSMP artists who draw Tilín with white hair, or darker skin, or features that match up with Luzu's a bit more, I love you. QSMP artists who draw the eggs with varying body types and clothing styles and poses, I love you.

I know that your designs might be uncommon, and they might not fit the quote unquote 'fandom norm', but they're so cool to see. Some of my favorite fanart has been with QSMP eggs that don't look like the typically design-and while the typical design is still absolutely lovely, don't feel like you need to conform to it. The eggs have no canon design. They have widely spread fanon ones, but those are only common because we, the fans, made them common. Draw what you'd like, because it's incredible to watch from the sidelines as casual competitive fanart reblogger.

#like really #don't feel like you have to draw the fanon design #go crazy #they're minecraft eggs #just have fun with it #draw a bit of yourself; a bit of what you wish you could see; or just draw whatever you're interested in #make it fun for yourself #it's your art and it's not like anything is *canon* #I truly mean it when I say some of my favorite fanart has been of the eggs not looking like the typical fanon design #there's a QSMP artist I absolutely idolize who draws Tilín with white hair and yellow eyes and I have never seen someone draw them like tha #there's another animator that tones down Juanaflippa's paleness a bit; makes her skin tone a bit more of a mix between ElMariana and Slime #rather than a closer reflection of only Slime #and I left a lengthy comment where that was one of the points #genuinely go crazy #the world is your oyster; they're minecraft eggs #have fun with it #qsmp #qsmp eggs #chayanne the egg #pomme the egg #empanada the egg #tilin the egg #tilín the egg #qsmp positivity #sorta #I'll go with it #inspired by a post routeriver made but I built off it a bit more #the post being about drawing the eggs as asian or partially asian #special shout out to mailb0xbunii for their incredible standout character designs; you never fail to be remarkable #qsmp chayanne

[licantropa]

Happy Holidays!!

#Mianite #I’d like to apologize for the tag essay you don’t gotta read all that idk what happened #you know its interesting how red has called jordan ‘skipper Sparklez’ implying that he places them on the same level #especially since both of them have messed with capsize’s ship. but jordan places himself on the same level as capsize #because theyre both captains (which stops being true since capsize demotes him to boatswain) #and capsize makes Tom a captain meaning she places him on the same level as herself (Tom is a captain because he owns a ship btw) #(which btw is why capsize was like ‘you’re leaving my crew?’ to Jordan when he got the ss jerry but technically since he says the ship is #‘for capsize’s fleet’ it belongs to her) #I think the issue with Jordan and Capsize is that he doesn’t actually like her as an individual but as an idea #that idea being ‘having a teammate’ because it’s just been him up until that point. #arguably jordan doesn’t really care about capsizes feelings on things examples of this are #her saying no to getting married but he like ignores that and continues on with the idea that they’re together/ going to get married. #him throwing gold at her and assuming that was all it took to get a date out of her instead of asking (like everyone’s given her gold he #ain’t special) and the ss jerry which was made to impressive her but it’s in a color he likes and also he named it #also him stepping over capsizes boundaries and kissing her #me personally I will not write them having a positive relationship because Jordan’s ruined it for himself truly #I think we as a society need to put more blame on Jordan when it comes to capsizes death by the way #like while he wasn’t the only one in the room BUT he was the only one capable #Tucker was stuck in a hole Tom was being a bitch in the background Red was paralyzed in fear #and when Capsize gets threatened you know what he says? ‘Skipper you gonna do something’ (something along those lines anyways I don’t fully #remember) like he let Furia fucking villain monologue are you serious??? #also it’s way more interesting that they don’t get along #or maybe i just like issues idk #feel free to disagree ofc

[posletsvet]

So—

Being eighteen was great, can't wait to see what being nineteen will show!!

#no but truly #18th was the best year of my life so far #despite the insane levels of stress and torturous academic workload that going through the finals was #i started talking to people after years of proper communication with only my sister #for a brief while I was even brave enough to share my thoughts with the world #it was delightful #i made friends on my own which is something I've never been able to do before #i met you guys #my dearly beloved mutuals!!!! <33 #i made art and started feeling something about it again #i created so much I didn't even think I was capable of something like that #me and my friends created entire worlds in our minds #as well as loads of characters which i love dearly!! #i mean it's not really mine to call my achievement but it feels so incredibly special to be a part of something like that #i reignited genuine interest inside of myself towards life and even picked up a couple of new special interests #i read and watched so many great stories #oh yeah I finished school so good riddance to that part of my life hehe #i enrolled into one of the best universities in the country which still feels insanely unreal #took a gap year #me and my sister travelled on our own and were able to finally meet our internet friends which is the flaking best thing in the world #worked two jobs with an occasional third one to save up a bit #i'll be moving out of my home city this year which scares the shit out of me but is still so so amazing #there were and still are tragedies around me that split my heart in half with fury and despair #and I feel unfairly privileged to be granted so much joy in my own life #so yeah it's been one hell of a year #sorry for getting so insufferably emotional but I love all this so unbelievably much #i love you all folks :')

[hearthomelesbian]

for anyone who has been following project voltage (pokemiku), an interview with subaki matoba (planning and production leader) and wataru sasaki (miku's creator!) has been posted on famitsu!

#really nice read! you can tell that everyone involved was genuinely passionate about the project #sniffles. my two oldest + longest running interests and they got combined in such a heartfelt and loving way. it means so much to meee #project voltage is the first time i've felt truly excited about pokemon in such a long time and it truly beat my expectations #the creative freedom each artist involved was given really shines through #ough... pokemon... miku... 🥺🥹😭 #i want to go back in time and show 7 year old me these songs and this art!! i would have loved it then and i love it now!!! #its extra special to me because it wasnt just that vocaloid in general was a childhood interest #but my friends and i each had our own voca and miku was specifically My vocaloid so it truly feels extra special #aaaah!! anyway. give it a read if u can! #pokemon #hatsune miku #project voltage #pokemiku #elliot lore #fave #alt text

[thebeautifulfantastic]

<3

#been thinking a lot about how whenever i have a dream or an idea marinating in my brain for long enough it then becomes something that i am #determined to pursue. and that no one can really dissuade me from #it simply becomes a permanent part of my creative direction in life #i guess you could say that's kind of the same thing as having a special interest but not QUITE #like for example. what i'm thinking of right now is my desire to start a band #and i come up with a lot of crazy ideas on a day to day basis but a good amount of them end up being simply fleeting or dictated by my mood #the ones that stay though... those are the one that actually HAPPEN #i've wanted to sing in a band for at least a year now #to be honest it's probably been longer but it's been at least a year of me being consciously aware of it #and it just made me realize. this desire has stuck around in my brain for quite a while now #and i think that means it is going to happen someday #i don't know exactly how yet because the way i originally thought it might happen (me going to music college) didn't work out #but it's been a year and i'm still thinking about it and keeping my eyes open in case i meet the right people to make music with #i know from experience that when i put my mind to something i WILL get it done #in the sense that i will surprise myself with how stubborn i can be when it comes to not stopping chasing my dreams #and i've had big goals in the past that i did achieve because of this #i'm also like. surprisingly adaptable??? i only recently learned that about myself but i be pulling Plan B's out of my sleeves #so that's all to say -- i'm choosing to believe that i will start my band someday and it will be better than i can imagine right now #and in general i'm choosing to believe that the things i truly love and truly want in my life will only become more clear over time #even if i'm confused and lost at times NOW... if i keep moving forward in time it will all make sense #and a lot of times situations do work out exactly the way they were meant to but in the most unexpected of ways #i don't know how coherent this all was but yeah #starting a band is only the most recent example #belle speaks

[seventh-district]

why have i suddenly been gripped with the desire to get back into fishkeeping

#Seven.txt #fish stuff #fishkeeping #fish keeping #fishblr #i’m not complaining cause i’ve lowkey missed feeling so passionate about the hobby but. my brain couldn’t have picked a less convenient tim #me: trying to spend less money and manage my time better #my brain: hey hey hey you know what you should do? you should get back into a really expensive and time-consuming hobby!!! it’ll be fun!!! #and i mean. it’s not like i truly ever got out of it i just sort of dialed back the number of tanks and fish i have over the past few years #so i’ve currently got a bunch of empty tanks and equipment sitting around collecting dust #i do still have three fish that i thought would be my last for a While. i’ve had them for a number of years and they’re all old by now #so i’m just trying to help them live the rest of their days as comfortably as they can #well. Paprika and Thing One are near their end but in spite of the Mystery Growth on Thing Two’s head that little guy is still doing fine #so he could still be here for awhile. who knows. but anyways #fishkeeping was one of my first really intense and long lasting special interests/hyperfixations so it’s such a strange feeling #to have it come back so strongly and for no obvious reason. but. that’s the nature of fixations i suppose! #insert Drake and Josh ‘I do not control the hyperfixation’ meme here #anyways. the project to finally set up the 75gal that’s been sitting empty for years is finally underway!!! so that’s exciting! #now i’ve got to make a list of things i need and find somewhere to set up a quarantine tank. hrmmm #and also cry over the fact that the filter i need is 200 dollars ahahahaaaaa why did my brain have to latch onto this hobby oh my god #oh man. i’ve gotta order the snails and activated media before the weather gets any warmer or they’ll cook in the bag on the way here ugh #This Post Brought To You By- me sitting here refreshing my email every 10 mins. waiting for Cynthia to let me know if she still has #these two adorable Sakura Ranchus avaliable to purchase. i mean. they were listed in Sep. 2021 so i will be Shocked if she still has them #but maybe the universe will smile upon me and i'll get lucky!

[hollyslangblr]

it is so easy for me to get the urge to start learning a language jesus christ😭 i was just watching a twitch stream where chat started talking about german and now i really wanna learn german

#theoretically this is a good thing #but the issue is it never lasts #i just start learning a billion languages #learn how to get by in a select few #and then forget most of that when the hyperfixation passes #the only languages i can truly use are spanish and portuguese #the two that i’ve actual lessons in #i mean i did do french in school for like 6 years #but british primary school doesn’t tend to teach languages very well and secondary school doesn’t do much better #and i’ve forgotten most of it anyway #i’m not too bad at understanding written french but that’s largely thanks to english spanish and portuguese #anyway language learning is most certainly my strongest special interest #langblr #language learning #actually autistic

[wavernot4love]

recap of wavernot4love's epic thursday, well.... thursday last night (aka the first day of their tour in syracuse w/ gel, pinkshift, & vinnie caruana), let's freakin go!!!

- geoff seemed SO happy and he was really thriving off our energy it was so nice and infectious that man has been one of my favorite frontpeople ever since i saw thursday at adjacent

- geoff bringing back the bit from adjacent explaining emo nights as unfortunate places where people get drunk and make out to the worst music you could make out to and "just when you think it can't get any worse, a guy turns to you and starts criticizing you on the difference between third and fourth wave emo.... and that's when they play this song" [immediately goes into understanding]

- also the THING he does that i get really excited about where he points the mic during the chorus of understanding idk it's wholesome (you can kinda see it in the clip)

- geoff bringing up it downpouring the whole day and saying it was fitting for thursday and then asking if we'd be down to bring a little party (because even these dudes have a little party in them) and then said they were gonna play their version of a song about new year's and well. naturally, jbny went TOO hard as always. thursday goes heavy may be my favorite take on thursday.... what can i say, the boys can write BANGERS!!! anyways, i always (i say thisblike i have seen them more than twice) go so very hard for this one especially.

- SIGNALS OVER THE AIR!! remains one of my favorite live songs of theirs. neat how much it's been turned into a sort of (?) protest song + celebration. i love geoff's intro every time and i love the way that man loves people

- really cool drastic transition into fast to the end w the whole band suddenly walking back onstage to join geoff and go into it

- geoff is the secret third brother of madball & agnostic front (i am feeling silly and will not be giving context on this one)

- deep cuts were played!!! like beyond the visible spectrum. geoff was telling a story that feels too personal to go into detail here but he did end it by saying music is the way he ecperiences spirituality since he was never able to connect w that kinda thing in the traditional way and that really stuck with me dude

- also steps ascending!

- (after the encore, /lh) "we go back there, die for a minute, and then when we hear you chant thursday enough we resurrect ourselves"

- war all the time felt. very special geoff was going on before it about the thursday dudes having saved his life and being grateful for us for being there so they can share this together for 26 years now and. man it was special i just kept making hand hearts @ geoff. also he said something about us making room for some dudes from a little state called new jersey or something along those lines fhhfhd

and the wavernot4love specialties...

- my bullets lockscreen & past lives homescreen shining in the air every time i went to go into the camera app to take a video .... Yea . geoff and tucker know exactly what i am

- badly yelling "IT'S A NEWSPAPER TRAGEDY" while geoff just like. calmly sort of spoken word'd it

- I GOT A TUCKER THURSDAY KANDI!! aka what i will b wearing every tucker thursday for the foreseeable future

- didn't get to meet anybody unfortunately this time but i did continue my ongoing unintentional bit of acting like a cryptid around tucker (homie came out just to go to the bus and i didn't wanna bother him since he wasn't fully stopping/was carrying stuff so i stuck my head down at a 90 degree angle to stare at my phone while basically pushing myself into the window behind me dhhdh) ((the first cryptid incident was dunes toronto 23 when i went to go get my posters & cd out of my car after the show a block away then went to go back by the buses & on the way the two of us somehow wound up waiting at the same crosswalk so i tried to hide i was a dunes person and probably just looked twitchy and still like an absolute dunesie))

get out to a show!

dates:

link to get tix:

#basically i highly recommend going 2 thursday world #both physically and figuratively #i mean it though this show was and band is so special #i don't know what i would have done without it as this past month post-tourdust has been. Rough #i truly need shows to remotely thrive as this stuff has been my primary interest for going on ten years and without them #i simply do not feel very alive #while they all do both times i've seen thursday specifically it's caused me to experience a truly remarkable feeling of. liveliness? #not trying to sound far out here just genuinely have stood there both times like. wow. this is what it feels like 2 wholly enjoy being aliv #i definitely credit geoff's demeanor i mentioned in this post for at least part of that #point is just please do go see for yourself get out to a show info/link is at the bottom of this post #wavernot4love gets 2 the gig #wavernot4lovetalksmusic #thursday #thursdayband #geoff rickly #tucker rule #post hardcore #thursday band

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

#theres something viciously... the word for it seems immature-- about the attitude of #'kindness&happiness is the result of inexperience or a total lack of bitterness at life for the conditions of existing' lmao. #maybe its bc the vast majority of the ppl ive met who openly hold these views are not only snide&selfabsorbed #they v clearly have not actually dealt w anything that isnt actually laughable in the grand scheme of things lmao. #like sorry mommy&daddy were mean to you growing up. sorry ppl picked on your or whatever so now you think its your godgiven right #to be shitty to everyone you feel didnt have it as hard as you did lmao. sorry you had to go to church for a couple years #&then when your parents let you leave the religion they didnt abandon it w you out of solidarity lmao. #sorry that someone cheated on you or whatever&now every person youre attracted to needs to put up w your abuse bc you cant #be a grown up&grow the fuck up lmao. #truly the only thing im REALLY sorry about is the fact that these ppl are so fucking loud for no fucking reason LMAO. #like if you hate everyone so much then pls by all means DONT MAKE ANYONE DEAL W YOUR LAME ASS. #trust no one is actually interested in hearing about how much more advanced you are as a person bc you tripped one time&ppl laughed #or whatever other extremely pathetic thing that you not only think gives you the right to be shitty to ppl you dont know #you ALSO think that it makes you fucking special when really if your entire identity is based off how much more enlightened you are #bc youre an asshole you dont actually have a personality or any form of depth. #youre one of those cardboard cut-outs that has preset vocal recordings that go off w motion detection #&hopefully someone puts you out w the trash to save everyone else the trouble lmao. #... ppl have not been appreciating how much effort i put into self control recently lmao. #&that isnt necessarily a bad thing or even a thing worth noting most times but like. #i have been in the mood for Blood lately&i will eventually stop choosing my own if continues to seem to be way more useful #to go for the throat lmao.

[sgkjd]

what really hurts, now that it's been a few years since i realized i'm autistic and since i've been deepening and widening my understanding of myself and what works for me all over again basically from scratch - i see my parents and other family members from older generations not being aware of their neurodivergencies at all, and so having these toxic internalized immovable and unchangeable (mostly social) rules of "how it should be": imposing them on themselves and draining themselves out, as well as imposing them on everyone around and often hurting people they love; not knowing what's the cause of their anger, how to manage it and still continuing to perpetuate such behaviors.

what's interesting is that if i ask every single one of them why are they still doing it if it's not what they believe to be right/their truth and if it causes emotional pain to others - they can give me an in depth analysis of how it's really just a norm and an etiquette, and how it really doesn't mean anything to them but they just have to do it and push through it since it's what they were taught and it's accepted to do so in our society unless they want to seem rude and mean. it's like they know it's stupid, but there's no, and even cannot be, way out of this.

this comes both with very destructive beliefs such as being transphobic, homophobic and ableist (the paradox here lol) but also with more simple things like having these unnecessary social behaviors or, in other words, having adopted and learnt the neurotypical way of communicating and so policing themselves and others into talking/behaving this and this way only.

personally, i'm not a person for who saying hellos and goodbyes comes naturally. and i never do it unless i make it a conscious effort (with people i see for the first time, for example) because in comfortable settings i just completely forget about it since it doesn't mean anything and simply don't have any substance to me nor are useful as a means of communication. hence i don't waste my energy on them when i don't have to.

however, this one middle-aged person from my rather close family everyday goes out of their way to distinctly say hi and bye whenever they come in contact with me. and for the longest time it made me so anxious and unnecessary tense to feel like i have to reciprocate them by doing the same. it was stressful to the point where i knew i'll be seeing them and i kept anxiously waiting trying to not forget to say hi. it was bothering me so much that recently i explained my relationship with hellos and goodbyes to said person and asked them to not feel upset or feel like i'm angry at them whenever i don't respond back with a hello to their hello. they said "i just think it's polite to do so, it's what i've been taught when i was a kid. i do feel like it's mean to not reciprocate with a hello back to me. but i guess i'll keep in mind what you said." they seemed to clearly imply how they know these words don't mean much but they are doing it since "it's how people are supposed to communicate" and at the same time they expect everyone else to do so and it's bad bad if other people don't do it.

there's nothing to conclude here. while i took an example that's on a lighter side, it's a strange feeling to keep on realizing how as a kid i was neglected and hurt the most by none other than autistic and/or adhd people (excluding other conditions that make them neurodivergent) - namely my parents and grandparents, the people closest to me while growing up.

#my mom lately keeps realizing a lot of things about herself #once she said she truly forgets about people no matter how much she loves them if they don't actively need her help #meaning that if you don't clearly say to her that you're having trouble meaning you don't require immediate attention from her #she naturally cannot give attention to you unless you climb to the 1st spot in her importance list by needing her help #otherwise she forgets about everything that's not the first like 2 or 3 places 😭😭😭 #no wonder i went on without my struggles being noticed given i never directly asked her to help me ..... #i cant even feel angry at her bc how can i be angry with traits i myself have 😭 #although this experience did end up in me having a special interest in human psychology etc #so now im hyper aware of the way people are and why they do what they do #; words generated by me #actually autistic

[scattered-winter]

WINTER. i need to you know that you talk about the things you love with such joy and enthusiasm and excitement that it makes me want to be excited about them too, even though i know literally nothing about them. anyway congrats on the michael-bay-less transformers movie <333

LMAO I'M GLAD IT BRINGS YOU JOY <3333333333

the truth is I have ,,, sooo many mixed feelings about transformers. like. it's part of a much bigger universe filled with lore and it's like. star wars or dc comics-sized. and I simply do not have room in my brain for ANOTHER comics-sized media because that would be. too much. so I just forced myself through the worst movie franchise in history to cherry-pick things that I liked from it and made up everything else. <3

but like. first of all my inner 8 year old goes absolutely buckwild for transformers. they're GIANT ROBOT SUPERHEROES!!! that can TURN INTO CARS!!!!!!! and sometimes they have SWORDDSSSS!!!!!!!!! and as much as I can't stand the movies, the cgi with the transformations is soooooo <3333333333333333 and the transformer designs are all soooo cool too !!!!!!!

and the thing that really gets me about the transformers movies is that they have SO MUCH POTENTIAL to not only make inner 8 year old me the happiest guy on the planet but to also tell a very compelling story!!!! the autobots were forced from their home planet and most of their race was killed by the war that tore their planet apart!!!! all that's left of this once powerful race of incredibly powerful beings is a small handful of exhausted soldiers who are hiding out on earth because they're being hunted all over the galaxy!!!! and even after losing everything, they all still decide to fight for earth and protect humanity from the same fate that took their families, their people, and their entire planet away from them!!!!!!! I'm literally biting !!!!! and after setting up that premise michael bay just. didn't follow through. and the movies are filled with utter bullshit storylines and every autobot's personality gets completely rewritten every single movie because the entire plot revolves around michael's bland self insert characters. the movies are soooooooooo bad but they could be sooooo good and that's my entire mental illness about transformers summed up in a single sentence.

but anyway. I don't know anything about the director of the new movie or if they're any good, but the only way they could be worse than bay is if they let a toddler keysmash on a typewriter <3 I'd even argue that'd be a BETTER alternative than michael bay's directing <33 but anyway. I don't like how optimus looks in the trailer because like I said, the transformer designs in the bay movies are, unfortunately, really really cool. and the new movie seems to have taken optimus' original design like in the toys and old cartoons, which is FINE but also ,,, I miss catboy optimus :(

like. say what you will about the og movies but they sure could design an autobot !!!!!!!! optimus just looks so ,, boxy in the trailer. and I definitely prefer his other design. but honestly I'd rather have a shittier-looking optimus without bay than a badass-looking optimus with him. so.

I'm overall very very happy with how bumblebee looks though <3333 but to be fair he's my silly little guy skrunkle gal pal so whatever he does will always have me giggling and twirling my hair <333 he has never done anything wrong in his life <33333333

#i didn't mean to make this so long but they're my BLORBS. my FUNKY ROBOT BABYGIRLS. #and i feel so so so so so strongly about them <3333333 #also as a rule whenever i say ''transformers movies'' the bumblebee movie is automatically exempt. #its the only transformers movie to exist <33333 #and again. see above. bumblebee is My Little Dude. so that might play a heavy factor. #i truly do not know. i see bumblebee onscreen and i get hearts in my eyes and start giggling and kicking my legs like a schoolgirl #he's my blorbo #my sweet cheese soldier boy. #SO ANYWAY. I'M GONNA BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS (lie) #honestly its probably a good thing i dont have a big enough attention span to actually get into the Deeper Lore of transformers #because i would be sooooo insufferable <333 #its best for everyone that i remain on the outskirts ignoring most of the movies and making up my own canon <333 #i hope y'all are having fun w the transformers shows and comics. could not be me <3333 #leo 🌻 #i'm very glad you like seeing me get excited about things !!!! #i have . soooo many special interests that are sleeper agents just Waiting to be activated. #and at the slightest provocation i Can And Will be as obnoxious as possible about them <33 #transformers

[prettyboykatsuki]

idk if this has been asked before, but do you think you’ll ever grow out of mha fandom? this is just a genuine question of mine so please don’t take it the wrong way!! <3

i thought i would have by now 😭

truthfully idk but i doubt it.. like even so i phase in and out but i always come back to bnha so 🫶🏽. ive been into anime my whole life bc of my siblings. i was reading hq and watching it since its inception and i used to run a tumblr for hq wayyy back like 2014. my friend ran the first kurooaka week ever LMAO so ive always been into anime so to speak and always will be

but bnha is the first fandon ive EVER taken this much time to invest in actively LMAO. like it sounds dramatic but there hasnt been a single fandom whose meta and content ive cared so deeply about as embarrassing as that is

this makes me sound insane but it’d probably be hard for me to let go of it even if i really wanted to💀 haikyuu used to be the most media ever and i still read and keep up with it but bnha has somehow surpassed the anime of my youth in the span of the 2/3 years ive been interested in it

the only thing i can really picture is maybe me being passively interested and a dry spell for content but bnha has proved to be very special to me unfortunately

#return to sender #to give you an idea i consider a special interest not just like a fixation 🥲 #it’s actually a big reason i talked to my psych about an autism diagnosis AJGNAJFNSJJF #this is so embarrassing please look away #as corny as it is anime and media were very important to me #i was a really weird kid lol so i used to hole up and watch anime all summer for years and years #ill always be interested in anime in general like yeah #but bnha accidentally became very special to me 🥲 #i hate talking about this im so embarrassing like truly hashtag losercore #ANYWAYS SORRY FOR BEING CRINGE I REALLY CARE SO MUCH ABOUT THIS MEDIA AND I DONT MEAN TO BE ANNOYING ABOUT IT SORRY #i try really hard to not be annoying about it

[cinnabeat]

thinking about the rs arc in pokespe

#i really liked thr vibes going on in that arc #idk why #i want to say its when the stakes really went up a couple notches in the whole manga #it just felt more hmm. like the danger was well and truly real #i guess cuz rgby and gsc were more personal towards the drxholders #and in rs it was literally a world catastrophe lmao #and the split povs between ruby and sapphire was super interesting #i feel like the plot really kicked up a notch then you know? like characterization and alcharacter arcs and the complex plot #emerald is a good arc too but i like it more for emeralds characterization and development rather than the plot itself #cuz it piggy backed off of frlg which was ALSO good just cuz of the symbolism and metaphors and whatever the fuck #like the THEMES MAN omg so good #but yeah rs is by no means my fave arc nor the best one (thats bw for both) (not bw2 tho that sucked ass) #but rs is still like. i was gonna say second fave but thats actually dppt lmao so third fave #i havent really read xy but i heard it was good but i think the quality from blxy onwards sucked #or bw2 onwards sucked #i think bc theres literally a pokemon game every what 1 1/2 years? super unsustainable when ur trying to make a story out of the games #although sm was pretty interesting before i stopped reading #idk i guess it just started sucking more bc like. the coveted dexholder title is just no longer a thing #like they still get titles but having a pokedex just isnt special anymore which makes sense chronologically but at the same time its like #idk i just miss seeing old characters #like u know how percy jackson shows up in literally all the books whether hes plot relevant or not #i always joke about wanting him to rest but it IS nice to see him regardless and helping younger demigods #like i miss that about pokespe #like the original decholders stopped making appearances in main title arcs in dppt but their influence was still THERE you know? #idk how to articulate this properly #tldr i think writing quality has dropped and i feel awful for thinking that #michi tag

[5283]

hehehehehe my dearest friend always goes out of her way to send me something skz related on my bdays while she's not familiar w them at all, i must say I FEEL SO LOVED T–T

#when ppl know my special interests it truly means so much to me i might explode from happiness #its so easy to win me over like u just have to know what i like which im SO obvious about all the time #so when someone doesn't even do that much im like ???? but it's so easy?? what i like is literally right here???? #stray kids

[hopebreathes]

I JUST SAW THE LATEST LOOK INTO THE WICKED MOVIE OH GOD OH GOD IM VIBRATING OH GOD

#with the first look i was like 'oh....interesting' #BUT SEEING HOW MUCH LOVE THE DIRECTOR AND CAST PUT INTO THIS #SEEING CLIPS AND BEING LIKE OH THAT'S THIS SCENE THAT'S THAT SCENE #SEEING MORE OF THE SETS #OH GOD IM SO EXCITED IM GOING TO THROW UP #to clarify exactly what this means to me: wicked was The special interest of mine for YEARS #i was truly obsessed with it #i know this musical inside and out #it is something that is so intrinsically a part of me that if you erased my memories of this musical you would be erasing a very large chun #of who i am #this musical is so so so important to me #and at first i think i was keeping my expectations deliberately low because of how much this musical means to me #but just seeing that video and hearing them talk about the musical in a way that truly resonates with me #god im so excited now #im literally vibrating #kian talks