#I think I'll pick two so one more...!

[m-oshun]

Congratulations to @crownedinmarigolds to whom I humbly offer their lovely VtM OC Noa

#request and trade #my art #I think I'll pick two so one more...! #tyvm for following !!! #Idk what to tag

[kenobihater]

of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)

#len speaks #star wars #revenge of the sith #empire strikes back #the force awakens #not tagging more films than that bc i cant b bothered. incoming tag ramble ahead bc i have sw brainrot rn and im making it everyones prob❤️ #i rlly struggled 2 remember if id watched tfa or aotc more. i went w/ tfa bc it was formative to me as a teen and ive seen it probably 6ish #times? whereas aotc was the first sw movie i remember (specifically the scene of obiwan serving c*nt in the bar lmao) but i've only seen it #for sure 4.5 and maybe 5.5 times. the .5 is from when i got bored after obi-wan's scene ended and ran off to go play in the mud or smthn 😭 #i'm sure tfa will eventually get surpassed in number of rewatches by aotc and rots bc i don't fw the direction of the ST but that's my #current ballpark estimate of my total number of rewatches #as an adult tho if i just wanna watch a star war i'll go with aotc bc it's fun and ends semihappily and i can turn my brain off for the #spinny lightsabers. it's great background noise or for if you're sick or whatever. rots on the other hand? i won't talk through that unless #i'm quoting it with my brother and i am LOCKED IN 100% entirely entranced by it all #i almost picked rogue one for the best quality answer but i think the character writing is weaker and the facial cgi is creepy. esb beats #it by a hair imho bc of that. the vader hallway scene goes hard tho!!! #also i'm not covering shows or games or books or anything else in this post - simply the films. might ask abt shows later but that might #also give me hives bc so many of the shows suck ass and i don't rlly want ppl extolling the virtues of t.bb in my notes 💀 #and yes i do think one's enjoyment and one's opinion of quality are two things that often overlap. but sometimes you just like something #bad and that's awesome. like rots is the best of the prequels by a large margin and i adore the opening and characters and many of the #scenes but that doesn't mean it's the best star wars has to offer ykwim? it's my specialest most favoritest sw movie but that doesn't blind #me to the dialogue lmfaooo

[girlwiththegreenhat]

Why the fuck are people on Twitter upset about nonbinary robots. Transformers are aliens, why would they follow another species gender binary based on reproduction when they don't even reproduce sexually. If anything, ALL the robots should use they/them.

#liz blogs #transformers #i need to finish earthspark #conservatives won't survive when aliens come to earth #imagine going to another planet and trying to translate pronouns #but either theres more than two or theyre not based on reproduction #how do you figure out if youre a glerp or a blongo or a dee when you dont even have a yundle #and guess what else. if the robots all have one gender. and they use different Earth Pronouns #that dont line up with - in conservative terms - the pronouns they Should have #guess what. all the robots are trans now. #this is probably fucking incoherent i just woke up but man i hate when people think the universe revolves around humans #smash the gender binary to pieces #i write this from an angle to shit on their stupid argument i know nonbinary people can use gendered pronouns as well #the point is its hard to translate. frankly we also deserve big macho bots picking she her because it sounds nice #and little femmebots picking he him because it sounds cool and they want to seem Tough in earth terms #hasbro hire me i love robots and I'll write a transformers show so good it'll make conservatives literally explode

[princekirijo]

POINTS ‼️‼️NEW RIKU ICON‼️ REAL‼️ GRAHHHHH HE LOOKS AWESOME 🔥🔥🔥

Ahh thank you Misty :3c

Here is the uh full icon for those who want to see it properly 👉👈

He's my silly little goose :3 my funny boy

Also uhm a bonus and a little lore drop I'd planning to make for a while undercut ehe

Tada this is Riku's actual eye colour! Much similar to Mitsuru's :3 He wears eye contacts throughout a lot of Captain AU's story and if you ask him why he will give you a different answer every time ehe

#asks #misty-wisp #riku kirijo #oc tag #i cant believe im doing this lmao #but if im gonna do it ill do it scared #but tada riku's official look!! #well aside from teh outfit i'll explain that in a bit #but i can safely say i am 100% happy with this design now :3c #his outfit is kinda what im thinking he'd wear in the catt au! he refuses to wear the actual gekkoukan uniform so hes gonna wear the varsit #jacket instead! <- 100% my personal bias for the jacket i own it and its the most comfortable thing i own #and the ring has lore but eh i wont go into it now #i was gonna post the full doodle page but u know what baby steps #and yeah lmaooo riku actually has brown eyes surprise #the actual reason for the contacts thing is because i couldn't pick between the two eye colours i really like both #but brown eyes is more realistic so its his true look ehe #and uhm yeah idk what i was doing with the expression but nico pointed out it looks like one of yukari's sprites LMAO #unintentional on my part but he is a mama's boy #depnding on how this goes ill post the rest of the doodles #but wow can u guys believe the last time i posted proper art was 2021 #not including the lil character bio sheet i did in 2022 that was a lil doodle #but ehm nico said my arts improved and my gf is always praising my art so im uhm gonna share #i need a new art tag tbfh

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

i love spanish conferences. for the london one the fee is £90 (£45 if you're a student) and i have no idea if as a speaker i also have to pay the fee or not. in this one in spain i'm planning to speak at attendance is free and if you want to be a speaker you have to pay a total of 10€ as fee.

#once again. southern europe supremacy #this is what we are talking about when we demand making academia and culture accessible #anyways i have no idea if i'll attend #because if they pick me. it's on may 3rd #i'm still in trento technically by then but. if i have that. idk what i'll do i'll have to consult my parents #cause i was planning on staying until may 8th cause there's a seminar on that day #but i could just leave earlier #the contract is for two months #beyond april i can stay until i want #moreover. the conference is in salamanca #so that's another problem. getting there #i say problem i'm sure there's a train i can hop onto #but it's one more variable to look into #whatever. i'll just apply and worry later #cause the conference is very cool. it's organized by a phd student organization and it is made to present your phd proposals to the public #mostly other professors #to get feedback and stuff #so that's cool i think

[silenthillbunni]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore #we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life #i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible #if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green #and later this year i think i might change my name #it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random #i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel #really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am #to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate #but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it #but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so #when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy #i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that #also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk..... #rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els #sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w #not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else #but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway #that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but #all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever #i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right? #i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not #im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help #it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning #nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my #feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions #i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary

[luvsavos]

random vent(?) in the tags, feel free to ignore i just have a lot of pent up emotions to get out today apparently

#mar.txt #it's weird being aro(?) and yet also longing for a relationship. maybe its just bc almost all of my friends are in one #maybe it's bc of how easily jealous i get #maybe its the fact that i'm constantly being reminded that i am nobody's most important person. there's always someone more important. #maybe it's just the all-consuming，gaping hole of loneliness within me #idk. #i don't even know if i AM actually aro or if i'm just so demi that i may as well be aro or if ive just had so many bad experiences that it #feels impossible for me to feel romantic attraction #a few of my ocs (shara and the alatreon) are how i think i'd describe myself; aro，but willing to be in a relationship provided the other #person isn't bothered by them being aro，bc they have their own equivalent to romantic feelings #i know i'll never have one though. for all my confidence and whatnot i still very much am insecure about my own loveability. because the #only thing life has shown me is that i very much am not loveable. all the way back in first grade ppl were already using me instead of #actually caring #'dating' me to make someone else jealous. so they could have a drug buddie. a fuck buddie. so they could try to manipulate me into things #because i was a young teenager desperate for validation and to feel like i mattered and belonged and they were nearly adults who knew they #could exploit that. i'm surprised i never had anything happen to me beyond being pressured into trying chew tobacco (awful and disgusting) #and doing it every time i was around my 'boyfriend' and his friends #the only two genuine relationships i had didn't last either; one lost feelings after three years and the other just sorta stopped talking to #me and iirc eventually picked up a boyfriend that was actually local instead of long distance #i am not worthy of love. i will never be loved in the way that my friends are. hell i won't ever even find a qpp(?). and that makes me sad. #to know i will always be alone. that i'm destined to die alone. but it is what it is i guess. i just wish it didn't bother me so much. #i wish i could be content in my loneliness and not be jealous of everyone around me. i wish i could accept that i will never be anybody's #most important person. that the only person i can or will ever be the most important to is myself. self love，yeah? ha. #maybe 2024 will have something in store for me. god i hope it does. but i doubt it will. more of my friends will get into relationships， #those already in them will stay in them and/or take a step forward in their relationship. and i will remain alone. just as i always have. #anyways. sorry vent over i'm just. ugh. upset today. emotions are stupid and i want a refund on them. i did not ask to be saddled with the #burden of feeling such intense，suffocating displacement and loneliness. i did not ask to feel these negative emotions so strongly. #i just want to be someone's most important person. i just want to matter.

[streetkid-named-desire]

Very rough draft wip update of the smut fic

“A couple deep spots that need stitches but it's otherwise fine,” V said. He was gentler with her than she was with him. He used gauze soaked with sterile saline water to clean the blood around the wound and flush any debris.

Bea wavered on her feet a little and he put his free hand on her waist to hold her steady. Once clean he could see it wasn't that bad and just needed a wound dressing.

“You have to adapt to the circumstances of the gig. Your timing was off. Mine wasn't. These aren't the controlled jobs with all the intel prepared for you by Arasaka you're so used to,” V hovered his hand over the cut. “Arasaka spoiled you and made you weak and forgetful.”

V gripped her shoulder making blood dribble down and out through the cut. He let it run over and between his fingers. As Bea opened her mouth to retort he shoved three fingers into her mouth and hooked his thumb under her chin. He jerked her towards him, the movement making her upper teeth brush against his finger and for a moment he realized what a precarious situation he'd put himself in.

Bea just smiled and lapped at the blood around his fingers, her firm tongue deftly swirling around and under, suckling down every last drop of her blood.

#two more scenes one in the living room and one in the bedroom #emotional support imagination playground #we'll see what i feel like doing after work if its vp or writing #i mean i can do both yeah #i think im gonna hold off on editing the vp i took last night and do the previews of all 20 poses #cause i at least want to get those consistent #maybe I'll do some artsy highlights of my favorites like retake the poolside table one #and the stepping on him one #theyre not bad i just want them in higher quality #but they all have to be 8mb for nexus so #i might do a collage like vesna did for the knives out pack #and then pick a few to highlight

[queenerdloser]

i'm going to see an apartment i really really like on wednesday (it is SO BIG! right in the neighborhood i like best! outside building is beautiful, on a tree-lined street, hardwood floors, so many windows!!) but i like. am trying to keep myself from getting too attached ahead of time bc it's just like a littleeee too expensive and i really should be realistic and get something about 100-200 dollars cheaper. but i love it soooo much, i want it so bad lmao.

#liveblogging life #it's a two-bedroom but it just squeaked within my budget #but plus utilities parking and pet rent (?) it'll be about 100 dollars over what i want to pay #and even then it's still on the upper range #like i can afford it - i double checked - but it means i'll have to be more careful with spending cash #and i'll only be able to put so much away in savings #idk man i'm kind of waiting until after i see it bc maybe i'll actually hate it in person #but it's going to be a serious debate on if i want to spend that much more on rent for a bigger beautiful apt #or if i'd rather save my cash on a smaller less beautiful apt so that i can buy other stuff and save for a house faster #bc like. i'm probably not going to move again for a while so wherever i go i want to make sure i really like it #and like this apt i have now i do really like but i did have to choose it bc i didnt really have any other options #whereas now i am pretty much an ideal renter so i think i have my pick of the litter so it means i can really afford to be choosy #idk idk this is stressful lmao #i have like eight showings scheduled for next week im hoping one of them seems like the one so i can go ahead and apply #also like if im going to end up spending so much on an apt shouldnt it be for an apt with a ton of amenities? like a washer/dryer #or balcony or community rooms or s/t. arghhhhhhh.

[sysig]

That’s not- y’know what, that’s probably an easier explanation actually (Patreon)

#Doodles #DQIX #Kuzu #Lol #For the record Kuzu is a cis guy - those are his wing scars haha #Been way too long since I've drawn them!! Needed to again #Now that I think of it tho hmm I wonder if they would be more vertical than horizontal....I'll have to do another anatomy study haha oh nooo #Mostly I just thought it'd be funny for certain individuals in his human team to not know about the whole Celestrian thing and Shenanigans #Kuzu's not shy about his body and since the scars are on his back he generally doesn't think about them #Past y'know - missing his wings :( #They're hard to touch and hard to see so he's able to forget about them for stretches at a time! For better and worse #Sometimes he doesn't notice them because he's too busy - sometimes because he's doing well #And sometimes it's almost like an avoidant thought because the reality of it is still painful poor lad #His priest buddy probably knows - she was probably the one who told him not to just Announce that he's an angel to everyone lol #Social mores? :D What are those? Some kind of fish? :D #But that leaves a bit of gap in the rest of the team's understanding of their leader's condition! Why does Kuzu act so weird sometimes? #I mean other than the fact that he's Kuzu lol there was a little bit of that up in the Observatory as well haha #Anyhow this teammate specifically! He's from Gleeba and his husband crossdresses so he's fairly familiar with the concept #Not the same but enough carryover to have picked up an understanding or two! #I feel like there's a lot of queerness in Gleeba to be picked through - the lesbian queen being the obvious watermark there lol #I've never actually played a male character in Gleeba so that will be an interesting first-time-through for me with Kuzu :D #Always getting up to something! Can't stop! Haha

[desperatepleasures]

WOOOO MY WATCH IS DONE AT THE REPAIR SHOP -> guy who has no time or energy to go pick it up

#ok once i eat dinner I'll figure out when i can pick it up #+ also order from the fancy weed place so i can kill two errands with one bus #edit: nah I'm gonna get my cartridges from the cheaper weed place i think. they have more variety and the prices are less horrifying lol

[mattodore]

using the grid in blender to try and create semi-accurate height differences based on alessandria and delphi's actual heights

#river dipping #i need to make delphi a little taller tho bc she has heels on <3 #there's only two more custom rig outfits i have to make after this...... #i'm going to copy four of the poses from that bound photoshoot and then i'll pick which ones i like after that #i might post all four but idk... i was thinking just to post two of them? #we'll see how it goes.... i feel a lot better today especially after my best friend lmk that she's feeling better today too so <3 #also it took me an hour in cas basically but i changed delphi's lip preset............................... #we'll see how i like it. i think it looks cute rn but she has dark lipstick on...... #so when i take it off after i get these photos done that uhhh... might change how i like the shape... idk

[leatherbookmark]

i am so eepy and my warm bed is calling out to me. but. photo

#shrimp thoughts #TWO HOURS LEFT... I CAN DO IT #augh changing into my pajamas was a mistake :0 #i'll change back to avoid temptation #it's ten to 4am and i keep on hearing cars. was i wrong? are people MORE likely to be out there on the streets #BECAUSE it's a holiday? pleathe i just want one (1) photo #today (well. yesterday) i already forgot my wallet #(i'm using two bags interchangeably and i simply haven't moved it from the one i used previously) #and i realized this in a line to the cash register #so i pretended i remembered something i need to pick up #i called my mother and she was like 'oh just ask the cashier lady if you can leave your basket here and run back home quickly' #mather words cannot express how much i CANNOT do this #'it happened to me once and i did just that and it was fine!' yes #because you don't have a special sickness that deals you 10k damage in Humiliating Situations #anyway. this is why i want to have Zero Witnesses #and yes i AM disappointed i didn't think of taking my camera with me as i went to get groceries #the light was so good! so bright and ambery #and since this is a fuji film if i take a pic in the fresh morning light #it probably won't be dreamy and warm... aaaaaaaaughhhhhhhhh #that reminds me i need to grab me some kodak film #AND finish this roll and drop it to have it developed

[icewindandboringhorror]

For the 5 of you who are actually invested in the worldbuilding/fantasy world stuff that I post here from time to time, I’ve finally completed the first of the previously mentioned series of videos where I just go over all of the details of my world in kind of a casual slideshow format - you can see it here (link), if incherested :0c 

#it's unlisted for now until I finish the series and then I'll make them all public so you SHOULD be able to see it with a link #but let me know if there are issues viewing it or the settings are off #ALSO YEAH ALMOST 7 HOURS AAAAgHHGGGGHH #It's all separated into chapters though and organized by topic so should be easy to kind of pick through if desired #like if you're someone who's seen my worldbuilding posts and is kind of interested but also hates reading the long strings of #text that accompany them/cant sit through a novel about elves.. Now.. you can.. listen to a novel about elves instead lol #assuming you can bear my voice for that long and my constant fidgeting and speech quirks and etc. hghb .. that is possibly #another barrier lol #also please note the use of the term CASUAL slideshow format. I am not reading neatly or presenterly and sometimes #go off on tangents or etc. Kind of like livestream style I guess where it's not a Super Professional Extremely Clean presentation #more just someone talking and kind of trying to go over outlined information for 7hrs while sometimes stopping to pick up a cat #or something ghgh.. There are some audio issues at first too like on and off the first two hours little moments here and there where #the mic echos a bit but I didnt realize there was a problem to fix until the 3rd day of recording :V #it's better after though #ANYWAY ... #evil evil evil terrible project takes SO long #This 7 hours I think was actually like... maybe 15+ hours of footage. It seemed like everytime I edited a video it'd cut nearly #in half (so like an hour long vid would end up being about 30 minutes after editing). #And thats not even the longest one.. the SPECIES slideshow on all the different cultures and groups and stuff? #Legitimately fearing if I put it all in one video (how I want to.. for organization purposes) it will be like 9 hours long #BUT that's all for the future hopefully. right now I'm taking a small break from working on it to do other things lol #I at least got the first video out of the way.. it's a start ... ToT #also obligatory i hATE fireworks so much I am trying to be productive tonight but aaaaAAAA *** #ALSO i reccomend watching on at least 1.25 or 1.50 speed. I seem to sound better that way like I naturally have a weird slow #pausy way of talking I think it seems with pausing a lot. I always rewatch my videos on like 1.50x or 1.75x speed lol

[holytrickster]

idk i think it's so funny I went down a survival horror game rabbit hole when a) I'm too freaking anxious for horror games I will make myself cry, b) it was all PS2 stuff which is extra funny bc I've never even played on someone else's playstation let alone had one, i was always a wii kid lol. but now my brain is like ah yes. time to consume everything I can about games I can't even play and that are stupid expensive/hard to get now

#also i love that people draw jennifer from rule of rose and fiona from haunting ground together #they're just two girls with their dogs and in horrible situations and you know im glad they get to have dogs #any game where i get to have a pet is alright by me even if shit is otherwise majorly fucked #anyway. i do need to play pathologic. it's funny bc in theory it is really the kind of thing I'd like bc there's so much stuff to uncover #plus i think classic HD (which is the version i have) fixes the bad translation so it's not even like it's too hard to understand #at least only hard to understand in the intended pathologic-y way anyway #and i really really like the soundtrack #and everything I've watched and read about it is sick as hell (no pun intended) so i think the thing making me unable to get into it is the #actual experience of playing it. like it's funny how much of an asshole dankovsky is but that doesn't mean I *want* to play as an asshole #its funny the only time i really like playing that way is in skyrim bc im just. greenish elf that picks everyone's locks bc it was the first #thing i figured out and characters will just ???? let me fucking do it??? (i say having gotten arrested in whiterun like immediately) #i guess because I'm not invested in any of the characters yet because i havent had time to sit down and really play it #i guess that'd kind of be the way i play in lotro but that's more just me not interacting with other players #fun fact i think i still have one of the earliest fellowship quests sitting unfinished bc i can never form groups to finish them #i don't think I'll even ever get good at lotro though honestly #more just knowing what buttons to spam #idk i played hunter FOREVER but minstrel is really really growing on me #even though some of the skills are kinda wasted since i only ever play alone #anyway what was i talking about

[jeansyvesmoreau]

what is your favorite quote or scene from the soc duology or the whole grishaverse? (you can make it maybe 2 or 3 instead if its too hard to pick)

Oh this one is HARD but I'll try and pick one

First quote I claimed as my favourite was "He needed to tell her...what? That she was lovely and brave and better than anything he deserved. That he was twisted, crooked, wrong, but not so broken that he couldn't pull himself together into some semblance of a man for her" and yeah, I was a kanej shipper from day one

#I don't want to do two or three because it's just gonna make it harder to pick two more #so I'll go with this one #every time I hear the word ‟crooked‟ I think of this #lynnea <3 #kanej #soc #the crows <3 #while I was gone I would have asked you* #mutuals <3