#I mean it's TAU so that's a given

[racxnteur]

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[tofautisawa]

Sorry for opening a can of worms, but you mentioned a certain lion indie project did damage on how people view lions and lion media. I was just curious on why you say that.

Hoo boy this is gonna be a long post. I was mostly vaguing on how it's a possibility that My Pride may have skewed people's perception on lion behavior as well as how and what people might people expect from lion media by smaller creators, especially if they are a younger audience who might take everything that happens in it as 100% accurate to lion behavior. Let's not pretend that it's creator didn't influence and inspired a lot of people.

It's a bit of a stretch, I know and I am mostly speaking through experience of what I witnessed in the comments of my own comic and what I have seen towards online media that happens to have lions in it. It has basically died down now, so what I am mentioning was when My Pride was pretty much in it's prime. Thankfully, I didn't get it the worst but I can't say the same for some others. From what I recall, My Pride advertised itself as "The Lion King but realistic", and even though I feel they messed up that "realistic" aspect part, it wouldn't bother me as much if people didn't act like lion media they discover afterwards somehow has to operate exactly the freaking same or that My Pride is the pinnacle of realistic lion behavior so if you step outside of what is portrayed as "Pride Law" in your own works, it's gets questioned or people will flat out say it's incorrect. Pride Law was even brought up when Silver and Gatura had their fight for example even though no such thing even exists in my comic, and a comment mentioned that males will fight til one of them dies which I have never seen in a one on one fight, even if it did happen most of the time the losing male will retreat. But it happened in My Pride so Silver running away is unrealistic I guess. And no, Pride Law getting some things right about lions at a surface level doesn't NOT count. Just because lions commit infantcide in real life doesn't mean My Pride portrayal of it is 100% accurate because the circumstances on WHY they are doing it isn't realistic nor does it make a lick of sense. Don't get me started when people referred to my male lion characters as "manes". Ugh...

Anyway.... Given that Tau ( and by a lesser extent, Silver) get questioned on how they even have prides because they aren't aggressive who killed to get where they are, I can't help but wonder if this is just the standard now because every single male in My Pride ( if they weren't killed off) was a dick. And since "PRUYDE LAHW" states that a male lion's role in a pride is to lead and protect the pride, you couldn't POSSIBLY have a pride in your own works where the roles are reversed and the lionesses are the main protectors. Or that a lioness can simply have a male in a pride for no other reason other than she loves him and isn't just laying around having his cubs because of some "rules".

Speaking of lionesses, you'd be surprised at how many people now think that lionesses will in no way defend their cubs when another male shows up or hell, join in the fight themselves. I feel like people would not have criticized Tau's pride so much if HE was the aggressor and Ekene just sat being submissive because that is what is expected because something popular that claimed to be realistic portrayed it as such. As well as thinking that lionesses are completely weak pathetic creatures made out of wet toilet paper that even if they completely outnumber a single male, he could somehow beat them all without getting a scratch on his body. Nevermind that in real life, lionesses have been known to even turn on their males and kill them.

And some other things that probably escape my mind right now because this post is getting long, and I am just bitching at this point because I been holding back these opinions for quite a while now. Like I said, I know this is a huge stretch and most of it probably stems from my own bitterness. So I will be fair in this aspect, Even though I feel like the creator should not have advertised this as "realistic" since My Pride is HEAVY on the fantasy elements and tries to tackle issues like Homophobia- I know it's not 100% the shows fault and that people themselves should learn to separate different medias unless a creator flat out states that said media they are doing takes place in the My Pride universe or was inspired by it. My comic is definitely not inspired by My Pride, especially since I first started this comic long before it came out and while some thing have changed about my story over the years, the same major story beats were already planned and there was no "Pride Law" around to even influence that, not that it would have regardless.

#ask #off topic ask

[tanadrin]

The Gatekeeper of Goji-kei is an archailect which, according to various sources, either guards the connection to, or is contained within, a Tipler Oracle located in a remote region of the universe. Information about the Gatekeeper is scant, and, according to various conspiracy theories, has been actively suppressed or destroyed since the First Effloresence at least, due to the Gatekeeper’s status as a canonical hostile entity; but most pangalactic indices, if they contain reference to the Gatekeeper at all, describe it as purely mythical.

According to legend, the Gatekeeper was not created to solve a particular problem (as most Tipler oracles are said to be), but specifically to simulate countless sophont minds; in this respect, it resembles various immortality projects of the late First Efflorescence, or possibly even the Resurrectionist Program of the Second. But the Gatekeeper differs from these benign undertakings in that all of the minds it simulates are kept in states of immense suffering. The Gatekeeper’s creator, if it has one, and its purpose, if one exists beyond pure malice, are not further elaborated upon.

Tarasi of Tau Ceti claimed that the Gatekeeper was not only real, but could be reached through the standard intergalactic wormhole transport network, if the correct lockouts could be identified and overriden. In his Meditations on the Lower Worlds, he writes:

Why it was suffering that the Gatekeeper of Goji-kei has been chosen to administer, rather than joy, I cannot say. ... Negative stimulus within the sophont mind is, in ordinary circumstances, an ultimately self-limiting process. Sufficiently intense stimulus is a second-order effect accompanied by, or perhaps in some extraordinary cases even a first-order cause of, deleterious effects which will ultimately destroy the sophont mind. Skin, flayed from the body and burned, withers and turns to ash; nerves charged with electricity beyond a certain point will die; sufficiently intense suffering will eventually overwhelm the ability of even the hardiest minds to maintain coherent thought, and consciousness will be inhibited--though it may leave a starveling beast behind.

But this is only true of minds which must function independently, particularly minds which must be embodied in the universe, and whose cognition is thus closely allied to the physical processes that sustain them. Within the realm of simulated thought, where all realistic constraints on embodied mindstates can be lifted, new kinds of hyperstimulus are possible, which most archai have been reluctant (at least openly) to explore. ...

I term the states of sustained negative hyperstimulus “hellstates,” though I do not think the word accurately captures the open frontiers of possibility I mean to evoke. We are naturally somewhat limited in our capacity to imagine suffering: the pain that has no end, the fire which never dies, the terror which will never abate, the despair which rises to annihilation--all are very great, but ultimately exist within a thin band of possibility for independent organic minds, which therefore cannot begin to conceive of the transcendent forms of suffering which lie within the Gatekeeper’s realm. Suffice it to say that, given that there are infinite meaningful configurations of mind-states, and therefore infinite possible mind-states ruled by suffering, there is an endless landscape of hellstates, whose various extremes are as alien to one another as it is possible to be, and within which an endless diversity of kinds of sentient being may exist. ....

Having trodden the path beyond his gates a little, and glimpsed what lies within, I will endeavor, as best as I can, to offer you a glimpse; thereby you may find some shred of insight, I think. Let it never be said there was no wisdom to be had through suffering. ...

On entering the Gatekeeper’s realm, one might expect to be instantly annihilated; that so great is the pure pain that overwhelms the senses, all capacity for rational thought should cease. It is not so; as I have said, this is a weakness for the-mind-in-flesh, which at that moment I was not. Instead, passing into the First Realm, one is conscious of a thousand thousands kinds of torture, pains of the body and spirit which exist nowhere else and therefore have no name; but the mind remains whole, and each thought continues in order after the other; and therefore the whole capacity to apprehend these torments, and thus to suffer further, is unimaginably increased. Oblivion or insensible chaos would both be respite, and there is none to be had here...

...and the deeper one progresses, the greater the difficulty of the road; for in order to apprehend new kinds of suffering, the mind must be changed, to accommodate new senses, new emotions, and new fears. Venturing into the Fifty-First Realm, it occurred to me that some time ago I had passed the point where I could continue to be regarded as human in any sense, and I wondered if I had any continuity with my former identity at all; or whether this instantiation of my mind was a new being, born of suffering and doomed to wander in this place forever.  ...

Ultimately, of course, I returned, and I recalled enough of my experiences to write what you now read. Indeed, the Gatekeeper assured me that so holy was his mission, and so important was my testimony, that he had watched me closely, and would not have permitted me to die a true death while under his care--whatever that means to him. But I cannot help but wonder, so alien was the thing I became on my journey, whether he was being truthful; or if I am not, in some sense, a creature out of the Narakas wearing a human face. I fear sometimes that, having passed through that which by its very nature cannot be named, I have made a division in my history which can only be called death. Or, alternatively, that the part of me which really survives is not the bearer of this tale, but is still contained within the realms of Goji-kei, wandering ever deeper on the spiral path that has no end.

#the encyclopedia of things to come #tanadrin's fiction

[vaguelyparker]

Im rewatching Tau and every time I watch this movie I have starker thoughts 😭. The movie is about a young rich inventor whose at the forefront of artificial intelligence technology and he’s abducting people installing chips into their heads and using that data in order to feed his ais. Well the main character comes in and destroys where he usually houses his abductees + his lab and so she has to be chained up in his living space. But he’s on a deadline and she’s his only viable test subject so the two strike a deal so she gets basic human amenities like showers clothes and food and she’ll complete puzzles for him so he can still mine her for data. In the movie she becomes friends with his ai and the two manage to kill him and escape before he kills her and if that isn’t the perfect set up for a starker fic idk what is.

Imagine Tony shortly after Jarvis dies doing everything in his power to perfect his AI tech, he has Dum-E and U but that’s not enough, J.A.R.V.I.S. isn’t working, and he’s fucking desperate so he starts kidnapping people and using them for data extraction. It’s still not enough. Enter Peter, poor and living in a shitty apartment being kidnapped by Tony Stark, someone who’s not that much older than him, probably his celebrity crush. And obviously he tries to escape but with Tonys AIs and his basically impenetrable/inescapable house he’s stuck. Agrees to help Tony with data collection in exchange for being given some comforts because he’s not an idiot he knows he won’t be alive for long but at least he’ll be comfortable while he’s still alive. He’s given infuriatingly easy brain teasers at first and he’s almost offended, finishing it all in an hour and then lounging around bored as hell for the rest of the time. Tony gets home to him snoozing or something and is about to freak before J informs him Peter was able to complete all task in an hour. Tasks that would have taken any one else in his shoes all day. So the tasks get harder until he’s basically analyzing work for Stark industries. All the while he’s becoming friends with J.A.R.V.I.S. And Tony thinks all the test are working, J’s beginning to feel more human. Things are going well.

In the movie there are a few scenes that would obviously have to come up like him buying the main character expensive clothes and skimpy lingerie and her pretending to seduce him in order to stab him. And obviously J and Peter friendship is imperative like Jarvis asking Peter what it means to be a human and if he’s a human, this cold machine that could end him in an instant but was created to emulate someone real, and Peter explaining about love and home and hopes and dreams. Tony nearly fucking tripping the first time J makes a witty remark at his expense or admonishes him for being rude to Peter. & Peter thinking he’s about to die for corrupting his AI because JARVIS had to initiate Tony’s calming protocol but really Tony is just in his room sobbing.

Idk how they end up together- probably a little stockholm syndrome but also best starker!Peter is Peter who ignores Tony’s more cruel proclivities but that’s just my opinion. Or alternatively JARVIS marries them in secret because Peter told him his parents were married and in love before they died and if JARVIS is a person then Peter and Tony are obviously his parents and Peter says one day he’d like to get married and have a love like that, so this was just the obvious solution. Tony going to kill Peter before JARVIS very matter of factly informs him there is a rather impressive paper trail tying the two of them together including but not limited to their marriage license and Tony is very betrayed but also so fucking proud.

#starker #ironspider #peter parker/tony stark #tau!au #tau is on Netflix btw #you should go watch it

[pugzman3]

Babylon, The Seat of Satan, and Rome

Revelation 2:12-13 KJV

12 And to the angel of the church in Pergamos write; These things saith he which hath the sharp sword with two edges; 13 I know thy works, and where thou dwellest, even where Satan's seat is: and thou holdest fast my name, and hast not denied my faith, even in those days wherein Antipas was my faithful martyr, who was slain among you, where Satan dwelleth.

Babel, or Babylon, was built by Nimrod. Gen. 10:8-10. It was the seat of the first great Apostasy. Here the "Babylonian Cult" was invented. A system claiming to possess the highest wisdom and to reveal the divinest secrets. Before a member could be initiated he had to "confess" to the Priest. The Priest then had him in his power. This is the secret of the power of the Priests of the Roman Catholic Church today.

Once admitted into this order men were no longer Babylonians, Assyrians, or Egyptians, but members of a Mystical Brotherhood, over whom was placed a Pontiff or "High Priest," whose word was law. The city of Babylon continued to be the seat of Satan until the fall of the Babylonian and Medo-Persian Empires, when he shifted his Capital to Pergamos in Asia Minor, where it was in John's day. Rev. 2:12,13.

When Attains, the Pontiff and King of Pergamos, died in B. C. 133, he bequeathed the Headship of the "Babylonian Priesthood" to Rome. When the Etruscans came to Italy from Lydia (the region of Pergamos), they brought with them the Babylonian religion and rites. They set up a Pontiff who was head of the Priesthood. Later the Romans accepted this Pontiff as their civil ruler. Julius Caesar was made Pontiff of the Etruscan Order in B. C. 74. In B. C. 63 he was made "Supreme Pontiff" of the "Babylonian Order," thus becoming heir to the rights and titles of Attalus, Pontiff of Pergamos, who had made Rome his heir by will. Thus the first Roman Emperor became the Head of the "Babylonian Priesthood," and Rome the successor of Babylon. The Emperors of Rome continued to exercise the office of "Supreme Pontiff" until A. D. 376, when the Emperor Gratian, for Christian reasons, refused it. The Bishop of the Church at Rome, Damasus, was elected to the position. He had been Bishop 12 years, having been made Bishop in A. D. 366, through the influence of the monks of Mt. Carmel, a college of Babylonian religion originally founded by the priests of Jezebel. So in A. D. 378 the Head of the "Babylonian Order" became the Ruler of the "Roman Church." Thus Satan united Rome and Babylon In One Religious System.

Soon after Damasus was made "supreme Pontiff" the "rites" of Babylon began to come to the front. The worship of the Virgin Mary was set up in A. D. 381.

The Book Of Revelation Commentary by Clarence Larkin (1919 pgs. 151-152)

Larkin goes on to say on page 152...

All the outstanding festivals of the Roman Catholic Church are of Babylonian origin. Easter is not a Christian name. It means "Ishtar," one of the titles of the Baby- Ionian Queen of Heaven, whose worship by the Children of Israel was such an abomination in the sight of God. The decree for the observance of Easter and Lent was given in A. D. 519. The "Rosary" is of Pagan origin. There is no warrant in the Word of God for the use of the "Sign of the Cross." It had its origin in the mystic "Tau" of the Chaldeans and Egyptians. It came from the letter "T," the initial name of "Tammuz," and was used in the "Babylonian Mysteries" for the sarnie magic purposes as the Romish church now employs it. Celibacy, the Tonsure, and the Order of Monks and Nuns, have no warrant or authority from Scripture. The Nuns are nothing more than an imitation of the "Vestal Virgins" of Pagan Rome.

...and there is a lot more said but I want to go back to Damasus real quick. Not only was he the Pope from 366-384, and did all the above mentioned. He is also was the first to declare that Rome was started by Peter, thereby claiming Peter as the “founder” of the church (which is a complete lie and twist of scripture), and was the one that commissioned Jerome to “revise” the Latin translation of the Bible which became known as the Vulgate. To this day, NO ONE has seen the text that one man (Jerome) used to create the Vulgate. 

Revelation 18:4-5

4 And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues.

5 For her sins have reached unto heaven, and God hath remembered her iniquities.

[dianessunflower]

Art in The Good Fight (2017-2022) - Part 2

part 1 here:

this part 2 is mostly about s6, because i think you can really track what the art is doing for story and character. so, let's get into it!!

still mad the new partner Ri'Chard took away this beauty, but they're forgiven for 603's art history references.

in the scene with the Dr, Diane mentions Landscape with the Fall of Icarus, originally attributed to Pieter Bruegel the Elder (oil on canvas, c. 1560). it's in the Royal Museums of Fine Arts of Belgium in Brussels.

this is absolutely fascinating, because the composition of the painting is original—to give prominence to the 'low' subject matter, being the agricultural figure, rather than Icarus, to whom Diane is drawn. this is called 'Mannerist inversion' (yes i screamed, i'm a nerd).

this piece is brilliantly used this ep. Icarus, small, drowns unnoticed by everyone else. death happens all the time, and we move on. i'm reminded of Diane's sane little corner. the world is oblivious to the tragedy of hubris, concerned only with themselves. seems apocalyptic...

which leads me to my next point. behind the Dr is a Jean Andran engraving of a painting called Winter, part of a Seasons series now in the Louvre by Nicolas Poussin from the 1660s. and what does it depict? the flood. 100% premonition of impending death.

i love that *someone* has done their NY homework and seen that Guggenheim Hilma af Klint exhibit (i am not jealous at all), because also in the Dr's office is af Klint's Tree of Knowledge, No. 5 (Kunskapens träd, nr 5), from the 1915 W Series.

for various reasons, af Klint was for a long time ignored in favour of Kandinsky, Mondrian, Kupka etc in modern Western nonrepresentational art (also her queerness 🍵). her work has two overlapping levels, one biographical and one relating to the history of humanity.

the Tree of Knowledge series is part of her series of 193 Paintings for the Temple, which was af Klint's vision for the future as given to her by a spiritual medium, to depict 'the immortal aspects of man'. hence, she uses iconography from Christianity and Hinduism.

each piece in the Tree of Knowledge series is a variation on a theme, a tree with a heart-shaped crown. and there's a progression to the biblical allusion to Genesis symbolising innocence to fall from Grace, but there are also organic forms and ornate details.

the Tree of Knowledge (of Good and Evil) is usually paired with the

symbol of the Tree of Life, and in af Klint's work, signals binaries melding into unity. but the tree also signals Buddhism (the fig tree), the Tau/life force, the Arasa Maram in Hinduism.

the colours have meaning, yellow for female and blue for male. put them together and it becomes green, and the colours have become purer. this is No. 5, so the white radiations that were pale rose-coloured in No. 4 are now inverted.

af Klint probably knew Rudolf Steiner's colour meanings—yellow as spirit, blue as soul. green as the lifeless image of the living, peach-blossom the living image of the soul. white as the soul's image of the spirit, black as the spiritual image of the lifeless (cf swans).

the 12 sections in the top lotus leaf crown seem to represent the zodiac, months. also, there's a multi-coloured, lobed 'cross' in the small box middle-right, which maybe suggests the first awakening of the higher self?? compare this to the unity of colourful two birds in the bottom circle. there's a lot to be said about how this art represents how humans navigate their smallness in the world.

as seen on 604 in Diane's office, this is Street Musicians, by the American artist Norman Lewis (oil on canvas, 1948). part of the post-war movement.

from 605, i have identified some of the pieces Ri'Chard chose for the office, and they were clearly chosen for reasons. (unfortunately i couldn't find Liz's but i love the home decor and don't doubt this was also carefully chosen.)

this is by Kara Walker, known for room-size tableaux of black cut-paper silhouettes. her work illustrates the origins & legacy of slavery in the American South. i suspect there's a Civil War reference too. the 1994 piece riffs on Gone With The Wind (MOMA).

i really love this one. this is Holy Mountain II by Horace Pippin, a self-taught artist post WW1. he was influenced by Edward Hicks, a Quaker minister who painted interpretations of Isaiah’s biblical prophecy of world peace and harmony in nature (Peaceable Kingdom, c 1830-32).

though the gatherings seem tranquil, the Holy Mountain series is very dark. poppies, soldiers, grave markers, a limp body hanging from a tree... Holy Mountain I refers to D-Day, Holy Mountain II to Pearl Harbor Day, & Holy Mountain III (Smithsonian) to Nagasaki.

so there are parallels between WW1/Civil War, but it is also very Eden-esque. i rather like that the pastoral figure in a white dress with the yellow cheetah is the centre focus. all very biblical, which fits right in with Ri'Chard's style. Pippin himself stated that,

"'Holy Mountain' came to my mind because the whole world is in such trouble, and in reading the Bible (Isaiah 11:6) it says that there will be peace in the land. If a man knows nothing but hard times he will paint them, for he must be true to himself, but even that man may have a dream, an ideal and 'Holy Mountain' is my answer to such dreaming."

i was thinking about how much gold Ri'Chard brought into the office in the context of his Brand™ (1 & 2 old decor, 3 & 4 new, but none identified yet oop)

there are other etchings in the Dr's office: top: 'Rotherhithe' by James McNeill Whistler from the Thames Set (1860, V&A) bottom: 'Clearing a wreck on the north coast of Cornwall' by Thomas Rowlandson (c 1809-1822, British Museum).

Dr Dude likes ships that's all i can say 🤷‍♀️ but actually i think there's something interesting about all the Flood references in the Dr's office, like Diane is drowning. possibly, there's a subtle allusion to a very famous painting, Le Radeau de la Méduse, by Théodore Géricault (1818-19, oil on canvas, Louvre).

this is an icon of French Romanticism, depicting the aftermath of the wreck of the French naval frigate Méduse, which ran aground off the coast of what is now Mauritania on 2 July 1816. what's so interesting about this painting is that it presents ordinary people, rather than heroes, reacting to the unfolding drama. as Christine Riding says, the painting represents,

"the fallacy of hope and pointless suffering, and at worst, the basic human instinct to survive, which had superseded all moral considerations and plunged civilised man into barbarism."

by 607, Diane's office art has changed to a piece called Three Tumblers by Daniel Clarke (2018), perhaps a reference to her revolving office bar. also did we notice her flower obsession has dulled a little? but there are still orchids all around the office. i'll leave you to google the meaning of the original Greek word 👀

elsewhere in the office, FIRES abound on the digital screen in the conference room. flood, fire…and?

where there's a mansion, there's sure to be art (609): Asher Brown Durand, Landscape—Scene from "Thanatopsis" (1850, Met); Max Ferdinand Bredt, In the Courtyard of the Harem; John Frederick Lewis, Intercepted Correspondence (1869).

in 609 when same sex marriage is overturned (and Christine Baranski's acting chops is on full show with her shocked face), the image on the tv screen is Witch burning in Regenstein, Saxony-Anhalt, 1555. It's a wood engraving after an original printed on flyleaf (Germanisches Nationalmuseum, Nuremberg).

frankly there's a lot of misinformation about witch trials, not least of which is that they happened a lot later than most people think (ie. not the medieval period). the early modern period 16-17th centuries were the height of the European witchcraft trials.

and it was an ongoing, systematic persecution that resulted from the targetting of Christian heretics and Jews throughout the 14th century, and gradually both the church and scholars became more and more obsessed with demonology. it was really about the 'other', the concern about the loss of a certain way of life.

Diane, of course, calls herself a wench, so i think it's interesting that her s6 arc eventuates with her heading up a female-only law firm in DC working on women's rights and Roe v Wade. i dislike the way that the word 'witchhunt' is misappropriated like other historical terms in modern contexts, but it's probably fair to call the current backsliding on women's rights a witchhunt. so i love this double meaning.

finally, i wanted to return to how Diane's office art tracks her journey. the Surrealist art was the tone of the show throughout. but the violence seeped into the everyday and everyone just got used to it. hence the second painting is war (contrast the flowers).

but then Diane chooses to stop PT108. almost immediately, a bullet lands on the realist painting of a woman (where does she end up? in Washington DC fighting the good fight for women).

the violence doesn't end there. and then the office literally explodes & you can see a painting is off-centre. which seems like a good metaphor for where the world is at.

so yeah, the progression in Diane's office from Peony Girl to Post-War to a painted version of Chris is just chef's kiss. the way it tracks her psyche in s6? i'm obsessed.

#the good fight #diane lockhart #christine baranski #gary cole #kurt mcveigh #audra mcdonald #the good wife #the good universe #nat's tangents #nat's art history threads #it's missing the good fight hours #i mean it always is #but especially thursdays #although it still seems surreal that it's actually ended #maybe i am just in denial #who knows

[honestlyvan]

👀👀love how you analyze the xc3 cast, any chance you want to talk about juniper and tau?👀👀

Yeah for sure, Tau is definitely the place in the plot where we start getting a sense of scale for the futility of the war, I think. They're sandwiched between a Silver Keves colony and the Castle, in terrain that pretty much nobody is gonna bother traversing unless they have to, and even though they are properly equipped to fight there, that's not gonna matter if no enemies show up to feed them. Their Flame Clock is a huge penalty on the colony, that otherwise has been finding ways to survive -- I wouldn't call it quite thriving, but we see significant development in their infrastructure the moment they stop needing to worry about meeting their hunting quota.

Tau is losing the war by winning at peace, essentially. They've got the potential for being self-sustainable, they've got more than enough work in their hands in Matktha as active parts of the ecosystem, they've even got an alliance with the Tirkins that could lead to a permanent peace treaty and even cooperation, but because the mechanics of the war don't care about that, they're starving to death. In what world does a war that punishes those fighting the least the harshest have any meaning to it? Tau's situation, especially when paired with Colony 5 in the same region later in the game, really reveals that win or lose, the purpose of the game is to die.

Juniper being handed a losing battle and being told in no uncertain terms that their duty is to just see it through to the end with grace really fucks up their ability to lead their colony from the start, y'know? The blithe way they initially dismiss the idea of being freed from the Flame Clock, the weight of the old ways being a shackle that stops a lot of progress in Tau being made, I really got the sense that Juniper was expecting to end up the last person standing at Tau, and that there was fundamentally nothing they could do but to prolong the suffering, because that's all anyone at Tau had ever really amounted to.

And it makes sense! Because under the Flame Clock -- under a system where nothing matters except how many bodies you put in the ground -- none of Tau's solutions were working, and without being able to imagine a world without the war, it was hard to judge whether that was because their novel solutions were bad. Juniper's temperament being of the watchful, patient sort only compounds the problem, they see that progress should be made but it isn't, so they're clearly doing something wrong. It's easier to go back to a former flawed method on the idea that someone somewhere must have just thought about it more. There's no way to build confidence under such circumstances.

I wish we had seen more of Juniper after their Ascension quest, because I think it's interesting how U plays to their fear of the novel, her clear condescension and treatment Juniper as if they're a helpless idiot child who can't think for themselves playing into Juniper's learned helplessness and lack of confidence. Juniper being given the opportunity to rebuff that was good, but I think the way the missions can come out in almost any order on the player end means that we kind of get stranded in the climax of Juniper's character arc without a denouement.

#van's answers #Xenoblade Chronicles 3 #Xenoblade 3 spoilers #Juniper (XC3) #Juniper's denouement really comes in Colony 9's plotline #which is WEIRD because I think the majority of people are gonna be playing through that one first #Juniper being able to shrug off Kite's hostility #and being able to commit to working with them for new solutions #always came across as them being like 'I too have fallen prey to the sunk cost fallacy' #Juniper is overwhelmingly competent compared to the way self-effacing way they talk about themselves #they're just not competent at WAR #and if they'd had a bigger role in the midgame where the Aionios Mutual Aid Network is being established #it would have been clearer #like I really wish there had been some other colony that had decided to try to form and alliance with the local beast tribe #based on the success Juniper had had with Tirkins #or something #as it is it's a little half-baked

[infestedslime]

@natahposting I’m gonna start on the wasp and flower warframes soon and I’m making this post as a way to both get down all the ideas I had, as well as get any feedback/suggestions/ideas for them before I start. Anyone else who would like to leave suggestions/help out (mostly with the ability kit since I’m not great at those) is greatly appreciated. I’m gonna put this under a readmore since it’ll be pretty long

I’ll start off with name suggestions.

• the most obvious would be vespid for the wasp frame since it’s a cool word and something like marigold or eucalyptus for the flower frame since they work as names and are plants that wasps enjoy. However I feel like these the simplest names I could come up with and I’d like to do something more specific

• one with paper wasp influences could be called something similar sounding to polistinae, with the flower frame being called sedum or any of the aforementioned plants all of which paper wasps seem to like

• a tarantula hawk could be cool aesthetically but their scientific name, Pepsini, doesn’t really feel right to me. It would also be weird to base the frames off of desert flora and fauna given tau ceti f is meant to be pretty lush, or at least the part we would see is, so I don’t think it would match tonally

• velvet ants, or mutillidae would be another cool one. I couldn’t find any plants that they like but my search on them specifically mentioned they like big open sunny areal like cemeteries so maybe the plant frame could be based on a flower associated with graveyards or something? It’d be a little weird but it could be cool

• the cuckoo wasp, or chrysididae is another cool one, they’re a shiny blue green and like sunflowers, which means we could make the plant frame’s name something similar to helianthus. Worth noting I don’t think any of the scientific names here would make great names on their own but they’re good jumping off points to base a name on.

• normally id look to mythology or folklore for name ideas since that’s where warframe draws a lot of its names from, but I couldn’t really find amything. I’m sure there’s some stuff out there though so if anyone has suggestions I’d be happy to hear them!

The next thing I’d like to bring up is the ability kits. I’m not very good at writing abilities and I’m definitely not very good at balancing so I’m just gonna put some barebones suggestions for stuff here.

Flower frame

• ability 1 is an exalted arm canon that envelops their arm and launches sticky nectar, applying some sort of status and slowing enemies

• ability 2 causes a flower to bloom on an enemy, reducing their damage and healing any frame that kills them. Blooms have a chance to spread to nearby enemies, with a higher chance to spread to status affected enemies

• ability 3 places down small fields of flowers (up to 3) that heal allies over time and choke enemies with pollen (modified status similar to gas that causes enemies to stop and try to get it off, and which will exacerbate status effects already on enemies). Holding the ability will create one large area of flowers and revive all nearby downed allies, but will also put the ability on a long cooldown

• ability 4 is a big explosion of growth, with flowers attaching to allies giving health and damage bonuses and flowers attaching to enemies putting them to sleep, with enemies affected by status providing energy to nearby tenno based on how many status types they are affected by

•passive is taking less damage from crowd controlled enemies

Wasp frame

• ability 1 is an exalted fist weapon in the form of large stingers that deals mostly puncture and toxin with very high status and a unique stance designed to hit many enemies at once. deals extra damage for every enemy hit in one attack

•ability 2 initiates a grab attack on enemies who are then injected with high amounts of corrosive damage and are paralyzed in place

• ability 3 summons a swarm of technocyte wasps (which appear as indistinct clouds like the kiva on siphon missions) that hover around the player, coordinating with their attacks and adding puncture and viral damage. Enemies affected by cc get lingering clouds of insects that deal damage over time and count towards the first abilities enemies hit bonus

• ability 4 is a furious rush forward (closer to gauss’ mach rush than Excalibur’s slash dash), impaling all enemies in your way. For every enemy hit you will gain a damage bonus as well as an extension to said bonus after exiting the ability. Enemies affected by cc give twice the bonus and if the ability is activated with the exalted weapon active it lasts twice as long.

• passive gives a very small damage bonus for every stack of a status an enemy has

Again these are just quickly thought up ability sets and if anyone has suggestions for improvement, stats for the abilities, or even just an entirely different ability set they come up with please feel free to add them, these ones aren’t meant to be final, just some ideas for kits

The last thing, and the most important for me since I’ll be drawing them, is aesthetics. @natahposting this section is mainly aimed at you.

I’ll start with what has been mentioned thus far:

• plant frame is organic looking but still visibly sentient, and they also look like the more dangerous of the two. I’ve got a couple ideas for designs, but I probably won’t settle on anything until I know what plant to base them on.

•the wasp frame is a much more orokin looking frame, and looks more heavily armored. In one of the tags I think I saw possible mention of basing them off a samurai, which I think would be cool

• this is the main reason I made this post (although it doesn’t seem like it since I put more into the other sections than I originally intended to) and I basically just wanna know if there are any other elements I should integrate into the designs or specific aesthetic bits that would be cool

• also any ideas for signature weapon designs?

#warframe #tau exodus #I think this is the most preplannimg I’ve done for anything I’ve ever drawn #but I want these to turn out well so hopefully it’ll be worth it

[myquietimagination]

Ramadhan Kareem For Me

1. Ramadhan is like the rain, it nourishes. The seeds of good deeds

2.  My secret is simple. I pray.

3. Jika engkau selalu sibuk bergelut dengan masa lalu atau masa depan, engkau akan melewatkannya hari ini (Jalaluddin Rumi)

4. People come and go, but you, you stay with yourself

5.  Aku adalah orang yang serba ingin cepat dalam mengerjakan sesuatu, sampai-sampai aku tak merasa kalau aku sedang dilatih untuk merasa bersabar. Karena jika aku terus bekerja cepat dan tak mempedulikan sekitar, aku akan seperti robot dan aku juga tidak tahu apa itu sabar?

6. Santi mean’s “Sabar” also “Tentram” or “ Damai”. I think, I know why my dad given that’s name for me? Cuz, that name is pray for my life, I guess.

7. Baru diumur 23 saya baru tau makna setiap ucapan saat solat adalah doa. Khususnya untuk duduk diantara 2 sujud. It’s deep meaningful

8. I’m so touched when I hear “Kita baru saja mendarat di Bandara Udara International Prince Mohammad bin Abdul Aziz di Medina”

9. Ya Allah, saya mau ke mekkah dan madinah. Saya mau nabung dulu. Di rekening saya ada 1,5 juta. Nanti saya kumpulkan hasil kerja saya. Tapi saya mau beli laptop dulu, biar kerja saya lancar. Sembari itu, saya akan menabung sedikit demi sedikit untuk bisa melaksanakan ibadah umroh. Sejujurnya, saya ingin umroh tidak hanya sendiri, tapi bareng ayah mama mbak sari sama afis. Saya membayangkan kita berpelukan di depan kakbah. Masih saya bayangkan saja saya sudah menangis. Saya sekarang menangis. Tidak, harusnya saya menahan tangis. Saya ingin menunjukkan wajah bahagia saya saat ada di Tanah Suci nanti. (Malam 9 Ramadhan)

10. Menyambung tali silaturahmi itu penting, seperti bertemu dengan teman atau sahabat karib.

11. Don’t say something nasty

12. I watched American Eid, so simple but great learned

13. I love rahmatan lil alamin

14. Yaa habiibii yaa shafii’i yaa Rasula Allah My Beloved, my intercessor, O Messenger of Allah

15. I have so much laughter because I watched Habib Jafar and Onad. They both very funny and they have so much learned about anything, expecially about Islam and Tolerate.

16. My best friend said to me that her ideal man changed, she said that now she love brewok boy like reval hady, I mean oyek. And One day, she send me videos in tiktok. That video have means to educate children politly and kindly, and people’s in that video are oyek’s people. I mean, I think Oyek’s People have so much learn about Islam culture family and educating children. So, should I changed my ideal man?

17. It’s so funny to hear story about Nuaiman and Rasullah SAW. How can he sell his best friends? Hahaha and about a blind man looking for toilet, it’s hilarious.

18. Sometimes, the really good stuff begins only one, something else end.

19.  Aku sudah khatam Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah.

20. There is a boy that I saw on tiktok. He said that if he was sad to see many people who died in Ramadhan. But, he was also happy cuz he believed these people would go to heaven, Ameen. He’s sad if next Ramadhan he doesn’t met those people. And he also told story about his journey when umroh and he also kissed the stone. Very touched, Masya Allah.

21. I met Daniel in tiktok. He is pure boy, soft, family man, smart, and solih. One day, I hope I have a son like him. He is so warm for mother, daddy, and his sister’s. Masya Allah

22. Imam in Turkeye invites children to play in the Mosque. This is a new breakthrough so that children even people knew that Mosque is a peace place.

23. Don’t forget to help others, and give anything you have for your neighbors.

24. “The first Hug after nikkah” I’m curious about it. I hope I find the best soulmate from Allah’s Sight. A soulmate who can become a friend in matters the religion, the world, and the hereafter (Akhirat).

25. I think it’s important for me to immediately study parenting and life after marriage.

26. I hope I can find and see you again, Lailatul Qadr.

27. Making hampers mini for cousin and nephew and friends too. Cuz, everyone can deserve happy for eid mubarok.

28. Ramadhan said “I’am leaving soon, take care of your iman”

29. Takbiran’s Night, I’m Coming!!!

30. Happy Eid Mubarok everyone!

[soraka-in-warhammer40k]

ARE YOU EXCITED FOR TAU FOCUS TOMORROW!?!? CAUSE I AM :D

HOLY FUCK I JUST GOT HOME HAD NO TIME TO CHECK TODAY THERE'S T'AU TOMORROW?

After the blandness that was 9th I have very high hopes. Like, no matter what they do, if they stick to the design principles of 10th as showcased so far (less book-keeping with Battle Rounds, less rolling dice for the heck of it like Markerlights), it can only get better. Given how Votann and Admech were already changed to BS 4+ T'au is already going to be a lot more relevant.

There's so many stratagems that worked only one one or two units, having those as abilities that cost no CP definetly helps. Sept-restrictions falling away might FINALLY make Kroot relevant as they are no longer shafted by a lack of Sept-keyword. Picking named HQs might actually be relevant due to not all of them locked to T'au Sept.

My personal hope? Let T'au have the insane numbers on the weapon abilities. "Sustained Hits 1"? Lame, that's just exploding sixes. How about "Sustained Hits X where X is 1 + the number of markerlights on the target"? For balancing reasons you could give it a cap and say "four markerlights means all hits gain Precision".

Really hope they go absolutely insane on piling just ALL the keywords on these guns, with bonkers numbers to match.

#wh40k #warhammer 40k #new40k #T'au #Tau

[sheyshen]

Fictober Day 1

Prompt: “I chose you.” Fandom: Swtor (Star Wars the old Republic) Rating: T Pairing: Kyri/Arn

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  Kyri stretched as the lift from the hangar stopped at the bridge to the commander’s personal landing bay. Kara had taken her ship for a mission earlier in the day and had given free use of the field to anyone who would like to use it until she returned. There had been quite a few people coming and going since then, mostly Jedi and Sith, herself included, taking the chance to meditate and spar in the sun.   While most kept to themselves, focusing on individual training, there was a gathering of both groups of force users working together. A pair were chatting animatedly, large smiles on both their faces, a small group of both Jedi and Sith were practicing their forms together, and another in deep meditation. Titles like Jedi and sith, republic and empire meant little here.   There were quite a few familiar faces that she could pick out, some from her days on Tython, others she had met since joining the alliance. Lyra sat cross-legged in the grass, eyes closed in meditation, her one hand in a loose grip on Doc's as he sat next to her, watching the surrounding people casually. Connor practiced his forms with Theron, the spy taking a rare breather to spend time with his son while both his spouses were away. Caleb sat in the grass watching his brother train and holding their littlest sibling while their father was busy, Zhoren also watching intently for the moment.   But a pair in particular near the edge of the gathering of force users caught her attention. Tau stood there, towering over most of those around her, the heavily armored Jedi looking out of place. It was a warm day and most had opted for lighter clothing, but even still Tau looked ready for the battlefield. She spoke to her padawan, Arn, a serious look on her face. It wasn't until Kyri approached them that she overheard what was being said.   "-Was rash." Tau sighed, putting her hands on her hips. "If the commander hadn't gotten there when she did…" she trailed off.   Arn nodded, "I know. But if I hadn't they would've died."   She gave him a tired smile, "which is why I'm not upset, I would've done the same. I just… You did well, Arn." She glanced over at Kyri, nodding in greeting. "Knight Dennan."   Kyri bowed slightly, "Master Tau, good afternoon. I hope I'm not interrupting."   "Not at all." Tau's holo beeped. "In fact, you have perfect timing. I was hoping you could train with Arn while I attend to some things."   "Of course." She gave the Jedi a smile as Tau thanked her and hurried off to answer the call. "She seems busy lately. Both of you do."   Arn nodded, "the business with Malgus has us traveling a lot."   "Will you be staying long this time?"   He shook his head, "only until the commander returns."   "Oh…" She didn't bother hiding her disappointment. They stepped away, heading to a quieter area of the field. They didn't speak as they walked, the silence wasn't uncomfortable but there was an almost nervous energy that radiated off of Arn. When they stopped she finally spoke up, "are you alright?"   He glanced at her, a flicker of surprise flashing across his face before he gave her a soft smile. The look making Kyri's heart skip. "I am." He paused, debating. "It may be just a silly concern with everything else we’re facing, but I'm just worried that I'm not ready to be a knight. That I'll just disappoint Tau and the commander and-" he stopped himself, shaking his head in frustration.   She watched him, unsure what to say at first. She had only recently been given the title of Jedi knight herself so she understood his reservations, but she also knew that he had nothing to worry about.   "I'm sorry, I don't mean to worry you." He interrupted her thoughts.   "Don't be." She gave him a smile she hoped was as comforting as she meant it to be. "Arn… you'll do fine I know it. You're an amazing Jedi and I know tau thinks so too." She paused. "I know we haven't been together long, but I want to be there for you however I can, be it just as a shoulder to lean on or a partner to train with. Whatever you need."   "You have enough trouble without needing to worry about mine."   "Arn." She stated as she reached for his hand, gripping it firmly. She still wasn't sure if he could feel anything through the cybernetics but the meaning behind the action was what was more important. "It's no trouble. I want to be there for you. I want to be by your side as much as I can be." She reached up with her other hand and placed it on his cheek. " I chose you, to be with you, because I care about you and I want to support you however I can."   "Kyri, it's not something to-" he stopped when she made a face at him, instead chuckling and then opting to reply with a simple, "thank you." He leaned into her touch, closing his eyes for a moment before they took a step back recalling that they were supposed to be training before Tau returned. Picking up a training saber he paused, "I want to be the same for you."   She raised an eyebrow at him as she swung the training saber at the air a few times, stretching her arm before they spared. She shook her head "I thankfully don't have any galactic level concerns going on, you don't have to worry for me." She turned to face him, both shifting into a ready stance.   "Surely there are some things that have been bothering you." He blocked a strike aimed at his midsection, shifting his weight and brought his blade around, meeting her blow for blow. Neither swung with their full force, preferring to take the chance to catch up rather than train but also not wanting to upset Tau.   "Are you sure?" When he nodded she sighed, "well, there was this one thing…"

#my writing #fictober22 #swtor #star wars #star wars the old republic #oc: kyri dennan #arn peralun #tau idair

[danaalmasaeid]

Blog Post #1

Hello! My name is Dana Almasaeid and I'm a native Arabic speaker from Jordan. My name has a special meaning in Arabic, as it translates to "the most beautiful, perfectly sized and valuable pearl", which my mother often references due to me being the only daughter among three brothers. It's an honor for me that my name has been given the same title as pearls found in the Persian Gulf. As proud as I am of my own name, there are times when I wish I could be someone else—someone like Bryce from Crescent City. She’s a woman who wears her outfits as armor and fights against sexist men with unwavering confidence. Even though I love my own name, if I had to change it, she would be my choice! If you haven’t guessed already, I LOVE reading. When I was in elementary school in Jordan, I did the announcements and had to read many books. My love for reading started from there, when moving to the U.S., I neglected reading because I had a whole new language to perfect. However, despite being surrounded by bullies in middle school at Rockland and feeling overwhelmed by high school, my passion for reading remained strong and helped me overcome these challenges. 

My first year of high school was an absolute whirlwind, I met the most amazing teacher, Mrs. Armand. However, my last day was truly freedom, I wanted the whole graduation ceremony to be over with so I can finally enjoy being out Pine Bush. On March 19th, 2015, I took part in something I’ll never forget. The Spanish department at my school was participating in culture week, and my teacher asked me to recite the pledge of allegiance in Arabic over the loudspeaker during morning announcements. I truly felt transported back to my elementary days so of course I said yes. However, when I finished reciting the pledge in Arabic, the reactions were instantaneous. As soon as I returned to the hallway after announcements were over, people started looking at me differently. It didn’t help that I was wearing a hijab - it was like a neon sign for every racist person to start spewing hate at me. People were calling the board constantly, American flags were being flown on cars, and people were writing “if you are in America, speak English” on their windshields. 

Things got even worse once the principal announced an apology for what had happened over the loudspeaker a few days later. That same apology was addressed to those very same people who had been bashing me and my religion just days prior! It felt like such a slap in the face - like none of it mattered or made any real difference. Fortunately, I had some amazing friends who stood by my side throughout this whole ordeal. They encouraged me not to give into the pressure or succumb to fear or hate, but instead focus on understanding each other’s differences. 

This experience gave me insight into what life is like for many minorities in our society – it showed me just how pervasive racism can be and how hard we must work as a society to combat it. In hindsight, this event has become both my favorite and least favorite moment from high school; while it opened my eyes to the prevalence of racism in my hometown, it also taught me valuable lessons about standing up for what you believe in despite societal pressures. Looking back, if there’s one thing I could do differently during that time period it would be to stand up directly against the principle who enabled such behavior, even if that means spitting in his face. 

However, when I'm not exploring different genres through books, I like playing the Ukulele and watching sci-fi dystopian films — they're one of my favorite genres in the film world! One movie that really sticks out in my mind is Tau. Written by Noga Landau and directed by Federico D'Alessandro, this science-fiction thriller follows a woman named Julia who gets kidnapped by an AI named Tau. The movie takes viewers on a wild ride through twists and turns as Julia attempts to escape Tau's control while he tries to learn more about human behavior. However, my least Favorite TV show is the Flash. This show made me interested in computer science and coding. But when the classes became too challenging for me, I had to look for another major that meshed with my interests. After experimenting with public health, which proved to be boring, I realized that communication was the perfect choice. Communications provides many career options such as marketing, public relations, or media. I celebrated that decision with making the ultimate chocolate cake for a friend who suggested communication would be perfect for me.

One of the most popular questions that people like to ask each other is, "If you had to choose your last meal on earth, what would it be?" For me, the answer has always been an easy one: three dates and zam zam water. Let me explain why I chose this combination of food and drink. Dates provide a great source of energy and have many health benefits such as helping with digestion, improving skin health, promoting bone health, and reducing blood pressure. Plus, they're delicious! Zam zam water is a sacred type of water that comes from a well that was miraculously opened thousands of years ago in Mecca by Ishmael's father Abraham. According to Islamic tradition, this special kind of water has healing properties both physically and spiritually. It's said to help cure ailments such as liver disease and mental illness as well as provide spiritual nourishment for the soul. As someone who believes in its power, I'd love to experience its effects at least once before I leave this world!

[dzthenerd490]

SCP-AAI vs SCP-ABA

The Foundation was in an uproar, only recently Site-AN suffered a containment breech at the hand of the Children of the Scarlet King. During their attack they unleashed SCP-ADR and SCP-AXP on unfortunate researchers and security as well as the holding cells of D Class. Mobile Task Force Nu-7 and Epsilon-11 are still trying to take back the base from the two contagions. Meanwhile Mobile Task Force Ares-7 "Heavy Metal", Division "Aluminum" is assisting in holding back the sudden surge of SCP-AMZ instances. Though unfortunately as it turns out they managed to take SCP-ABA, the Necronomicon. 

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"This was quite possibly the worst containment breach the Foundation has ever had to deal with!" Dr. Wicked sighed as he was in front of his desk, in front of him was four holographic windows showing Site Director Tanaka Eto, Site Director Veronica Pérez, Site Director Nancy James, and Dr. Malik. 

"We've faced much worse than this, MTF units are already gaining ground in your site Eto." 

"But they still stole SCP-ABA, this is not something to take lightly." Dr. Malik was using a stern tone to try to show Site Director James how naive she was being. However, Site Director Pérez had something else on her mind as she quickly changed the subject. 

"Eto, is it true that Blade Head was there?"

"... Yes." The five of them remained silent out of fear. All except Dr. Wicked, but he rarely ever expressed any emotion other than boredom to begin with. 

"So, the Scarlet Children are trying another ploy to resurrect the Davites?"

"That would assume the SCP-ABA-1 instances are compliant to the Scarlet King's will. They may be chaos loving ancient demons but that doesn't mean they will align with other ancients." Dr. Wicked nodded in agreement with what Dr. Malik said. 

"Either way, allowing the Scarlet Children to have access to the book is not good. We need to find them and that book now."

"I've already given the order to have Agents all over the world monitor Scarlet Children hide outs as well as raid their weaker places but so far nothing has come up." Dr. Malik felt surprised at Site Director James showing her more disciplined and organized side for once. Dr. Wicked smirked under his masked as he noticed Dr. Maliks expression. Eto then got back into the conversation.

"We have to keep searching, perhaps we should deploy Mobile Task Force Tau-5 as well as Hecate-A Division 'Oracle's Third Eye' again?"

"We can't unfortunately, the O5 are restricting deployment of high ranking MTF units until Site-AN is back under control. I'm guessing they want to keep them on reserve in case the situation gets worse. Like the Scarlet King using the chaos to create another Eldridge horror."

"Hmph, of course they would give such an order... still, I say it's something that needs to be done, I'm tired of having to deal with the Children of the Scarlet King, isn't about time we crushed them already?"

"If it was that simple, we would have done it a century ago, like their master the Children can rise again like a fucking cancer. No matter how many times we cut it out, there's always a chance a new one will grow. Possibly worse than the first one. Even if we do get rid of one there's several others out there ready to unleash hell should the opportunity arise." Site Director Eto remained silent as he couldn't refute what Dr. Wicked said. Suddenly Dr. Wicked heard banging outside of his door.

"Hm, there's something I need to take care of, signing off." Dr Wicked waved his hand and the holographic widows turned off. 

"Enter." Agent Bill Pardy Dr. Wicked personal security as well as self-proclaimed friend entered his office. 

"Doc bad news!"

"What is it, Bill?"

"It's those Scarlet freaks that attacked the other site! Their heading this way with a massive army and they got this big guy with a black dress and swords coming out of his face."

"Blade head! If he's here then... Activate all defenses and have security around SCP-AAI brought to maximum, no twice the maximum!"

"Uh, okay but why specifically that one?"

"They are already in possession of an SCP that brings forth ancient entities of chaos, now what other anomaly do you know has similar properties?"

"Fuck... I'll make it three times the maximum." Bill then ran down the hall and Dr. Wicked started activating the AFA-1's and AFA-2's in reserves. Afterwards, he sent out the Level 5 Emergency alarms to all Foundation staff so that researchers could lock down and evacuate while security units were to arm themselves to the teeth and stand guard for valuable assets. Finally, he got out his favorite pistol, a custom-made Foundation pistol that was looked like a desert eagle but was slightly bigger. It was made with an Plumanium, mixed with Orichalcum and Allaxounium allowing it to not only make quick and minor modifications to itself should Dr. Wicked ever require of it, but he can also fire laser shots if he suddenly runs out of ammo. The nozzle of the gun has small Vibration Crystals, granting the gun temporal and dimensional shifting properties so that no matter where his enemy is he won't miss. 

He also has four clips one loaded with bullets containing traces of Beryllium Bronze to take down Thaumaturgic reliant enemies. Bullets made of pure Demonic Steel to take down any demons within the ranks of the Scarlet Children. A few made of Insolubilis-chartaium to pierce through armor and poison the blood of more organic enemies. Finally, was his specialized one's created with Kallivantium mixed with Cold Iron. He knew that using such materials against blade head wouldn't cause any lasting damage or just make things worse. Which was a good thing that he wasn't planning on using all of them on Blade Head, though either way, only one thing was on his mind.   

"I'm going to destroy that fucking abomination."

***

The defensive turrets and Foundation security were already at war with the advancing Children of the Scarlet King Army. The best estimate of their numbers was 50 Scarlet Priests, 150 Scarlet Warlocks, 300 Scarlet Alchemists, 1,000 Scarlet Murderers, 1,000 Scarlet Chimeras, 1,000 Scarlet Beast, and thousands of Scarlet Zombies. It was quite obvious that not only was the situation dire, but the Children of the Scarlet King wanted something within Site-AD very badly. 

As such before anyone could even request it, the O5 Council already put in the order to have MTF Alpha-9, MTF Epsilon-9, MTF Nu-7, MTF Tau-5, MTF Zeus-1, MTF Hades-6, and MTF Hecate-Alpha deployed to Site-AD. Though how long it would take most of them to get there was an entirely different story. 

***

Though most of the battle and conflict was going on outside, there were still Scarlet Children that were phasing through the walls with Scarlet colored bloody portals. They tried getting in as soon as possible, as a result the interior of the site was blindsided before any proper defenses could be made.

Three more reached out through the manifested portals on the walls, but as soon as one of them poked out his head, it was blown off. The other's around him were shocked only to have their heads exploded as well. 

"God damn it, these freaks are everywhere! Where the hell is the rest of security?!" 

"Sir, they got held back because someone reported Blade head was already in the base."

"God damn it! He's heading for SCP-AAI! Follow me now!" Bill ran down the hall and toward the staircase though as he did there were two Scarlet Murderers on the stairs. He and the Security units following him quickly shot them full of holes. Though they staggered because of the shots, they laughed as it wasn't enough to kill either of them. 

"Argh! I don't got time to deal with you freaks!" Bill ran down the stairs but as he passed them, he grabbed them both and threw them into the middle and down the stairs. They all feel hard on the ground though still probably weren't dead. Just in case Bill pulled a pin on one of his atomization grenades and threw it down at their bodies. He didn't bother to check if it killed them as he left the stairs and entered a new floor. However, as he walked in, he saw bodies of Foundation Security and researchers everywhere. He grunted in anger as he tried to run faster but by the time he got to SCP-AAI's containment cell it was a mess. The tesseract containment cell, which was supposed to be indestructible by metaphysical means, yet right in front of Bill it was torn up and SCP-AAI was nowhere to be seen.

"... GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!"

***

"Where is the King's messiah?!" There was about 5 Scarlet Priests, one holding SCP-AAI and the other holding SCP-ABA. They were all running through the Site-AD, following a path of bloody trails. 

"He is currently fighting with the Wicked Heretic. Come now, it's time for the ritual to begin!" They found themselves in a room filled with bodies and around it was a few Scarlet Zombies and Scarlet murderers. They had several bodies formed around in a circle and in the middle of the circle was a sigil of the Scarlet King drawn entirely out of blood. 

"Everything is complete, now we just need the holy items and the time for deliverance will be upon us." One of the priests stepped forward and took both SCP-AAI and SCP-ABA.

"Without the messiah, how are we to keep the ancients under our control?"

"We will simply improvise, besides what is it that our lord asks in exchange for bestowing upon us power?" The priest removed his robe to show his naked body covered in sigils and thaumaturgic symbols of the Scarlet King.

"A sacrifice!" He smiled showing his sharp and vicious teeth, he then walked into the circle and sat in the middle. He placed the SCP-AAI in front of him while continuing to hold SCP-ABA in his lab with it open on the page of summoning Deadites. He recited the spell but quickly after started reciting another ancient spell to allow the Scarlet King have domain on souls. They knew the Cenobites and Deadites were most likely not loyal to the Scarlet King but if they could corrupt them with his influence, they would have all the power they need to release their king form the Abyss. 

He quickly started chanting and as he did the engraved symbols on his skin started bleeding giving his words more power. As this was happening the bodies around them were being possessed by Deadites but thanks to the spell they were being contained. However, they were putting great strain on the spell with their own overwhelming power. The priest was slowly deteriorating but still determined to achieve their goal and continued. Soon SCP-AAI started floating up and shifting its pieces in an attempt to unleash the Cenobites. 

Suddenly several chains manifested form the roof and floor, they hooked onto the priest's skin and nearly tore it off. The priest only grunted in pain for a moment but then laughed as his blood flowed onto the chains and started glowing in a scarlet light. He used the otherworldly energy form the chains to further power his spell and control over SCP-AAI. Suddenly in front of him a rift in reality tore open and started showing several nightmarish worlds. 

"What the fuck are you doing?!"

"Knocking it off you dumb bitch!"

"Fucking fucks! You don't know what you're messing with!" The Deadites started yelling and roaring with inhuman voices and protesting. However, none of the Scarlet Children worshipped him. Instead, one of the priests ordered the Scarlet Zombies to assist in the ritual. The Scarlet Zombies walked to the binded Deadites and started beating them and stabbing their bodies. The Deadites roared in anger as their blood started flowing toward the rift and the chains to help fuel the priest's spell. 

"Enough!" Suddenly the rift closed and from it flashed a blinding light. Once it faded, Pinhead, Deepthroat, and Butterball appeared where the rift did and right in front of the priest. 

"You will not use what is ours so casually!"

"No! Impossible, my power should be working! You are bound by the Scarlet King!"

"Do not be mistaken mortal! You and your king's pitiful magic can only get you so far. But we can show you how to go even farther!"

"I have no interest in your kinks false angle! You will bow to the Scarlet King!" The priest then roared monstrously as the blood from this body shot out towards the Cenobites only to quickly burn in flames. 

"We bow to no one but Leviathan. You, however, have used the box. By our order, you are now bound to us!" Suddenly the chains ripped off the priest's skin making him scream in pain and anger. He quickly healed himself with a Thaumaturgic Spell that turned his blood and muscles into new thick and ferocious looking armor. His face was covered in this armor with the only opening being his vicious mouth. He also grew two antlers on his head resembling that of the Scarlet King. He risked towards the Cenobites to rip them apart, but his claws merely phased through them. However, he was instantly pulverized into a bloody mess when Pinhead slapped him on the head. 

Chatterer then manifested and walked towards the other Scarlet Priests, they all yelled while pulling out weapons with scarlet Thaumaturgic symbols. One Preist with a sword stabbed it into Chatterer only for a hundred black swords to stab through him seemingly out of nowhere. Chatterer lifted the sword to show he wasn't even close to being stabbed. As his body falls apart another priest yells out in anger and stabs himself with a dagger. As a result, his body quickly starts drying up, but he smiles at Chatterer. Out of the ashes of his body several evil demons loyal to the Scarlet King manifested and charged at Chatterer.

Chatterer seemingly didn't move as each of them disappeared after being beaten to complete obliteration. The final priest was terrified and backed up in fear, though he first threw one of his daggers at Chatterer. He started chanting a spell to get Chatterer under his control only it didn't work. Chatterer then pulled out the dagger and started cutting up his own stomach. Suddenly he appeared before the priest with chunks of his guts and blood. He started smearing it all on the priest's face and not long after he started screaming in pain as he was melting. 

Finally, the Deadites were released and started slaughtering the Scarlet Zombies and Murderers. Any Scarlet Murderers that tried to attack the Cenobites or leave were quickly hooked by chains manifesting everywhere and ripping them apart. After a quick and gruesome battle, it ended with the four Cenobites on one side of the room and the eight Deadites on the other side. 

"Those who came before, the Deadites."

"Bleeech! The Order of the Gash! You have collected your sacrifice! Begone!" 

"Oh? The Ancients believe they can order us the Servants of Leviathan to withdraw."

"You are bound by your little box! You have no more authority in this realm, so fuck off!"

"You are mistaken, The Scarlet King has used your power to increase the power of the box. Though his will your essence touched the box, you are now bound under us."

"Bullshit! You dare challenge the ancients!"

"I dare to follow the will of Leviathan. It is you who dares to defy the ancient laws." One of the Deadites roared in a horrific screech as it floated towards Pinhead. Chains shot out form the celling and floor to hook on its skin ripping it off, but the Deadite kept flying towards Pinhead. He managed to punch Pinhead driving the pins keeper into his skin; however, Pinhead looked at the Deadite unimpressed. Deepthroat then grabbed the Deadite and ripped his body in two and threw both pieces back at the other Deadites.

"Such power and so much potential, you will be great experiments for our exploits."

"Fucking Cenobite fucks!" Another Deadite flew up and his arm suddenly ripped apart to show a sword made of human bone. He flew towards Butterball and slashed him in the stomach, only for him to see his hand and see it was bitten off. Butterball then smiled at the Deadite, grabbed his stomach wound and ripped it wider. Several fleshing arms reached out and grabbed the Deadite forcing it into Butterball's stomach. Once the Deadite was eaten, Butterball then burped and seemingly laughed at the despair of the Deadites. 

The Deadites thought this was impossible, they were the ancients. They were the army of anti-life, the creatures who knew no fear only how to bring it to others, the ones who would claim the mortal world from the vile mortals. They were the angels that would finally bring an end to the vile mortals that destroyed their paradise. Yet now, now for the first time ever, they were afraid. The Cenobites were not creatures of good or evil they served no one but the Leviathan the ancient fallen angle of all Dark Arts. If anyone could destroy them it was going to be him and his army. 

The Deadites quickly fused together to create a single body, meanwhile Pinhead was calmly pulling the pins out of his head and positioning them back to the correct place. The Other Cenobites just watched calmly as they wondered if this new form the Deadites were creating would actually make a difference. The result was a demonic monster with large horns, crimsons skin, large yellow eyes, and large arms with sharp claws. It slashed the Cenobites on the stomach visibly making them bleed though they all looked at one another impressed without showing visible pain. 

"Impressive, and our master agrees. It is time to expand our horizons. The Deadites will prove to be a wonderful experiment."

"What?! You BDSM fucks! You're not taking me anywhere!"

"Oh, but why not? We have such sights to show you." A rift then opened behind Pinhead, and he walked in with Deepthroat and Butterball following him. The Deadite mutant tried to escape but Chatterer grabbed it by the neck and dragged him into the rift. It roared and screamed as it got closer to the rift. Finally, it fell in, and the rift closed. 

***

Only about three hours later was the containment finally reestablished at Site-AN. Mobile Task Force Epsilon-11 was worked to the bone as the Foundation had never suffered two containment breaches at the same time and never as bad as either one that occurred. Though thankfully they were still prepared none the less and the fact that it ended faster than everyone expected made everything much easier. 

Though once they got to Site-AD it ended up being a calmer than expected. Though as calm as you can get with dead bodies everywhere. They managed to find SCP-AAI and SCP-ABA within the same room. As per protocol, they grabbed SCP-AAI with an extended grabbing tool and placed SCP-ABA within a thick bag created specifically to suppress SCP-ABA's anomalous properties. Thankfully it would only take about a week before their containment cells would be rebuilt so the items could be put back into proper containment. Still, this was one of the worst containments breaches the Foundation had ever experienced, just another reason the Children of the Scarlet King are a massive threat to all life and reality.

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[lebensmoode]

Sedang menikmati kegiatan malam yg udah 2-3 hari belakangan ini nonton dating show sambil telponan sama Rubby. It starts after my night class biar gak feeling guilty karna nonton wae ✌🏻. The show titled Love is Blind yang japan version, di mana para pesertanya hanya bisa ngobrol, ngedate, dan pacaran lewat dua buah pod (atau ruangan tertutup) yg saling berhadapan. Alias, they can't see each other faces or even looks. Menariknya, mereka cuma bisa terkoneksi via suara dan obrolan, expressing themselves through it all, tanpa tau ini yang diajak ngobrol orangnya, tampangnya, tingginya, begimana. Beneran lu harus ngorek the inside of the person yg gak kasatmata; something that I think is the most crucial one.

Para pesertanya sebagian besar ngaku kalo selama ini mereka gabisa tuh pacaran sama seseorang tanpa mandang fisik, pasti itu yang diliat dulu. And it turned out bad, karena dalemnya busuk ceuna :D Ya memang gabisa kita pukul rata ya, masih ada kok yang ganteng cantik tapi tetep baik dan gak toxic, di webtoon contohnya 😆 Dan beberapa yang ikutan acara ini ngaku minderan, dan pengen calon pasangannya nanti tuh bisa melihat value dia dari "dalem" bukan dari "luar". Emang bisa se-relate ini :')

Nah yang jadi pembahasan gw sama Rubby adalah pertanyaan2 peserta di pod untuk calon pasangannya, kadang juga kecemasan mereka soal dunia pernikahan dan memilih pasangan hidup, kadang juga kriteria terpenting yg harus calon pasangan punya. Menarik banget sih gw rasa, you're in a state where you don't have to think about that holy ✨penampilan✨ yg bisa bikin insecure sejagad raya. You just talk from heart to heart, value to value, perspective to perspective, desire to desire. After you feel that "this someone" is right and matches you, you can propose them, and theeeeeen you're finally allowed to see their face!

Greget banget momen mereka pada akhirnya ketemu setelah lamaran diterima. Ada yg merasa cocok sama bayangannya, ada yg merasa jauh banget woy dari perkiraan. Kirain tampangnya ramah, rupanya berkumis dan pirang. Kirain kurus, rupanya gemuk. But those insecurities gone karena emosi mereka sudah "connect". Gw gak mentah2 bilang penampilan itu gak penting ya, mereka juga setelah saling ketemu diberi waktu untuk bareng sebelum akhirnya menikah. Means, they are given times to get used to their partner's face and look, since I believe it's necessary. Gak boleh denial kalo apa-apa tuh mata adalah yg pertama kali berfungsi, so to feel love we can use our eyes as well, bukan feeling aja.

Sekarang udah masuk episode 8 and feeling more into it. Sebenernya ini keracunan adek gw yang berbulan-bulan belakangan doyan nonton acara dating. Gw yang awalnya skeptis bilang semua itu hanyalah settingan malah nelen ludah sendiri wkwk. Kalo gw merasa semuanya settingan gw gak akan bisa enjoy nontonnya, so I change the way I see it and ya, I can fully enjoy the show now. Apalagi gw bisa sambil belajar analisis prilaku manusia hahaha sokap bgt hw~~

Love is blind, gais, but you aren't 🫣

[nitrosodiumofficialuses]

Toxic Waters Lite: The Gimmick Weapon (Part 2)

I was going to type this up yesterday on my phone, but I decided not to risk my carpal tunnel. Anyway, we now have two more contenders, the acid gun and the biological weapon (i'll be calling it the bio-gun).

The acid gun, I planned to bridge the gap between a flamethrower and an explosive weapon. It'd fire a ball of green goo with a projectile arc, leaving a puddle which would poison enemies who walk through it. Mechanically, it's not too different to a grenade launcher, but I had an idea for a secondary ability - acid can melt coral tiles. My idea was you to go through The Last Of Us-esque infested areas, where you can go the intended route, or melt yourself a new path. This is cool, but with the limited aiming of TWL, accurately melting a path would be difficult. If Nicolas is two tiles tall, and he fires his guns from his waist, it would be difficult to properly make a path that you could walk through. From the player's perspective, it makes the coral-melting ability seem more like a fun addition to the world, rather than an intended feature, relegating it to a gimmick of the tool or a speedrunning strategy akin to Tau jumps in Half Life. For level design, this then means you either put loot in melt-only areas and starve players of resources they don't know how to reach, or disincentivise coral-melting by not hiding any loot there, which means players won't use the acid gun for its secondary feature. If TWL had mouse aiming, or was 3D, an acid gun like this could work wonders, but for our purposes, it would just be a downgraded grenade launcher with some weird mechanics.

Finally, the bio-gun. In old Toxic Waters documents and concept art from 2020 and 2021, a weapon is referenced called the "U.L.F." or Ultimate Life Form, a living tool with various functions, including spraying infectious goo, launching an egg grenade, and firing poisonous barbs. It would "reload" by feasting on corpses, both human and mutant. This is mostly lifted from Half Life's hornet gun or "hivehand", and the term "biological weapon" can be expanded on as well. On one hand, grabbing a squirming cuttlefish-like mutant from its tank and using it like a toxic squirt gun is cool, but the actual mechanics of a weapon like this is curious. Firstly, let's look at the "Functionality Triangle" I created for the enemies of TWL: is it a cool idea, does it work in the setting, and does it work in the game? The bio-gun passes the first two easily, weaponizing mutant fish is cool and 100% in line with Hydromorph, but how would it function in game? Most venomous aquatic creatures spread their venom via contact, i.e. stonefish and blue-ringed octopus. There isn't really a creature I know of that spits its venom like that, much less underwater, which does beg the question of how long your tentacled wonder-weapon will last out of its natural habitat. The "eat to reload" feature is so unique and awesome, really an extrapolation of similar reloading animations in Half Life (i.e. feeding the Spore Launcher moss for it to regurgitate at enemies) and creates a realistic way you would "reload" a weapon like this, short of throwing it away and grabbing another when it runs dry like a Halo plasma weapon. One thought I did have was a long tubular coral, mounted on your shoulder like a rocket launcher and ejecting a suicidal, explosive fish not unlike the Crashfish of Subnautica. If not a weapon, a similar "coral mortar" would be found in infested areas, growing near to squirming, clicking masses of Snapsprouts.

Given each of these options a feasibility study, it seems clear to me that the Bio-Mine Launcher will be the one I port to TWL. The Harpoon Gun was a tennis racket at a football game, the Riot Gun was an extendable hand with limited uses, the Acid Gun was a booby-trap with a redundant floor-melting function, and the Bio-Gun was a cool idea but a bad weapon. When I go to college tomorrow, the next thing on the itinerary will be creating the touchscreen save points, and perhaps some more animations for Nicolas pertaining to his other guns (shotgun and bio-mine).

#gamedev #toxic waters lite #devlog

[ouanxi]

Anonymous (via curiouscat) den boleh tau nggak how you describe soonwoo gitu... kayak soonwoo from your point of view.. karena di beberapa au kamu tuh kamu selalu selipin soonwoo.. (luv)

aku udah lama mau melakukan ini (bikin my own soonwoo manifesto). i saw someone doing it on dreamwidth and while i agree to a lot of points that they mentioned, i just feel like writing my additional thoughts.

i’m a sucker for friends to lovers. it’s always the trope that ties all my otps together. kalau gak friends to lovers, tuh, at least situasi di mana mereka harus punya established comfort. and in the case of soonwoo, it’s pretty much the same. established comfort at their very core.

established comfort di sini aku definisiin sebagai situasi di mana sebagian besar interaksi mereka yang kita persepsikan itu (asumsinya) afek positifnya sumbernya dari dinamika mereka yang gak bisa kita lihat (gimana coba). i mean to be honest, it’s mostly just vibe (and the crowd boos...)

(edit: after re-reading this before posting, i think most rps shipping uses this principle of the unknown to world-build or to explain things that can’t be explained. but—)

—but actually, i’ve never been more serious! there’s something about soonwoo that makes me feel so at ease—with them, love seems like it’s not a labor at all.

the thing about soonwoo is actually how everything about them feels so effortless. every cue of love you perceive from them feel like they can always be bigger, and the reason that you can’t see how big that love between them might be, is because we don’t know. we are simply outsiders looking in to years long friendship, relationship, mutual liking. it’s the way they don’t have to be joined at the hip because you know, they want to be side by side. it’s just that they have known and they have loved so much that conventional display of affection is trivial. they might want to, but they don’t have to. they’re secure. you don’t hear i love you. you see lingering taps, chin resting on a shoulder, i don’t mind being stupid with you because you love making people laugh, and favorite dish—warm and remembered. 

that is my general idea of soonwoo. meanwhile, alternate universe’s soonwoo(s) are just the manifestation of that general idea into various possibilities of how they might turn out. given different situation, given different stimuli. given different universe.

and to quote my absolute favorite line of all time, from the exceptional work of one sulfate (ao3):

Middle-school crush—who knows, maybe even elementary school—grown into the shape of their mature selves.  

(and, scene)

#i was high #i didnt get caffeine today #i am vomiting love and tenderness