#I made this forever ago and hated it

[baconpncakes]

House is so funny. Whenever he can't be with Wilson he just finds the nearest manlet who can tolerate him and they become temporary boy best friends

Patterns of Behavior

#posting something i sent to darrin forever and a half ago bc that last thing made me think of it lol #hate crimes md #house md #lucas douglas #juan alvarez #gregory house #my post

[lover-of-mine]

No, but this is definitely my most controversial opinion, but the whole thing with Buck and Eddie being the same age comes back to the fact that they are mirrors of each other. Down to the tattoos with mirrored placement, yes, but like, narratively speaking too. They've been running parallel to each other their whole lives and them being the same age makes that even more intense. Eddie had to grow up too fast and Buck didn't have to grow up at all. Eddie was forced to take care of more than he could and Buck was never allowed to care as much as he wanted. Both of them ran because their lives were overwhelming. Buck gives Eddie the tools to slow down for the first time in years while Eddie gives Buck something he's allowed to care about. They're two sides of the same coin. They complement each other. They're each other's missing piece. And that's so much better when they're the same age.

#'oh but that makes them boring :(' #can you give me a logical explanation as to why it makes them boring?????? #ugh #also i hate the old man joke. have been tapping out of fics about since forever. but they still work with just a few months? #'oh when i was your age' 'when? 2 months ago?' ' yeah you're old now' 'im 47 days older than you asshole' #like the 5 years thing NEVER made sense to me #and the way most people get mad about this particular development is so fascinating to me #anyway #controversial #911 #buddie thoughts #i still have thoughts but some of them dont need to be published

[mimikyuno]

homura (after a whole movie dedicated to the mechanisms of her inner psyche and set in a world that is literally her subconscious, populated by little dolls that are the manifestation of her emotions and self-hatred, after a whole movie where we get to see that she loves and cares for her friends and above all she deeply loves madoka, after the most heartbreaking scene in the history of anime where she realises madoka never wanted to sacrifice herself, after sacrificing herself to try and keep madoka’s wish alive anyway and keep her safe from the incubators, after being saved by madoka and feeling undeserving of it yet again, after finally giving up on trying to preserve madoka’s wish and creating a universe in which madoka can be happy and her friends too and the incubators eat shit, after showing how much she hates herself for it): i’m evil! i’m a demon! i’m evil incarnate!

people: yeah that checks out, homura is evil.

#people see a traumatised teenage girl who hates herself and decide she’s evil. i’ll nevet forgive people who slandered her #especially that dude who made that video with over 1mil views about how homura was never a good person….. #i watched it years ago and it still makes my blood boil. i remember making angry posts here lol #it fueled me to make my homura defense video essay tho so. one good thing #UGHHH i’ll forever be so bitter about this tho. like u have 0 media literacy skills. #madohomu #madoka magica #homura akemi #pmmm #mine

[aropride]

if you imagine that guy from saw and he's sawing his own leg off in the bathroom but it's just like, a normal bathroom and he's not chained to the wall or anything and he really didn't have to saw off his leg at all but he imagined a situation in which he would have to do that so he decided to get it over with as soon as possible. well that's how i approach all my interpersonal relationships

#text #i decided in my brain that my best friend hates me (she made a comment that hurt my feelings today and then a different comment #several weeks ago so basically shes sick of me and she hates me and wants me to die etc) #so now i am trying to dig my brain out of panic-mode trying to restructure my future around her inevitably getting tired of me #(& also trying not to upset or inconvenience her or anyone in any way in case this is the last straw and they Realize I'm A Bad Person) #and then also all my other friends will leave as well cuz they'll be like Wow if she didnt want to be around him anymore shes probably got #a good reason... and then everyone leaves me and i die. and yes i do this every time one of my friends accidentally hurts my feelings #you know when u accidentally step on ur pet's tail and u imagine a world where they hate u forever. yeah #it's like that except for someone steps on MY tail and i decide they hate me forever because my tail was in the way of their foot #does this make sense. Feel free to diagnose me in the comments #neg

[lewisbian]

"If racing ends and I don't make it in the fashion industry, I can always be a stunt driver." - LEWIS HAMILTON for GQ Middle East + bonus

#lewis hamilton #f1 #x #i made these forever ago literally bc i hate the coloring of this video #like why did they make him look green. omg #anyways. he's my princess

[serdtse]

//

#my friend defended her phd thesis today and I’m so happy for her #we were on this journey together until I quit two years ago and it’s amazing how well-researched her thesis is #however by the end of the day I can’t help but think that I could #do that too maybe? or I wouldn’t be able to? #also watching her defend her thesis and seeing familiar faces made me somehow nostalgic abt the whole academic setting #and lately I’ve been feeling such a lack of purpose in anything I do I wonder if it were different had I stayed #or is it nostalgia lying? I think factually I quite hated being at uni in the last semesters #but my problem was the supervisor mainly and I try to imagine now how it could be with someone else #so many maybes and hypotheticals.. maybe I’m where I’m meant to be as of now even if still not happy lol #oh i also remembered how i thought i would be lonely forever bc at my uni most of the lecturers are middle-aged and over women #and now i simply sit at home alone all day #funny huh

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

oughh......

#laya plays dragon age #da2 #oc: liam hawke #this happened a bit ago already & i wanted to draw sth for it but idk if i will finish that #but i gotta yell abt them anyway because OGH. #i have a lot of emotions about this quest ok #bartrand was the perfect scapegoat he was perfect to direct all the rage and pain at all these years #years of imagining gleeful revenge while bartrand is gloating and laughing like an evil soulless bastard #and then you meet him and he is just. a pathetic husk of a man with barely any own will left #and whats worse. varric is so so torn up about it #varric. the guy who never makes anything about him and who will always handwave and joke when something hits too close to home #drops all efforts to be smart and is just. desperate. begs hawke to not kill his brother #and liam wants to want bartrand dead so bad. he wishes he could look him in the eye and enjoy taking his life #and he knows varric will listen to him if he insisted. he knows when it comes down it it varric will yield to his decision #but he sees this broken guy who is barely the villain he kept projecting onto him and he sees varric and he sees two doomed siblings #and knows what its like to lose your sibling to your own blade #and he cant do it #and he hates it so much. but he wont do it. #and its the reason why i cant decide who dealt the killing blow for bethany bc it makes this scene juicy in different ways #if varric kills bethy its equally wanting to spare each other their siblings blood on their hands #as it is taking some form of revenge (on liams part). we both killed each others siblings. now we are even #the revenge part would still be there if liam did the blow on bethany himself. you made me do that and now i will take bartrand for it #but its also much more i know what its like. i wont make go through that too #if varric killed bethy and then also bartrand it would be more #''its my fault she is dead. i will take the revenge she/you deserves if you tell me to even though it will hurt me #dunno. all good variations i will. have to rotate them in my head more #or maybe just never decide idk they can be in canon limbo forever #anyways thats it for shouting into the void about them for now it Will happen again

[sluckythewizard]

SHHH SH HEYYY HEY DONT TELL ANYONE BUT... ive been workin on smth since BITB came out..... itsa lil musical animatic involvin kian and becky.... ITS NO WHERE NEAR DONE YET but loooook look im puttin lil screenshots under the cut. its supposed to go along with Am I In Heaven? by King Gizzard n the Lizard Wizard. infact yknow what cmere come sit with be bc ALOT of songs from the 'IM IN YOUR MIND FUZZ' album makes me think about becky and kian. oh my god. those two make me so damn emotional. like Her and I was the first one to rly resonate with me, and EMPTY was another good one, all just stuff about. yknow LOVE!! doomed by the narrative yet burning SO SO brightly in its last moments, holding hands, playing music, THEY WERE SO IN LOVE WITH YOU THAT THE COPY OF THEM LOVED YOU, AND YOUR COPY LOVES THEM TOO. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL, CRUMBLING, BURNING, HISSING, SQUIRMING, MELTING, CLICKING LOVE STORY..

GET OVER HERE N SCREAM WITH MEEE I LOVE SCREAMING ABOUT THINGS

#THIS IS A DRAFT that i made like. months ago. woopsie. #BUT IM CHIPPING AWAY AT IT AGAIN. IT CANT STAY UNFINISHED FOREVER. ONE DAY YOU WILL ALL SEE! YOULL ALL SSSEEEE!!!!!!! #no reblogs either this stays between US!!!!!!!!!! #and if you guys like it enough i might post an old fuckin wip i have all packaged together on youtube. its a VIDEO it goes w the MUSIC!! #SOUND WITH THE MOVING IMAGE?? IVE ONLY EVER DONE IT ONCE!!! #ill post the Lord of Lightning animatic i made on tumblr when i get the chance. in the meantime i ahve it posted on twitter. GO FETCH #but THIS SECOND ONE is out there.. all synced together.. #but its a wip and its rough and old and scuffed and i HATE IT. my son whom i wish was dead #but you can see it. for the small small price of uh. begging. #also ouuhh my god i love becky and kian so much... they make me so emotional.. SOMETHING ABT DOOMED SHIPS... #even as the boat sinks these two clung together so tightly. they really really did love eachother so much. even after ten years of ROTTING #of sitting and waiting and wondering 'where is she?' is she lost? hurt? did something happen? is she okay? did she even want to be here? #does she hate me? did she leave because she hated me? she never wanted to see me again? where is she? where is she? guess ill write a song #FOR TEN YEARS. when i was just busy. i was distracted. so much came up. things got serious. my dream became clear and i had to chase it #i didnt know you were waiting. im sorry. i should have chased the thought of you more. but i was busy. i was just busy. #i wish that i could apologize with the throat that was my own. i hope this copy will suffice. i hope this copy will suffice. UGH

[yersina]

Me staring at my AO3 inbox and all the unread, unreplied-to comments that are in it:

#sina rambles #rip to all the ppl from over half a year ago that I haven’t replied to. #I am so sorry. I see you. your comments give me joy. #unfortunately my brain is Very Silly and has made this as Task so naturally I hate it and will take forever to accomplish it #this is the least social of social interaction and it is still Exhausting #anyway. in case you were a person wondering why you never got a reply lol. or in case you wanted solidarity in not replying to comments #the struggle is real

[best-enemies]

Sure I have like a thousand wips but instead I just picked up my 2 year old wip that has over 10 chapters and nearly 100 pages worth of fic about Patience narrating how the Doctor was the worst husband she ever had (mind you. She married Rassilon) and picking up on clues that he might have cheated on her with the Master.

#writing #thoschei #i remembered i had written this story forever ago and then just kept writing lmao #i know like 2 canon things about her i just made up a bunch of stuff #this is the most i've ever written in my life but it's so entertaining #might publish it sometime but i'll have to translate the whole thing to english so it might take a while lol #this is one of the most fun characters i've ever written. but my girl makes a lot of bad decisions #the doctor is a total dick in it but you have to understand patience wasn't immune to his twink charms #the master (actually koschei) is in it quite a lot. he hates patience's guts. she finds him creepy #i have zero commmitment to canon i've just read up patience's wikia and im like yeah #i'm nearly 100 pages i'll just ignore this wikia

[dying-suffering-french-stalkers]

god help me i'm going insane about dickson xenoblade again

#this is what i get for thinking about lord of the rings too hard this week (specifically denethor / gríma / saruman and the like) #thinking about the way anthony may delivered “when will you learn you HAVE no future?” #he thinks shulk is fully DEAD at that point. he thinks HE killed him. which he very much meant to. but now that the kid is no longer there #now that the terrible future he's been preparing for and actively working to bring about has in fact come about #i don't know that dickson really cared anymore. he played his part he did the deed expected and he did it unquestioningly. So What Now? #well. now nothing. now the world that he spent so long biding his time in; so long getting enmeshed in (even for nefarious purposes) #is about to end; is about to be gone forever. #sure zanza will probably just create another world and maybe he (dickson) will have Even More Power in the new one #(though that's not a given! he doesn't know for SURE his lord and god will keep his promise!) #but like. what the hell does he care at this point #dickson SAYS he wants power but i suspect that long long ago what the giant dickson really wanted was SURVIVAL. #we never get to know just how he became a disciple or what the giant civilization looked like in its heyday or how it ended #but in MY headcanon dickson saw that some kind of destruction coming and he wanted Out #and maybe he hated his peers and figured any power and prestige that came from this bargain was just a bonus #i think he thought of himself as a saruman type: powerful; remote; far above the petty troubles of mortals (even the long-lived high entia) #but i have always headcanoned that by his later days (i.e. when he started engaging w/colony 9; machina village; etc. in earnest) #he committed too hard to the bit and started “going native” as it were; started to give a shit in ways that he would never dare admit #maybe not as much of a shit as; you know; a regular guy would. but more than an immortal disciple and horseman of the apocalypse should. #and all the time knowing that all the world he'd seen would soon be gone #maybe everyone else can get fucked. but shulk had to die too. and that's what their god MADE them to do. #he can't allow himself to care or to hope for another option bc in his mind it's already over; decided; that's it #what else can you do in the face of ultimate power but bow to it and take whatever scraps may fall to an obedient servant? #“you have no future” nor does he except that shulk came back. except that the peoples of bionis/mechonis just wouldn't accept Fate. #and in some final rebellious corner of his mind he starts putting eggs in shulk's basket. “if they can't even defeat telethia they won't #stand a chance against me (or zanza)” so let's see if they CAN. oh they did? how about a dragon? oh fuck they defeated the dragon too? #well fuck. maybe there WAS another option all along. but will/can they stand against me; the final disciple? oh they can?? #guess i'll die then bc i'm not looking THAT in the face. i am NOT unpacking my cowardice/failure/lack of vision after all these years. #good luck with that tho <3 you're welcome for the training btw. where i'm going i don't have to see your trauma assuming you live that long. #dickson #xenoblade

[nezhcs]

Juliette Cai, These Violent Delights

You know me. Running around. Living life. Committing arson.

#juliette cai #these violent deligts #tvdedit #[i made this 6 months ago and HATE it. dont judge. i just havent posted in forever so here] #fictiondaily #fictionnet #librarysource #userrsun #userrshay #tuserlucie #tuserzoya #storyseekers #edits.ri

[messmersflame]

I'll probably be on this website until it explodes itself and is gone forever . toxic relationship.

#been here since 2009 baby!! #been through multiple accounts!!! #I did try twitter but I hate it there #I have cohost I made forever ago and might make a bsky and sheezy as options to use when it goes to shit

[bpdamandayoung]

Lyanna Stark this Lyanna Stark that - Elia Martell is MY ASOIAF dead girl

#people talking about her poor health.... tywin hoping she dies so he could marry cersei to rhaegar... #thoughts are being thunk #my poor girl i would have kept you alive forever #anyways as you can tell i'm rereading asoiaf bc it made me crazy like 10 years ago and i need to experience that again #with more formed brain and stuff #also it keeps me offline love that for me #ofc no hate to lyanna just everytime elia is mentioned my heart breaks more #thank u bye again i'm Reading #should probably tag this if i wanted to post more #rereading asoiaf bc my brain is more formed now

[crispyblonde]

                  Creativity is like electricity.

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#╰––– » 「 ✞ 」 𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗼. ┊ respect the drip karen #everyone's gif promos have me inspired #but i made this forever ago and don't hate it somehow

[mitamicah]

It is not often I can stay away from sharing the joy of music and songwriting at an open mic event - today was one of those nights unfortunately...

#i felt so out of place and awkward there #maybe it wasnt the right time #it seemed like everybody knew one another and i was the odd one out #listening to the person starting out the evening by playing and talking about his songs made me feel so insignificant #i felt so tiny so useless and so utterly alone #like what i would share would not be worth anything #so i went home #the self hate cloud overtook me and i am still feeling the boiling anger but directed at myself #i am glad i went there in a way but yeah it wasnt meant to be #hopefully i will calm down soon so i can go to bed without hating myself too much #that would be nice #could be now i should actually respond to inbox messages for forever ago #hopefully that wont make me look attention/validationseeking #sometimes i wish i had a partner if only to have somebody to hold when i feel shitty #in such moments i feel extra touchstarved #i needed the pressure to get myself out of my head somehow #so i bore my nails into my neck #a hug would have been better and less hurtful #but nobody is around and i only have myself to blame for that #stop it micah nothing good comes out of these thoughts #sorry about that #micahs thoughts