#so now i am trying to dig my brain out of panic-mode trying to restructure my future around her inevitably getting tired of me

[arowrath]

if you imagine that guy from saw and he's sawing his own leg off in the bathroom but it's just like, a normal bathroom and he's not chained to the wall or anything and he really didn't have to saw off his leg at all but he imagined a situation in which he would have to do that so he decided to get it over with as soon as possible. well that's how i approach all my interpersonal relationships

#text #i decided in my brain that my best friend hates me (she made a comment that hurt my feelings today and then a different comment #several weeks ago so basically shes sick of me and she hates me and wants me to die etc) #so now i am trying to dig my brain out of panic-mode trying to restructure my future around her inevitably getting tired of me #(& also trying not to upset or inconvenience her or anyone in any way in case this is the last straw and they Realize I'm A Bad Person) #and then also all my other friends will leave as well cuz they'll be like Wow if she didnt want to be around him anymore shes probably got #a good reason... and then everyone leaves me and i die. and yes i do this every time one of my friends accidentally hurts my feelings #you know when u accidentally step on ur pet's tail and u imagine a world where they hate u forever. yeah #it's like that except for someone steps on MY tail and i decide they hate me forever because my tail was in the way of their foot #does this make sense. Feel free to diagnose me in the comments #neg