#I have my reasons and my motives

[gipzisays209]

No way! I feel flattered!!!

Remember what I said before? About the sysmed server not knowing I exist? Well! It appears as though that would now be an incorrect statement! (More under the cut)

Let's go at this like it's English class, shall we? Dissect this post for it's contents?

"If you get this server taken down, we'll just make another server. ... If it comes to that, we'll just share the links in private GCs ..."

Well. Ain't that a kick in the head! If one server gets taken down, it's entirely possible to take another one down for the exact same reason! And saying you'll only hand out links privately... hate to break it to ya, but I, the host, am a Theatre kid. Acting is a hobby, and one I'm damn good at. You hand out links privately, only to people you deem trustworthy? Honey, that is my forte. ;)

"You're getting mad and defensive over us calling you out ... Instead of wasting your time reporting our server, maybe focus your energy on reporting servers that are actually harming people?"

Whoa, slow down there, hoss. Take a breather. You ever thought about why we're here? In your Discord? Taking screenshots and leaking them?

It's because, surprise surprise, fakeclaiming is harmful. It doesn't matter what it is, if you're getting fakeclaimed over a unique and individual experience/identity, that can (and sometimes will, sadly) cause a spiral that can lead to some nasty places. Depression. Isolation.

Even places like self-harm and suicide.

We are here because your server is harmful. We are here because you present an active threat to the community. But of course your HIGHNESS can't bear to think they're the problem!

"Addressing the ban claims, at one point we did ban a lot of faker systems from our server while rooting out a mole. Everyone from that event has since been unbanned. If you are still banned, its for a reason. Claims of us 'banning just because we can' are false. I could take a screenshot of our ban list and give a reason for every single one."

*Sips cup*

Yeah, I think we can move on from this one.

And now, the quote I've been so desperately wanting to address...

"Gip, because I know you’re in here, kindly stop sucking Ghost’s dick and get your own opinions, it would do everyone good. That goes for all of his little zombie followers. If your lives revolve around people on an online messaging app screwing around, re-evaluate your life choices."

Wow, where do I start with this one?

Blatant misgendering, bordeline going against their own rules when it comes to naming people on the server- I have 20 followers! And even then, you're still going to drop a version of my username? Just like that? Mmmmm...

I have my own opinions, thanks. I don't need a circlejerk discord to make me feel better about my own shitty fucking existence, cuz I have the balls to outright admit I'm a petty asshole with no fucking life. And my opinion is that people like Sophie, people like Cambrian and Lunastas and Guardian- all of them are fucking right. They have all proven they do their goddamn research, they actually give back to the communities they inhabit, and most of all, they aren't leeching off of people just by fucking existing, as hard as it is for you guys to believe.

(Also, if you're gonna insult someone, get it fucking right lmfao. Ghost is the goddamn host, Sophie is not Ghost. Two different people. Also, I'm fucking Asexual, so um, projecting much?)

Wow. As of writing this, they literally just got worse!

Well. You see, while I personally choose to censor Discord usernames to close loopholes like this, it's actually not the same as if you sent a Tumblr handle. What you're seeing in those screenshots are not identifiers, they are server nicknames. Which are specific to THAT SERVER ONLY. Unlike places like Tumblr and Twitter, where seeing your name automatically means someone can find you, on Discord it's actually not possible (that I know of) to doxx someone through a server nickname alone. So no, actually, Sophie didn't leave your username out there, only a server nickname, and the two are not the same. So yes, actually. Because Discord is it's own site with it's own way of handling usernames, it is perfectly acceptable what Sophie did (although not perfectly ideal), because nobody is going to be able to use those names alone to doxx and/or harass.

And finally, the final update as of writing this post... the almighty @ everyone ping...

Damn. I don't even have to AP English IV this shit, they already did it for me!

To sum it all up, phew... I guess I'm a target now! Which I'm honestly pretty damn fine with! But just know, I don't fuckin hold back. I will be a bitch for the sake of being a bitch, because I don't care how petty I am. I don't care about what people think of me, or whatever the fuck you could ever do to me.

I care about defending people from the likes of you.

So go on. Give me your best shot, then. You have the balls to call me out in front of your entire Discord server?

Challenge accepted, motherfucker.

Challenge accepted, motherfucker.

Challenge accepted.

Let's get 'em, bitches!

#syscourse #sophiecourse #pro endo #pro endogenic #system stuff #endo safe #r/systemcringe #r/systemscringe #r/fakedisordercringe #r/didcringe #I dont care how you interpret this. #Active declaration of war? Sure. #Just an asshole being pissy on the internet? Go for it. #I have my reasons and my motives #cw suicide #cw self harm

[journey-to-the-attic]

one thing about ik is that she will always reach out

#obey me #art #i had the idea for this and managed to bulldoze through drawing it all without losing motivation halfway through #but Do Not expect me to post art this frequently in future #idk how to do panels so if the middle bit with the text might be laid out weird #i added the stars and feathers and stuff because there was a bunch of empty space around the boxes #obey me satan #jtta ik #(btw the crumbling symbol next to the exploding feather is the wrath symbol from in-game) #(with the pride symbol attached upside down at the bottom) #(not so much symbolism as it is just me whacking you over the head with the point but it looks cool) #i had a lot of fun doing satan's more monstrous design so i might try my hand at some of the other demons later? #i do have some ideas for levi (deep sea creatures are just really fun) #also happy nightbringer release day!! it showed up on my homescreen like half an hour ago and i was like “wait what” #for some reason i thought it wasn't releasing til next week?? #the new genshin patch is today as well so looks like i'll have plenty to do with the rest of my free time for the easter hols #(i promise i'm also working on the next chapter of jtta but i am so stuck on how to get lucifer actually Talking) #anyway. here's a gold star for making it through all my rambling in the tags for anyone who did so: ⭐

[scruncheduppaper]

hey guys ive been getting into signalis recently and uhhhhh im normal abt this game

closeups

okay back to my hole now

#signalis #elster #ariane yeong #signalis ariane #signalis elster #arielster #signalis fanart #my art #tragic yuri #i. im normal about this game oh my godddd #elster is peak character design #might draw falke next if i have motivation #also the reason for the finger gun is because i didnt feel like drawing another gun again #woes of being a fan of shooting game media is that you have to draw guns :/ #theyre pretty tho i like them

[nuclearanomaly]

She didn't Surecast...

#ffxiv #Ninira Nira #Estinien #Estinien Varlineau #Estinien Wyrmblood #estinien x wol #Dawntrail #I started this after EU fanfest but never finsihed #full trailer refilled my motivation tanks #Any reason to think about wet estinien = good #I was always amused thinking about how realistically that wave would just obliterate Nini #she is small #Estinien that's your wife u could have at least held her hand to keep her steady... smh #like all my comics this is dumb ty for your time #art: mine

[redkehlchen]

Some 2003 season 2 doodles! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#I feel like Im hitting an artblock.. 0 motivation to draw new stuff or continue the animatic... so have these silly doodles! #tmnt 2003 #leonardo tmnt #raphael tmnt #donatello tmnt #michelangelo tmnt #red does art #tmnt #usagi #Can't believe Donnie just asked Usagi about a vulcan mind meld. #They show Usagi how the TV and VHS tapes work. He says “Fascinating.” Everyone is loosing their mind. #Also Enterprise was still running in 2003... Mikey is singing Faith of the Heart every time it airs. #The 03 turtles just have Star Trek #2012 has Space Heroes and Rise Jupiter Jim #For some weird reason in the Mutant Mayhem universe there are only the AOS movies but there are like 231241 of them #Thanks for coming to my turtle star trek ted talk

[greywoe]

"The she-wolf laid into the squires with a tourney sword, scattering them all. The crannogman was bruised and bloodied, so she took him back to her lair to clean his cuts and bind them up with linen."

#asoiaf #asoiaf fanart #lyanna stark #howland reed #my drawings #i wonder how many times i've reread that chapter with meera's story lol #i like this moment esp it's so sweet #and clearly made an impact on howland as he followed ned into the war later.. all the way to the tower #ohhhh you know what now i want a howland and jon interaction. i want them to meet. oh man #asos #anyway i've been in a bit of a slump lately so this isn't great but eh. i've got a few backlogged as well i might upload..sometime #it was super foggy today to the point of not seeing anything which was very cool so i guess that motivated me to finish this #i like weird weather but it should have snowed damn it. there's almost always snow on my birthday so this feels like an ominous sign #also there are odd places in my neighbourhood where tons of crows and rooks and jackdaws gather for whatever reason and i see them on walks #and i always go hmm looks like a feast for crows over there. heh

[fence-time]

Ogey, giving into the demons and posting the demons

#fence posts #impulsesv #suggestive #I mean it’s not wild but . yeah. #yknow most of my other ‘suggestive’ drawins have had reasons or other motives behind it. nott this thoug #h #:> #btw I think these meds are doung something to me because I have not stopped thinking about impulse.

[the-game-spirit]

this game has consumed my every waking moment, have a sif

#in stars and time #isat #isat art #my art #its a universally acknowledged fact that if a character's hair has a HINT of curl to it i WILL make it More Curly. i simply cannot help it. #anyway! this is based off that one official art. yknow the one. #i dont know why he has his dagger out but i REALLY wanted to draw it so. there it is. its such a fun shape #also im glad i didnt post this last night because i realized at like 2 am that i forgot the little wear lines on their cloak and hat lmao #expect more isat art to come! i have so many ideas! #i love this game for alot of reasons #but im especially grateful its managed to kick my art brain back into gear after so long of zero motivation

[hegodamask]

"I've learned from Palpatine."

#Star Wars #Andor #StarWarsEdit #AndorEdit #SW Edit #Mon Mothma #Palpatine #Sheev Palpatine #genevieve o'reilly #ian mcdiarmid #gif #edit2 #i know i've made like ten posts about this line already #and it's late #but sometimes the inspiration to make a gifset just hits you and you have to follow it before you lose motivation again #anyways: love my two red-headed senators who are trying to bring down the system from within (for VERY different reasons) #would sure like to see them share an actual scene one day...

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Everyone Look At My Son. Look At Him.

#baby boy... baby... #all he wants to do is be left alone to cook #ive been working harder on improving my dragons. i think its showing! #Drawing for Friend motivation is so fucking strong #me normally: ehhh ill progress slowly as ever who cares #me when scribbling stuff for friends: I Have To Excel. I Have To Be The Best Artist I Can Be. For Them <3 #but also i want more variation in my dragons #both for worldbuilding reasons and for eeeeheheheeee Dragon<3<3<3 reasons #scribble salad #not-fish <3 #i think i finally know the vibe for the shoredrakes... #and those vibes are Sealy! pinniped components!

[masonjarcollector]

Not to be melodramatic but "you've got to get better, you're all that I've got"/"I've got to get better, I'm all that I've got" might be one of the most beautifully raw and heartwrenching lyrics I've ever heard sung before. Like. Shoot, man. I really am all that I've got.

#no joke this is motivating me to get some self care #And some past self forgiveness #no matter what I want or what I wish would have happen I'm all that I've got. And I have to get better. For myself. #Also can I just say Caiden vibes #Like her Bad Day episode/chapter #(and Dmitri vibes but for a spoiler-y reason) #But yeah this is so THC-core you have not even a clue #(I'm rambling about my original stuff by the way pay no mind) #I'm just super emotional about TMM #Imagining a TMM themed tattoo and it'll either be about Inertia or Maybe Man or 2085 #AJR #The Maybe Man #TMM #aaaaaa! #trying to think of other songs that made me this emotional but head is empty only full of 2085

[inkly-heart]

Do you have a group discord server? If others want to chill and interact with you. Just wondering

That aside just hoping you’re doing okay Blastic. Still, if you’re not your gotta a lot people care about you.

I look forward to seeing how the rest of the game goofs.

—goofball anon

I don't and sadly I don't think I will make one. It would be fun to interact with people who enjoys my work and wants to chat with me but I just feel it would be too much work for me to handle a discord server. So at least for now I'm not planning to make one.

#and how I've been doing?? #there been ups and downs #maybe bit better?? At least compared to what it was when this month started #I felt so numb for some reason #I just wanted to lie in bed and do nothing because nothing was making me happy. Not even drawing or playing games #I do still get these kind of days but it hasn't been that bad and I have got some amount motivation back to draw again at least #wanting to play games though still have been very low #but I'm taking small steps #I'm also sorry for not having much good news and that I've been so quiet nowadays #I just been struggling a lot what to say and anxiety isn't making things any easier #but I want to thank everyone who are still here hanging around and enjoying my work #even though I have these struggles I'm happy that you guys still want to support me<33 Thank you<33 #not sure did I word these right but I tried my best #and I will also do my best not to give up and keep on going 🌱 #ask #anon

[ceru-draws]

I hope this wei wuxian portrait brings a little warmth and happiness to your feed :') ☀ ☀ ☀

#mdzs #mo dao su zhi #mdzs fanart #wei wuxian #mo dao zu shi fanart #my art #giving myself motivation to start painting in full gear again by finishing a wip I started months and months ago #yayyy #I just think his smile post-canon is so important #the fact this boy is able to smile like this- that he allows himself to have this happiness and to share it with his lover and best friend #god help me I love wei wuxian so much and he deserves every reason to smile like this #ok i'm done #emotional but done

[not-poignant]

Every now and then I just get the kind of comment that makes me stop working on a fic and just has me going 'how about you write it since you're so concerned with correcting me on this one tiny thing that doesn't matter because it's fanfiction actually'

And like, I do want to work on this fic, but damn, not today.

#personal #i don't know how many times i can tell people #to fuck off when it comes to canon details and palmarosa #but if you ever have the instinct to correct something in palmarosa #just know you're the reason i don't want to work on this fic atm #because it's not at all motivational to have people arguing with me #about the NOT CANON COMPLIANT details in my own fic #like it's tags and author's notes at this point #reading comprehension i miss you #you all get gold medals for knowing the canon better than me #now leave me and my fic and it's very clear “not canon compliant” tag alone #because palmarosa isn't for the people #who want it to be canon compliant #and cannot let it go otherwise #i've just deleted a bunch of comments i will no longer be justifying #this fic to people who just exist to win #know it all contests

[yellowocaballero]

Reading 'Solo Leveling' (a webtoon/webnovel about a guy who uses a game-like interface to level up and fight monsters and become ridiculously OP and the coolest and hottest guy in the whole wide world) really proves something to me that I've thought about.

The goal of a story is to achieve what it wants to achieve. Different genres have different certain marks the story should achieve. If it doesn't hit those marks, it's not a good example of the genre. In a lot of was it's not even a good story - it doesn't entertain the audience in the way that they want to be entertained. A romance novel isn't a bad story because it doesn't feature great action scenes, but neither is it a bad story because it doesn't delve deep into the sociopolitical implications of neocolonialism. Does it make the reader feel happy? Is it cathartic? Is there a happy ending? Then it's a good romance story - even if you think stories shouldn't need happy endings.

The 'satisfaction' of stories like Solo Leveling is the fact that is very entertaining to watch a guy be super powerful and mow down bad guys and have everybody around him go "WHOAH that's a cool guy". Maybe it's cool because you're projecting, or maybe you like great action scenes, or because you like 'underdog gets powerful' stories. It's a power fantasy. That is the goal of Solo Leveling, and so long as I'm going "WHOAH COOL", then it's a good story. And Solo Leveling is the example of the power fantasy video game dungeon OP protag. It does those elements, it executes them competently, it's a good story.

This is the third of these types of stories I've read more than 5 chapters of. The first was Omniscent Reader's Viewpoint. And baby. This is no ORV.

ORV a big reaction to Solo Levelling in a lot of ways, since Solo Levelling was very genre defining and influential, and it's hard to write these OP stories without having a relationship to Solo Leveling. It's like the most popular webtoon out there. The OP hero, the gaming interface and rules, the gods fucking you up, power fantasy - they're all checked off by ORV. It doesn't subvert them much. You watch kdj pull one over on a shmuck and you're like HEY YA BABY and you watch him utterly decimate some schmuck and you're like WHOAH COOL. You like ORV, basically, for the same reasons you like Solo Leveling. They're the same genre and in a lot of ways the same story.

But ORV has driven me nuts and after a while Solo Leveling has gotten boring. Because ORV has a fantastic supporting cast that puts the MC's OPness in relative perspective. Because there's cool action scenes with different teams, of different dynamics, giving freshness to each chapter. Because you get to see kdj slowly implement some nuts gambit of the course of the entire arc and when we finally hit the end point where it all comes together it's FUCK YEAH. I'm leaving out the actual depth here. But ORV and Solo Leveling do the same thing, except ORV has a great deal of other story elements that build into the main 'point' and escalate the satisfaction, joy, and intensity of those points. You don't read these OP hero novels for the supporting cast. You read it to watch a dude be cool. But ORV's supporting cast - and, like, the fact that they're actual characters, even the women - gives us a lot of other smaller 'hey yeah!' moments, gives it buildup, makes the OP moments meaningful, and gives a grand climax and huge satisfaction when kdj does what the SL guy did by himself. And the supporting cast is only one example of this. A story is a good story if it accomplishes its point, but a story like SL will never really deliver its promises nearly as well as ORV could. Not because ORV is deep and has """themes""" or fucked up shit like that. The 'WHOAH COOL's are just better. Because ORV knows why stories are good and what makes a good story.

Anyway I'm fucking begging you I have tears in my eyes this is why your fic needs more than the hot ship of the day I promise it won't detract from the ship it will make the ship BETTER but you have to get WHY you like these homosexuals so much and it's NOT just because they're CUTE sometimes there's OTHER REASONS THAT ARE IMPORTANT LIKE THE WOMAN YOU'VE BOOTED AND -

#you're killing me smalls #my writing #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #solo leveling #solo leveling is good at what it does bc i've read 120 chapters of it #but it's not great because i don't actually care #man really early on the MC had PTSD and I felt like we were doing something with that #and why he was so desperate to grow stronger and i felt like that was a good character motivation for the #hashtag grindset #we like characters for other reasons than projection. i prommy. prommy i swear #the funny thing is that literlaly everybody who reads all 1 million words of orv #are a kim dokja kinnie and you do have to project insanely #because the story self-selects for kdj kinnies #if you weren't insane in the exact same way kdj was insane #you wouldn't have fucking finished orv now would you

[snake-berry]

Brienne of Tarth

ughh idk if im satisfied with how i drew this but there is a softness in her big blue eyes that i like

requests for my asoiaf portrait series r still open btw ;) i already have another portrait in the works rn bc im feeling semi motivated so yay

#brienne of tarth #lady brienne #ser brienne #valyrianscrolls #valyrian scrolls #asoiaf fanart #a song of ice and fire #house tarth #asoiaf art #asoiaf #well yeah my winter break just ended but for some reason i finally have motivation to draw again so eff uni and SEND ME REQUESTS<3 #i srsly want to drop out #anyways ignore that #brienne is another one of my gals #not sure if i made her “unattractive” enough but like tahts so subjective idk so i just tried to make her “masculine” i guess? #i feel like ive seen a lot of discourse on her appearance so im not trying to get flamed if i didnt portray her right