#I have also had too much caffeine

[banannabethchase]

Yeah, yeah, I know Kenny and Jericho are native Winnipeggers but like. I want the Elite and the JAS to both get their asses handed to them by House of Black in their hometowns. I want Malakai to take out Kenny and Jericho, for Brody to annihilate Nick and Sammy with a double clothesline, and for Buddy, Matt, and Danny to meet in the ring and try to out-bottom each other.

I'm a simple person I have simple interests.

#Look the way Buddy went all bottomy on his knees in front of...someone. It was clear he's on Matt and Danny levels of bottom eyes #I know a bottom when I see one #I have also had too much caffeine #Also he's dating Rhea you know that man gets pegged to his delight all the time #Anyway #This is TMI with Sara #wtf i like wrestling now???

[sunflowerdales]

A doodle!

#bapweaver #lifeweaver #baptiste #overwatch #this is so quickly drawn but I love these cuties #also I have a bit of a cough rn which is rly annoying but can't tell if it's a cold forming or if I've had too much caffeine + sugar

[fandom-drake]

My favorite version of fanon Stephanie's relationship with the batfam is where she's just, not a sibling but still a batkid? If that makes sense???

She is totally member of the batfam but she dated Tim so she can't call Tim her brother and thus calling the other batkids siblings or Bruce dad will be weird. She's usually best friends with Tim and Cass tho. Plus both her parents are alive.

As a vigilant, her direct superior in fics tends to be Oracle who also falls under the dated a batkid dynamic but more importantly Oracle does not work under batman. So she tends to run parallel to the others in the vigilant family tree.

But Bruce pays her tution/pocket money. She spends alot of her time at the Manor. Her favorite food is included in the meal plan by Alfred. She gets to pick a movie during movie night. She can walk upto Bruce and just ask for stuff and get them. Bruce has the same trust fund for her as he has for the other batkids.

She still isn't his daughter and she won't ever call him dad. She is still a member of the family.

#this is hc based on fics i read #but seriously #i love how very unconventional her relationship with the family is #coz is she a sister? Tim would say no #Damian too #dick would say yes and maybe jason and cass #duke will probably say yes too #Bruce will just face palm because he has no clue he just knows hes paying her bills because its the least he can do #Alfred will tell you to not worry about inconsequential things and how much caffeine/sugar have you had??? #dc #stephanie brown #dc spoiler #batgirl #bruce wayne #batman #batfam #tim drake #robin #cassandra cain #black bat #also Barbara wil just look at you like ur an idiot

[nadineross]

i've been thinking a lot about forever. moreso, i've been thinking about everything that comes before — and who i want at my side as it passes.

bonus aigul:

#* mine #baldur's gate #baldur's gate iii #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate spoilers #bg3edit #wyll ravengard #bg3 wyll #wyll x tav #baldurs gate wyll #wyll #pls be nice i tried rlly hard #they're so in love i think im gonna be sick #i have brainworms and a good computer #also this scene was really difficult to color. it's also been forever since i made gifs that are supposed to like look good on their own #something kind of funny about him trying to manhandle her in the shot right after this: a paladin w 20 str vs a warlock with 8 str #anyways they are peak romance i love them your honor #it's about the narrative foils. about the acceptance of others thereby accepting oneself. ive had too much caffeine and not enough sleep.

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

#hopefully the meds work but while waiting for them to kick in I get so damn nervous #and sometimes I do get nights where even on my full dose my anxiety is too overpowering and I just. Do Not Sleep #I mean I do eventually but not without spiraling first :') #way before I was prescribed sleep meds my longest was 3 nights without sleep while on a VERY stressful trip #I felt like I was gonna die and I did not sleep until I got off the plane and was back at home #(this was like 15 years ago already but it still haunts me fhfgsgdh) #my best friend and I were having a conversation today #and she was like 'not sleeping can make you hallucinate right?' #and I was like :') I get the hallucinations in other scenarios too #BUT I also get what she meant #not sleeping is really bad for me mentally which is why I can't do 'sleep restriction therapy' #and fun fact #a lot of my OCD obsessions revolve around sleep!!! #which is 'awesome' because laying in bed with insomnia makes my OCD flare up so like #the two get to feed off each other and make my life a living hell!!! #and don't even get me started on my sleep paralysis episodes #(which I like to think of as just my brain misfiring but that my aunt tells me is saints or demons trying to talk to me) #'cause she hallucinates too but hers are like 'spiritual' or whatever #same with my mom's hallucinations as well #and to add fuel to the dumpster fire of my mind and body is the fact I've been overcaffeinating again #which I've known not to do ever since I was in middle school and saw the pediatric cardiologist who specifically said 'hey don't do that' #fast-forward to adulthood and I still haven't learned how to handle anything #like. I have heart meds and sleep meds and migraine meds and IBS meds #and yes meds are good but like. I know you need to incorporate lifestyle changes as well #which I do for like 2 weeks until the next time I fuck up #I've been so irresponsible lately but like. ESPECIALLY today #didn't eat #took some meds on an empty stomach and forgot to take my other ones at all #had too much caffeine #stressed out over some stupid situations thanks to overthinking

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

ppl who do mushrooms and weed bc they are "natural" (many things are Natural and doesn't mean they are good for you) will literally say shit like actually is has been PROVEN mushrooms are much less dangerous than alcohol!!!! alcohol is the DEVIL!!!!

gurl a glass of wine will never do to you what mushrooms can do to you. i've had a friend almost die bc she took "very safe" mushrooms that were legal and guaranteed by a certified shop owner that they were okay. she took a small, recommended amount. and she had a trip so bad she couldn't drink water bc she couldn't remember how and then she couldn't sober up, or eat chocolate which usually helps, etc. and she needed to be supervised bc she almost died. and other ppl in the group weren't doing so great either.

#personal #honestly there is this brand of ppl who are into drugs and yell that alcohol is the devil bc i guess they had an alcoholic relative #which sucks but also like #it's not the same my dude #you can be addicted to alcohol yes and a lot of ppl are #but you can also be addicted to weed :))) i know many people who are and if you are defending it so much you probably are too #if you smoke every day and rely on it for Anxiety #a glass of something strong never did to me what a joint did does lol #it is my personal choice not to do anything besides occasional drinking and i guess caffeine is a drug that i am very much addicted to #but you can't say that caffeine and weed are the same thing lol #ohhh i am angry #uwu ACTUALLY cocaine is much better for you than alcohol >:(((( #like come onnnnn #just smoke your joint and shut up #there doesn't have to be a Pure and Morally Correct reason for you wanting to get high #i know that there have been like studies that are like oh it's different for weed in terms of physical addiction but like. #1. ppl who are VERY into weed usually don't JUST do weed they do other drugs #2. you can be psychologically addicted to it like oh i cannot do without my weed even if you won't have severe physical withdrawal symptoms

[lusalemaart]

And now I'm stuck in baby prison.

#i know i cant be free. i hang my head and. pee. #oh my god(ot) he is my. he is. he is my. hes my. my #COUGH kin COUGH #kin list lookin grimmer by the minute. lookin not only embarrassing. but also demanding of a psychiatric evaluation. love that for me. #i love caw feh i love cawfeh so MUCH i cant accomplish anything without first havin' a cup. and then. once ive had 1 cup. #i need to have a NOTHER cup. of. caw feh. i have about eleven cups a day. hey hey. hey hey hey hey HEY. i cant do anything without cawfeh #i'm. addicted to caffEINE. #inside you there are two wolves. they are both painfully bisexual as all hell. #ace attorney #godot ace attorney #godot #omg my hand fucking hurts i cant feel my fingers. #so does my eye. my horners syndrome been flaring up like mad bc i have no more refills on my meds and im dying #like. i have some sort of stressful condition on my eyes. omg u too godot!? omg.... thas so cool... #diego armando #Kaminogi Souryu #do i need to tag spoilers its 2023. i mean. i only played the third game this past year myself but. still. #souryo kaminogi #i feel like i had one more thing to say but i fg wtf it was. #i was JUST a baby boy... always be a baby dont ever be a gun. a.lways drinking. codfee. jsut a babye drinkgin. coffe #SORRY my illegible handwriting is SHIT! So are my hands. And so is my writing. OMG it all makes so much sense now🤯 #WOAH🤯🤯🤯🤯just had a GIGA revelation!! It all adds up!!🤯🤯🤯 #Its voice is similar to a human's but it is impossible to understand.

[heres-to-all-that-is-mine]

Currently thinking about Mike Madhouse,,,. He fascinates me

So they claim he drank so much of that energy drink his “skin turned green”, right, yeah?

And I have. Questions about that! Doubts even!

My thoughts are,, there are. A few different options for what I think actually happened with all that and stuff. So.

1. Given the world they exist in… it might have. It seems to be within reason that if there’s such a thing as abyss sourced ingredients for coffee shop shit in a town full of Cryptids and abnormal humans that there could be an energy drink that can turn you green.

2. The idea that the drink turned him green could have come about after his death! Like, he seems to have kept on broadcasting after his death (hence the “ghost channel” you check out at the start), it seems possible that he might have mentioned “his skin being green” on one of said broadcasts because, well, it is now that he’s a ghost! Or one of those “cryptid sighting” pictures was posted, or a ghost hunter stumbled upon him and started talking about it. So the news stories/people picked it up and now that’s what people believe is true

3. It was entirely made up to sensationalise the news, though they neglected to actually talk about the guy himself apparently.

And then there’s the fourth option my friend suggested which. Well

4. It’s a mix of two and three, with the stories reporting they turned his skin green and Madhouse — his memory muddled as it was by his death — believed it.

#purples rambling #madhouse mike #Cryptid crush #so like. his reason for death is kind of #well it’s said to the player that ‘he drank so much of it [sketchy energy drink] his skin turned green and he beefed it!’ #and it’s called ‘toxic waste energy’ #and also kinda called radioactive #*but* my friend pointed out. that there are many comments about how the drink is actually infamous for its high caffeine content #and Mike was working in a pretty shitty situation #too many hours and little to no breaks and shitty bosses and coworkers #so it stands to reason the stress of all this would make his blood pressure pretty high!! and he’s been working there for FIVE YEARS #and on a cork board there’s a schedule with ‘doctor’s appointment’ marked on it suggesting a prolonged problem #so perhaps he’d developed heart problems ya know? #blah blah blah caffeine is Really not good for that so! it seems likely in turn that the ungodly amounts of caffeine just #well. made his heart kick the fucken bucket #death tw #the tag ramble was almost entirely thought up by my friend btw #I had my suspicions but they’re much better at putting pieces together #having a friend who’s really good at analysing stuff is amazing #and I’m so glad I managed to get them into it #I can’t overstate how cool it is to have someone who can just drop something that tears your heart asunder just like that ya know #a little saddened I can’t contribute like that but whatever I can still have good conversations about it >:]

[why-the-heck-not]

Do you read any books currently? <33

yeah! Currently rereading Goldfinch (by Donna Tartt) because I read it last summer so it now gives me summer vibes. Also am still reading The People In The Trees (by Hanya Yanagihara) bc started it last summer, so it is a summer-book to me now so couldn't read it during the autumn/winter.

Also am rereading Kafka on the shore bc read it during a spring like 5 years so it is a spring-book, and I just always start to reread it again during the spring (tho I rarely do finish it again lol idk, I read books weirdly) and have now just been continuing reading it.

Also in the process of rereading my fave author's (Miki Liukkonen) work bc he passed away recently. Also he does still have one book coming out during the autumn so that's also partly why (bittersweet excitement over that currently)

Also I'm never not in the middle of rereading A Little Life.

Bacically I'm just reread bunch of things even tho I have a massive tbr-list. Idk, haven't been in the mental capacity to start a new one u know. And books are heavily seasonal for me so gotta read the summer books quick before the autumn books swoop in lol

#ik this makes like only 30% sense but maybe someone can relate lol #it's a mess of a way to read books tho bc can take me YEARS to finish a book bc if I don't finish reading it during that season then it'll #have to wait until next year when I'll most likely start it from the start and hopefully not run into the same problem #i have books i've restarted about 7 times and still have not finished #(ahemmm IT by Stephen King but maybe this year is the year I finally finish it (it's an autumn book but even more so a halloween one so #it has a very narrow time-window for me to read it and that's also always when there are bunch of deadlines etc)) #sorry for turning this into a mess of an answer lol i've had too much caffeine #asks #july 2023 #2023

[bsaka7]

thinking about going back to being vegetarian again then i remember oh right Im moving again and i fuck SO hard with clam chowder

#Saying pescaterian is cringe ig I'll just stay doing what i do now which is saying i don't eat a lot of meat/don't like meat #Which is true #Also living with my mom she keeps telling me im so healthy it's like not really lol #I think she eats a lot less meat with me than normal tho bc i like. Rlly don't like chicken #I didn't even realize but she made this beans and rice thing that normally had sausage w/out it for me... #Idk it's weird cuz we eat out more than I'm used to bc here for 4mo or whatever #And it's rlly made me feel super picky #Cuz im like ok i don't wanna eat that it'll make me feel like this or bad in this way #Don't like to have much too much sugar cuz i think it triggers migraines tho I love sugar and it's more about it being spread out #Than the amount I think #Can't have caffeine in the afternoon #And so on #Idk like being not in my own makes me feel like i have so many more rules than I thought #Or am maybe just picky? #Bc like I do eat a lot bc i run a lot food is fuel and all that. It's just more like... What #Anyway #Food mention

[vulpixelates]

oijeaofi i am so tired of being sick 😩👎

#sorry i need to complain about how sick i feel and didn't want to bother anyone 😭 feel free to ignore this #turns out that blueberries are my NEMESIS and i only found this out after eating them for three breakfasts straight aofeijaoi #so my entire body is inflamed and my intestines are trying to kill me every time i eat even if it's the most low fodmap food ever #i hope things sort themselves out soon aeoifaj i've been trying to ween myself off of taking so much ibuprofen but like #i'm just in so much pain all of the time 😭😭 #unless i eat like. the blandest food in the world and also lay flat on my back all day and stare at the ceiling which makes me want to die #i had been in kind of a good place where i wasn't getting tummy sick as much but lately it's been so bad #i've quit all caffeine now too hoping it will help so i'm exhausted from that aeofiaoijf it's just a disaster #and i've been having cold-like/allergy symptoms for like a month lmao awoiefajoi it's just never ending!!! #even my period gives me flu-like symptoms #i need to go to a doctor about it but there's not much they can do for half of the things that are wrong w me aoijefaoi #i feel like the most they'll do is give me muscle relaxers for the tmj and i don't want to be on heavy duty meds like that aiewojf #uuuggggghhhhhhhhhhh #*dykeposting

[kuiinncedes]

zbxhdhdh

#i had a coffee for the first time in a WHILE like at least since sometime the beginning of the summer #i feel crazyyyyy sjbcfbdjdgudhdbejeh i feel like coffee hasn’t affected me like this before XD #or maybe i just had fucking schoolwork to channel the caffeine into and now i just have talking and body motion #so i’m talking to my brother which also ‘helps’ bc i’m just weird around him in general bc i’m just being annoying and being myself #but ESPECUALLY rn i feel so caffeinated akdbcjwjhdhdjd #it’s so weird LMAO #it’s worked tho like i had to get up hella early and sit thru 28446463727 speakers at this convention today #the wholeeeeeeeeeeeee day and after my coffee at the halfway mark #bro the second half i was like actually interested and kinda paying attention #to sm i don’t have that much interest in and am not rly gonna use in my life LOL #it also helped that the second half speakers wereeeee pretty good ngl #one guy was being rly funny and i was laughing w everyone else in the audience and my brother made fun of me for it lol #but also after it was done we were waiting. around and i was laughing at nothing so #the caffeine probably helped w that too lol #dndbdjdjhejsihdueje it’s so weird that i can feel the caffeine so much i feel like XD #bc last significant times i had coffee were during school stress timeeee #maybe this coffee was stronger too idk it was HELLA EXPENSIVE #so actually maybe lolll #AHHHH anyway LMAO i could scream just to like #get rid of energy or sm djfhgjhdhd too bad we are going to some persons place or sm idk #it’s all my like for my dads work stuff idk lmao #jeanne talks #i’m TALKING TOO MYCH LOLLL #like irl lmao #all to annoy my brother 🫡 #he’s very engaged and interested in everything i’m saying and is providing such full conversation 🤩 #also i’m probably also wired after sitting #i was also like i’m probably also kinda wired from sitting and listening to ppl for like hours but then my brother was like #yeah that rly energized me too #LOL kadbcrjejdhdh anyway 🤡

[martyrofacrimescene]

I'm ACTUALLY going to start the next chapter of Filming Goncharov tonight I promise. If I don't do it then you have permission to hold me hostage until I write at least a page.

#I haven't touched it in months because I was too focused on other things #mainly Show Me #but that's been done for a while I have no excuse now #I also finished the one where Marco gets pegged but that was 21 days ago #and I could say I'm finally finishing tell me what you feel but that would be I lie I've hardly touched it #the real reason that I haven't finished it was because I kept telling myself I'd stay up late and finish it #but then I lay in my bed and wait a bit and I keep ending up falling asleep #I did this last night but I've had so much caffeine (like prolly 400 mgs atp) it's unlikely I'll fall asleep

[babybemyweekend]

How am I supposed to sleep when I have illusion stuck in my head

#i mean i also had too much caffeine earlier at work but #the song is LOOPING #im about to have some weird dreams i just know it

[pentanguine]

For someone who’s sick with a bad cold and a low grade fever, I’ve had an appalling amount of energy all day.

#i’m bouncing around the apartment like a chihuahua #i did cleaning and i took a walk and i still have so much ENERGY #my ideal activity now would be like…a brisk clamber and getting to talk to someone for half an hour non stop #i feel like people must feel when they’ve had too much caffeine except i have had no caffeine #it’s like anxiety jitters except i’m not actually anxious about anything!! my mood is really good! #i just have the Need to Move #also i don’t have covid; that test was negative #personal #my roommates are out so i apologize in advance if i use my urge to talk as an excuse to write long posts on tumblr

[arthur-r]

i’ve gotten really bad over break at falling asleep in a time frame where i can wake up in the morning and function at capacity. but in other news i’ve written a very angry song aimed at my father. so that’s fun

#good morning everybody i tried so hard to go to sleep when i still had a chance at eight hours #i’m still gonna get seven but that’s like. if i fall asleep immediately #anyway my dad deserves to have a song about his problems i focused too much on my mom with hard to break #although actually the core memory that made me want to write that song is my dad calling me a monster when i was like ten #however the song itself is mostly about the way my mom looks at me. where it’s like i’m not human. which is a mom thing #anyway things have been really bad at home lately like i’ve mostly avoided talking about it but literally earlier today i packed a bag to #run away and just kind of changed my mind when i found out my mom was working #(because the type of running away i mean is not as drastic as it necessarily sounds. mostly just wanted to move into the apartment #permanently and im basically going to do that starting next week like i’ll be supposed to go home but i can always decide not to) #anyway do you kiss my mother with that mouth or let your anger rise and cuss her out? do you want to fuck her or do you say fuck her? #either way you fucking overshare!! do you kiss my mother with that mouth? or tell me to shut up and get the fuck out? #and when you tell those jokes do you understand how deep it goes? cant you see i’m broken from the actions that you chose?? #i just wanna get out of this i just keep getting sadder!! i’d rather not even exist does my involvement matter?? #[/ly] anyway then the song goes on after that for another while. but it’s like. long. so i’ll spare you the rest #came up with the first bit on guitar a few days ago and my dad heard the chords from my room and was like hey that sounds like pink floyd #and i had to be like nope just a chromatic scale. and be glad that i was only whispering the words #anyway if you see me right now no you don’t. and i am so incredibly asleep rn. spooky scary talking in my sleep (/all of this is untrue) #sleeping is like. my favorite hobby. but i am entirely incapable of it when there are this many anxieties floating around my head #it also maybe doesn’t help that i finished the caffeinated lemonade this morning at like 1pm. digging my own hole to lie in here #anyway im going to try and stay after school tomorrow and then go to the apartment from there. rather than see my dad and pretend we’re okay #but hi from after midnight. i miss the days where i could sleep in until ten cause im kind of a night owl i just also really like sleeping #like if i could be blathers from animal crossing and nap for twelve hours getting woke up every once in a while and given a fossil and then #going back to sleep. and then waking up when it’s dark out and every once in a while getting given a fossil. that’s the life #anyway sorry for still being here. i was eyes closed for a while and my do not disturb has been on this whole time. and yet i’m awake #going to post this and go to sleep. though. cause unless we get another snow day in a row then i do have school tomorrow morning #and a snow day would actually be terrible because of. aforementioned not wanting to be at home. and being snowed in is terrifying #ok anyway i really have to go to sleep but yeah. goodnight world wish me luck again with sleeping!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later #ask to tag