#I don’t care what clothes look like

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autism and Clothing

The Autistic Teacher

#autism #actually autistic #autism and clothing #tags #I would have my mom cut them off my shirts #I kinda wish I had a uniform in school since that would’ve made things easier when dressing in the morning #I don’t care what clothes look like #I just want comfortable clothes #I’m sure some of you can relate #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #actually neurodivergent #feel free to share/reblog #The Autistic Teacher (Facebook)

[milquetoad]

gamers thinking they’re oppressed….try playing stardew and marrying alex

#everyone ‘’he’s a misogynist!!’’ um yea he’s a white gay it’s not like we’re looking for clothes at the soup store here #no but fr. he’s not that bad 😒 AND he has a tragic backstory AND he has educational trauma AND he’s a jock #made in a lab 4 me specifically i don’t care what u whores have to say #my posts #sdv alex #not taking questions at this time

[edwardseymour]

i’m not saying this as something i can objectively prove… but it doesn’t seem like a coincidence that in online circles, that one specific holbein sketch that has been repeatedly identified as anne boleyn has been rejected, because she’s regarded as not conformably attractive…

#i think she looks nice but i also think jane looks nice to what do i know 🙃 #‘she’s fat’ i think you’re scum actually how about that #💿🐴 #ab fandom #the portrait in ostensibly more elegant clothes where she looks less pensive and her double chin is less pronounced #is more popular? shocking. i am shocked. #ugly anne boleyn is like a sister to me #if you want to vague abt me bc of the wyatt arms on the verso pls know this: #i don’t care. it’s not my fault you’re dumb and can’t read.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative

update: the answer was no he had not

#stressed as FUCK #it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll #hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it #i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr #stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid #and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking #all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something #idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like #‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late #like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like #idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be #here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it #bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t #pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t #it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like #a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened #am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us #vent tw #covid tw

[deityofhearts]

see I don’t think that [word]core styles and aesthetics are inherently bad, I think they’re useful for me and perhaps others to use as descriptors of our own styles and what we’re going for, the problem is when it’s used to enforce fashion trends that feed into fast fashion that others feel the need to catch up on and that ends almost as soon as they started.

#deity dialogue #I personally use s lot of random aesthetic names to describe what I’m going for with my own looks but I also thrift most of my clothing #and I don’t care to keep up with fashion trends #like I’ll appreciate seeing a trend that’s really cool and think ‘wow that’s neat’ but I’m not gonna like turn to fast fashion to replicate #that trend and then abandon it for another trend a few months or weeks later ya know? #I just like go to the thrift store and see if I can find cute clothes that are my style that I think I’d actually wear enough to justify own #owning* and like go about my day #I just like fashion #that being said I need more pants #rn I have a ton of shirts followed by a bunch of dresses and then some skirts #I have acquired more pants thankfully I’m just picky about pants and finding pants in my size that don’t feel like shit and are at least a #little cute is really difficult it would turn out

[itspileofgoodthings]

lots of hard parts about getting older but I do think i’m getting prettier.

#Dare I ???????? #actually yes I do. #I’m just more comfortable in my skin and also I dress better and take better care of myself and also don’t wear clothes I hate anymore #bc I don’t know what else to wear #when I was younger I used to hope and pray that everything I hated about my appearance would change and it hasn’t #but my attitude towards it has. and I see it as part of the bigger picture now. the bigger picture of me #and it’s a very warm one. i have a very nice and interesting and powerful physical presence tbh #teaching has made me very aware of it #a little non-self-deprecation as I grade all these essays thanks for listening #I think it’s also that I no longer look at other people and think ‘I should look like that’ #Especially celebrities. Like. That kind of beauty has become so uninteresting to me and my own whole package self has become so much more #interesting as I understand it better and myself better #and then that comfort with myself results in people responding to me with appreciation and surprise sometimes #which tells me that it’s real and it’s just. It’s a nice thing #I am rambling #but yeah.

[salsflore]

ummmm

#oh mika there is beauty in life~ look at your future! everything will be worth it in the end~ #my favorite image on this device btw ^ #cw negative #cw vent #you know where this is going. apologies my mind is a mess and i really just need to get it out because i find its better than- #-writing a semi formal email to that One (1) emotional support organization and i’m afraid to make a call so #but i just genuinely believe things would be better off if i weren’t alive. a bit of a silly thing to jump to i know but #my tuition fees aren't cheap and i'm not even that great of a student or a daughter or a sister and i- #-have no talents or remarkable feats. i’m not impressive in any way. and i hate hearing shit about how ^_^ its okay! we all have something- #-special about ourselves! for example maybe you have really good hand writing and thats good enough ~ but that doesn't work for me because- #-i have nothing. my handwriting isn't good my singing isn't good i'm not artistically gifted i don't have some random affinity for puzzles- #-i'm not charming or somehow really good at calculation or super creative or a really comforting friend i really have nothing at all #i don’t want to die. i have no plans on doing that sort of thing anytime soon— don’t misunderstand me #i just wholeheartedly believe i don’t deserve to be here anymore not because i’m not loved. i just can’t stand myself and my teenage years- #-feel so long and i'm so fragile how much longer do i have to tolerate. i'm contributing nothing. why should my family have to feed and- #-clothe a burden like me who provides nothing. why should my friends care for someone like me. i’m not really that funny or sweet or great- #-with advice giving or pretty or helpful in any way. why is it that life is genuinely easier for others. what did i do? what can i do? #how much longer must i tolerate this? would you believe me if i said i really did try to change my mindset this time? #i have no one in real life to talk to. therapists are pricey and i don’t think mine was helping me in any way anyways. she was nice though #so every night i sleep hoping i wake up somewhere else. somewhere where i'm happier and i can live all my silly fantasies where i'm a fun- #-and lovely person who has everything she wants and nothing goes wrong ever!! #how much longer must i hang onto the little things. i’m in such an exruciating amount of pain that i want to kill myself without dying? lol #everyone repeats the same stuff. get bit #i can't rely on the joy of having coffee every morning or persevere for the sake of seeing cute cats on insta. nothing will ease the burden

[wikipediadogdotnet]

my phone isabout to die but i need to complain abt how people draw martin tma RIGH NTOW

#LISTEN LISTEN TO ME. HE IS NOT WHITE & BLOND/GINGER HE DOES NOT HAVE CIRCLE GLASSES OR WEAR WOOL VESTS DO YOUUNDERSTAND. #no one gets me & my polish/filipino martin hc it is so sad #i do love that he is usually drawn tall & fat but he does not look like a BABY AUGH #plesaaase give that man some eyebags and stubble and acne scars esp in s5 i am on my hsnds and knees crying #makes me annoyed how people see a guy who is sweet and a lil clumsy and turn him into the image of british innocence . do u know what imean #he isn’t a child he isn’t a doormat he’s a whole grown man and it’s awesome #and jon . it bores me the way ppl give him gaunt or chiseled features n a sharp jawline like . he is the definition of average . #n the fancy clothes ? please he is so painfully uncharismatic at work he wouldnt even have a cool tie. he’d have piercings tho that is true #andthe way people make him ambiguously brown .. i wish people took more care to accurately draw ethnic features #or at least figure out what ones they’re trying to represent #face shape variation is really really cool if u pay attention to it !! #also my personal propaganda is jon is hoh in the right ear & wore a (gray) hearing aid and had super generic glasses pre-coma BTW #i should draw season lineups for them i love them so much #i just have to figure out how long jon’s hair is😢that’s something i have 0 thoughts on😭 #WAIT ALSO. u know how people draw martin’s hair turning white during the Lonely segment. i don’t get why they don’t just give him vitiligo #it makes perfect sense to me and it would be so swag awesome but i’ve never seen anyone draw it but me .. falls over #🦐 posts

[thebeautifulfantastic]

i really want to be one of those beautiful girls who always have impeccable hair and natural-looking makeup but the truth is most days i truly don’t have the desire to put anything more than the bare minimum into my appearances

#i’m pretty simple tbh #i have great fashion taste (and am willing to admit it hehe) and i like to look good so i put care into choosing what clothes to wear #but i never really cared at all about makeup besides lipstick and eyeliner #(my best friend who is one of the most beautiful people i know would always wear black eyeliner and mascara and i just loved the look) #on a good day i accept myself the way i am but other times it’s hard to feel beautiful #i don’t know why but the thought of having to set aside time to do my makeup every day make me cringe a little bit inside #and then i see my little sister and my cousin and so many other girls and i’m like ‘belle you gotta step it up for people to start seeing yo #you differently and as more attractive.’ #i remember when i was Little enough for my mom to do my hair every morning (and i had long hair) she would do all these fancy braids with it #and after a while i’d just… had enough of the fancy hairstyles. no more sitting still while someone braids my hair for me #so i got a shoulder-length haircut and never looked back and i’m FINE with just wearing my hair loose and natural every day now #but it’s quite think & dry & curly so it’s not always that easy #anyway traditional beauty standards SUCK #it shouldn’t be like that but it is. and i think a lot about the notion of ‘femininity’ and especially feminine beauty standards that are pl #placed on hispanic women and wonder just how much of that was passed down to me through my mother #i swear i will get a pixie cut and/or keep my hair short even if it is partially out of spite #belle speaks #this post is sponsored by tiktok LMAO

[waugh-bao]

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#well I can no longer tease Keith for being/looking obliviously in love with his bff #I think I’ve mentioned before that a big part of the reason I’m going to Taiwan this summer #is b/c my best friend from LSE lives there #we met the first week of university and it all just went from there #(rare for both of us b/c we’re introverted) #anyway #after I moved to the US for grad school #and she moved back to Taiwan to work for a bit and figure out what she wanted to do her MA in #we started sending each other care packages #(before this we used to bring each other stuff back from home during breaks ) #((we also meet on zoom every week for a few hours to talk + watch movies)) #they’re pretty good sized boxes with (mostly) food and also books and weird t-shirts/clothes and all of that kind of stuff #we’re quite good at this point at getting stuff the other will like #(I always trawl Trader Joe’s for interesting things I think she’ll enjoy. she got me 5 different flavors of salted plum from an indie #company in Taipei because she knows I love ume) #we always put notes for each other in the boxes too #I send hers to her parents house because it’s easier to have packages shipped to there than in her small flat share in Taipei #and her mom (with her permission) sometimes opens them and takes out something for herself to try #what I didn’t know until today #is that her mom also takes out the notes to put on her desk so they don’t get lost #and she’s been hinting to my friend more and more over the past 2 years that it’s okay if she’s ‘not into boys’ and her parents will support #her no matter who she dates (which is very sweet) #now I’m coming in less than a week #and when my friend was visiting home this weekend she took her aside and told her #that she didn’t have to introduce me as her friend and she could openly say I’m her partner of 2+ years #which (again) would be very sweet #if I were actually her girlfriend #I’m not #and I’m having dinner with her parents at some point in the next few weeks #my life is a bad sitcom

[labyrynth]

i find dishes to be the more sisyphean task than laundry but. your tags. just kept going. and i was so completely enraptured. I've never met someone who hates laundry as passionately as i hate dishes. you almost convinced me to vote laundry instead of dishes because your tales of woe completely swept me away before i realized I'd already voted. you're still wrong, but i just want you to know that your words are utterly compelling.

i’m glad that my plight managed to bring you some amusement :’)

#moi #lmfaoooo #ask #anon #i have been desperately trying to figure out what to get rid of and it’s just. so hard. so exhausting. #i want to hoard everything bc ‘well i might wear it or need it someday!’ #and even the things i don’t like i’m like. tripped up by guilt bc i’ve never even worn them. #*stares at horrible dress pants i got in high school that i never wore once and i think look terrible on me* #bc that’s the whole problem #i just have too much fucking clothing and it enables me #like in college i had like. two sets of utensils. three bowls. one plate. #(i had more than one plate but only one of them had the pretty blue flowers so i only wanted to use the one) #one pot. #if it’s the only one you got you’re gonna wash the damn thing #but also if it’s the only one you’ve got well. it’s only one dish. washing it isn’t so bad. #the problem with trying to apply that to clothing is that i like clothing a lot more than i like cooking #also in college i had an easier time with laundry bc i just didn’t have as much of it and i had like. #specifically only brought things that were easy to care for #like jeans and tshirts and sweaters were perfectly fine for my purposes #but i LIKE nice clothing #high quality clothing just feels nicer to wear and it looks nice #but it’s also harder to care for and it takes up more space #and since i actually have a Fashion Preference noe #(which i didn’t really in college) #it’s just gotten out of hand #i just need to start letting things goooooo

[selfcarecap]

Girls what do I wear to a christening/baptism? Like can I serve cunt? Or do I have to buy like a plain long dress?

And like, are trainers/sneakers okay? 😭 or platform boots?

#(nothing wrong w plain long dresses they’re just not for me usually) #also in case the ‘girls’ sounds weird - i didn’t wanna say ‘guys’ bc i do not think there are (m)any guys here #so why even use that word #i genuinely don’t know what you wear at a church. like i’ve been to church but only w school when we had to go shsjs and i was wearing norma #normal clothes #and like at my own christening when i was a baby asgaksj #(no one forced us to go to church but i liked looking at the gold so i always went w them) #and like tbh i don’t think god/jesus care about my fit but #i wanna be ‘respectful’ or yk whatever🙄 #don’t wanna steal the baby’s spotlight!! #so pls if anyone has experience lmk!!

[treecakes]

i’m quite comfortable presenting rather feminine and i also like more masculine clothing too but i typically dress femininely and honestly i don’t mind that other people see me and read me as a girl it’s whatever. i know i am not a girl and that’s all that matters. and my outfits are cute 👍

#also the people in my phone know i’m not a girl #so it’s not like. locked inside people do know!! #i think if i had no one to tell it would be different #but yeah. i used to loathe the idea of dressing femininely because i very much look like a girl #and dressing more masculine mitigated that. but honestly it’s not as fun for me #i enjoy wearing swishy skirts and heels and jewelry #like ik it’s just clothing it’s not gendered people can wear what they want but i used to hate that because i was wearing them i was #automatically labeled as a girl #because i’m not. but now i literally don’t care #i don’t like being called miss though. just don’t use a title. just say excuse me or pardon me or something

[sacrificialroses]

loving coquette fashion in your mid 20s is just women making surprised and judgey faces at you when they hear your age and they look you up and down after they ask you if you’re even over 18 and you feel like doing this to them

it’s weird and uncomfortable and I don’t like the energy of it 🤨

#mine #if one more person 🤨🤨🤨 about my age #i will thrash them between my teeth like this #idk why it makes me mad #probably bc I get infantilized a lot #but in like an insult my intelligence slash capabilities way #anyways normalize not thinking being cute equals stupid #but also I look my age 🤨 it’s not my fault white ppl age like milk #also like normalize wearing cute clothes when you’re an adult #what the fuck am I supposed to just wear a pantsuit now???? #pastels are cute I’m not gonna stop wearing them #some girls baby talked me while I was buying my care bear socks the other day at the 5 below #and I was like 🤨 abou you be like ma’am I am probably your age #she looked about my age but shdjdjdjdjdj apparently I don’t dress my age as they sa #normalize not having to have a concept of dressing your age 🤨

[arthur-r]

!!!!

#i emailed them when i woke up pretty much and then i was distracted and busy but they got back to me!! #basically i emailed asking if i could conduct email interviews with any interested staff members #where i could learn about what they did for college what they do on a typical day and stuff like that!! #cause im still trying really hard to figure out what kind of degree i want to be a museum person #and like. if i get a masters in public history and library science would it actually apply to somewhere like mia? #and what kind of job within a museum would best fit my personal skills and limitations and just. stuff like that #and they emailed me back which is great #anyway hi world it’s been a minute i’ve been sequestering myself inside of my mind and disintegrating on the daily #because my dad is terrible at single parenting and my mom is missing in action (she’s on a planned trip don’t worry) but im not good at #taking care of myself my dad thinks cooking is womens work (unless it’s grilling which he has loads of books on and sometimes does) and i #don’t care enough about my own well being to make myself food half the time. so i just haven’t been eating haven’t been getting out of bed #but as of today i just had a shower i have laundry in the laundry machine things are looking up a little #and my sisters murder mystery party is later today i have to dress up as a victorian lady named starr dangerfield #im going to wear my own clothes mostly so there shouldn’t be too much dysphoria. but i will be putting my hair in tiny pigtails #which is something i did every day when i was a cisgender high school freshman. my current hair is like my old pigtails hair but just erase #the pigtail part from existence. like the reason i always had those pigtails was so that most of my hair would be what im actually #comfortable with which is what i have now. but even my short hair is still capable of the smallest little pigtails. and thats what i will do #idk i might be able to get by having my regular hair. that would be very much preferable #my sister is going to give me some crazy dramatic makeup though too. wish me luck :( #oh but the cool thing about starr dangerfield is that she’s the curator of the carnivals wax museum!! which. i don’t like wax figures but #as evidenced by the email exchange that’s going on right now i do love museums and curating so!! that’s good stuff #anyway i have to go see if my laundry is moveable. but just. yeah. mini life update #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[orindas]

I don’t want to grow up

#it’s like my room and clothes are starting to look the way I want the to #and my home and my hometown are starting to feel like home #I am making up for the time I lost and I am starting things later than some of my peers but now that I am starting them I don’t want #to interrupt it #I don’t know how I’m going to start to stop being codependent #and care for myself without people pointing out what I’m missing #is it because of the neurodivergent or because religious trauma haha #duvikdkdidkvidkkwos #like I know this is the next step and I know it’s just that whole leap of faith but also I’m not ready to leave this behind #but I can’t stay in the place I am now it’s time to take the leap but it’s a little scary :( #I don’t know how to do this