#I didn't sleep because of these 2

[kazonandoff]

LN 5 and Maomao

Finished 5. Read the prologue to 6. That was a fascinating read and actually pretty sad.

Maomao and Jinshi finally get intimate but neither of them enjoyed it. Comes from Jinshi trying to force the relationship along and I won't talk about that, there's a great post here somewhere of someone else discussing Jinshi's side of things. I wanna talk about Maomao.

If Jinshi has a warped view of relationships, then Maomao is just as bad, of not worse. She talks about how she's incapable of love but I think that's 1) not entirely true and 2) hugely affected by the environment she grew up in.

(BTW if you relate to Maomao as aro/ace that's awesome and I'm not taking that away from you. This is just my interpretation of things).

Maomao has been born and raised in an environment where relationships are a commodity. There's little emotion involved besides the base desires. Without even bringing up her parents, Maomao's sisters have been essential in her viewing relationships this way. Pairin taught her, against her will, how to use sex as a tool and as part of power play. Meimei taught her the best relationships are the ones that give you money and a secure future. And Joka taught her men are duplicitous and will always find a way to hurt or betray you in the end. None of this thinking exactly engenders love in a romantic sense.

So you can probably imagine what this kind of environment does to a young woman's thinking. Maomao is a pragmatic realist and has not a single romantic bone to her body. But she still very much cares.

When presented with 2 young girls in desperate circumstances, the most she can do is make sure they understand the severity of their decision to sell themselves to Verdigris House. When Chou-u starts running around town, she warns him of the dangers of rape and abduction. And when Jinshi comes to her door and says he wants company, she offers him Verdigris services.

And that's the problem. Jinshi wanting her specifically is not something she's currently emotionally equipped to deal with. The definition she's been given of love is that it's a very bad and dangerous thing. So she handles her love for Jinshi in the only way she currently knows how: as a child of the pleasure district, born and raised.

And I'm very sure she loves him. When Jinshi is being himself, without the posturing and machismo, she likes being with him very much. She likes touching him and she likes taking care of him. She just can't really express that yet in a healthy way. Relationships and love are still viewed by the lens of the pleasure district.

So when cornered and pinned down (literally) she turns to the only tactics she knows. The ones her sisters taught her. As a courtesan.

So yes, they got physical, they got intimate. But neither of them particularly liked it. Jinshi is left feeling shamed and Maomao is unsatisfied. Dealing with things the courtesan way is not enough for her anymore. And Jinshi dealing with things the way a person of authority would isn't cutting it. They're not master and servant anymore, not customer and courtesan.

So, in conclusion to this rather long ramble that I am writing half asleep and on only one cup of coffee: these stupid kids need to start communicating.

#the apothecary diaries #maomao #jinshi #jinmao #kusuriya no hitorigoto #way too long #I didn't sleep because of these 2 #I'm not proofreading this

[valka-arialitan]

The true ME2 ending

#man I TOTALLY forgot to post this one here ?? #mass effect #commander shepard #mass effect fanart #mass effect 2 #mass effect 3 #marcus shepard #jeff joker moreau #idiots in jail #they took Shepard's hoodie away and forced him to put on an Alliance uniform so right now he's in his ''wet cat'' mood #also he probably didn't sleep in days due to the thought of 304942 people dying because of him :D #poor man #and Joker smiles for the cameras #rockstar he is

[rav-sl]

For some reason I can't stop thinking about the way Bad spoke today about the christmas classes. He was mostly reffering to them as "the task that cucurucho gave me" but while it was a part of the task, he started that project way before. He started it with Pomme just so everyone would have fun with their kids, not for that reward. Even if it's probably not that deep, it fits his character so well -

It's nothing big. It's just a task that he somehow did in one day. Why does he look so tired? It doesn't have anything to do with sitting by the mooses for hours. He is fine and the quest was done

Anyway, that stream was a fever dream. I loved it LMAO

#qsmp #badboyhalo #q bbh #i swear his every move can be turned into angst #o(-( #it felt really bad for me when chayanne was joking that the federation was replacing quackity #Bad didn't do all that for some plan or because he was told to. he did it by choice but he won't admit it #i have 2 hours of sleep left and i'm thinking about that little guy. help :')

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[giurochedadomani]

For the Spotify Top 100 ficlet prompt: 55, One Piece, whatever you're feeling!

Por la boca vive el pez- Fito & Fitipaldis

(It's my absolute favourite rock ballad in the world, the singer is basically playing around with the popular saying 'por la boca muere el pez', meaning 'the fish dies because of its mouth', meaning 'liars usually rattle themselves out', and he's using that to say how he cannot live anymore while denying his feelings).

“I apologize”. 

Mihawk’s words throw Shanks out of a loop. He closes the door of his cabin, his other hand lightly squeezing Mihawk’s shoulder as he tries to search his face. The penumbra elongates the swordsman’s gesture, making him seem… sad? Embarrassed? In the lonely light of the only couple of candles lit up on Shanks’ desk. 

“...My behavior was unfitting”, Mihawk continues. Shanks blinks, a total loss of words. “I’ll understand if you—”. 

“What are you going on about?”, Shanks cuts him off, heart pounding in his chest as his mind automatically jumps to every single instance throughout the evening in which Mihawk has been uncharacteristically handsy. How Shanks moved Mihawk’s legs to let people use the stairs of the ship they were drinking on and Mihawk just kind of. Left his legs on Shanks’ lap. How he gently took Shanks’ hand and put it again on his knee, every time Shanks thought that he was getting tired of him idly running his fingers on it. 

Mihawk, ever so helpful, gives a non committal shrug. 

Shanks takes a breath. 

“Look”, he says, directing Mihawk to sit on his bed: “I took you out because you usually do not get this drunk, not because—”, he strips him of his coat, then kneels to take out his boots and hopes that not looking at him helps him say something that makes more or less sense, “they’ve done wilder shit— hey, I’ve done wilder shit, it’s just. You usually do not get this drunk”. 

Because that’s the thing. His mind keeps circling back to Mihawk touching him —to things like that little displeased noise he made every time Shanks moved his hand away— but the reality is that the swordsman has been pretty out of it throughout their entire meeting. Hell, he already seemed a little weirded out in the morning, when he’s shown up to their customary duel. 

He looks up at Mihawk’s somber face, and squeezes his thigh even though the other doesn’t look at him. 

“What’s going on?”. 

It cannot be the marines, and thinking about the possibility of a rival making Mihawk this sad makes Shanks internally laugh. That leaves the prospect of Mihawk being in this state by something Shanks adjacent, but he cannot think of anything the swordsman wouldn’t tell him upfront, Mihawk’s tongue being at times as sharp as Yoru. 

Well, nothing realistic, anyway. 

“At this point you’ve got to know that you can tell me about whatever’s going on, and that I won’t use it against you”, Shanks says, because it bears to be said, apparently. “Except if it’s about how you’re bad at fighting with knives. But I already know that”, he teases with a smile. 

Mihawk huffs, and it almost sounds like a snort, and if Shanks pays attention, he can almost see a corner of the swordsman’s lips pulling up. His chest feels warm. 

Warmer, still, when Mihawk’s eyes drop to his lips. 

He closes his mouth. His heart is beating out of rhythm, impossibly loud in his ears in the silence of the room. Half of Mihawk’s face is obscured, the light of the candles a tenuous glint on his golden iris, stuck on Shanks’ lips. Does Mihawk feel the warmth of his cheek, when he cups it? Does he blame it on the alcohol? 

The spell is broken when a wave makes Shanks’ tense position tip, hands scrambling for support on Mihawk’s thighs, straw hat tipped back and hanging on his back and—  he grabs the other’s hand without a second thought, pulling it back to his cheek where the swordsman left it first.   

“...This is okay”, Shanks mutters, because it apparently also needs to be said. It tips Mihawk’s surprise into something close to fondness, if Shanks is reading him well. 

The swordsman kisses his grin away.

#mishanks #akagami no shanks #dracule mihawk #one piece #one piece live action #opla #this is the one idea in which Mihawk has a sexy sexy dream about Shanks and has trouble coping #and coming to terms with the fact that he wants shanks and has no idea about how to get shanks #not expanding on that because I also want to do at some point some continuation in which Shanks says something cheesy #I've dreamt about this (kissing you #being with you etc) #that type of thing #And Mihawk goes: oh!!! So you've dreamt about this! #without realizing that 1) shanks didn't mean it quite literally #(although he'll come up with a few sexy ideas) #2) he's just confirmed to shanks that he has in fact dreamt about sleeping with him #an all around very mortifying experience for mihawk #but hey this little scene served for the spotify ask #xD

[ta-bajna-cerna-okybaca]

Now that I finally got to play TWST diasomnia chapter 1 myself, I'm gonna need everyone who said Malleus was a baby throwing a tantrum for no reason to pay me 2000 dollars each

#twst #twisted wonderland #yes it did take me until the second to last day of the new chapter event to finish book 6 what of it #in my defense i had no good leona&jamil cards for chapters 66 and 67‚ i'm glad i managed to do it at all. robe malleus carried the team <3 #anyways! i haven't seen this take in a while but i remember it popping up a lot earlier this year when we got diasomnia on the jp server #as a member of the malleus defense squad i can't bear all this slander and now i have proof it's baseless #his overblot is one of the most justified ones??? what do you mean no reason #He's already established to be constantly left out and lonely because of it #And now he gets hit with the triple whammy of 1) realizing his fellow students' mortality after book 6 #2) learning that his father figure is dying and in one week fucking off to fantasy china to live out his retirement without him #3) his best friend the MC telling him they found a way to un-isekai themself #Maybe he could have weathered one of those‚ but all three at the same time? #Poor guy stood no chance‚ those are hits straight into the trauma #Of course he's gonna have a breakdown! It's not his fault breakdowns in twisted wonderland come with a side of destructive berserking #And to be fair from what i've heard in spoilers all he did was put the whole school to sleep he didn't even destroy all that much #like yes putting everyone to sleep so they can live forever and never leave him is not a healthy reaction #but this is Unhealthy Reactions The School it's not like he's such an outlier in that #leave my boy alone 😭 #excuse my ranting i'm just insane about twisted wonderland and malleus specifically

[paper-carnation]

If I was a sad habitician and went to the Habitat as myself I do believe Habit would bully me rn

"Whout are Youo? "

"A Tired Idiot Sandwich"

#smile for me game #boris habit #paper carnation post #I dont know how to do habitspeak #I was like oh I have done a huge part of this task. I can finish what I have to do early... #BAM I get sleepy and nap for 2 and half hours #Because stupid me here doesn't sleep early #On other note. Before good ending he WOULD bully me. And if I didn't knew him I WOULD be so mad at him too

[traumainpyjamas]

JENO \\ ( )SCAPE Film : Chapter 2 & ( )SCAPE Film : Chapter 5

#nct dream #jeno #()scape film #dream()scape #yh this man #he is a problem #the way he managed to convey perfect stoic heartbreak in chapter 2 and then look so soft in chapter 5... #almost didn't want to post this public - just because this one is purely for me #i just needed to have this here for my own sake #if i'm having weird squeezing sensation in my heart so should you #nct #gifs #nct dream smoothie #watching kpop and making gifs instead of sleeping... #i should go to sleep

[kineticallyanywhere]

unless they got a nap in while waiting for Red Bull to respond (unlikely) Normal and Scary/Terry have not slept in like 2/3 days.

#dndads #dndads 2 #Link hasn't been specified but he didn't say he didn't sleep when Terry said she didn't sleep so you can kinda assume he did #also assuming the last time they all slept was at the same time #probably pre-Tony Peparoni's death #Terry is pushing 12 hours longer than Normal because Normal spent 12 hours in space for 3 seconds or whatever #the point is neither of them are physically or mentally okay #normal oak #scary marlowe #still just gonna keep using that for now #anyway I would like them both removed from the plot asap for nappy times and an orange juice

[garbage--account]

POV : for some reason, japanese stopped being the worldwide language in Lioccott

Imagine them tryna interact with foreign players 💀

#Inazuma Eleven #Using tierlist for headcanons again #tier list #Costaillian is basically just staring at each other and knowing the shit anyway. Period #attempt at humor #(failed) #I made another tier list because i wanted attention 💔 #Sleep deprived Earine #In the anime all Lioccott speaks japanese for no reason #Theory : they understood each other thanks to the magic of sakka 😍 (or shared autism idk) #Tier 4 lads really be telling the most insane shits without even knowing it when just asking the simpliest things ever 💔😢 #Frank Wintersea is illiterate and gave fake diploma to be hired. Change my mind #Jude “should” be in tier 2 but i decided he speak english the funniest with no reason #Kanon travels through time to recruit Paolo in the past. Instructions not clear. Paolo didn't come in Ogre timeline. Sakka is dead

[daily-whistlepaw]

daily whistlepaw until ah becomes PoV day 1167

I think I finally understand how people feel when around a crush, can't say I enjoy it

#warrior cats #whistlepaw #windclan #medicine cat apprentice #this isn't my first crush lol but this one has had me feel the strongest of feelings (and might be my first genuine crush lol) #the fact I have been building up A Lot of stress for the entire week probably didn't help. #and the fact my stomach hurt is also probably at least partially to explain by the fact I barely ate last night #but MAN seeing my (latest) crush in such a pretty dress and then go on stage and play (a goddess!!!!!!! she's a goddess) #(I already bought tickets to go see the full thing; I will die but I will die happy (I hope)) #but yeah I struggled for a good 2 hours to fall asleep and also had stomach weirdness happening the next morning #man it was not fun #(and then she came to sit next to me during class and I had to play it cool (I was too deranged on sleep deprivation to really care about #being my typical brand of weird but I do sometimes feel like an idiot around her and feel guilty because then I fear that she finds me #annoying and will hate me and I will fail this again (losing a friendship over a crush once was not that fun lol) and Traumas don't help #either at all so uh I'm just trying to spend time with her I just always feel a bit worried that I'm annoying her and it's consuming my bra #I do also still feel a little guilty about having this crush; internalized homophobia/issues around sexuality are hard to shake off #and while it's very normal and stuff I never dare to go the entire way when my brain conjures fantasies that are a little too risqué #I just feel guilty man I know I shouldn't but still it fucking sucks in my brain #and god talking about this in therapy would be a mess #I might have to eventually but I don't wanna #anyways; wild vent in the tags aside; yay a whis!

[polter-heist]

Dp x Dc prompt 5

Danny's class goes on a field trip to Gotham. The day goes great but at night, the bats stop on the roof of the building and get into an argument.

Danny, half tired, annoyed from all the noise and at the fact that his ghost sense keeps going off, phases through the roof with his thermos and soups the problem(s) and calls it a night.

The batfam isn't very happy that multiple of their family members got souped.

#can pick who all got souped or you can just do one #i also like to imagine that his arm wassticking out of the roof with the thermos so they didn't see his face #imagine it was just two people and like idk jason got souped #and tim just stands there for a second like #''did that actually happen or has lack of sleep finally gotten to me?'' #and tim tries to tell them but they're all just like ''tim/drake you haven't slept in like. a month. just get some sleep.'' #so tim launches his own investigation into the soup arm and slowly the fam realises ''he. he might have been right???'' #meanwhile danny is chilling looking at museums with a fairly upset jason soup #probably planning to take him to frostbite because ''there's something wrong with this one :/'' #dp x dc #dc x dp #dp x dc prompt #dc x dp prompt #dp x dc crossover #dc x dp crossover #PLEASE work this time tumblr i know ur broken as hell I've been here for like 2 to 3 years but still #danny phantom #danny fenton #polter prompts

[loverboybrightsideghost]

bro literally they have different exactlys....

when aziraphale says "come with me, to heaven!" he's not dismissing crowley's confession at all, he's directly responding to it. at that point aziraphale knows it's over, it's too late, and he's so desperate. they are so close to everything they want! the way he shakes his head, his pleading expression; he's not rejecting or ignoring crowley at all, he's telling him "no, don't you see? this is exactly how we get what we want, this is how we can finally be together!"

crowley is saying "we can be together", and aziraphale is saying "exactly! we can be together!" they just each think the other wants something else. those bullets sure are shooting past some ears.

#they both feel betrayed man #crowley feels like aziraphale's choosing heaven over him and even heaven over himself let's be honest #and además he feels like aziraphale is dismissing him as he is because he says he can make him an angel again #like imo aziraphale doesn't care WHAT crowley is but who he is (he's crowley <3) but making him an angel #would obviously make them be able to be together of course! they can fix things together! #but crowley doesn't see it that way #and aziraphale thinks crowley is running away and rejecting /him/ and their chance to be together #he thinks crowley's rejecting up their one chance to be happy and safe together #oh how i hate these two (i don't)(i love them) #anyways will i post this. remains to be seen. #i'm not saying anything new tbh but it's my blog and i post what i want‼️‼️‼️ #bluebird.txt #good omens #good omens 2 #posts that i definitely didn't write instead of sleeping #AAAAAAAAND post. que será será

[hydenine]

I'm gonna be frank, I thought OFMD had already been cancelled (or at least everyone who made it finished this season without the expectation of anything more) solely based on the way the last few episodes of season 2 RUSHED to wrap everything up. It felt like they THOUGHT they were getting more at some point, but then they got to the last third and realized 'oh shit, we only have a couple episodes left to deal with everything we set up' so hearing the official announcement just doesn't surprise me.

#hydenine rambles #ofmd #our flag means death #unpopular online opinion I guess but I'm kinda glad the cancellation was officially announced #because I have no idea how they would have even started a third season from the point they left two at #I'm still baffled by them acting like they were gonna go out and get revenge and then they immediately cut to them retired #it just didn't feel earned #anyway in my heart season 2 and now the show ends when they sleep together at the end of Calypso's Birthday #the end #I haven't talked to a single irl friend who didn't think the episodes after 6 were rushed

[chi-the-idiot]

Im sorry, I lied, we aren't watching Netflix tonight. Let me tell you my ideas for an Amulet by Kazu Kibuishi rewrite

Lemme start with wasted character potential #1, mother herself, Karen.

The reason

It is not common at all in fantasy books for parents to participate in their children's adventures. For obvious reasons, really: parents would not allow their kids to be put in any danger, thus it is easier for them to not appear in the story at all, or even be the thing that the kids are chasing after in the first place.

That last one is exactly what happens in book 1, Karen is kidnapped and the kids need to save her. But unlike other stories, where "saving mom" is the end goal, Emily and Navin end up saving Karen in book 2 out of 9. And not only that, Karen insists on staying with her children in Alleida until they finish what they started.

Let me explain why this is so important, aside from the general subversion of the genere: Amulet, at its core, is a tale of grief. A family rattled by the tragic and horrific death of a father. The three of them are broken, in many different ways, but they insist on staying together no matter what.

If the topic was tackled properly, this could have been a story that explored all the different facets of grief and how a family tries to overcome its hurt. How you can rebuild yourself up from what may appear as the bottom of a well if you reach out for those who love you for support. How you don't need to suffer alone.

With Karen, this could have been especially interesting. If Kazu hadn't based his story on the idea of "kids parenting their parents", an interesting point could've been made. After all, Karen shouldn't rely on her kids to provide her emotional support at such a young age. She could, however, learn to open up about her pain to make them understand that they are not alone, while she also makes her own connections to the world around her.

So. How exactly would I do that?

Focus a little bit on Karen's past. Make her have a personality and purpose outside of "Mom"

Give Karen her own storyline and character arc paralel yet separate from her kids

Focus on Karen's own grief and loss, how she has carried the burden of her guilt for so many years, yet put on a front of strength for the sake of her kids.

The Idea

Just as Emily is "The Stonekeeper" and Navin is "The Recistence's Leader", Karen should also have a role. Personally, I decided to give her that of "The Messenger".

Karen, in the books, has been characterized in a way I can only describe as stereotypically "motherly": she's caring, understanding, and tries to offer support whenever she can. She might not be very open in the begining, but once she talks with a character a bit more she has been shown to become more trusting. These ideas are not expanded upon any more, so we dob't really get much information about her character aside from that.

I, personally, chose to take that idea and reshape it into Karen being the more "friendly/comunicative" of the group. Although yes, Navin is shown to be more charismatic, there is something to be said about friendship that is formed due to a building up of trust over time.

As a result, I have come up with the following concept:

Karens journey is one in which she learns to rely on other friends for help, that she doesn't need to carry her burdens and face the world on her own while putting on a mask for her children.

On the other hand, Karen also learns that her children are growing up, and they will need to know that they are not alone either. It is her job as their mother to teach this to them.

And in my opinion, the best way this could be potrayed was if Karen started writing to those she met on this journey. Sharing their experiences with those they left behind, communicating the situation in far away nations to others. Being the conection between locations.

And so, in the end, when the battle is about to start, she writes one last message to those old friends, asking for support in the conflict, thinking that she will recieve no answer. Only to be then met the following evening with entire towns worth of troops waiting to help.

Because Karen may not have powerful magic. Or the knowledge to pilot entire ships. But she does have the written word and the ability of forming conections. And that power, sometimes, is as strong as an entire army.

#amulet series #amulet graphic novel #Karen Hayes #im sorry if this barely makes any sense #its 2 am here and im dying of sleep deprivation #but it was worth it tbh #i didn't know where to add this one so i'll add it here: #Karen in this version is a journalist because it fits really well with this storyline I feel like #i like to think she inhereted it from Silas

[faggyv4mpire]

if they get me take this spike and

#i was very bored last night #i went to bed around 1 am #and since i'm a dumbass who doesn't want to sleep i said #“why don't i combine everything I love in one drawing?” #so this drawing is my entire personality #i guess idk #i did it under pressure #because i didn't want my dad to found me drawing at 2 am bruhh #and then get grounded #oh #and if you're wondering #what does soph love the most? #well its #anatomy #my chemical romance #drawing #and #music #... #and my partner but I can't put them in this drawing... can i? #i've had a lot of mcr fanart ideas lately #when i say “a lot” i mean 3 maybe 4😝 #but I'm too lazy to draw them #vampires will mever hurt you #mcr #mcr fanart