#I didn't guess you had adhd

[sassysnowperson]

ADHD is often, for me, like every day I have to fight through molasses to do things I don't want to do. Today, though, my brain is full of bees, that are excited about work...but not *that* work.

Turns out my ADHD meds are better at counteracting the molasses than corralling the bees. This might be because I'm having way more fun with the bees and don't want to stop.

I think I'll go do some pushups about it.

#i am combined adhd - inattentive/hyperactive #but day to day the inattentive is the problem #hyperactive/impulsive - I don't feel it most days and it doesn't have negative consequences in my life #i was surprised when it pinged on the assessment - but also people who know me well said #I didn't guess you had adhd #but knowing that you do I'm not surprised it's hyperactive too #anyway all that to say #today I am FEELING THE HYPERACTIVE #beeeeeeeees

[sysig]

Still normal don’t even worry about it (Patreon)

#Doodles #ADHD #I was Very nice to my fixation - when it was fixated on the thing I wanted it to be lol #Honestly I wasn't even that mean about the two (2!!) other things it wanted to brain-focus on #Mad about it but in that dopamine way lol #''Can we please get dopamine from this thing and not those other things? Please'' ''Lol'' #That is not an answer! #It is honestly still really interesting data :0 #I've still never successfully forced a fixation but this is at least the second time I've continued a falling fixation #I wonder what the through-line is hahaha <knows the through-line #I was actually very resistant to fixating on the other things because my pride got in the way again lol #To the point where I didn't even write them down until recently pffft yeah that's how that works #''If I don't write them down then they don't count'' Uh Huh #Even if there are Some similarities to the last time I forcefully refixated there are still enough differences to make for interesting data #Like how the last time I had three in conflict did Not go well it was very rough on my brain - but this time was nice :D #Probably helps that the two-pair were kinda-sort from the same source so really I guess it Could be argued that it was just two in conflict #But I'm not counting it that way and since it's my brain and I make the rules that's what matters lol #The next set is one of the fixations you all saw the TV Guide for this week it's fine lol #The other - it's another video game but hmmm I might see about making fanart if/when I actually get to play it myself #It's very silly so I'm gonna hold onto it for a bit longer haha

[sydmarch]

spent months like I need prescription for my mental health give me prescription please please & now that I have it I'm like hm. do I want to have to take meds, actually

#part of it i think is just that typical anxiety that comes before any life change like s new job or whatever but also like #despite never having TRIED stimulants im familar w them i know people w adhd who are on them i had an idea of what to expect & thats what i #i figured id be getting but shes having me try this non stimulant option first bcus 1 apparently its good for people who also have anxiety #and 2 easier to get w the like Adderall shortages & shit rn #& im like ok i have NEVER heard of this drug before and didn't even know there WERE non stimulant options options. #like im doing all my research TODAY for the first time then pick it up tomorrow? #like me heslth anxiety girl just has to be like ok sure i guess. i had mentally prepared myself for stimulants & thats it!!! #i mean worst case i just try it & see if it works or if i have side effects but like. ugh. & i dont like that i dont like my np LOL like id #probably feel less uncertain about trying something i was previously unfamiliar with if she was someone i liked & trusted more #if i knew there were unfamilar drugs they might recommend to me i probably wouldve started over & found someone new to work with. AGHHH & i #didnt discuss any of this w her bcus it took me a couple hours after our session to think abt it & do my own reading & process my emotions #to really come to thia conclusion. & also i wouldnt have wanted to talk to hwt abt this anyway bcus i dont like her & have not felt at all #like cool w opening up to her beyond the minimum i had to do for the assessment #& my therapist is sick this week so im not gonna get to talk to her tomorrow!@ #texticles #anyway i know ive got fellow adhd bitches following me. anyone try guanfacine did you like it or nah

[cassioppenny]

cheren is "im so evil and fucked up" in a cartoon villain way

dawn is "im so evil and fucked up" in a weird little girl in a horror movie way

#milesverse #dawn only had one friend (barry) when she was little because both of them were the “weirdos” #dawn used to be a really quiet kid that everyone was kinda scared of and just thought of as weird (undiagnosed autism) #and barry was thought of as annoying (undiagnosed adhd) #dawn is more silly nowadays because barry rubbed off his silly energy on her and now they're silly together :3 #but dawn can get like scary for no fucking reason her hair suddenly covers one of her eyes and she starts talking about summoning demons #to barry she's normal though she's not weird in the slightest to him #dawn is like obsessed with ghost stories and spooky things and summons giratina in her bathroom for fun #she didn't even noticd that it even worked until the end of dppt basically lmao #she also has like mirror symbolism going on idk i want to draw her eventually #you guys will never guess who her dad is

[unproduciblesmackdown]

thirty tags generally never being enough: LOS-307 also having a perfectly neurodivergent time manifesting as their having a distressing/harmful experience that goes ignored (as does their talking about it, from [forewarning] to [increasingly urgently remarking on it]) b/c no one else shares it, and their efforts to help themself out by requesting a break from a task that's overtaxing them or trying to cool the room to cool themself are thwarted b/c [not continuing to overheat for their own current wellbeing And to avoid its exacerbation and an outright crisis] is dismissed for [i do want to keep playing this game to win it though] and [i would be uncomfortable if cold]. also that when it's way too late it's like oh ok Now um well just cool down it's fine lol. just like irl. iconique autistique

#LOS-307 #i mean this like [the internal experience Can't really exist or be a Problem: not in any way that a) means anyone would take action to #help with that and/or b) means the affected person would be allowed to take action to help themself with that] is more broadly nd #of course nt people have parallel experiences but Do have the sense of being justified in expected their reaction to be Taken Seriously #& this can be tied in to Other [there's a power dynamic] experiences like environments / situations being structured around the norm for #one group while others are having to make all these additional efforts &/or endure a worse time while experiencing this #and the people they could complain to would be like ''well I'm not [experiencing that] & everyone's Been acting fine sooo'' #but cue any sensory factor that is understood to be a ''normal'' & thus ''''universal'''' bother.... #then anyone can immediately drop everything & move heaven & earth about it. like well of course? #fidget cubes as nd sensory/stim aids then interpreted Mainstreamly as a frivolous fad b/c what else could this experience be #gotta ban them from classrooms b/c adhd students stimming or doodling or just being unable to focus Always is like #well that's way deprioritized versus the concept of Normal Kids theoretically being distracted by a Toy #or that yeah say someone's needing to fidget or stim & that Is distracting someone else? #well guess who's always the one who has to stop. that there's not eve an Idea of conflicting needs/experiences when They're the one thrown #or yknow distracted by [w/e condition] or bothered or distressed or impeded from being able to do [xyz] or etc etc #and like i said all the [LOS-307 being chatty & friendly & enthused & reaching out & this isn't interacted w/at all for the longest time & #they have to go ''ok well i'm biting & killing you now?'' before it's recognized] like yeah a day in the life. I'D chat w/you bestie #and even that the fact they don't Already have friends meaning They're not getting key help/backup as they try to bite & kill you.... #unfair tbh. connected devices aren't their friends #oh one Pure Visual Element....they had a vending machine price display go [hello lunella] as she walked by. & didn't notice that either!! #how cute of them & =( hello LOS.... #giving them the ''well another autistic hero'' award. their experiences resonate! they deserve it! #they're melting down; they wanna be more chill; they're minimizing their own experience / telling themself what they Should do.... #screenshot as they display an infinity symbol while saying they're only 8 months old but time is a human construct....

[indigodawns]

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#had an okay writing day for my thesis yesterday and it was a rly nice day overall and then idk. rsd hit i guess and #i went to sleep way too late so ofc today i've been feeling foggy and i haven't written a word and it's 6pm like.............. #makes me feel like i wasted the work i did yesterday and i should've gone to my grandpa's bday celebrations yday #even though that didn't feel viable. he sure made me feel like shit for missing it too! #it just feels like see i could've gone and done yday's work today or some shit which ?? but sure #i just know myself and im p unbearable to be around rn/when im stressed/on a deadline so yk. + travel time + adjusting plus socialising... #also had a long talk w/ my friends yday and it was nice and it was all about how you experience consciousness but also idk. #also i keep being so sharp and kinda mean to one of my friends and it's sooooooooo she says it's fine and it's not that bad but ughhhhhhh #im sure the core of this spiral is i just rly don't like myself and i think im right not to so like. what now #and none of this even matters like. get it toGETHER #also adhd meds aren't magically fixing my life so that's another scam (but ok they DO help at least i can actually write and think then) #anyways. #i think it's. feeling this & hating myself and my friend talking about how they're past that and life is still hard for them #and it's not about me but it does make me feel stupid like true all my problems are self-made not even circumstancial like. #also feel like i keep saying the wrong thing to people and i keep messing up my words lately and boooooooo idk #anyways im ok i just don't wanna moan abt this to anyone specifically but clearly im stuck so yk? #should i share more nice moments here too??? i just always feel like whatever emotion im feeling disappears when i share it so??? #maybe bc i overthink it then or whatever #but i can!! maybe i should #for yday: had a rly rly fun convo with a friend who gave me the wildest updates ever + spent time with 2 of my best friends #+ smelled the flowers and that v v specific spring to summer air and felt the sun on my face #FINE maybe therapists have a point

[moe-broey]

Honestly I'm a bit relieved we don't have PMD2 remakes like. Not even cause I'm a hater (though I am VERY partial to the og sprite work, they really killed it w that). No, the reason is because I'm autistic and there are simply Too Many Things actually, esp in quick succession lately LMFAO like. I do not have the brain room for it.

And like as silly as it might sound, I've been REALLY overwhelmed and frustrated by it. I'm upset that I moved on from SV so quickly, I haven't even touched the Engage DLC despite having it, I haven't touched Engage in general actually. I feel like Fire Emblem esp takes up A Lot of brain space. I'm really upset that I Almost got really into SuMo again but kind of immediately was distracted by other things and I have art projects that have been left hanging bc of it.

Something weirdly specific is like??? Bc I make a lot of fanart and a lot of it takes the form of comics and focuses heavily on interactions and dynamics between characters, something I've REALLY been struggling with is like. I feel like it takes a lot of studying a character and getting to know them to really capture their Voice, how they talk, how they think, how they feel and how they react to things, outwardly and internally. That's a deep process for me that takes a lot of time and thought.

I feel like I can't quite express it all the way, like it's stuck, but like. Really picking apart the SV squad and trying to learn each of their mannerisms vocal quirks and general vibes about how they Are. Feeling abruptly uprooted from that to do it all over again but with a huge roster of brand new characters. Also really wanting to revisit older characters that are near and dear to me that I do feel I know very well.

And also like??? A very sudden distraction and almost instant loss of interest is like. Hell on earth hell on earth. Like as much as I fucking miss SV already and as much as I really wanted to keep working on my projects about it (had a whole AU going and everything) literally I Could Not get myself back into it even if I tried really really REALLY hard. And that is SO upsetting????? It's such a specific thing.

Hhhghgh got. Distracted thinking about PMD LMFAOO making that a separate post tbh but like. Main point is replaying it a bit reminded me of the importance of being able to slow down and really sit with a game. It's characters and story and what it has to say. And even now, I'm already getting the Hell feeling of needing to chase whatever can grasp me and hold me. When will I stop chasing my own tail??? When does it end??? Will I ever be able to finish my projects???? Will I ever be able to play a video game like a normal person?????? I'm launching my own ass into 2013. Not even in a woe nostalgia type of way, but in a I really just had Two Interests and that was it way. I'm blowing this whole building up.

#also this is way genshin has been on the way back burner for me lately like. it takes up SO much brain room. #fucked up gacha tactics aside LMFAO the lore and characters and potential for antics is a huge draw for me #which. eats up so much brain room. #i'm really thankful splatoon is like. has lovable characters for sure had an insane amount of lore if you wanna look for it. #but really it is just like a snack food game. none of that shit matters! i'm just here to have a gay ass time. #i am getting sv dlc bc i am deeply invested in sv and i deeply desire like. having it hold my attention again. #IDK IDK HONESTLY. maybe i just have a skill issue. alledged highly speculated by my therapist undiagnosed adhd. #anyway i do have some sillies about genshin i'm considering posting just sketch art of my genshin sillies #projects i said i wanted to finish and simply didn't. may never end up revisiting again. sad! #i always get stuck somewhere during the art process like. at dialogue or at linart or at coloring or at coloring bg (different beasts) #but for now i guess i'm just gonna play pokemon. i think that's what i wanna do. maybe draw. #hhghgmnfhgg THAT DAMN TIMELOOP. ALWAYS IN THAT DAMN TIMELOOP. #i think today i will play video game :) and then draw :) and then play video game :) and draw :) and th-- #what the fuck ever!!!!!!!!!!! drink three coffees about it asshole!!!!!!!!!! coofe.....

[goldiipond]

idk how long i spent onthat but it was at least a few days of hyperfocus im glad people like it :] i love ray sofuvking much

#skye's ramblings #RAY BIRTHDAY (and escape day I GUESS) i LOVE RAY!! #n iam going to rewatch it soon hohohosgjfshh #ihave 2 friends to watch it with waving at you rapidly. cannot wait to see my guy on his birthday (it is his birthday) #anywywa fun fact i actually had the sketch for that n i did it like. a month ago??? i realy didn't want to miss it #and i STILL only managed to finish it at midnight today. adhd brain <3 #it was fun though. really had fun w the background which is rare for me <3

[melonpond]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

#melon rambles #vent in tags #things are very much not working out #I just want to go to college to be a funky game programmer and the universe is saying no absolutely not #I am. hnnnnnhghghhgggggggagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #I guess I might follow my dad's example of getting into a tech field by messing around and finding out rather than going to college #. #I really did want like a traditional college experience though since I haven't really had that at this community college #like I want to stay in dorms and take part in events and just kind of be part of a community #and also get connections and internships!! #learn from someone with industry experience! that was another reason why I didn't like learning on my own as much #also if I don't go to college and rely completely on self study then I really am going to have to get an adhd diagnoses/meds #so that I can actually. you know. sit down and not experience crippling amounts of executive dysfunction. #and the whole adhd diagnosis thing is something I had intended to push back another couple of years #because that's going to be really difficult to get #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[nero-neptune]

i think this whenever i see a post about adhd (just passed two posts about adhd on my dash, so)- every so often (when i remember), i seriously consider getting an adhd diagnosis. i think that just might fix....Something. bc like i know the whole ‘x is a symptom of adhd’ is like a big meme these days (or was), but i just came across my diary from when i was 12 to 13 years old (that i also somehow mostly finished, save a few pages, which is Not the case at all for the two other diaries that just stopped halfway through). so, like 10+ years ago, i apparently wrote down (the context being that my mom was mad at me for getting a few failing grades in the 8th grade. the bolded words were underlined in the diary btw): “I like piano. I love to practice. I don’t like science, math, etc. I don’t love to study things. I know it’s good for me and will help me later in life, but I fall asleep and I get easily distracted. Very, easily distracted. I wonder if it’s ADD...” and i just left it at that, like that’s a problem for tomorrow. well, it’s tomorrow! so if i ever do get that formal medical diagnosis, i’m gonna find it really funny that i had that shit figured out as a child, even if it never went anywhere bc my parents didn’t believe me lol

#i remember asking my mom (i guess around the time i was 12 or 13) if it's possible that i have adhd or add #bc i'd read about it and started thinking about maybe that's why i couldn't focus and why i got so distracted #or why in the 4th grade my teacher yelled at me in the middle of class bc i kept fidgeting in my seat #(that moment is like burned in my brain bc i didn't even realize i moved around that much but then i realized no one else did that) #but my mom. after telling her all this. just scoffed and said 'there's no such thing as adhd' and that was that! #time jump 10 years and she says offhand 'oh did you know my younger brother has adhd. and that your cousin has adhd' #but said in a tone that's like 'i still don't think that's a real thing' but damn. so it's in the family is what you're saying #anyway i just had some thoughts about this #funny how my blog is basically a diary these days #rambles

[jfleamont]

I have a couple of asks in my inbox but I have an exam tomorrow so I can't reply just yet, sorry! I'm probably gonna reply within the weekend but there's one ask that I particularly love so if I'm not too tired i'll reply to that one tomorrow :)

#hold on a little longer #i spent 5 consecutive hours in front of my screen studying because i had to complete a task #blame my undiagnosed adhd #i didn't drink nor go to the loo #i didn't even look at my phone #but i lost my mind a little bit #yes i've procrastinated until the last minute #how did you guess #jfleamont rambles

[blujayonthewing]

it's about the time I usually go to bed and I'm physically and emotionally tired; however, I also have spent the last solid hour being desperately sad and am a little reluctant to try going to bed on this note

do I: 1) just go to bed anyway 2) put on mbmbam or, like, beauty and the beast or something and draw, I dunno, literally anything and try to cleanse my brain palette first, fuck it, it's late enough already, what's another hour

#most of y'all are in similar enough timezones you won't even see this I'm just thinking aloud I guess #I was feeling GOOD the wine had me RELAXED and HAPPY and I was gonna DOODLE SOME LOWKEY SPICE #but I got distracted and didn't even start and now here we are #literally as soon as justin went to bed-- not even IN bed yet just out of the ROOM-- I crumbled to pieces #I still don't want to talk about it btw I'm just #living in the very uncomfortable conflict between 'I don't want to be sad' #and 'the idea of ACTUALLY not being sad is filling me with profound existential despair' #adhd has been my friend all day! nighttime is- as usual- Bad #about me

[foone]

Your best guess is that you've been in this time loop for something north of 15 years. You've lived that day, April 9th, 1997, something like 6000 times. You think... The second most ironic thing about being in this time loop* is that you have ADHD, and time blindness has always been something you've suffered with.

The time loop hasn't helped. You'll really get into a book, and don't look up from it until it's yesterday. Or, earlier today? Or tomorrow, it's all the same day. You wake up in your bed at 8:27, having slept through your alarm, no matter what happens. You've had plenty of time to do all the classic time loop things: told everyone (they forget the next day), kissed everyone (a surprising number of people turn out to be up for itl), tried to run (you made it all the way to Memphis one day, but it didn't make any difference), tried to make everything perfect and right (harder than you'd think, and there's nothing obvious that needs fixing), and gotten yourself exploded and shot and run over. You even made it into orbit once, NASA still swearing at you on the radio the whole way up. You've robbed all the local banks, kidnapped the mayor, and stolen half the stuff in the town, just to see what people have. Why not? It's hard to have a sense of morality when there are no repercussions to any actions, at least none that last more than 24 hours.

You convinced a scientist to shoot neutrinos at you once, thanks to something you'd read in a book on time. Didn't seem to make any difference, though you could swear the next day felt different, in some hard to define way.

You've gotten into a rhythm of starting each day and just walking out your front door, to visit a different place in the city, and knock on their door. If they're home, you ask questions, then use the answers next time to get further. If not, you let yourself in and see what their house looks like from the inside.

Even their shocking crimes no longer can shock you. Mr. Stevens is a burgler, Jenny J. is halfway through murdering her husband, Alex over on 5th street has a basement full of photos they shouldn't have, and more neighbors than you'd think are cooking meth or growing cannabis in their little backyard sheds or closets.

You can go to the police, you can confront them, you can explose them, or you can get a weapon and go all vigilante on them... It doesn't matter in the long run (and for you, the long run is very short indeed). They'll be fine the next morning, back at it again like nothing happened.

You wake up that same Wednesday morning, put on some clothes, and walk out the door. You got into a gimmick of crossing the road with your eyes closed: you know where the cars are, and if you keep the same pace, they definitely won't hit you. Besides, if you do, you wake up back in your bed. Big woop.

But you don't make it to the road this time. You trip, falling on the hard concrete of the sidewalk. What the hell? Your arms ache from catching yourself, and you have to suppress the time-looper instinct of "I hurt. Restart the loop!",at least until you figure out what happened.

You look back and there's a sneaker sitting on the sidewalk. A perfectly normal shoe, just a little skuffed up. A bit down the sidewalk, there's another, the other foot presumably.

You have a moment of equal parts panic and elation. You're out of the loop? You're out of the loop! This might be Thursday.

You gather yourself from the sidewalk and run back up the path to your door. You open the newspaper... April 9th. This is still the same day. You look back at the road, seeing the patterns of crossing cars you've seen thousands of times before. You listen, and your neighborhood sounds right. You can hear Timothy down the road yelling about baseball, so it's not 9:14 yet.

This isn't a new day. This is the day. This is your day. So why is something different? What, a partial time loop? And almost time loop? Most things are the same, but not all? It makes no sense.

You hear yelling down the road. You jog towards it, as an out of place sound just doesn't happen in your day. Around the corner there's a police officer shouting at a woman who is rapidly disrobing and flinging her discarded clothes at the officer, who is shouting at her and his radio. So far, she seems to be winning, but she's about out of linen ammunition.

You realize you don't recognize her. She's not one of the people you know, and you know everyone. She's someone new, the very anthesis of what a time loop is about. That, combined with recognizing that charicatistic disdain for consequences makes you gasp. My God... She's another time looper. She's done this day before, and it's just repeated, and now she's doing everything to see what happens. You're not alone in this crowded city anymore! You run towards her, eager to introduce yourself.

* Themost ironic thing about being in this time loop is that every copy of Groundhog Day at your local Blockbuster is checked out.

#Time loop #my writing

[evilminji]

You knooooowwww... >.>

The only difference, technically, between a school in the Zone? And on Earth? Is the American government won't recognize your Zone diploma...

Not accredited. But like..... I'm JUST SAYING? If you didn't try to pass your school off as some Big Ivy League type? Pulled the "oh yeah, you'd never have heard of it, it's local." And the COMPUTERS say it's legit?

How many people will dig deeper?

If you legitimately have the knowledge, you legitimately have the knowledge. Not YOUR fault you left out the whole "extra-dimensional" part. It makes folk nervous! And nervous folks get stabby.

So like? If you were ALREADY planning to "Move" as you euphemistically put it? Talked it over with your VERY concerned folks and friends? Who do NOT like the look of the steady but concerning rise of Anti-Ghost Powers That Be? Who finally put their foot down and reminded you that you are a TEENAGER and it's NOT your responsibility to fix the world?

Well...

Fuck those guys, I guess. You'll miss the old house, but Team "Taking our ball and going literally anywhere else" makes some good points. Why ARE you putting up with this?

And honestly, you've never SEEN your dad have so much fun. Him and the Reality Realtor just sorta... Vibe. Himbo to Himbo communications. Smatters of advanced physics. Fudge. It's great.

They move the portal. Collapse the old one in a way that makes it impossible to recover or recreate. You... kinda don't want to ask. They had that "mad scientist glint" in their eyes.

And while everyone's checking out brochures to different realities? You? Head off to the nearest College. It's the Zone, so technically you could go to any of endless billions. But you'd like your education some time this century.

Cue! Danny Fenton! Entering?

Academia's wet dream. A sprawling CITY of a college. Where the classes are on EVERYTHING and the price is FREE. People have Obsessions okay?? They NEED to teach. Debate and discuss! Study! Right papers and read them! It's been going on a while! And what happens when you find a subject that's NOT covered?

YOU COVER IT!

It's like if New York was a College. Good fucking luck find the dorms. Sleep on the floor like the rest of us, you casual.

Danny was Not Prepared ™.

He loves it though.

Classes on aeronautics next making the perfect sandwich, shoved next to historical basketry, stacked above alien slam poetry. But only on Tuesdays! Ever shifting. Breaking his Fenton Born Adhd in to a fine PASTE to be smeared upon bread. Happy mental stimulation chemicals go Brrrrrrrr

If it wasn't wildly inappropriate, he would LICK IT to claim it as his then wrap around it and gaurd like a territorial cat. He thought he HATED school! Turns out he just hated high-school. College though? College, or at least ZONE College, is fuckin AWESOME.

He's sit in SO MANY random classes just cause.

Picked up and dropped them at a whim. When they no longer sparked joy. He's been a flighty bitch and for once? No one CARES. No one says "you HAVE to commit and stick with this FOREVER once you choose this" and? It just? It's so FREEING! He's learned so MUCH!

He's probably gonna come back!

Which? Is how a deeply, DEEPLY weird aerospace engineer from supposedly bumfuck NOWHERE, end up working at Wayne Industries. He's.... a lil crazy behind the eyes. Ha ha... CONCERNING ™!

Dude sleeps on the lab floor. Has weirdly spotty knowledge. Can be an unprecedented genius one second and not know who the current president is the next. Doesn't know what DAY it is. Forgets to eat. Tried to make a fusion reactor out of the break room toaster before Sandra from accounting distracted him with pictures of her cat.

It's like he wanders through life blissfully unaware that he is both terrifying and about three seconds from killing them all. Then FUCKING TRIPS because he forgot to tie his shoelaces again.

Who hired this man?

WHY!?

I mean, we KNOW why. Probably to put him on a watch list. But? He's like a terrifying murder puppy! Built like a tank! That's stoned out of its mind half the time. And have you HEARD his college stories? That CAN'T be legal. Was this guy raised in a cult!? Aaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!????

@hdgnj @legitimatesatanspawn @babbling-babull @dcxdpdabbles @hypewinter

#dpxdc #dp x dc #dc x dp #dcxdp #dc x dp prompt #minji's writing #Zone College Au

[blackopals-world]

Idia: I just don't understand. What's the use? Why should I take these?

Nurse!Yuu: the medication will help you improve your mood. At the moment you aren't producing enough dopamine. You might see improvement on your outlook on life.

Idia: Easy for you to say. After all you have a great life as is. Perfect family, friends, and life.

Nurse!Yuu: I never claimed that.

Idia: But it's so obvious. You and your siblings are all in the medical field and all your friends are so important.

Nurse!Yuu: That's true. But we all have our own battles we fight.

Idia: Like what?

Nurse!Yuu: Well let's start with my fellow doctors. Marin Biologist!Yuu has separation anxiety. It's not their fault. They just don't like being alone. Vet!Yuu has insomnia. They both had stressful upbringings which only heightened these issues.

Idia: That's not too bad.

Nurse!Yuu: Chef!Yuu suffers from severe phobias related to mushrooms, certain fish, and snakes because they are afraid of poisons. Because they were poisoned as a child. Theater kid!Yuu has panic attacks. You can probably guess why.

Idia:...

Nurse!Yuu: Onsen!Yuu has body dysmorphia and a fear of being seen as masculine. She has been through alot and worries about her transition.

Idia: (anyone can look at her and can see a woman)

Nurse!Yuu: Maid!Yuu as OCD. Not the cleaning kind. They have to do many rituals to get through the day like open cabinets 4 times and turn the lights on and off 7 times. It causes alot of stress for them. Delivery!Yuu is a selective mute. It stems from having delayed speech development.

Idia: I didn't know.

Nurse!Yuu: the list goes on Dancer!Yuu vertigo, vitiligo which causes them anxiety. Special Forces!Yuu, PTSD obviously. Disciplinary Officer!Yuu, misophonia. Jester!Yuu-

Idia:Let me guess, ADHD

Nurse!Yuu:Bipolar II, they are actually going though alot right now and I would like you to take this seriously. This is not a joke.

Idia: I fell like I was set up for that one.

Nurse!Yuu: You weren't. How about your partner Otaku!Yuu?

Idia: I know already. Dyslexia, and they hate when people talk about it.

Nurse!Yuu: They also have depression. Just like you Idia. I'm just trying to get to see that everyone is going through something. If I hadn't gotten permission from everyone to tell you this I doubt you'd understand.

Idia: and what about you? What's wrong with you?

Nurse!Yuu: Easy. I'm a workaholic. It's destroys so many of my interpersonal relationships and prevents me from forming meaningful connections due to my mimd being focused only on my job. Even as said job drains the life out of me.

Idia: You said that way too cheerfully.

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No but in the same conversation dead Dravo calls Enver foolish first, then clever second.

It's also interesting he mentions needy between foolish and wicked, as if a "needy" child is a bad thing. Enver was, and is, clearly gifted, and he needed special attention and special care. He just needed acceptance and love, which is really clear when you talk to his parents in general.

These things about him really resonate with me because as a child I was called both foolish and clever - I have ADHD, but I wasn't diagnosed until recently, and I'm past the third X. I suffered a lot because my family and the teachers didn't understand me. They couldn't understand how could I be so brilliant at some subjects but utterly fail at others. "You're not stupid, just lazy", they used to tell me.

I had a theory that Enver also is, at least, on the ADHD spectrum. He shows the signs I recognise in myself, the hyperfocus on things that particularly interest him, learning everything about a subject - haha look at my fucking blog -, having ideas and being overly creative. Being busy and so absorbed in his work that he visibly can't even sleep. I mean. I know those bloodshot eyes because they stare right back at me every fucking morning because I'm hyperfocusing on the game he is in and on the fic I'm writing with him...

And guess what parents usually do to an ADHD child? They punish them. They punish them because the child is simply UNABLE to focus on things that are deemed "important" by their parents, because they're so absorbed in their own world - Enver was born in a family that made shoes, but he was so much more interested in something else entirely. "Clever boy... always... tinkering." He wasn't living up to his father's expectations - he was a burden, a dead end, an extra mouth to feed when they were neck deep in debt, it was so much easier to get rid of him.

Gods fucking damnit. He just wanted to be loved and accepted the way he is, just as I did in my entire life.

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