#I am not mentally ok

[asmrrpaddict]

Just starting this off with, yes, I am dumb.

It’s true. When I started listening to Redacted less than a year ago I started with Sam. I can’t remember how I found it, but I did and I’ll say it, I fell in love with him! I watched his playlist not knowing anything about anyone else. I was confused every time it mentioned David, Vincent, anyone, but then came the Inversion. 🤯🤯🤯🤯 talk about frickin’ confusing. I had no clue who anyone was, what there were nothing.

The only thing I actually remember from my first watch was how heartbroken I felt for the poor guy who could feel all the emotions. Then after watching Gavin’s story, I was not ok.

Then I watched everyone’s stories individually and watched their sections of the Inversion and it broke my heart every time.

Finally right now, I’m sitting here at 10 PM having watched everyone’s stories and the entirety of the Inversion, knowing everyone. It truly had me on the edge. I had the full experience and now I’ve made myself sit and listen to Aftershock. I honestly had to wait for a night when I was mentally prepared and had no time to finish all of it.

I’m on Vincent and Lovely’s part now and basically this whole post was formed in my head because I didn’t remember that Vincent and Lovely can’t lie to each other. That level of trust and love is something every person on this planet deserves. Vincent could have been like most if not all of the others and just taken advantage of their turning. He wants them to be equal partners so much that he made sure he could never control Lovely and he made it to where since they can’t lie to him, he couldn’t either.

This man is a walking green flag. I hope whatever the outcome of the William situation they will find a home and continue to build a happy stable life as equal partners.

#asmr roleplay #redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted sam #redacted vincent #redacted lovely #redacted gavin #redacted inversion #redacted aftershock #I am not mentally ok

[dapayeora]

below lies tf2 mercs as korean soups

so walk away if you don't wanna see a bunch of korean soup pics

Scout - Bean sprout soup

Scout's thin and young, like beansprouts.

Ohh look little shrimps are there too.. basically the Scout Soup amirite

You can whip it up in no time, and later when you come back home from the work, you don't even bother to reheat it (which is a very Scout thing to do). It's very commonly eaten cold, even ice cold.

Something that will provide minerals and water after a day of running around under scorching badwater sun. It's like Gatorade but soulful and fibrous (sounds even worse)

Soldier - Seaweed soup

Koreans got the US ARMY SOUP but hey it'd be too easy if i did that for soldier...

This soup is so thick it's not going to steam when it should be steaming hot cause the steam literally can't escape this thick shit and I think it fits dumb(thick) and temperamental(hot) soldier so well..

I can imagine soldier trying to gulp down this thing and get burns all over

It is called May Saying E Guk (not a standard romanization but it does sound like that) like the VA... Rick May.. ok..?

Pyro - Soft tofu soup

Hey it's red, spicy, and will be still boiling on your table.

Plus the soft part. The Pyro Soup.

at this point i wanna quit but will just push through

Demoman - Spicy seafood soup

You know how Demo has a pirate/seaman theme going on, like the Swashbuckler item set, Tide Turner, Loose Cannon, Pirate Bandana and so on?

You could drink endlessly to this soup, eat the soup again for hangover, and start all over again.

This soup often has Styela clava, I can't explain what it is but it's an animal, it's pointy and full of sea water that's gonna explode in your mouth if you bite on it, possibly burning your mouth.

Heavy - Red bean porridge

Ok this is technically not a soup

Koreans eat this thing in the winter solstice to ward off evil spirits and winter solstices tend to be pretty cold?? like Russia??

Red like communism.

It has hundreds of red beans like heavy shoots hundreds of bullets in a minute (600 rounds/min in-game)

This porridge is often eaten sweet, and Heavy is a very sweet guy to his family and Medic.

Warm & sweet in a cold day sounds very like Heavy

People eat this soup also in North Korea(obviously..?), Japan, China, and Vietnam. Hey wow look 3 other communist countries I've already told you this thing is red

Engineer - Ox bone broth soup

To make this bone broth soup milky, you want to first soak the bone for several hours while regularly changing the water, and then boil it, remove the first broth, and then boil it again for hours and hours on high heat.

It requires so much patience like playing Engineer does.

You would typically make this soup in a huge pot - and everything is bigger in Texas, I hear.

Medic - Hangover soup

There are quite a few types of hangover soups in Korean cuisine, and I'm talking about the hangover soup with blood pudding and intestines.

Blood pudding here is basically just clotted blood so I think med's gonna love the idea.

Sniper - Oden stew

Sorry I can't come up with anything Korean with Sniper so here's a Japanese cuisine

Spy - Chicken and octopus stew

It's a mystery how korean food offers dishes so fitting for tf2 mercs

This stew has tentacles (Spy) and a chicken (France)

It is called Hae sin tang that means the Sea god soup, and the name's so pretentious I think Spy would love it.

It's not a traditional dish. It was only invented in 2005 so it's pretty new, like how Spy carries weirdly high-tech gadgets like disguise kits and invisibility clocks.

Hey it even disguises as a traditional food so there's also that.

#I am not mentally ok #my dissertation is driving me crazy #help me i shouldn't be spending time on this #team fortress 2 #TF2

[deakyjoe]

Spent three hours laying on my bed watching call of duty edits and crying because they’re all so hot

#I am not mentally ok #ej waffles #nonsense by ej

[dayminder786]

I don't want to get a job, I want pictures of femboy twinks!

#i am not mentally ok

[thedr-d]

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Junior, double, triple whopper

Flame grilled taste with perfect toppers

I rule this day

#I am not mentally ok

[glitchdollmemoria]

please can we stop describing bigots as delusional. please. im so fucking tired. someone being sucked into a hate group surrounded by others who believe minorities should be oppressed and encouraging them to believe in conspiracy theories that the rest of the group believes, is fundamentally different from someone having a mental illness that causes delusions.

delusions, by definition, cannot be explained by things like cultural background - such as having a belief constantly reinforced by intentional attempts to rationalize it for the sake of maintaining power over minorities. yes, someone can be both delusional and a bigot, and yes conspiracy theories can feed into delusions, but the two are not fucking synonymous.

i did not spend my teen years convinced that i was being stalked by demons just to hear so many of you people equate my disability with incel behavior and genocidal propaganda. stop reinforcing harmful connotations about mental health struggles.

#ok to rb #mental health advocate #mental health advocacy #mental health awareness #ableism cw #sanism cw #madpunk #neuropunk #actually delusional #actually schizospec #im not gonna interact with the post that prompted this #because i do agree with everything that was said and dont want to sound like im defending the assholes discussed #but i also am still fucking pissed about seeing a bunch of misogynistic jackasses compared to a disability #which has caused me immense fear and suffering #and guess what! my delusions were never ''women shouldnt have rights'' or whatever else #bc thats not a delusion thats a tool of the partriarchy to maintain the status quo #genocide cw #to be safe

[blueskittlesart]

everyone look at this fish i had to draw for my illustration class. for a grade. i am going to get a good grade in therapy salmon, something which is both normal to w

#just did the calculation and this class costs me 8k a semester. btw. money well spent #new york times hire me to do your spot illustrations since i am clearly so fucking good at it. god i hate editorial assigments #skribbles #the worst part is i KNOW im going to go into crit and people r going to be like umm therapy salmon doesnt really fit the vibe of the articl #OK SHUT THE FUCK UP. MAYBE I LIKE DRAWING FISH HAVING MENTAL BREAKDOWNS. HUH. DID YOU EVER THINK OF THAT

[daily-linkclick]

saw this in the comments of kdj's wiki and i haven't stopped laughing. its so true

[ID: Comments on a wiki page which read:

Coconuthamster: Who is this and why do people thirst over him so much

Hachnk: It is not even thirst he is just jesus for the mentally ill

Coconuthamster: Oh?? End ID]

#not dlc #ok i just finished orv i am inconsolable. #15/10 would let it give me mental illness again #ALSO THIS IS STILL A LINK CLICK BLOG. I JUST WANTED TO GO INSANE FOR ORV IN A BIT RJCIEKDK #i cant do that on main everyone is so scary on main #kim dokja #orv #edit: added an ID!

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

if you struggle with mental health, one piece of advice i would genuinely give you is learn to knit.

or crochet: something repetitive to do with your hands, assuming you're capable of it. if you're like me and learnt to knit as a kid but let it lie fallow for a long time, it may be that starting a large, simple project (for me it was a cloak, but a blanket could work too) gets you back into it. or maybe doing something smaller, idk. i personally found socks really hard for a while because they felt smaller than my cloak but weren't getting Done quick enough for me. as i've sped up i find it more interesting to knit socks.

regardless, a repetitive task is great for emotional regulation (also see: autistic stimming), and something that you can look at and go hey i've done something, unlike simply using a fidget toy, can also help to pick your mood up when the brain is being cruel.

it's also useful as a conversation starter or distracter if you don't know what to talk about. if you're wanting to talk to older people also you're more likely to reel them in with knitting (i work better with older people, and 99% of people who ask what i'm knitting are older than me). it also gives you the opportunity to not make eye contact because you're busy knitting, even if you're still carrying on a conversation. if you're absolutely stuck for conversation you can count your stitches and people might stop bothering you.

if you have trouble focusing without doing something with your hands, you can knit! i knit a lot in church, and it helps me to focus on what's being said.

i probably have more reasons you should pick up knitting, but i can't recall them right now, so yeah.

#knitting #catkin knits #i remember one specific time back in october where i was sitting in Bible class utterly unable to stop the most horrible thoughts going #through my head. i was knitting as fast as i've ever knitted. no exaggeration to say i was knitting to stop myself from attempting to die. #and afterwards i sat there in the corner knitting for all i was worth. just repeating to myself 'not now. i am not killing myself now.' #and someone saw me in the corner frantically knitting and came to ask if i was ok. and asked how my mental health was. #must've been end of oct bc it was the first wednesday after i was out of psych ward. and i was having lots of thoughts about the method #i'd used for what is still my most recent suicide attempt. which was in october. and i had the means with me. #it would have been a horrible thing to do. to kill oneself at Bible class. with children around. but i wasn't in a particularly hinged stat #of mind at the time. that's approximately the only clear memory i have of that time in fact. #anyway idk why im thinking of that rn when im fine

[chickenoptyrx]

....I just wanted to draw gators :T at this point these 2 are more 'a representation of my last 2 brain cells' then they are actual characters 😅

#im living vicariously through the cartoon guys #because i want to A. pick up gator (strong man style) #and B. ..pick up gator (hug) #ok but so i recently found out an area where i take stupid little walks for my stupid little mental health #has! GATORS!! (potentially. theres signs.) #and this is great cause seeing gators would def heal me as a person #but ok so when i look for hiking places i always look north cause the terrains more hilly #but now im lookin south more cause turns out i AM in fact far enough south to see gators!! #and yeah looks like theres a handful of nature reserves w hiking trails the same distance away as the little mountain trails i go to #its flatter and the trails are less extensive so ill hafta see if i think its worth it #but then too theres a really big black water swamp that.. further away then i wanna drive.. #but also i drove 5 hrs once just to go to mammoth cave as a day trip so.. we'll see.. #my friend says he wont go w me tho :T he'll just report me missing #this has been a tag ramble about my sudden outset intrest in seeing a gator #my bullshit #lol barely but still #also- i told myself not to over do it drawin the scales or coloring it #and as you can see i dont listen to myself ever #lol they look outta place but idc i got to draw 2 of my favorite characters and also ALLIGATORS :U #living the dream rn

[howlonomy]

Soooooo Monster Clover Swap au? I think that'd be a fun and silly little idea if you want, imagine the new shenanigans that could occur! (And also maybe seeing you draw Chujin again since he has not been drawn since Monster Clover was first revealed (not including mine), trust me I checked)

ok so i couldnt think of how to make it specifically monster clover so i. think i just made a swap au by accident??

#asked and answered #undertale yellow #uty swap au #i realize i could have just done an amalg clover and a revivedmonster kanako but i. am thorough. and you wanted chujin so i drew chujin :] #erm i am a little obsessed with mt swap chujin i made on the fly….. unfortunately i had to kill my fav (the roba) but. hopefully a maniacal #mad scientist is an ok replacement?? he is so mentally unwell

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Peeped the horrors

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #a-qing #xue yang #A-qing went 'there are horrors he is committing and I am going to peep them' and then faced horrors that she could not fathom #The fact she sees the evidence first hand but it genuinely is too much to handle is a lovely tragedy that betrays her youth #It is interesting that she clearly does have more knowledge than the lay person about cultivators and night hunts (possibly from xxc?) #she does mentally call out xue yang for using the right terminology (betraying his 'no one important' façade) #but corpse poisoning is...well....probably not something she could have known about #so instead she has to encounter this horrible and suspicious event and justify it to keep herself sane #Ah....that's not going into the really interesting ambiguity of xue yangs targets #the people he kills specifically slandered *all three of them* #Was it just for himself? Was there a sense of protectiveness over his two blind companions? #I don't want an answer. I love that it is ambiguous #And oh man. having the noble XXC do the killing is so deviously evil. What a loaded chekov's gun. #you know xxc is gonna have a breakdown over it *when* he finds out. Its all a matter of timing #ok ok funny tag time #I think little apple and xy should meet up so they can swap arson tips. Truly the power team nobody wants. Not even them. #they would fight to the death and little apple would *win* #EDIT: HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUE YANG

[witchspeka]

It's always "Shou and Ritsu need to blow stuff up with their minds for mental health reasons" or Ritsu and Teru or even Shou and Teru!

But what about Mob? When does he get to blow stuff up with his mind for funsies? For shits and giggles? He didn't go through all of those meltdowns and character development for nothing, let him go ham on a junkyard car or something smh

I believe in Mob's narrative given right to fuck shit up sometimes

#im hungry i should do homework i should also finish all of my other drafted posts BUT I AM LAZY #ive been starting to write fic tho at least thats productive. fic thats kind of relevant to this actually hm #listen i just want more Mob content where he does smth reckless or stupid with his powers he deserves it #or just in general tbh i need more content of mob being kinda mean or having arguments with ppl like to a healthy degree ok #but i still want him to. yanno. lash out and stuff. experience emotion. have him get angry over petty stuff #the first mp100 fic ive ever started writing/drafting had mob and ritsu having a proper fight post canon #i just need it for my OWN mental health. let them have dumb sibling fights and have mob express his annoyances #itd be funny and cathartic. for me at least. ill finish that shit one day its been assembled and disassembled but ill figure it out #eventually #let mob feel and express all of the ugly emotions he didnt allow himself to acknowledge for years pls #its my favourite thing #anyway. #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #shigeo kageyama #cine te a intrebat

[lycanthian]

and if they ask, just say ive drowned

#venty piece i just like how it looks #doing experimentalshit to figure out where i am mentally rn #bc it sure isnt amazing in the head atm #gamey art #art #sonaposting #werewolf #werewolf oc #wolfman #wolfman oc #furry #fursona #wolf #if u read this far the caption is from when i die by pepper coyote ok bye

[horseshoemybeloved]

Maybe this is a severe mental illness idk but ik other people do this so I wanna know. Do you ever imagine a character is with you while doing the thing your doing ( I.e sans undertale is with you while you dye your hair )

And if so. Do you imagine yourself as yourself… or another character ( ie uhhh u are sonic da hedgehog )

If you can please boost cus I’m really curious. Me and my friend feel like this is a common thing but it’s not talked about cus like…. It’s kinda weird ig.

#don’t backseat diagnosis me ok I am living and loving my life #uhhh #polls #poll #mental health poll #? #idk #ik I started doing it more during the pandemic #I feel like it’s like the brain coping with not having enough social interactions ig

[sleepinglionhearts]

hhhgh. Robin.

#doodles #one piece #nico robin #one piece art tag #congrats to the second fictional woman named robin that i have formed an emotional attachment to!! #also a good reason to keep practicing drawing hands #and a good reason to break out the fountain pen again #i think this little doodle looks reasonably good #hhhggh I'm exhausted #been serving on a jury since monday!! we finally served a verdict today!!! how exhausting!!!! #like ok it was kind of a cool experience I guess but then again i am interested in that kind of thing #but i had to wake up so much earlier than normal.. chairs were uncomfy... #lots of emotional and mental exhaustion #I'm glad to be done with it!!! #time to draw!!!! #anyway yeah so robin is up there in favorite character status I'm love her #expect more later idk