#DON'T ASK ME HOW I AM COPING. I AM NOT.

[vettels-triple-crown]

I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT TO COME.

#DON'T ASK ME HOW I AM COPING. I AM NOT. #HOLY FUCKING SHIT #BIG DAY FOR ANNOYING PEOPLE #sebastian vettel

[alchemania]

Finally got enough energy to talk about Furina's SQ and while I loved her and the troupe, MC and Paimon were .... Not Great. I talked about this with friends but in Paimon's case especially, the way they interact with Furina feels like people who just don't understand trauma and depression and then engage with someone suffering from both in all the wrong ways.

Talking about how much of a downgrade her house is from the opera house, making fun of how she can't cook, pushing her to act when she's set a very clear boundary and then guilt tripping her after she's stuck to her guns, shaming her for not being able to fight well (Paimon literally talks about how second hand embarrassment is overwhelming and I'm just like ?????), telling her she's "not acting like herself" when she attempts to open up and be vulnerable....it's just really rough. That and the MC asking "is something wrong" when Furina gets sad over Poission ..like bro people died and she couldn't save them and she's tearing herself apart over it. Those people are never coming back and you know it and you have the gall to ask her is something wrong??? Of COURSE there is!!

It just feels especially odd because we literally get to see all of Furina's suffering and Paimon in particular is. SO mean? Like she was more understanding with Wanderer and Ei and THEY'VE tried to kill us multiple times!! I don't get it, and honestly I'm very proud of Furina for refusing to waver. Let her rest!! She's tired and depressed and she needs time to heal; and honestly fuck Paimon for trying to make her feel bad. Furina's worked harder than she EVER will.

#as someone with depression and who's highly sensitive this story quest hurt a LOT because ive also encountered people who don't understand. #i've been told i need to get over my anxiety. i've been asked what am i so tired from since i just lay in bed. #so furina's character and how she was treated hit very very hard for me. she's isolating herself and not coping well but she is TRYING. #she's trying so hard and she equates her worth to her role. like she literally tells you that she serves no more use to anyone. #and i wanted to shake her so hard. because it's not about what she can do #she has worth simply because she exists. full stop. she is loved and she is appreciated just for being herself #her worth isn't decided by her power yk?? #i hope she can rest and heal and find some good friends - after the way mc and paimon treated her i honestly don't think they should be #or if they are; they'd have to work to earn her trust cuz good LORD. they treated her so weird and so tone deaf!! #i've seen a lot of people complaining about it too so im glad im not alone. #anyway. there is something wrong with me i have cried actual tears over furina please god she needs a hug #and to be told she did a good job and she can rest now and things will get better #4.2 spoilers #genshin impact #furina

[lyrikmumare]

you think you're fine going to the doctor then BOOM that evening you remember every dubious thing that's ever happened to you

#clyde.txt #plus that ''do you get compliments'' poll already had me reeling like No i barely get compliments unless i ask #yet it's clear people feel entitled to me and are not afraid to take advantage and i wish i could kill people. esp doctors i hate doctors. #ppl do this to anyone bc they're addicted to hurting ppl but my brain rationalizes it as my beauty is what gets me put in these positions #but i know that's just not true or only how that works but it's just like i don't ever even know how to feel about myself #or what to do with myself 😭😭😭😭 #i cope by going miq kinnie moment. i am also (kind of) blonde and look too young and ppl are weird to me. #sorry i did not meant to vent this much but this is my diary i need to post this for 3 hours then delete it. my therapy

[crystalkiseki]

i just drew this in my sketchbook but there's not enough sunlight for me to take a picture of it , so for now hear me out -

#skylar rambles #don't ask me when i got into amphibia i do not remember . i'm not super invested either #i am making an au as we speak #okay well the au is really just marcy and hunter going to hexside and being friends and being unapologetically autistic together #marcy's a witch because idk . i just wanted to #hunter is unlearning masking and unhealthy coping mechanisms and marcy helps him out because he's pretty much clueless about that stuff #which yeah maybe he should talk to someone who isn't 13 and who has unhealthy coping mechanisms of her own . but you know #hunter also talks a lot and marcy also listens it just takes him a while to get to that level of comfort with her you know ? #( also there totally is enough sunlight in my room for a quick picture of a sketch #i'm just not super happy with how it turned out lmao . it was my first time drawing marcy and i'm still not used to hunter's hair so ) #amphibia #the owl house #toh #marcy wu #hunter #hunter toh

[guiltyidealist]

you're fucking Going Through It right now, heart hurts and there are so many questions and so few answers, but your best friend (who is a wolf) or group of best friends (who is your pack) is incredibly supportive. they want you to be happy. they lov you so fucking much. they are here for you. they have your back no matter what board

x x x x x x x x x

kindly credit if you repost the gifs I made-

#✨coping✨ #stim stuff #wolves #take me here #mowgli: lgend of the jungle #bhoot #gray brother #comfort #in the first row they are greeting you or asking how you are #in the second row you are venting and they are listening to you #in the third row they are responding to you. each in a different way #one affirming or advising you #another just offering comfort company or solace. they're telling you they're here for you #just Being There y'know? a grounding presence #the third is being your number 1 cheerleader telling you they know you'll pull through because you're the best. or cheering you up perhaps #and their response styles in the third row align with how I've presented each over the course of the first two rows! C: #they each represent a sort of friend archetype. one optimist cheerleader one voice of reason one a quiet listener #i am just. very soft for 2 of these characters and. very soft for my crafty arrangement of the rows and. 🥺🥺🥺 #..... I should probably just confess at this point. admit it to myself and like. I don't know y'know lmao #anyway well. going to t e n t a t i v e l y add the remaining tags. #*quietly following a sigh* okay. okay just type them. just.. type them like. put them there #wolfkin #wolf therian #wolf theriotype #canine kin #canine therian #except I ! I don't even know for sure what all of these are and I'm not NECESSARILY /any/ of them at all and #honestly I just feel like the crowds in these tags would like this !! #guiltyedits

[emiliosandozsequence]

we used to be mutuals but i had to recently sb because - while you seem like a nice person - you post a concerning amount of incest? i guess i'd like to know why. i don't think there is anything wrong with consuming media that has incest, such as game of thrones, as long as you do not support that and are aware that its bad. but you reblog wincest or jaime x cersei and other such things and also tag them with your fiance? i don't get it i really don't

i don't know how to respond to this except to tell you that people can enjoy certain tropes in media and not agree with them when it comes to the same things irl.

example: countless people on here enjoy horror, and in particular hannibal and the ship of hannibal and will graham, but i never see them getting asks like this so, genuinely, what's the difference in this case with this trope??

obviously, i think irl incest is not okay and am not engaging in it JFC!!!!!!! just as those people who like hannibal don't think irl serial murder and cannibalism and abuse are okay.

also my fiancee and i are kinnies (for literally no other reason than we have identity issues due to mental illness and it just makes life more fun) and she just happens to characters that are the sibling of the character i kin. it's literally nothing deeper than that.

#ask #anonymous #also anon are you saying you think me and my fiancee are siblings???? bc we absolutely are not #i'll break out my birth certificate if i need to #(this was sitting in my drafts for the past few months because i just did Not know how to respond; this whole thing is just insane to me) #lacie don't look #i enjoy incest mostly for coping reasons #but i didn't mention that because i don't think people should be harassed for enjoying a common trope in media #just bc they're not traumatized like i am

[orbdotexe]

I am like. writhing in my own skin rn

#orb rambles #orb is enraged and getting ready for war #the next person who says Cayde would like the statue #is getting an essay in their ask box #i swear to god i am losing my mind #kill kill bite main burn kill #die die die die #please read the lore dear god just please #he might act like he finds it sweet! but i promise you #i promise you. #(it is a horrid misreading of his entire character and coping mechanisms and history with the deaths of his friends) #that man is writhing is his grave over this. just like me fr #this is also how i feel when someone says they don't think Osiris should be speaking on anything #because he threw a 'pity party' (sore misinterpretation of the character arc) #or reduces his character to just. asshole (sore misinterpretation of his character and history in general) #shut up shut up shut up shut up #i am going feral again #it feels malicious and im going to kill someone #Cayde isn't just Funny Robot Man. Osiris is not just Old Asshole. Saint isn't a Himbo #Crow isn't just Soft Bird Boy. Mara isn't just Royal Bitch #and i will die on all of these hills

[sleepingfancies]

I'm going to tear them apart with my teeth and spit the remains onto a campfire and watch them burn till they are naught but ash

#personal #sorry this is dramatic it's how im coping with my own extreme violence and stress #i genuinely want to beat the shit out of these fucking stupid people i am asking for NOTHING #my accommodations request was 'don't fail me for attendance i had knee surgery and cant navigate your stupid campus' #and they're like ummmm. that's not a disability sweetie 🤷‍♀️ TWICE NOW

[hyperfixation-tangentopia]

Hehe thank goodness for dogs or I don't think I'd have anything resembling mental health tonight

#really regretting that therapy got moved to Thursdays #I would throw a text like he keeps telling me to do but HAHA it's 3 AM no. #yes I'm aware the time of night is not helping my mental health right now #yes I will be sleeping soon #yes I'm probably going to accidentally make this worse trying to make it better soon #sorry for the people who just randomly get a vague 'brain suck :(' on their dash semi-regularly btw #ngl 9/10 times I forget there aren't magical sheilds that mostly hide these from view #note to self to write this down so when therapist asks how my week's been I don't just say 'fine' and completely skim over the overall #shitty day I've been happy #anyway that's enough now I think #time to go practice coping mechanisms again #bleeeeeegh #I don't even know if these count as coping mechanisms #I think so #probably

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Made a behavioral health appt with a new provider because I'm getting new insurance and can't keep sering my therapist out of network and I needed a new psych anyway, and somehow these people managed to schedule me an intake for literally the day after Christmas?????

Like.....I called this morning..... and they're getting me in DURING A HOLIDAY PERIOD in under a week???? Take the holidays out and that is literally 2 (MAYBE 3) business days.

Color me fuckin impressed.

Like this is so fucking quick that I just assumed until SEVERAL HOURS LATER that the appt must be for Jan 26th because that made more sense. I checked. December. Like damn yall got some efficient intake procedures.

On the other hand, they did hold a brief risk assessment for me on the phone before scheduling and the less flattering (to all involved) option here is that I just scored high enough that they were like "we're slotting this bitch into one of the emergency intake slots"

Hopefully they're just very efficient lmaooooo I don't need yet another phone call letting me know I'm too much of a liability to take on as a patient rn

#the intake is actually done by a separate team from ongoing care #so i definitely won't get meds represcribed that quick #i definitely won't get my assessments done that quick #but assuming they schedule me with my actual providers sometime in january i will still be getting care faster than expected #i DO fully anticipate none of therapists like. chomping at the bit to add me to their caseload #my psychiatric history is uhhhhhhhhh #frightening on paper #in reality i don't get the impression I'm an especially difficult patient? #i'm not easy for sure like i'm not one of those young people just doing therapy for personal growth everyone loves having for a light case #but like. i haven't needed a safety plan in almost a decade #i have a detailed understanding of what kind of care to ask for and how to give useful feedback to my provider #i have a lot of effective coping strategies #that's all just.....sort of hard to tell from my intakes #especially because i have all the hallmarks for SEVERE risk except for....you know....the actual risk #like i am a severely depressed person with emotional regulatory issues #panic attacks; suicidality/self-harm history; impulsivity as avoidance; rock bottom ADLs; no social support system; etc #i just.....have simply decided not to die? #so i'm not suicidal anymore and have little to no risk of becoming so again barring like. major physical health concerns #but god #if *I* saw my chart come down the pipeline as a prospective case I'd be like....please god not me #not this time i beg of you #my caseload has enough clients I have to sleep for an hour after meeting with #i don't need another #so like. when therapists tell me they will not be able to accept me as a patient due to my paper record #i'm not offended or upset #it makes sense #it's just also not great for me because the quality of care one gets at places that don't ALLOW therapists to veto clients is....bad #and yes that has happened before more than once #it's why I typically only see mental health care providers A) through my primary care office or B) through a local hospital #historically standalone mental health clinics won't see me as a patient and independent private practice is a toss up

[jimkirkachu]

are there any 30-something single tos spirkers out here desperately wishing for a human fixer-upper to share their life / never ever ever have children with?

asking for a friend of course

#not trek #personal log #fatigue #exhaustion #wishful thinking #tomorrow will make 5 days of babysitting the niblings and i want to make it abundantly clear that i literally never signed up for this #children are so hard on ocd/germophobia #i love my niblings to death but holy mother of macaroni and cheese i have ZERO nurturing or caretaking impulses #they have so much energy and ask so many questions and make SO MUCH EYE CONTACT it freaks me out #stop looking at me stop visually perceiving me it's too much #and i probably only have a few good years left with them before they figure out what a fucking loser i am #so i feel like an absolute monster for not knowing how to cope with my stupid symptoms & just suck it up in favor of creating nice memories #but asdfghjkl my limits are so frustrating and i don't know how to push through them or let them go or whatever it is that normal people do #niblings #family drama #nd problems #and somehow having no one to snuggle with to recharge my stupid batteries makes everything feel so much harder #because the kids' parents have each other #both their sets of grandparents have each other #and i am literally the only single and/or childless person left in my entire family 👍 #never want children #but do want snuggle buddy or spouse or something idk? #but lest we forget i am #unloveable #forever alone #soul sick #heartsick #jtkchu's brain #jtkchu is toxic #stfu jtkchu

[closeted-goth]

i am once again being asked/made to see the aunt and i am once again asking [REDACTED] and [REDACTED] bc of it.

#read: cancer fucking do ur thing already ffs #Saturday the 13th VII Jameson Goes to Hell #u understand how much what she did affected slash affects me and yet i am still being asked to do this #why #i'm literally having to fall back on unhealthy coping mechanisms that i worked for nearly two years to get out of #bc i do not know how to healthily deal with this #i really don't #see u all in therapy xoxo

[teacupchimera]

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#tea's boring life #ya girl is FINALLY back on her meds #I'm not sure if I made a post abt it before but basically there was an issue with my insurance and I was off my meds for a month #it's been absolutely hellish tbh #I def coped better than before I was on meds at all but it still mega sucked #and ngl? I'm feeling a little bitter cause my friends barely ever ask me how I am so nobody rly knew how bad of a time I've been having #like ffs. I'll ask someone how they are and they'll tell me about their day or whatever and then they just??? won't ask me how I am????? #like who raised you!!! it's common fucking courtesy!!!! like. don't you care how I am lmao?? it fucking sucks #I'm sick to death of always. ALWAYS. being the one to reach out #like if I don't periodically ping my friends I just. won't fucking hear from them at all lmao #I just want to scream sometimes like. do you even fucking care about me!!!! at all!!!!! #whatever #I'm just glad the month is over and I'm back on my meds

[nexus-nebulae]

hmm

#i think i am a kleptomaniac #except i got caught enough times as a kid that somehow i worked out how to cope #by like. fake-stealing??? #like- either pretending to steal things that are free to take (like. paper plates or confetti or glowsticks at a party) #or 'stealing' something in plain sight and being obvious so whoever i 'stole' from notices and asks for it back #like snatching someone's pen as they look away and then they look back and 'percy where did you put my pen' #or like- taking things that are being thrown away. like little shiny bits of metal or toys that people don't want anymore #i know i shoplifted a lot as a kid #i only remember doing it twice but i know i did it more #until i got caught and was driven to the store and forced to apologize to the owners #i was like 7 at the time so i didnt get into major trouble and it scared me enough to stop #(...... mostly) #i just accidentally fell into coping mechanisms i guess #(at least until my ex tried to take them away----) #so like its not a major issue for me #but i am like 90% sure that it is a thing with me

[florida3exclamationpoints]

My mom just came in my room right after I got home to be like how did it go???? What happened???? When are you going back?? How do you feel??? Are you ok???? What are your hours???? What did they say??? And I know she means well but

#and she gets upset at me when i don't wanna talk #IM SORRY but I've been anxious about this for 3 days #the actual thing took an hour + #I had no idea what to expect going in #even tho my mom was convinced i had already gotten the job (i hadn't) #(i tried to tell her why i was unsure and she was like well im sure you got it!! but i didn't know and i HADNT YET) #YES ive been stressed about not having a job but now im stressed about HAVING a job!!!! #i want to forget it exists before i have to do things!!!! #its like she. doest understand how i cope with things #but ive explained it #and then she intrudes while im coping and gets upset at me getting upset #and talking about it while I'm trying to decompress makes me 50000x more anxious #and then she gets worried about how anxious i am #and then she thinks she needs to check on me more bc my anxiety is worse #but then i dont have a chance to decompress so the anxiety doesn't get better #and i tell her this and shes like i just wanna make sure you're ok #but shes making me less ok!!!! #just now when she came to talk about this she knocked. and actually kinda waited for an answer for once #and i didn't answer. bc i didn't wanna talk #so she COMES IN ANYWAY!!!!!!! #she knew i was in my room. she knew i wasn't sleeping bc i just got home. she just wanted to ask about it #while SHES ALSO WORKING!!!! AND DOESN'T HAVE THE TIME!!!! #idk if i didn't answer the knock on my door doesn't that suggest i dont want to talk??????? #and she would say she wants to make sure im ok. which i can't argue with ig. but ive been in the house for 5 minutes #i didn't have time to kill myself. respectfully. #and ive TOLD HER i dont like to talk right after #my mental health is not at a point where i cant be trusted alone in a room for an hour and it NEVER has been #i KNOW shes my mom and she worries and she wants to take care of me i GET IT. but GODDDD!!!!! #anyway. #tw suicide mention

[winterstonecries]

"reblog to hug the person youre reblogging from" post > i reblog it from them > their friend reblogs it from them > they rb it from their friend but not from me > they hate me i am on the verge of doing terrible things to myself!

#anxiety #i am serious / this doesn't feel like an exaggeration #we're friends too it's not an i-don't-know-you-well-enough thing #i don't know WHAT mental illness this is but it sure feels like one #i have NOT been coping #how to ask someone if they'd rather cut me off completely when they're not in a talking mood???? #help help help help #do i hope she checks this blog. probably not