#Can't act like a fucking human person

[egoborderline]

Indefinite hiatus

#I am so sorry I will inevitably be back because I am always back because I'm weak and the words is ah have no weight and I think I might be #I think there might be something wrong with me #I can't do it I can't do anything right can't work can't right see friends can't breathe can't love can't plan vacation can't shop cool #Can't get into shape can't exercise can't focus during dnd which is important to me because I see my friends #Can't go out can't stay sober can't make art can't clean can't cook can't work can't teach can't be can't be can't be can't listen #Can't act fucking right #Can't act like a fucking human person #Done with being a human person I'm done done done #They all know something is wrong with me or they wouldn't look at me the way every stranger looks at me like I'm fucking disgusting #Im fucking losing my mind for good. And the best part is that I took my meds today

[aftermathing]

I'm like. spiraling.

My body hurts and it's falling apart and there's nothing wrong with it and there's no way to fix it. I'll never be able to have a normal job again. I can barely stand how am I supposed to finish college. I need help and I keep asking people to help me and that makes them uncomfortable and I'm asking too much of them. I say there is no food in my house. They say why don't you go buy food. I say I'm too disabled to drive. They say oof lol. How does oof help me. How are you not worried about me. How when I say I haven't bought food in a week or washed my clothes in a year people respond omg lol and not holy shit are you okay do you need help how are you alive. Not to be lazy or anything but I would actually literally kill for someone to hold me and say it's okay you don't have to do this alone anymore I'm going to help you. I would commit unspeakable acts of violence for someone to offer to drive me to the store. Once you're disabled you're trash you can't contribute to society just let yourself decay. I make everyone uncomfortable by just existing as myself and I ruin every event by either being visibly in pain and pulling an ugly face because my legs are about to give out or by not going because my spine is broken and I can't leave my bed. My family won't help me they don't believe me I'm not allowed to flinch or look like I'm in pain because my face is ugly when I'm in pain and I'm just faking it to get out of doing anything at all. I don't have a single support system or way to survive this shit. I'm in so much pain constantly there's not even a word for it because I can't just say it hurts nobody takes me seriously or understands just how bad it hurts. I can't say it's like a knife in my spine that sounds so fucking fake. It's like a knife in my spine and every tiny cell that moves hurts it because it's a fucking blade stuck between my bones. It's cutting and mangling my skin and muscles and everyone is like why don't you just stop having a knife in your back and the doctors say you do not have avknifevin your back and my parents say everyone has a knife in their back and you're just pretending it hurts and being lazy because you hate me. How am I still alive why am I still alive why does it just keep getting worse

#There's actually no reason for me to exist and I'm never going to get better or get help and no one will ever understand #I feel so useless and I will never be as good as my peers #Even my disabled peers live and handle themselves and manage their symptoms better than I can #I'm like not okay for real my brain is Fucked fucked #Shit like eating and pissing have become a fucking reward for me I'm not allowed to do it if I've been bad #I say good. you sit there and you hurt and you think about what you did and you think about this next time you want to act like a baby #But punishment doesn't even fucking work on me nothing works!!!!!!!! #I just like having a real tangible way to prove I can feel and I'm not making my pain up #I'm such a fucking toddler I expect to be fed with a spoon and reminded to use the potty and told when I need to take a nap #I need to be told how to shower properly and the right way to clean my house and the normal way to speak to people or think with my brain #Why am I like this. Why when I start to get comfortable with someone I pretend I'm a baby or a dog #Nobody thinks this way. What the fuck is wrong with you #Why can't I be a human. Why do I want to bark and bite people. Why does it hurt to touch people like a person would #There isn't a single normal thing about me. I'm so fucked up and awful and gross I literally need to be put down

[icewindandboringhorror]

I still very loathe the Media Trope of ‘’cold genius man doesn’t feel emotions and never has relationships... UNTIL.. one random relatively bland Preddy Woman comes along and warps his entire personality and ability to think, his heart has grown and his seeming asexuality has evaporated, he is now Normal :)” or whatever like... AS a walking generic hermit archetype myself.. we would NOT act like that .... just let people be detached weirdos in peace, you cowards .. OR, don’t bother to write one in the first place if you find us too boring to exist realistically in our natural state lol.. pathetic 

#the only exception to this is its okay if he develops some pesudo-romantic psychologial fixation on one of his long suffering male sidekicks #or assistants or whatever (since this character acrhetype ALWAYS has some sort of like Straight Man Every Man helper to follow #him around and be an audience stand in. sometimes multiple like a whole team of assistants. sometimes just one etc.) #like a strange not-entirely-romance-but-mutualy-unhealthy-comedic-codependence w someone you worked w 25+ yrs COULD be in character. sure. #ASIDE from that one exception though..... just keep them aromantic and asexual.. why would someone who has been that way for their #entire fucking life suddenly be like ''well I've known this woman three weeks but she's really hot! whoops!'' #''guess I'm going to act completely out of character! sometimes booba so booby it fundametally alters the dna of me personality. you know ho #w it is'' .. like shut up.. explode #It's not that I project personally onto these characters (writers are bad at writing them and they're generally annoying as shit) BUT just #like... coming FROM the perspective OF a cold detached ''robot'' seeming hermit freak.. like textbook scholar wizard man locked #away in a tower somewhere type personality... You just watch shows sometimes and you can SEE that the writers are trying to write #the Character Archetype that is your actual realworld personality and you're just like 'we do NOT fucking act like that!!!' lol #you know ? like .. i don't actually care about the characters themselves but more just.. the principle of the thing. staying true to what #has been set up. You can't be like ''oh yeah this is your typical cold detached hermit weirdo with zero interest in human relationships for #the most part blah blah blah'' and then 5 minutes later be like ''WAIT GUYS!! LOOK! they're still NORMAL! look they love booba #too!!! haha hashtag Relatable!!'' .. what have you done to him.. you've massacred the archtype.. cowardly fool #Also I'm referencing them as male because this character archtetype is usually male but the same thing can apply for other gendered versions #of the archetype. it's ALWAYS annoying. no matter what it is lol. GOD AND IT'S even worse when they're supposed to be like hundreds or thous #ands of years old like.. some sort of supernatural being who's ''above it all'' because they've seen the world's cycles for so long #and blah blah and then it's like ''omg.. suddenly into romance.. for some reason all 900 years of my life nobody has ever been good #enough but YOU.. random ass person who I met 30 minutes ago and are completely average in every way or maybe you have like one #special power or are smart or something but apparently somehow I've lived 900 years without ever meeting a single other smart person #or whatever but WOW.. you... instant soulamtes.. I am no longer aromantic and asexual. I am also no longer smart.'' #at least if it's a human with a normal lifespan you can be like 'well they were only 30. maybe they genuinely did just have their first #sexul awakening' or something but.. you're telling me like.. 900 years??? 1000 years?? and NOW they're like 'whooa!!' lol #Which obviously all aroace people are different.. all people with autism or schizoid pd or any other mental illnesses that can sometimes #lend people towards that type of 'weird hermit' archetype are all different. plenty of these people WILL have relationships and sex and desi #re those things. but it's like.. if you are OBVIOUSLY setting out to write that one VERY specific archetype within the broader archetype #then GO ALL THE WAY!! you cant have someone be like HALF-detached partial-hemrit sometimes-maybe-genuis or whatever #or I guess you can but like. it should be that way from the beginning. it's the random sudden shift in personality thats jarring

[slippery-minghus]

hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.

and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.

i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growth—and that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.

where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).

but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not true—the hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?

#well. i AM probably a monster for how much i dislike this lady #but i don't ACT on it #and i genuinely couldn't care less about her. i participate in decent human pleasantries because i am a decent human. #and at work we're stuck together #the thing that's irked me so much about this conversation is just.. her self centeredness #that she thinks everyone is out to get her. to undermine her. whatever. #bitch nobody cares about you enough one way or the other to put in that kind of effort. i sure don't #i empathize but i do not sympathize. to feel that pit that makes you feel like the worst kind of center of attention #i get it. but genuinely you are not the main character and no one is going to spend their limited time and energy to slowly attack you #you are not the cat with all the knives pointed at it #it's a terrible feeling to feel like you are! but when it influences your behavior to the point that you are making snide comments #to people who have no option not to interact with you then uh. then you're in the wrong buddy #and the people around you (who cannot easily leave! bc work!) should not have to bend over backwards to assure you #that they're not pointing knives at you. to protect themselves from your feelings making you say mean shit #like yes. i can be more clear with my intentions. i'm generally not the greatest at that. but my baseline that i want to #modify my behavior from is NOT one that a regular well adjusted person would take as anything but kind #and if a regular well adjusted person got a little offput by me volunteering to take work off their hands we would've had a very chill #3 sentence conversation about it MONTHS AGO. #i understand and respect (even if i find it annoying and overbearing) the need for me to announce my intentions like im working in a kitchen #and saying 'hot water' or 'knife' as i move around other people but we shouldn't have reached this conclusion this way #and frankly who's to fucking say me being more clear with my intentions will only feed the flames of her thinking i'm out to get her! #'i caught up on my stuff and your plate looks full. i'm bored. anything i can do to help?' could be a pointed knife for all i know!! #and if it is- and my actions still hurt her in that scenario- am i still responsible for the hurt caused?? #like WHERE DOES IT FUCKING E N D ? #personal #*exhales* okay i feel better now #i just hate talking about my interactions with her bc i just want NOTHING to do with it. i want her out of my head!! #but until i process it i can't let go #and i'm still going to have to go over all of this with my shrink tomorrow #it just makes me mad how much of my time this bitch takes up. i'm not getting paid to think about work right now!!!!

[lord-squiggletits]

Sorry for being negative, I’m just a bit disappointed that after looking through the Earthspark Optimus tags on and off on different occasions weeks apart, it seems like the only thing the fandom has to say about ES Optimus is finger snaps and dad jokes. :/ (And also a handful of people already trying to frame him as a bad person lmao)

Watch for it, when more episodes of Earthspark come out and a conflict with GHOST inevitably arises, people are going to be raging at Optimus for being “stupid” or “self-righteous” or “blind” for working with GHOST and start calling Megatron and/or the Decepticons right about everything because they spent so long focusing on “haha funny dad Optimus” that they forgot about the other parts of Optimus’ character like... idk, not wanting to colonize planets? Not wanting to start wars with entire species that didn’t want to be involved in the war in the first place? Being willing to make compromises even at risk to himself and his own because he wants to treat everyone fairly?

Idk I guess I’m just a bit salty because it genuinely seems like all this fandom wants is “funny dad Optimus” and nothing else. Like you will give them funny dad Optimus who’s ALSO complex and morally gray but people will only ever talk about the former part. And then when Optimus inevitably makes a mistake and bad things happen, people are probably going to treat him as if he’s stupid or an asshole when he ends up not being the Perfect Unproblematic Fave that people seemingly want him to be.

#negativity #the tf fandom has protagonist centered morality really badly #like yes we all joke/think that humans are the most boring part of transformers #but there's a difference between that as like a narrative preference in a story #versus literally acting like humans don't matter #and a lot of takes i see in earthspark and other continuities #seem to completely ignore the fact that cybertronians securing their future on earth and eliminating the people who want to do them wrong #would literally mean stealing resources from humans and killing them aka COLONIZING THEM #so i see people calling OP a bad leader or stupid or overly trusting for working with GHOST when he's literally no such thing #he explicitly says 'we are guests on this planet' and acknowledges that he sees GHOST merely as his best option and doesn't fully trust them #but ppl in this fandom have a really infantile perspective of optimus #where they want him to be Good All The Time or they just see him as an idiot for some reason #so they see OP making compromises to not hurt humans (people who didn't even want to get involved with cybertron's war) #and theyre like durr hurr he's stupid! he's ignorant! he's an asshole to the decepticons! #no he's not he's literally just trying to not hurt innocent people? and he has to balance both human lives and cybertronian lives #and that's fucking hard and there are no perfect options and there are no outcomes where no one will get hurt #and the existence of those bad choices doesn't make optimus stupid or malicious #it makes him a FUCKING PERSON #trying to navigate a HARD SITUATION and do the right thing #but we can't have optimus being an actual character who behaves like a human being #he has to be perfect daddy prime that does nothing wrong ever and if he does he's a STUPID ASSHOLE ugh

[bottom-slut-unionizer]

The difference between public psychiatric hospitals n private mental health clinics are staggering. It's like they're focused on two different sciences, one where you force poor people to suffer n take enough drugs that they stop acting out, and the other where rich people get to play music, plant gardens, ride horses, and are hand taught how to survive. LIKE BRO THAT SHIT WOULD HELP EVERYONE WHY IS THE GOVERNMENT NOT DOING THAT

#I was researching mental health clinics and found one n i was like #wait #that like ACTUALLY sounds like it'd help #as someone who's been in the psychiatric hospital system #NOT GOOD DOES NOT HELP JUST FORCES PEOPLE TO SHUT DOWN BC THEY'RE UNCOMFORTABLE AND BEING IGNORED #it definitely can help people #like it can #but it could be doing so much better n it wouldn't be much more difficult #“what about the really insane ones we gotta lock em up like the lunatics you are” #that's great but treating people like they're lunatics makes people feel like they're lunatics #as in treating em like that is making them act more like that #bc you're telling a real human person that “you're an unfixable lunatic” #so yeah no fucking wonder they feel like they can't be fixed

[here-there-were-dragons]

i fucking hate gjinkas

#i also hate how literally every single lore writer is like #all dragons can transform into or already are humans because i dont know how to draw/write/care about anything that doesnt look like me :) #fuck you #gjinkas are fucking trash and the fact that people act like something wrong with you if you dont not only like but PREFER them makes it wors #youre buying art you got either the billionth goddamned anime gjinka shop or the billionth goddmaned chibi adopt shop and thats it #i fuckign hate humanizations of nonhuman entities in general #its insulting and reeks of human inability to give a shit about anyhting thats not just like us #if you make a nonhuman character and then write your story so that they all can turn into humans and spend any significant chunk #of the story that way then fuck you i hate you personally and you're a bad writer #what do you cal a pet peeve when it still functionally is one but it's so massive it can't really be called that anymore #it reminds me of how no one gives a shit about autistic people just because we don't act exactly fucking like you #and no one cares about even any human that doesnt match a very narrow definiton of visually acceptable #much less ACTUALLY care about any NONhuman as anything other than condescending property #fuck you and fuck your crappy bootleg teiflings #that for some goddamned reason are always wearing the same loincloths on their thick thighs #and either nipple rings or (i think?) a binder #you can't improve humans by putting dragon features on them because humans fuckign suck you just make the dragon features worse #the only thing you can put on humans without it looking liek shit is claws tails and wings and even THEN its awkward and really only works #on a specific kind of human #and if you try to add all three at once it nearly always instantly stops working #and it still sucks and is vastly inferior to just LETTING YOUR NONHUMANS FUCKING BE NONHUMAN YOU FUN-HATING CUNTS #misanthropic doomerposting hours #this post brought to you by the flight rising lore writers have a fucking baffling hatred of all fun and interesting concepts gang #as well as the flight rising lore writers are allergic to worldbuilding that isn't about shoehorning humans in gang #theres another thing i fucking hate is how literally every single piece of fiction about something other than earth IN EXISTENCE #STILL LITERALLY ALWAYS SHOEHORNS HUMANS IN AS A MAIN THING NO MATTER HOW LITTLE SENSE IT MAKES #FOR HUMANS TO EVEN BE THERE AT ALL #this post ALSO brought to you by the stop fucking putting humans in every single scifi and fantasy world gang #i am currently suicidal about unrelated agony in my life and it is currently manifesting as a burst of rage towards a pet peeve #i am in indescribable emotional pain and for the next 2 minutes it is going to be this shit's fault in effigy

[monsterblogging]

"I know JK Rowing is a terrible person but her books are so good-"

You sure about that?

I mean, just for a start, have you taken a good look at her fantasy creatures lately? A whole bunch of them are straight-up based on malicious and dehumanizing stereotypes about actual people.

Remember the werewolves? And being a werewolf was made into a kind of metaphor for having AIDS?

And you know how AIDS was first associated with gay men? And how conservatives back in the day were claiming gay men were preying on children in order to convert them to gayness?

Remember how Fenrir Greyback preyed on children in particular? Yeah, she put that subtext in there. She was an adult in the 90's. She knew damn well what she was doing.

Remember the house elves? Remember how most of them loved to serve and needed to have a home and a master or else they just wouldn't know what to do with themselves?

Did you know that's literally what slavers in the American South said about the Black people they kept enslaved? Go look up the happy slave myth.

Do I even need to get into the goblins and the antisemitic tropes they're based on? No, folkloric goblins were not gold-hoarding bankers waiting for their chance to stab humanity in the back.

"But the characters are so good!"

Are you kidding me?

Most of her characters are pretty one-dimensional, including Harry. Her idea of making a morally complicated character is giving a tragic past to a bully. Numerous characters are little more than stereotypes. (Looking at Fleur right now.) Literally anybody, including you, can easily make dozens of characters just as good, if not better. (It doesn't exactly take a lot of character designing skill to go, "hey, actually, having a sad backstory doesn't make it okay to bully children" or "hey, maybe I should not base a character on the first stereotype that pops into my head.")

"But the rest of the worldbuilding!"

Sorry, but her worldbuilding is just as basic as her characters. Magical castles and secret passages are stock tropes. Magical people who keep their true nature secret from humanity is the premise of pretty much every White Wolf TTRPG. Most of her fantasy creatures are just common European fairy tale and folklore creatures with shitty stereotypes projected onto them.

I'm not saying "basic worldbuilding bad." I'm saying, you could do just as good, if not better, with minimal effort.

Also there's her magical bioessentialism, where only Harry's abusive blood relatives could provide him with supernatural protection from Voldemort. Rowling thus effectively declared that non-biological family isn't quite real family, and that abusive biofamily can give you some essential thing that a loving, supportive family that isn't related to you just can't.

The Hogwarts houses are one of the most insidious elements of her worldbuilding. The idea of being sorted gives you a little dopamine hit because wow now you have a li'l niche where you belong!

But the actual function of the houses and sorting system and the House Cup is teaching children to see each other as rivals, and ensure that the most toxic views of the upper class get passed on to every new batch of kids sorted into Slytherin.

Hogwarts effectively prepares children for a dystopia where magic serves to distract its citizens from how nightmarishly awful it is. Economic inequality is so bad that people like Arthur and Molly Weasley can barely afford to put their kids through school, casual sadism is just an accepted norm in everyday society, and non-humans are second class citizens. Rowling sorta acts like she thinks this is a bad thing with certain lines she gave to Dumbledore, but in the end, her special boy protagonist becomes an auror; IE, a defender of the status quo. So.

If you've never seen it, Lily Simpson's video goes into even more detail on how the worldbuilding of Harry Potter is actually incredibly fucked up, and how it betrays small-minded attitudes on Rowling's part. There's no separating the art from this artist, because Rowling's rotten values pour out of nearly every page.

Yes, there are many things in Harry Potter that evoke feelings and inspire people, but there's absolutely nothing in it that this series has a monopoly on. You can find those same experiences in much, much better media.

#harry potter #jk rowling #Youtube

[yeonban]

「   RP MEME :       CARING FOR SICK MUSES .   」

@skilledsenses asked: ‘ you look miserable. ’ ( ranpo for nikolai - )

The cheery facade the jester ne'er drops is nowhere to be found when he teleports away from the gruesome scene of the murder and appears in an enclosed alleyway at the edge of his ability; though the clown's appearance may imply the murder has moved along with him to the new location as his blood seeps into the whites of his clothes and he wonders whether the official he's just killed has felt any sort of solace after inflicting the injuries Nikolai has allowed them to before giving out their last, suffering breath.

It isn't a fatal injury for him anymore, not after the killer clown has taken the antidote for the poison that has oh so accidentally slipped into his blood vessels when the victim has gnawed at his skin in their desperation to live, but Nikolai's body continues to remain ill at ease, still displaying tell-tale signs of having been poisoned even after its fight against the deadly poison has been won. It's when he uses his cloak to spawn a napkin and bring it upwards to wipe the blood from his face (both his own, caused by a severe nosebleed; and the victim's, caused by their... rather gross death) that a familiar voice rings in his ears and Nikolai half-attempts to remember if hallucinations were due as a side-effect of the poison; only for heterochromatic eyes to glance in the direction of the sound and fall onto his (favorite!) detective.

Gently erasing the stains of blood from his visage while idly staring at Ranpo, an eerie smile blooms from the spots where the drops of blood used to be and it soon shifts into a loud burst of laughter as Nikolai remains entirely nonchalant about the acute loss of blood and the way in which the sharp movements of his laughter only further cause him harm. ❛ Ahahaha!! What an amusing twist of fate! ❜ A downside of his ability is not being able to perceive the world beyond its 30 meter border until after the transfer has been completed, which is why he tends to teleport to nearer places and blend within the crowds after most heists or murders - yet this wasn't a possibility with his current state of being in mind, and therefore it seems he ought to improvise and deal with the cards at hand. Perhaps it isn't such a bad thing though, to have come across the other in this dire state of affairs, and indirectly offer him a new angle to consider his psyche from.

Why would Nikolai be standing here, as viciously injured as he is, despite being easily able to dodge or block any incoming attacks he wishes to, from the brilliant detective's perspective?

Ranpo's remark almost incites a second fit of laughter from the jester, one that Nikolai only abstains from out of pity for his poor, mishandled and abused body (after all - he can't afford to die just yet, now can he?) and instead opts for a slightly less ostentatious show and a calmer (though still unnervingly upbeat) tonality. Is he really as fine as he makes himself out to be, or are his injuries (internal and external) far more painful than he allows them to appear? ❛ Is that any way to talk to someone who's bleeding out in front of you, Ranpo-kun~? What if those were the last words I ever heard, hm~~? ❜

#muse: nikolai gogol. #skilledsenses #* nikolai gogol. / ic. #ask 2 tag #This man is sick but sick in the head LMFAO #I love how you sent this in and even tho Kolya doesn't get /sick/ he immediately let me know I can brutalize him in front of Ranpo #FOR CONTEXT! (My) Nikolai sometimes allows his victims to do their worst to him in their last moments; as a fucked up show of mercy #in the same vein as the act he puts up as a ''heartless murderer who enjoys their suffering'' - it's to give them SOME sort of relief #before death inevitably takes them. and while it may come across as penance in others' eyes... it's actually more on the lines of #going against humans' innate fears of feeling terrible pains and bordering death (no sane person would ever do what Kolya's doing) #This is also why Kolya has a MYRIAD of scars on his body. especially on his legs since plenty of victims can't quite... stand up #and in this particular case? he used poison on his newest victim; a poison that got into his own blood vessels too #he Could've easily dodged that bullet. but he Didn't. he let himself suffer like hell til the victim died before he took the antidote #and now he's living w the consequences of his (conscious) decisions AGAIN :). except unlike usual; he encountered a wild Ranpo LMAO #Nikolai; looking like a picasso work if picasso ever decided to be a fan of depicting brutal murders: Haha fancy meeting you here! #QUEUE.

[gibbearish]

reddit refuses to stop recommending me the antinatalist sub and i just saw a post from there saying "women who breastfeed in public or on streams are just doing it for male attention" like dude that's literally just Regular Old Misogyny. this isn't an antinatalist thing you're just misogynistic is all

#and thats not even going into the problems with antinatalism itself like. #i am 1000% childfree and they try to act like antinatalism is the logical conclusion/next step from there but it just. super isnt #like no just because i personally dont want kids doesnt mean ill agree that doing so is abusive because #you can't ask the babies for consent before bringing them into this world #and its like. this is such a nothingburger when you think about it for more than like two minutes #is this world rough? yes #are there people who wish theyd never been born? yes #but they act like fuckin. their soul was in paradise before you so rudely ripped it away and forced it into this world #because of your own selfish desire to make a creature that is compelled to love you #and its like. ok. im sorry ur parents lived vicariously through you bc its clearly left an impact but that does not reflect on. #the entire human race? humans are animals. animals make babies of themselves. like reproduction of some form is how life continues #it's not inherently morally good or bad it's just a thing life does #(inb4 'ur making up a guy to get mad at' i have seen this exact sentiment expressed almost word for word many times) #(not the souls part thats hyperbole i meant the 'people only have kids bc theyre selfish and want a mini them who loves them by default' #part it gets really old really fast lmao) #and theyre always posting stuff like 'just found out ny friend got pregnant and is keeping the baby‚ i can't #believe she would do something like this‚ now i have to end a 14 year friendship' and its like. my dude. #you need to see a therapist because if you think just existing is such bad torture that you have to cut someone off for #having a baby you may actually just be severely fucking depressed #thats not in a derogatory way esp bc whenever i do look at the sub like. 100% of the posts there are depressed as hell #which makes sense‚ it's an ideology driven by 'everything is fucked‚ we can't stop it‚ we're the problem and should just die off' #and i think being unknowingly depressed can make it very easy to fall into the more nihilist aligned movements like that #i know before i figured out i had it i was big into nihilism #and i would say to a certain degree i still am and im still depressed but i think the two are actually separate now #like its not nothing matters because my brain doesn't have enough of a chemical #its nothing matters because like i said humans are just animals‚ highly influential animals yes but animals nonetheless #we're not morally superior to other animals‚ evolution didnt pick us it's entirely randomized #the entire world is randomized! every part of our universe couldve developed so differently if even a tiny thing changed #nothing means anything because anything couldve been anything else #theres no meaning in that bad thing happening to you‚ it was just random chance‚ it's not some cosmic punishment

[werecreature-addicted]

monster terrorizing everything until reader pops up, monster horny and everything unable to shake reader off, he gives up and says "ALRIGHT FINE" and fucks you... Then he get obsessed and takes you away to be his personal toy 🤷🏻‍♀️

"you should be more scared," Your lover growls, his hands easily wrapping around your thighs, almost encircling them completely, his sharp claws dimpling your flesh. His eyes glow red, and his hungry gaze eats you up.

You spread your legs further apart and reach down to pull your panties to the side showing off your sweet little human cunt to him.

"scared you aren't going to make me cum maybe," you tease. his nostrils flare as he catches the smell of your wet pussy on the wind.

"You're not going to goad me into fucking you. I have nothing to prove, I'd sooner kill you for being a brat than make you cum," he snarls.

"then I'll be a good girl for you," you purr. He growls, but you can see his cock twitch as you start rubbing yourself. He can't hold himself back much longer. his instincts conflicted from wanting to gut you and wanting to fuck you.

"you're a strange human, no sense of self-preservation," he chides, but he gives in and slots his big cock against your pussy, thrusting back and forth grinding his hard length back and forth against your clit, he clamps your thighs down around his dick fucking the fat of your legs groaning in pleasure at the sensation. It's not exactly what you were begging for but you aren't complaining, the heat of his big cock rutting against your clit feels good too.

"Moan for me whore, you wanted it fucking acting like it," he snaps, then has to keep himself quiet so he can hear the pretty cries of pleasure you let out. Maybe humans aren't so bad to keep around after all, if you're going to moan and cum for him like this.

#monster fucker #monster imagine #monster boyfriend #monster #werewolf #werewolf x reader #teratophillia #werewolves #werewolf boyfriend

[lord-squiggletits]

Like I'm not one of those story "critics" who will nitpick the smallest inconsistency and call it a plot hole that ruins the whole story. I'm okay with inconsistencies and even the occasional plot hole if it ends up producing a story that's interesting, gripping, and brings up interesting things.

The problem is that suspension of disbelief only stretches so far. And secondly, stuff like character drama and themes are only as strong as the plot that supports them. If the plot is full of contrivances, plot holes, and really stupid things that make it feel like the author is just forcing something to happen to move the story along, then the themes and character drama become much less convincing.

#squiggposting #anyways i do like problematic idw op and i do like it when he has enemies and ppl who don't trust him #but not when the plot to make ppl hate him is stupid as shit and barely makes any sense #or when optimus does something mildly dubious and people act like he personally tortured their families and then murdered them #or like when characters are oddly hostile to OP/the autobots but are perfectly fine working with far worse ppl #like how the humans were all 'fuck the autobots theyre evil' but were fine with helping the cons build a fucking base??? #after the decepticons already killed 1 billion humans??? including soundwave who is one of their main liasons??? #if the humans really didn't trust the decepticons then why didn't they just say 'fuck you you can't build a base in our solar system' #or like that stupid publicity plot point about how OP 'abandoned' jazz when like. #so you're telling me OP can't defend jazz for killing one. ONE cop in self defense #but it's not bad publicity for him to associate with soundwave who. let me repeat. was literally on the ground slaughtering humans in AHM #spike even knew about how that entire situation with the cop was a trap laid by megtron but somehow that never came up in the whole comic #it's just so dumb man like it feels sometimes more like its an IDW OP hate train and actual logic is secondary to making OP look like an as #also galvs being all like 'that's my boy' when OP annexed earth when galv is a racist boomer grandpa who kills organics for sports #i refuse to believe that guy would be impressed by anything less than OP personally murdering a human. not making them part of cybertron's #gov. you know? it's just silly #it's part of why i've been putting off rereading barber's comics because it was weird and contrived the first time #and i don't really want to put myself through rereading it again just to have to suffer through shitty plot again #so many things in that series couldve been genius if they were written in a plot that wasn't aggressively mid tier

[nyssasorbit]

.

#can my mom stop acting like the fucking devil #*like I'm the fucking devil #oh my god shut the fuck up #stop trying to be the fucking devil's advocate #I don't need you to try to shoot down every fucking thing i say #go fucking die #don't like me getting mad? don't treat me like trash #you cannot tell me in the same fucking breath #how I'm so terrible and need to watch myself #but also say 'you're smart so you'll figure it out' #no #you do not get to tear me down then throw your fucking worthless bandaids on top #why can't you ever be supportive of me when shit like this happens #why do you always have to fucking tear me down and tell me I need to be a better person #I know you fucking hate me but god #if you want to play 'family' so bad then fucking act like a mother #I can get torn to shreds by every other person all day #I tear my fucking self to shreds constantly #please just for fucking once see me as a human being #and not as an object that completes the fucking 'family' #if you want to lecture someone so badly #go look in the fucking mirror

[inkskinned]

"your pet doesn't love you; it just has learned that it will get treats if it acts a certain way. it can't understand you."

in between humans, i don't always speak the language either. love has always been hard for me. i don't trust it. i can't read it easily on people's faces - i'm usually trying to read past it; to the "other parts", the ones that make sense to me.

but my mom always offers me food as soon as i get through the door. my brother calls me at weird hours, just to be talking. my sister has a nightmare; asks me to please drive safe in the morning. i throw my friends random parties, just to celebrate something. she drives 45 minutes to spend 3 hours with me. amelia holds my hand while we both cross the street.

no, my dog and i don't have the same language. so what? this is not the same thing as communication. my dog is a good study in how trauma can heal - a rescue from the racetrack; i've been watching his personality develop slowly. in the last year, he's gotten so comfortable with me that he'll ask me to sit down on the grass so he can use my body as a seat. (it's important to note: he is huge. he squishes me. i don't complain. i find it lovely.)

love for us is also just endorphins and behavioral response. i'm a poet, the number of sad men that have tried to "teach me" how stupid it is to be a hopeless romantic is ... not a low one. i cannot count how many times someone has argued - it's all chemical stimulus - as if the fact of it makes it less magical. we're just electrical signals reading the universe! that's fucked up. that's so beautiful.

i find it hard to believe that in the spectrum of evolution we are the only species to feel like this - we already know that dogs and cats also have endorphins. why wouldn't they experience joy? love? companionship? in what world is it a new thing that i had to earn it? in every relationship, both individuals have to work to learn the language. i had to teach my dog what trust is. it's okay that it took time for him to learn it.

in the human world, when i love someone, it's hard for me to speak it. i write them poems or make them food or give them a cool rock i found on the beach.

i don't know how to tell goblin i love him, so i tell him through treats. through a new collar, fancy mattresses, a little bow on his leash. i tell him with long walks and petting him and sitting down on the wet ground so my 70 pound sharp noodle of a dog can prance on my thigh bones and take an awkward - if loving - seat.

"you taught your dog to love you" is kind of a cruel way to reframe what actually happened: i loved him so loudly, it skipped over language and species. the two of us just saying - oh! i have figured out a way to tell you that you make me happy.

#spilled ink #warm up #goblin writing #i got a lot of angry replies on my last goblin post about how dogs DONT love u #like really? did u ask every dog?

[wordsinhaled]

thinking about how much crowley and aziraphale have been getting slammed for their poor communication and on the one hand... absolutely, i agree 100%. they have so much work to do in that department, they are always missing each other when it comes to seeing what they each want from the other and expressing it clearly. but on the other hand... like... encompassing six thousand years into a conversation? six thousand years of knowing each other. six thousand years of gravitating toward one another

like... the bit that really gets me, in crowley's confession, is - "...and we've spent our existence pretending that we aren't. i mean, the last few years, not really" - this implication that like... at least on crowley's part... since they saved the world together he's allowed himself to be more open in how he feels about aziraphale. that in his mind he's already long since chosen Their Side, they've chosen their side in their behavior towards each other, and they've talked about... our car, our shop, but even before that...

we see in the minisodes, the way they already act. they're a pair that shows rather than tells all the time and it's so abundantly clear that everyone around them can see it, is constantly asking about it, assuming it, reading it on them like they're an open book - with everyone but each other.

but like how do you put into clumsy human words how much love you feel for someone who stood next to you while you created the stars? who helped you create them? how do you say openly how you feel to the one person who understands you and your nature better than anyone else, who indulges your every whim because they want to see you happy while everyone else says you were built wrong, you're too indulgent, you're too soft but you're perfect for him, specifically, because you stood at the beginning of the universe together?

like how are they supposed to talk about that? especially when it's so forbidden to talk about that?

there are so few words that truly feel like they properly encompass what love truly and genuinely means? what loving someone TRULY means? how it's giving up your onliness and entrusting yourself into the hands of another, now you're not just you, now you're you but the world is brighter and sharper and more beautiful because of another? how we're all stuck on a spinning rock in the middle of space in the middle of the universe in the middle of the galaxy in the middle of eternity just little grains of sand and then there's another little grain of sand in the scheme of things, but it's the most important one ever created because of how happy it makes you?

but multiply that by six thousand years

so like of course you fucking cry and you stare at each other with tears in your eyes like you're absolutely ESSENTIAL to one another. but like how do you make it work in words when you don't know if there are even words for the prospect of existing without one another? and you have this absolutely incandescent and fragile thing between you that everyone understands to exist, you understand it to exist too, and sometimes it is scary as fuck to admit that you need someone. it is terrifying and uncomfortable and vulnerable and we're just people who live maybe 100 years on this earth? a blink of an eye compared to six thousand years of shared existence?

like...? truthfully i don't think i could talk about it easily either because oh my god that's fucking terrifying. that six thousand years of your comfortable and beloved shared existence could go up in smoke with one misplaced word. like no fucking WONDER he can't get the words out. and no fucking wonder, it's easier to couch things in terms like group and team and everything when you're on the verge of falling apart into a million pieces because the other half of your soul wants to leave you behind. it's easier to say come with me, work with me, be my second in command, than to admit he's first in your heart and mind every second of every day since you saw him bringing light at the beginning of the universe???

just... you know? they need a fucking break. they need a vacation. they need a cottage in the south fucking downs

#aughghg hgh g hghg g ghg i am in pain #good omens #ineffable husbands #good omens 2 spoilers #go2 spoilers #spoilers #WHAT OTHER TAGS IDK i don't wanna spoil people ily <3 #good omens 2

[spiralingsights]

this isn't fucking funny

#i'm so fucking sick of this #she acts like a fucking five year old when it comes to my name #I WAS BEING POLITE. YOU KNOW- THE THING YOU BEAT INTO ME AS A CHILD? I WAS USING PLEASE AND FUCKING THANK YOU LIKE A POLITE HUMAN PERSON #YOU JUST CAN'T LET ME HAVE MY FUCKING NAME AND BE NORMAL ABOUT IT #JUST LET ME BE JACK #I AM FUCKING BEGGING YOU TO JUST LET ME BE JACK #jack.vent