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turtletoria · 18 days

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i feel like an incredible hater for this but i feel as i get older the more my tolerance for shipping decreases. like i went from an avid enjoyer to just tolerating ship art to now getting outright upset and fighting the urge to curse every time i see shipping content (this doesnt apply to my mutuals and friends who ship things because they can do no wrong ever)

#idk why it boils my blood like that. like genuinely it makes my online enjoyment really take a steep nosedive since 99.9% of any fandom-#content is shipping #maybe its the hater in me. maybe its the aroace tendencies in me. maybe im just antisocial and disagreeable. idk!#like shipping isnt morally bad or anything it just makes me so sad. idk #like ppl always prioritize romance over friendship and make fun of friendships as if they arent gay enough or smth and it rlly hurts me. id #like idk how to say it. everyone can have fun and stuff but it rlly makes me feel like im having fun wrong bc shipping looks fun but i cant #stomach it. like i miss having fun like that but i cant stand it anymore #like friendships r so devalued and even in frienship is magic type media friendships STILL take a backseat like whats up with that #like i hope this isnt coming across like a “i hate romance! i hate love!” kind of post but more so a why dont ppl focus on characters if -#they cant be romantically involved?#like i will alwaayyss be bitter abt willow from toh getting sidelined until she could be shipped with hunter like that pissed me off so bad #but like ur fave characters cant stand alone they neeeed to be romantically involved with someone for their love or dedication to be real #like love and dedication cant be genuine unless theyre romantically or sexually attracted? idk man #talking abt this is tricky bc u can fall into anti-sex/conservative rhetoric with this but i hope u can understand what im saying #like sex is great and romantic love is great but i wish the greater public would just have some freedom to explore concepts of dedication-#and trust that go beyond that framework. like there was a comment on reddit that framed aroace as the nonbinary of relationships and I-#thought that was really neat. yeah

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wingsonghalo · 8 months

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Oh hey I wanted to pop by and say congrats again on your wedding!!!! Sorry for being a little late I was planning to send you a congrats message the day after since you’d obviously be stupid busy the day of but my math sucked and I realized my math was off too late 😂😂😂 But yeah I hope the day went wonderfully for you 🥰

Aw, thank you so much; you're so sweet to remember!! It was a magical day, with very few hiccups despite the thunderstorms, my 9-layer dress in extreme heat, and the DJ not having the song we wanted for our First Dance. 🙃 We had 3 songs from Jack Jeanne at our reception, though, ehehe. 💙

#wedding #ask #couldbebetterforsure #jack jeanne #otome games #btw the songs were:#we are the great galleon #oh rama havenna oh beloved havenna #and faded color #i wanted ghost party and beyond the plane tree too but there were so many songs fkfkf #and also our first dance was supposed to be Love Like You from Steven Universe im still so pissed about it goddammit wedding DJ 🥲

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arolesbianism · 1 month

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Every day I mourn the fact that none of my family and friends give a single shit abt oni lore, I don't wanna keep repeating shit I've already said before on here but every now and then I just remember the horrors™ and nearly explode not being able to scream abt it again

#rat rambles #oni posting #just everytime I think abt olivia's 1500 cycle onwards logs I want to start biting things #shes soooo fucked up and tragic and she doesnt get any closure and she never will and I LOVE it #I fucking love her so much she rewired my brain so hard shes like one of The blorbos of all time #damn you klei you rly know how to make characters that destroy me beyond repair (hi carter twins)#I still find it fun imagining olivia and jackie interacting with the dont starve cast even if they wouldn't like most of them #I have lightly changed my mind on one dynamic tho #I still think that jackie would be stressed out by all the kiddos and would at least dislike them. but.#I do think she could end up kind of getting along with walter #like look at me. she was probably just like him as a kid. she would hate him for it but they could also talk for hours.#hed start sharing fun facts abt his bug collection and jackie would start lecturing him abt ants or whatever and hed think shes so cool #I think olivia still wouldn't like him tho but that's purely because hed probably stress her out #same with the rest of the kiddos I think if you put webber in the room with the two of them theyd both have a breakdown #not because hes a spider solely because hes a little boy who probably just asked them if he can have icecream #and wendy and abby would just be a situation of them not knowing how to talk to kids let alone depressed kids #oh and theyd probably also be stressed out by wurt for basic they dont know how to deal with kids reasons #rly the two would just hang out with wickerbottom and no one else if they could help it #except wanda they'd bother her non stop to the point shed start avoiding them lol #you see Im sure plenty of the cast wouldnt like olivia and jackie either because of just how much they wouldn't take magic as an answer #not that theyd be like no that cant be real cause thatd be magic theyd more likely start sciencing out the mechanics of all the magic stuff #in practical terms while also refusing to call it magic #and worst of all knowing them theyd probably get results because fuck man they brute forced their way into time travel (sort of) so why not #so itd just be maxwell being soooo pissed as the two somehow manage to replicate his spells without the codex #dont let them meet wagstaff then itd rly be jover

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 1 year

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I'm having a bad time at work rn

#im so pissed that they're complaining about me because i still went above and beyond at this damn place #for context i work in a gas station connected to a fast food restaurant #i used to work in the restaurant but i left because it's hell #but then the restaurant manager asked me to cover two days a week for a month while someone else was getting trained #i didnt want to but im bad at saying no #after the second week i asked the general manager if i could get out of it and he said yes #he said i can get out of the fourth week. but the third week was already scheduled so he asked me to do that #so i did the first day of the third week right #and the overnight crew didnt show up. no call either. so i was left alone. and a store manager told me to just shut it down and go home #so thats what i did #but the next day the restaurant manager yelled at that store manager because we should never shut it down #he said that i shouldve stayed until 3am because i was the shift lead #thats four fucking hours after my scheduled shift ended #so i said no. fuck it. shutting down by yourself is hell. and im not working where he expects an extra four hours from me #so i said i wouldnt be working the second say of that week. i was going ti stay at the gas station #BUT I said that if they needed my help they could come get me. and i would take care of the casb registers at the end of my shift #and i ended up working there for an hour so that they could take breaks. and i took care of the registers #and yknow what happened? the overnight crew didnt show up again. im so glad i didnt work there that night #the store manager let everyone go home. but she was told to never let that restaurant close. so she didnt #the lights were on. the doors were open. there were no staff. no one is putting up with the restaurant manager's bs #especially not me. not anymore. but i still fucking helped. and then he wants to go and complain about me? asshole #get staff that show up and be a better manager. then maybe people will be happier with their job there

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bloodyke · 11 months

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family brought some bug into the house im gonna take a covid test tomorrow

#zenith.txt #beyo d frustrating that i do literally everything right by not leaving my house and if i do i wear a kn95 every single time #and i dont eat at resturaunts and i dont go into enclosed spaces with other people and yet bc of other people being irresponsable #they mightve guven it to me..... im beyond pissed #if it is covid im going on a rampage no one will be spared my wrath they KNOW im immunocompromised #everyone hope for the best and its just strep throat or the common cold #ill still be incredibly pissed off that my supposed family put my life in danger like this but at least i wont be in actual danger #anyways if you dont wear a mask and you dont take covid precautions and act like its over give all disabled people $500 and kill yourself #im also gonna buy a portable HEPA air filter for my room #im just so annoyed i beg them to take it seriously and they refuse to...#im going to die out of spite to make them guilty....#anyways i have like 8 vovid tests stockpiled so ill take one every day for the next week just in case i get a false negative #im.even more frustrated bc i havent gotten it this entire time like i did literally everything in my power and avoided it for years #and now if i got it bc i of shit ass family visiting whom i didnt even want here.....#die die die die kill yourself jump off a bridge etc

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dorkousloris · 11 months

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theres something about 2019 me being horrified that i, in the year 2023, go "anita says fuck you and do middle fingers because theyre tired and just grumpy, but it doesnt meant theyre not soft anymore. theyre still soft. but only for the people they love. and care. and willing to kill for."

#dorkous ramblings #everyone that knew me back in 2019- knew i used to like drawing soft characters #i STILL do #i do love when people can tell by it... but im at the point where i should really expand beyond soft characters #so. yeah.#anita is not just soft theyre selfish and a asshole and a idiot and lovable and dorky and nerdy #but theyre also wouldnt hestiate to fight for you and are too painfully self aware of their own actions and can choose to nope away or #to stand firm and be mad while still have tears bc theyre still sensitive and emotional and empathic but that doesnt stop them to be #pissed and frustrated and annoyed and-#grabs anita and squeeze them like a squeaky toy #you got me Thinking #also blame on a friend who got me into selfish characters.

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quixoticanarchy · 1 year

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had to hear the phrases “federal enterprise” and “federal family” on a webinar today... bro i already hated it enough when it was just called the federal government 💀

#family is cringe but corporations have been doing that forever. enterprise is just.. ok we're admitting this is a corporate shell now are we #i can't access tumblr at work anymore bc tablet is too old to load anything beyond a blank white screen now :/#so all work complaints have to be shelved till i get home and decide if im still pissed about them

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metagalacticx · 1 year

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i’m actually tired of being pissed off at fandom stuff like i swear im not trying to be annoying on purpose but unfortunately i kinda spent most of my formative years on tumblr, in this fandom, and to see this kind of stuff still so prevalent is disheartening and it sucks i genuinely wish i didn’t care

#im going to continue being pissed off because fandom spaces are unfortunately a microcosm of society and #white supremacist ideals are pervasive and actually form the fabric of a lot of what we consider to be good and true and moral and ethical #sry to the white people who hate being reminded white people make it so hard for things to improve but why pretend that isn’t the truth #anyway when you can step away from fandom and not be affected by any of this then you know you’re privileged #and if that’s the case then maybe you should be listening to those people who are affected #because for a lot of people this isn’t just about a character #it’s not just about racist tropes #it all goes beyond that #some of us can come on tumblr and write 100 posts defending poc characters. but still get to step away and not be affected #you can make all the posts about how kira deserved better and how much we love her etc etc. but understand that the #issues of asian representation in media are very real and still very much prevalent. some people can’t separate fandom issues from their #realities. because these issues are real. and they affect real people.#anyway god i hate myself for this why am i saying all this idk i hate that i care #lemme go back to blogging stupid shit for fun skdjjd

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found-the-secrets-in-your-eyes · 1 year

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pissed

#so beyond fucking pissed #M told you several times to let US handle this and to let US talk to our principal and that we were NOT going to take legal action #M told you this several times #for you to go behind our backs #against the advice of your chairs #against everuthing #to talk to the cheif about suing us and to talk to our own fucking principal without telling us anything #is such FUCKING bullshit #we have faught so fucking hard to keep this club safe and open and ALLOWED #and in the midst of all these goddamn laws #all fhe goddamned shutting down of gays in school #you have the nerve to risk OUR club #and our relationships with our principal #when we still have to be here for another year and M has to be here for another TWO #im pissed #so beyond pissed #thats ridiculous #and our teachers jobs are at risk now!!#this is such bullshit

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mainfaggot · 11 months

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woah okay so i finished checkmate

#the ending was actually really satisfying? i thought it would be rushed and messy but it was actually pretty thoughtful on the authors part #like the implication that soohyun accepts his feelings have turned from jealousy and hatred into love and care #and that rather than going fucking full on yandere he tries to healthily develop a relationship with eunseung #that was all refreshing #im still beyond irritated and exasperated at the need for the literal assault / non con scenes #there were 2 between the main couple which really pissed me off bc even without them we could see that their dynamic was unsteady/hateful/#eventually codependent even #like i just found it so unnecessary to need to include assault bc a good story teller can establish complex character dynamics without #scenes relying on shock factor #also the last thing lgbts want is shit like this #overall i think the story gets a 6/10? maybe a 7 if im feeling nice #it was really interesting and im think soohyun's character is so fascinating #idk i find him admirable despite his neurotic tendencies #z.post

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kingmaximusboltagon · 2 years

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thank you uncanny inhumans for giving me crystal and medusa content. thank you uncanny inhumans for giving me GOOD crystal and medusa content.

#i havent finished it actually but u know. VERY good so far #crystal and medusa are so good here!!!! i definitely want to make a longer post about three very specific panels i didnt include here #maybe seperate posts between some of them #but i rlly like the insight into their relationship #and how when crystal is BEYOND pissed at medusa shes still like. 'look im not going to fight you. we are TALKING when we get out of here'#and how theyre still v concerned over the other!! its very !!!!!!!!!#i love the sibling dynamics for the family!!!!! medusa and crystal need their own mini series!!!!!!!#i NEED a whole comic team up storyline with them more than i need air #crystalia amaquelin #medusalith amaquelin #undescribed

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unproduciblesmackdown · 2 months

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other day i was like "yeah virtually all my dreams are defined by anxiety / every goal/hope being Thwarted, but at least i never really have nightmares" but it's like well what's the baseline what's the reaction, b/c i also then have to be like "but does it count if yeah i had a fairly typical dream sequence that was like, 'uh oh, i'm on The Horrors Street and the monster is probably after me, which i'm staving off by hand but it's kind of difficult b/c it can dissolve its own corporeal form in a somewhat gory manner as it tries to gnash at My corporeal form' but i was like 'i mean this is some bullshit but typical tuesday' level reaction so it wasn't a big deal?" like i don't even know when In Real Life it's also typical to have stress reactions like, just now going "smh obviously this sucks. i know i'm stressed. i know this is unpleasant bullshit & somewhat alarming. but typical tuesday (on a thursday)" and only due to noting some physical tremors is it like oh right i guess i'm also having an adrenal response. i tend to bring the like "smoke grenade! disassociation!!" response to a dream in that i can kind of Respond to it by withdrawing / distancing myself, sometimes even like [pushing things into being: as though it's a video game. pausing, exiting, etc] & like it's My psyche & it's brief sequences melding into each other anyways so okay, we'll pivot. other times it's just like yeah this is bullshit but shrug guess we're doing this, until it pivots anyways. Outliers are usually like, "just had an unpleasant Worldwide Peril scenario premise :/" or that like yeah once in a blue moon like sometime the past year my dream was so stressful i woke myself up b/c often when Urgently Confronted w/ Alarming Dream enemy i launch into fight mode & that one was just so [!!!] >:((( that it pushed the urgency into "oh shit, wake up maybe??" response levels. get their ass!! but mostly it's like "ugh i'm at this Job & im not sure what i'm doing, didn't get enough training for this. thinking about getting food but can i afford it" like yeah thee horrors but not as urgent. but then sometimes it's urgent or at least threatening & it's still like literally zzz / well this isn't ideal clearly but it doesn't even occur to me like Do i have nightmares i just shrug off? idek man. call that nightmarinating

#like child me was really fdring it often Worried About Nightmares but i don't particularly remember Getting them #beyond the zany Very Young nightmares a couple of times still being memorable. you are skinamarenough fr #going like oh i've definitely had that bit! in a work that exists via crowdsourced ''unsettling memorable childhood nightmares''#was it a nightmare then? i guess!#presumably also already like ''again my Standard is that traumatic levels of stress is mundane / fairly literally Everyday so like...?''#on occasional alarming car crash near misses i don't think i had a ''big'' reaction b/c. typical tuesday #tending to be more Moved by like shit that's more conceptually disturbing to me that tends to not exactly be [stressful alarming] style....#like the Worldwide Peril dreams being more unsettling but never like [aa!!] at any exact moment #it's like well yeah it All ''interferes'' but also it's still Usual it's still Typical. starting to see limits to any metric of Disruption #even if that Disruption is made individual like is it in Your way / throwing You off by Your standards #not really; not really....#one fun stress dream thing is like; ppl asking ppl who've already gone nc w/parents like Any Regrets (chorus of No's from the house)#(bonus: Ugh Every Time re: whom regrets trying to get back in touch lol)#anyways when i first went nc i sometimes had stress dreams like aaugh parent; i would physically fight them off w/like a shovel #nowadays usually my dream self readily is like Well [Tells You Off] Then & perhaps then also physically fights off just more handily #like yeah i know i've Leveled Up in these nc years but it's definitely fun that organically my Dream Encounters have shifted likewise....#basically just Getting Through It & dreams eff off into another thread readily enough #only exceptions are like ''i get so Suddenly & Proximately Alarmed i get pissed off & leap into action. just like real life also''#harangued by like ''im Slowly Driving but the brakes work Incrementally Gradually & i can't get the damn thing to a full stop'' like woes #abt ''if i get ticketed for an inexorably rolling nonstop. or hit anyone'' but i never actually do. keep having the dreams here&there But #it is not a mystery like wow can't believe i virtually never have an okay time or am not overtly sabotaged from pursuing that #i got it yeah lmao....that the school dreams continue for me as for anyone like i'm sure that's fine & necessary for us all #yeah yeah The Horrors we've all been incessantly beset #thee best is the way i sometimes dream abt Performing & have so much fun even the invariable thwarting doesn't get in the way #i'm missing rehearsal missing cues don't know my lines can't find my costume etc etc etc etc Still like ''oh whee haha hoorayyy''#all these experiences you gotta compare notes like tbt ''hang on do some people take a dump like Daily? fr?''#except that one's more like. an inherent part of having a digestive system. vs thee the horrors levels & regularity varying

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konfizry · 6 months

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Viscint's policy of offering housing to Renan refugees on the strict condition that they accept the Ideal of Coexistence sure is. Something that they're enforcing huh. Drashin mentions screenings that applicants go through?? which. yeah. thats. that's great.

So yeah now the Renans are building an ethnostate right outside the city gates ^_^

#ok right now it's 3 dudes with spears and a bunch of crates but #they sure exist #like i'm still waiting to see where this all goes ofc but #as usual this game.#aaaaanyway.#silly little dudes everyone's just a silly little dude in this game thats fine (:#toarise btd #beyond the kon #looking at it like that i think Niez is handling things better actually #ye everyone's constantly at each other's throats (not everyone everyone but most NPCs are definitely pissed)#BUT hey they welcomed everyone. yes even the weirdos #because. well they have to go SOMEWHERE #they have not motherland to return to so. gotta make do with that yknow. yknow #and providing housing and basic necessities does not mean that hateful behaviour will be free of consequences #my point is the folks in viscint are Very Nice but also lack Awareness (as was the case in the base game)#but anyway. this is funny im having fun. in a way.#keep throwing bonkers politics in my general direction i'll eat that shit up #i mean i GUESS ppl ARE segregated in niez #but at least everyone can access the city even if they're awful you know #but yeah niez is a shitshow too. but theres one or two sidequests that make u hopeful idk

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whippedcloudsofcream · 8 months

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Ahsoka S1E2: Toil and Trouble

#Ahsoka S1E2: Toil and Trouble #ahsoka tv #my photos #yeah this scene was pretty and all #and im still skeptical about the use of baylan and shin #but i love how morgan was just all high and mighty as if she had some forbidden knowledge #and baylan was like #This is what you’re betting our lives on? a fairy tale? a fucking myth??#the jedi knew about this dangerous pathway for years and you think You can navigate it???#and it’s just delicious because it ruined morgan’s moment but also!!#it shows how much goddamn knowledge the jedi possessed #they were not cloistered they Knew so much about the galaxy and beyond and had tons of research in their records #they knew the dangers and kept secrets accordingly #that’s why p*lpatine was so keen on getting his soggy hands on it he knew they knew their shit #and he was pissed when it got erased because he wasn’t about to risk his skin going out into the void on his own without jedi knowledge #and Yes the jedi had every right to keep this knowledge secret #because some idiot would have tried to make a war weapon and woken something up it’s already happened before #the fact the jedi died and Took their knowledge with them is both sad and gratifying

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chisatowo · 1 year

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I love how my first two pmd randomizer teams I characterised them in my head as different flavors of ah goofy and now these new guys are just a bunch of assholes. Just a gaggle of shitheads who think they're better than everyone else. They all hate eachother and think they're the only normal person here. They r also best friends but they do kill eachother on a regular basis.

#rat rambles #I wish that last part was a joke but alas shitty ai moments #also funnily enough dusknoir got randomized to mightyana again (he also did in the last one) so thats convienent #but yeah mantis and moth are no memories rip buddies and their partymembers spider and gnat are their gay worsties (seperate not dating)#moth used to be a different pokemon they know that much but they dont remember anything beyond that #but yeah moth is very polite and anxious to most but to their partymembers they r a lot more blunt and snappy #they value their time greatly and always want to cut to the point when they can and they are also incredibly power hungry #mantis is very Tired and also blunt but they care less abt not upsetting higher ups so they just speak their mind always #this initially pissed moth off but as mantis started saying the things they actually wanted to say for them they tollerated it more #spider is a mismagius and hes very smooth talking thinks hes soooo cool type but he still has a short temper #he also loves poking fun at the others and coincidentally if any of them are killed by another its usually him #and lastly the newest recruit gnat the leafeon. she is loud and confident and is also very ambitious #she is a masterful lier except for the fact that shes always obviously lying but ppl just believe her anyways?? and it drives mantis mad #together they may get the job done but they also may just all kill eachother before they can finish one mission lol #also Ive found so fucking many gold masks its stupid theyre fucking everywhere #Ive also found two space globes which is pretty sick #since I have my full team assembled now Im gonna need to chose out a new held item for mantis tho so spider might lose his space globe rip #if I can get the trap seeing glasses whatever theyre called though he can keep it those things are so fucking useful #its honestly less the trap showing part and more the hidden stairs showing part for me thats twice the stairs on each floor #well theyd be there anyways but like yknow what I mean

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gardnhee · 1 month

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faint memories - zuko

୨୧- tw/content. angst with a pinch of fluff, intentional lowercase, not proofread, little cursing here and there.

୨୧- zuko x afab!reader

୨୧- note. this applies to both animated and live action zuko!! requested by my baby @lovlyrickyyy 🤍

୨୧- dividers by @plutism !

୨୧- wc. 1.2k

“stop…moving!” you grit, holding zuko’s face as he glares at you, small wince erupting from his throat.

“how do you expect me-“ he hisses, hands instinctively flying up to get a hold of your wrists. “to not move when there’s this huge fucking burn on my face!” zuko retorts, grip tightening on you. you sigh, heart dropping as you no longer see that glint in his eyes. the glint that is now replaced with sadness, pain, suffering.

zuko’s chambers grew dead silent, no more arguing, no more disagreeing from you or him. just silence.

a small smile spread on his face as he now caressed your wrist with his thumb, pressing a small kiss to it, “i’m sorry for grabbing so hard.” this made your head perk up, blush spreading across your cheeks. you shake your head, “i understand.” the room goes silent again.

only thing that could be heard were the faint yells of the firebenders training outside and the mouse like footsteps of whoever passed by the unnecessarily and stupidly huge doors.

you kept applying the ointment onto zuko’s wound, sitting back with a small huff to examine him. to you, even with that huge scar on his face, he’s still as handsome as ever. you noticed how he tried to hide it from you, looking down at his trembling hands as the events from earlier are still fresh in his mind.

he slumped back on the bed, eliciting a whine of disapproval - you weren’t done tending to him. zuko ignores this as he just lays there, gazing up at his tall ceiling with a blank stare.

you knew him all too well, which means you also knew he was hiding something. refraining himself from talking. you hated it.

“zuko-?” you started as his body jerked up from the wine red sheets.

“i’m getting exiled.” he didn’t let you speak, words crawling up his throat as he was unable to hold them back.

you felt as if all air had been knocked out of your lungs, like a punch to the gut. your chest heaved, eyes squinting and eyebrows knitting together.

“w-what?” it’s not that you didn’t hear, in fact zuko’s words unfortunately fell on very perceptive ears.

“i’m-“

“you’re joking, right?” you chuckled awkwardly, fading into nothing as his eyes saddened. “i’m sorry.” was all he could muster. you frantically shook your head, disgusted that he felt forced to apologize for something he had no control over.

“how long?”

zuko hummed, eyes spaced out somewhere, looking everywhere but at you. you bit your lip, kneeling towards him, cold and shaky hands cupping his cheeks.

“stop avoiding and answer me, zuko. how long?”

zuko’s eyes peeled away from wherever he was previously glancing at, “however long it takes.” he mumbles and you frown, “what do you even mean by that.” you sigh, sitting back in defeat as you run your fingers through your hair.

“until i catch the avatar.”

you scoffed, “that’s fucking ridiculous.” zuko agreed silently, but that wasn’t enough for you. nowhere near, actually.

“i’m going to speak to your father.” you stand, making him stand with you, eyes wide and pupils blown.

“you can’t, yn.” he reaches for you in vain as you yank your hand back. “don’t try to stop me, zuko.” you were beyond pissed, tone dripping venom as zuko stood in front of you, obstructing your way to the door.

“move, goddamnit!” you hit his chest repeatedly, each strike more desperate than the last. “how are you just…okay with this?” you sobbed, forehead propped against his chest, his arms falling beside him, stiff as a statue.

“what more can i do?”

he made a good point, so good that it shushed you with a slap to the face.

“i’m leaving.”

“yn please wait-“

“im. leaving.” your lip quivered, voice shaky, eyes watery. zuko nodded, moving back to his bed, sitting on the edge.

you made your way to the bed as well, grabbing the ointment and placing it back on the metal tray.

“i hope to see you again, yn.” he murmured, back facing you as you stayed quiet, not wanting to entertain the idea of him leaving. sadly, it doesn’t matter if you entertain said idea or not, it’s happening anyway.

the moment you stepped out the door, that was it, even the hope of ever seeing him again started to dissipate.

by this point you were halfway down the dim hallway, ready to turn the corner back to the servant’s quarters. you looked back, guards standing proud and tall outside the prince’s room. you bit your lip, gazing down at the cold tray in your hands, caressing it with your index finger.

after taking a deep breath and preparing yourself for a life without your first love, you walk off, never to hear from zuko again.

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“fucking hell!” zuko groaned as the memory made an unwanted visit for the nth time this week, standing from his cot like bed. he looked outside the small ship window, eyes landing on an endless ocean, stretching far and wide, separating him from you.

it’s been 3 years since zuko had the pleasure of laying eyes upon you. your pouty lips - which he longed to kiss - sparkling eyes, and beaming smile, he missed it all; every single second of it.

he made it his mission to capture the avatar, whatever it took, zuko will bring him before his father and finally get to feel your embrace again.

the fact that he didn’t seize the opportunity to confess, to tell you just how much he loves you - vocalize the burning desire to make you his partner - was eating at him from the inside out.

zuko paces around the room, breathing heavily as he grows anxious. his patience is running thin and he doesn’t know how much longer he can stay civil.

with three curt knocks zuko turns, uttering a ‘come in’ as his mind was somewhere else. a soldier walks in, with a small bow of his head, he exclaims, “we’ve found the avatar, sir!” this made zuko’s face brighten, nails no longer trapped between teeth.

“where?” the prince breathed, unspoken urgency in his voice. “here in the south pole, sir.” he raised a brow, “how far?” “close by, approximately 2 nautical miles.” despite his shocked expression, zuko was elated.

“good job.” was all zuko said before strolling out his suffocating room. his palms grew sweaty, his heart hammered against his chest. he simply couldn’t contain himself.

he will see you again.

oh, he’s just imagining it; walking up behind you and surprising you, indulging in your warm laugh, welcoming eyes, and safe presence.

this is something he simply won’t - can’t - pass. zuko has the target within reach and he’s going to hold on tight, so tight the avatar will have no choice but to turn himself in.

a way one ticket, an opportunity peeking its face through the blur that is his life.

no matter the circumstance, he will not miss or give up - no, he’s coming home to you, forever this time.

୨୧ - hope you liked it!! this is kinda rushed so im sorry if there’s any spelling errors :( please like, comment, and reblog. would be highly appreciated 🫶.

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