#BUT NOW IM GONNA UH. GONNA GO CRY.

[reggies-eyeliner]

Will's admitting to himself that Mike will always love El more. He's saying that he's hates who he is so much that he'd just get it over with, to lose hope that he could ever possibly end up with Mike. El is happier with Mike, and Mike is happier with El, this is what he believes.

Will wants to lose Mike.

Every season he has always wanted Mike. He's always wanted to be able to call Mike his own, to be able to be Mike's friend, his best friend, his lover, just his. That was all he ever wanted. Ever.

To rip off the band-aid? To say that he doesn't need Mike, doesn't want Mike, doesn't deserve Mike speaks volumes.

Will had been robbed of so much of his childhood, so many memories and so many moments that he feels that he deserves to be robbed of this, too.

And he still forces a smile because he has to make Mike believe that he is okay with this, because he feels that he's already been the cause of so much trouble-- that by giving up what he needs the most to someone that he loves the most, he is balancing at least a fraction of what he thinks he's done wrong.

anyways I'm going to be crying on the floor for the next 5-6 business years

#byler analysis #thank u to queerxqueen for the screencap ily man tyty #BUT NOW IM GONNA UH. GONNA GO CRY. #byler #stranger things s4 #byler van scene #I CANT FATHOM THOUGH #WILL HATES WHO HE IS IM #i wanna give him a juice box #juice box juice box juice box #i love him your honor he deserves the world #if yk this is a repost NO YOU DONT #NO YOU DONT YOU DONT KNOW AT ALL #like a repost of #my own post .

[dizzybizz]

captain jasmine "jazz" drake broke into my brain and is now living there rent free help

#i uhm i uhhh i i i #queen too. i was introduced to queen and uh i uhuhm i yeahgh huhuhu #those two get me all giggly kicking my feet yknow #ep91 killed me three times im triple dead can s omeone help im so deep in my riptide fixation istg if i pick up any vocal stims bc of this #istg if i start going lalala. well idk what id do but smth.. #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #jrwi jazz #jasmine drake #chip jrwi #jay ferin #gillion tidestrider #i got to their big revamped designs yiippeeee #N JAYS MAGI C WING S IM SO HYPE #my art #oki now i need to learn how to draw queen uhm i was scared for their debut bc i knew i would be insane but yeah ok i nee d to go like i nee #to leave i cant hes literally perfect i cant deal with it im gonna cry i l ove her sm istg theyer evertyhtinnhg

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

people practice w Them <3

#posting this and then shoving my head into a hole Bye #i am! Not Confident!!! in my people scribbling abilities!! #but im trying!!! im fucking trying!!! #i already see improvement #not enough to make me go 'wee the masses are gonna love this' #but enough that i can fathom posting. i can handle it. i can do this #if i dont do it now then i never will!!!! #im still gonna scream into a pillow rip it apart and then eat the stuffing!!!! #ah... the mortification of Existing... of Being Perceived... #it is ever present and inescapable! youd thing id be used to it by now!!! #ill be on my death bed asking people to leave the room so that i can die w/o feeling horribly self conscious and Seen #no seriously every time i think about my potential death and or coma should that happen #i prematurely cringe at the Attention. people potentially crying at my bedside Eugh No Thank You Please Do That Elsewhere #either call me a loser and drop off a single flower or leave me be <3 #THIS IS A WELCOME HOME SCRIBBLE POST. IM SORRY I FORGOT #scribble garnish #uh um uh so uh wally and barnaby am i rite fellas- #in my mind they're picking up takeout for dinner <3 #yeah no im not tagging it with a fandom tag. i dont want to be perceived As We've Established #im somewhat satisfied with that first wally.... swag <3 #& do i have major gender envy for barnaby? yeah #im not used to drawing people but i should be... i need to be... #THERE ARE GUYS I WANNA DRAW! mine and others!!! ngl mostly mine!!!

[insertsona]

sso theres this guy,

#i straight up. had not drawn much selfship stuff. until a few days ago . #uh. nobody be mean to me or ill cry ok? ok #yeah hes a manipulative bastard and objectively terrible but consider. wwwwhat if i was his favourite #im gonna go hide in a hole now. you will not hear of me for the next 3 years/exag #casinos art :] #casinos ocs: sale #casinos aus: cain instinct #casinos sonas: casino #casinos sonas: data #selfship #oc #fursona #sona #furry #deltarune oc #addison oc #yellow addison #sfw furry

[deeisace]

..

#so uh how bout that dom drop huh? gee it sure is smth #im fine now im good uh my sub - oh that's weird to say huh um but yeah he helped im good #but like whistles goddamn i wasn't expecting to cry today #but J helped and he's okay and im okay and we are looking after ourselves cs like. distance. #distance is good mostly cs i don't know if i could do any of this like. in person n stuff. but uh #idk i lost my train of thought im gonna go look in my fridge and eat something now #news just in: deeisace is actually called eddie and uhhhh not super ace aha #im good i have tea and my dressing gown and tv to watch #and my only plan today is laundry #like it's big new to me doing this being on this side of it y'know #anyway bye im gonna watch bbc hustle cs it makes me laugh

[thxnks4themrms]

#UPDATEEE #we all good now i did cry bc i was really scared #uh #still very scared to go outside #all my doors are locked #umm #yk what #im like still very scared #erm #uhh #i was gonna call mari cuz i was freaking tf out but it’s late over there n i didn’t want to disterb him #n uh #idk #im still actually kinda crying so erm

[crabs-nonsense]

Holy shit! I just realized the reason I couldn't fucking see darker art on my phone screen is because I forgot I turned the brightness way down last night and never fixed it. I feel so stupid.

#i can now see the fanart id been looking at without it being mostly shadowed aha #crab says words #i keep my brightness pretty low but i had a headache last night so turned it almost all the way off #it was enough for it to be darker but not super obvious hence the being dumb and not fixing it #anyways i actually came here to talk about how i had a physical therapy appointment but they told me that actually im fine so uh #they recommended seeing neurology for my head issues and maybe pain management and to come back later when i knew more specific stuff #i didnt even know there was a specialized pain management department at the hospital #honestly i think i manage just fine *dramatic flailing that indicates that im both horribly offend and also lying* #anyways yeah still not diagnosed and still in constant pain lets go! i have another appointment next month for something else #its like rheumatology? i dont know what they do aha but apparently i need to see them to get diagnosed? #i am a perfectly mature and functional adult.... (my mother made the appointments and knows the information) #i am absolutely useless :D #and with all that said! sorry i was too lazy to make this two different posts lmao #the pt appointment left me with a horrible headache that i still have so im gonna go cry about it :)

[scattered-winter]

woe another tag vent session be upon ye

#one of the girls in my class looks just like her. oh my god. #like im not being dramatic i literally thought it was her in my peripheral vision. #literally almost burst into tears in the middle of the room lmaooooooo #and then for the rest of the day every time i saw someone with her hair color i just saw her. #this shit sucks fr y'all i have never almost cried in public this much #and then i had to drive to pick up some groceries and fuck. #ive never been an anxious driver. i quite enjoy driving actually. #but i literally almost had a panic attack when i first pulled onto the road. i was so fucking anxious the entire time i was behind the whee #someone came up behind me pretty fast and i legit had to pull over to calm down it was so bad #so uh. not gonna be driving for a while lol. gonna kill myself or someone else doing that. #idk. idk i think this has me pretty messed up and i probably will be for a while. idk #my roommates and i finally decorated our living room and it was . fun. we laughed and made jokes and it was fun #but well. predictably i am feeling guilty over having fun now. which sucks ass from every angle #should i probably maybe make an appointment for therapy ???? probably ??????????? #idk. might be good to talk all this out out loud yk. but also i Know i will cry and i dont want to do that. #sigh. anyway. #also predictably i cannot sleep. couldnt last night either. #i might go paint in the living room. i dont know. #anyway if u read this whole rant ily ur earning the veteran's pass to Winter's Breakdown Sessions #winter speaks #personal #grief tag #<- once again if u need to blacklist. will not hold it against anybody i prommy #tw death #tw panic attack

[kordbot]

finished lanks' route!! I would kill and die for liam one thousand times

#hes so. spins around #hes so silly but soooo full of horrors hes like the universes punching bag #his route was. so quick holy shit #like i could just PLOW through ALL the enemies in a couple turns. the boss fight with hart was a joke #emotional overload is mad op during fights w multiple foes #and triple fireball is like. INSANELY op in 1v1 fights #lanks is NOT FUCKING AROUND!!!!!!! #also i got locked onto beltboys route just now. yay <3 < i will cry and scream and suffer so so much #beltboys route is gonna be sooooo emotional and i will explode by the end. and then come back to do rod's route #i feel confident enough to do pain mode methinks. the savepoint thing is gonna be the worst i think handling combat wont be that hard #but im an avid saver i save my progress always constantly and forever #so getting to use savepoints once is gonna be. um. UM. UH. UM. yeah #but im sooooooo curious abt how rods route is gonna look. also i just wanna see more of rodriguez!!!! #he seems like such a fun character ok #also i can recruit yogurt so. yay <3 yogurt my best friend yogurt #im gonna try recruiting reginald as well which you can apparently do in the normal routes which i did NOT know #maybe someday ill replay the game from the beginning [and actually get to explore area 3] and try recruiting him then ! #yay. lets go babey

[woahajimes]

why am i crying outside the donut shop

#1. there used to be only one guy in charge of the mini donut place and it was the best fucking place like the donuts were delicious and #so aesthetic and round and poofy and that man had an art degree bc. (ykwim) #like i used to go to the place and just chat with him bc he was the only one and he'd give me extra donuts and he was just so nice #something happened to him and he doesnt work there but now there's a new guy and i went and he was very quiet and younger (still late 30s) #so now he's like the only new guy there i guess #the donuts were terrible #they were like shrively(?) and poorly decorated but it was near close and i could tell he had a bad day and idk they were terrible but the #taste was fine and he seemed genuinely sad and the previous customer got mad at him and he was so tired and why am i crying #2. also today at my own work a lady tried to steal and she tried to walk away with the cart but i like caught up to her bc i was interactin #w/ her before and she's like 'im gonna spray you'' and when i dont back away she says "im gonna call my brother to come r*pe you'' #like uh #and then my coworker intervened but from far and it was a little scary i was def paranoid.

[mayonakano-archive]

i still can't believe i'm turning 18 next month...

#leoposting #uh. vent in tags probably? #like. being 18 is meant to be this Big Milestone. something Super Impotant #you are a Legal Adult Now!! whoo!!! #but for me it's just a reminder that if i don't get a job after HS i'm getting kicked out of my house #and even if i do go to college i'm probably gonna have to work to support myself. but i'm permanently exhausted #i don't think i can actually SURVIVE having a job AND having to go to uni at the same time. but i have no choice #being 18 feels more like a death sentence than an actual celebration. i'm going to be alone on my birthday anyway #i'll have ash around for a bit but otherwise? nothing but my cats for company #the adults are going to a concert. i don't really care (we don't get along well) but at the same time it hurts a bit #i guess i'll just. watch a movie. eat takeout. cry a bit probably. #i have school that day too. #i'm not even going to do my normal thing of baking cookies for my birthday probably #i usually give the cookies to my friends. i don't have friends i'd want to give them to this year. #and everyone i would lives in other countries or super far away from me :) #sorry im actually kind of very sad about turning 18 lol

[get-more-bald]

Every Christmas i wake up and wish i didn't exist for a couple of days

#the stress!!!!! #the sensory overload!!!!! #i worry about presents and sometimes i dont even buy them and then i feel like shit all the time! #well i feel like shit even now #because sensory overload + stress made me cry and i ran away to my room and now EVERYONES IN A SHITTY MOOD #i mean my sibling who should fucking leave me alone btw #im gonna. uh #and i didnt even hear her go into my room judt now #bc i have my headphones on #because. obv. sensory overload. #so im listening to gutalax which is kinda perfect for this occasion. i should bikini kill someone. #mine #actually autistic #i just fucking KNOW its because autism. fuck #crying

[alphalesbian]

.

#................................................................................................................................. #so another update on my skin i guess . . . #about a week in and its basically everywhere on my chest and terribly on my back and legs and butt : - ( worst its gotten so far is itchy as #all hell on my side but thankfully so far thats really it....... ive maybe been tired n had a sore ish throat like when i first felt it but #not really anymore.... now its just my skin looking. awful lol everywhere #but....... i found out about this skin thing that looks Exactly The Same As Mine Looks Right Now and that ! was a major relief considering ! #its not a serious skin thing and my symptoms almost entirely align with the process so far ! ! ! #as much as i am still skeptical im just. i dont know that helped a lot i guess. everything else id found n been thinking it could be were #oretty serious things for the most part which honestly raqcking my brain about that for the past week uh #probably wasnt the best mental health decision to make OTL............... #still gonna go up the mountain for some cheap blood work tommorow..... then back to urgent care on wed/thurs to really make sure its nothing #serious which will also immediately improve my headspace regardless so. thats good too #and the help from my best friend . . . . . . . . . i am so so lucky to have him he is literally so special. i was right at the bottom and he #didnt even hesistate . crazy how that can feel so nice and hurt so much at the same time #hurt really from just honestly how immensely empty i was and how much i really needed that support #still though absolutely heated from. the initial situation and how my main support just kinda fucked off in response lmao! but #all that greif and sadness and ugly crying aside today has been a mostly good day in comparison. let alone finding out something it could #absolutely very well be and its Not Super Serious Necessarily and Pretty Common all things considered #is a big plus. . . . a lot to think about and a lot to do as always just really really gotta keep my head on my shoulders . . . . . . . . . #okay and honestly all that aside ladies it looks. so crazy. i really actually maybe am gonna take pictures of this to really document it nd #even if its a serious thing its like. so crazy looking #feels pretty ridiculous dont get me wrong it literally feels like my skin is fucked up where its raised n swollen but the pattern is #idk medically fascinating to me i guess is the best way to say it lol #how would that be for my first selfie in like 4 years teehee 😌 anyways enough of my ranting but in case anyones interested here ya go . . .

[saltinesinsoup]

god. man.

#jayventing #absolutely fucked driving earlier good lord. got stuck behind a truck and i couldnt merge into the lane next to me and there were cars behin #behind me and i was crying and i felt like my mom would not stop yelling at me even if she wasnt and then i cried even more when i got onto #another street with tight lanes and because my mom hasa fucking suv for no goddamn reason it was so fucking big and my mom kept yelling at #me and i asked if there was somewhere nearby where we could pull over because i was fucking crying and didnt want to drive and she was like #no youre gonna get us home. and then i got home and sobbed. and im still teary about it. and now i really dont want to go driving anymore #like. if there was a license that was just. drive myself around to a few various places that dont involve the highway and there were no cars #and all the lanes were a good size and i had a small car i think i could do it. #but oh my god. that was fucking horrible #i think i need to just get a driving instructor instead because driving with my parents is the worst fucking thing ever #im remembering now why i was so hesitant to start driving in the first place (fear of. fucking crashing) #so uh. god #and i also have math i dont understand so im gonna get some help for it tomorrow because i cannot fucking handle the godamn polar grid today #and also like. i clearly Was Not as ready as i thought i was and instead of letting me switch so i wasnt fucking crying while driving my mom #made me keep going. i cant do this man

[faeriegirlf]

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅

you’d been having a rough day to say the least. you woke up late, starbucks had messed up your order and your red lingerie had bled through your white clothes. and now rafe was just being a dick.

“ i do so much for you alright, f-fuck im a proactive type of person okay? “ he stutters out, floppy bangs sticking to his sweaty forehead. he’d been going off his rocker recently, his dad dying, and sarah going off with those fucking pouges. “ i mean, fuck! i give you my credit card every goddamn day! “ he yells out, emphasizing it by a loud fist to the table

“ you’re jus’ so mean! “ you cry out, eyes turning glossy quickly, “ all you ever do is yell! “ the tears started pouring out before either of you guys could even register.

he sighs upon seeing the tears, “ alright c’mere kid yeah? “ he mumbles out, wrapping him big arms around your back, pulling you into one of those nice, comforting hugs you get from a close relative after not seeing them for a while. “ i-i didn’t mean to upset you okay? “ he whispers with a small kiss to your scalp, “ ‘m just trying to explain, yeah? you stress me out kid, “ he says, all signs of annoyance leaving him

“ o-okay, “ the words leave your mouth as a small whisper. his strong hand goes to your jaw, forcing you to look up at him

“ gonna be good f’me yeah? “ he whispers quietly, pushing you backwards onto his bed. you agree with a small nod

“ uh, good. ‘cus y’know i don’t just let, my girl just be a little brat yeah? gotta show her who her fuckin’ dad is “ he says, the mean tone returning for a moment with a condescending laugh. his hands slowly unbuckling his belt…

#🌟 #rafe cameron prompt #rafe cameron smut #rafe cameron #outer banks #let’s say we got mega dicked down

[evie-sturns]

Intersection - Matt Sturniolo

summary: after not driving for a few months, you accidentally rear end matts car at an intersection.

contains: crying, swearing, comforting, angry!matt.

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i haven't drove in the past 6 months that i've been away in Florida, but now i'm back in Boston im slowly starting to get back into it.

8:37pm

i flick my left indicator, swinging round the corner as frank ocean blares through my small white car.

the road is slippery due to the weather recently, the small puddles on the concrete shining from the illuminating street lights above.

i hum to the song as i accelerate, pressing my foot harder on the small pedal as i keep a reasonable distance between the grey van in front.

i check my wing mirrors, there's no cars behind me so i speed up, closing the distance between me and the car ahead.

theres an upcoming intersection, the traffic light is green, i look down at my cupholder for a split second, my bottle of water splashing up out of the bottle with every rock i drive over, "shit.." i mutter, reaching a hand down and fiddling with the cap.

i gasp as i look up, the light is red and the car which is 3 feet in front of me has come to a complete halt.

my heart drops as my mind goes blank.

"oh my god." i shout as the front of my car smashes into this grey van.

i sit in silence for a few seconds, the van drives to the side of the empty road, i follow and park behind, my heart thumps as i drive in total shock,

i've never been in a car accident, not even close.

i instantly start to freak out, how could i not in this situation. i turn off my car, stepping out and wiping my face with my sleeve as i take in panicked breaths.

the door of the other car swings open, a man steps out, he's wearing cargo jeans, a grey crewneck and an assortment of jewellery.

i've definitely seen him on tiktok before..?

i walk over to him, "i'm so fucking sorry my insurance will pay for everything" i ramble, the brunette replies "i know."

his voice is stern, he's definitely mad. i bite my nails as my leg shakes on the spot.

"how the fuck do you not brake? you were a solid 5 meters behind me and yet your car rams the back of mine? are you fucking stupid?" the boy says, staring into my eyes.

"my water spilt and i thought the light was going to stay green, i'm so sorry." i say back, my voice shaking as i start to cry.

he stays silent for a few seconds, scanning my face which is now flushed everywhere with a couple of tears falling from my eyes.

"stop, just give me your insurance details and number" he sighs,

after giving him my number and insurance details i start again, "ill call you an uber, im really sorry." i say, pulling out my phone and attempting to turn it on, soon realising it ran out of battery an hour ago.

"dont worry about it, my cars driveable." he says, i nod. the whole front of my car is squashed, including the engine.

"you got a way home?" the boy asks,

"i mean uh- no but i can just walk." i say with a small sniff,

"come on, ill drive ya." the brunette says, taking my hand and walking me towards his van, the back of it has a medium sized indent, nothing too major though.

"you don't have to i swear its not a far walk" i protest, "i'm not gonna let you walk, honestly its okay." he says, climbing into the drivers side.

i get into the passengers side, he pulls out his phone "i'm gonna call someone to tow your car okay?" he says, his voice soft.

"yeah- okay." i reply.

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i've found out this boys name is matt, i knew it was something like that, we're now pulling into my street after apologising thousands of times. aside from the whole 'ramming his car' we clicked well together.

i point out my house, matt jumps out first to let me out of his van, "are you okay now?" he asks with a small laugh, "yeah- i think." i reply with a guilty expression plastered on my face.

"can i have a smile?" he asks, i force a pathetic smile and matt nods.

"ill text you tomorrow, we should see each other sometime?" he asks nervously,

did he just ask me out?

"yes! yeah i'd like that." i say,

matt leans down, giving me a hug,

"i'm sorry for making you cry."

"what? no! i'm sorry for rear-ending your car!" i reply, pulling away from the hug and giving him a warm smile.

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#nick sturniolo #sturniolo smut #matt sturniolo x reader #sturniolo x reader #chris sturniolo x reader #chris sturniolo #matt sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #sturniolo fanfic #sturniolo #matthew sturniolo #matt sturniolo imagine