#thank u to queerxqueen for the screencap ily man tyty

[reggies-eyeliner]

Will's admitting to himself that Mike will always love El more. He's saying that he's hates who he is so much that he'd just get it over with, to lose hope that he could ever possibly end up with Mike. El is happier with Mike, and Mike is happier with El, this is what he believes.

Will wants to lose Mike.

Every season he has always wanted Mike. He's always wanted to be able to call Mike his own, to be able to be Mike's friend, his best friend, his lover, just his. That was all he ever wanted. Ever.

To rip off the band-aid? To say that he doesn't need Mike, doesn't want Mike, doesn't deserve Mike speaks volumes.

Will had been robbed of so much of his childhood, so many memories and so many moments that he feels that he deserves to be robbed of this, too.

And he still forces a smile because he has to make Mike believe that he is okay with this, because he feels that he's already been the cause of so much trouble-- that by giving up what he needs the most to someone that he loves the most, he is balancing at least a fraction of what he thinks he's done wrong.

anyways I'm going to be crying on the floor for the next 5-6 business years

#byler analysis #thank u to queerxqueen for the screencap ily man tyty #BUT NOW IM GONNA UH. GONNA GO CRY. #byler #stranger things s4 #byler van scene #I CANT FATHOM THOUGH #WILL HATES WHO HE IS IM #i wanna give him a juice box #juice box juice box juice box #i love him your honor he deserves the world #if yk this is a repost NO YOU DONT #NO YOU DONT YOU DONT KNOW AT ALL #like a repost of #my own post .