#28 is going to be better!!

[roguestarsailor]

he can’t hurt me! i am lovable! i am living my life the way i want to! i dont need to be like them to feel valid! i love my body! i will not stay in m head! i will be excited for them! for everyone! i am ok!! IM GOOD IM COOL IM CHILL IM OK OK OK OK IM GOOD IM GOOD IM GOOD -- words i am screaming to tame the loud demon voices of anxiety and heartache and shame down because i just agreed to watch a movie with a group of people and he will be there (with his new gf prob) and i am feeling much more confident these days and i will not spend anymore time being sad and hung up on this one dude. this city is still scary but i’m meeting so many people and i know what i love and want and i am going to trust the process. i spent most of my 27th year alive pining over this dude --for what??? theres so much life and i wasted spent too much on him and the shame i felt because i still feel like the little fat girl who can’t be desired. i think im at a point where ill just accept that i will always have a belly and lots of fat and its not healthy for me to starve and change myself in that way anymore especially because i want to be alive and do things (i made a mega list that makes me excited again!). im imaging a life where i am just me with this body that i have now and this not-picture perfect face and i’ll find some wonderful handsome man who will love me as i am; because imagine how relieve i’ll be that i dont have to obsess over calories and working out! but i also know i am going to be very happy just having solid friendships and making new friends/meeting new people and i will build a small and sustainable life regardless if i have romantic love. i’m reading more about asexuality and it feels good and im going to build a life i love!!!!

#amandathoughts #i am going to be confident #and firm about MY WANTS #and my life can be beautiful #he cannot hurt meeee #i am not going to stay in m head about this #im not!! #no staying in my head!! #no staying in head #we're going to accomplish so much this year!! #28 is going to be better!! #i feel independent and alive and i want to ride this as long as possible

[moeblob]

Harvey telling the farmer it's their time for the annual check up before knowing them for a year is always funny to me. But the fact I keep drawing Asmodeus♡ with a big mouth and fangs made me read the dialogue more like "that's scary, please stop" rather than "okay onto the next part".

Anyway, I have never drawn Harvey before so please enjoy my attempt. (gives him a lil gray. as a treat. to me. the gray is for me.)

#stardew valley #farmer asmodeus♡ #sdv harvey #i need to actually use the wiki for heart events and go on a spree lmao #im actually p high up on hearts for ... a lot of people ? but have seen so few heart events for em #cause im too busy doing fishing requests or the bonkers hey i need 100 amaranth on the fall request board thing #where its bigger tasks #cause hoo boy that took way too much of my time and i didnt really get to socialize much with the town except for randomly in passing #and so the relationships kinda halted progress mid to late fall #BUT ITS FINE GUYS #I finished fall ! and on fall 28 im proud to announce #asmo is no a good level 10 fisher #and i would like to say that its really funny that my last request was for a salmon on fall 28 #and im like dude requesting this you better be glad i have confidence in getting this in one day #since it was willy i was just sitting outta the shop fishing and then realized wait a second #i have about 7000g and an iridium rod is 7500g #so i caught the salmon and a few more to boost me up to 7500g and as soon as i go in to buy the rod #i look at my level and oh nice its now level 10 #happy level 10 have a new rod as a treat i guess asmo.... you have 131g now have fun

[obiscribbles]

Week 28 - October 8th, 2023 'Moving Forward' - Colony House Spotify / YouTube

My favourite Obi-Wan outfit honestly. He looked so good in the blue, so I just had to draw this. And this song just felt so right for him.

Despite what he says, he truly is rather pretty. 

Enjoy!

View a week early on my Patreon!

#the sky was going to be different #but then I overlayed by accident and liked it better #happy accidents #and this is for today because I love this look #and it is birthday week #so I get to be picky XD #obi wan kenobi #fanart #star wars #kenobi series #my art #week 28

[elllteo]

Creators I love you but it's time to wake up

Among rumors about our tumblr user data being sold off to Midjourney/Generative AI, recent Extremely transphobic events (that have been ongoing) coming to a head, another extremely concerning internet censorship bill being pushed in upper levels of government, and a general air of frustration over how the site belongs to and is operated by perhaps the second stupidest CEO (second only to twitters own) of our age, I'm very done with the last few vestiges of what the old internet held for artists.

And if you're reading this, you probably are too.

I know we're tired. We are all tired. It is not always viable to pack up shop and move, again and again and again.

From tumblr to twitter to anywhere else we've ever grown up posting, things no longer work. Our audiences are kneecapped by aggressive and hostile algorithms, our reach is abysmal - if we aren't shadow-banned or silenced for one (transphobic) reason or another, we're thrust into an ever growing pit of hostility where the only thing that drives clicks is fighting and contention.

We're tired. We're so fucking tired. We aren't businesses, we aren't content mills, we cannot keep this pace that modern social media has set for us, to wring every ounce of creativity out of us to profit from and leave us rotting.

The key to staying afloat here, and I cannot stress this enough, is to stay connected to your peers.

Pack up and move as units if you must. Exodus from the sites that are killing us. Push your entire friend group of artists to move from one site to the next that promises you a kinder experience.

Art drives movements, it drives change, it is all that encompasses being human. If you take that away from the shitty places, they will be left with nothing but a cesspit of inhumanity and the people who follow you will be more incentivized than ever to move with you.

Yes, this is terrifying. There are no guarantees. There never was, and never are, and never will be.

But stay connected. Stay human.

Support each other and be willing to hold hands and jump when we all - as a group - need to jump from the flames we're all trying to convince ourselves wont kill us before rescue comes.

Rescue isn't coming, rescue will be found hand in hand with each other. I'm offering you my hand, please take it. There's always a new start, there are always helping hands reaching for you. You have to look up from the doom-scroll long enough to see and take them.

#art communities #art community #teo talks #sorry I have a Lot of opinions about posting art online I've been doing this since I was 14 and I'm 28 this year #I have watched the rise and fall of social media titans and you have to understand the ONLY thing that will keep you afloat #is keeping connected to your peers #we have to move as units and we have to stay together and we have to support each other #your following is not stability. your friendships are. #thats why you hear about networking. thats ceo talk for friendships. connections. #you have to have enough connections to build your own support web on the chance that everything goes to shit. yes its hard work. it sucks. #but it is a necessity. twitter isn't getting better. its not going back to how it was. neither is DA or tumblr. its not happening. #If you put all your eggs in one or two precarious baskets and both fall. you will be shit out of luck! thats reality #there is hope to be found but you have to be realistic and understand that you NEED to build up a presence elsewhere. even if its hard. #I want to help you if I can!!!! bluesky is a really solid twitter alternative!!! #ive heard good things about cohost as a tumblr alternative!!!! #sheezy and inkblot are both indie sites currently being developed by and for other creatives. support them! #they won't be perfect until - and UNLESS - you do! #anyways sorry I will step off my soapbox now Im just frustrated with the state of everything

[mexashepot]

Idk who needs to hear that but you can definitely make friends at older ages as well. Do not lose hope.

Life is not over when you turn 20.

I have made some very profound friendships after the age of 25 and I am sure that even once I turn 30 I will still make new friends.

That was not what I thought though when I turned 20. I stopped making new friends then (something that had come very easily and naturally to me before that) and I was deeply saddened by that fact thinking that that's it, from now on, new people will no longer make it into my life.

I am so happy to have been wrong.

Do not lose hope, life is not over once you get older.

#I am writing this after having been in a terrible mental state #and being brought out of it with the help of a friend I made at the ripe age of 28 #and I spent my early 20's being heartbroken over the fact I was probably not going to be able to make new friends anymore #I am so glad to have been wrong #personal #(granted i am still not doing well for obvious reasons but I am certainly better than I was).

[neighborly-melange]

#hay lin #w.i.t.c.h. #adult au #she gets offended if you call tetsujin 28-go gigantor #and yes she's an akira the manga is better than the movie kinda gal

[deep-spacediver577]

Me whenever the Danny Phantom series mentions Humans dying or Ghosts dying:

#DSD577 #Danny Phantom #meme #I never got why dying was a big deal in the series to be completely honest #wouldn't dying mean becoming a ghost? #shouldn't have the whole plot in Ep 28/29 have the spirits that died in it? #not comfortable with this implying certain spirits go to a better place #what about the Dairy King? he didn't seem like an awful dude... #WTF was going on in Ep 36 anyway? #Then theres the weird aspect that ghosts can die #Ep 8 flat out stated it #and Ep 16 tryed selling it as believable #like what was the point of being dead and being able to die? #was there another place worser then the GZ itself? #The series confuses me... #Also I like to remind y'all that Tucker Phantom is in the GZ #along with the other ghosts in that Ep

[ratajota]

I changed colleges to study visual arts. dropped sociology after five years and being close to graduating, and yes it's as painful and humiliating as it sounds. but at this point if it swims like a duck (an artist) and quacks like a duck (an artist) the only thing left to do is to surrender to obvious destiny

#it's really funny to me. the transgender. people known to b eok with major life changes and decisions #to have been oblivious to this so long. but not really it all started in 2022 if im being honest #nothing that i studied resonated with me at all and anything close to actually making the sociology happen just wasnt enjoyable at all #it dawned on me last year when i didn't enjoy collaborating at a local trans org. neither in data processing or designing tools and stuff #and like. that was exactly what i dreamed of whne i was 18. and i just couldnt wait to go home and do literally anything else #also i just get stupider each passing year i couldnt pull it off anymore. all my last turned in work was embarrassing as fuck #sociology aborted me. thats it #in 4 years i'll be 28 so what's better than being 28 and doing what you can actually do and have new knowledge regarding it

[rawliverandgoronspice]

Small Tears of the Kingdom changes that could have done a lot

(at least according to me, the one singular flawed person writing this post)

In my desperate attempt to close off the Tears of the Kingdom season on my side of the internet (failing so far), I wanted to join the proposals of a couple of small restructurations/rewrites I've seen on my dashboard. These wouldn't change much of the game, but enough to boisten some of the themes and make the experience both more open and more streamlined. They try to ignore a lot of my own biases towards what I would have loved to see explored within the game and focus on what already exists (I said try). These changes are not only story-driven but also focus on quest design and narrative reward logic, which puzzled me even more than the story itself.

It's obviously not the end all be all of everything, there's a ton of small things that aren't fully adressed, etc.

Here are the 3 main tenants of this proposal:

We know about Fake Zelda by the end of the tutorial section. We see glimpses of her all the way, even though Rauru doesn't seem to be aware she's here, and most of our obstacles come from us trying to reach and save her. Then, by the end, she tries to kill us in the Temple of Time, and we realize she's fake and a lure (it could be a small mini boss, nothing too severe; just something to prove we understand combat). It could also be an earlier occasion to have Ganondorf shit-talk us using his creepy voice through her body, that could build up a better sense of rivalry going forward and make the betrayal of him using her body sting much more than it does in the current version.

Ganondorf, using Fake Zelda, tries to antagonizes each region of Hyrule towards their princess --and, the very important part, it works. The kingdom is splintering apart as he plans his return and his invasion. The goal in each region is not to vaguely solve the weird local problem, but, using the regional hero that knows and trusts Link, to prove that whatever is happening isn't Zelda's fault. This allows to build some sense of tension and stakes, makes us deeply empathize with an overwhelmed Zelda trying to step up as a leader in the aftermath of the Calamity and isn't here to defend herself (and then when we learn where she is and what she did it hurts so much more). The camp where Purah is could also double-down as the beating heart of Hyrule trying to reconnect with the suspicious regions suffering the turmoil isolated from each other.

The Dragon's Tears questline is overhauled, and that can happen in two simultaneous ways. Some of these memories remain Zelda's, but now only some of them, perhaps those who are connected to Zelda's decision to become a dragon without ever spilling it out (and could even focus more on her insecurities as a young ruler and her relationship to her ancestors), remain sprinkled into the land to reward those who want to understand more about her motivations. But now, each of the secret stones collected along the way also function as tears, and instead of being treated to another delicious serving or The Imprisoning War? The Demon King??? we get to discover a little bit more of the mystery. The way it could work is quite simple: the Sage introduces us briefly to their own perspective into the war outside of a voiced cutscene to give the writing more flexibility regarding what the player already did to avoid repetition ( :) :) ), and then plays a pre-determined cutscene in a linear fashion, which is one of Rauru's memories embedded within the secret stone and tells the story of the fall of his kingdom to Ganondorf. (also bonus: now Zelda's tears don't embody the entire kingdom anymore, which was very strange and never sat right with me)

So what we did is to separate the different stories while intertwining them: Zelda's struggles and sacrifice on one hand, Rauru's regrets and bitterness on the other (lololol sorry), and Ganondorf's attempt to break the kingdom apart --which would feed into both Zelda's anxieties and Rauru's long winded defeat. The bonus to this approach would also be to question Hyrule's legitimacy: the various races would then need to decide, after having actively questioned the young princess, that they actually still believe in Hyrule and a future they all get to live in together.

This would also give a little bit more teeth to Ganondorf's motivation, his deep envy for the power of Hyrule and the fact that his own people chose it over him, let alone everyone else. As for the Link's motivation, trying to have everyone see that Zelda is worth it and stop that evil force from shattering her image while also acknowledging the faults of the past could make the player invested in wanting to bring Zelda back down after everything she went through and all the sacrifices she made to prove herself a worthy ruler (Rauru's forcefulness in assimilating the realm under his banner even though he meant well being his actual character flaw that Mineru could eventually acknowledge, to give her something to do instead of... feeling bad for no clear reason!! Also just *give emotional weight* to that time she holds Rauru's hand again when she swears fealty to Link, this was so simple and obvious how was it not given the time it needed for us to care about what was lost!!! aaa)

Yes, it's still about the power of love and sacrifice over ruthless domination, but now characters have a little bit more agency and we feel a little less like they have a zonai knife under their throats the entire time forcing them to always be happy and enthusiastic about swearing fealty to the immortal kingdom. They find out about the past but get to redefine their future instead of falling over themselves in worship; literally using pieces and bits of the past in the form of zonai tech to rebuild their own kingdom and their future dreams. Together they are stronger; but because they all chose to believe in that mantra instead of having it being imposed by long dead kings and faceless ancestors expecting them to die for a war that shouldn't concern them.

(Also, obviously, the gerudo region has to reckon with the Demon King being particularly angry at them for betraying him, and them deciding to reject his rule a second time and embrace their own path, because in the original TotK Ganondorf being gerudo could be removed entirely without any consequence, which is pretty sad since it's basically an enormous part of what makes him compelling as a villain for a lot of people and keeps him from being a completely generic Nintendo stock villain!!)

And honestly? Beyond a couple of dialogue changes and slightly different setups and reasonings for Link to do certain things, especially in the various regional quests? Most of everything else could stay roughly the same. The bones are here! They're just arranged in a really weird way.

(except for Ganondorf surviving as a big bad dragon in the end through the sacrifice of his mind to immortality because that's just much more interesting than turning him into a supernova --but that's really a bonus honestly)

#totk #totk spoilers #tears of the kingdom #thoughts #zelda #rauru #ganondorf #because we can access information from different angles doesn't mean we should access it whenever imo #not if it fucks up the pacing and our understanding of plot characters and story #also to pace the story from between challenges instead of shoving it all down in your mouth if you do all the memories at once #is just better user experience imo #especially for a zelda game that attempts to pace itself like a legend #so trial and tribulation -> new development #not new development because you tried to paraglide into a pond missed but like you have 1 heart left but you ate 28 apples ok let's go #and then you do that 10 more times in a row #anyway!!! #just thoughts

[cicada-candy]

Okay, so this. Isn't really what I set out to do?? Bcs I still don't have a like. Solid idea in my head for what a witch-er version of jb would look like?? I guess?? But I still wanted to do Something, and I blacked out, and this was in my files.

Also mephisto's laugh was written backwards on purpose but I retrospect it just kinda looks like a scribble lmfao so make of that what you will.

Textless versions under the cut:

🎵🎶Why do I keep making comics when i have no idea what im doing🎶🎵

And also have Real People Things to do.

Eh whatever I had fun lmao

#I said Monday and it is currently 00:28 Monday so uh!!! Sure lmao #my art #alot of things id do differently if i redrew this but yk what i ✨️learned things✨️ so #i like the art of the first one more but i think the second one reads better panel to panel #ghost rider #fanart #hyper-hellfire #marvel comics #johnny blaze #mephisto marvel #also ik my signature is ✨️Bold And Bright✨️ i was tryna hide how busted that face looks #accidentally Barbara Streisand-ed myself #and am far too lazy to re-save it #might edit it later idk #tw blood #cw blood #tw self harm #okay i have one (1) cohesive thought and it whos FIRST PLAN when they hear that a loved one is terminal is Mhm Yep lets go /Sell My Soul./ #probably not someone with no experience thats for sure #this is also kind of a precursor to my last piece i guess lol

[boku-no-anime-phase]

Do you ever just Cry

#i thought too hard about them and made myself cry #Frieren has literally never loved a person like she loves Fern. and Fern has no idea #Frieren bends over backwards for Fern. she has willingly outgrown herself to be a better parent #she's not great at this parenting thing but she's doing her darnedest #and just... #over the 28 episodes you can see Fern go from 'i don't know if she likes me at all' to just loving her wholeheartedly #and feeling secure in Frieren's love for her #and you can see Frieren going from 'this child is inscrutable and inconvenient for me' to 'i am brimming with pride' #Fern is on the cusp of not needing Frieren anymore #soon she will be independent in her own right and gain the wisdom that age brings to humans #I'm fascinated by this relationship #by the love and trust and understanding that's developed between them #it's SO well written #sometimes it feels like the romance is the only relationship any show spends time developing #but tbh the relationship between Fern and Frieren is the one I'm most invested in in this story #Frieren became a parent and it changed her #Frieren

[dwtdog]

Man dream really has suffered more than jesus

Also mother Mary = drom to me

Also I'm putting all my thoughts in one cause I feel bad for spamming your inbox

Also I don't think caiti is coming back

And church brings out the worst in me in true Christian fashion (by birth only)

I've forgotten everything I wanted to say I'll be back

-sea anon

dream continuously suffers more than jesus and drom deserves a million roses god bless

#cq.asks #sea anon #idk i think caiti will end up saying somethinggg else #i just have no clue what it’s going to be augh #also 28 dollar sandwhich had better be the best damn sandwhich everrr like bro

[arvoze]

pray for me for artfight this year btw i can feel the fear already

#i say this in the sense of like. peopl attack me so much on artfight its so scary #(in a fun way! i am very thankful) #i just fear that as my name grows and grows more peopel will come my way JHDFGKJKJGKFG #(bc last year people would attack me and say hey i like your pmd ocs and im liek w!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ive only been posting for like 8 months!!!!!!!!!!! #now there's so much more going on!!!!!!!!!!!!) #id like to try to attack a lot this year... last year i only did 28 i got so burnt out #but i think this year im gonna be a lot better :-]

[anghraine]

One of the things I like about canon Georgiana is that she's not really the eager Darcy/Elizabeth shipper she's often depicted as. It's not that I don't ship it myself, because it is 100% my ship to rule all other ships, but I like that Georgiana is ... normal about it?

At least, normal for a very anxious and insecure sixteen-year-old.

She likes Elizabeth because Darcy likes Elizabeth. We're told that he has described her so favorably to Georgiana that she (Georgiana) can't help but find her lovely and amiable. But this is a byproduct of Georgiana's profound respect for Darcy more than her understanding of Elizabeth. Georgiana likes her and thinks she's nice (and vice-versa), and she's excited by the news of their engagement and hopes Elizabeth will like her, which is ... also very normal.

And she's surprised to the point of being nearly alarmed by Elizabeth's willingness to tease(!!!) Darcy in the early days of the marriage, but Elizabeth and Georgiana do become quite close—as much as Darcy hoped for—and Georgiana is able to adapt and learn about marriage from Elizabeth.

IDK, I find it more endearing for Georgiana's response to evolve from "if my brother likes her, so do I" to a real and strong relationship as sisters, than to have instant easy rapport and a strong investment in a romance she knows very little about. And it does strike me as more natural and realistic for her to react that way.

#this isn't meant as an attack on the 2005 specifically bc i think everything from the 1995 on has done it in some way #but it makes the most sense to me that georgiana's main investment at pemberley is pretty much entirely via darcy #and she doesn't really care /that/ much about elizabeth bc she doesn't know her very well #but she thinks elizabeth is nice and it's very exciting that her brother is going to MARRY that nice girl :))) #and then the reality of elizabeth is a bit shocking but they still end up super close #and georgiana learns that it's one thing for her to be deferential towards a 28-y-o brother but wives are different #which seems a valuable lesson—esp for someone who tends to the meek and could be easily domineered if not taught better #and i just like it a lot! #anghraine babbles #austen blogging #georgiana darcy #elizabeth bennet #fitzwilliam darcy #austen fanwank #long post

[cobraonthecob]

apologies to all my followers who do not know what f1 is. this fucking rich man's sport has grabbed my brain and is not willing to let go

I am. several months late but my thoughts have been marinating this so um. here we go. a formula 1 post about Nyck De Vries because i really think he deserves a lot better but i understand this sport is cutthroat and red bull happily tosses drivers if they see them as underperforming, which i get. if you underperform, you get the chopping block.

That being said...Nyck being dropped ten races into a season feels like a punch to the face, especially after m/zepin, who at least got a season in (no surprise, money talks big in this rich man's sport, especially if your russian oligarch father sponsors the team) despite posting in his instagram story a video of him groping a woman on his public account. classless.

I will say, Nyck did start off the season coming off as highly arrogant, not wanting to be called a rookie because he is 28 and has been test driving for years (okay fair, he could just be referred to as 'new to officially f1 racing' but that's too long), and thought he was going to be the team lead because of that experience. I do think that was the worst thing he did; was to try and brand himself as not a rookie and thinking he was team lead over Yuki Tsunoda, who has been at alphatauri for much longer than he has. In the eyes of fans, this damned him (seriously, why did no one at PR try to stop him from thinking he - the new guy - would be team lead), and his racing results were lacking.

I honestly think that they should have waited out the entire season to judge him, and that alphatauri had no business tossing Nyck for underperforming in the worst car on the grid. I think that Perspective on youtube has some good points in this video about nyck, and I can't remember at the moment if it was perspective or another youtuber who talked about Nyck in a respectful way, but one stated that in their opinion, drivers should at least have two seasons to be properly judged on their performance. Given how cutthroat redbull is, I say one is enough of a judgement, since they seem to be waiting or searching for the next driver that can measure up to max.

I also do think that Nyck got screwed over by transferring from williams to alpha tauri, instead of signing onto alphatauri, but i wonder if the only reason why alphatauri wanted him specifically was because he's only three inches taller than yuki and they wanted to give yuki preference on the car, rather than say, designing the car around logan or oscar (let's just pretend that these three new drivers are all up for grabs, i don't know how or who gets which driver and i'm not part of that world), who are much taller. though, i'll admit, that thought kind of gets thrown out the door once alpha tauri decided to take on daniel ricciardo and later liam lawson, both of whom are quite tall (and is something mentioned in f1's analysis about alpha tauri)

There's also Nyck being very much hyped over his first race in F1, when he had to stand-in for Alex Albon (who is 6'1, keep that in mind), managed to score P9 in his first official F1 race, and it's not an easy feat for someone who is a test driver, as he couldn't get out of the car at the end of the race, as he stated he was unable to lift his arms. It's one thing if he had just managed to stay in the race, but to be able to score P9 while being pushed to his physical limit. Yes, williams may have the advantage of being perfect for monza, but to manage to climb P9 in a car at the bottom in the constructors' championship and it's not a car that suits you - the original driver being 7 inches taller - I'd say that's pretty impressive to pull off.

and I think that the hype probably put a massive weight on his shoulders. He had so many expectations for himself, the team had expectations for him, and the fans had expectations, and then a series of unfortunate events of getting a car that is fighting to be the worst on the grid and unfortunate incidents leads to him being shown the door.

I think Nyck would've thrived a lot better if he remained at a team whose car he would at least be familiar with, and at a team that would not toss him to the side for underperforming. But unfortunately, time marches on, and I can only wish Nyck the best in life, and that this becomes a cautionary tale for anyone who wants to sign onto red bull/alphatauri.

The overall conclusion is that he deserved a better team and that I can only hope anyone who is similar to him (i.e. been in motorsport for so long that your F1 debut is when you're over the age of 23 and not having a rich parent to buy + protect your place on the team) will learn from the errors Nyck made (the arrogance, specifically).

#nightfalcon posts #formula 1 #f1 #nyck de vries #my overall conclusion is that he deserved better #but i'm not going to paint him as a sad little meow meow or some shit #but i feel a ton of sympathy for him #also the way f1 red bull and alphatauri handled him being kicked out was horrendous #anyways motorsport will never truly be one based on merit #we know this because m/zepin got a full season #idk what's going on in the water with american caricature logan sargeant but he isn't getting shown the boot #despite not performing well in comparison to alex albon #could you imagine the story of nyck if he was successful though #he waited for so long to be officially racing for f1 #and at 28 years old he achieved it

[tealfruit]

I'm just constantly on my bullshit these days. brain said fuck you feel everything and think about everything

#nerd alert #i feel like im going thru my midlife crisis early #im 28 years old thinking 'i need to get in better shape so i dont get all run down as i age' #like damn i should get on a workout machine so i can both get swole and also so i dont like. idk end up using a walker at 50 #my dad had really bad knees and had at least one knee replacement probably both bc of his 30yrs of factory jobs lifestyle #and because one time he had to snatch his step-grandson out of the path of a moving vehicle and fell hard on his knee when he did #and also probably my insistence on riding around on his back like a pony when i was like 3. i have vague memories of that #sorry dad #anyway i dont have a factory job or kids but i probably will end up diabetic and i just. wanna keep my physical health as long as i can #im like lowkey paranoid about death and it would be cool to worry less about my body breaking down through my own negligence #ik disability can happen to anyone for any reason but i wanna do what i can to keep myself able-bodied #like if i become physically disabled then i become physically disabled but i dont want it to be something that i couldve prevented #just by being less negligent of my own health #that said. i just need a whole new set of teeth like at this point it feels like thats inevitable