#(i have one thing i am relatively good at)

[lamortwrites]

I'm gonna get such a bad grade in bleeding

#NORMALLY THIS WOULD BE A GOOD THING #BUT NOT WHEN I AM TRYING TO TAKE A FUCKING BLOOD TEST #AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH #ash.txt #my sample's gonna get rejected bc there's not enough blood and then I'm gonna have to redo and it's gonna be even longer before I can order #hormones! #fuck! #I used ALL THREE LANCETS that they sent lmao you're supposed to be able to fill both tubes with just one prick #relatively they need such little blood the gel was 1ml and the edta was only 0.5ml but I. couldn't even manage to fill both 🙃 #like I didn't even need to use the plasters after there's no way anything else is coming out #I have three tiny pinprick bruises which I KNOW probably means I fucked up and the sample's gonna lyse but w/e I tried #blood tw #ig

[aropride]

my shirt that says "i don't have an eating disorder" has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt

#text #(this is a reference to another tweet i dont have a shirt that says that) #ed tw #weight loss tw #talk about weight in general tw #like yes i eat the same thing almost every single day & have to force myself through every bite #no i dont have an eating disorder #i just have autism and anxiety and its making my life a little bit unliveable at the moment ❤️ #i know i also have arfid which yes is an eating disorder but not like. in the way people probably think of if they look at me during #a meal and judge the way im eating and decide they think i have an ed (which i know is anxiety and nobody does that but still) #but i probably wouldnt get diagnosed bc im at a ''healthy weight'' #even tho i know that for My Body it's not healthy . i was eating relatively well for a brief period of my senior year of high school #& very briefly my freshman year of college #and i got to around [number] both times #and they were both short periods of time so i still dont know what like. a healthy weight would be For Me and for My body #but i know a doctor would tell me my weight rn is Normal and Good and that if i gain weight thats Bad and Wrong #even though i am definitely not eating enough and not getting enough Fuel For My Body To Work Right #its such bullshit. also i hope whoever invented the bmi kills themself #Well anyway. swagever ive been eating one singular slice of pizza for half an hour so i gotta get back to that

[equalseleventhirds]

y'all i am not joking when i say like, treating ur joints nice? god it's good.

like not even in big ways. little ways. wrist wraps for lifting heavy things. ergonomic mouse. squishy silicone wrist rest for ur mousepad. these are all wrist ways, i've been fucking those up lately, but u kno, also like, shoe inserts to give ur ankles support, firmer pillow for ur back, heating pad for when ur joints r stiff, etc etc.

find the little things that help u and get em? you will feel SO much better even if u just do the little tiny things. ur joints are so small but so major. u kno.

#my joints have been so fucked since i was like. a teen. #but doing small things to put less stress on them helps SO MUCH #this post brought 2 u by i have one of those silicone wrist rest thingies and i did a lot of computer work today #and my god. my god. i am havin such a good time relatively speaking. #u don't think it'll make a big difference until u find the way to set it so it suddenly makes a big difference

[leroibobo]

sorry about all that. tbh i'm an -sraeli jew[ish-american] and i genuinely like going out of my way to argue with z-onists because i feel like i can understand how they think. part of the reason i started this blog was also because i wanted to make a database/"memorial" for all of these things i found out about palestine for myself to refer back to (and also bc i genuinely love looking stuff up about buildings and religious sites), so "inserting politics into my posts" is also probably a given in that sense, though i'm aware the issue those two people had was more with that they didn't "agree" with me than about my apparent lack of integrity. i run this blog for me, not to indoctrinate anyone into my belief system like i'm jim jones. i don't have enough "clout" to do that either even if i wanted to.

well, back to regular posts ig.

#if it matters to u where i'm 'really from'. well #my mom is iraqi and ''kurdish'' (not really kurdish but that's the name everyone uses. it's complicated) #my dad is ashkenazi but one side is from romania and he apparently had a sephardic grandparent (which i know is not a 1/16 cherokee sort of #thing bc ive looked into it) #so i'm ashkenazi sephardic and mizrahi #pretty much all my family went there from the 1880s to early 1950s so ive probably had relatives who participated in the thing that #happened in 1948 that was not good and i wont name because i dont want all of this to show up on the search function #but also i have relatives that were kicked out of their home countries/not allowed to be refugees in western countries so ended up there #so i see myself as the end-product of colonialism more than anything #something like only ~%10 of the -sraeli jewish population is of mixed ashkenazi/mizrahi heritage so i am definitely in the minority

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#aaaand that's 2 doctors that think i have bipolar ii 🙃 #so the conceptualize rn would b that my mood is fucked but im using ocd to keep myself contained withing sorta normal parameters #which. i mean. that does kinda fit with observationally. i would create rules around: u arent allowed to get excited abt things u arent #allowed to enjoy things bc u cant handle it. u cant b normal abt how u enjoy things. or bc when i go to enjoy a thing #my mood is caped at being lightly miserable so its like well fuck being around ppl it makes me feel nothing #bc my focus and energy swing around like the light on a lighthouse. and in between that im miserable or feel nothing #and if its true that i am bipolar the reason i never noticed would b bc i very rarely experience euphoria. mostly i have high energy and #dont feel good. just fucking out of control. so mixed episodes i guess. but like idk. i guess i just think of bipolar as being extremely #destructive. and i mean r my mood issues a problem? yes. sometimes a really big problem. but idk. im still resistant to thr idea #lots of ppl get misdiagnosed as bipolar even tho the presentation is so specific. i guess i just doesn't wanna accept it and then have to #have been wrong if i was misdiagnosed. but i mean 2 doctors independently listened to me and thought hm sounds like bipolar so maybe im #just being stubborn. also no one else in my family thst i kno of is bipolar. ive got 2 uncles with adhd but not bipolar relatives #i dunno. i guess it doesn't matter so long as i can get it under control. im good at control. destructively good at control #unrelated #i guess its more that ive never done anything life ruining bc of my moods #mostly i just dont sleep much and make myself crazy. so ill probably die an early death or whatever lack og sleep causes rio #i meant rip lol

[astrxealis]

okay rambles but i started creatively writing in like ... 5th grade? and. oh god just a little encouragement to anyone looking to get into writing or insecure or whatnot, but HELLS, maybe it's to he expected with my (obviously) very young age and inexperience with writing then, but my writing was really. yeah. Yeah. but then i'm what... a lot older now, obviously, and my writing has gotten leagues better. i'm probably not a good example for this bcs childhood years development stuff are different etc etc BUT practicing writing more and whatnot really does go a long way :]

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #my writing in 2020 is a lot different than my writing now even! especially so compared to my writing from 2010s #reading a lot of media is also really important :] i always read a lot of books BUT i only started to really read poetry since the pandemic #which were uh basically my early teenage years so idk if i'm a good example for this bcs childhood brain development and stuff (???) #BUT STILL ..... playing games like ffxiv and being really invested in the lore and writing + reading more poems and being fascinated with #more authors and pieces of literature + expanding my general vocabulary knowledge whatnot ... it all really goes a long way! #oh man i'm pretty proud of myself actually. i do love my writing. as imperfect (as all things are) it is. #i had a lot of Pauses with writing throughout my uhh relatively short life thus far since i'm NOT yet an adult and all aha but yeah! #so bless ffxiv again for bringing back my writing spirit... and other medias and whatever <3 #rn i have to thank bg3 for bringing back my Creative Spirit bcs i've been writing a lot more again and having/working on my creative ideas!! #okay i just wanted to ramble a bit lol ^_^ there! #idk my being a writer is very important to me. and my journey as one too. #i want to make a book one day! most feasibly would be to make a collection of short stories :] a bit similar to 'm is for magic' maybe bcs #i grew up with that lol neil gaiman i adore you <3 #i have a very special original world in my head but i am a little selfish and want to keep them all to myself... oops. or who knows! #anyway i have a lot of ideas and i adore writing and literature sooo much <3 #anyway. okay. leaving it here. #cheering on every writer author whatever out there !!! unless you're a sucky person of course yuck bigots but yeah ^^ <3 #huge writing inspo for me is uhhhhhhhh. thinking #ffxiv! does ffxiv count. esp drk quests. and shb as a whole. and then... edgar allan poe? neil gaiman? yeah? #can't remember anyone else good gods but i love vivid and imaginative storytelling and writing descriptively :] a bit of prose but also #quite simple in its eloquence (???) unsure honestly oh gods anyway BYE rambles over apollo signing off beep boop AGHHHHH (screams)

[orcelito]

OK WAIT here's a ITNL chapter 14 section that's not really spoilers. just a sweet lil section

after this is where it's more Spoilers. but for now. HERE U go. happy birthday vash & also Uhhhh @ ITNL readers I PROMISE i am working on the chapter. things r just hard lol

#speculation nation #itnl shit #spoilers bc of uhh. Conversation. i wanna keep the conversation a secret for now lol #not bad spoilers it's just better digested as a whole probably #ANYWAYS heres some more vash & kaite bro time. god im gonna miss kaite when we gotta say goodbye to him #but he's still here for now and he gets to watch vash tinker with his (very internally fried) arm #before and after this section is vash inspecting the damages & thinking of what he can do to try to fix it #which i do have a lot written. but im gonna be going thru it for accuracy & also keeping in mind the thing from earlier #the possibility that average operational power of his arm comes from vash himself rather than extra batteries #this is with the assumption that a (relatively) small output of electricity is not smth that would fuck with his lifespan #just a normal expenditure of energy. like moving his flesh muscles. just a constant lil stream of electricity that he gets from eating & w/ #no need to dip into his life reserves for it. bc if he did that would get impractical. #idk im going to think about it more. i really dont Need to figure out how his arm works #but listen. ive built a robot before. im in polytech. i wanna think about wtf his arm actually Is #even if this is coming in the context of all the internal wires being blown & a bunch of shit straight up Melted #his arm is... very very blown... he's gonna be going one-arm for a While still lmao. oh well #i think it's a good thing to remember that he is in fact physically disabled. he can make up for it Especially in a fight #but it still will inconvenience him in a lot of ways. cool biotech arm is cool but also it's nice to remember that he Is physically disable #and so i am embracing it. he's tinkering with his arm in his free time but if he has to spend weeks (or months) w/o his prosthetic #well that's just the reality he's gotta live #anywyas. Here u go. snippet. that's a few hundred words so idk if this counts as a snippet but im calling it a snippet. Here You Go

[sirnica]

Words cannot explain the stress frenzy I worked myself into trying to pick a new laptop.

#personal #there are other major sources of stress in my life right now and they have all filtered out into my search for a perfect laptop #i have annoyed every single person in my life with my search #note that i plan to use this laptop mostly so i can write outside of the house and not on my phone #this has been going of for months #i think i might go with this other refurnished hp with a touch screen #it has better battery life than the other one i found (2 to 4 hours sounds relatively reasonable) and it's only 555km #i have 100 in my spare chang piggy bank and I'll get another 50 for my birthday #so it would cost me 400km in total #unless the new one I liked comes back to sale in the next day or two #but i think I'm being a cheap statke again and that's not good because i might get trash again #yes i know it's not that deep #but my sister's husband is sick i am fuckin depressed and i want to kms most days and i hate my job and my exitance #let me care about this laptop because that's like one thing I can fix

[dandyshucks]

trying to decide if i want to show the counselor/therapist my self insert art or not djdkslsl I think it is too obvious that it's Me to ever be able to say "hey look at this cute art i did of two random characters neither of which are me or in any way connected to me :o)" but AUGHGHGH she wants to see more art of mine and most of my art recently (ALL of my art so far this year i think) has been selfship stuff,,,

#i dont think she'd judge but its just... trauma stuff fjdkdl #i am not ''allowed'' to have feelings for anyone ever fjdkdl i am not allowed to feel these things #its amazing I've been able to share selfship stuff at all even relatively anonymously on here tbh sjdkdld #the one time i put up any sort of poster/photos of a couple musicians i rly enjoyed (and wasnt crushing on at all lol) i was put thru hell #just for having a person's face up on my bedroom wall as part of a collage with my art and stuff #so fjfjdkl i never did that again and any selfship stuff w fictional characters has been a guilty secret until last year fjfkdl #WHICH HONESTLY. IS RLY GOOD PROGRESS I GUESS IN SOME WAY? #once again selfshipping and the community has somehow helped me more than any mental health professional ever has LMAO #okay im sharing too much and rambling but dhdksl decisions decisions... i have some art saved to show her maybe #I'll just delete the selfship art out of that phone photo folder if i decide i dont want to share it djdkdl #i would like to though bc goddamn I've made some rly good stuff the past couple months djdkdl #and i never get to share my art w ppl irl so fjfkdl AUGH #dandy.cmd

[aroaceleovaldez]

okay that is all i can muster for tonight. my insanity will have to wait.

#AALV TSATS liveblogging #please just mentally picture me chewing on this book #luckily i dont follow too many RR blogs so i am relatively safe from spoilers *[STARES POINTEDLY AT ALL OF YOU]* #nobody send me spoilers i swear #ftr i am still taking literally everything in this book as Optional Canon #im enjoying the writing so far but. bro. you cant drop a major continuity error like that. its just blatantly incorrect. #and then say it's Totally Canon And Actually A Major Thing For These Characters IT DID NOT HAPPEN!! #IT PHYSICALLY COULD NOT HAVE!! #do not misquote the ancient texts to me witch. i was there when they were written #but Writing Is Decent. thankfully Nico's narrative voice is not as jarring as i was expecting #tbh he's actually written here kind like how i write him which is. delightful vindication. #also if we could STOP RETCONNING THE UNDERWORLD that'd be GREAT #will we ever get one trip to the underworld where it is consistent with literally any other trip down there? nope. #none of the details line up. none of the descriptions. ever. any of the times really. in any part. #youd think theyd make anything with Nico and the Underworld and Hades and their powers consistent for this book #based on the book tour is sounded like Mark sure tried #but like. yknow. Nico has a room in the underworld! in BoO his dad literally says ''Yeah you always have a place down here'' #and theyre on good terms! also in BoO Nico uses dream powers! it's heavily implied he can inflict nightmares on people #we've known that since TLO actually #anyways. hrmhrhrmhrm grumble grumble #writing good. details i am biting. will keep posted #if yall do want my more unhinged thoughts i am also posting updates as i read in the discord #the ones im posting here are curated for your enjoyment

[saturnskyline]

i am once again giving a shoutout to all kp fic writers, especially the gremlins (affectionate) that now have me regularly reading cousin incest by proxy ❤️ a truly enlightening experience, thank you all for your service

#listen. #i know this is far from the most objectionable thing you could possibly find in a fic #but it's just that i really didn't think i would read it at ALL #honestly used to be a relatively tame fic reader before gay mafia circus hit me like a bus FSDHGHDS #it just works tooooo well #like. you've got Weird Family Stuff that really lends itself to... a certain genre shall we say #and then there's that thing where if the author is good enough they can basically make you more open-minded lol #so right now it's just funny #i feel like i am at a party that i never expected to attend #playing the role of a semi-bewildered houseguest who is still somewhat enjoying themselves 💀 #also. no one asked but i have tried one or two fics that involve actual incest.. #but idk #the almost incest ones are weirder tbh #sometimes it gets to the point where going all the way would be less strange 😭😭 #i have too much to say about this for some reason #gonna shut up now :D #kpts #fanfic #ramblings

[opens-up-4-nobody]

hi so so sorry if this sounds genuinely deranged but I need to know did you write a fanfiction in like 2014 that was set during ww2 where zoro from one piece was sent to a japanese internment camp and sanji went to conversion therapy I remembered it recently because it blew my mind at age 13 and I had to reread it + need a kind of where are they now with the author so if that's you 1) what's your stance on the fic today 2) how much of the research was done during writing and how much did you just know beforehand and used as inspo 3) did you have any ideas for where the other characters ended up because I did always wonder if like idk chopper overcame the trauma of being in the war and also just what usopp's situation would be in general what with the political climate. once again. if you didn't actually write this fic so sorry this must look like the ravings of a crazy person. godspeed

Hi. Uh, yeah I did write that fic. I would have been like only 17 at the time. I did do A LOT of research, like the fic was basically an excuse for me to research Japanese internment and WWII history in general bc I thought it was super fucked up. I was absolutely hyperfixated on the topic and my parents probably thought i was nuts for my ability to talk at length on this particular area of history. I just finished skim reading back through the fic and woof. What a bleak fucking story. I was very cruel to everyone. It's frustrating bc I think it's an interesting and compelling idea for a story. But to me it feels like: here is all the research I did and also characters talking in what feels like a too modern way. Plus, I was 17 and didnt understand people very well. I wish I had the energy and motivation to rewrite it. Although, I forgot I used to do song lyrics at the start of each chapter and the tonal dissonance of Owl City lyrics at the top of a chapter of harrowing events around the time of WWII is unfathomablly unhinged.

#as for where r they now? i forgot the last chapter was like fuck u nothing matters life goes on sanji probably died of lung cancer #like jesus dude calm down. i think now id give them a bit of a softer ending #like i mean sanji still prob dying of lung cancer but he lives a long life with zoro and thry make the most of the time they have together #and i mean when u see horrific things in war i imagine its something u never really get over but i think the crew members that became #soldiers go on to live fuffilling lives and usopp finds a stable and relatively well paying job. gets married and lives happily ever after #god. its so frustrating to me that ill probably never rewrite this. it could habe been so good #but i just dont have thst kind of energy. i do think abt this fic more than almost all my other tho #im glad u liked it anon. its a fucking unhinged fic just from the perspective of: rural ohio teen wants to research a fucked up aspect of #ww 2 history and decides to write a fucking fanfic abt it. like bro what why. but idk weird weird times #there could have been themes and exploration of trauma and adversity. complex relationships. but no u get cringe written by a child #and now at the age of nearly 26 i am old and tired. christ thst was almost 10 years ago. i was a whole different human #weird the fanfics that stick with u. i have many i think abt from hs. wonder where the authors r now... #unrelated #i also forgot that in the authors nots i was like: if u r a n4zi fucking kill yourself. #which i standby but i was not expecting to see thst in the notes of a one piece fic i wrote as a kid good god

[veresiine]

We're at real "ask not for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee" hours, huh.

#veresiine irl #everything ripples out #death is not a guarantee in either situation I'm in the periphery of right now but things are not looking good #and I'm once again frustrated by my own relative powerlessness #I can pray. I can drive. I can send money. I can make and give good-luck charms and food. I can be a shoulder to cry on. #but I can't fix the problems #for one situation I am physically separated from my dear friend and do not have ENOUGH money to solve her situation that way #for the other situation I am physically nearby (even if it's quite a hike even in my very fuel-efficient car) #but most of the outcome is in God's hands with nothing we can do but offer comfort #so glad my higher doses of antidepressants are finally kicking in because I can't imagine facing down this weekend without them

[cherieprincess]

tag ramble (i am just very gay and needed an outlet)

#my partners are so so cool you guys #they're so lovely and they care about me and i care about them so much #and they're so hot omg #like wow i fucking scored huh #anyway polyamorous win #i love them and i had a dream last night about learning to crochet so i could crochet little animals for them #sometimes i think about sewing plushies for them #for one of them i would make a bear. probably a polar bear #and i would hide things inside the stuffing as a little surprise #in case the stitches ever ripped and it needed to be fixed #and for the other one i think it would be either a frog or a goose #and i would make little boots for it #and scarves for winter #yeah. i just... care about them a lot and i am having feelings about wanting to give them a little kiss on the forehead #it sucks that they're both so far away but the day i visit i am going to give them so many kisses to make up for it #i have been slowly gathering presents for them #yes the second relationship is a relatively new development but even before then i was collecting things to bring to them #i am going to give them all the things i have gotten for them to express how much i care about them #and then i will be winning at showing my love #and it will be good. #<3

[unproduciblesmackdown]

speaking of your coming of age movie that never happens & your narrative non-narratives, shoutout to the arcs that’d be supposedly “worse” lmfao like posts about people-pleasers being like “i’m in my villain era” when it’s just consciously prioritizing themselves at all / noting when boundaries for their own wellbeing are being trampled, and the like. wherein i’m like, well i like talking to people i suppose, i can do the hours of monologue at a wall for one mode, got chatterbox mode, funny guy theatrical mode, etc, but in actuality also, i do not like talking to people lmao. the “yeah, that’s me” movie ending with another voiceover while upbeat music plays & you’re cheerfully walking along in 0.75x speed through some picturesque arena filled with socializing people like =) putting on headphones, turning up the volume, ignoring everyone, dodging people according to the berth one wants to maintain,

#i mean in person i like to be somewhere Parallel to other ppl; but there By Myself technically lol #i also am down for / enjoy spontaneous fleeting interactions w/randos but ofc only the actually good ones; which can sure be rare #and naturally Online interactions have a lot more flexibility than [not having that option] but even then. #like on just one point: being in a ''fandom'' like no thanks at all ever lol even when it comes to relatively niche things #j'etadore quantent being Just Me Posting To Myself. i absolutely do not want to talk to anybody about winston billions. #posts are scrolls i've nailed to a door to be perused if someone wants. take it or leave it; i've given it & left #meanwhile Not In Person chats aren't even enough lol like; need more Delay than a live chat; also too much to say just like irl anyways #gotta be down for short essays at w/e weird pacing & inadvertent caginess abt what ig other ppl would find matter of factly easy to share #i.e. like What Are You Doing? type ye olde facebook status prompt material. well that's a secret / weird / not entertaining enough isn't it #not like i think oh scoff i Should be popular likable & beloved lmfao like no ofc i Know i'm not gonna come off like that. l'autistique. #to be thusly is to be generally considered unlikable / disliked. i probably don't like interacting w/an nt rando too much either. #& w/the power of [adhd] it's like yeah sure i can be the chatty Fun But Annoying person lmfao But. rather than really being begrudgingly #tolerated until ppl are just more used to you / forgive the annoyances it's like no it's just the Annoying part lol beyond that it's like #well you're also somehow still too weird & quiet so worst of both worlds right. And ofc i have Other Traits aren't just for everyone. #some classic easy to embrace shit like bit of a hothead; argumentative; opinionated; stubborn; spontaneous; a hater; cagey....lmao #much of that For Fun but the [autistic Friendly] social cues don't get read that way. plus i Can be unfriendly too ofc lmao. get outta here #like a friend group seems charming & adorably heartwarming in theory until it's like oh god but drawing on all relevant experiences?? No #the third or fourth or nth wheel falling behind on the narrow sidewalk / talked over / finding a chair on the end & ppl dont notice ur here #lowering expectations even for exchanges that Do happen. ppl can enjoy the novelty of a lengthy exchange for like; a day #on the other side of that if what's initiated is like; Brief General messages i'm like oh god lmfao now Eye can't keep up w/this style #beyond that spontaneous shit is like oh god masking. oh god double empathy misinterpretations & being treated horribly b/c of it. #Recognizing & Respecting my actual experiences rather than hypothetical ideals like no i'm Not failing by Not putting myself in more damn #situations lmfao....if i stumble into good ones then great lol. sure have done that & i don't discount the Value therein at all #just sure like [points to the wisdom of e.g. autistic ppl talking abt having to be lonely but at the gain of looking out for / appreciating #themself] like Being ''Unlikable'' or having friends(tm) but not Really / the treatment is shit / you're having to mask a ton anyways... #sure can recall experiences like idk. ppl ''being nice'' & whether on purpose or not it's like actually I'm In Hell I'm In Hell lmfao #and then even if it's not on purpose it's like ah i can't actually talk to them abt it & that's not a great endorsement for the dynamic huh #or just noting like i'm duly accepted to be on the sidelines but what am i doing wrong lmao sweating How To Earn proper Normal participation #lot of anxiety & blaming oneself & it turns out like nah can't excise the Fault of autistic / adhd / cpstdness & you're fine actually #that was ye olde times more so but it's gradual & still fairly recent being like Oh Right. more accurate ideas re: Talking To Ppl At All....

[bookshelf-in-progress]

Fun fact: The fairy tale flash fiction has now passed 4,000 words.

#i'm okay talking about it because i'm going to finish this thing if it kills me #it nearly has #you don't know how i've agonized over those opening scenes #writing and then rewriting and then cutting almost everything of it #i gave up months ago before finally getting inspiration or at least motivation to just push through #i've now reached roughly the halfway point #maybe 3/4 #and i am embarrassed by a lot of it but also at least i have something that sort of a little bit flows #i want to finish the ask game stories before starting on the four loves challenge #the trouble is that i love tattercoats as a story so much that i'm aiming for a more detailed retelling than i might otherwise #it's still bare bones because i'm a hack who can't write description #but it's going to sit in a weird middle ground of being too long to be satisfying short fiction and too short to count as a full retelling #i've got one speech that i love #a few images or moments that i'm okay with #and the rest is just scaffolding that hopefully keeps the story from collapsing even if it isn't pretty #all duct-taped together with sentiment #i had hoped to get a first draft done tonight but since that ain't happening there's no chance it's getting done this week #but at least i'm further in than i've ever been before #and making good use of scene breaks so this section feels more doable than it ever has #if i can just get them to the palace it'll be relatively smooth sailing #here's hoping i can keep from overagonizing and just get a draft down that i can edit later #it hasn't happened yet during this draft but one can hope #(which is rather a prominent theme in the story actually) #adventures in writing