#(but who cares about health right?)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

YES! JOIN ME IN THE DELCIOUS DUNGEONS!

#ask #non mdzs #I truly cannot emphasise enough how much of a rush it is to hear that people checked out Dungeon Meshi in part due to my comics #I do imagine its a multi-factorial thing (its been everywhere lately and its been around for a decade with people singing its praises) #I am going to get so tall by the end of season one. Thank you to everyone who reports back about getting into Dungeon Meshi. #You are making the hours spent on comics and sleepless nights worth it <3 #Also to the person who said they think this series could fix them: IT CAN. #The power of Senshi is *real*. I have learned so much self-care from the wise words of that dwarf. #It's a hard road to put yourself first when you've been taught to push yourself but woah... #“looking after your health is a greater sign of responsibility that pushing yourself to exhaustion” is a *life changing* message. #Yes I said that right after 'sleepless nights making comics'. I've been doing it less! I've been taking more breaks!

[whitehairedanimeboyfriend]

Conversations on here will basically be like

"Hey these new reproductive rights issues are affecting trans men too so let's make sure we include them in the conversation, instead of calling it women's health issues."

"Would you stop complaining? Trans women have it worse than trans men. TERFs want to kill us but only detransition you."

"If living as the gender you are not is so easy why would you transition in the first place? Obviously trans people transition because they can't live with existing as a gender they are not. Obviously "just going back" isn't an option because we often fail to behave the way we're expected to anyway. Forcing any trans person to detransition is a death sentence in and of itself."

"Why are you always speaking over transfems when we talk about transmisogynistic violence???"

#transandrophobia #its the conversation being about trans mascs to begin with that does it for me #yeah im sorry i interupted the beginning of your sentence with the middle of mine so rude of me #and the ultimate frustration is the topic has drifted so far off course #from including trans men in reproductive healthcare #and nobody cares #functionally i would just like access to reproductive healthcare #and you are the one pulling attention from that by turning it into a whataboutisms conversation #nothing that trans men want to acheive by being part of the conversation about reproductive health precludes trans women also getting rights #but telling trans men to shut up and listen to trans women because they have it worse #IS INTENTIONALLY LEAVING TRANS MEN BEHIND #not to mention arguing about who has it worse is what creates false dichotomies that leave out nonbinary people on top of it

[uncanny-tranny]

It's weird how people paint "daddy issues" and even "mommy issues" as, like, a joke or a failure on part of the person who has those issues, rather than recognizing that daddy and mommy issues stem, for so many people, from abuse. What this all is is just abuse apologia, and nobody seems to either notice or maybe even care.

When somebody with daddy or mommy issues opens up about the "why," I can't ever seem to shake the fact that they tend to have gone through a ton of abuse and bullshit as a child. It's just crazy that other people would look at that and see a joke or a failure of the once-child who was abused.

#abuse #abuse tw #abuse mention tw #child abuse #child abuse tw #mental health #it really goes to show (to me) that people either can't or don't WANT to acknowledge that parents can be the ones to have fucked up #if all the blame is placed on their child/ren then you can maintain the illusion that the parent is always right... #...that parents know what is best and they will always do what is best for their child/ren #it's just weird to be somebody with parental issues and all that gets steamrolled into 'mommy issues' that then become a Big Joke... #...especially because i'm a man (and because people are misogynists who think it's just so funny that women are people)... #...i find that my own issues are expected to be treated as a joke or a punchline or something i must whisper in the dark... #...so that others may have the luxury of pretending to not hear it or to have the luxury of forgetting in the morning... #...and it just sucks because that leaves me to remember and grieve and doing that with the knowledge that my abuse Is A Joke at My Expense #if you wonder why so many abuse victims/survivors become unsavoury: this is why #i'm too bitter about this topic specifically to care about the comfort of people who don't get it and don't WANT TO... #...because it is THEY who are uncomfortable with the very NOTION that abuse happens #if you can't acknowledge that abuse happens WITHOUT downplaying to for your sense of comfort you will NEVER help abuse victims/survivors #you will find that you start prioritizing YOUR sense of comfort over the safety and continued survival of victims/survivors

[angelxd-3303]

Based on a real conversation between my partner and I (They don't get that I never use a helmet):

DK: wait you have rollerblades?

Mario: yeah, I learned in school.

DK: you could rollerblade here, y'know. As long as you use your helmet, idc.

Mario: ... I don't have a helmet. I don't need one.

DK: Well, if you're gonna rollerblade you're gonna use one.

Mario: You can't tell me what to do, you're not my real Dad!

DK: I KNOW, THAT'S WHY I GIVE A SH*T!

Mario: ...

Mario: ouch.

#my partner is so bossy lmao #like who asked you to care about my health and well-being?? #I mean they're right but damn #mario #donkey kong #monkey wrench #mario x donkey kong #mario incorrect quotes #my au #mario ships as my partner and I #gotta love it

[khizuo]

you guys are seriously not close to doing anything revolutionary if you can't change your fucking consumption habits lol

#aka: go vegan and stop buying from places with known human rights abuses #develop sustainable networks of community care and support #'oh but what about xyz demographic' shut the fuck up #everyone does the most they can. i won't judge anyone who can't do anything for their health and well-being #but a lot of you could be doing better and simply don't choose to #my text

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things #out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever #all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever #or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc. #especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple #and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already #done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and #all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you. #who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3 #my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster #talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo #I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache #or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop #e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all #sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef #t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of #way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I #think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i #gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!' #like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant #mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain #or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right #now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like #most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once #that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY #Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth

[captainjonnitkessler]

Listening to conservative union members talk is a trip. They'll give a speech about worker solidarity, the right to basic human dignity and a thriving wage, and the value of labor that would bring a tear to Marx's eye, and then they'll turn around and be like "anyway, radical leftism is ruining the country".

#'our single payer health care is so amazing! sure some people pay in more than they get out #but that's because this is a brotherhood and we SUPPORT the people who need help here #anyway let's talk about the evils of obamacare for ten minutes' #construction #labor rights

[myfandomhalf]

The amount of Dazai mischaracterization in this fandom is CRAZY

I’m not tagging this with a thing because I don’t feel like getting jumped today but whew I was pleasantly surprised at the amount of people finally realizing that Dazai doesn’t actually give a shit about Sigma past “this is a person -> this person became involved in a dangerous situation -> the right thing to do is my best to try to keep them alive” NOT “I must keep this person alive because they matter a lot to me personally and I would be very sad if they died or got hurt” 🥴 plus also the fact that Sigma is useful to him for information, I do think he would’ve tried to keep him alive even if he wasn’t useful, but NOT because he cares about him or has some sort of personal interest in his well being 💀 (he also would probably not have tried as hard if sigma wasn’t useful)

Like that’s so crazy to me do y’all even know who Dazai is 😭😭

Anyway like I was saying I was pleasantly surprised and then those people started showing up with their pitchforks and now I’m back to having very little faith

#just needed somewhere to rant #why do you guys want Dazai to be a goody goody so bad #DAZAI?? caring about a man he met 10 minutes ago??? #PLEEEEAAASE be so serious #he barely even cares about (redacted for my own safety) #I saw someone say well I’m insert mental health stuff here and I met someone new and cared about them quickly #like okay??? lmao 💀💀 #who cares??? #you’re not Dazai??? #but wait 🤔🤔 ohhh I see #you’re projecting #now that makes more sense #please separate yourselves from characters when you’re analyzing CANON content #okay I’m done #believe it or not I have more controversial opinions #but this is so ridiculous #the funny part is as SOON as I saw that panel I told myself #watch them twist this to make it seem as if Dazai is worrying about sigma #AND I WAS RIGHT

[rowenabean]

.

#just saw a post that was like 'if you have religious or moral objections that stop you from providing certain types of medical care maybe #you shouldn't work in healthcare' (paraphrased) and... #what a way to look at the world tbh #like. they're talking about me i think - i am a conscientious objector when it comes to euthanasia #(which granted has come up exactly twice and both cases in a theoretical capacity only this is not a frequent request to me) #and... i am also a good doctor #last week i told someone that her weight doesn't matter to her health with receipts to prove it and she cried #no one had ever told her that before #and that was something that came from me specifically. that was something i would not trust all of the GPs in my practice - a practice of #excellent and compassionate GPs! - to say #i am verifiably doing good in my job that is coming from specifically who i am as a person #i cannot put that down when it comes to issues i care deeply about #fundamentally the fact that i cannot put it down is what makes me a good doctor #i think that's what i'm trying to get at #the reason that i do well by my patients is that i practice out of my values and my ethics #if i did not stand on that core i would not stand at all #so you can't have it both ways. you can't have engaged and active and compassionate healthcare providers without sometimes those engaged an #active providers having things they do not feel comfortable doing #and it is to everyone's service if they are up front about it and do not try to hide (i am suspicious of people who try to hide this) #i am literally figuring this all out as i type hence the v long tag ramble and also being nowhere near the post that started this train #(honestly in med school we talked so much about ethics as like. abortion! euthanasia! trans rights! and the ethics in practice is the littl #things. do you apologise when you mess up. how do you manage a consult with your patient with paranoid dementia and her child in the same #room at one time - or one by one bc that's fraught too. (that one's on top i had one of those today.) how do you act with grace when #you're a bit stressed and your patient is a bit stressed and the nurse wants to add five more things to your book. the day to day ethics is #SUCH a bigger thing when you come to actual practice.) #this is obviously entirely about me and leans on the fact that i largely do think i am doing a good job i am really feeling my own way #to a Thought. but i think to a certain extent it is generalisable

[spookyboywhump]

I think recovering whumpees with pets is vastly underrated. Whumpee with their emotional support animal. Whumpee taking better care of themselves because they have another little life to look after now. Whumpees with service dogs. Whumpees with guard dogs to keep them safe from whumper. Whumpees deserve a little pet. As a treat!

#whump #whump stuff #I like Wren taking better care of himself and working towards recovery #cuz he took in a stray cat and he has to take care of her and he might not worry about his own health but he HAS to provide her the best #and Alexei getting an emotional support dog #he doesn’t need to take him on his daily outings but he provides him so much support at home #he’s got a big ol Great Pyrenees who never lets him cry alone and is always right by his side #I like to think the original goal in getting him a dog #was so he’d have to get out of the house more to take him on walks #but they got him trained to support Alexei as well #I love. aminals.

[healingheartdogs]

Cardio said my echocardiogram ultrasound, exercise stress test, and week long heart monitor all showed no serious issues, my resting heart rate is fine, but that my heart rate does seem to rise very rapidly under even small amounts of stress (postural changes, taking stairs, casually walking around my house) and rises very high (160+ bpm according to the monitor) so now I get to be put on beta blockers to see if they work and if they do she said that is sufficient evidence to confirm for sure that it's POTS.

Obviously could confirm it as well with a tilt table test but those are TORTURE based off what I've heard from fellow POTSies so I am very thankful that she doesn't think that's necessary and will not be making me do one.

#i was not expecting to get dx and meds this fast tbh but im very happy about it #i think the fact that she also has POTS herself helps because she is very well acquaintaned with what it looks and feels like #and how hard it is to actually catch with orthostatics in office unless youre having a bad heart day #so my orthostatics not being within range was unsurprising to her and she was like #'that doesnt mean anything you clearly still have a heart rate issue going on even if it didnt show itself right now' #i didnt do shit the entire week i had that monitor on to like physically exert myself but my heart rate still hit almost 170 a few times #also the doctor who did my stress test asked me if i ever experience any chest discomfort or pain and i was like hm no dont think so #and he went 'your chart says you have palpitations though?' #and i was like '... those count as discomfort???' akdjaicidjwjcjsn the answer is yes apparently #im just so used to them now because i have them daily that they dont even really register to me anymore #unless theyre bad enough to knock the wind out of me or make me cough #they just make me anxious which... ig is also a form of discomfort #chronic illness and chronic pain problems though lol not having a normal baseline for discomfort and pain #ndr #not dog related #health stuff #not that anyone probably cares lol but im excited about getting things that have neen affecting me for years FINALLY figured out #im not crazy im just disabled!!!! #*been

[sendmyresignation]

one of the things about where are your boys tonight i really appreciated and, to me, seemed like the most significant thrust of the book (but never garnered much attention, imo), was the focus on the business side of things and particularly the way the many bands never saw long term success or stability or the way a lot of very young people were taken advantage of even after making their labels and handlers metric butt-tones of money and this really culminated with the discussion about paramores record deal and the inherently coercive nature of making a 14 year old sign a record deal (not even really mentioning that record deal was 20 fucking years lmao) and yet i still see people argue she was an industry plant or whatever. sorry ig one of my fatal flaws is i give child stars the benefit of the doubt considering the fundamental exploitation necessary for that position to exist or whatever

#sorry was thinking about this bc I saw some truly horrible and dismissive posts on twitter about hayleys contract #but i also think it dovetails into the general malaise that existed in the third wave that a lot of places are quick to dismiss #idk. i keep thinking about how so many ppl were taken advantage of (in the sense of predatory contracts or not getting paid victory style) #and how many are stuck in an endless loop of diminishing returns in order to be career musicians who can actually support themselves #and fundamentally this is the key linchpin in the emo nostalgia- some of the btier andlower bands Need stuff like #emo nites or wwwy to actually make a living (no matter how much you make up front a altrock hit single cannot sustain someone as livelihood) #and since touring is the only reliable way to make money. well why put significant expenses into ur new album #none of your fans care about anyway? its a pre-existing cycle. very thrash metal. but its almost worse #when you factor in shit like the fan perception of the used the canyon.... #idk ive been thinking about it a lot and i dont find nostalgia circuits reprehensible bc of the fundamental indignities #of the recording industry and all its issues #but its hard to see people shit talk the third wave for being full of impressionable kids hoping to survive of their passion #like you do realize they dont sound like assholes in that circumstance for crashing and burning? right? #(esp when you add mental health and addiction into the mix- these bands were full of sick people being denied care bc it would interfere w/ #the 'rawness' or authenticity or whatever the fuck. these bands were having their sadness wrung out of them for money) #anyway i think hayley williams should be allowed to hunt any and all current or former atlantic higherups for sport #my posts

[theangrypomeranian]

me rn

#pom ponders #work woes #thinking about how my ex bestie is coming back to the store next week and i already want to cry #i know working with her is going to stress me out and it's going to affect my mood at work and at home #I'm going to have to put my guard up around people and be cold to them and i don't want to #but i can't trust anyone to not fall into her charms and i don’t have the energy to fight it #so i just have to accept that being at work is going to be hell and I'm going to be upset all the time #and i can't go anywhere else right now and i can't quir because i need the money to pay my bills and feed my cats #my mental health is gonna go down the toilet but who cares right #and I'm here screaming into the void because i can't rant to anyone else without sounding like a broken record #oh well i guess

[snapbackslide]

dunno if you’re reading this but i hope you are enjoying your break and hope you are doing so well🩷 -🫶🏻

heeeyy 🥹 thank you so much you're so sweet, I hope you're doing well too!! 💓

#and thank you for the valentine's wish oof it's been a while 🥹 didn't realize how long i was gone for #i'm semi back now - i think? i def managed to get some things done in my social media break but my mental health is still meh #and i really don't care enough about hockey rn to make a full comeback 🔥🔥 #BUT music is alive !! so much is coming up !!!! my fav band has finally returned and i am so excited !!!!!!!! #i also took a break from dating apps and just got back on them and it's dry afffff rn #but i do have crumbs of uninteresting information ☕ #idk if you remember the guy from instagram i wrote about?? who i ran into at the drug store and liked my stories #my dumbass was aggressively swiping left on bumble on everyone and i saw him on it #but my finger was faster than my brain so i swiped left before i could register it was him 😭 #i immediately gasped cause i saw his name and the same age as me and a blonde guy and was like NO F'ING WAY #i mean i don't think i would've swiped right anyway cause that's so AWKWARDDDD he knew me when i was a child pls #we already know each other and have each other's instagram... feels like it'd be moving backwards LOL #but it's also like... if i saw him on there... what are the chances he found my profile first... makes me wanna puke tbh #i hope i run into him again soon 🙏 (this time when i actually have makeup on... and i'm by myself) #i've also started talking to another guy who quite frankly seems exactly like sens guy but with better values so 🔥 we move #i fully meant that as a diss i'm still pissed and still not over him (moving on? never heard of her) #best way to get over someone is to get under someone else amirite;)))) (no) #anyway i kinda like dating around and not committing tbh bc no man deserves me #until i find one that is solid af i refuse to settle for just anyone for the sake of not being alone #which i'm worried is something some of my friends are doing but i've already tried talking to them and no one listens to me #so i'm just gonna be quiet now 🤷‍♀️ we're grooving #..i forgot what my tags were #oh yeah #answered #🫶🏻 #brunch anecdotes w the girlies

[cardboardcranium]

we should just start dropping whole pianos on people who think that noone should go on medications that didnt help them specifically. flatten those fucks like mario kart. roll their flattened forms and smoke them like joints

#meds alter the fuckin chemicals within your body hombre!!!! #your internal chemical bullshit is Different to Everybody Else!!! #Youre not a prophet of others experiences #just because lexapro or something ripped your cock off and beat you w/ it doesnt mean itll do that shit to everybody #also were dropping smaller pianos on people who say you shouldn't seek any therapy and “focus on self betterment” #because i took that advice and disassociated so fuckin hard i had no idea what was happening 24/7 #my ass stayed locked in my room for like a month barely even thinking staring at my ceiling hoping my fuckin neurons would stop firing #but now even seeking therapy has that same little scrambled cluster of neurons firing like a fuckin ship under siege #the shits in your brain are neurons right. i hope cause im not re-typing this shit. fuck that. #have a good day smoke all the crack u want #okay im done talking about my mental health from like 3 years back now. #im so fuckin tired ouuygghh #goodniiiighhhhtttt #but yeah i got people i care about and can discuss mental health shit with. and services i can go check if my shit gets bad again #love you bbbbbbyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eee oookkaayyy byyeeeeeeee love uu love uuuuuu

[raplinesmoon]

a brief note:

i’m not usually very eloquent with my words, so if this is rough and i say something wrong or offensive, please forgive me, it’s been hard to piece together the right words. if there’s spelling errors, this is not proofread, and I’m sorry.

I’ve always maintained that writing and this blog is a safe space for me, a place to escape from the real world when I need it. but right now, what’s going on in the world isn’t something I can escape from. it’s robbed me of my sleep and my sanity. and honestly, writing and kpop just don’t even seem like valid enough escapes anymore, even though I feel immensely privileged to have these escapes in the first place. I feel numb. but it’s not even about me or this blog or any wips I have.

if you have five minutes to scroll through my blog, or any other kpop blog on Tumblr, I urge you to take another five minutes out of your day and learn about what’s going on in Gaza right now. do your own research, and uplift voices that aren’t being heard.

the beauty of being here is being able to connect with so many people far away, across the country or even across the world. if we can use our energy to celebrate our groups and our faves, we can also do the reverse.

life as we know it is being uprooted for so many people, the least we can do is be cognizant of that, to give some of our energy to mourn their losses and grieve alongside them. even better yet, we can hope alongside them that this reality doesn’t have to endure, that more innocent lives will not be lost.

if you get nothing else from this, I’ll leave you with this — if you’ve also been like me, feeling completely scared and horrified by what’s been unfolding, i see you. i feel your pain, and if you’re grieving, i feel your loss. i ask you to remember those on the other side of this who have a right to be even more scared and even more horrified, and who deserve your attention. the world is a complex and hard to understand place, but at the same time, it’s not. it’s brutal and violent. Please remember, that far beyond and political or religious debates, foreign economic and social policy, etc, when oppressors and bullies square off, and when people are power hungry, innocent lives are always in the middle of it. and that should be something that none of us are willing to be okay with.

if you want to stop reading here, that’s totally okay, otherwise check the tags to listen to me ramble on

#as a healthcare worker I can tell you the public health crisis that is unfolding right now as a result of greed and the desire for power #should be appalling to you #also this is not to meant to be a call out to anyone on my dash - just an explanation as to where my head is and why I can’t think straight #about writing or anything #the queue will continue to run #the fics will be written one day #but right now is not the moment for that #also like I said before I’m not engaging in any discourse on this blog - this isn’t something that benefits from people who are far removed #from the situation sitting thousands of miles away and debating about what ifs #when atrocities are unfolding in real time #like I said before it’s been hard for me and so many others to speak up or find the words to voice what’s been weighing so heavily on us #so in return all anyone asks if your kindness and ability to listen and to care #and it doesn’t even have to be on Tumblr - but I just hope that for energy anyone is giving bts/svt/atz/skz and others you’re also willing #to give that energy to humans irl #which shouldn’t even have to be said #but I said it anyway #personal #isi rambles #free Palestine 🇵🇸🇵🇸🇵🇸