#'or are u on.... hormones... probably'

[lokh]

testosterone can make ur gums bleed more?????????

#im starting to think writing miss on everything is actually making it harder for others nwbfncjc #dentist didnt even look at me when i was called for (looking for a woman) #said 'hey it says miss on here do u want me to call u.... r u ok with...' #and every time for some reason im like 'yeah no its fine =)' #but later when asking about medication or conditions shes like #'or are u on.... hormones... probably' #and i had to be like. does that make a difference #and shes like well. yea it could and thats how i found out about the gums???? #but also like. i dunno how to feel cos on the one hand Yeehaw lmao the fact she went ok clearly this is a guy. butch wasnt even on the tabl #but if i grow my hair out a lil bit suddenly everything is fair game????? so do i look like a guy or not #or is everything contingent on my haircut... #though to be honest i wasnt sure. which way she thought i was trans #and i didnt want . to ask LMAO i should have been like 'which hormone....'

[obsob]

more kitties that live in my sketchbook

#mine #i just took a huge amount of psychic damage from going thro my facebook page #my GOD. the things i had on there #anyway. i hope u hve had a good week...my week has been mixed but okay! im super tired ugjug #my period was like 11 days late bc since stopping hormones it like has no idea whats going on n my period app was havin a coronary #i got a notifcation that was like ur ABNORMAL!!!!!!!!!! okay and #hmm what am i going 2 do now.....probably som colouring and then some reading #i stopped reading the fantasy book i was reading it was eating my brain slowly . in a bad way #i tried using my lightbox 2day instead of drawing over my sketch n it worked well!! ive bough different paper n it worked way better #am happy !! :))

[mylittleredgirl]

me at my long-in-remission chronic illness when ten hours of sleep a night and six shots of caffeine do nothing to remediate that blinking on red battery feeling

do not.

#planning to be normal about it #it felt like i had a low-grade migraine for weeks but this week i started having that Special brand of fatigue #which is not usually part of my migraine symptoms #my friend was like girl u have long covid but i don't think i ever had short covid soooooo 😷 #anyway sent off a covid lab test today and will do vitamin and hormone tests monday #i probably just have A Regular Germ and forgot how many weeks it takes my immune system to deal with that #the constant ear-ringing and vision spots without a full-blown migraine though is unfamiliar so who who knows #would prefer not. if i get a vote.

[crimeronan]

used to base my pain scale around how soft my adansey thoughts were but now it's started shifting toward luz and hunter. same exact scale though like to the letter. if the two of them are yelling and throwing things at each other then everything's going Great in my body. if i'm burying them under 15 weighted blankets so they can't physically move away from the other's arms though, uh..... we're......... in trouble.........

#u can probably guess which today is. by how i keep saying i am in pain #good lord i don't know what HAPPENED to make today this bad #i havent missed any medication doses and it shouldn't be hormonal #autoimmune tag #toh #trc #horrible mindscape trauma pals

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Being high energy while sick feels insane. Like my brain is telling me I should lay down and rest but is also telling me I should run around in circles and break things.

#i think im getting better tho. i mean i still can feel my warped sickyness but idk my hormones maybe have me all fucked up #but like i told my mum i get these insane little hypomanic-esque episodes and she was immediately like could b ur hormones #i know a number of ppl like that. and i was like YES. thats obviously what it is but nothing comes up when i try to google things abt it #so there must b others out there. and it also implies that theres sometimes fucked up about my serotonin receptors bc when im like kinda #positively disregard i feel happy and i never feel happy. my typical emotional state is indifferent and apathetic #and then dips into light misery and very miserable but not like clinically depressed. but i was even like that while on vacation so even #removed from the stresses in my life i still am not happy. which is y its so hard when ppl r like do what makes up happy. relax #and im like. ok but like nothing works??? its either fucked up hormones or my lantent anxiety just keeps me from being happy #but whatever. im gathering so much data. when i go see a doctor im gonna pull out a spreadsheet and graphs and notes like a lunatic #bwahhh i wanna run. i have too much energy. fuck being sick. fuck having to work on a day off. fuck this #also fuck my menstrual cycle for being so short. like so short its sometimes not listed with the healthy range but only sometimes #just to make me think. i should probably talk to a doctor but. like its probably fine. its consistent so its fine #annoying. annoying. got u can tell when out of wack bc i post too much and cant shut thr fuck up lol #unrelated

[rucow]

does...anyone know how i can raise my blood pressure x_x its been dropping as low as 8/5 and im not sure what to do to like. resurrect myself fhsfhhd

#i heard that eating more salty food should help?? and compression socks also #ill try these two for now 😵‍💫 #my low blood pressure is most likely due to a hormonal issue (probably my thyroid bc. thyroid problems run in the family Really hard) so #theres not much i can do about it 😵‍💫 its just so low......in the winter especially #the cold kinda nerfed me i have no tolerance to cold (also due to an underactive thyroid most likely ghshfd) #also apparently low blood pressure can give u back pain??? huh. the more u know

[flyingspicerack]

ok yeah this is getting too painful

#spice.txt #sorry i wasnt around today #i have nothing to offer to u and probably never will agaaaiiinnnnnnnnn wwwahhhhh #<- *crying because their tummy hurts and is being a baby abt it an hormonal and enduring shark week* #i might climb in bed early and like... doodle on ipad but... #ughhh my stomach really hurts and this is the worst and i hate it and i already took pepto .... GAH

[fruityfinch]

I’m feeling a little rough…….tee hee! 😋

#fruityart #it’s probably just period hormones or whatevah #plus I visited London last weekend and fuck me i miss ig #i didn’t leave by choice u know 😔 #and if I had absolute free reign money no question I’d go back right now #but such is life

[ccassettetape]

hmmmmm i think i need help too bad i have to talk to my parents to be able to get that help. I Do Not Like Talking To Them. About Anything 👍

#dont get me wrong they’re fine or have at the very least gotten less. blegh. in the past few years but -> #JESUS FUCKING CHRIST HATE THEM. I DONT CARE IF THATS THE MOST TEENAGER-Y THING TO SAY THEY JUST STRESS ME OUT -> #<- they’re impossible to talk to about anything and constantly interrupt me and the last time i said something like “hey im Sad” #<- they just went like “ohh it’s probably just hormones :) they still mess with your emotions even when ur not on ur periods!!” like shut u #ccassette recordings #bad vibes tag

[girl6000]

i just saved u guys from reading the most tmi post in the world u dont know how good uve got it with me

#p #and i was just saying shit for the sake of talking but anyway #and u know what as im typing this!! i will not be censored here goes #i was talking about how i realized im bi a few months ago when i went my entire teenage life thinking i was a lesbian #but now recently and by recently i mean since june/july #ive come to the conclusion that actually the reason i even believed to not be attracted to men was bc i went on birth control at 13 #and at 13 i was still kinda on the fence of if i would ever like men or not. but bc of hormonal developments that are influenced by bc #i feel like i never actually developed any sort of teenie desire to explore sexuality which would probably have been healthy #and so i decided that i probably liked girls only bc i never had a crush on anyone or liked anyone but i did know that i enjoyed spending #time with girl friends and i guess bc they were m #my friend group nd i felt safe with them i could then develop crushes on them #and i never had any guy friends to do that with and since any kind of hormonal teenie sexuality developments were stunted it never occured #to me that i could like guys too #and what im getting to is that since i got off birth control this year i started finding random people attractive #and feeling like i actually would like to have a relationship or whatever #but i could be overanalyzing and be completely wrong about this #anyway so i guess ur not being spared but at least its in the tags now #if ur still reading this i have feelings for you #and actually i do believe going off bc was the best thing i could have done my depression has halved and i have close to no migraine attacks #i feel better in every way and im so so glad i dont have to take it anymore #if u think about it its kinda fucked up that they put children on that shit for the crime of havin acne

[felidaefatigue]

i go on fb regularly nowadays because i discovered i can window shop marketplace as a form of 0 stakes dopamine retrieval and today it has told me my brother has sent me a friend request.

HAH.

#i deleted this man when i was like 12 #probably an exaggeration but still #around the time i found out him n his then fiance were trying for kids or planning too #he said somethin fucked abt hormone therapy and i was like hey bud if ur future kid is trans would u rather them get therapy or #kill themselves and full chest in front of his partner he said kill thenselves so #yknow #top notch sibling material #i do not speak to him #also when my partner came over once after we were officially datin and tried to say hi to my brother he didnt even respond #and like we were always completely civil with eachother cause we lived in the same house at the time so there was 0 reason for that #hes yet to actually speak to him #and weve been together what? like 3 years or something basically?

[carcinized]

feeling of growing into my body is so nice too. god puberty sucked

#i mean i had other stuff too. and so do probably most of my followers bc Trans Things. i never had dysphoria from being trans tho #it was all from discomfort during puberty + depersonalization #so now that both of those have lessened + ive gotten better at managing them. HOLY SHIT ITS NICE #i dont feel ashamed of my body!!! ive achieved complete body neutrality its so fucking awesome #i dont even feel like i need to dress up anymore. nor am i uncomfortable with the idea that someone could find me attractive #bc i understand its not my job to be or not be attractive its just my job to EXIST. other ppl can think whatever they want about me #its SO NICE. i am growing into my life its so lovely. #just a bit of positivity for you guys :] this site (and online spaces in general) can be so negative bc it’s a safe place to ent #so heres a break from that. from someone who struggled heavily w mental illness for multiple years #i don’t want to disclose what or why but it wasnt just quirky depression anxiety etc it was like from real scary shit + near death experienc #<- not to say anxiety & depression don’t suck. what i mean is that it wasn’t quirky ‘omg i have anxiety im so scared of everyone 🥺👉👈’ #type shit that every white girl highschooler insists they have. it wasnt just beingn sad cus of high school LMAO #NOT TO DOWNPLAY THAT BUT LIKE. U KNOW THE PPL I MEAN. u dont have anxiety/ocd/depression dude youre just Sad. fairly so but itsnot Disorder #but. from someone who went thru all that. IT GETS BETTER. also if ur like 13-15 ur brain hormones suck and it gets better 100% #like everything feels So Bad but its just uour brain chemicals and i am so sorry uour brain does that. BUT IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE. <3 #it doesnt make your struggles easier but you should know that it DOES get better. <3 love u #ok <3 take care guys #tobin talks

[menalez]

Offline. So many older lesbian spaces were "underground". Lots of the magazines and art and books are still circulating and many of those women are still around. The biggest difference between then and now is that our public sphere is the internet. Entire countries can be omitted. Censorship, down to making a single word illegal, can be carried out with 100% effectiveness, because we do not speak with our mouths but with a "Post" button. It is all so moderated. I find it comparable to the older division of women through houses. We are all in separate boxes thinking "where are the other ones like me?" but we cannot see each other. They still exist. The answer is to leave this false world and seek them out in real life. How to do that requires creativity and resourcefulness. Stickers with a slogan you stand by signed with a secure email address may attract some. Others may be at protests, or in sports. Building your community means risk, work, and time.

unfortunately im talking about a combination of online and offline 🥲 when in the UK, i did make a friend group of like-minded lesbians and it was so great. we’d occasionally go to lesbian events and such but very often it was not lesbian-exclusive and filled with gender-y stuff which is more or less inescapable. we also went to the lesbian strength march and we met women from get the l out back then, before they were as big as they are now. that memory isnt as fond anymore bc it turns out get the l out is a polilez organisation. then in germany, my gf and i went to some radfem events (i could not find a single lesbian event anywhere. there are lesbian organisations but we’ll get to that in a bit) and they were talking about being lesbians. turns out, they’re mainly political lesbians. it makes no sense bc they preach “lesbians don’t like dick!” “lesbians can’t be attracted to men!!” but then actually if u say that and mean it they argue that every woman can be a lesbian. the mainstream lgbt community & lesbian community isnt much better, you’ll find normie lesbians here and there but you’ll also be among many non-lesbians and political lesbians. ive met many lesbians but found no lesbian community. and most lesbians are also pretty into the genderist stuff. so it’s like no matter where i look and go, there isn’t really a place for lesbians to just be among other lesbians. this is not even touching on bahrain where the community is extremely underground, 0 online presence, and u basically find each other through ladies nights or female-only events (when all the bahraini lesbians decide to go out at once) or word of mouth but then when u get to know a lot of them, most have such intense self-hatred that u just end up feeling insecure about being a lesbian as well. or they’re extremely closeted and u have to sneak around. or they’re also very gender-y and can’t talk about anything else.

#i met one lesbian who told me about how she had a gf for many years who just secretly married a man then left her #and when she got upset her bi gf was like ur just mad cause u can’t get a man with how u look #so she married a man that was chasing after her for years to prove a point #which was absolutely insane to me. she was like what 28 at this point? 30? anyways the man dies so she got lucky there #bc he was already trying to pressure her into doing things she doesn’t want. luckily she’s quite strong and could fend for herself but damn #another was telling me she’s a lesbian bc she has a hormonal imbalance and a male brain and a perversion. insanity #i wasnt closeted but i felt so trapped and hopeless bc damn is there no lesbian that realises she’s ok as is in bahrain smh.. #i found one that seemed very cool but shes probably a fuckboy so it didn’t get far

[miraclewoozi]

(increasingly less) friendly reminder!!! to please!!!! have your age!!!! somewhere visible!!!!! on your blog!!!!!! if you're going to interact!!!!! with nsfw content!!!!!!!!!

#j talks. #psa. #i'll softblock u so hard and so fast u'll get whiplash<3 #no okay i'm sorry. i try to be very <3 :) <3 on here. i really do. but i cannot tell u how much this grinds my mf gears #i have softblocked so many ageless blogs only to have them re-follow me every time without putting their age anywhere #like what do u think is gonna happen here. i don't wanna put u in permanent baby jail but i'll do it. i will DO IT. #it's not. like we're asking. for anything difficult ;-; #you put a cute profile picture. you HAVE a bio. you reblog shit. why can't u just put 18+ somewhere!!! unless you actually are!! a child!!! #disrespecting both my and other writers' boundaries!!!!!!! #in which case!!!!!!!! GEAUX AWAYYYY ;-; #probably definitely going to delete this in a bit. it feels a bit too aggressive but wah. #a bitch. is tired. and hormonal but mostly just so tired #(especially if ur just gonna spam-like my whole blog. the LEAST u could do for putting me through that is tell me you're not a minor. /hj)

[phantom-curve]

sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever get to be the one with a best friend instead of being the best friend to everyone else

#this post makes no sense because the baby hormones have taken over my brain #but like also what a fucking realization #yeah I’m your best friend but I actually don’t think you’re even a friend to me at all #nice to know even 20+ years of knowing each other doesn’t mean shit to u🫠 #mads complains #probably gonna delete this later #also to all my tumblr besties: this does not apply to you you’re all amazing and ily

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#so theres this terrible thing i do where i force myself to get up way too early and go into the lab before anyone else #bc i get overwhelmed when lots of ppl r around. its terrible bc if u do that over and over it kinda breaks ur brain #but there is something i like abt walking around while its still dark out and on ones on thr roads looking up at the stars and theyre all #haloed here bc theres actually moisture in thr air here. i feel. idk how i feel. more normal i guess. like neutral but in a negative way. #like i dont really care about anything. probably im just tired. i haven't been sleeping well. maybe its the birth control #which im still taking bc im too curious abt how my mood fluctuates when my hormones r controlled. or maybe its my mood. but ive been tired #and ive not been having fun. i just feel like im very no thoughts empty head. here's info do u have anything to say abt it? any observations #? no. no. cant read cant think cant talk in a way that makes may sense. what do we do abt it? i dunno. i dunno. #sleep maybe. stop taking the birth control maybe. talk to my councilor monday definitely. give her an insane rant abt how im definitely not #bipolar lol i think ive got a point. but i go back and forth idk. it doesn't really matter. i just find it interesting #sigh. remember when i had time to draw? remember when i wanted to draw? now im just tired #whatever. ill sleep and feel better. get my executives to function maybe. maybe. but probably not #i did cut off like 3 inches of hair on impulse. got that chin length depression haircut. classic #unrelated