#i feel like i never actually developed any sort of teenie desire to explore sexuality which would probably have been healthy

[girl6000]

i just saved u guys from reading the most tmi post in the world u dont know how good uve got it with me

#p #and i was just saying shit for the sake of talking but anyway #and u know what as im typing this!! i will not be censored here goes #i was talking about how i realized im bi a few months ago when i went my entire teenage life thinking i was a lesbian #but now recently and by recently i mean since june/july #ive come to the conclusion that actually the reason i even believed to not be attracted to men was bc i went on birth control at 13 #and at 13 i was still kinda on the fence of if i would ever like men or not. but bc of hormonal developments that are influenced by bc #i feel like i never actually developed any sort of teenie desire to explore sexuality which would probably have been healthy #and so i decided that i probably liked girls only bc i never had a crush on anyone or liked anyone but i did know that i enjoyed spending #time with girl friends and i guess bc they were m #my friend group nd i felt safe with them i could then develop crushes on them #and i never had any guy friends to do that with and since any kind of hormonal teenie sexuality developments were stunted it never occured #to me that i could like guys too #and what im getting to is that since i got off birth control this year i started finding random people attractive #and feeling like i actually would like to have a relationship or whatever #but i could be overanalyzing and be completely wrong about this #anyway so i guess ur not being spared but at least its in the tags now #if ur still reading this i have feelings for you #and actually i do believe going off bc was the best thing i could have done my depression has halved and i have close to no migraine attacks #i feel better in every way and im so so glad i dont have to take it anymore #if u think about it its kinda fucked up that they put children on that shit for the crime of havin acne